I Always Regret Having An Abortion

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    It has been nearly 4 months

    since I got my abortion. I was 20 when I found out I was pregnant, it was just with a boy I was seeing, nothing serious! I was on the pill and it was a total shock! I found out when I was 4 weeks but it took me so long to come to a final decision, I kept changing my mind every...
    Louise123495 Louise123495
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2016

    I regret having an abortion.

    . I was 17 just starting my senior year in high school a couple months ago when I found out I was pregnant, I was scared I told my friends and it ended up spread around the whole school. My boyfriend was and still is supportive he wishes I wouldn't have gotten the abortion but he...
    simplyme1996 simplyme1996
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 8, 2014

    2011 was the year of my two abortions.

    We're now in 2015 and I regret having it as part of my history. Today I'm particularly teary about it even though I should be ecstatic at the news of a baby girl! I've always wanted children. Above a loving partner (though that's always a good idea it seems) I've wanted children...
    beano1st beano1st
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 5, 2015

    I Got Pregnant At 20 And Went To 7 Abortion Attempts

    when i found out i was pregnant i couldn't believe it! my whole world caved in i was so sad because i had not been with my partner long and already the cracks were beginning to show he worked very long hours so i wouldn't see him till late most nights. We were living in a flat...
    rainbowreverie rainbowreverie
    7 Responses Sep 2, 2010

    The Moment That Will Never Stop Haunting Me

    In October 2009 I had a date with my then boyfriend. We went to see 500 Days of Summer at the cinema and then we went to his place after. We all know what came next... Ten weeks later, my period was two weeks late. My friend said I may be pregnant. I laughed it off saying that it...
    happydays0 happydays0
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 7, 2013


    i have had 5 abortions which is the horrible shameful secret i can never tell anyone, i was 18 when my mother died we had a very hard upbringing, abusive both mentally and physically and just really very sad. I moved away and discovered sex and drinking and started seeing someone...
    megaball megaball
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Sep 10, 2009

    Time To Heal

    Please bear with me as this is my first time doing anything like this. I had my abortion 11 months ago and everyday I think about" What if?" Im 21 and the mother of two precious little girls. I think everyday what if I had aborted one of them. How they light up my life. I try to...
    myangel3114 myangel3114
    22-25, F
    Sep 21, 2013

    I had an abortion 20 years ago

    and have always regretted it. My story is this. I got married at 19 and was very happy had my first son at 23 and he is beautiful now 21. Six months later I found out I was pregnant again. Although it wasn't planned I was happy enough. I asked my husband if he was ok with it and...
    keelina01 keelina01
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jul 11, 2014


    I had my abortion only about a week ago I'm seventeen and about to enter my senior year of highschool. I had protected sex but obviously the condom broke I'm always on birth control but I lost the months prior package and had no time to get more. I found out I was pregnant and...
    Rachelrose17 Rachelrose17
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 10, 2013

    Just because I don't mention it doesn't mean I

    don't think with everyday that passes that I have stopped a human being having a chance at life. I did not make this decision easily and it would probably be the most difficult decision I ever had to make which I have to suffer in silence. I have been heavily warned to not...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2015

    It was a shock to me

    when I came to know that I was pregnant. I had to take the difficult decision of getting an abortion as I had just started a new career in Dubai after coming from Philippines. With the help from my boyfriend I took the decision of termination of pregnancy but now the dilemma was...
    vardaan123 vardaan123
    26-30, F
    Dec 20, 2015

    I always regret having abotion i dont sleep at

    night i cry my self to sleep i file like Killing my self i need help plz
    snethemba snethemba
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 6, 2014

    Had Abortion In 1988

    And yes the pain does get less with time. I did not get the chance to have another baby. My parents bullied me into it and now they don't have grandchildren, serves them right. The father never got over it. There is not enough support for men. 
    MiracleHunter MiracleHunter
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 15, 2013

    This past summer when my boyfriend

    and I went down to Ohio to visit my family, we stopped at the cemetery where most of my passed-on relatives are buried. My mom had a little sister who was stillborn back in the 60's, and my grandfather planted a crab apple tree next to her grave. We picked one of the apples...
    NymphetamineGirlEclipse NymphetamineGirlEclipse
    22-25, F
    Feb 5, 2014

    Now That I Am Finally A Mother

    I don't want to tell my whole story...but I'm sitting in this room listening to my 15 mo old baby breathing while sleeping in the monitor and I am in tears. I had two abortion (a year apart) TEN YEARS AGO and it still breaks my heart. I miss my babies every day and think about...
    6 Responses Jan 9, 2013

    So today is my step sons 4th birthday,

    exciting I know! It's amazing to watch him everyday and see how much he's grown, how much his vocabulary has grown. It's crazy to look back and think when I first met him he was so shy and now he comes in to our bedroom in the morning and helps me pick out my outfits. I went...
    kay5262 kay5262
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 21, 2014

    2 Abortions

    I had 2 abortions 6 months apart 20+ years ago. I have never written about it for some reason although I think about it everyday. The first was with my boyfriend, who I broke up with over it. The second was a drunken night with an old flame who I thought was a friend and with...
    dandruff dandruff
    46-50, F
    1 Response Sep 30, 2013

