I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    I have carried the guilt

    and pain with me for over 30 years never telling anyone what had happened. Its only now i find the strength to talk about the abuse. Why does it have to be so hard. I have days when i just want to end it all but somehow just keep on going.
    alexed65 alexed65
    51-55, M
    6 Responses Mar 7, 2014


    READ THESE BOOKS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR BRAIN AND HOW TO IMPROVE IT. What happened is you lacked human intimacy and attachment. You were starved for love, and if you're still lacking healthy intimate attachment relationship as an adult, then you are still some...
    Ajushi Ajushi
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2014

    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66
    51-55, F
    30 Responses Aug 27, 2009

    The abuse lasted from 5-21.

    The physical only stopped when I was able to fight back. The emotional led to me sleeping in a car 6 months pregnant and then having to give up my first born for adoption. I hate my family with every fiber of my being but can not cut ties with them. I live with a partner who...
    TenaciousSmile TenaciousSmile
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 23, 2016

    Hi, so I'm not even sure

    if I'm going to post this but. It started when I was 8, ended when I was 14. My stepfather sexually assaulted me. So then, when I was 17 I reported to the police what happened. Two years later, that takes us to today. I finished court a month ago. The judge gave the...
    plutosonealien plutosonealien
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 16, 2016

    My mother set me up for a life time of abuse.

    After the whole kicking the **** out of me and braking my collar bone incident my mother gives my father an ultimatum "If you lay a hand on him again I will leave you". Giving this ultimatum to a man with a bad temper, an only child that never learned to share. Losing the only...
    primate954 primate954
    51-55, M
    Mar 19, 2016
    goddessshelle goddessshelle
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2016

    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom
    10 Responses Jul 20, 2013

    Back in 2008 when I was living with my mom

    and her gf, because she felt I would do better in school. Everything was just fine for the first month until I spotted her smoking out of this pipe I had no clue what it was during tht time. Her and her girlfriend would yell at me scream. One time my mom got on top of me and...
    easilyxgrimess easilyxgrimess
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Feb 22, 2016

    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight
    41-45, M
    9 Responses Jun 19, 2013

    I am not sure if I was abused by my male cousin

    as a child of 10 or not . My family had money problems and we had to move in with my aunts and male cousin. I was told to share his bed . I was 10 and he was 11 , we had never been close at all. I got undressed in the dark and got into bed with him He had a flashlight under...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 11, 2016

    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted
    14 Responses Dec 5, 2013

    I was molested by my best friends dad in their

    home when I was 4 years old. It impacted my life up until adulthood. I wad mostly depressed as a child and teen. I felt very insecure,numb, and fearful most of my childhood because of what happened . When i turned 19 it all caught up to me and all the pain and hurt was too much...
    MissAnnieJ MissAnnieJ
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Mar 4, 2016

    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope
    51-55, F
    17 Responses Sep 26, 2013

    I was abused in a foster home.

    Males who have been raped and sexually abused, you're not alone. I'm not comfortable sharing my story so publicly but I'm here for anyone who needs to talk.
    lubesh lubesh
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jul 27, 2015

    Time To Share

    I haven't really talked a whole lot about my past here, but recently, I think I have felt inspired to do so because of the strength of other friends in my circle who have talked about their experience. I think it's important to share, not for the purpose of reliving the...
    deleted deleted
    27 Responses Apr 30, 2011

    I was sexually abused by two brothers over a

    four year period. It started when i was 8. Thought it was my fault, still kinda do. I mean, if I hadn't been born, it wouldn't of happened. I had the same nightmare night after night. When I finally told someone, I felt so embarrassed. I still do to this day. I couldn't change...
    gr8love gr8love
    36-40, F
    18 Responses Mar 9, 2014

    I don't remember allot about my childhood.

    but I remember the abuse more clearly. I really wish I could get mental help. it's like my hart has shattered into shards of glass .
    flowergirl1997 flowergirl1997
    18-21, F
    16 Responses May 23, 2015

    You have no morals if you force someone to face

    their abuser. "She's your mother" is not a effing excuse.
    PetiteChica PetiteChica
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 13, 2016

    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby
    31-35, F
    140 Responses Mar 18, 2011

