I Always Regret Having An Abortion

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    It has been nearly 4 months

    since I got my abortion. I was 20 when I found out I was pregnant, it was just with a boy I was seeing, nothing serious! I was on the pill and it was a total shock! I found out when I was 4 weeks but it took me so long to come to a final decision, I kept changing my mind every...
    Louise123495 Louise123495
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2016

    It's been about 17 years

    since having my abortion. I am 36 (almost 37) now and have 3 children. I always thought that it would get easier to deal with, but it only has gotten worse for me. I constantly think about the baby I should have had first. It's a nightmare that I wish I could take back. I was...
    LathemA LathemA
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 2, 2016

    I didn't find out about my pregnancy

    until I was almost 3 months. I didnt really worry when I missed my period because my period is normally like that sometimes I skip and I'm on medication for that, but when I took the test and it came out positive I wasn't sad I was actually happy but I knew I wouldn't be able to...
    mylittleangelA mylittleangelA
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 3, 2016

    It was a shock to me

    when I came to know that I was pregnant. I had to take the difficult decision of getting an abortion as I had just started a new career in Dubai after coming from Philippines. With the help from my boyfriend I took the decision of termination of pregnancy but now the dilemma was...
    vardaan123 vardaan123
    26-30, F
    Dec 20, 2015

    Still struggling with my choice to have an

    abortion, I just wish I could go back and take it back. It's ruined my life and I'm miserable. I hate myself for it
    ilmb20 ilmb20
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 8, 2015

    September 2014 I found out I was pregnant.

    .. With Twins. I struggled to keep it a secret. It had gone all over the school and back again and eventually word got my my mom and my boyfriends mom. September 24, 2014 I had a miscarriage with one of my babies. Things didn't get any easier after that.. I was forced into...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 28, 2015

    2011 was the year of my two abortions.

    We're now in 2015 and I regret having it as part of my history. Today I'm particularly teary about it even though I should be ecstatic at the news of a baby girl! I've always wanted children. Above a loving partner (though that's always a good idea it seems) I've wanted children...
    beano1st beano1st
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 5, 2015

    Just because I don't mention it doesn't mean I

    don't think with everyday that passes that I have stopped a human being having a chance at life. I did not make this decision easily and it would probably be the most difficult decision I ever had to make which I have to suffer in silence. I have been heavily warned to not...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2015

    So me and my boyfriend have been thinking about

    getting pregnant again.. I know it's because we regret the abortion but we're going to wait until after we graduate. I know it's probably not the best idea I just feel like something is missing from me. I miss the morning sickness and being hungry all the time 😔 I wish I...
    simplyme1996 simplyme1996
    18-21, F
    Dec 21, 2014

    It never gets any easier.

    . My poor baby.. Mommy loves you ❤️ I'm so sorry
    simplyme1996 simplyme1996
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 9, 2014

    I regret having an abortion.

    . I was 17 just starting my senior year in high school a couple months ago when I found out I was pregnant, I was scared I told my friends and it ended up spread around the whole school. My boyfriend was and still is supportive he wishes I wouldn't have gotten the abortion but he...
    simplyme1996 simplyme1996
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 8, 2014

    I always regret having abotion i dont sleep at

    night i cry my self to sleep i file like Killing my self i need help plz
    snethemba snethemba
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 6, 2014

    I regret my abortion

    because I felt my fiancé talked me into it and I took my baby's life.
    307bran 307bran
    18-21
    4 Responses Oct 29, 2014

    I am currently 26 years old

    and have a 2 year old child. I had an abortion when I was 18 years old and a senior in high school. At the time I was so terrified of anyone besides my boyfriend (who I am now married to) finding out I did not seek any guidance and scheduled an abortion. I refused to think of...
    Paige6 Paige6
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Sep 8, 2014

    I had an abortion 20 years ago

    and have always regretted it. My story is this. I got married at 19 and was very happy had my first son at 23 and he is beautiful now 21. Six months later I found out I was pregnant again. Although it wasn't planned I was happy enough. I asked my husband if he was ok with it and...
    keelina01 keelina01
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jul 11, 2014

    So today is my step sons 4th birthday,

    exciting I know! It's amazing to watch him everyday and see how much he's grown, how much his vocabulary has grown. It's crazy to look back and think when I first met him he was so shy and now he comes in to our bedroom in the morning and helps me pick out my outfits. I went...
    kay5262 kay5262
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 21, 2014

    I don't know how I have done it,

    I have had two abortions this year and I just found out I am pregnant again. I have the implant and my partner and I always use protection. My doctors say its because of all the other medication I am on imbalances my hormones, but I don't think I can handle another but keeping...
    ClairD95 ClairD95
    22-25, F
    Jun 10, 2014

