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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 26 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    My dad started off as a good man.

    It was only when I was 3 that he began abusing my mother then me. He would come home drunk and we would both hide in a closet and hope he fell asleep before he found us. Sometimes he would end up breaking my mums arm or my leg and we would go to hospital but just tell the nurses...
    Alexrrrr Alexrrrr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 1 Response Apr 2

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    Time To Share

    I haven't really talked a whole lot about my past here, but recently, I think I have felt inspired to do so because of the strength of other friends in my circle who have talked about their experience. I think it's important to share, not for the purpose of reliving the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Apr 30, 2011

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    I have been dealing with childhood abuse

    for over 50 years as my mother was emotionally, verbally and physically abusive. My father was basically very passive, pretended not to be observant but was emotionally abusive at times also. I was held back in first grade due to my speech problems, immaturity and stuttering...
    musicman10 musicman10 66-70, M 4 Responses Apr 12

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    Almost my entire childhood,

    I was a victim of my mother's abusive boyfriend's violence. My father was out of the picture due to illness. He was hospitalized for most of my childhood due to diabetes. I was kept away from him by my mother who constantly try to assert her psychotic boyfriend as my father...
    Kenpachi00 Kenpachi00 26-30 2 Responses Apr 12

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    Every time I wanted things,

    I was denied, I was made to think that wanting things was wrong, that wanting beyond what was given to me was greedy. Say, if I wanted attention from one of my parents whilst they were working, I was shouted or punished for interrupting them, no matter if it was because I was...
    lunightandday lunightandday 18-21, F 1 Response May 3

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    So many people carrying the same wounds

    and pain… I am one of them…My mother abused me horribly, but I managed disconnect from her as I was age 4-5. I told myself: this is not my other, it’s completely insane person and I would fight back to survive. Kind of you are at war… when you are fighting back, you...
    soulbridge soulbridge 36-40, F 1 Response May 6

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    When I was like 5 my moms boyfriend would abuse

    me and my brothers everyday until she got home it was a living hell.
    Marines75 Marines75 13-15, M 8 Responses Mar 22

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    I was sexually abused by two brothers over a

    four year period. It started when i was 8. Thought it was my fault, still kinda do. I mean, if I hadn't been born, it wouldn't of happened. I had the same nightmare night after night. When I finally told someone, I felt so embarrassed. I still do to this day. I couldn't change...
    gr8love gr8love 31-35, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 19 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    HOW TO HEAL YOUR BRAIN: 1.

    READ THESE BOOKS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR BRAIN AND HOW TO IMPROVE IT. What happened is you lacked human intimacy and attachment. You were starved for love, and if you're still lacking healthy intimate attachment relationship as an adult, then you are still some...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    Letter To My 7 Year Old Self

    Hey Kiddo… There are some things you need to know about the stuff you are going through right now. Some of this won’t make sense for a long time. And some of it will go against everything you know about yourself and the people around you. But it needs to be said. 1) It...
    MisfitChris MisfitChris 46-50 3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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    I am 14 let me start off

    before I was born my mom smoked drank got on roller coasters and she knew that she was pragnat she tired to she tried to have an abortion but she was too far along I was born a premature 3 pounds they told my mom and dad I wouldn't live they care so they left the hospital and...
    Kellyfoster2000 Kellyfoster2000 13-15, F 3 Responses May 3

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    Strong

    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 14 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    I think about what life might be like

    if I could talk about who I am. I started lying about who I was at an age where lying seems unconscionable. These were my lies-- I wasn't afraid all the time. I didn't worry ulcers into my gut about what was going to happen next. I wasn't an unhappy child. You forced me...
    penwithajen penwithajen 41-45, F 1 Response May 14

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    Does anyone know how to move past it.

    I drank the pain away for a long time and now I'm sober.. I have also been in a relationship with a very abusive woman too. I don't want be a victim ever again. It's hard to function . I gravitate to abusive people. How do I move on and stop being a victam
    sirnatural sirnatural 31-35, M 3 Responses May 20

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 32 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    You know those moments

    when you just want to be rescued, to be taken out of the situation you've been put in? Everytime I feel I am getting somewhere in life, I come tumbling back down to fall in the same place I started, my mothers house. I've moved out, moved country and changed phone numbers, I've...
    AmnesiaPlease AmnesiaPlease 18-21, M 2 Responses May 19

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    With mothers day approaching,

    how are you guys going to handle it? I would love to never speak to my mother again... but we all know it's not always that simple. thoughts?
    Jekkasaur Jekkasaur 22-25, F 6 Responses May 4

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    Ughhh....

