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I Always Have to Manage By Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 240 People

    I'll Cope - I Have To.

    I go through all of life's crisis by myself. Each of my siblings is constantly moaning and whinging about how busy they are, how tired, how everything they are to my mother... that's all I ever hear from her. I feel so down because I'm the one who lives by myself and has no...
    WishIwasHappy WishIwasHappy 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 22, 2007

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    We Do It Because We Have Too

    noone cares really about me unless they want something they they come to me and that is starting to end as i have had it and saying no more often
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Apr 10, 2012

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    It's the curse of the oldest child really-I was

    the trailblazer for my siblings growing up and never really shook the "I have to do this by myself" mentality. I felt like I had to force myself to be independent when I was terrified of failure and other people and all sorts of silly things. It's made me stronger as a person...
    SlushyAseSparkles SlushyAseSparkles 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    Alone In This

    I`ve been thinking that maybe, just maybe I could allow myself to talk to someone about a few things, just to start to let it out. So I was thinking I could talk to my only friend, maybe it`s a good start. But I just found out she is having these huge problems, and of course I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 30, 2012

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    The Day Where Change Must Be Made.

    I am a college student, discontinued 2 courses such as Nursing and Medical Technology and now back on track to take Computer Science. It's really hard to think that you spent 4 years of searching what you wanted and then ending up in a situation where you need to choose whether...
    msmhage msmhage 18-21, F Nov 5, 2011

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    Some people have parents,

    some people parent themselves.I grew up thinking I was strong. Being lonely as a child will do one of two things to your ego. Throw in some encounters with police, drug abuse, divorce between parents, other kinds of abuse, yadda yadda. But being homeless really changes your...
    Joeowleyes Joeowleyes 18-21, M Dec 15, 2013

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    Definitely....

    Maybe it is my fault as perhaps I come across as happy, well adjusted and in control. I think sometimes you can do a job such as mine where you are caring for children and people automatically see you as strong. I am not at all, I feel so alone in all areas of my life, especially...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 4, 2011

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    I Was Born Alone

    I came to this world by myself, thus I live like that. Never trusting or relying on anyone. In my professional aspect I am a great team player and I work well with a group. In my personal life I seldomly trust people. My family and partner are the only people I can rely on and...
    cleargerman cleargerman 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2012

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    "Deal With It!"

    Over the years, I learned to rely on myself to deal with life without expecting help, yet I have to provide help.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 25, 2011

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    I Can Run And Find Happiness In That Running

    More often than not, I have to figure things out on my own. Things will be driving me completely mad, and I will have absolutely no one to confide in. During this times I find myself crying a lot and letting the loneliness envelope me; however, if I can, I need to remind myself...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 29, 2012

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    Nearly Always

    My husband is away so much that I have to manage by myself. I have never relied on anyone else for anything anyway! I would never ask my parents or anyone in my family for help or money. I won't even rely on my friends for things like that! It can be tough sometimes but I think...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2008

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    I Used To Think That

    I used to believe that I was a "lone ranger", having to walk through life alone. But that is so far from the truth now, its funny how fast things can change in such a sort time....
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M Dec 12, 2010

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    That's What It Comes Down To

    I trust no one, depend on no one. If I need something, I usually get it myself. I never ask for anything, and rarely accept hand-outs. I have been given "gifts" before, and later was expected to do something for the person in return, or they lorded it over me for years after. I...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2010

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    Always

    i used to try and get help.but i don`t like people who say it can`t be done,or gripe to much.so i end up doing it by myself.
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Apr 20, 2009

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    The Only Way I Know

    I always have to manage by myself. It started in my childhood, when I learned that my parents where too busy to pay atention to me most of the time, and I was expected to manage things on my own and to be an example for my little sister and brother, even when I was 5... Then I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    I always have to be the strong one in my family. My parents have enough problems and I always have to give advice and can't show them that I'm sad. They shouldn't worry about me as...
    Sukisara Sukisara 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Hooo boy...YES!! YESSSS I DO!! yesterday I dreamed about me and my girl taking a hot bath with lots of bubbles but...she also managed to do some by her own ,the rest is too...
    yairdjudas999 yairdjudas999 16-17, M 1 Response May 20

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    I just had an interesting thought. Everyone always says that you should live for yourself because you can't depend on anybody else... I always thought that was ridiculous because I...
    Holdontothefire Holdontothefire 18-21, M 1 Response May 7

