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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    Nothing But Pain And Questions My parents were

    never bad parents. They weren't alcoholics, they never hit me and they always made sure there was food on the table. But I always wondered how they never knew? My abuse was systematic and lasted many years. All of the alone time I spent with that person. My stunted development...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    It started as far back

    as I can remember. My dad first, touching me where I shouldn't be touched. Then my brother raping me when I was 9. It went on for many years, but when I turned 12, the unthinkable happened. My "friend" took me to a party in my neighborhood. But it wasn't a party. I met a 30 year...
    darebearsworld darebearsworld 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 9 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    For a long time i used 2 blame myself

    for the physical, mental & sexual abuse that was inflicted on me, blamed myself because i used to beg to God and beg in my head please make him come to me and not my wee sister or brother or my mother.
    Pennycaca Pennycaca 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    Strong

    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 14 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    It's funny how kids/teens these day say they

    were abused mentally/physically/emotionally over little things that are meaningless like a spank or their dad being an alcoholic, or them not getting enough hugs as a kid. It's pathetic. They just want attention and end up posting about in on Facebook or Cutting themselves. I'm...
    MrHypothetical MrHypothetical 18-21, M 6 Responses Jan 9

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 19 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    I have so many abuses being child,

    I don't know what to say..
    xRohit xRohit 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 16

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    I've realized something.

    Something horrible. It makes me want to cry, puke and scream. I don't know how I didn't see it before. I remembered something last night and it's importance has only surfaced now. The abuse wasn't started by my mother. It was my father. He started it all. He was an alcoholic...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    People Post TheBratPrincess3439 Me Share on Facebook Share on Google+ I Am a Child Abuse Survivor The Devil Died On Easter There once was a woman born in the 1930's. Said to be blessed for she was born on Christmas eve. This girl was brought up in wealth, and married in her mid...
    Phoenix3439 Phoenix3439 18-21, F Feb 12

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    Since I was a young tyke,

    my father and mother have been fighting because of marriage issues. My father used to be a drunk who would hit her when she talk back to her. I remember running to her, as to protect her from my father, as he would bang on the door yelling obscene speeches of hatred and rage...
    Marik13 Marik13 13-15, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    Was i abused? Thats the question,

    i did something with mom
    howard1945 howard1945 51-55, M 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

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    I have carried the guilt

    and pain with me for over 30 years never telling anyone what had happened. Its only now i find the strength to talk about the abuse. Why does it have to be so hard. I have days when i just want to end it all but somehow just keep on going.
    alexed65 alexed65 46-50, M 4 Responses Mar 7, 2014

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    this is the 1st time I am mentioning this

    after 37 years. I remember my brother telling me that I can't tell anyone as he will get in trouble because people won't understand. that moment burnt it self into my mind forever.
    tony71tony tony71tony 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    I was sexually abused by two brothers over a

    four year period. It started when i was 8. Thought it was my fault, still kinda do. I mean, if I hadn't been born, it wouldn't of happened. I had the same nightmare night after night. When I finally told someone, I felt so embarrassed. I still do to this day. I couldn't change...
    gr8love gr8love 31-35, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    I was sexually abused

    as a BABY I was burned with cigarettes as a 2 year old. I still have the scars on my chest. My biological mother tried to drown me in the toilet. I've suffered broken bones Then they threw me out like GARBAGE!!!! And here I am TODAY
    AwesomeAlert AwesomeAlert 46-50, M 15 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    Since I'm new here, I won't go into a lot of

    details. To be honest, I remember very little of my life before I was adopted at age 6. Before that is mostly blank. What I do remember crushes my spirit, and frightens me. Often I relive a murder I witnessed at age 5, and I cannot, though I have tried, deal with that as a...
    WilliamBennett WilliamBennett 61-65, M 4 Responses Feb 15

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    The Nightmare Has Ended

    I have lived the last 20 years of my life either being abused by you or abusing myself with alcohol and other addictions in an attempt to escape the memories of your torment. During the decade of abuse I always hoped that you would “accidently” kill me. I had hoped you would...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 21 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    Many do not understand regression.

