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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 26 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 8 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    i was nearly 12 year old.

    i have attained puberty but didn't know much about it. i was cute as all young obes are. i used to go to grocery shop on my own . One day i went after sun set. shop owner kept me standing there while he served others. i felt irritated. but have to got things from shop. so i...
    sexaddict1987 sexaddict1987 26-30, M Aug 7

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 24 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    My MN mother abused my cats to assert her power

    over me & to feed off my pain, helplessness and terror. I always felt so guilty that I couldn't protect them from her that I never told anyone about it. Can anyone relate?
    wowodeals wowodeals 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 19 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    It's funny how things happen,

    and how they affect us. I was so starved for love by the time my grandmother hired the second nanny that I ate up being treated like a toddler. It wasn't real love, obviously, but it felt better than the emptiness I had before she came. At times I'm quite sure she got off on...
    scarred4lifeby5 scarred4lifeby5 61-65, M 2 Responses Jul 30

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    letters2mymother letters2mymother 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    to add on to my last post.

    ... when summer started my dad and his gf made me do yard work from 7am-10:00pm every day all summer to pay off the computer I supposedly broke(I didn't break it). I had to pick weeds from the garden all day only having one sandwich pb&j and a canteen filled with water that I...
    Sammie2828 Sammie2828 16-17, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    In my family, the only person I was really

    close to was my mother. Once my parents divorced my brother and I lived with my mother while my father moved to the city. My mother slowly become physically and mentally abusive, beating and constantly emotionally messing with my brother and I. My brother adapted these methods...
    marcyr marcyr 16-17, M 9 Responses Jun 7

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    Being mocked for not being able to get over

    this is messed up but when it's my actual abuser doing it to me, I can't even deal.
    Charper44 Charper44 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 17

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    you didnt believe me you didnt protect me you

    dont deserve my love yet i give it anyway because i am stronger and i dont need you to believe me or protect me anymore ...your broken child
    PixieLoveChild PixieLoveChild 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 8

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    Normal Sex? After years of being abused

    as a child, I’ve always had issues with sex. As a teenager I had a pretty unhealthy relationship with sex. I was always conscious that I didn’t want to hurt anyone, take advantage of anyone or push anyone else’s limits. However, I always craved that for myself. I like to...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 26

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    Anger is not something to be ashamed of.

    Anger is a natural response to injustice and can help break the cycle of abuse. Anger is a crucial part of recovery. Two weeks ago on 7/31/2015, I finally put the pieces together, saw the actions for what they were and realized my mother is not only a victim of a Narcissist...
    wowodeals wowodeals 26-30, F Aug 15

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 34 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    I recently decided to stop speaking to my

    mother. I know she will never admit to what she did, but I was able to overlook it in the interest of my brother. This summer it became too much. Not only would she not admit her crimes, she continues to reference how I am to blame for all the tragedies in our lives. I...
    AliM3ss AliM3ss 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    I don't remember allot about my childhood.

    but I remember the abuse more clearly. I really wish I could get mental help. it's like my hart has shattered into shards of glass .
    flowergirl1997 flowergirl1997 18-21, F 20 Responses May 23

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    You got knocked up and then you served your

    little girl up to your sicko husband while you were at work knowing exactly what he was doing to me. Yes, I do know for a fact that you knew exactly what was going on. which is why you made sure The boys were at grandmas and I was the only one left at home alone with him because...
    letters2mymother letters2mymother 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 20

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    I think I am ready to share my secret

    if you still want to know.
    rehabparty23 rehabparty23 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 3

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 32 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 12 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    I was sexually abused by two brothers over a

    four year period. It started when i was 8. Thought it was my fault, still kinda do. I mean, if I hadn't been born, it wouldn't of happened. I had the same nightmare night after night. When I finally told someone, I felt so embarrassed. I still do to this day. I couldn't change...
    gr8love gr8love 36-40, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    Being a survivor is something I embrace in

    myself. I could ponder endlessly as to why I experienced the trauma... and believe me, I have. But honestly, I've fought hard to put it behind me and rise above... to end the nightmare of the storm it created within me. Surviving is about living... and life is too short for...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 9 Responses Jan 26

