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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 11,692 People

    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    tonight is a bad night.

    i feel so unhappy right now. i just want to be loved. but i cant even love myself. let me drown in memories instead. but that won't make me feel better. i dont understand why im so unset right now. i just want something to feel.
    dancinglawn dancinglawn 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25

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    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8 36-40, F 5 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    Please look at my page about the abuse I was

    forced to endure by my mother Letters to the My mother and anyone that thinks child abuse is ok
    letters2mymother letters2mymother 41-45, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 21 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 55 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    I am a victim of child abuse .

    I've been abused by my dad ever since i was 3 years old. It stopped about a year ago right after I went to childcare .
    emmie278 emmie278 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    In my family, the only person I was really

    close to was my mother. Once my parents divorced my brother and I lived with my mother while my father moved to the city. My mother slowly become physically and mentally abusive, beating and constantly emotionally messing with my brother and I. My brother adapted these methods...
    marcyr marcyr 16-17, M 10 Responses Jun 7

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    Just a small reminder

    that you are not alone, it was not your fault, and there is still good in the world, it can just be hard to find. You're strong, you CAN do this.
    Jekkasaur Jekkasaur 22-25, F 5 Responses May 15

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    I really want to vent.

    I guess I’m having one of those nights where most things make me angry. I’m angry in a really personal and selfish way so it’s difficult to share. I’m hoping writing it down and sharing it here will help me deal with what’s going through my head. What I really hate is...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 3

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    To my father & abuser

    for 25 years: I am writing to inform you that I know exactly who and what you are. (A Malignant Narcissist, psychopath, antisocial, wife beater, child abuser, blackmailer, emotional terrorist, bully & emotional rapist, basically a loser). Additionally, despite your many years...
    wowodeals wowodeals 26-30, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 34 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 14 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 8 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    I am a victim of child abuse .

    I have been abused by my dad every since i was 3 years old. It stopped about a year ago
    empje3 empje3 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 18 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    What do you guys think about all the groups here

    who support corporal punishment? Is spanking/hitting kids ok in any circumstance? Do you consider this child abuse?
    StellaNoir StellaNoir 31-35, F 10 Responses May 23

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    Sexual abuse. I was sexually abused

    as a child and it's the biggest secret I have. I suppressed the memories because I was very young but I always had flashbacks. They came periodically but I never paid them attention. I didn't want to deal with the pain that came with them. But I knew I was different. I cringed...
    Dezaria Dezaria 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    My dad started off as a good man.

    It was only when I was 3 that he began abusing my mother then me. He would come home drunk and we would both hide in a closet and hope he fell asleep before he found us. Sometimes he would end up breaking my mums arm or my leg and we would go to hospital but just tell the nurses...
    Alexrrrr Alexrrrr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20

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    So many people carrying the same wounds

    and pain… I am one of them…My mother abused me horribly, but I managed disconnect from her as I was age 4-5. I told myself: this is not my other, it’s completely insane person and I would fight back to survive. Kind of you are at war… when you are fighting back, you...
    soulbridge soulbridge 36-40, F 1 Response May 6

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    I think about what life might be like

    if I could talk about who I am. I started lying about who I was at an age where lying seems unconscionable. These were my lies-- I wasn't afraid all the time. I didn't worry ulcers into my gut about what was going to happen next. I wasn't an unhappy child. You forced me...
    penwithajen penwithajen 41-45, F 1 Response May 14

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 45 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    Things were done to me by my Mom

    and Dad. I remember the things they did, and I remember their faces while they were doing it. But when I try to say it out loud, or admit it to myself, I feel ashamed, and I wonder if I just made it up. But I know it happened, and I always knew it happened. I tried sharing it...
    trek99 trek99 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 6

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    You know those moments

    when you just want to be rescued, to be taken out of the situation you've been put in? Everytime I feel I am getting somewhere in life, I come tumbling back down to fall in the same place I started, my mothers house. I've moved out, moved country and changed phone numbers, I've...
    AmnesiaPlease AmnesiaPlease 18-21, M 2 Responses May 19

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    okay here goes, my first memory i remember is

    when i was 3 and my dad bought me a play house castle i had so much fun with it. i walk out my room and see my dad beating my naked mom, i'll never forget that its burned in my brain. my dad left after a while and my mom met the devil himself it is because of this that i feel i...
    IamTheReject IamTheReject 18-21, M 2 Responses May 23

