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    I Think I Am A Bad Person.

    I am a 16 year old. For the past couple years of my life I have had fantasies about hurting, killing, or raping people. I know its wrong and I never have done it or tried to, I just get these urges to do it to some people. Some for reasons that I will explain and some for no...
    havicdog havicdog 16-17, M 3 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    I was wondering if this is bad

    or makes me a bad person. I am in a relationship but I asked this girl I'd she would date me if I asked her. I didn't actually ask her, just if she would say yes. I wouldn't date her and don't want to. And she lives 10 or 12 hours away. I mainly asked because I have self esteem...
    canyouhearthedrums canyouhearthedrums 26-30, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Life handed me lemons.

    I tried to make lemonade. Hit with a lemon truck. I tried to duck. Why does life suck? I look in the mirror. And see a stranger. Smile has been stolen. My eyes are swollen. Why get out of bed? I'd rather be dead. ********************************* I am a bad person...
    wtf4 wtf4 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 18, 2013

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    Yes I am a bad person,

    for getting so jealous over my ex who's got a boyfriend, and here's me with my paranoia playing up everyday wondering what they're doing together and when she tells me all the stuff they do it's literally killing me slowly on the inside and it's so painful, **** thing is I...
    Verix Verix 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    I'll start cutting sometime today I don't want

    to act like a pathetic clown here anymore. Scissors will be my friend, no longer my wrist but my stomach then no one can see it. It'll heal eventually or not I don't care. People make me want to do it and I hate myself for being so weak. I won't hate myself anymore I'll just...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 6, 2014

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    Bedeviled By A Disabled Kid

    Okay, Here is my confession.  I want to strangle my neighbor -- and/or her retarded kid.  There.  I said it.  Actually I wrote it.  It's now forever emblazoned, in print, on the internet.  I AM a bad person. When my neighbor 1st moved in, we went to visit.  Her retarded...
    Colormevibrant Colormevibrant 46-50, F 7 Responses Mar 16, 2011

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    I made people on the internet fall in love with.

    I did it because I wanted to feel loved and worthy. I pretended that i loved those people but I did not. I know I 'abused' people and I feel really bad for them now. It were all broken people. I pretended I loved them, they started loving me and I fellt good for a moment. When I...
    appelpeer appelpeer 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 24, 2014

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    I am very bad I've cheated on my wife,

    I give in to temptation and I have bad thoughts about others. There are some people who have wished me dead. I really don't deserve anything good.
    GhostlyDog GhostlyDog 46-50, M 2 Responses Nov 28, 2014

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    The bad in me far surpasses any good.

    I seem to only live for sex and instant gratification and convenience. I don't know how to work long and hard for something. It's much easier to accept that I can't have it and live without it. I am dishonest to myself and to everyone around me. I keep deluding myself into...
    shouldievenbother shouldievenbother 26-30, F Jan 8

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    I constantly think about being pummeled in the

    face, and how much better that would feel than this despondent feeling of being absolutely numb
    Jitterbug77 Jitterbug77 18-21, F Nov 17, 2014

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    I have done things that I'm not proud of ,

    I lots my virginity when I was 14. Started with drugs , drinking and smoking at the age of 20 , thanks to my brother . These habits never left me and it seems like a battle getting over them , but I like it. I like the feeling of bad , I've always loved it.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27, 2014

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    ...and I Love It.

    I am a bad person because people mean nothing to me. I have no attachments to anyone therefore I do not care for anyone. Because I do not care I use and abuse others in order to attain my own selfish desires and I have to say I am quite content with that. Sometimes I play around...
    PerpetualAmbivalence PerpetualAmbivalence 22-25, F 18 Responses Mar 7, 2011

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    When I Look In the Mior I Dont Like What I See.

    i'm a bad person. i dont like the the person i am i feel like i let my family dawn i have troubles ceeping a clean house some one turned us in one tim saying me and my husdand wasnt good parents i feel that way alout i fieel like i dont desirve to have a son and a husdand i think...
    halfpint halfpint 26-30, M 2 Responses May 3, 2007

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    Faking Online Profile Identity

    i dont know what i was doing but i first decided to create a fake online profile on facebook. im a girl and i just want to know what it feels like to be an attractive boy. and it just progressed to the facebook account having thousand of friends. i got really disgusted as i was...
    sighingz sighingz 18-21 3 Responses Jul 13, 2013

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    When Buddhist preaching talks about impermanence

    and to always contemplate the prospect of death always. I think about death in a suicide manner. Isn't it messed up?
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F Sep 9, 2014

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    I manipulated my friends

    and the people around me. I wanted things and I used sympathy and guilt to get what I wanted. I got greedy and my well off friend proved that all I really wanted was to have his wealth. I even went as far as to tell him to incorporate me in his will. I'm a bad person. I want to...
    SylverCoyote SylverCoyote 18-21, M Dec 23, 2014

