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I Always Regret Having An Abortion

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    Arielle My Baby.

    I felt like everything was ruined, I had had the worst year ever, my sister went off the rails, I failed a course I desperately wanted to finish by helping my mum cope with the antics of my sister, I couldn't find a good job, I had become dependant of my boyfriend and was living...
    Simone19 Simone19 18-21 4 Responses May 8, 2013

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    I've been avoiding to write about this subject,

    but here goes. I regret having an abortion, because I feel like I hurt the father of my child to the core. With plenty of therapy and prayer I am better and I know I am forgiven so that alone is a relief. If I ever happen to get pregnant in the future, that wouldn't be an option...
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    This past summer when my boyfriend

    and I went down to Ohio to visit my family, we stopped at the cemetery where most of my passed-on relatives are buried. My mom had a little sister who was stillborn back in the 60's, and my grandfather planted a crab apple tree next to her grave. We picked one of the apples...
    NymphetamineGirlEclipse NymphetamineGirlEclipse 22-25, F Feb 5

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    The Day I Lost My Baby!!

    I'm 15 now and I don't care what anyone thinks about but yes I had an abortion and it was and still is the worst pain I have ever gone through in my life so far, my baby was conceived on August 12th and when I found out I was on top of the world and for the next few weeks...
    May8th2013 May8th2013 16-17, F 9 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    I am currently 26 years old

    and have a 2 year old child. I had an abortion when I was 18 years old and a senior in high school. At the time I was so terrified of anyone besides my boyfriend (who I am now married to) finding out I did not seek any guidance and scheduled an abortion. I refused to think of...
    Paige6 Paige6 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 8

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    If I Could Go Back In Time

    I was 13 when I found out I was pregnant. I thought I had a stomach bug. 'You're pregnant' said the doctor to me. I was mostly shocked at first, I'd only had sex once. It lasted 30 seconds. Everyone was doing it, and of course that doesn't justify it but it gave my boyfriend...
    summ3rchild summ3rchild 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    He Forced Me To Do It.

    At eighteen, I found out that I was pregnant...and it was the happiest time of my life. I quit smoking, drinking, everything. I also found out at two weeks. The father pressured me into having an abortion that I didn't want. I don't have anyone to talk to about it. I still have...
    ZombieSeduction ZombieSeduction 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    My Road To Forgiveness

    Thanks to everyone here at the expirece project, I'm starting to learn alot of things about life. Most important forgiveness. I have read everyones comments to my story while also reading there's. I have also done research and many other things. I am a writer I love to write so I...
    Dancer7921 Dancer7921 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 16, 2013

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    I Wish I Kept My Baby

    I was 9 weeks. i was holding the very thing i want more then anything in my life, right there in my uterus. i loved that little soon to be human. i wasnt even showing and yet i stood there everyday in the mirror, looking for some sign of a bump, proof that it was there. I yearn...
    Winniebug13 Winniebug13 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 7, 2013

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    Missing My Baby Girl

    I cannot cope with the choice that I made because it wasn't my choice. I got pregnant in my senior year of hs when I was 16 turning 17. August 26 was the date the doctor counted my weeks but I knew the day my angel was conceived. September 7th. I had been with my boyfriend for 1...
    August26MyHeart August26MyHeart 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 18, 2012

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    Time To Heal

    Please bear with me as this is my first time doing anything like this. I had my abortion 11 months ago and everyday I think about" What if?" Im 21 and the mother of two precious little girls. I think everyday what if I had aborted one of them. How they light up my life. I try to...
    myangel3114 myangel3114 22-25, F Sep 21, 2013

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    Abortion, Religion, Hell..