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    i always i have a lot on my mind....and i always feel like i have a lot to say .....like in the passed days.....what i have to say can fill thousands and thousands of pages...i'm...
    theoneyoullneverforget theoneyoullneverforget 18-21, F 1 Response May 16

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    If I poop myself I really want to stay in it all day but at home just isn't possible because I don't get enough time home alone at the moment so where could I go to poop myself and...
    Mushypanties12 Mushypanties12 18-21, M 2 Responses May 7

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    Dad where did you go? Mom now uses money for cigarettes Instead of food. I have 3 younger siblings. Who need a meal. Luckily for me I have made a deal. Get a job and be strong...
    ImperfectWeirdo ImperfectWeirdo 13-15, T 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I wish that I didn't have thoughts. Everyday I find my mind racing with thoughts and images and it gives me headaches. There's too much noise and I can't focus.I do what...
    BlackSeoul BlackSeoul 18-21, F May 14

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    this guy moved in next door. the whole time I'd go there in sexy outfits and we'd chat. he'd mention multiple times that he wasn't looking for a relationship and he'd flirt back...
    Caty747 Caty747 18-21, F 2 Responses May 2

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    About to poo myself should be a nice one :)
    Mushypanties12 Mushypanties12 18-21, M 4 Responses May 2

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    About to poo myself tonight for the first time!
    Twxlx Twxlx 18-21, M 8 Responses May 2

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    I lead a good life style, I enjoy my work, live in a nice house, I have my car, good friends with a social life holidays etc. To the world I am a fun loving single happy guy. So...
    bnigel bnigel 51-55 3 Responses May 3

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    I know I have a good boyfriend and he is amazing but. I don't know if I can live anymore. I'm always depressed and I don't want him to be around that. I cut my self from my waist...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 3 Responses May 3

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    I would love to pee myself but nobody seems to appreciate me
    peeingbikini peeingbikini 22-25, T May 12

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    Who wants me to poop myself? I will do it as soon as possible.
    Fatttylove Fatttylove 18-21, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    so I cut myself all the way from the middle of my torso to my ankle. but now I'm really dissapointed in my self
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F May 2

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    Getting mixed feelings from my crush. A while ago I told my crush how I felt in a letter, her response is in one of my old posts, the letter starts "Hey there." But any way, it has...
    marchdan marchdan 16-17, M May 7

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    There's a waitress at a bar. Her smile always makes me feel warm even though it may be put upon for the sake of tips. I always think every time I see her how I'd like to be the...
    masterless1 masterless1 31-35, M May 9

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    I was so skinny, flat stomach and a size zero not long ago. But I love eating and drinking wine. It has caught up with me for sure! I've definitely let myself go. Let's see how far...
    missimo missimo 26-30, F 2 Responses May 11

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    Like many people I use my phone for work and play. My work email is on my phone so I'm always at work I guess. I never realized how much my phone was a part of me until I rushed...
    secretdesires78 secretdesires78 36-40, F 2 Responses May 6

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    I have done it few times for the common reasons 1-wanting to feel anything if that feeling is pain. 2- being angry at myself or others n it was my way of letting it out. I used to...
    candles700 candles700 22-25, F May 6

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    So I'm new to this app but I've always been really into it, I'm really desperate right now and would love someone to talk to?
    poopalot123 poopalot123 18-21, F 10 Responses May 8

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    I always pee and poop my pants, I never got potty trained and I love it
    IWantToBeTortured IWantToBeTortured 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11

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    Ouch. Lots of ouch today. I don't know if it's because I'm fat, but I keep getting the worst tummy aches. The right side of my tummy is always hurting, all the time, and it gets...
    parrotbay parrotbay 31-35, F 1 Response May 11

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    Always I've not sat on a toliet since the age of 13 my toilet is my underwear
    ILoveToBeTortured ILoveToBeTortured 18-21, F 8 Responses May 13

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    It never fails. I always wake up needing to go pee very badly. I have a weak bladder and it's getting in the way of my life.
    weakbladderAsh weakbladderAsh 22-25, F 4 Responses May 16

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    yes!!! i can remember my dreams clearly almost every night too. its creepy. sometimes i dream of dead people, ghosts, and me killing people. and other times i dream of crazy...
    freebirdkimmi freebirdkimmi 22-25, F 2 Responses May 21

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    hay there I always get a really good songs but when I get a pepper to write it I forget every single word I had say on my head
    ahmad1maya ahmad1maya 16-17, M 1 Response May 23

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    Goodness why do I have to always be the one that says hi or goodnight.
    adriana0102 adriana0102 16-17, F 2 days ago