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    That moment when you can hear them coming up

    the stairs you hide under the covers shaking your hart pounding like locomotive as the door handle turns you try to pretend to be sleep in hope that it will get them to leave you alone as you cry quietly with out trying to make a sound it haunts you for ever every time you close...
    JessicababyBell JessicababyBell 26-30, T 2 Responses May 17

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    When I was like 5 my moms boyfriend would abuse

    me and my brothers everyday until she got home it was a living hell.
    Marines75 Marines75 13-15, M 8 Responses Mar 22

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    I was in foster care

    for a few years when I was younger and it was the worst time of my life. One family in particular made me into who I am today by making every day a living hell. I don't even think I have the emotional capacity of most people because I had to shut everything out back then in...
    lubesh lubesh 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Being a survivor is something I embrace in

    myself. I could ponder endlessly as to why I experienced the trauma... and believe me, I have. But honestly, I've fought hard to put it behind me and rise above... to end the nightmare of the storm it created within me. Surviving is about living... and life is too short for...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 9 Responses Jan 26

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 24 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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    I don't remember allot about my childhood.

    but I remember the abuse more clearly. I really wish I could get mental help. it's like my hart has shattered into shards of glass .
    flowergirl1997 flowergirl1997 18-21, F 20 Responses May 23

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    I am twenty and I am still haunted on what my

    parents did to me when I was little. They have done everything from emotional manipulation to mental abuse; they even have gotten physical at some points, and I just don't know how to move on with my life if they won't admit to what they did to me when I was little. I want to...
    icanonlydeterminemyhappiness icanonlydeterminemyhappiness 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    Does anyone know how to move past it.

    I drank the pain away for a long time and now I'm sober.. I have also been in a relationship with a very abusive woman too. I don't want be a victim ever again. It's hard to function . I gravitate to abusive people. How do I move on and stop being a victam
    sirnatural sirnatural 31-35, M 3 Responses May 20

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    It's one off them things to grow up in constant

    fear and cry your self to sleep every night is a thing people can't possibly have any idea what it's like unless they lived n been throw it people tell you get over it move on but that is far easier said than done when inside you dead any you mind snapped
    littlebabybell littlebabybell 13-15, T 7 Responses May 19

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    It may seem like a small thing to some

    and that is fine cause it happen to me.
    Keith490 Keith490 46-50, M 3 Responses May 17

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    I don't understand why some people look away.

    I truly hated my neighbor for not intervening.My mother physically,emotional,and sexually abused my siblings and I.Finally we had gotten some reprieve as we were scattered to live with various relatives and to foster homes. It was easy for me not to repeat the cycle.And am not...
    Duckygirl2 Duckygirl2 46-50, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Time To Share

    I haven't really talked a whole lot about my past here, but recently, I think I have felt inspired to do so because of the strength of other friends in my circle who have talked about their experience. I think it's important to share, not for the purpose of reliving the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Apr 30, 2011

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    I'm a 13 year old girl,

    I was born on 9/11/2001 the exact day and time the first plane hit the World Trade Center in NY city. When my parents found out I was born on the same day, they immediately started to hate me. My parents wouldn't feed me or clothe me. I nearly died when I was 3 because my...
    Ellie1dale Ellie1dale 22-25, F 8 Responses May 16

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    I'm still not certain about being a survivor.

    Mom was 15 when I was born, and I was 5 when she and her new boyfriend were murdered. They were both bound and forced to watch her ex-boyfriend sexually assault me, and then I was taped to a ladder-backed chair and watched while he brutally murdered them. My family was very...
    scarred4lifeby5 scarred4lifeby5 61-65, M 1 Response Jun 1

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    LETTER TO MY MOTHER when I was 4,

    I remember standing at the door on the right side of the house in Waterloo, crying and begging you to take me to grandmas with the boys but you never let me go. You made me stay by myself with randy,(my bio father) all day and most of the evening. You knew what he was doing to...
    letters2mymother letters2mymother 41-45, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 118 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    When my parents divorced I was only 5 years old.

    My mother had to work long hours and left me with my grandparents. My grandmother (step grandmother) was the meanest, and most cruel woman I have ever encountered in my lifetime. I suffered physical, emotional, and mental abuse on a daily basis for 8 years. I never shared...
    StarAngels StarAngels 46-50, F 3 Responses Jun 18

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 32 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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