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I Always Want to Be In Control

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    I Am Never In Control During Sex

    Looking back over my experiences with about 5 women, I realize they were in control once I showed my desire for sex. They decided wheher to go further, what to let me touch, what to unbutton and unhook, how far ro go, then even the position she wanted, usually on top so she...
    anthony2001 anthony2001 61-65, M 3 Responses Sep 19, 2010

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    It's Not You, It's Me.

    I don't necessarily have to be in control of everything around me, but, when it comes to me or my body, I try to be in complete control. I must be in control of my thoughts, emotions, actions, and decisions. I freak out if I cannot think properly because of medication. I...
    maeven maeven 18-21, F Jul 12, 2009

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    In Control Or Let Go Is the Question

    I naturally like being in control, like any human, however, like you I may have learned through experience that there is a time to let go. We have all heard the story of the way monkeys were caught. Goards with an opening big enough for the monkey's hand had food placed inside...
    Radiant Radiant 56-60, F 2 Responses Mar 28, 2008

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    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F May 8

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    Growing up I had so little choice in my life I

    was constantly under the whims of others. Now due to my time in the military I want to be in charge. To be able to guide others wills to match my own. At times this gets me into trouble, especially with the wife. I'm constantly reminding myself to tone it down, let others go...
    Sandstorm32 Sandstorm32 26-30, M Nov 25, 2014

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    To Hell With Kindness?

    Have you ever experienced any situation which made you think maybe you're too kind? Maybe you're that person who always looks out for others, concern about them. Whenever your friends are feeling down and sad, you are there for them. Putting whatever you're doing aside just to...
    kemi8698 kemi8698 22-25, F Jun 3, 2012

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    I try to control everything in my life,

    from the thoughts in my head to the specific way I say "hello" to people. I try to control every aspect of my life and maybe that's why I feel so frustrated? Maybe if I give up control things will just happen, instead of me making them happen. But in my mind how can I get...
    TheBlackLabel TheBlackLabel 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    But Getting Better At It

    Having been thrown into adulthood at the age of 16, I was forced to be in control of everything. Early on I had to 'fend for myself'. I have been in numerous supervisory positions and that tends to boost the ego as well. One of the hardest things for me is delegating, well...
    extremedad extremedad 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 11, 2008

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    Not Any More..............

    No matter how one defines it, I was the one in control, the in charge person. I was on my own from the time I was 16 and self reliant before that. I was a Navy man with 30 men working under me. I have been in supervisory positions for many years as well. Sounds nice, but the...
    extremedad extremedad 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 10, 2010

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    Everyone Does...

    I have found in my very short life, when other people are in control bad things can, and will happen. But when ever I decide to take control of a situation these things tend not to happen. Of course, I've also come to another conclusion in my life. People are idiots, I am not...
    Cnbrrn Cnbrrn 16-17, M 4 Responses Nov 19, 2007

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    I want to die first,

    before anyone I love dies. Please god, me first!!! I will get ready.
    ijustneedtoletitout ijustneedtoletitout 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    There Are Times That I Wish I Was

         there are tiems that I wish that I could be in control. That is when I wish that I could do what ever that I want. With out haviong someone keeping a eye on me. I know that I can't live on my own. But I would just like to feel like. I am able to be in control. But I...
    acjf acjf 22-25, F Jan 10, 2011

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    I Want to Be In Control...

    however, i am unable to do so. I am in control of one thing...and thats myself...
    lovelybonez17 lovelybonez17 16-17, F Aug 20, 2008

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    Not So Bad

    It's really not so bad to want to be in control of yourself-it's when you want to be in control of others that it becomes difficult-suffocating to them-making them not want to be in your company.  Self control is the one thing that most people don't practice enough of. ...
    SunnyHoney SunnyHoney 36-40, F Jul 3, 2009

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    Younger Days

    In my younger days living with an abusive alcoholic father and a battered wife syndome mother I want control so there would be peace and harmony....that what started me on my quest to find it and over the years found iit inside of me and moved it to places I lived and...
    PoppaBear53 PoppaBear53 56-60, M Jan 7, 2012

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    Well, Here Is the Thing:

    I have a love/hate relationship with the whole thing. Please someone tell me: how do i stop wanting to be a control freak!
    ritchflynn ritchflynn 22-25, M Jun 14, 2009

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    I Am Just Thinking of How M...

    I am just thinking of how much better I could make things!
    Shaylon Shaylon 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2008

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    To Them I'm Just Crazy

     I always want to be in control but In my family im considered just a kid and nothing more. I'm supposed to come when called. Sit when asked. And obey. what i want is not for me to decide it's for someone else too. I'm not in control of  this. I must listen to...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2009

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    And that's why I'm always paranoid.

    I always want to be in control and I can't stand the things I can't control in life. Screw the world. It's every man for himself :)
    tangledweb94 tangledweb94 18-21, M Jan 28

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    Anger Evil ...

