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I Always Have to Manage By Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 213 People

    I'll Cope - I Have To.

    I go through all of life's crisis by myself. Each of my siblings is constantly moaning and whinging about how busy they are, how tired, how everything they are to my mother... that's all I ever hear from her. I feel so down because I'm the one who lives by myself and has no...
    WishIwasHappy WishIwasHappy 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 22, 2007

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    The Day Where Change Must Be Made.

    I am a college student, discontinued 2 courses such as Nursing and Medical Technology and now back on track to take Computer Science. It's really hard to think that you spent 4 years of searching what you wanted and then ending up in a situation where you need to choose whether...
    msmhage msmhage 18-21, F Nov 5, 2011

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    That's What It Comes Down To

    I trust no one, depend on no one. If I need something, I usually get it myself. I never ask for anything, and rarely accept hand-outs. I have been given "gifts" before, and later was expected to do something for the person in return, or they lorded it over me for years after. I...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2010

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    Some people have parents,

    some people parent themselves.I grew up thinking I was strong. Being lonely as a child will do one of two things to your ego. Throw in some encounters with police, drug abuse, divorce between parents, other kinds of abuse, yadda yadda. But being homeless really changes your...
    Joeowleyes Joeowleyes 18-21, M Dec 15, 2013

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    Nearly Always

    My husband is away so much that I have to manage by myself. I have never relied on anyone else for anything anyway! I would never ask my parents or anyone in my family for help or money. I won't even rely on my friends for things like that! It can be tough sometimes but I think...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2008

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    Definitely....

    Maybe it is my fault as perhaps I come across as happy, well adjusted and in control. I think sometimes you can do a job such as mine where you are caring for children and people automatically see you as strong. I am not at all, I feel so alone in all areas of my life, especially...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 4, 2011

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    Always

    i used to try and get help.but i don`t like people who say it can`t be done,or gripe to much.so i end up doing it by myself.
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Apr 20, 2009

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    We Do It Because We Have Too

    noone cares really about me unless they want something they they come to me and that is starting to end as i have had it and saying no more often
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Apr 10, 2012

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    The Only Way I Know

    I always have to manage by myself. It started in my childhood, when I learned that my parents where too busy to pay atention to me most of the time, and I was expected to manage things on my own and to be an example for my little sister and brother, even when I was 5... Then I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    I Was Born Alone

    I came to this world by myself, thus I live like that. Never trusting or relying on anyone. In my professional aspect I am a great team player and I work well with a group. In my personal life I seldomly trust people. My family and partner are the only people I can rely on and...
    cleargerman cleargerman 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2012

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    Alone In This

    I`ve been thinking that maybe, just maybe I could allow myself to talk to someone about a few things, just to start to let it out. So I was thinking I could talk to my only friend, maybe it`s a good start. But I just found out she is having these huge problems, and of course I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 30, 2012

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    I Can Run And Find Happiness In That Running

    More often than not, I have to figure things out on my own. Things will be driving me completely mad, and I will have absolutely no one to confide in. During this times I find myself crying a lot and letting the loneliness envelope me; however, if I can, I need to remind myself...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 29, 2012

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    I Used To Think That

    I used to believe that I was a "lone ranger", having to walk through life alone. But that is so far from the truth now, its funny how fast things can change in such a sort time....
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M Dec 12, 2010

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    "Deal With It!"

    Over the years, I learned to rely on myself to deal with life without expecting help, yet I have to provide help.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 25, 2011

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    I have cut myself before and i felt good. I am not proud but this is the truth. I am not a masochist. Deep inside of me there is a huge pain. When i cut myself i forget 'the' pain...
    michaniel michaniel 16-17, T 4 days ago

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    I always have my phone with me .. There's not a day I don't have my phone ... My phone is bae <3 && I love him :)
    eatmyasslikeacupcake eatmyasslikeacupcake 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    My 3 year training contract ends in July. There is another trainee in the same year as me, but I feel as though he is more liked than me, because he's more of a 'man' than me...
    ShaunSAP ShaunSAP 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I am that daughter, wife, sister, mom... I have always been the one to take care of everyone, it has always been my role. I'm the strong one in my family, I have 7 older brothers...
    Backbone44 Backbone44 41-45, F Mar 4

