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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    I think about what life might be like

    if I could talk about who I am. I started lying about who I was at an age where lying seems unconscionable. These were my lies-- I wasn't afraid all the time. I didn't worry ulcers into my gut about what was going to happen next. I wasn't an unhappy child. You forced me...
    penwithajen penwithajen 41-45, F 1 Response May 14

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    My dad started off as a good man.

    It was only when I was 3 that he began abusing my mother then me. He would come home drunk and we would both hide in a closet and hope he fell asleep before he found us. Sometimes he would end up breaking my mums arm or my leg and we would go to hospital but just tell the nurses...
    Alexrrrr Alexrrrr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20

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    Strong

    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 14 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    Just a small reminder

    that you are not alone, it was not your fault, and there is still good in the world, it can just be hard to find. You're strong, you CAN do this.
    Jekkasaur Jekkasaur 22-25, F 5 Responses May 15

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    LETTER TO MY MOTHER when I was 4,

    I remember standing at the door on the right side of the house in Waterloo, crying and begging you to take me to grandmas with the boys but you never let me go. You made me stay by myself with randy,(my bio father) all day and most of the evening. You knew what he was doing to...
    letters2mymother letters2mymother 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    LoganSurfing LoganSurfing 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 16

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 34 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    Please look at my page about the abuse I was

    forced to endure by my mother Letters to the My mother and anyone that thinks child abuse is ok
    letters2mymother letters2mymother 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    It's one off them things to grow up in constant

    fear and cry your self to sleep every night is a thing people can't possibly have any idea what it's like unless they lived n been throw it people tell you get over it move on but that is far easier said than done when inside you dead any you mind snapped
    littlebabybell littlebabybell 13-15, T 7 Responses May 19

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    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 26 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 14 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    THE TALL POLICEMAN DIDNT LISTEN:It was in May.

    . Still too cold for the public swimming pool to be opened..We lived in Vernayaz, a very small village, close to a town called Martigny, where the public pool was...I was with my friend Sandra who was 7 or 8 like me. It was after lunch, we were walking my dog near an electricity...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 16 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    It may seem like a small thing to some

    and that is fine cause it happen to me.
    Keith490 Keith490 46-50, M 3 Responses May 17

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    In my family, the only person I was really

    close to was my mother. Once my parents divorced my brother and I lived with my mother while my father moved to the city. My mother slowly become physically and mentally abusive, beating and constantly emotionally messing with my brother and I. My brother adapted these methods...
    marcyr marcyr 16-17, M 10 Responses Jun 7

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    Being a survivor is something I embrace in

    myself. I could ponder endlessly as to why I experienced the trauma... and believe me, I have. But honestly, I've fought hard to put it behind me and rise above... to end the nightmare of the storm it created within me. Surviving is about living... and life is too short for...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 9 Responses Jan 26

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    I really want to vent.

    I guess I’m having one of those nights where most things make me angry. I’m angry in a really personal and selfish way so it’s difficult to share. I’m hoping writing it down and sharing it here will help me deal with what’s going through my head. What I really hate is...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 3

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    Sexual abuse. I was sexually abused

    as a child and it's the biggest secret I have. I suppressed the memories because I was very young but I always had flashbacks. They came periodically but I never paid them attention. I didn't want to deal with the pain that came with them. But I knew I was different. I cringed...
    Dezaria Dezaria 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 26 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    A friend sparked an enormous soul searching the

    other day when she asked me if I was a bug to be picked up and eaten? If you know me at all you'll realise how much pride I have in my "strength" so I did not like to be asked this question. Like when a social worker told me I was like an amoeba, the most thought provoking...
    Faerylight Faerylight 41-45, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234 16-17, F 8 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    I am 14 let me start off

    before I was born my mom smoked drank got on roller coasters and she knew that she was pragnat she tired to she tried to have an abortion but she was too far along I was born a premature 3 pounds they told my mom and dad I wouldn't live they care so they left the hospital and...
    Kellyfoster2000 Kellyfoster2000 13-15, F 3 Responses May 3

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    okay here goes, my first memory i remember is

    when i was 3 and my dad bought me a play house castle i had so much fun with it. i walk out my room and see my dad beating my naked mom, i'll never forget that its burned in my brain. my dad left after a while and my mom met the devil himself it is because of this that i feel i...
    IamTheReject IamTheReject 18-21, M 2 Responses May 23

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    I don't understand why some people look away.

