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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    Being a survivor is something I embrace in

    myself. I could ponder endlessly as to why I experienced the trauma... and believe me, I have. But honestly, I've fought hard to put it behind me and rise above... to end the nightmare of the storm it created within me. Surviving is about living... and life is too short for...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 9 Responses Jan 26

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 34 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 8 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    Strong

    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 14 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    With mothers day approaching,

    how are you guys going to handle it? I would love to never speak to my mother again... but we all know it's not always that simple. thoughts?
    Jekkasaur Jekkasaur 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    Alright i was molested by my great uncle,

    brother and aunt. My stepmom went crazy after her first born died when i was 9. He died when my dad was in jail. My dad had to go to the funeral in a jumpsuit and cuffs around wrists and ankles. My stepmom used to lock herself in the bathroom with knives and scream bloody...
    onefedupgirl onefedupgirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 20 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    Time To Share

    I haven't really talked a whole lot about my past here, but recently, I think I have felt inspired to do so because of the strength of other friends in my circle who have talked about their experience. I think it's important to share, not for the purpose of reliving the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Apr 30, 2011

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    I have this crush on a boy at my school.

    But, I don't know how I will react to dating and having to be physical towards him (holding hands, talking, etc.) I don't know if I am capable of being loved anymore. Would he want me if he knew about my past? Im scared. I don't know if im ready for this...
    darebearsworld darebearsworld 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    My dad would hit us in a way

    that wouldn't be acceptable today, but was acceptable then. My mom, on the other hand, would get mad at the drop of a hat, hit my brother or me (or throw things that hit us), but not tell us what we did wrong. One time, she hit me with an object and split my head open. When...
    karlmartink karlmartink 36-40, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have been dealing with childhood abuse

    for over 50 years as my mother was emotionally, verbally and physically abusive. My father was basically very passive, pretended not to be observant but was emotionally abusive at times also. I was held back in first grade due to my speech problems, immaturity and stuttering...
    musicman10 musicman10 66-70, M 3 Responses Apr 12

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    I Cant Find My Strength Anymore

    Id like to start of by saying how incredible it is to read so many inspirational stories and to not feel so alone. Im a woman of 21 (I say woman but im not quite there yet) im currently in the middle of the courtcase that i feel is going to make or break me. My father having...
    annonymous2012 annonymous2012 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 19 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    Many do not understand regression.

    Oh, they know the definition, but when a child or adult regresses a desire to understand the root cause is usually overcome by discomfort and a need to change the behavior. Children and adults that have been diagnosed with paraphilic infantilism, or who suffer from it but have...
    brokenat5 brokenat5 61-65, M 1 Response Feb 28

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    This story is my own,

    I’m not telling it to get pity but cause it helps to talk about it and I know it can help others in the same situation or who have been there…. This is not a fun story, some may find it hard some may find it hard… some can relate.. When I was born, I already had a big...
    ChantouKimmy ChantouKimmy 41-45, F 7 Responses Mar 20

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    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234 16-17, F 8 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    THE TALL POLICEMAN DIDNT LISTEN:It was in May.

    . Still too cold for the public swimming pool to be opened..We lived in Vernayaz, a very small village, close to a town called Martigny, where the public pool was...I was with my friend Sandra who was 7 or 8 like me. It was after lunch, we were walking my dog near an electricity...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 13 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    I was physically abused ever

    since I was 3 years old by both of my parents. I never got out until I was 20 years old. I ran away 3 times. I was molested when I was 7-9 years old. Last summer I was sexually abused by a married man multiple times. But I'm ok. I survived. I think of what happened to me every...
    dancinglawn dancinglawn 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    YesSir3845 YesSir3845 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 21

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 32 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 1 Response Apr 2

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 16 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 26 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    I had a flashback the other day.