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    my leg is killing me i haven't cut myself like that in awhile an i.....didn't wanna stop i wanted to keep going deeper an deeper.... but i didn't want anyone to find out so i...
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I've cut before. But I'm going to stop. I've always known it would do nothing but hurt me more, no matter how good it felt. Even though I've always known I should stop, I've had a...
    Darkanddesolate Darkanddesolate 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I run a class to help other kids in my school with bullying. I help them when there upset dealing with bullying even help them stop self harming because there's a lot of them that...
    brookebam brookebam 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I can't get over u...you left ur mark on me...I want ur hot love & emotion endlessly...Coz ur a good girl & u know it...u act so different around me... I'll always remember him...
    MelySa88 MelySa88 26-30, F Feb 26

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    But others I don't really know what I am. There have been others at school that thought that I was hardcore and say that" I'm bad as ****." Well I did do cool things, I was really...
    awsome2 awsome2 18-21, T Mar 13

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    I've cut myself before, I know that some of you think that I'm sick and there's something wrong with me, but it's just the way I am. It's like how some people can't help being gay...
    wolfgirl202 wolfgirl202 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    How boring would life be if we closed our minds to new experiences, people, things? I keep an open mind and an open heart and I'm always open for suggestions!
    Katile Katile 36-40, F a week ago

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    I am both the victim and the abuser. they say blades are dangerous, my thoughts have hurt me more than blades ever could. I cut to feel, I to live, to breathe, to survive this...
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have cut once. I was depressed af and couldn't take it anymore I tried every thing you'd think of but nothing worked out so I thought it'd be better if I was dead... and I cut...
    turki2550 turki2550 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    She was on EP, and I always enjoyed her stories. I commented when I could. Then she became upset, removed her photos, and I was planning to write her a little note. Tell her how...
    qcrash qcrash 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    I am beginning to hate it. I like to have fun and make other people optimistic but I would also like to be taken serious when I show my darker side. I don't want to have to smile...
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M Feb 26

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    I started self-harming when i was 9 years old... its gone downhill since then and im bullied at school, home and everywhere else. I have no friends and no one to talk to. i went to...
    hannahbananahammock hannahbananahammock 16-17, F Mar 5

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    I cut my stomach again but I did this so I wouldn't cut my leg. I have a problem. Someone help me.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    I want to die so badly! I just don't want to be here. I can't breath ever. Everyone lies and jokes about me. I am deeply depressed. I don't want to go talk to "someone special...
    Whitney4234 Whitney4234 22-25, F Mar 13

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    After supper I have to put on pair of pj pants feels so good to let my belly out and have stretchy pant on
    Chubbyhubby230 Chubbyhubby230 31-35, M Mar 17

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    I have done this a few times. My last job I worked nights and weekends. I would get bored. When you get bored you know what happens. They say an idle mind is the devils work shop...
    kmac72 kmac72 41-45, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    I have done this for the last two nights and it has felt so good. Last night I assed out in a food comma. Going for that again to night
    Chubbyhubby230 Chubbyhubby230 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    I haven't cut for years and I still have scars but you have to look carefully at them to see them
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I haven't cut in a year and a half. My scars are massive and they'll never go away. I wish they would. At the time I was cutting I didn't care about the scars it would leave. I...
    Lemons2000 Lemons2000 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I carry hand sanitizer on my Keychain. I use the flavor ones that have a smell to it.
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F Feb 26

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    Oh my.... I have a major crush on the LensCrafter's guy.... He helped me a few months ago.... And he remembered me when I came in today... He's so cute and so so very nice *sigh*
    Orangerocket Orangerocket 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 1

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    I have kept open mind to new ideas and experiences- as they say, a ship is safe in harbo, but that's not what ships are for. Accepting some level of risk in life is important. You...
    Zelaleme Zelaleme 46-50, F Mar 2

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    dad went to jail and my mom is never home I care for my sister and my brother so I have to stay strong
    boredgirl02 boredgirl02 13-15, F Mar 2

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    I haven't in quite some time I should again
    gc6000 gc6000 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 4

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