    I joined today because I can't stop crying and hating myself for a decision I made two years ago. My boyfriend and I of 3 months got pregnant and my l life spun out from under me. I was 24, and I wanted to keep my child. My boyfriend was even supportive. It was trying to tell my...
    xxoj xxoj 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    The Moment That Will Never Stop Haunting Me

    In October 2009 I had a date with my then boyfriend. We went to see 500 Days of Summer at the cinema and then we went to his place after. We all know what came next... Ten weeks later, my period was two weeks late. My friend said I may be pregnant. I laughed it off saying that it...
    happydays0 happydays0 26-30, F 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    I had an abortion 20 years ago

    and have always regretted it. My story is this. I got married at 19 and was very happy had my first son at 23 and he is beautiful now 21. Six months later I found out I was pregnant again. Although it wasn't planned I was happy enough. I asked my husband if he was ok with it and...
    keelina01 keelina01 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    My abortion when i was 14 had made me grow up

    fast i am still with the same guy 4 years on and were in such a good place. I feel like i want to now have a baby and settle down
    laurendown95 laurendown95 18-21, F Feb 28

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    I think I have depression following my abortion

    just over a year ago and I don't know what to do. I've tried talking to my doctor, visiting a councillor, speaking to friends and my boyfriend, and looking at support sites online but I feel like I'm on an endless cycle of feeling ok and accepting what I did, then a couple of...
    hbrooks91 hbrooks91 22-25, F 2 Responses May 30

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    Regrets

    i have had 5 abortions which is the horrible shameful secret i can never tell anyone, i was 18 when my mother died we had a very hard upbringing, abusive both mentally and physically and just really very sad. I moved away and discovered sex and drinking and started seeing someone...
    megaball megaball 31-35, F 13 Responses Sep 10, 2009

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    Always And Forever, No More Regrets

    I posted a story here called Always And Forever Not Acceptable. I refused to accept that I was going to forever regret my abortion. Especially not having any knowledge of where this regret was coming from. I've been doing some research on abortions and healing for almost a year...
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2013

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    So today is my step sons 4th birthday,

    exciting I know! It's amazing to watch him everyday and see how much he's grown, how much his vocabulary has grown. It's crazy to look back and think when I first met him he was so shy and now he comes in to our bedroom in the morning and helps me pick out my outfits. I went...
    kay5262 kay5262 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    17 Years Later

    Late in January 1995 I was date-raped at a party by a boy who I rather fancied...He used a condom and it broke, he told me that I had better not get pregnant and then went to go drink with his friends, leaving me crying in a corner of someone I don't know's house, when I composed...
    angelmisty angelmisty 31-35, F 7 Responses Mar 21, 2012

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    My Excuses

    hello. i always said that when i would get pregnant is because God thinks its the right time, but it happened and i thought the time wasn't right, at the time. the father was a friend who i would hook up with when i felt lonely. i tried to get pregnant before when i was in an...
    shewhowillremainnameless shewhowillremainnameless 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 21, 2013

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    This is one anniversary

    that I never wanted...(written Feb. 4, 2013 @ 9:23pm)Today is the 2nd anniversary of my last abortion. And sweet god and goddess above, I would do anything to change that. ='( Forgive the depressive mood of this post, but I just need to get it out. I've been busy all day, and...
    NymphetamineGirlEclipse NymphetamineGirlEclipse 22-25, F Feb 5

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    Confused.

    I will keep a long story short.I was 24 years old with little family and emmotional help, I was in debt and living in a unpleasent shared house after having lived overseas, my mother of whom was quite neglectfull gowing up moved to Spain when I was 20 and at the same time my Dad...
    peacepeaceroger peacepeaceroger 26-30 1 Response Apr 11, 2012

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    Now That I Am Finally A Mother

    I don't want to tell my whole story...but I'm sitting in this room listening to my 15 mo old baby breathing while sleeping in the monitor and I am in tears. I had two abortion (a year apart) TEN YEARS AGO and it still breaks my heart. I miss my babies every day and think about...
    6 Responses Jan 9, 2013

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    Statistics The Clinic Won't Tell You... And Healing

    The details of my abortion is not what I want to discuss here, if you are reading this it is fairly probable that you have had or are considering an abortion.  I am sure you have read other stories with details of feeling scared, lost, without choice and a plethora of other...
    rebecca001 rebecca001 26-30 1 Response Nov 24, 2011

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    Abortion Was the Worst Decision of My Life!

