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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    I have carried the guilt

    and pain with me for over 30 years never telling anyone what had happened. Its only now i find the strength to talk about the abuse. Why does it have to be so hard. I have days when i just want to end it all but somehow just keep on going.
    alexed65 alexed65 46-50, M 5 Responses Mar 7, 2014

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    At Least I Am Not Like Them

    The sick SOB that donated the ***** to create me used to like to get drunk and high. He would start by telling me how stupid, weak, and useless I was.  Then he would whip himself into a real anger and start swinging.  He would literally pound my head into the wall.  I...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T 2 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234 16-17, F 8 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    HOW TO HEAL YOUR BRAIN: 1.

    READ THESE BOOKS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR BRAIN AND HOW TO IMPROVE IT. What happened is you lacked human intimacy and attachment. You were starved for love, and if you're still lacking healthy intimate attachment relationship as an adult, then you are still some...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    When I was on this website into thousand 13 I

    posted a story about my child abuse. That part of my life is now behind me. I am grateful for a wonderful psychologist and a wonderful God. I'm not going to repost the story because it would be fruitless. But anyone who needs to talk please message me. My name is Bob. I know I...
    lovlife777 lovlife777 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 26

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 54 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    THE TALL POLICEMAN DIDNT LISTEN:It was in May.

    . Still too cold for the public swimming pool to be opened..We lived in Vernayaz, a very small village, close to a town called Martigny, where the public pool was...I was with my friend Sandra who was 7 or 8 like me. It was after lunch, we were walking my dog near an electricity...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 14 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    When I was five years old,

    I did something to upset my father. I still don't know what that was, but I know what the consequences were. My sleeves were never long enough to cover the bruises that seemed to stretch on for miles. The ones on my arms were from being grabbed hard and thrown or pulled. The...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 29

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    With mothers day approaching,

    how are you guys going to handle it? I would love to never speak to my mother again... but we all know it's not always that simple. thoughts?
    Jekkasaur Jekkasaur 22-25, F 6 Responses May 4

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    I Cant Find My Strength Anymore

    Id like to start of by saying how incredible it is to read so many inspirational stories and to not feel so alone. Im a woman of 21 (I say woman but im not quite there yet) im currently in the middle of the courtcase that i feel is going to make or break me. My father having...
    annonymous2012 annonymous2012 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 16 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    I was physically abused ever

    since I was 3 years old by both of my parents. I never got out until I was 20 years old. I ran away 3 times. I was molested when I was 7-9 years old. Last summer I was sexually abused by a married man multiple times. But I'm ok. I survived. I think of what happened to me every...
    dancinglawn dancinglawn 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 30

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    Being a survivor is something I embrace in

    myself. I could ponder endlessly as to why I experienced the trauma... and believe me, I have. But honestly, I've fought hard to put it behind me and rise above... to end the nightmare of the storm it created within me. Surviving is about living... and life is too short for...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 9 Responses Jan 26

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    I was very fortunate to have two very loving

    parents whom did everything they could for my sisters and I growing up. Dad came into our lives when I was only four. He in effect saved us all. My mother, my two younger sisters and I. He loved us all with all of his heart. The love that my parents had for each other and...
    snowberry75 snowberry75 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 1

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 34 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 1 Response Apr 2

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 Apr 2

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    I have been dealing with childhood abuse

    for over 50 years as my mother was emotionally, verbally and physically abusive. My father was basically very passive, pretended not to be observant but was emotionally abusive at times also. I was held back in first grade due to my speech problems, immaturity and stuttering...
    musicman10 musicman10 66-70, M 4 Responses Apr 12

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    I am 14 let me start off

    before I was born my mom smoked drank got on roller coasters and she knew that she was pragnat she tired to she tried to have an abortion but she was too far along I was born a premature 3 pounds they told my mom and dad I wouldn't live they care so they left the hospital and...
    Kellyfoster2000 Kellyfoster2000 13-15, F 3 Responses May 3