    I think I have depression following my abortion

    just over a year ago and I don't know what to do. I've tried talking to my doctor, visiting a councillor, speaking to friends and my boyfriend, and looking at support sites online but I feel like I'm on an endless cycle of feeling ok and accepting what I did, then a couple of...
    hbrooks91 hbrooks91
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 30, 2014

    My abortion when i was 14 had made me grow up

    fast i am still with the same guy 4 years on and were in such a good place. I feel like i want to now have a baby and settle down
    laurendown95 laurendown95
    22-25, F
    Feb 28, 2014

    This past summer when my boyfriend

    and I went down to Ohio to visit my family, we stopped at the cemetery where most of my passed-on relatives are buried. My mom had a little sister who was stillborn back in the 60's, and my grandfather planted a crab apple tree next to her grave. We picked one of the apples...
    NymphetamineGirlEclipse NymphetamineGirlEclipse
    22-25, F
    Feb 5, 2014

    This is one anniversary

    that I never wanted...(written Feb. 4, 2013 @ 9:23pm)Today is the 2nd anniversary of my last abortion. And sweet god and goddess above, I would do anything to change that. ='( Forgive the depressive mood of this post, but I just need to get it out. I've been busy all day, and...
    NymphetamineGirlEclipse NymphetamineGirlEclipse
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 5, 2014

    I had a surgical abortion at 19years old.

    I feel like I listened to what everyone else thought etc before putting what I felt first. I miss my baby, I was 10 Weeks. Worst decision I have ever made. I can't stop crying and don't want to eat or sleep. Please make sure you think about what YOU want before anyone else...
    Wontforgivecantforget Wontforgivecantforget
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 17, 2013

    If I Could Go Back In Time

    I was 13 when I found out I was pregnant. I thought I had a stomach bug. 'You're pregnant' said the doctor to me. I was mostly shocked at first, I'd only had sex once. It lasted 30 seconds. Everyone was doing it, and of course that doesn't justify it but it gave my boyfriend...
    summ3rchild summ3rchild
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 20, 2013

    Had Abortion In 1988

    And yes the pain does get less with time. I did not get the chance to have another baby. My parents bullied me into it and now they don't have grandchildren, serves them right. The father never got over it. There is not enough support for men. 
    MiracleHunter MiracleHunter
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 15, 2013

    Abortion, Religion, Hell..

    I joined today because I can't stop crying and hating myself for a decision I made two years ago. My boyfriend and I of 3 months got pregnant and my l life spun out from under me. I was 24, and I wanted to keep my child. My boyfriend was even supportive. It was trying to tell my...
    xxoj xxoj
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 20, 2013

    2 Abortions

    I had 2 abortions 6 months apart 20+ years ago. I have never written about it for some reason although I think about it everyday. The first was with my boyfriend, who I broke up with over it. The second was a drunken night with an old flame who I thought was a friend and with...
    dandruff dandruff
    46-50, F
    1 Response Sep 30, 2013

    Time To Heal

    Please bear with me as this is my first time doing anything like this. I had my abortion 11 months ago and everyday I think about" What if?" Im 21 and the mother of two precious little girls. I think everyday what if I had aborted one of them. How they light up my life. I try to...
    myangel3114 myangel3114
    26-30, F
    Sep 21, 2013

    Counting Down A Day To Realease My Baby

    First I have to say, I'm not very good at English. But I think I can share . I never think I will get pregnant, but 7weeks ago, a baby had created. And all I feel now is- panic. I even still not pay this month rent yet. How can I rise a baby! You ask me where is his father...
    kittykit kittykit
    26-30, F
    Sep 19, 2013

    My Excuses

    hello. i always said that when i would get pregnant is because God thinks its the right time, but it happened and i thought the time wasn't right, at the time. the father was a friend who i would hook up with when i felt lonely. i tried to get pregnant before when i was in an...
    shewhowillremainnameless shewhowillremainnameless
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 21, 2013

    Everyday.

    I had my abortion only about a week ago I'm seventeen and about to enter my senior year of highschool. I had protected sex but obviously the condom broke I'm always on birth control but I lost the months prior package and had no time to get more. I found out I was pregnant and...
    Rachelrose17 Rachelrose17
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 10, 2013

    I Wish I Kept My Baby

    I was 9 weeks. i was holding the very thing i want more then anything in my life, right there in my uterus. i loved that little soon to be human. i wasnt even showing and yet i stood there everyday in the mirror, looking for some sign of a bump, proof that it was there. I yearn...
    Winniebug13 Winniebug13
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 7, 2013

    Arielle My Baby.

