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I Always Mess Up the Good Things I Have In Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 199 People

    Don't Let Me Lose You

    I don't want to mess this up, and I almost have already. So I'm keeping things slow, and not bringing up the things I know will break us. I know what we have is a thin thread. I don't know if I can weave it into a rope, or a chain made of titanium. But I'd love to. I'd love to do...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 3, 2008

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    Always Pushing Away

    I always PUSH away what is good in my life.  I in fact just pushed away one of the most and best people that could have walked into my life.  Why I do this I have no clue.  How I do it I have no clue.  I kill myself with it.  Maybe somewhere deep down inside I do not find...
    SombreAmaranthineAmour SombreAmaranthineAmour 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2011

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    I Feel Like I'll Always Be A Nobody.

    I always say or do something that always messes up something good in life. I've cried myself to sleep numerous nights in a row, hoping something good will happen.I am 17 years old, but I'm not perfect. I hate myself and everything around me. I guess I need some sort of support...
    frewbear121010 frewbear121010 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    It's Reached The Stage Where I Want It To Stop.

    I really am my own worst enemy. Over the years I've self destructed all the good things I was both given, and worked hard to attain. Relationships, job opportunities, it's a long list, but now I'm 30, I can see a pervasive pattern, and I want to try and stop it...
    stereoman30 stereoman30 26-30 3 Responses May 5, 2011

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    I Fxxx Things Up Also....

    I fxxx up things also beause I have been hurt so muh and emotionally destroyed be others comments and actions that when someone gets close to me or I find someone that I like or love then it ultamatly gets fxxxed up..... self dectructive crap happens...I prod at itand prod at it...
    buttercups1966 buttercups1966 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 21, 2009

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    Same Old Same Old

    My story is no different from that of anyone here. I too manage to screw up good things and then suffer agonizing pain from it. I recently hurt and angered my two best human friends. One even moved out. I have cried almost everyday in the past week. I have been quiet at work...
    totallyworthlessperson totallyworthlessperson 46-50, M Oct 6, 2013

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    I Guess It's Luck

    you can say that. For instance School. I wanted a Career in writing. It sucks Now because I have job thats Just a Job Writing is my passion just wished I could Succeed in it, Had the chance and blew it.
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 9, 2008

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    I Just Did

    in a big way.....i'm sorry. you know who you are. i betrayed trust of someone who didn't deserve it....i'm a really terrible person.
    semihippiechic semihippiechic 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2010

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    When I Self Destruct

    My story is repetitive, replaying every few years with different people who love me and who I love. I can't seem to know how to love in ways women want to be loved. It seems as if I choose the healthiest, happiest, and most beautiful girls and like a cancer I slowly kill their...
    bornwithoutit bornwithoutit 31-35 Jan 30, 2011

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    What did I do wrong? Right

    now it feels like everything I have worked for is just falling apart. I can't go back to university next year due to financial issues, so I'll more than likely lose my hard-won position in my screenwriting class. Just this morning my mother told me I'll have to move back in with...
    H2ik H2ik 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 4, 2014

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    I Do

    It is as though there is a self-destruct addiction.  I am blessed with so many good things in life and I will inevitably destroy each and everyone of them, and in a way that there will be irrepairable damage.  I feel that I don't warrant them, I feel that they...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 8, 2008

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    Why Do I Always Feel Like It Is My Fault?

    That is a very easy question for me to answer. It is my fault 99.9% of the time. I always manage to screw up good things. I recently had a roommate move out that was actually causing changes for the good in my life. Naturally, i had to go and screw that up! The pain caused...
    totallyworthlessperson totallyworthlessperson 46-50, M Oct 7, 2013

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