    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum
    26-30, F
    22 Responses Mar 30, 2008

    In a couple days I am going to see my abuser

    for the first time in a long time. I am nervous but I know I can do it. I've made it this far....
    igotthesunshiningoutmyass igotthesunshiningoutmyass
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 23, 2016

    The Surprising Difference Between Effects of

    Abuse & Neglect By Jonice Webb PhD While emotionally abusing a child is like emotionally punching him, Emotional Neglect is more akin to failing to water a plant. While the emotionally abused child learns how to brace for a punch, the emotionally neglected child learns how to...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 18, 2016

    " I am " I am 16 But mentally I am 10

    Emotionally I am afraid of everything I am a victim of abuse and I am ashamed . No one knows how hard it's to hide the pain behind a mask . The memory's will always haunting but I am trying to forget . The emotional wounds just won't go away . I am dead inside just a shell...
    kittenmajor kittenmajor
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Feb 6, 2016

    When I was 5 yrs. old I had a small rocking

    chair that my grandfather gave me. It was a rocking chair made by my grandfathers toy company that made stuffed animals. I was getting ready for bed and I was straightening up my room. I put my bingo game on the rocking chair. The rocking chair rocked back and my game landed on...
    primate954 primate954
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Mar 19, 2016

    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Nov 22, 2014


    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie
    46-50, M
    14 Responses Sep 27, 2012

    When I was like 5 my moms boyfriend would abuse

    me and my brothers everyday until she got home it was a living hell.
    Marines75 Marines75
    16-17, M
    11 Responses Mar 22, 2015

    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted
    25 Responses Jun 10, 2013

    I was abused s3xually by a family member

    and verbally abused by a parent growing up. I survived, but it left some scars one was acute fear and panic attacks. I made many bad decisions in my life all because of fear. It impacted my marriage, myself, and my children. I had no self esteem at all and lost myself in...
    Iamonlyheretowrite1 Iamonlyheretowrite1
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Jan 3, 2016

    I guess I was technically abused

    though I've never really looked at it that way. When I was 12 I had an older male friend of the family who would look after me when my parents were both traveling. One day we were just hanging out at home and we were talking about girls and sex and we got on the topic of...
    jeepxjdude2000 jeepxjdude2000
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Jan 15, 2016

    What do you do or what can you do

    when you take a look at your past and get that heavy burden of having lived through all the abuse? I can't even begin to count the horrors inflicted on me by the people who I called my care givers, family, best friends and lovers. What do you do when the burden is too heavy...
    lycheechan lycheechan
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Mar 22, 2016

    My mother in law raped my brother in law

    when he was little! He was a mess on drugs and alcohol and finally committed suicide. I believe my husband was molested or raped too but has pushed the memories down! My brother in law told his father, and sister but they did not tell the mother until I confronted them after his...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 21, 2016

    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi
    70+, F
    9 Responses Feb 3, 2014

    The tears of pain that i have been bottling up

    for ten years or most my life have came out i can't take the painful memories. I am coping with severe ptsd from the childhood abuse the abuse i got as i was older rape etc.. I was locked up in a basement as a kid beaten and i have been mentally reliving the moment that came...
    kawidude88 kawidude88
    26-30, M
    Mar 15, 2016

    I'm 16 years old. My Step father sexually,

    emotionally, and physically abused me since i was 9 years old. I can't escape. He won't stop screaming. I won't stop self harming. I'm so hurt.
    AnotherDepressedGirl AnotherDepressedGirl
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jan 9, 2016

    Sometimes, I probably come off

    as cold. My personality definitely changes around them. My mother and sister especially. When I’m around them, I’m more closed off. I don’t smile. I’m not animated. I’m more distant, less talkative and more defensive. This is because I don’t feel safe with either one...
    emilyflys26 emilyflys26
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird
    18-21, F
    34 Responses Jun 28, 2009


    was another night my uncle had stayed over to go work with my dad the next morning. I remember playing with my pink princess bouncy ball in the family room with my two younger sister's Rachel and Char. As we were throwing it to each other, uncle Dan ran in and took the ball and...
    loverenzy loverenzy
    18-21, F
    Jan 11, 2016

    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom
    53 Responses Jan 20, 2012

