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I Always Mess Up the Good Things I Have In Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 210 People

    When I Self Destruct

    My story is repetitive, replaying every few years with different people who love me and who I love. I can't seem to know how to love in ways women want to be loved. It seems as if I choose the healthiest, happiest, and most beautiful girls and like a cancer I slowly kill their...
    bornwithoutit bornwithoutit 31-35 Jan 30, 2011

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    Don't Let Me Lose You

    I don't want to mess this up, and I almost have already. So I'm keeping things slow, and not bringing up the things I know will break us. I know what we have is a thin thread. I don't know if I can weave it into a rope, or a chain made of titanium. But I'd love to. I'd love to do...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 3, 2008

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    It's Reached The Stage Where I Want It To Stop.

    I really am my own worst enemy. Over the years I've self destructed all the good things I was both given, and worked hard to attain. Relationships, job opportunities, it's a long list, but now I'm 30, I can see a pervasive pattern, and I want to try and stop it...
    stereoman30 stereoman30 26-30 3 Responses May 5, 2011

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    Hi, I'm a 14 year old female.

    I don't know why but I have a tendency to mess things up. About 3 months ago one of my close friends instagram account was hacked. The hacker posted mean and personal things about her. She messaged me and 3 other girls ,who are in our close knit of friends, panicked and afraid...
    polutedmind polutedmind 13-15, F May 3

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    What did I do wrong? Right

    now it feels like everything I have worked for is just falling apart. I can't go back to university next year due to financial issues, so I'll more than likely lose my hard-won position in my screenwriting class. Just this morning my mother told me I'll have to move back in with...
    H2ik H2ik 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 4, 2014

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    I Fxxx Things Up Also....

    I fxxx up things also beause I have been hurt so muh and emotionally destroyed be others comments and actions that when someone gets close to me or I find someone that I like or love then it ultamatly gets fxxxed up..... self dectructive crap happens...I prod at itand prod at it...
    buttercups1966 buttercups1966 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 21, 2009

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    I Guess It's Luck

    you can say that. For instance School. I wanted a Career in writing. It sucks Now because I have job thats Just a Job Writing is my passion just wished I could Succeed in it, Had the chance and blew it.
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 9, 2008

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    I Do

    It is as though there is a self-destruct addiction.  I am blessed with so many good things in life and I will inevitably destroy each and everyone of them, and in a way that there will be irrepairable damage.  I feel that I don't warrant them, I feel that they...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 8, 2008

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    Why Do I Always Feel Like It Is My Fault?

    That is a very easy question for me to answer. It is my fault 99.9% of the time. I always manage to screw up good things. I recently had a roommate move out that was actually causing changes for the good in my life. Naturally, i had to go and screw that up! The pain caused...
    totallyworthlessperson totallyworthlessperson 46-50, M Oct 7, 2013

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    I Just Did

    in a big way.....i'm sorry. you know who you are. i betrayed trust of someone who didn't deserve it....i'm a really terrible person.
    semihippiechic semihippiechic 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2010

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    Always Pushing Away

    I always PUSH away what is good in my life.  I in fact just pushed away one of the most and best people that could have walked into my life.  Why I do this I have no clue.  How I do it I have no clue.  I kill myself with it.  Maybe somewhere deep down inside I do not find...
    SombreAmaranthineAmour SombreAmaranthineAmour 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2011

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    Fated2BJaded Fated2BJaded 41-45, F 1 Response May 2

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    Same Old Same Old

    My story is no different from that of anyone here. I too manage to screw up good things and then suffer agonizing pain from it. I recently hurt and angered my two best human friends. One even moved out. I have cried almost everyday in the past week. I have been quiet at work...
    totallyworthlessperson totallyworthlessperson 46-50, M 1 Response Oct 6, 2013

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    I Feel Like I'll Always Be A Nobody.