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    So we have this team activity in school

    where we basically play survivor (like the tv show) except with core academics. So we are allowed to form alliances and the first place winner gets 10 points on one of their final exams so my team is in second place and I already have made arrangements to take out the first...
    Nightfang109 Nightfang109 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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    Storm

    You have been my best friend for the past 5 years and I'm sorry I didn't take you out and spend as much time with you as what I wanted to. You were the most compassionate friend I had. I loved you with all my heart and my life will be empty without you by my side. Im so sorry...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    I Do It Anyways

    I think the worst part about my bad behaviors is that I fully and completely understand what I need to do to prevent them and control them, yet, I make the same mistakes anyways. As much as I want to believe that I can stop them from continuing, the rational side of me knows that...
    LookingButNeverFound LookingButNeverFound 22-25 Jun 1, 2013

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    Ugh I'm sick of myself,

    I hurt everyone around me and I don't want to do it but I do because of my stupid ****** ******* mental problems and the abuse I got for 7 years.. AAGH!
    RazorToMySkin RazorToMySkin 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 1, 2014

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    If I can't find someone soon

    or a reason that motivates me enough to continue living I'll end it on my own terms. It's my fault for being a pathetic, lousy, lazy, depressing, negative, whining person. Or maybe I'll point a gun at a policeman and he'll have to kill me. It's be quite cool to go out like that...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    Are you a bad person?

    depends who you ask
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    This is a song I dedicate to those I find

    attractive who'd never give me a second glance lol... "Now I'll be glad when you die, you rascal you, uh-huh I'll be glad, oh I'll be tickled to death when you leave this earth it's true, oh yeah When you're lyin' down six feet deep, no more fried chicken will you eat I'll be...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    On the out side, I'm

    that girl that everybody (well, most people) love and I'm so nice and *good* but on the inside I'm just... This horrible person who's done so many bad things; someone who can't be saved no matter how hard I fight for her.. And by far only one person has learned that and I'm...
    MissGorgeous MissGorgeous 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    Yes.

    Yes I am a bad person. Very bad actually. Most who know me online and offline would most likely disagree, but I know who I am they don't. Even though I will probably come off as a sweet girl who genuinely cares for people I'm more than that. So much more and not all of that is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    People tell me I'm not bad.

    I try to warn them but they never listen. I hide it naturally my mean behavior. Plus I don't socialize much since I'm homeschooled and iv currently stopped talking to my last two friends. Iv watched my mom cry in front of me many times and iv never comforted her. I even laughed...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    I have lost my ability to trust

    or respect women. I no longer allow women into my real world life & act like a jerk to new women who try to friend me.
    Foenix Foenix 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 31, 2014

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    Bad Man

    I know I am a bad person. I used to be fine with it. But now I feel the emotions coming back. They flood my body. I used to do this kind of thing every day. I hate to think that I am feeling the consiquences now.... Everyone knows how terrible I am now...
    QuincyArcher QuincyArcher 22-25 6 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    I Hurt Her. . . . A Lot.

    I am seen by most as a good person that is willing to help others and want to do good in the community. I am intending to become a teacher and will graduate in the next six months to teach middle school math. I was dating this girl off and on but mostly on for three years until a...
    lipscoml13 lipscoml13 22-25 2 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    Well at work that young dopey kid .

    I just to support him cause he is really dumb and I protect him so that no one could hurt him.I shout at anyone if they try to give him trouble.But today he did mistake and try to do compitition with me and called me slow.And his bad day start from today hahaha. For good people...
    Johnnystha Johnnystha 26-30, M Jul 16, 2014

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    I am a bad person because I hated my parents

    and hate my sisters and I have slowly over the years taken everything and left them all with nothing. I have no real emotions and every time I've ever cried in my life it has been fake. I watch soap operas all the time and can't feel anything real. I am very much over...
    heathercc heathercc 46-50 1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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    Just Awful.

    I am a bad person. Not in the actions I do, but the way I am. I am a Horrible human being. Humans are sposed to live life knowing that they are going to accomplish something, and that others around them support them and love them. Humans strive, Humans love, humans feel, human...
    dearveronica dearveronica 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 7, 2012

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    I've done bad things

    and having a hard time believing I am worthy of being loved.
    LauraLy3 LauraLy3 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2014

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    A Part Of Me I Don't Understand

    I got reminded of a part of me I don't really like yesterday. I was at a Big Lot parking lot , when a man walked up. (Friendly type),  He ask me if I could spare a little change. I didn't have any to spare, but we talked for awhile. I told him I was staying at a homeless...
    kidkeith kidkeith 51-55, M 11 Responses May 17, 2011

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    I hate myself. I resent people with joy in

    their lives. I drink too much. I cant stop myself. Sometimes I will wake up and see things I have destroyed in my house and I don't remember doing it. My child hid from me when I would drink and I would scream and yell for her to come out. I terrorized her. Then I finally...
    sinabet sinabet 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 17, 2014

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    I Know I Am, And I Won't Deny It.