    Before i was 10 Social services used to drop in and check up on me and my younger brother, as my mother was an alcoholic.. when i turned 10 they decided she was stable enough and stopped visiting.. biggest mistake they could of made, since the age of 10 i've had to do the washing...
    Santana2012 Santana2012 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 7, 2012

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    That moment when you can hear them coming up

    the stairs you hide under the covers shaking your hart pounding like locomotive as the door handle turns you try to pretend to be sleep in hope that it will get them to leave you alone as you cry quietly with out trying to make a sound it haunts you for ever every time you close...
    JessicababyBell JessicababyBell 26-30, T 2 Responses May 17

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    I was physically abused ever

    since I was 3 years old by both of my parents. I never got out until I was 20 years old. I ran away 3 times. I was molested when I was 7-9 years old. Last summer I was sexually abused by a married man multiple times. But I'm ok. I survived. I think of what happened to me every...
    dancinglawn dancinglawn 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 30

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    It's one off them things to grow up in constant

    fear and cry your self to sleep every night is a thing people can't possibly have any idea what it's like unless they lived n been throw it people tell you get over it move on but that is far easier said than done when inside you dead any you mind snapped
    littlebabybell littlebabybell 13-15, T 7 Responses May 19

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    Family punching bag. Outcast.

    That is what I've been my whole life. My mother abandoned me when I was 2. My father took responsibility yet left me with my grandparents for a couple years. He went to Hawaii when I was 3 and met who would become my "mother". They had my brother when I was 4. from the time he...
    H3Rm1t H3Rm1t 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 34 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    It may seem like a small thing to some

    and that is fine cause it happen to me.
    Keith490 Keith490 46-50, M 3 Responses May 17

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 Apr 2

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    I don't remember allot about my childhood.

    but I remember the abuse more clearly. I really wish I could get mental help. it's like my hart has shattered into shards of glass .
    flowergirl1997 flowergirl1997 18-21, F 19 Responses 5 days ago

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 8 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    okay here goes, my first memory i remember is

    when i was 3 and my dad bought me a play house castle i had so much fun with it. i walk out my room and see my dad beating my naked mom, i'll never forget that its burned in my brain. my dad left after a while and my mom met the devil himself it is because of this that i feel i...
    IamTheReject IamTheReject 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 115 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    Being a survivor is something I embrace in

    myself. I could ponder endlessly as to why I experienced the trauma... and believe me, I have. But honestly, I've fought hard to put it behind me and rise above... to end the nightmare of the storm it created within me. Surviving is about living... and life is too short for...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 9 Responses Jan 26

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    My twin Brother and I were adopted

    when we were 3 1/2 this was in 1959. For the first year or so I remember everythings felt fine, then the abuse started..if we did something she felt was wrong or inappropriate we had to go to the " switch " tree and get a stick she could beat us with, to teach us a lesson, we...
    doncr58 doncr58 56-60 Apr 2

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    The Devil Died On Easter There

    once was a woman born in the 1930's. Said to be blessed for she was born on Christmas eve. This girl was brought up in wealth, and married in her mid 20's to a man in her home town. Like most people in the small town they were Catholic, and being in the 1950s divorce was not...
    Socalsunset Socalsunset 22-25, F Apr 3

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    tonight is a bad night.

    i feel so unhappy right now. i just want to be loved. but i cant even love myself. let me drown in memories instead. but that won't make me feel better. i dont understand why im so unset right now. i just want something to feel.
    dancinglawn dancinglawn 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 24 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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    I am always available to talk to anyone

    struggling with the same history. There is no right or wrong response. Pain manifests in ways that cause a reaction. Freeing the person you have always known yourself to be is difficult beyond belief. I lived in fear for over ten years. As a grade schooler I was punched in...
    FrictionFractal FrictionFractal 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 1

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 16 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 45 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    I was sexual abused as a child

    but I survived, now I am trying to stay strong after my granddaughter was sexual abused by my daughters friend, she's 9 year old and this nightmare is stirring up bad memories I have buried for over 40 years! How can I stay strong for my family when inside I am falling to pieces...
    Christineanne2013 Christineanne2013 51-55, F 4 Responses Apr 23

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 26 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    Letters To My Father Part One You can never

    tell. That might be the hardest part. You can never tell anyone about what’s happening to you. So you have no one you can trust. No one who will stand by you, or in the way. No one who will take your side. Even as it’s happening all around you, you have no one who'll...
    penwithajen penwithajen 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 18

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