    I always say or do something that always messes up something good in life. I've cried myself to sleep numerous nights in a row, hoping something good will happen.I am 17 years old, but I'm not perfect. I hate myself and everything around me. I guess I need some sort of support...
    frewbear121010 frewbear121010 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    lovemylife2210 lovemylife2210 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    A cold beer, some good music, and some great company....that's all I need
    positivevibes23 positivevibes23 36-40, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    At this very damn moment, life is fu.c.king perfect.😊I 💓 it 😁 I hope y'all are having the good afternoon. 😚
    SunshineH13 SunshineH13 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I wish I had less, Truly I find the less I have the happier I am and I appreciate the smallest things that sometimes others don't even notice.
    netnomad netnomad 46-50, M 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Small things mean the most! A hug, a smile, sharing a joke, going for a walk - things with people you love!
    CaffeineJunky CaffeineJunky 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    One day, during an evening class for adults, the psychology Teacher entered the class and told students, “Let’s all play a game!” “ What Game?” The Teacher asked one of...
    egoisticwizard egoisticwizard 22-25, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm that type of girl who gets extremely excited over the small things. Yes, the small things matters the most to me! =)
    Poet1callyDr1ven Poet1callyDr1ven 41-45, F 4 days ago

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    It can be the most random thing ever. Large or small, doesn't matter to me at all. Someone might have a little Hello Kitty charm hanging from a backpack. I will think, "OMIGOSH! I...
    AKLady15 AKLady15 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I am sad about a friend ship that I think has ended before it really began it was not enything she did it is me I think I have fell in love with her it didn't mean to happen I didn...
    susangoga susangoga 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    Nothin like a good morning workout 💪 to fix all your problems and put you in a goodddd morning mood. I hope everyone here on ep is having a gm as well, I wish you all a healthy...
    SunshineH13 SunshineH13 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    And when they end, they take other good things with it. Let me explain....let's say you always loved something for a very long time: certain music, activities, etc. And you...
    cajuncocoa cajuncocoa 56-60, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I just broke up with my boyfriend on Friday for the thousandth time and I'm pretty sure it's really over. it's been more than a year but it's been a rocky year and I'm pregnant now...
    reynanv reynanv 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    There are fewer things in life that give me more pleasure than to be sat round the table with between one and three friends or relatives, having a good laugh and decent...
    TheBookAddict TheBookAddict 36-40, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I appreciate my life, period. I once saw an old tramp with his grey skin, thick with ashy dirt, long matted grey beard, long matted grey hair, dirty track pants, dirty shirt not...
    Teamouse Teamouse 26-30, F a week ago

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    my son has been asking me to come to work with me for a while now. so I brought him with me today. we have been having a blast and he is a great help also. good call son, we should...
    Serendipitydoda Serendipitydoda 46-50, M Jul 25

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    Decluttering the mind is always a great thing. Breathe in...breathe out.
    iCuriousBabe iCuriousBabe 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 24

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    its a constant battle. i have held things in so long that words and thoughts hemorrhage out of me like blood from a gaping wound. its not too bad when its just minor nonsense...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M Jul 24

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    I have started a blog that addresses these simple things in life that are often taken for granted. It's on tumblr because I'm not anticipating that too many people will look into...
    underlyinghonesty underlyinghonesty 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 24

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    Like women! NO! But seriously, what could be better than watching a sunrise or sunset, seeing the smile on a kid's face when you give a small inexpensive present, the rain on your...
    DejaVu101 DejaVu101 56-60, M 5 Responses Jul 23

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    Good morning all you lovely people out there in EP land!!! Also good afternoon and goodnight depending on where you are!! I hope everyone is having a fabulous day!!
    nstar1983 nstar1983 31-35, F Jul 23

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    I am a talkative person but a lot of the time I have a really bad case of word vomit. It sucks royally because sometimes it can put me in a whole and once I get going I can't stop...
    chrisscott515 chrisscott515 22-25, F Jul 21

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    Things are to complex in this PC society we live in today. Why cant people mind there own business and cherish the things in there life. Enjoy the small stuff people take for...
    Averageguy41011 Averageguy41011 41-45, M 7 Responses Jul 19

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    Well not sure how good it really was but I sure felt a lot of emotions. I know I am better then he treats me. So it is time to move on. I am sad even though I know it's for the...
    Ipleadthe5th Ipleadthe5th 41-45, F 12 Responses