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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    It's one off them things to grow up in constant

    fear and cry your self to sleep every night is a thing people can't possibly have any idea what it's like unless they lived n been throw it people tell you get over it move on but that is far easier said than done when inside you dead any you mind snapped
    littlebabybell littlebabybell 13-15, T 7 Responses May 19

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    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234 16-17, F 8 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    It may seem like a small thing to some

    and that is fine cause it happen to me.
    Keith490 Keith490 46-50, M 3 Responses May 17

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    With mothers day approaching,

    how are you guys going to handle it? I would love to never speak to my mother again... but we all know it's not always that simple. thoughts?
    Jekkasaur Jekkasaur 22-25, F 6 Responses May 4

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 115 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    Ughhh....

    Before i was 10 Social services used to drop in and check up on me and my younger brother, as my mother was an alcoholic.. when i turned 10 they decided she was stable enough and stopped visiting.. biggest mistake they could of made, since the age of 10 i've had to do the washing...
    Santana2012 Santana2012 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 7, 2012

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 1 Response Apr 2

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Does anyone know how to move past it.

    I drank the pain away for a long time and now I'm sober.. I have also been in a relationship with a very abusive woman too. I don't want be a victim ever again. It's hard to function . I gravitate to abusive people. How do I move on and stop being a victam
    sirnatural sirnatural 31-35, M 3 Responses May 20

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    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 26 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    HOW TO HEAL YOUR BRAIN: 1.

    READ THESE BOOKS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR BRAIN AND HOW TO IMPROVE IT. What happened is you lacked human intimacy and attachment. You were starved for love, and if you're still lacking healthy intimate attachment relationship as an adult, then you are still some...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 8 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 24 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 Apr 2

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    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 20 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    Family punching bag. Outcast.

    That is what I've been my whole life. My mother abandoned me when I was 2. My father took responsibility yet left me with my grandparents for a couple years. He went to Hawaii when I was 3 and met who would become my "mother". They had my brother when I was 4. from the time he...
    H3Rm1t H3Rm1t 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    My dad would hit us in a way

    that wouldn't be acceptable today, but was acceptable then. My mom, on the other hand, would get mad at the drop of a hat, hit my brother or me (or throw things that hit us), but not tell us what we did wrong. One time, she hit me with an object and split my head open. When...
    karlmartink karlmartink 36-40, M 1 Response May 2

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 54 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    Being a survivor is something I embrace in

    myself. I could ponder endlessly as to why I experienced the trauma... and believe me, I have. But honestly, I've fought hard to put it behind me and rise above... to end the nightmare of the storm it created within me. Surviving is about living... and life is too short for...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 9 Responses Jan 26

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    I was very fortunate to have two very loving

    parents whom did everything they could for my sisters and I growing up. Dad came into our lives when I was only four. He in effect saved us all. My mother, my two younger sisters and I. He loved us all with all of his heart. The love that my parents had for each other and...
    snowberry75 snowberry75 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 1

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    Almost my entire childhood,

    I was a victim of my mother's abusive boyfriend's violence. My father was out of the picture due to illness. He was hospitalized for most of my childhood due to diabetes. I was kept away from him by my mother who constantly try to assert her psychotic boyfriend as my father...
    Kenpachi00 Kenpachi00 26-30 2 Responses Apr 12

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    okay here goes, my first memory i remember is

    when i was 3 and my dad bought me a play house castle i had so much fun with it. i walk out my room and see my dad beating my naked mom, i'll never forget that its burned in my brain. my dad left after a while and my mom met the devil himself it is because of this that i feel i...
    IamTheReject IamTheReject 18-21, M May 23

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 26 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    THE TALL POLICEMAN DIDNT LISTEN:It was in May.

