"I'm fine thanks, how are you?" It rolls off the lips so smoothly and is so much easier than going into it. Well, I am fine today, thanks, but I haven't been for most of the last week. Something's been bothering me.
We had a death in my family at the beginning of last week...
who was taught her mother's mantra, or more so, drilled into her 6 year old mind... "do not tell."
"Do not tell that I left you alone overnight, while I went off with a man to drink and do the things 'adults' do."
"Do not tell you haven't eaten anything except bread with...
your face and it's only there to hide the pain you say your fine but your struggling to get by and when you shut the lights out and silence surrounds you that's when the tears come from your eyes everybody needs a hand to hold once in a while everyone needs a reassurance it will...
tell exactly how I'm feeling, but I feel like saying "I'm fine" gets the subject off of me because idk I don't believe people want to hear you go on and on about the negative things I'm dealing with, but since "I'm fine" is my response to everything I really have some backed up...
I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate everything I am. I go to bed every night wishing i can find 'my people' to fine love and magic. I feel as though I am not living and as though I am living in a dream I can't tell what is reality anymore. I starve myself because I am fat...
to someone, just know that I am here. I am new to this, but I love to help people. You can tell me anything you're comfortable with, or I you just want to vent, I'm here for you all. I want to be one of the people you call a friend. I don't really have many, but I can be one. I...
for everything. When I say I'm fine I'm really breaking down and tired and sad. When I say I'm fine, I want and NEED someone to hold me. When I say I'm fine, I want that person to tell me it's okay to feel sad. I want them to let me cry with no needed explanation. I don't want...
People always ask that
How are you?
If I answered truthfully I'd say:
On the verge of tears
On the verge of a nervous breakdown
Like giving up
I'm just a burden
A bother to people
Never good enough
how you really feel. It would ruin all of the great happy moods around me. So much to be happy over yet all I see today is darkness and sadness and evilness. I wish on days like today I never had the experiences of my youth. Too much!!!
I dont want to be a burden. I wish i could do it myself. I know i cant do it myself, but i dont have anybody to tell... Exept my parents, but they never listen...
Sometimes i wish the world made me feel important and loved.
I feel ignored.
Arthur: [after Arthur's cut off both of the Black Knight's arms] Look, you stupid B@st@rd. You've got no arms left.
Black Knight: Yes I have.
King Arthur: *Look*!
Black Knight: 'TIS BUT A FLESH WOUND
A pin ***** in the heart.
just a tiny thing.
but enough to make me worry...
"I'm fine." I say it when I mean it; I say it when I mean the opposite.
Because, let's face it - when someone asks how I'm doing, it's not polite to say "Inside my head, a blood-curdling scream is drowning out my thoughts."
So instead, I say "I'm fine."
when asked how we are, even though we're not. Yet, when a friend who is obviously not "fine" says it to us, how many of us take the time to insist, to ask how are you really? How many of us care enough to tell that friend: "Come on, this is me you're talking to. What's wrong...