I Am a Adult Child of An Alcoholic

A place for adults who grew up with an alcoholic parent(s) to come share stories with others who have been through the same ordeal 418 People

    I spent a decade with my mom drinking whiskey

    every night. She died when i was young. I took care of her at night, or took the brunt of her rage - depended on many things but i could usually tell pretty quickly what kind of night i was in for. It never goes away. The effects and damage of living with alcoholism - it...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 3, 2015

    Not in a bad way, though.

    My father drank rather heavily, but he was never abusive. In fact, he was always excessively cheerful when inebriated (sometimes to the point of being totally obnoxious lol.) Despite this, we've shared some good memories while indulging in some beers together. On the other hand...
    chubbystringbean chubbystringbean
    26-30, M
    Aug 3, 2014
    GrantGeek GrantGeek
    46-50, F
    Oct 13, 2015

    So. My estranged, psychically

    and emotionally abusive mother is dying of cancer. She got breast cancer in 2010 and blamed me for causing the stress which enhanced her chances of the cancer. Tuesday night my dad texted, saying that she heard a 'crack', was in so much pain and then as taken to the hospital...
    Hunnylovie Hunnylovie
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 19, 2015

    My stepdad is awesome.

    He used to drink but now he doesn't. He stopped on his own. I am grateful and happy for him because the nice man he is goes away when he drinks. I like that he is not that man anymore. I am a Christian who loves Jesus Christ. I describe myself as having three dads: God, my...
    blossomingbeauti blossomingbeauti
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2014

    "I just wanna say thanx

    for sticking up for me to Emily, but plz don't stay mad at her as I know you both share the same resentments towards me as a mother and I totally understand why, I would much rather see you two be close as sisters then try to be close to me. Love you no matter what. ...mom xoxo...
    Annurban Annurban
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 1

    my dad had a vodka soda

    and a beer and mostly drunk
    thatslovely17 thatslovely17
    18-21, F
    Apr 15

    My dad is in the hospital again (as previously

    posted). For the first time I'm unbelievably scared. This might be it for him. This morning his kidneys failed. I can't help but wonder what happened. Yesterday he sounded fine. Worst.Call.Ever.This morning.
    amalmberg13 amalmberg13
    22-25, F
    Oct 28, 2014

    I just discovered this page

    and I thought I could give it a try. I'm 20 years old now and I experienced alcoholism in my family for nearly 13 years of my life. It's hard to believe my dad has been sober for about 7 years already. I was nearly 7 years old when I first time figured something was wrong. My...
    laurajessica laurajessica
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2014

    I have been in my program

    for almost a year and I can't express how amazing it's been. I can see the changes and feel them. The other day I was triggered by someone that thinks I'm his possession. I had a really hard time expressing to him that I do not want what he wants. I started to notice how he...
    Atreasure Atreasure
    46-50, F
    Jan 30, 2014

    Recently, I've been thinking back to my

    childhood quite a bit and considering how alcoholism affected it. Being a college student, I've had some distance that's helped me to realize how abnormal and unacceptable some of my experiences were. One particular night that replays in my head pretty consistently took place...
    BrianBill BrianBill
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 14

    If I could go back in time

    and tell myself just one thing...I would SCREAM stop fighting for the love of an addict!! be a child, let go and learn to love yourself and life. it would have prevented so much irreversible damage.
    lisamarie80 lisamarie80
    36-40, F
    Jan 29, 2015

    My Progress

    My program has helped me so much.I have done things that I feared of doing.I want to experience life.The inner child in me is taking me to places that I would have never guessed I would attempt. I want to test my fear of heights now..............I will do it. I have set a goal...
    Atreasure Atreasure
    46-50, F
    Mar 22, 2013

    What Being A Child Of An Alcoholic Leaves Behind

    So this will not be a well written story.  It will not be fancy or in order.  I am actually surprised I am even writing, and the first one to a group I did not start.  Strange? are we still hiding? I will begin with a little about me.  I am a happy mother of...
    krsqrd krsqrd
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 4, 2010

    The typical drunk routine started.

