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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    I have a story like all of you been through the

    therapy of remembering more than I ever wanted too. but I found ways to cope then survive now i'm trying to thrive. my coping was writing poetry I would express my anger and rage that I had trouble admitting too in poems. it was freeing. to survive I also found a way to take...
    hopeful72 hopeful72 41-45, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Strong

    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 14 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    I was sexually abused

    as a child for over 10 years by my own family
    Skittlesrox94 Skittlesrox94 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 4

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    This group makes me sad.

    I hate that there are so many people out there that have been abused or hurt as children. I was molested by an older cousin for about six years. It started when I was about five with him just touching me whenever he could. I remember the first time he got into bed with me when I...
    BrittneyShuler BrittneyShuler 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 13

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    I never really saw it

    as abuse. In fact I thought it was normal. I thought getting the **** beat out of you until you had trouble walking and being constantly belittled and mentally tormented all the time was normal. I really did. It was all I knew. But after I got a therapist he said it was...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 12

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    Letter To My 7 Year Old Self

    Hey Kiddo… There are some things you need to know about the stuff you are going through right now. Some of this won’t make sense for a long time. And some of it will go against everything you know about yourself and the people around you. But it needs to be said. 1) It...
    MisfitChris MisfitChris 41-45 3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 5 Responses Aug 4

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    I am completely shattered!

    I am damaged, in all senses. My stepfather is to blame for all my troubles. That man thinks he can just walk in and cause us grief and later on stiffs me of happiness? He had hit me, booted me, and smacked me. I am traumatized and haunted. The less contact I make with him, the...
    Profweird Profweird 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 18

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    just kids experimenting

    or abuse?? boy 2.5 years older than sister engages her is sex play on landing while dad at pub and mum watching tv. too young to penetrate her. multuple positions. oral both ways
    Movingon45 Movingon45 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 20

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    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 33 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 105 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 21 Responses Apr 22

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    I hope you get want you want on Christmas.

    We both know you never wanted a daughter. You never wanted me. You dreamt and talked about the day that you would never have to see my face again. You looked so happy when you told me about how nice it would be to have never had me. You abused me day in and day out to prove...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    My Parents Almost Ruined Me

    My siblings and I were physically, emotionally and sexually abused as children. We grew up in a super-religious, conservative, Bible-thumping family. On the outside, we looked like a family from Leave It To Beaver, but inside it was a dark scary dictatorship where kids weren't...
    gruuvygirl gruuvygirl 41-45, F 12 Responses Jan 6, 2012

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    I'll tell everybody I am 27 I never had friends

    not even a girlfriend the word rejection is huge and the pain is horrible been depressed for a long time already since I was 12 not very funny not even loneliness I think the only ones who may care about me is my grandma because my parents are not very friendly either I remember...
    forsa85 forsa85 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 19

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    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 27 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    This week has been full of nightmares

    and flashbacks. I've been working with severely disabled children, some of whom were physically abused by their parents. It brings everything back up knowing they were treated just like me but were unlucky then I feel guilty for not just being thankful that I'm alive and can...
    ScarredScared ScarredScared 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 6

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    howard1945 howard1945 51-55, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Because I work with abused children on a

    regular basis I know that my story is neither unique or uncommon. Man's inhumanity to man shouldn't really surprise me, yet somehow it always does. I know that I am but a thought and act away from such evil myself, and that truly frightens me. Every abused person has a choice...
    brokenat5 brokenat5 61-65, M 2 Responses Oct 30

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    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234 16-17, F 10 Responses Nov 22

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 45 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 26 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    I grew up forced into this mindset

    that everything was war and I was a warrior. The weak perish. I've grown stronger but wearer. I am not a warrior; I am not a soldier; I am human though and vulnerability is something to guard, not hide.
    bakeittwice bakeittwice 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Since I was a young tyke,

    my father and mother have been fighting because of marriage issues. My father used to be a drunk who would hit her when she talk back to her. I remember running to her, as to protect her from my father, as he would bang on the door yelling obscene speeches of hatred and rage...
    Marik13 Marik13 13-15 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 20 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    I am not a child anymore

    but I still put up with abuse. Pray for me...that I get my own place soon, somewhere where I can be safe and comfortable and not harassed/tortured/abused virtually every day. No more dealing with the crazy, abusive, manipulative, lying, slandering, swearing psychopathic Cuckoo...
    creativegal82 creativegal82 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    canttell21 canttell21 18-21, F 12 Responses Nov 11