    . Still too cold for the public swimming pool to be opened..We lived in Vernayaz, a very small village, close to a town called Martigny, where the public pool was...I was with my friend Sandra who was 7 or 8 like me. It was after lunch, we were walking my dog near an electricity...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 13 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    That moment when you can hear them coming up

    the stairs you hide under the covers shaking your hart pounding like locomotive as the door handle turns you try to pretend to be sleep in hope that it will get them to leave you alone as you cry quietly with out trying to make a sound it haunts you for ever every time you close...
    JessicababyBell JessicababyBell 26-30, T 2 Responses May 17

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 32 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    Time To Share

    I haven't really talked a whole lot about my past here, but recently, I think I have felt inspired to do so because of the strength of other friends in my circle who have talked about their experience. I think it's important to share, not for the purpose of reliving the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Apr 30, 2011

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 19 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 16 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    Just a small reminder

    that you are not alone, it was not your fault, and there is still good in the world, it can just be hard to find. You're strong, you CAN do this.
    Jekkasaur Jekkasaur 22-25, F 5 Responses May 15

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 45 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    Letters To My Father Part One You can never

    tell. That might be the hardest part. You can never tell anyone about what’s happening to you. So you have no one you can trust. No one who will stand by you, or in the way. No one who will take your side. Even as it’s happening all around you, you have no one who'll...
    penwithajen penwithajen 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 18

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    Letter To My 7 Year Old Self

    Hey Kiddo… There are some things you need to know about the stuff you are going through right now. Some of this won’t make sense for a long time. And some of it will go against everything you know about yourself and the people around you. But it needs to be said. 1) It...
    MisfitChris MisfitChris 46-50 3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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    I'm still not certain about being a survivor.

    Mom was 15 when I was born, and I was 5 when she and her new boyfriend were murdered. They were both bound and forced to watch her ex-boyfriend sexually assault me, and then I was taped to a ladder-backed chair and watched while he brutally murdered them. My family was very...
    scarred4lifeby5 scarred4lifeby5 61-65, M 8 hrs ago

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    I was sexual abused as a child

    but I survived, now I am trying to stay strong after my granddaughter was sexual abused by my daughters friend, she's 9 year old and this nightmare is stirring up bad memories I have buried for over 40 years! How can I stay strong for my family when inside I am falling to pieces...
    Christineanne2013 Christineanne2013 51-55, F 4 Responses Apr 23

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    You know those moments

    when you just want to be rescued, to be taken out of the situation you've been put in? Everytime I feel I am getting somewhere in life, I come tumbling back down to fall in the same place I started, my mothers house. I've moved out, moved country and changed phone numbers, I've...
    AmnesiaPlease AmnesiaPlease 18-21, M 2 Responses May 19

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    I was physically abused ever

    since I was 3 years old by both of my parents. I never got out until I was 20 years old. I ran away 3 times. I was molested when I was 7-9 years old. Last summer I was sexually abused by a married man multiple times. But I'm ok. I survived. I think of what happened to me every...
    dancinglawn dancinglawn 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 30

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    I have been dealing with childhood abuse

    for over 50 years as my mother was emotionally, verbally and physically abusive. My father was basically very passive, pretended not to be observant but was emotionally abusive at times also. I was held back in first grade due to my speech problems, immaturity and stuttering...
    musicman10 musicman10 66-70, M 4 Responses Apr 12

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    tonight is a bad night.

    i feel so unhappy right now. i just want to be loved. but i cant even love myself. let me drown in memories instead. but that won't make me feel better. i dont understand why im so unset right now. i just want something to feel.
    dancinglawn dancinglawn 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 Apr 2

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    When I was like 5 my moms boyfriend would abuse

    me and my brothers everyday until she got home it was a living hell.
    Marines75 Marines75 13-15, M 8 Responses Mar 22

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    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    I think about what life might be like

    if I could talk about who I am. I started lying about who I was at an age where lying seems unconscionable. These were my lies-- I wasn't afraid all the time. I didn't worry ulcers into my gut about what was going to happen next. I wasn't an unhappy child. You forced me...
    penwithajen penwithajen 41-45, F 1 Response May 14

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