    I truly hated my neighbor for not intervening.My mother physically,emotional,and sexually abused my siblings and I.Finally we had gotten some reprieve as we were scattered to live with various relatives and to foster homes. It was easy for me not to repeat the cycle.And am not...
    Duckygirl2 Duckygirl2 46-50, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Time To Share

    I haven't really talked a whole lot about my past here, but recently, I think I have felt inspired to do so because of the strength of other friends in my circle who have talked about their experience. I think it's important to share, not for the purpose of reliving the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Apr 30, 2011

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    tonight is a bad night.

    i feel so unhappy right now. i just want to be loved. but i cant even love myself. let me drown in memories instead. but that won't make me feel better. i dont understand why im so unset right now. i just want something to feel.
    dancinglawn dancinglawn 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25

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    I am twenty and I am still haunted on what my

    parents did to me when I was little. They have done everything from emotional manipulation to mental abuse; they even have gotten physical at some points, and I just don't know how to move on with my life if they won't admit to what they did to me when I was little. I want to...
    icanonlydeterminemyhappiness icanonlydeterminemyhappiness 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 45 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 8 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    I am a victim of child abuse .

    I've been abused by my dad ever since i was 3 years old. It stopped about a year ago right after I went to childcare .
    emmie278 emmie278 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 15

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    I am a victim of child abuse .

    I have been abused by my dad every since i was 3 years old. It stopped about a year ago
    empje3 empje3 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 118 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    I'm a 13 year old girl,

    I was born on 9/11/2001 the exact day and time the first plane hit the World Trade Center in NY city. When my parents found out I was born on the same day, they immediately started to hate me. My parents wouldn't feed me or clothe me. I nearly died when I was 3 because my...
    Ellie1dale Ellie1dale 22-25, F 8 Responses May 16

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    My dad died suddenly a few weeks ago.

    My mom called me at work and let me know she's found him dead. It was a huge shock and I'm still not quite recovered. He was an alcoholic and would beat me with a leather belt after verbally abusing me. He'd call me stupid or scream "What the hell is wrong with you?" When I...
    AlacrityMelancholy AlacrityMelancholy 41-45, F 3 Responses Jun 6

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 55 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    You know those moments

    when you just want to be rescued, to be taken out of the situation you've been put in? Everytime I feel I am getting somewhere in life, I come tumbling back down to fall in the same place I started, my mothers house. I've moved out, moved country and changed phone numbers, I've...
    AmnesiaPlease AmnesiaPlease 18-21, M 2 Responses May 19

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 32 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 24 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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    So many people carrying the same wounds

    and pain… I am one of them…My mother abused me horribly, but I managed disconnect from her as I was age 4-5. I told myself: this is not my other, it’s completely insane person and I would fight back to survive. Kind of you are at war… when you are fighting back, you...
    soulbridge soulbridge 36-40, F 1 Response May 6

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    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8 36-40, F 5 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    Does anyone know how to move past it.

    I drank the pain away for a long time and now I'm sober.. I have also been in a relationship with a very abusive woman too. I don't want be a victim ever again. It's hard to function . I gravitate to abusive people. How do I move on and stop being a victam
    sirnatural sirnatural 31-35, M 3 Responses May 20

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    That moment when you can hear them coming up

    the stairs you hide under the covers shaking your hart pounding like locomotive as the door handle turns you try to pretend to be sleep in hope that it will get them to leave you alone as you cry quietly with out trying to make a sound it haunts you for ever every time you close...
    JessicababyBell JessicababyBell 26-30, T 2 Responses May 17

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