    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 4, 2014

    I was emotionally, verbally

    and physically abused for 7 years (5-12) by my father, mainly. I can't really remember the first time he started, but it was always my fault. I couldn't relate to him, since he was sick (diabetes, blood clots, ect) and in a wheelchair. Some incidents was when he said, "Everyone...
    sunoae sunoae
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 17, 2016

    I have felt with child abuse from abuse very

    young age. I remember being beaten with cords hangers - she only bought metal ones cause the plastic ones kept breaking.. I remember being beatin by a belt and helpless and small pinned in a closet... I remember my big brother kicking me in the face or hitting me while I still...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 4, 2016

    I didn't join this site with the intention of

    sharing this experience. Not at all. I've previously done so to my therapist, but (with the exception of my sister) no one else. No one. But it is plain to me now that it's essential to do so in order to try to explain my personality and behaviour- to myself if nothing else...
    deleted deleted
    8 Responses Sep 17, 2015

    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Oct 15, 2013

    I have started to write a story more

    than three times here . At the age of 41 im still ashamed. I have angels here that have given me strenght. I am still scarred with blood that will never wash away... tattoos of ripped skin and bruises...lead in my arm. The spector of a two year old girl who never gets any...
    Myeyestellu Myeyestellu
    41-45, F
    7 Responses Jan 11, 2016

    In my family, the only person I was really

    close to was my mother. Once my parents divorced my brother and I lived with my mother while my father moved to the city. My mother slowly become physically and mentally abusive, beating and constantly emotionally messing with my brother and I. My brother adapted these methods...
    marcyr marcyr
    18-21, M
    9 Responses Jun 7, 2015

    To all parents, never trust anyone

    but yourselves with your kids. You think you can trust anyone. You can't. The people you send them off to for learning and outside support could be the ones hurting them. It happened to me. My abusers were elementary school teachers. I was too scared to tell my parents until...
    popguzzlerr popguzzlerr
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 25, 2016

    I have never had not one person to tell me

    that I should stay away from my mother because it could be bad for my health. Because she is a woman I feel like everyone covers up for her and give her excuses when they barely know her...and it's very disappointing when it comes from relatives it makes me feel like me or my...
    PetiteChica PetiteChica
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Feb 3, 2016

    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii
    18-21, F
    44 Responses Jan 5, 2011

    My Life History Part 1: Finally I have some

    quiet time for myself so now I will share my life history with all of you. I hope I will get some insight I haven't came across before. I was born in China in the 80's. From what I know, my parents never lived just by themselves after marriage. They lived with my paternal...
    Yinhx Yinhx
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 20, 2016

    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality
    31-35, F
    21 Responses Oct 14, 2011

    I just want to post a "THANK YOU!

    " to all the people on this site who use their experiences to support others. I've been having a difficult time coping and it usually gets worse around the holidays and my birthday, which is today (yesterday legally but that's a long story). Anyway, thanks guys. Hugs to everyone...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 17, 2015

    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom
    21 Responses Jun 27, 2011

    Today at 39 I started seeing a therapist

    for help with sexual abuse I experienced during my childhood. I didn't know that something that happened to me so very long ago could manifest now when I am almost 40. Trying to be strong.
    goforward19 goforward19
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 16, 2016

    I was 8 years old when he first touched me.

    He was in the basement spending the day at our house watching tv. I went to ask him if he wanted to play with me and my sisters, because he usually would. He told me he was too tired to play so I told him ok. I went turned around and went to walk upstairs until he strangely...
    loverenzy loverenzy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 11, 2016

    I am sixteen now. When I was little I lived

    with my grandparents. My grandfather would sometimes whip me with a belt on my lower half, or yell at me at the top of his lungs sometimes and bang his fists on the table at me, once for messing up on a colouring assignment. and I would run and hide; in closet or under my bed...
    quarked quarked
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jan 20, 2016

    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w
    22-25, F
    19 Responses Apr 22, 2014

    When I was younger I was physically abused

    and threatened by my dad. I had bruises everywhere but i would dare not tell anyone. Now when I look back I feel I am a more stronger person than I could have been and more unlikely to repeat this mistake to my children. For those of you who were or are bullied forgive and be...
    victoria0229 victoria0229
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 20, 2016
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