I Always Have to Manage By Myself

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    Maybe it is my fault as perhaps I come across as happy, well adjusted and in control. I think sometimes you can do a job such as mine where you are caring for children and people automatically see you as strong. I am not at all, I feel so alone in all areas of my life, especially...
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    3 Responses Jul 4, 2011

    It's the curse of the oldest child really-I was

    the trailblazer for my siblings growing up and never really shook the "I have to do this by myself" mentality. I felt like I had to force myself to be independent when I was terrified of failure and other people and all sorts of silly things. It's made me stronger as a person...
    ThunderWaffles ThunderWaffles
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 29, 2015

    Alone In This

    I`ve been thinking that maybe, just maybe I could allow myself to talk to someone about a few things, just to start to let it out. So I was thinking I could talk to my only friend, maybe it`s a good start. But I just found out she is having these huge problems, and of course I...
    deleted deleted
    Oct 30, 2012

    I'll Cope - I Have To.

    I go through all of life's crisis by myself. Each of my siblings is constantly moaning and whinging about how busy they are, how tired, how everything they are to my mother... that's all I ever hear from her. I feel so down because I'm the one who lives by myself and has no...
    WishIwasHappy WishIwasHappy
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jul 22, 2007

    I Used To Think That

    I used to believe that I was a "lone ranger", having to walk through life alone. But that is so far from the truth now, its funny how fast things can change in such a sort time....
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp
    26-30, M
    Dec 12, 2010

    We Do It Because We Have Too

    noone cares really about me unless they want something they they come to me and that is starting to end as i have had it and saying no more often
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    Apr 10, 2012

    I Can Run And Find Happiness In That Running

    More often than not, I have to figure things out on my own. Things will be driving me completely mad, and I will have absolutely no one to confide in. During this times I find myself crying a lot and letting the loneliness envelope me; however, if I can, I need to remind myself...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 29, 2012


    i used to try and get help.but i don`t like people who say it can`t be done,or gripe to much.so i end up doing it by myself.
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself
    1 Response Apr 20, 2009

    That's What It Comes Down To

    I trust no one, depend on no one. If I need something, I usually get it myself. I never ask for anything, and rarely accept hand-outs. I have been given "gifts" before, and later was expected to do something for the person in return, or they lorded it over me for years after. I...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Nov 3, 2010

    I Was Born Alone

    I came to this world by myself, thus I live like that. Never trusting or relying on anyone. In my professional aspect I am a great team player and I work well with a group. In my personal life I seldomly trust people. My family and partner are the only people I can rely on and...
    cleargerman cleargerman
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 15, 2012

    Some people have parents,

    some people parent themselves.I grew up thinking I was strong. Being lonely as a child will do one of two things to your ego. Throw in some encounters with police, drug abuse, divorce between parents, other kinds of abuse, yadda yadda. But being homeless really changes your...
    Joeowleyes Joeowleyes
    22-25, M
    Dec 15, 2013

    The Only Way I Know

    I always have to manage by myself. It started in my childhood, when I learned that my parents where too busy to pay atention to me most of the time, and I was expected to manage things on my own and to be an example for my little sister and brother, even when I was 5... Then I...
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    1 Response Oct 29, 2012

    The Day Where Change Must Be Made.

    I am a college student, discontinued 2 courses such as Nursing and Medical Technology and now back on track to take Computer Science. It's really hard to think that you spent 4 years of searching what you wanted and then ending up in a situation where you need to choose whether...
    msmhage msmhage
    18-21, F
    Nov 5, 2011

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