    I went to get in the shower and it happened. I was back in that house, in the bathroom, the water in the tub was filling with scolding hot water. Then he throws me in it. Im screaming, fighting for air. My skin is burning and I feel like im gonna die. Finally he lets me out...
    darebearsworld darebearsworld 16-17, F Mar 18

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    I was very fortunate to have two very loving

    parents whom did everything they could for my sisters and I growing up. Dad came into our lives when I was only four. He in effect saved us all. My mother, my two younger sisters and I. He loved us all with all of his heart. The love that my parents had for each other and...
    snowberry75 snowberry75 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 1

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    I was sexually abused by two brothers over a

    four year period. It started when i was 8. Thought it was my fault, still kinda do. I mean, if I hadn't been born, it wouldn't of happened. I had the same nightmare night after night. When I finally told someone, I felt so embarrassed. I still do to this day. I couldn't change...
    gr8love gr8love 31-35, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    The Devil Died On Easter There

    once was a woman born in the 1930's. Said to be blessed for she was born on Christmas eve. This girl was brought up in wealth, and married in her mid 20's to a man in her home town. Like most people in the small town they were Catholic, and being in the 1950s divorce was not...
    Socalsunset Socalsunset 22-25, F Apr 3

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    This is only a small amount of the abuse

    that has happened in my childhood. It happened by many people for a long time. But this is what I need to talk about right now. I have a very large amount of stuff to talk about. I just got out of therapy and I'm just shaking like a leaf right now. It was a very difficult...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    At Least I Am Not Like Them

    The sick SOB that donated the ***** to create me used to like to get drunk and high. He would start by telling me how stupid, weak, and useless I was.  Then he would whip himself into a real anger and start swinging.  He would literally pound my head into the wall.  I...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T 2 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 45 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    a problem I feel powerless too.

    ..I stayed with my best friends sister(jess) after my dad died and she became a good friend also she much older. She always had trouble finding love and about four years ago she married this man shed only known for six months. two years in they have two daughters. this past year...
    ericaswife11 ericaswife11 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 Apr 2

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    It started as far back

    as I can remember. My dad first, touching me where I shouldn't be touched. Then my brother raping me when I was 9. It went on for many years, but when I turned 12, the unthinkable happened. My "friend" took me to a party in my neighborhood. But it wasn't a party. I met a 30 year...
    darebearsworld darebearsworld 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 28

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    I am 14 let me start off

    before I was born my mom smoked drank got on roller coasters and she knew that she was pragnat she tired to she tried to have an abortion but she was too far along I was born a premature 3 pounds they told my mom and dad I wouldn't live they care so they left the hospital and...
    whocaresaboutme14 whocaresaboutme14 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    HOW TO HEAL YOUR BRAIN: 1.

    READ THESE BOOKS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR BRAIN AND HOW TO IMPROVE IT. What happened is you lacked human intimacy and attachment. You were starved for love, and if you're still lacking healthy intimate attachment relationship as an adult, then you are still some...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 54 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    I'm also a child abuse survivor this is the

    only thing destroying my heart my soul my life this pain of feeling someone used my weakness took my innocence and made me a destroyed person and having chronic feeling of anxiety fears having Many phobias being alive but dead inside I d want to meet anyone like me and talk...
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 8 Responses Mar 30

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    I am always available to talk to anyone

    struggling with the same history. There is no right or wrong response. Pain manifests in ways that cause a reaction. Freeing the person you have always known yourself to be is difficult beyond belief. I lived in fear for over ten years. As a grade schooler I was punched in...
    FrictionFractal FrictionFractal 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 1

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    Letters To My Father Part One You can never

    tell. That might be the hardest part. You can never tell anyone about what’s happening to you. So you have no one you can trust. No one who will stand by you, or in the way. No one who will take your side. Even as it’s happening all around you, you have no one who'll...
    penwithajen penwithajen 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 18

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    When I was like 5 my moms boyfriend would abuse

    me and my brothers everyday until she got home it was a living hell.
    Marines75 Marines75 13-15, M 7 Responses Mar 22

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    I look at the pictures of me from 3 years ago

    and I wonder...how did nobody know? How did they not see the bruises and cuts? How did nobody see that I was being torchered, beat, raped, and killed?
    darebearsworld darebearsworld 16-17, F Mar 21

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    When I was five years old,

    I did something to upset my father. I still don't know what that was, but I know what the consequences were. My sleeves were never long enough to cover the bruises that seemed to stretch on for miles. The ones on my arms were from being grabbed hard and thrown or pulled. The...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 29

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