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    For almost 2yrs I was physically,

    mentally, and sexually abused by my father and his girlfriend. At first they would beat me whenever I did something like mess up on the dishes, leave a crum on the counter after wiping it, being blamed for random disappearances of food, or items in the house or just broken...
    Sammie2828 Sammie2828 16-17, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I was a child and barely knew what happened to

    me. I got to the age of early 20s and that's all when it kicked in. That is when I put a name to what happened to me and it destroyed me. What I want to say to people who survived sexual abuse ( especially men) is that you can let that ordeal define you as a person but never...
    Jarwan Jarwan 22-25 2 Responses Aug 11

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    I'm not sure the heading is appropriate

    as I am indeed a survivor. Although at the time it never entered my head as abuse even through adolescent years and now into adult life it was abuse but I never saw it that way. I'm still not sure if the term "Abuse" is the correct one to use. I know it affects people...
    heterohelen heterohelen 31-35, F 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    This whole Jared Fogle (Subway guy) thing has

    me really disturbed. He lives not far from me. I was abused as a boy. It's never left me. I never told, and the abuser went unpunished until he was caught many years later for doing the same thing. This has burned my *** for so many years because of the guilt I felt for not...
    tachem46032 tachem46032 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 19

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 126 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    It was never sexual but it was mental

    and physical. I would be beaten for the least little thing and pushed beyond breaking point. There may be no physical scars but the mental ones are still raw.
    Naominatrually Naominatrually 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    When I was like 5 my moms boyfriend would abuse

    me and my brothers everyday until she got home it was a living hell.
    Marines75 Marines75 13-15, M 11 Responses Mar 22

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    stolen youth Only an infant,

    not even a teen, far from being a woman A tiny 3 feet tall human being that you took by the hand You said to me: you're beautiful pretty girl, want to play? Come and see me, I got a secret for you, come my way A nice little game you said, but only for you and me Better not...
    ChantouKimmy ChantouKimmy 41-45, F 21 Responses Aug 11

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    Strong

    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 14 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    I was abused in a foster home.

    Males who have been raped and sexually abused, you're not alone. I'm not comfortable sharing my story so publicly but I'm here for anyone who needs to talk.
    lubesh lubesh 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 27

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    Poem: There Once Was A Girl,

    So Eager To Trust, How Did She Have Such Faith, With So Little Love. The Nightmares Started When She Was Just Two, Growing Into Adulthood, Not Knowing Who Was Who. The Days Were A Struggle, The Nights Pure Dispair. If Someone Would just Listen, Or Tell Her They Cared, To Bring...
    Shell9888 Shell9888 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 55 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    cant share my story yet

    but I belong here
    htrdbldsevl htrdbldsevl 36-40 3 Responses Jul 27

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    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234 16-17, F 8 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    A friend sparked an enormous soul searching the

    other day when she asked me if I was a bug to be picked up and eaten? If you know me at all you'll realise how much pride I have in my "strength" so I did not like to be asked this question. Like when a social worker told me I was like an amoeba, the most thought provoking...
    Faerylight Faerylight 41-45, F 7 Responses Jul 3

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    There are some people

    who will say one type of abuse is worse than another. Do they not realize when they say that they are saying some forms of abuse are good? Or okay, in comparison to something else. Abuse to me is horrible, no matter the form it takes. When someone hurts you and breaks you, you...
    Sophia117 Sophia117 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 11

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    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 19 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    Mine was long ago. To this day I've never had a

    significant other, let alone sex. It terrifies me to the core. All the damn what ifs. I was so young when I was sexually abused by two of my brothers, why does it still make me so scared? Why can't I move forward? How come they could?
    gr8love gr8love 36-40, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    My Life: . No real dad - I was the spawn of a

    one night stand. . abusive step dad - beatings for no reason, beat my mum and raped her in front of me. Constant bullying from him . never had anyone to turn to, never really thought anyone else would understand what I was going through. . Parents eventually split- mum turned...
    Paroxic Paroxic 18-21, M 2 Responses