    I'll never forget the feeling of knowing i was pregnant and not being able to believe it everyone says that you just know as soon as its inside you and you do, but it took me almost 3 months to say anything. i think in the back of my mind i knew i wanted it so badly that i...
    AloneAndAfraid AloneAndAfraid 16-17, F 12 Responses Oct 4, 2009

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    In A Perfect World, You'd Still Be Here...

    I had my abortion Saturday. My boyfriend's being there and doing whatever I needed, from holding my stuff, or my hand, distracting me while sitting in the waiting room, supporting me in every decision, and being so strong, my emotional and physical rock, helped more than he'll...
    NymphetamineGirlEclipse NymphetamineGirlEclipse 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    I Have Regret

      I have had an abortion two and half weeks ago it has been really difficult on me. I really don't know how to be happy lately i can't help it. I feel like i'm the world's worst mother I KILLED MY CHILD. I was 4 months pregnant when i went into get the abortion done, its a...
    TryingtoHeal20 TryingtoHeal20 18-21, F 10 Responses Aug 18, 2010

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    I Thought It Was Going To Be A Life Time Of Love

    When I found out i was pregnant i was so happy. All I could do was smile, It was unfortinuate that my baby father was not ready and after contaplanting my options, I began to sink, realizing that neither of us was ready broke my heart and all i could do is cry. I was always the...
    Fiestyy Fiestyy 18-21 10 Responses Nov 5, 2010

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    Regrets

    i have had 5 abortions which is the horrible shameful secret i can never tell anyone, i was 18 when my mother died we had a very hard upbringing, abusive both mentally and physically and just really very sad. I moved away and discovered sex and drinking and started seeing someone...
    megaball megaball 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 10, 2009

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    I don't know how I have done it,

    I have had two abortions this year and I just found out I am pregnant again. I have the implant and my partner and I always use protection. My doctors say its because of all the other medication I am on imbalances my hormones, but I don't think I can handle another but keeping...
    ClairD95 ClairD95 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 10

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    The Choice Wasn't In My Hands..

    Early September 2011 I was 16 and had been with my boyfriend since May that year. I found that I was pregnant and new straight away that I wanted to keep the baby but I also knew that it would be hard to stand my ground with my parents. Anyway, my boyfriend at the time said he...
    EVSkinner EVSkinner 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 26, 2012

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    I Had An Abortion.. I Need Help Coping With The Pain.

    I recently just had an abortion. To be honest I'm only 16 I messed up and got pregant, the guy I was with I'm still with and now engaged to. My story is a little different. We tool the pregnancy test together and it came out positive. We were both so excited he started crying...
    Dancer7921 Dancer7921 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 14, 2013

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    Everyday.

    I had my abortion only about a week ago I'm seventeen and about to enter my senior year of highschool. I had protected sex but obviously the condom broke I'm always on birth control but I lost the months prior package and had no time to get more. I found out I was pregnant and...
    Rachelrose17 Rachelrose17 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2013

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    I Hate Myself Everyday

    I'm 17 ... In the beginning if the school year I found out I was pregnant . I was scared I didn't know what to do .. I have a boy friend who is trust worthy and all but I'm 17 . So the day I found out I had a feeling I was so I took the test and I sat in the bathroom at my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 4, 2013

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    I Got Pregnant At 20 And Went To 7 Abortion Attempts

    when i found out i was pregnant i couldn't believe it! my whole world caved in i was so sad because i had not been with my partner long and already the cracks were beginning to show he worked very long hours so i wouldn't see him till late most nights. We were living in a flat...
    rainbowreverie rainbowreverie 26-30 9 Responses Sep 2, 2010

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    Always And Forever Is Not Acceptable

    Seriously? I joined this group called I Always Regret Having An Abortion? Always? No, not acceptable. I will not forever regret a decision I made 5 years ago. Knowing in my heart that I made the right choice for me and my unborn baby. I will not accept that this "regret" is...
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 22, 2013

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    I had a surgical abortion at 19years old.