    I think I have depression following my abortion

    just over a year ago and I don't know what to do. I've tried talking to my doctor, visiting a councillor, speaking to friends and my boyfriend, and looking at support sites online but I feel like I'm on an endless cycle of feeling ok and accepting what I did, then a couple of...
    hbrooks91 hbrooks91
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 30, 2014

    I Thought It Was Going To Be A Life Time Of Love

    When I found out i was pregnant i was so happy. All I could do was smile, It was unfortinuate that my baby father was not ready and after contaplanting my options, I began to sink, realizing that neither of us was ready broke my heart and all i could do is cry. I was always the...
    Fiestyy Fiestyy
    10 Responses Nov 5, 2010

    I Hate Myself Everyday

    I'm 17 ... In the beginning if the school year I found out I was pregnant . I was scared I didn't know what to do .. I have a boy friend who is trust worthy and all but I'm 17 . So the day I found out I had a feeling I was so I took the test and I sat in the bathroom at my...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Feb 4, 2013

    Missing My Baby Girl

    I cannot cope with the choice that I made because it wasn't my choice. I got pregnant in my senior year of hs when I was 16 turning 17. August 26 was the date the doctor counted my weeks but I knew the day my angel was conceived. September 7th. I had been with my boyfriend for 1...
    August26MyHeart August26MyHeart
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 18, 2012

    He Forced Me To Do It.

    At eighteen, I found out that I was pregnant...and it was the happiest time of my life. I quit smoking, drinking, everything. I also found out at two weeks. The father pressured me into having an abortion that I didn't want. I don't have anyone to talk to about it. I still have...
    ZombieSeduction ZombieSeduction
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Oct 29, 2011

    In A Perfect World, You'd Still Be Here...

    I had my abortion Saturday. My boyfriend's being there and doing whatever I needed, from holding my stuff, or my hand, distracting me while sitting in the waiting room, supporting me in every decision, and being so strong, my emotional and physical rock, helped more than he'll...
    NymphetamineGirlEclipse NymphetamineGirlEclipse
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2012

    I am currently 26 years old

    and have a 2 year old child. I had an abortion when I was 18 years old and a senior in high school. At the time I was so terrified of anyone besides my boyfriend (who I am now married to) finding out I did not seek any guidance and scheduled an abortion. I refused to think of...
    Paige6 Paige6
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Sep 8, 2014

    If I Could Go Back In Time

    I was 13 when I found out I was pregnant. I thought I had a stomach bug. 'You're pregnant' said the doctor to me. I was mostly shocked at first, I'd only had sex once. It lasted 30 seconds. Everyone was doing it, and of course that doesn't justify it but it gave my boyfriend...
    summ3rchild summ3rchild
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 20, 2013

    So me and my boyfriend have been thinking about

    getting pregnant again.. I know it's because we regret the abortion but we're going to wait until after we graduate. I know it's probably not the best idea I just feel like something is missing from me. I miss the morning sickness and being hungry all the time 😔 I wish I...
    simplyme1996 simplyme1996
    18-21, F
    Dec 21, 2014

    It never gets any easier.

    . My poor baby.. Mommy loves you ❤️ I'm so sorry
    simplyme1996 simplyme1996
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 9, 2014

    Statistics The Clinic Won't Tell You... And Healing

    The details of my abortion is not what I want to discuss here, if you are reading this it is fairly probable that you have had or are considering an abortion.  I am sure you have read other stories with details of feeling scared, lost, without choice and a plethora of other...
    rebecca001 rebecca001
    1 Response Nov 24, 2011

    I Have Regret

      I have had an abortion two and half weeks ago it has been really difficult on me. I really don't know how to be happy lately i can't help it. I feel like i'm the world's worst mother I KILLED MY CHILD. I was 4 months pregnant when i went into get the abortion done, its a...
    TryingtoHeal20 TryingtoHeal20
    18-21, F
    10 Responses Aug 18, 2010

    The Day I Lost My Baby!!

    I'm 15 now and I don't care what anyone thinks about but yes I had an abortion and it was and still is the worst pain I have ever gone through in my life so far, my baby was conceived on August 12th and when I found out I was on top of the world and for the next few weeks...
    May8th2013 May8th2013
    18-21, F
    9 Responses Nov 6, 2012

    September 2014 I found out I was pregnant.