    I felt like everything was ruined, I had had the worst year ever, my sister went off the rails, I failed a course I desperately wanted to finish by helping my mum cope with the antics of my sister, I couldn't find a good job, I had become dependant of my boyfriend and was living...
    Simone19 Simone19
    22-25
    4 Responses May 8, 2013

    The Moment That Will Never Stop Haunting Me

    In October 2009 I had a date with my then boyfriend. We went to see 500 Days of Summer at the cinema and then we went to his place after. We all know what came next... Ten weeks later, my period was two weeks late. My friend said I may be pregnant. I laughed it off saying that it...
    happydays0 happydays0
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 7, 2013

    My Road To Forgiveness

    Thanks to everyone here at the expirece project, I'm starting to learn alot of things about life. Most important forgiveness. I have read everyones comments to my story while also reading there's. I have also done research and many other things. I am a writer I love to write so I...
    Dancer7921 Dancer7921
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 16, 2013

    I Had An Abortion.. I Need Help Coping With The Pain.

    I recently just had an abortion. To be honest I'm only 16 I messed up and got pregant, the guy I was with I'm still with and now engaged to. My story is a little different. We tool the pregnancy test together and it came out positive. We were both so excited he started crying...
    Dancer7921 Dancer7921
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 14, 2013

    I Hate Myself Everyday

    I'm 17 ... In the beginning if the school year I found out I was pregnant . I was scared I didn't know what to do .. I have a boy friend who is trust worthy and all but I'm 17 . So the day I found out I had a feeling I was so I took the test and I sat in the bathroom at my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Feb 4, 2013

    Now That I Am Finally A Mother

    I don't want to tell my whole story...but I'm sitting in this room listening to my 15 mo old baby breathing while sleeping in the monitor and I am in tears. I had two abortion (a year apart) TEN YEARS AGO and it still breaks my heart. I miss my babies every day and think about...
    6 Responses Jan 9, 2013

    I Don't Know How To Cope With What I've Done

    i have 3 beautiful children whom I've taken care if single handedly for 9 years after my husband left us. 4 months ago i started.seeing a guy who i taught was a true gentle. a couple of months after i slept with him, took d morning after pill 6 hours later and it didn't work...
    mackenzie28 mackenzie28
    36-40
    5 Responses Jan 3, 2013

    Over 2 Years Ago

    I had an abortion when i was 19 my bf was 21 ... i was in very unhealthy and abusive relationship. I dont think i will get over what he did to me or what i had to do. he would push me around and than apologize right after and i stayed because i thought i loved him. we had been...
    shygirl0611 shygirl0611
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2012

    The Choice Wasn't In My Hands..

    Early September 2011 I was 16 and had been with my boyfriend since May that year. I found that I was pregnant and new straight away that I wanted to keep the baby but I also knew that it would be hard to stand my ground with my parents. Anyway, my boyfriend at the time said he...
    EVSkinner EVSkinner
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 26, 2012

    The Day I Lost My Baby!!

    I'm 15 now and I don't care what anyone thinks about but yes I had an abortion and it was and still is the worst pain I have ever gone through in my life so far, my baby was conceived on August 12th and when I found out I was on top of the world and for the next few weeks...
    May8th2013 May8th2013
    18-21, F
    9 Responses Nov 6, 2012

    Still Not Over It...

    3 years ago I had an abortion. When I found out, I was in an on-again off-again relationship that had been steady for 3 years before that. It was pretty rocky, but we loved eachother still at the time. After I did the test, my world just came crashing down. Right away, I told...
    CupCake1988 CupCake1988
    22-25
    2 Responses Oct 29, 2012

    Regrets.

    I was scared & most of all didn't want my parents to find out because I didn't want to disappoint them. So for me abortion seemed like the only option. So on 21 april I had an abortion. I REGRET! Still to this day I wish that I knew what I know now because I would have never done...
    Themaravillosa Themaravillosa
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 17, 2012

    Stolen Life

    Leave me out with the waste this is not what i do,its the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you,leave me drowning in my tears,i destroyed you because i couldnt accept my fears,you were my beggining and now your my end,my litttle ball of life,heaven sent,i should of tried then...
    Lannabells Lannabells
    18-21
    2 Responses Sep 20, 2012

    Desperatly Want A Second Chance.....

    Hey everyone. I am 19 years old and a sophomore in college. This spring, my boyfriend and I decided that we were going to stop all forms of birth control. He told me that he loved me and I believed him. I have always wanted a baby. In April, we found out that I was pregnant. I...
    countrygirl1299 countrygirl1299
    18-21
    2 Responses Sep 11, 2012

    Wishing For A Second Chance......