    I said something that offended him, he stormed off after making ridiculously dramatic comments (I'm going to take the dog and go and live on my own). I asked him why he was acting so dramatically, got ignored. My mum started shouting at me for aggravating him. I just couldn't...
    atatt atatt
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 20, 2014

    I hate my ex sister in law she was a Vegas tramp

    and a cocaine addict she also sold drugs on behalf of her father and her habit both grotesque and Ill bred but she had horrible experiences and never got any professional help and brought my brother down into her miserable life. My brother was lost because my father stopped...
    Bella70 Bella70
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jun 10, 2015

    About two weeks ago my father had a seizure

    due to alcohol withdrawals. It scared me, seeing him in the hospital. It scared him too. I decided to forgive his 368259 mistakes of drinking in the past and help him. I went to the hospital every day, brought him things he could do, stay with him, bring him his favourite foods...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 24, 2013

    How do you get over the fear of getting close

    and having a relationship with a man? I am going to therapy..but theres is always that fear of finding out I'm wrong about them. I have forgiven my father..but I can't let the fear go....
    cas1965 cas1965
    51-55, F
    5 Responses Jan 21, 2015

    I was fourteen or so,

    a sensitive, alienated, geeky nerd. No friends. I was talking to my father, begging him to stop drinking. I wasn’t begging for his sake anymore at that point; I was begging for me. Not that I’d say that to him. Out of nowhere he looked me in the eye and said, “You know...
    ColdMountain ColdMountain
    61-65, M
    Nov 26, 2014

    Okay my dad went to rehab

    and i honestly thought it would help him. I prayed it would help him and that he would change. But of course he clearly hasnt, he came home from rehab friday afternoon and by saturday night he was drunk. This time im done, the divorce is happening and my mom is ready. Im done...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233
    22-25, F
    Jan 19, 2014

    Still A Tad Angry - But Now I Know That'S OK

    My story is that of an AC of an alcoholic. We all have individual experiences and somewhat similar stories. Sometimes it was the dad, sometimes you mom, sometimes both parents were the problems. I was relieved to discover just how "typical" I am. It's no longer my burden to...
    ninjakitteh ninjakitteh
    41-45, F
    Apr 19, 2013

    my mother and I lived under the same roof

    and didn't speak for two years because she was always passed out drunk during the day...my step dad was a narssasistic manic drunk who abused me in every way...I have panic attacks and fits of rage and am terrified most all the time. I seem to be self defeating too considering I...
    ashespain ashespain
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Feb 9

    Today I went to visit an old Catholic mission

    with my dad. I didn't have very much fun since my dad was hungover as hell. He just seemed like he didn't wanna go anywhere. We only stayed like 2hours when we planned to stay 5 or so to look around in the historic streets. I felt uncomfortable. I can never go places with him...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 9

    Dysfunction Woven In With Good

    i come from a family of 8...our dad was an alchoholic who switched to painkillers later in life....he's passed now but i think he had a narcissistic/borderline personality. i also think he had limited capability to love but did love us. my mom was always working and trying to...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 1, 2012

    Okay so today i made a drastic decision

    which is going to change my life forever. I came home and had to witness my mom crying, i knew that he had hit her so i called 911 on him. My dad was also impaired and drove. Now hes in jail, i have a restraining order against him and my moms going to get a divorce. Money is...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 21, 2014

    I feel like I'm in a constant battle with my

    alcoholic father. I'm 27, living on my own and far away from him. But I struggle with how to maintain communication with him that he so desperately wants. After years of emotional and verbal abuse I finally put my foot down over this past summer. I said "If you ever drink...
    nakiyame nakiyame
    26-30, F
    Mar 4, 2015

    I am 36 and was raised with two alcoholic

    parents, I am a control freak and have an incredibly hard time having fun. I am trying really hard to leave the past in the past and learn to live life differently but it is really hard. I am an extremely over protective parent I think because I feel like I was not protected at...
    Knitwhit4321 Knitwhit4321
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Feb 4, 2014

    And My Parents Were Too.

    and if I did more family history, I'd be willing to bet that they're parents were as well. It's a cycle I'd like very much to break, and yet, I find that I like alcohol too... ... and it scares me.
    carolynblueyes carolynblueyes
    22-25, F
    Nov 18, 2011

    My poor dad!!! He claims he doesn't drink

    but the way he comes in on weekends up until 3am, says otherwise
    itsthisgirlagain itsthisgirlagain
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 17, 2014

    I Still Love You, Daddy

    I was my Daddy's little girl, his first-born, his only daughter and his pet. Even in diapers, I could usually get my way around him. My 7-year-old stepsister must have felt like a second-class citizen, for at least a few months. But Daddy had a terrible habit. He drank like a...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine
    61-65, F
    1 Response Mar 28, 2013

    I was raised by a beautiful,

    charismatic, hilarious single mother whose life spiraled downwards after she started drinking. She was an alcoholic before I was born (mostly due to the fact that she couldn't get over her own mother's death) and even though she turned into a "different person" when she drank, I...
    ASmallVictory ASmallVictory
    26-30, F
    Dec 1, 2013

    The night the ashtray broke was

    when I first understood something was wrong at my house. I noticed things before, like my parents spending hours at the table talking, or the time my father tripped on the cellar stairs and broke his foot, but at the time I was too young to know. I was about eight. My father...
    ColdMountain ColdMountain
    61-65, M
    Nov 25, 2014

    I thought my mom was trying to stop.