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    I'm also a child abuse survivor this is the

    only thing destroying my heart my soul my life this pain of feeling someone used my weakness took my innocence and made me a destroyed person and having chronic feeling of anxiety fears having Many phobias being alive but dead inside I d want to meet anyone like me and talk...
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 7 Responses Mar 30

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 8 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    It may seem like a small thing to some

    and that is fine cause it happen to me.
    Keith490 Keith490 46-50, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Just a small reminder

    that you are not alone, it was not your fault, and there is still good in the world, it can just be hard to find. You're strong, you CAN do this.
    Jekkasaur Jekkasaur 22-25, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I'm a 13 year old girl,

    I was born on 9/11/2001 the exact day and time the first plane hit the World Trade Center in NY city. When my parents found out I was born on the same day, they immediately started to hate me. My parents wouldn't feed me or clothe me. I nearly died when I was 3 because my...
    Ellie1dale Ellie1dale 22-25, F 8 Responses a week ago

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 26 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    Every time I wanted things,

    I was denied, I was made to think that wanting things was wrong, that wanting beyond what was given to me was greedy. Say, if I wanted attention from one of my parents whilst they were working, I was shouted or punished for interrupting them, no matter if it was because I was...
    lunightandday lunightandday 18-21, F 1 Response May 3

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    Letter To My 7 Year Old Self

    Hey Kiddo… There are some things you need to know about the stuff you are going through right now. Some of this won’t make sense for a long time. And some of it will go against everything you know about yourself and the people around you. But it needs to be said. 1) It...
    MisfitChris MisfitChris 46-50 3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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    I am always available to talk to anyone

    struggling with the same history. There is no right or wrong response. Pain manifests in ways that cause a reaction. Freeing the person you have always known yourself to be is difficult beyond belief. I lived in fear for over ten years. As a grade schooler I was punched in...
    FrictionFractal FrictionFractal 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 1

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    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 26 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 16 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 19 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    Strong

    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 14 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    Letters To My Father Part One You can never

    tell. That might be the hardest part. You can never tell anyone about what’s happening to you. So you have no one you can trust. No one who will stand by you, or in the way. No one who will take your side. Even as it’s happening all around you, you have no one who'll...
    penwithajen penwithajen 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 18

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 45 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 24 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    So many people carrying the same wounds

    and pain… I am one of them…My mother abused me horribly, but I managed disconnect from her as I was age 4-5. I told myself: this is not my other, it’s completely insane person and I would fight back to survive. Kind of you are at war… when you are fighting back, you...
    soulbridge soulbridge 36-40, F 1 Response May 6

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    My dad would hit us in a way

    that wouldn't be acceptable today, but was acceptable then. My mom, on the other hand, would get mad at the drop of a hat, hit my brother or me (or throw things that hit us), but not tell us what we did wrong. One time, she hit me with an object and split my head open. When...
    karlmartink karlmartink 36-40, M 1 Response May 2

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    I was sexual abused as a child

    but I survived, now I am trying to stay strong after my granddaughter was sexual abused by my daughters friend, she's 9 year old and this nightmare is stirring up bad memories I have buried for over 40 years! How can I stay strong for my family when inside I am falling to pieces...
    Christineanne2013 Christineanne2013 51-55, F 4 Responses Apr 23

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    That moment when you can hear them coming up

    the stairs you hide under the covers shaking your hart pounding like locomotive as the door handle turns you try to pretend to be sleep in hope that it will get them to leave you alone as you cry quietly with out trying to make a sound it haunts you for ever every time you close...
    JessicababyBell JessicababyBell 26-30, T 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Family punching bag. Outcast.

    That is what I've been my whole life. My mother abandoned me when I was 2. My father took responsibility yet left me with my grandparents for a couple years. He went to Hawaii when I was 3 and met who would become my "mother". They had my brother when I was 4. from the time he...
    H3Rm1t H3Rm1t 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 32 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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