    Hey everyone. I am 19 years old and a sophomore in college. This spring, my boyfriend and I decided that we were going to stop all forms of birth control. He told me that he loved me and I believed him. I have always wanted a baby. In April, we found out that I was pregnant. I...
    countrygirl1299 countrygirl1299
    18-21
    1 Response Sep 11, 2012

    17 And I Hate Myself.

    im in high school, year 12 doing VCE and i had an abortion because i needed to finish my school, i couldn't do it and now i just wish i did. I could have completed my school a different year, i could have done it and now i have nothing left but eyes full of water every time i...
    md94 md94
    18-21
    3 Responses Aug 1, 2012

    I Will Always Regret My Abortion!

    was 15 when i found out i was pregnant, i knew from that very moment i wanted to keep it, even tho i was so young i knew i would of been able to do it, i told my boyfriend of 2 and a half years and he didnt want our baby, nothing would make him change his mind, i loved him to...
    xebzx xebzx
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 4, 2012

    I Regret My Abortion!

    i was 15 when i found out i was pregnant, i knew from that very moment i wanted to keep it, even tho i was so young i knew i would of been able to do it, i told my boyfriend of 2 and a half years and he didnt want our baby, nothing would make him change his mind, i loved him to...
    xebzx xebzx
    18-21, F
    Jul 4, 2012

    Missing My Baby Girl

    I cannot cope with the choice that I made because it wasn't my choice. I got pregnant in my senior year of hs when I was 16 turning 17. August 26 was the date the doctor counted my weeks but I knew the day my angel was conceived. September 7th. I had been with my boyfriend for 1...
    August26MyHeart August26MyHeart
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 18, 2012

    It Was The Right Thing At The Time

    I got married in 1987. 18 months later I had a beautiful baby boy. Quickly my marriage turned into a nightmare. He was abusive and the fighting and dysfunction showed it's signs on my baby. I knew I had to get out for both of our sakes. I was 31. Right after I filed for divorce I...
    Terry500 Terry500
    51-55
    2 Responses May 31, 2012

    Confused.

    I will keep a long story short.I was 24 years old with little family and emmotional help, I was in debt and living in a unpleasent shared house after having lived overseas, my mother of whom was quite neglectfull gowing up moved to Spain when I was 20 and at the same time my Dad...
    peacepeaceroger peacepeaceroger
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 11, 2012

    17 Years Later

    Late in January 1995 I was date-raped at a party by a boy who I rather fancied...He used a condom and it broke, he told me that I had better not get pregnant and then went to go drink with his friends, leaving me crying in a corner of someone I don't know's house, when I composed...
    angelmisty angelmisty
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Mar 21, 2012

    Abortion Regret And Forgiveness

    Back in 1977 before all the technology like ultrasounds, etc was around, I was told my pregnancy was nothing but a blob when I asked if it was a baby. My boyfriend did not want me to have the baby. I did. I was alone, no one to help me. So I had an abortion. It was legal, I...
    Vickie53 Vickie53
    51-55
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2012

    Letter To Rachel

    Wow. Twenty-three years old already. And you’re leaving! And all this time I was sure you’d never grow up and leave me. So it’s about time I let you know how much you mean to me. I remember the day I officially found out I was pregnant. I was so happy! I kinda knew before...
    MiracleHunter MiracleHunter
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 2, 2012

    Abortion.

    i just came back from my 2 week bolivian country vacation last night with my boyfriend, and i knew something was wrong when i missed my eeriod on the 20th. i been counting the days hoping it would come down..but there was no luck. i said to myself let me just wait till the end of...
    pattyayala76 pattyayala76
    18-21, F
    Feb 26, 2012

    In A Perfect World, You'd Still Be Here...

    I had my abortion Saturday. My boyfriend's being there and doing whatever I needed, from holding my stuff, or my hand, distracting me while sitting in the waiting room, supporting me in every decision, and being so strong, my emotional and physical rock, helped more than he'll...
    NymphetamineGirlEclipse NymphetamineGirlEclipse
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2012

    In Regret.

    I regret my abortion. My baby's due date would have been on 1/15/2012. In a few weeks, my baby would have been born and I would have been a mother. I now know what a horrible mistake I have done. 
    726love 726love
    26-30
    Dec 28, 2011

    Statistics The Clinic Won't Tell You... And Healing

    The details of my abortion is not what I want to discuss here, if you are reading this it is fairly probable that you have had or are considering an abortion.  I am sure you have read other stories with details of feeling scared, lost, without choice and a plethora of other...
    rebecca001 rebecca001
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 24, 2011

    Is Anyone Interested In Doing *paid* Magazine Feature?

    Dear all, I understand you have been through alot. So please ignore my post if you feel it is inappropriate. I am from a women's national weekly magazine and am looking for a woman who has previously had an abortion and feels they were pushed into it or forced, by a partner or...
    lozzieb lozzieb
    18-21
    1 Response Nov 21, 2011
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