    Oh, they know the definition, but when a child or adult regresses a desire to understand the root cause is usually overcome by discomfort and a need to change the behavior. Children and adults that have been diagnosed with paraphilic infantilism, or who suffer from it but have...
    brokenat5 brokenat5 61-65, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 16 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    HOW TO HEAL YOUR BRAIN: 1.

    READ THESE BOOKS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR BRAIN AND HOW TO IMPROVE IT. What happened is you lacked human intimacy and attachment. You were starved for love, and if you're still lacking healthy intimate attachment relationship as an adult, then you are still some...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    I hope you get want you want on Christmas.

    We both know you never wanted a daughter. You never wanted me. You dreamt and talked about the day that you would never have to see my face again. You looked so happy when you told me about how nice it would be to have never had me. You abused me day in and day out to prove...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I was abused from the time

    that I was 4 until 21 years old. I was sexually abused when I was 4 years old. When I tried to tell my mom, she threatened to beat me. Then I was physically, sexually, verbally and mentally abused constantly until I left for college. My parents were also in a religious cult for...
    KateMorrow92 KateMorrow92 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 45 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 5 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    It stops with me. Yes,

    I was abused. Still am, and I'm 65 years old. I was watching an episode of Law and Order SVU, and one of the characters said it poignantly said that she was disgusted with her mother because her father sexually abused her. She stated that her father had abused her, but he...
    casualwear casualwear 61-65, M 5 Responses Jan 4

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    To me, my parents were just *****

    and egg donors . They have some kind of love towards us in them, and they are good people now i think, but that doesn't matter to me anymore. I've established boundaries and don't intend to ever see them again. If I'm out of state, I likely might not even attend their funerals...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I am not a child anymore

    but I still put up with abuse. I have no family nor friends as far as I am concerned. Not on this earth anyway. Junior high school and high school was hell, too. Like I had a mark on me saying, Pick on me! Then the last part of college was horrible, too. I can't believe it...
    creativegal82 creativegal82 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

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    Power Is Rebellion. It will serve you well to

    place the people behind bars. or at least destroy them emotionally, spiritually.
    Gabster27 Gabster27 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 16 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 105 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 26 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    howard1945 howard1945 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 33 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234 16-17, F 8 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    At Least I Am Not Like Them

    The sick SOB that donated the ***** to create me used to like to get drunk and high. He would start by telling me how stupid, weak, and useless I was.  Then he would whip himself into a real anger and start swinging.  He would literally pound my head into the wall.  I...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T 2 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    I grew up being beaten,

    molested and unwanted. Usually family and strangers alike only kept me around as long as I served a purpose but not one second longer than they had to. I feel dirty all the time. I'm unloved and unloveable. How do I know? I have severe depression. When people look at me they...
    bearblueh bearblueh 46-50, F 4 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 34 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 54 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    I grew up forced into this mindset

    that everything was war and I was a warrior. The weak perish. I've grown stronger but wearer. I am not a warrior; I am not a soldier; I am human though and vulnerability is something to guard, not hide.
    bakeittwice bakeittwice 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    I have shared the details of my nightmarish

    childhood in a previous post. But as I was looking over my profile page and saw this group I had to be thankful that while I was abused mentally, physically, and neglected I also am the cycle breaker in this tragic family trait. My mother was abused by my grandfather and she...
    LadyHawke68 LadyHawke68 46-50, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I Cant Find My Strength Anymore

    Id like to start of by saying how incredible it is to read so many inspirational stories and to not feel so alone. Im a woman of 21 (I say woman but im not quite there yet) im currently in the middle of the courtcase that i feel is going to make or break me. My father having...
    annonymous2012 annonymous2012 18-21, F 5 Responses