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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    Since I'm new here, I won't go into a lot of

    details. To be honest, I remember very little of my life before I was adopted at age 6. Before that is mostly blank. What I do remember crushes my spirit, and frightens me. Often I relive a murder I witnessed at age 5, and I cannot, though I have tried, deal with that as a...
    WilliamBennett WilliamBennett 61-65, M 4 Responses Feb 15

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    When I was like 5 my moms boyfriend would abuse

    me and my brothers everyday until she got home it was a living hell.
    Marines75 Marines75 13-15, M 7 Responses Mar 22

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 Apr 2

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 34 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    The Devil Died On Easter There

    once was a woman born in the 1930's. Said to be blessed for she was born on Christmas eve. This girl was brought up in wealth, and married in her mid 20's to a man in her home town. Like most people in the small town they were Catholic, and being in the 1950s divorce was not...
    Lestat93 Lestat93 22-25, F Apr 3

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    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    I have carried the guilt

    and pain with me for over 30 years never telling anyone what had happened. Its only now i find the strength to talk about the abuse. Why does it have to be so hard. I have days when i just want to end it all but somehow just keep on going.
    alexed65 alexed65 46-50, M 5 Responses Mar 7, 2014

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 26 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    I had a flashback the other day.

    I went to get in the shower and it happened. I was back in that house, in the bathroom, the water in the tub was filling with scolding hot water. Then he throws me in it. Im screaming, fighting for air. My skin is burning and I feel like im gonna die. Finally he lets me out...
    darebearsworld darebearsworld 16-17, F Mar 18

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    I look at the pictures of me from 3 years ago

    and I wonder...how did nobody know? How did they not see the bruises and cuts? How did nobody see that I was being torchered, beat, raped, and killed?
    darebearsworld darebearsworld 16-17, F Mar 21

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    This is only a small amount of the abuse

    that has happened in my childhood. It happened by many people for a long time. But this is what I need to talk about right now. I have a very large amount of stuff to talk about. I just got out of therapy and I'm just shaking like a leaf right now. It was a very difficult...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Many do not understand regression.

    Oh, they know the definition, but when a child or adult regresses a desire to understand the root cause is usually overcome by discomfort and a need to change the behavior. Children and adults that have been diagnosed with paraphilic infantilism, or who suffer from it but have...
    brokenat5 brokenat5 61-65, M 1 Response Feb 28

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    I have so many abuses being child,

    I don't know what to say..
    xRohit xRohit 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 16

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    This story is my own,

    I’m not telling it to get pity but cause it helps to talk about it and I know it can help others in the same situation or who have been there…. This is not a fun story, some may find it hard some may find it hard… some can relate.. When I was born, I already had a big...
    ChantouKimmy ChantouKimmy 41-45, F 7 Responses Mar 20

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 1 Response Apr 2

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    It started as far back

    as I can remember. My dad first, touching me where I shouldn't be touched. Then my brother raping me when I was 9. It went on for many years, but when I turned 12, the unthinkable happened. My "friend" took me to a party in my neighborhood. But it wasn't a party. I met a 30 year...
    darebearsworld darebearsworld 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 28

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    Being a survivor is something I embrace in

    myself. I could ponder endlessly as to why I experienced the trauma... and believe me, I have. But honestly, I've fought hard to put it behind me and rise above... to end the nightmare of the storm it created within me. Surviving is about living... and life is too short for...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 10 Responses Jan 26

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    Nothing But Pain And Questions My parents were

    never bad parents. They weren't alcoholics, they never hit me and they always made sure there was food on the table. But I always wondered how they never knew? My abuse was systematic and lasted many years. All of the alone time I spent with that person. My stunted development...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 24

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    Time To Share

    I haven't really talked a whole lot about my past here, but recently, I think I have felt inspired to do so because of the strength of other friends in my circle who have talked about their experience. I think it's important to share, not for the purpose of reliving the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Apr 30, 2011

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 8 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 21 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    I Cant Find My Strength Anymore

