I wield my "I'm fine" like a shield, protecting my heart and my sanity, keeping the pain locked away in some secret location I never visit. Those of you who have been strong for too long, who have held back too many tears, who have woken up with drenched pillows or waited for...
who was taught her mother's mantra, or more so, drilled into her 6 year old mind... "do not tell."
"Do not tell that I left you alone overnight, while I went off with a man to drink and do the things 'adults' do."
"Do not tell you haven't eaten anything except bread with...
I dont want to be a burden. I wish i could do it myself. I know i cant do it myself, but i dont have anybody to tell... Exept my parents, but they never listen...
Sometimes i wish the world made me feel important and loved.
I feel ignored.
to someone, just know that I am here. I am new to this, but I love to help people. You can tell me anything you're comfortable with, or I you just want to vent, I'm here for you all. I want to be one of the people you call a friend. I don't really have many, but I can be one. I...
how you really feel. It would ruin all of the great happy moods around me. So much to be happy over yet all I see today is darkness and sadness and evilness. I wish on days like today I never had the experiences of my youth. Too much!!!
"I'm fine." I say it when I mean it; I say it when I mean the opposite.
Because, let's face it - when someone asks how I'm doing, it's not polite to say "Inside my head, a blood-curdling scream is drowning out my thoughts."
So instead, I say "I'm fine."
your face and it's only there to hide the pain you say your fine but your struggling to get by and when you shut the lights out and silence surrounds you that's when the tears come from your eyes everybody needs a hand to hold once in a while everyone needs a reassurance it will...
from it. You make me feel gross and in over a year you haven't actually turned me on. I only waited this long because of our vacation and how much you've been looking forward to it. I can't do this anymore after this I'm leaving. I keep telling you everything is ok and that I'm...
Sometimes…when I say "I'm fine”, I want someone to look into my eyes and say "Tell the truth"
Does anyone REALLY care how I’m feeling?
To make it easier on everyone involved I say “I’m fine”…”I’m ok”…”I’m good”
In the end I don’t think it really...
I am going to laugh, it will be forced.
I am going to let my mind wander, it will always choose you.
I am going to hurt, in the shadows where none can see.
I am breaking and I have not the strength nor the willpower to hold myself together.
even when people can see I am not, because If you tell them the truth,you see the look on their face ,"I wish I hadn't asked " and they cant get away quick enough it kills a conversation stone dead .When I am chatting online I do the same as I have tried the truth and people...
I could have the deepest depression ever and would still say that I am fine.
I just don't want to bother others and also don't really trust anyone.
Got lied to, too often.
And when I am sad I normally don't want to talk to anyone...
That is why I always just say that I am fine...
and to the world. I'm angry and so very frustrated living the way I have to live.I know they're much worse off than I am.I should and I am grateful for all I have even though it's not a lot. I'm just so tired of being so dam responsible and I hate being so lonely.I'm sick of...
People always ask that
How are you?
If I answered truthfully I'd say:
On the verge of tears
On the verge of a nervous breakdown
Like giving up
I'm just a burden
A bother to people
Never good enough
I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate everything I am. I go to bed every night wishing i can find 'my people' to fine love and magic. I feel as though I am not living and as though I am living in a dream I can't tell what is reality anymore. I starve myself because I am fat...
more difficult than you would even want to imagine. I don't want to discuss it. If you want to know more about me I have written them in my experiences. They are not written out as a litany of events, rather highlights of events. I have done my best to convey my message and...