    I feel like I listened to what everyone else thought etc before putting what I felt first. I miss my baby, I was 10 Weeks. Worst decision I have ever made. I can't stop crying and don't want to eat or sleep. Please make sure you think about what YOU want before anyone else...
    Wontforgivecantforget Wontforgivecantforget 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    The Pain

    I would have done anything to have you back. Each day its a journey 4 years ago. The pain in my heart is real.I miss you. It pains me to know I hurt you.I haven't forgotten you and never will I ever.you might have felt rejected and unloved and I hope you'll forgive me.but,mummy...
    tishveen tishveen 22-25, F 7 Responses Mar 19, 2011

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    I Don't Know How To Cope With What I've Done

    i have 3 beautiful children whom I've taken care if single handedly for 9 years after my husband left us. 4 months ago i started.seeing a guy who i taught was a true gentle. a couple of months after i slept with him, took d morning after pill 6 hours later and it didn't work...
    mackenzie28 mackenzie28 36-40 5 Responses Jan 3, 2013

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    Over 2 Years Ago

    I had an abortion when i was 19 my bf was 21 ... i was in very unhealthy and abusive relationship. I dont think i will get over what he did to me or what i had to do. he would push me around and than apologize right after and i stayed because i thought i loved him. we had been...
    shygirl0611 shygirl0611 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 13, 2012

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    A Life Time Regret

    I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant. I was going through a really rough time in my life, I had been raped and well didn't know what to do. Of course at the time I didn't know anything I had barely told my close ones and current boyfriend what had happend. This all happend in...
    nhernan nhernan 18-21 1 Response Aug 8, 2011

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    Had Abortion In 1988

    And yes the pain does get less with time. I did not get the chance to have another baby. My parents bullied me into it and now they don't have grandchildren, serves them right. The father never got over it. There is not enough support for men. 
    MiracleHunter MiracleHunter 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2013

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    2 Abortions

    I had 2 abortions 6 months apart 20+ years ago. I have never written about it for some reason although I think about it everyday. The first was with my boyfriend, who I broke up with over it. The second was a drunken night with an old flame who I thought was a friend and with...
    dandruff dandruff 46-50, F Sep 30, 2013

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    Counting Down A Day To Realease My Baby

    First I have to say, I'm not very good at English. But I think I can share . I never think I will get pregnant, but 7weeks ago, a baby had created. And all I feel now is- panic. I even still not pay this month rent yet. How can I rise a baby! You ask me where is his father...
    kittykit kittykit 22-25, F Sep 19, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I'd always wanted a baby but for financial reasons we decided to have a abortion! On top that we hadn't been together long. It wasn't supposed to happen this way. I took the right...
    cjay89 cjay89 22-25, F Oct 10

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    Too often women feel as though they cannot come out about their abortion, whether they regret it or not. For those who wish to find healing of any kind, I'm here to tell you it's...
    AlbanyRose AlbanyRose 22-25, F Oct 6

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    I had my Abortion 4 years ago and I still am not over it, I don't think I ever will be I wish I could be one of those women who could just forget about it. I feel numb with pain...
    cnw1 cnw1 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 24

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    Would it be weird if I went back to the clinic where I had my abortion and asked for them to get my file and have my ultrasound picture.. If they even had it still
    cnw1 cnw1 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 24

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    When I see people referring to women who have had a abortion as a murderer, it kind of makes me want to die.
    cnw1 cnw1 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 25

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    I sit here 3 days later sore.... healing from my devastating experience. I think about where would my baby things go in my room, what gender will it be and how I will spoil it. It...
    jassypopout jassypopout 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 22

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    Sitting in silence Drowning in despair Quietly mocked By the world's chilling stare Judged by those Who can't understand Forgotten by people Like washed away sand Saddened by...
    SkullRoseInsignia SkullRoseInsignia 16-17, T Oct 2

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