    Id like to start of by saying how incredible it is to read so many inspirational stories and to not feel so alone. Im a woman of 21 (I say woman but im not quite there yet) im currently in the middle of the courtcase that i feel is going to make or break me. My father having...
    annonymous2012 annonymous2012 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    I've known for a long time

    that I was emotionally abused by my mom and dad. Separately. Recently though I've started having memories slowly leak in that tell me that I was sexually abused as well. I was always glad that I could talk about the emotional abuse to my support people, but I feel like I can't...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 2 Responses Feb 14

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    I have been dealing with childhood abuse

    for over 50 years as my mother was emotionally, verbally and physically abusive. My father was basically very passive, pretended not to be observant but was emotionally abusive at times also. I was held back in first grade due to my speech problems, immaturity and stuttering...
    musicman10 musicman10 66-70, M 3 Responses Apr 12

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    I was sexual abused as a child

    but I survived, now I am trying to stay strong after my granddaughter was sexual abused by my daughters friend, she's 9 year old and this nightmare is stirring up bad memories I have buried for over 40 years! How can I stay strong for my family when inside I am falling to pieces...
    Christineanne2013 Christineanne2013 51-55, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 45 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 54 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 112 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 16 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    a problem I feel powerless too.

    ..I stayed with my best friends sister(jess) after my dad died and she became a good friend also she much older. She always had trouble finding love and about four years ago she married this man shed only known for six months. two years in they have two daughters. this past year...
    ericaswife11 ericaswife11 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Family punching bag. Outcast.

    That is what I've been my whole life. My mother abandoned me when I was 2. My father took responsibility yet left me with my grandparents for a couple years. He went to Hawaii when I was 3 and met who would become my "mother". They had my brother when I was 4. from the time he...
    H3Rm1t H3Rm1t 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    When I was five years old,

    I did something to upset my father. I still don't know what that was, but I know what the consequences were. My sleeves were never long enough to cover the bruises that seemed to stretch on for miles. The ones on my arms were from being grabbed hard and thrown or pulled. The...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 29

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    THE TALL POLICEMAN DIDNT LISTEN:It was in May.

    . Still too cold for the public swimming pool to be opened..We lived in Vernayaz, a very small village, close to a town called Martigny, where the public pool was...I was with my friend Sandra who was 7 or 8 like me. It was after lunch, we were walking my dog near an electricity...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 12 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    Almost my entire childhood,

    I was a victim of my mother's abusive boyfriend's violence. My father was out of the picture due to illness. He was hospitalized for most of my childhood due to diabetes. I was kept away from him by my mother who constantly try to assert her psychotic boyfriend as my father...
    Kenpachi00 Kenpachi00 26-30 2 Responses Apr 12

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 Apr 2

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 32 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    I have shared the details of my nightmarish

    childhood in a previous post. But as I was looking over my profile page and saw this group I had to be thankful that while I was abused mentally, physically, and neglected I also am the cycle breaker in this tragic family trait. My mother was abused by my grandfather and she...
    LadyHawke68 LadyHawke68 46-50, F 3 Responses Feb 26

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    YesSir3845 YesSir3845 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 21

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    Letters To My Father Part One You can never

    tell. That might be the hardest part. You can never tell anyone about what’s happening to you. So you have no one you can trust. No one who will stand by you, or in the way. No one who will take your side. Even as it’s happening all around you, you have no one who'll...
    penwithajen penwithajen 41-45, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm also a child abuse survivor this is the

    only thing destroying my heart my soul my life this pain of feeling someone used my weakness took my innocence and made me a destroyed person and having chronic feeling of anxiety fears having Many phobias being alive but dead inside I d want to meet anyone like me and talk...
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 8 Responses Mar 30

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    Letter To My 7 Year Old Self

    Hey Kiddo… There are some things you need to know about the stuff you are going through right now. Some of this won’t make sense for a long time. And some of it will go against everything you know about yourself and the people around you. But it needs to be said. 1) It...
    MisfitChris MisfitChris 46-50 3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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