    .. With Twins. I struggled to keep it a secret. It had gone all over the school and back again and eventually word got my my mom and my boyfriends mom. September 24, 2014 I had a miscarriage with one of my babies. Things didn't get any easier after that.. I was forced into...
    deleted deleted
    Aug 28, 2015

    I didn't find out about my pregnancy

    until I was almost 3 months. I didnt really worry when I missed my period because my period is normally like that sometimes I skip and I'm on medication for that, but when I took the test and it came out positive I wasn't sad I was actually happy but I knew I wouldn't be able to...
    mylittleangelA mylittleangelA
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 3, 2016

    My Excuses

    hello. i always said that when i would get pregnant is because God thinks its the right time, but it happened and i thought the time wasn't right, at the time. the father was a friend who i would hook up with when i felt lonely. i tried to get pregnant before when i was in an...
    shewhowillremainnameless shewhowillremainnameless
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 21, 2013

    This is one anniversary

    that I never wanted...(written Feb. 4, 2013 @ 9:23pm)Today is the 2nd anniversary of my last abortion. And sweet god and goddess above, I would do anything to change that. ='( Forgive the depressive mood of this post, but I just need to get it out. I've been busy all day, and...
    NymphetamineGirlEclipse NymphetamineGirlEclipse
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 5, 2014

    Still struggling with my choice to have an

    abortion, I just wish I could go back and take it back. It's ruined my life and I'm miserable. I hate myself for it
    ilmb20 ilmb20
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 8, 2015

    Abortion, Religion, Hell..

    I joined today because I can't stop crying and hating myself for a decision I made two years ago. My boyfriend and I of 3 months got pregnant and my l life spun out from under me. I was 24, and I wanted to keep my child. My boyfriend was even supportive. It was trying to tell my...
    xxoj xxoj
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 20, 2013

    Abortion Was the Worst Decision of My Life!

    I'll never forget the feeling of knowing i was pregnant and not being able to believe it everyone says that you just know as soon as its inside you and you do, but it took me almost 3 months to say anything. i think in the back of my mind i knew i wanted it so badly that i...
    AloneAndAfraid AloneAndAfraid
    18-21, F
    11 Responses Oct 4, 2009

    I had a surgical abortion at 19years old.

    I feel like I listened to what everyone else thought etc before putting what I felt first. I miss my baby, I was 10 Weeks. Worst decision I have ever made. I can't stop crying and don't want to eat or sleep. Please make sure you think about what YOU want before anyone else...
    Wontforgivecantforget Wontforgivecantforget
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 17, 2013


    i have had 5 abortions which is the horrible shameful secret i can never tell anyone, i was 18 when my mother died we had a very hard upbringing, abusive both mentally and physically and just really very sad. I moved away and discovered sex and drinking and started seeing someone...
    megaball megaball
    31-35, F
    13 Responses Sep 10, 2009

    A Life Time Regret

    I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant. I was going through a really rough time in my life, I had been raped and well didn't know what to do. Of course at the time I didn't know anything I had barely told my close ones and current boyfriend what had happend. This all happend in...
    nhernan nhernan
    Aug 8, 2011

    17 Years Later

    Late in January 1995 I was date-raped at a party by a boy who I rather fancied...He used a condom and it broke, he told me that I had better not get pregnant and then went to go drink with his friends, leaving me crying in a corner of someone I don't know's house, when I composed...
    angelmisty angelmisty
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Mar 21, 2012

    It's been about 17 years

    since having my abortion. I am 36 (almost 37) now and have 3 children. I always thought that it would get easier to deal with, but it only has gotten worse for me. I constantly think about the baby I should have had first. It's a nightmare that I wish I could take back. I was...
    LathemA LathemA
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 2, 2016

    My abortion when i was 14 had made me grow up

    fast i am still with the same guy 4 years on and were in such a good place. I feel like i want to now have a baby and settle down
    laurendown95 laurendown95
    18-21, F
    Feb 28, 2014

    I don't know how I have done it,

    I have had two abortions this year and I just found out I am pregnant again. I have the implant and my partner and I always use protection. My doctors say its because of all the other medication I am on imbalances my hormones, but I don't think I can handle another but keeping...
    ClairD95 ClairD95
    22-25, F
    Jun 10, 2014

    The Pain

    I would have done anything to have you back. Each day its a journey 4 years ago. The pain in my heart is real.I miss you. It pains me to know I hurt you.I haven't forgotten you and never will I ever.you might have felt rejected and unloved and I hope you'll forgive me.but,mummy...
    tishveen tishveen
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Mar 19, 2011

    Counting Down A Day To Realease My Baby

    First I have to say, I'm not very good at English. But I think I can share . I never think I will get pregnant, but 7weeks ago, a baby had created. And all I feel now is- panic. I even still not pay this month rent yet. How can I rise a baby! You ask me where is his father...
    kittykit kittykit
    22-25, F
    Sep 19, 2013


    I will keep a long story short.I was 24 years old with little family and emmotional help, I was in debt and living in a unpleasent shared house after having lived overseas, my mother of whom was quite neglectfull gowing up moved to Spain when I was 20 and at the same time my Dad...
    peacepeaceroger peacepeaceroger
    1 Response Apr 11, 2012

    I regret my abortion

    because I felt my fiancé talked me into it and I took my baby's life.
    307bran 307bran
    4 Responses Oct 29, 2014

    I Wish I Kept My Baby

    I was 9 weeks. i was holding the very thing i want more then anything in my life, right there in my uterus. i loved that little soon to be human. i wasnt even showing and yet i stood there everyday in the mirror, looking for some sign of a bump, proof that it was there. I yearn...
    Winniebug13 Winniebug13
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 7, 2013
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