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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    My Parents Almost Ruined Me

    My siblings and I were physically, emotionally and sexually abused as children. We grew up in a super-religious, conservative, Bible-thumping family. On the outside, we looked like a family from Leave It To Beaver, but inside it was a dark scary dictatorship where kids weren't...
    gruuvygirl gruuvygirl 41-45, F 12 Responses Jan 6, 2012

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    My abuse was that of neglect

    and emotional abuse. There was some physical abuse but not enough to be scared from it. I was bullied all through school. I was even bullied in my neighborhood.
    noitulover noitulover 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 1

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 23 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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    There Really Are Monsters

    Hi Dad... You are dead...and there is no way that I can tell you to your face what I have kept inside for so many years. Since your death I have struggled to find some peace and closure in my life. I have no way to tell you the things that need to be said except to tell you in a...
    Spyderflyer Spyderflyer 61-65 4 Responses Mar 25, 2013

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    Basically, recently, there has been a lot of

    interest in child abuse victims in my area. Outside my family, no-one knows about what my step-father did to me. I mean, the whole thing ****** me up, and I'm not going to go into detail in this post, although I may later, I am debating whether to tell my local authorities about...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 26

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    When I was ten and in the fifth grade,

    an obese boy in my class asked me to be his girlfriend. When I declined, he made up a lie about me, saying that I had *********** with a hot dog and it broke off inside me, causing me to go to the hospital to have it removed. This was a story that was shared with us by another...
    gwisforlovers gwisforlovers 31-35, F 9 Responses Sep 8

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    The Nightmare Has Ended

    I have lived the last 20 years of my life either being abused by you or abusing myself with alcohol and other addictions in an attempt to escape the memories of your torment. During the decade of abuse I always hoped that you would “accidently” kill me. I had hoped you would...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 7 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 55 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    I am 34, yet I still crave a father.

    My own father was cold, violent, and at times, delusional. My mother who by all appearances was a warm and loving mother, in private withheld that love by placing heavy conditions on it. It wasn't until I was 16 that my father's delusions forced my mother to leave. She valued...
    EverlyAnn EverlyAnn 31-35, F 9 Responses Sep 30

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    I'm still trying to escape Opus Dei.

    It's hard work after all the propaganda. I am escaping!
    Mstroig Mstroig 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I'm going to do this,

    ok. And I'm NOT going to cry, no. When I was 7 my father left us. I am a child of 7, the youngest, and the only girl. It was tough on most of us when my father left, but I would like to say me, especially, because I was so attached to him. I guess I do owe him a lot because he...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 8 Responses Aug 26

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    What my mentally ill father will never

    understand. I see women on television being tearfully walked down the aisle by their loving fathers. The wedding speeches telling of their loving daughter, and I cringe. My father was never very fatherly, in the 20th century sort of way at least. He was cold, violent, and...
    EverlyAnn EverlyAnn 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Strong

    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 14 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    Isolation became my being,

    the walls of my windowless room became my flesh, and the cries of pain became my soul. What can I say that others hasn't? I could talk about it, but I will only speak about things I wish, putting it into detail won't help anyone and will make me look like I'm seeking pity. They...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Aug 14

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    I have friends who have known me

    for 25 years who don't know the pain I feel. On the outside, I am someone who is always in control. I don't cry, I'm not easily upset. I work in a high stress, highly visible job, which works well with my ability to put away my feelings and work towards a goal. As a child I...
    EverlyAnn EverlyAnn 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 1

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    It bothers me to this day.

    i am 37 years old. it affects everything i do. I have not told anyone about this ever. My earliest memory of my life is blotchy and black out mostly i barley remember what happen just nightmares and flashback . my father died when i was a a baby. my mother turned out to be a...
    jeramiah76 jeramiah76 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 2

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    I Cant Find My Strength Anymore

    Id like to start of by saying how incredible it is to read so many inspirational stories and to not feel so alone. Im a woman of 21 (I say woman but im not quite there yet) im currently in the middle of the courtcase that i feel is going to make or break me. My father having...
    annonymous2012 annonymous2012 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    I was abused by the ONE person you'd never

    expect to do it. MY MOTHER. I was 12 when it happened & I'm 20 now. It still haunts me. I've forgiven her but yet I miss her so much at times & I don't express my feelings because I don't want people to feel sorry for me. I just don't understand how a mother could hurt their...
    Country00Girl Country00Girl 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 1

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    I left u and thank god I did mother .

    The way u treated me and my brother I HATED AND for that I will never forgive u
    Leetia515 Leetia515 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 10

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    When ever I took a shower in my home

    after my step mother would hit me and I would soil myself; she would come into the bathroom and spray me with disinfectant spray and mock me. She would tell me that I stink and just make me feel worse about soiling myself. This caused me to dread taking a shower at home. I...
    halfdead25 halfdead25 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 25

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    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 17 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 28 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 43 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 9 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    I was sexually abused by two brothers over a

    four year period. It started when i was 8. Thought it was my fault, still kinda do. I mean, if I hadn't been born, it wouldn't of happened. I had the same nightmare night after night. When I finally told someone, I felt so embarrassed. I still do to this day. I couldn't change...
    gr8love gr8love 31-35, F 22 Responses Mar 9

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 16 Responses Feb 3

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    8065 members in this group.

