I Always Mask My Unhappiness

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    I Thought I Wouldnt Have To

    i finally told my parents about my depression. but they also unfortunatly found out about my cutting! they took me to the doctor and he said that if i did it again id be hospitalized! so here i am once again having to mask my sadness. my mom says that iv been looking preaty happy...
    brayden55 brayden55
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 14, 2011

    I'm Scared to Open Up.

    I hate telling people why I am sad because I don't want them to be mean to me when I'm sad. b/c then I'll just get hurt more. I usually just lie to aquantences when I'm sad. They'll be like "how are you?" and I'll just smile back and say "good." or if...
    minnie22mouse minnie22mouse
    18-21, F
    10 Responses Nov 6, 2008

    I Try To...

    What good does it do to show it?
    drcynic drcynic
    26-30, M
    5 Responses Nov 7, 2008


    I've been depressed for quite some time now I'm going on my 3rd year in college now wow that sounds weird to say, well i just finished my second to be exact...and i was diagnosed with depression way before that like in high school freshman or sophomore year, even though i was...
    faith16 faith16
    May 13, 2011

    I'm at work, still pretty early

    and I'm the only person here. In a couple of hours, my colleagues would arrive and I'll go back to my 'usual self'. In office, I'm a different person altogether. I laugh when I'm not supposed to, crack corny jokes and tease my colleagues. In other words, I don a mask. Wonder how...
    Sicknconfused Sicknconfused
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 21, 2014

    Its Easier to Hide...

    ... then no one can ever really 'get' you.... its easier than everyone constantly worrying, or worse, not worrying at all because you are always sad... I have just started uni, and no one here knows how unhappy I am.  I've always done it, but here it makes everything much...
    sapphiresky sapphiresky
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 12, 2007

    I'm so unhappy. I have no voice.

    No say. No authority. I do what is expected of me although it is never good enough. I stay quiet. I don't think I can do this anymore. I don't do anything right. I'm a bad wife. I'm a bad mom. I'm a bad driver. My job isn't good enough. I am criticized in everything I do and it...
    dayerin83 dayerin83
    31-35, F
    May 11, 2014

    "Nothing" "I Am Fine"

    I always lie to people. They ask me, "What's wrong?" And my answer is always "Nothing" even though there is something wrong. I try to put a mask on me. Whenever I feel sad, I will always smile, even my heart is crying out loud. When they see my face, my upset face, or sad face...
    TulipsLover TulipsLover
    18-21, F
    Oct 14, 2013

    Behind the Mask

    I wear many many mask!!! I got one, it seems, just about for every occasion!!! and why not !!! Don't blame me or say I should be more upbeat about my life, your not living it!!!! Just because you feel like most people create their problems, they just need a positive outlook...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 9, 2009


    I want to kill myself. I am so stupid. I don't know how I can go on, especially through my hard college classes. I can't believe its the beginning of school year and I'm already screwing up. I want to kill myself now, before the year starts (continues into middle of year). And I...
    faith16 faith16
    Sep 18, 2013

    I Do

    i am always masking my unhappiness at work , at home , . in life . so i now put my mask back on .
    deleted deleted
    Mar 28, 2010

    A Reason To Wear A Mask

    Seeing others unhappy brings me down, and i don't want to bring others down! Showing sadness is a sign of weakness, and i don't want to appear weak. Admitting that i'm sad means facing up to the unhappiness in my life from which i hide, and i don't want to face up to it! I...
    jerrychap jerrychap
    22-25, M
    Jan 16, 2010


    Most of the things that have made or continue to make me unhappy are things that I have to deal with. Since this is the case, I never saw the point in telling people my woes...if its something I that I have to handle alone, why burden anyone else with complaints? Maybe its wrong...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21
    22-25, F
    11 Responses Nov 7, 2008


    I don't numb my happiness... Happiness can only come from within and these ever present obstacles in my life I will overcome eventually with or without a mask.
    Marowit Marowit
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 26, 2009

    No one knows how depressed

    and sad I really are and how much I hate the most of people in my life.
    afreespirit afreespirit
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 25, 2014

    Painted Smile

    Pretending to be happy is getting harder to do. I love my kids and my mom and I do my best to "be happy" around them, but painting on a smile every day isn't as easy as it used to be. It doesn't help that the last 3 guys that I really, truly loved didn't feel that I was worthy...
    Sephiriel Sephiriel
    46-50, F
    1 Response Mar 14, 2013

    No Need to Worry

    I don't like letting on how I really feal, sometimes it's simply tiring, and other times I really don't want to worry anyone. I would prefer that people think I'm happier than I am, that way they can concentrate on their problems, and not busy themselves trying to help me. On...
    ChristineAnn ChristineAnn
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 21, 2008

    I take pills because they think there is

    something worng with me. They don't know I am depressed. The pills don't help. they make me lose my appetite, so I never eat breakfast and I only ever eat half my dinner. I stopped cutting myself, until the school decided that taking away everything I love was a good idea. They...
    LoWKeyDePRessED LoWKeyDePRessED
    22-25, F
    Jan 19, 2016
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