    Im usually in control but not when Im in anger .. Its the worst evil for me .. Control has gone completely when Im obsessed by anger .. I don't wanna be angry but sometimes its just too hard to be in control lol
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 26-30, F 14 Responses Jan 10, 2010

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    I Never Feel Like a Control Freak...

    Just like I know so much better than most people what should be done...or that I want to help somehow...or make things perfect so everyone can be a little happier...or that I'm terrified everything's going to fall apart and I'm going to end up old and lonely and broke and unknown...
    donquixote11 donquixote11 26-30, F Jun 13, 2009

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    Or Else I Lose It...

    If I can not control my situation... ANYTHING I am in... I lose it. Like this whole flight thing tomorrow... I have no control over that and its going to drive me CRAZY until I land at the airport. I have to be in control at all times. Not in a...
    Silver01ta Silver01ta 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 12, 2008

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    The person I always wanted to become is inside of me. It is who God destined me to be! She's slowly emerging and each day it catches me by surprise on how such a complex being...
    JesusReigns777 JesusReigns777 26-30, F 4 Responses May 8

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    Yeap..I always want to be a girl. It sucks that I'm a boy. I fantasy being a woman. I feel that inside I was meant to be a woman but I am a man.
    chanta76 chanta76 31-35 4 Responses May 14

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    I always wanted to be a girl from the first time I put on a black nightie as a dare. As I grew I knew I was different and enjoyed the experience of putting on women's cloth's...
    bmg1kel bmg1kel 61-65, T 2 Responses May 21

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    I always want to be a girl. Here are the scenes in my mind. 1. In all seasons, I wear white shirt (white polo shirt for sports), very short blue shorts (less than 1” inseam...
    anthonysecret anthonysecret 36-40, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I want to have the large crazy family on the block. You know the house where there's always something going on? The baseball game out in the yard, maybe tag or some other running...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 days ago

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    Not always but sometimes.I have always thought though that being female would be much easier than being a feminine guy with a female like body.
    ADF55 ADF55 56-60 4 Responses May 24

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    When I was a young boy and in my teenager years I was very shy. In my early twenties, at the university I started to workout (cycling, running, going to gym), and to deal a lot...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 3

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    I wish that I had an older brother. Someone that could help with my ADHD. Help me focus on what I'm suppose to be doing and help me with my homework (I always forget to do it...
    CanYouHelpMe011 CanYouHelpMe011 13-15, F 2 Responses May 9

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    Ok I'm hotter than my best friend!!! But the problem is my best friend is always copying meee!!!!!! Like why? She does the same hair styles as me and i tell her that its awful so...
    madlenoda madlenoda 13-15, F 3 Responses May 10

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    i always wear heels!!! like ever since i was 12 !! idk y now when im bare foot i walk on my tippy toes like im wearing an invisible heel . good lord u see what heels do to me loll...
    heavenlytouch heavenlytouch 22-25, F 2 Responses May 22

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    Like the title says and I always will... Mabee some day hopefully xxx
    jane1976 jane1976 31-35, T 10 Responses 3 days ago

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    Just thought I say this, I believe in the saying "the world is like a weight on your shoulders". Before I get into that quote I want to mention that I miss writing a lot its the...
    peacemaker1990 peacemaker1990 22-25, F May 9

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    Not sure if I want to be a "girl" persay, I just want the girly figure. Busty, hourglass figure, hips, booty, ultra smooth skin, etc. Cross dressing isn't really my thing...
    aderth60 aderth60 31-35, M 3 Responses May 15

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    If you cannot be your self....your totally cheating your self..... I make a lot of friends on here....and I say be your self...I do not want you to try and impress me or any of the...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I remember the time when I was video chatting with my friend, and I fell asleep. I wake up 7 hours later to him smiling and he says. " Don't worry i just woke up as well, i had to...
    AngelDaxx AngelDaxx 18-21, F May 9

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    I want to be hospitable and willing to help people anytime. Kind and not gossip-y. A loving mother who raises her kids to be loving and respectful. A woman after God's own heart...
    kRypt0lite kRypt0lite 22-25 May 9

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    I alwayd wanted a bf, wont it be fun to cuddle and watch movies and snuggle, i live to find one
    Cobusgx Cobusgx 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    It would be nice, to have real good one who could hang out with me everytime it got lonely. I have 3 sisters, but they... One got her own family far away, and never visits, the...
    Lolinondoda Lolinondoda 16-17, F May 11

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    be wierd.. be random.. be who you are.. cuz u neva know who would love the person you hide.. :)
    abhishakghy607 abhishakghy607 16-17 May 16

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    Are there any understanding women ? It would help people like me if there were. I know too many who fell into depression and suicide.
    beyerswede beyerswede 61-65, M 3 Responses May 16

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    My first bra. No more having to borrow friends.
    ArejayakaRegina ArejayakaRegina 22-25 11 Responses May 18