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 34 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    Starving all the time was nothing new to me

    growing up. Other kids in school were the same way. My late father, used the money (Child tax benefit) to gamble, drink and feed himself the 'good' food. We had water soup with some vegetables in it cuz he took the meatier stuff out for himself. I was the cook cuz my father...
    roxrockman roxrockman 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    I Cant Find My Strength Anymore

    Id like to start of by saying how incredible it is to read so many inspirational stories and to not feel so alone. Im a woman of 21 (I say woman but im not quite there yet) im currently in the middle of the courtcase that i feel is going to make or break me. My father having...
    annonymous2012 annonymous2012 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    I was sexually abused

    as a BABY I was burned with cigarettes as a 2 year old. I still have the scars on my chest. My biological mother tried to drown me in the toilet. I've suffered broken bones Then they threw me out like GARBAGE!!!! And here I am TODAY
    throwawaychild throwawaychild 46-50, M 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    I just wanna forget. I know it wasn't my fault.

    ..Sometimes the flash backs make me cry. Sometimes angry. My father is dead to me.
    roxrockman roxrockman 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 21

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 16 Responses Feb 3

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    This story is my own,

    I’m not telling it to get pity but cause it helps to talk about it and I know it can help others in the same situation or who have been there…. This is not a fun story, some may find it hard some may find it hard… some can relate.. When I was born, I already had a big...
    chanjen chanjen 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 18

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    The Nightmare Has Ended

    I have lived the last 20 years of my life either being abused by you or abusing myself with alcohol and other addictions in an attempt to escape the memories of your torment. During the decade of abuse I always hoped that you would “accidently” kill me. I had hoped you would...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    Long story short,middle aged woman took me into

    a room and said I had to try on some clothes. Being young I obeyed and in short she forced herself on me. I get horrible flashbacks sometimes, I can never sleep, when I get flashbacks I always hear myself screaming just like the first time. I've told myself it didn't happen so...
    browneyedbrownhair browneyedbrownhair 18-21, F 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    My mom use to beat me

    until I was 13 or 14 and she didn't touch my twin brother or little sister.
    CaliArs CaliArs 18-21, F 9 Responses Dec 8

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    I've realized something.

    Something horrible. It makes me want to cry, puke and scream. I don't know how I didn't see it before. I remembered something last night and it's importance has only surfaced now. The abuse wasn't started by my mother. It was my father. He started it all. He was an alcoholic...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was sexually abused by two brothers over a

    four year period. It started when i was 8. Thought it was my fault, still kinda do. I mean, if I hadn't been born, it wouldn't of happened. I had the same nightmare night after night. When I finally told someone, I felt so embarrassed. I still do to this day. I couldn't change...
    gr8love gr8love 31-35, F 19 Responses Mar 9

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    What my mentally ill father will never

    understand. I see women on television being tearfully walked down the aisle by their loving fathers. The wedding speeches telling of their loving daughter, and I cringe. My father was never very fatherly, in the 20th century sort of way at least. He was cold, violent, and...
    EverlyAnn EverlyAnn 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 23

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    Time To Share

    I haven't really talked a whole lot about my past here, but recently, I think I have felt inspired to do so because of the strength of other friends in my circle who have talked about their experience. I think it's important to share, not for the purpose of reliving the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 33 Responses Apr 30, 2011

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    I had a major flashback to childhood today.

    I finally decided to tell someone that my boyfriend has been very abusive to me for the past two years. I sat down next to my mom and admitted to her that he was the reason I ended up on the floor with fractured ribs. She reacted immediately by telling me that I must have done...
    SkullRoseInsignia SkullRoseInsignia 16-17, T 5 Responses Nov 1

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Dad Over The Years

    for most of my life i lived with my dad and im 13 now he was an abusive alcoholic and didnt care about anyone. i think he saw me as an a excuse most of the time. when ever he came back drunk i was always in the firing line. it seemed like everything i did was wrong. and i was hit...
    misaka12 misaka12 13-15, F 14 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 9 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    As a child abuse survivor,

    I am completely conscious of how I discipline my son. As a little one, all I had to do was put him in time out. Now that he is twelve, things do not always work out the way that I want them to. This week after repeated warnings to take his school work more seriously, I was put...
    sweetandspicy1 sweetandspicy1 41-45, F 3 Responses Oct 30

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 23 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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