    And i thought i was unique.
    discovery5 discovery5 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    This group makes me sad.

    I hate that there are so many people out there that have been abused or hurt as children. I was molested by an older cousin for about six years. It started when I was about five with him just touching me whenever he could. I remember the first time he got into bed with me when I...
    BrittneyShuler BrittneyShuler 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 13

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    I have carried the guilt

    and pain with me for over 30 years never telling anyone what had happened. Its only now i find the strength to talk about the abuse. Why does it have to be so hard. I have days when i just want to end it all but somehow just keep on going.
    alexed65 alexed65 46-50, M 4 Responses Mar 7

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 4

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    My mom and my twin sister were all I had

    growing up. No family at all to visit, that is because they all HATED my moms husband. I never told people he was my step dad. He made all the money in the house and he made sure to let everybody know and made everybody feel like he was some sort of "god" or something. My...
    Jml2013 Jml2013 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    Were you satisfied when you laid your hands on

    me? Did it make you happy when I begged for you to stop? I will never understand what made you do what you did. Were we not happy once? Back when mom was still around, you said we were girls but now I am nothing to you. I remember that night, the first night it happened. The...
    SamieLovesYa SamieLovesYa 18-21, F 7 Responses a week ago

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    Anyone know the cure

    for loneliness?
    itsawish itsawish 22-25, F 9 Responses Aug 5

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 34 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    How pathetic is it that the beatings I endured

    and the very unique and cruel punishments are what I consider the best years of my my life? Yeah, I suffered. True, it was almost unbearable. I was starved when I tried to rebel. During my sophomore year, I sought change. I found a group that accepted me. That ended with me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 3

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    Today I cry for the child I

    once was.  The child whose innocence you used as a weapon against her.  You touched her child’s body. Covered her in the filth of your lies.  Your lips and tongue tracked possession but her mind flew away like a bird.  You asked her to hug you and when she shook her head...
    Faerylightinexile Faerylightinexile 41-45, F 4 Responses Oct 14

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    Dad Over The Years

    for most of my life i lived with my dad and im 13 now he was an abusive alcoholic and didnt care about anyone. i think he saw me as an a excuse most of the time. when ever he came back drunk i was always in the firing line. it seemed like everything i did was wrong. and i was hit...
    misaka12 misaka12 13-15, F 15 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    How can I describe the horror

    that was my mother? To recount her evil is like reciting an encyclopedia of evil. How could I possibly include everything? No matter how much I recount there is always "oh yeah, and then there was this other thing, and this other thing, and I'm still too ashamed, too...
    Smilenbhappy Smilenbhappy 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 2

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    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    When I was barely a year old my dad used to

    throw and kick me around like I was nothing. Every time I started to cry he would put his hand over my face literally suffocating me.. But him beating me started at the age of 5 all the way to age 14. He'd drown me, leave me out in the heat for hours without anything to drink...
    zvkk zvkk 16-17, M 4 Responses Oct 2

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    Time To Share

    I haven't really talked a whole lot about my past here, but recently, I think I have felt inspired to do so because of the strength of other friends in my circle who have talked about their experience. I think it's important to share, not for the purpose of reliving the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 33 Responses Apr 30, 2011

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    OliviaFrey OliviaFrey 13-15, F 12 Responses Aug 7

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    Letter To My 7 Year Old Self

    Hey Kiddo… There are some things you need to know about the stuff you are going through right now. Some of this won’t make sense for a long time. And some of it will go against everything you know about yourself and the people around you. But it needs to be said. 1) It...
    MisfitChris MisfitChris 41-45 3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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    Both my parents were physically abusive,

    they'd find any reason to hit me with just about anything, dad loved using the strap though but at least with him he got it over and done with, my mom would 'spank' for the longest time, i'd end up with welts and bruises but they always said 'that's how you learn!' After a...
    jessefb80 jessefb80 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 25

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 33 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    Mom was emotionally abusive,

    mostly. The was very good at emotionally blackmailing me, shaming, invalidating, and belittling. Those were her specialties. She was pretty big into corporal punishment too. I would get "the belt" often for minor grievances. At times I was made to stand on my bare knees on the...
    thecellardoor thecellardoor 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 21 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 99 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    It shouldn't hurt to be a child.

    No child should feel like they are alone in the world, and nothing that they can do is right, but so many do, and the ones who do, feel like they have no one to turn to, because the ones who are suppose to love them, and protect them from harm, are the ones who are hurting them...
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 16

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    Eva1974 Eva1974 36-40, F 5 Responses Sep 30

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