    I am not a bad person other than the fact that I've really hurt someone. This wasn't intentional, yet I still feel responsible. Thinking back, I could've done something to prevent it but the fact that I hadn't, makes me a bad person. Yes, unintentional... but what excuse is there...
    Athru Athru 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    I am a bad person with a ****** personality

    and a bad attitude and all I do is push people away...
    bellsmarrie bellsmarrie 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2014

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    Suu . Please , don't say sorry - ever .

    I was supposed to be the one who asked for apologies , not you. Please , just go away. I was supposed to be the one who asked you to stay , not you. Please . I have wronged you so much that I can't bring myself to say sorry . Because I know I will do it again like I always do...
    chanceux chanceux 16-17 Jul 31, 2014

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    I want to bring someone

    as low as I can. I want to ruin her life like she ruined mine. and all she did was exist. I hate how she gets exactly what she wants and doesn't have to work for it like I do. and I hate how everyone loves her but forgets about me. I got on some of her pictures and commented...
    battlefighter battlefighter 18-21, F Sep 28, 2014

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    And I don't care at all anymore.

    Might as well enjoy life.
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 11 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    Okay, so I got back home today from college (I

    go to college from home) and my mother opened the door. Her eyes were swollen and red from crying. I had no idea what had happened at home. So I asked my little sister, and she said that my parents had had a fight and that my father had left home. I asked her details about the...
    aphoenix7777 aphoenix7777 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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    My choices haunt me at night.

    Every time someone tells me I am the sweetest, most gentle, loving person they have met it makes my stomach turn. It is so easy to act, but I am starting to slip up. Behind closed doors I hate myself. I only married because in reality I am learning, it was because I didn't want...
    CrashingComet CrashingComet 22-25 Jul 24, 2014

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    Fix Me If You Can.

    I'm not a bad person because of the things I've done, but because of the way I think.. God forgives murderers and prostitutes and thieves, but what can God do with people who won't stay faithful, with people who continue sinning after receiving His forgiveness? I know what it...
    prodigarl prodigarl 18-21, F 9 Responses Apr 13, 2012

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    I Know I'm A Bad Person But I Want To Change.

    Everyone who knows me always describes me as a mean,bad, and snob person. Even those who don't know me well, have the same description on their first impression of me too. I don't understand why they always think of me like that perhaps they just don't like me at all. When i was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Aug 17, 2012

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    I try to be a good person

    but I'm so bad at it. I am naturally angry/grouchy. It's nearly impossible for me to be a good person. Now as Zuko would say: Why am I so bad at being good?!?
    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog 70+, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2014

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    No Matter How You Look At It...

    ... i suck.I am a bad person.Actually i hate myself.I'm too selfish.I think just about my precious time.I'm too lazy and too unmotivated.A lot of times when i could help i just didn't.And i hate it.I screw everything i touch.I always fake my true feelings.I think that i don't...
    pro0ject pro0ject 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 1, 2010

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    Two people have came to me today with "I want

    to die" and " I'm really depressed, sorry" I tried talking to the first one and she just isn't understanding but I think I might have got to her, I don't know. The second one sometimes acts like he doesn't care when I get depressed so I just said it's okay and we had a...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 21, 2014

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    Phew. You know. I cannot help myself doing

    foolish stuffs eventhough im already a Christian. Or to think foolish things. Am i being bad? Its quite hard to tell. Since we're already saved of our sins. Maybe it will take time.. Or maybe, im just too young. :p for some serious stuffs. Anyways.. It's me! :D or isnt it me...
    blitzkrieg7 blitzkrieg7 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 15, 2014

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    I really am. I mean I haven't gone out with the

    sole purpose of committing genocide, but I'm not a good person. I'm selfish and wallow in my own misery and I'm not willing to try to help others to happiness. I tried. I tried being sweet and nice, but I'm just so sad and angry and want everyone else to leave me alone but they...
    JustLazyLittleMe JustLazyLittleMe 16-17, F Mar 10, 2014

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    My mother just come over from her room to talk

    and I don't want to talk to her. I drove her away by concentrating on my mobile phone. It's rude I know, and this type of behavior is unacceptable. I start to doubt if I really love her, I used to be so certain so sure about the love I have for her. Now I'm not so sure... I...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    Natural Failure

    I want to type this and dedicate it to my mom.. I know she'll never read it but thats fine.. Even if she did would she care? I doubt it.. Well.. Mom i know i said a mean joke but in my eyes it wasn't even mean.. and i didn't know it would make you so upset.. But when you talk...
    HeartAndWings HeartAndWings 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    I Joined This Group

    Just to tell