    I always ask her to and she says she will all the time. At around 7 she came home very drunk
    MrPerry MrPerry
    18-21, M
    Mar 31, 2014

    My Dad was an alcoholic.

    He drank every day until he died from a stroke aged 74. I have no recollection of any love from him - just alcohol and dozens of women who he cheated with. The impact on the family cannot be fully understood. I have issues to this day that I link to his drinking. His...
    DumbLondoner DumbLondoner
    51-55, M
    1 Response Mar 10

    I just recently read The Laundry List,

    and it opened my eyes. It hits the nail on the head, and it's a bit overwhelming how much it explained some of my "issues". It's a sad realization that we're already broken from the time we were children.... and it's going to be a long road of reflecting inward to fix the hurt...
    DAO2484 DAO2484
    31-35, F
    Sep 28, 2014

    Hello there. If anyone needs to let out some

    steam, then visit this website: Children of Addicted Parents and People http://www.coap.org.uk/ Its where I get great advice from people who have been through the same experience as I.
    ScarletRed000 ScarletRed000
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 7, 2015

    Update on this: I just talked to my mother

    for the first time. She broke her hip today and needed to put in a metal rod to keep her together. But they're basically telling us that they're trying to keep her comfortable until she goes. She was given 150 MCG's of fentanyl and some dilaudid. And is still in some pain... I...
    Hunnylovie Hunnylovie
    26-30, F
    Feb 26, 2015

    16 ACoA Characteristics (Interesting Article)

    "A Primer on Adult Children of Alcoholics" by Dr. Timmen L. Cermak 1. Fear of losing control. ACoAs maintain control of their feelings and behavior. In addition, they try to control the feelings and behavior of others. They do not do this to hurt themselves or others, but...
    Atreasure Atreasure
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2013

    I wish there was a way to tell my mother how

    much her untreated alcoholism effects us all. One would think that it she be as simple as verbally telling her, but the rage and personal attack to myself and family that would follow would make that irrelevant. I think about it every day. I think about her and how much I wish...
    skcbanana skcbanana
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 30, 2014

    I am an ACOA because the Bioglocal Mother was

    an Alcoholic. This is more of an interesting thing and need to ask any other ACOAs if they experienced a similar problem in a work place. I been asking these sorts of questions for a while now. I have started to question Employee Disengagement as I learned this is a world...
    Vinnie01 Vinnie01
    31-35, M
    Mar 17

    My mother was alcohol dependent,

    and wouldn't be satisfied at the finest restaurant unless they served beer or she could bring her own. She probably put away at least a quart a day, often passing out in her chair in front of the tv following her evening's consumption. Her drinking continued into her old age...
    Fyrefox Fyrefox
    56-60, M
    Nov 15, 2015

    Hi, I am the daughter of an alcoholic father.

    I am in a communication class and studying about this. Can you please take 5 minutes to quickly take this survey? www.surveymonkey.com/r/JGWX7MZ
    pmthompson pmthompson
    18-21, F
    Sep 21, 2015

    I am a child of an alcoholic.

    Which would be my mother, She's been an alcoholic probably since before I was born. I didn't really notice until I started getting older.. Probably around when I turned 8. She's the worst alcoholic you could ever come across. I do love her very much though, but she's ruining...
    Andreagallagher Andreagallagher
    22-25, F
    Dec 31, 2013

    Heading to my weekly ACA meeting.

    it's really helpful to be around people that understand.
    eriesisgod eriesisgod
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 30, 2015

    False Safety And The Roles We Played

    I was reading my Yellow book and something came to me like a ton of bricks.The roles of we played or other siblings did:1. The Hero Child - He/she might seek to make good grades at school. This child shows the world that the family is stable.2. The Mascot Child - This child...
    Atreasure Atreasure
    46-50, F
    3 Responses May 8, 2013
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