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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    I Cant Find My Strength Anymore

    Id like to start of by saying how incredible it is to read so many inspirational stories and to not feel so alone. Im a woman of 21 (I say woman but im not quite there yet) im currently in the middle of the courtcase that i feel is going to make or break me. My father having...
    annonymous2012 annonymous2012 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    I was a mistake. Nothing more

    than a burden, nothing less than a pain. I was abused. Taught from day one that I won't amount to anything, that I'm worthless. Cigarette burns lined my arms, alcohol filled the freezer, mold grew in the bottles, mice ran the house, laundry piled high, every room smelled like a...
    kayaker245 kayaker245 18-21, F 3 Responses May 25

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    I believe when you die the questions you have

    on this earth that you did not understand will be answered. I seen a movies once and it had the same concept. I want to know why children get abused and what if a child didnt, how differently his or her life would be. I was abused from day one of my life until I left home at a...
    wickedone72 wickedone72 41-45, F 2 Responses May 24

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    My Story [Updated 9/18/2013]

    I was born in the summer of 1978 in the small town of Beckley, West Virginia. My parents were only about 16 at the time I was born and were not really prepared to take care of a child at that time. My father had his dad and step-mother watch me for a while until I was about three...
    jennykitten78 jennykitten78 31-35, T 28 Responses Jan 31, 2011

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    I was a child abuse survivor

    and it's not easy to get over about that cos it was a traumatic experience and it's really painful until now.. that's why I don't get easily trust someone
    ivy030491 ivy030491 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26

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    i don't know if me and my siblings are being

    abused but it seems like we might be i never thought about it before because we are homeschooled and this is my first phone and i got this app because i thought it would be fun and people started messaging me saying my parents were abusive and the things I posted about what they...
    valbunny valbunny 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 17 Responses Apr 22

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    Young, loving DaddyDom seeking the last piece

    to His puzzle. <3 Seems sometimes that I almost have it all. I'm not too hard to look at, financially I'm living pretty comfortably; I have a job that I love doing and a strong ten-year plan. I live in a great apartment in an awesome neighborhood, I have good friends and...
    DaddyDoctorWho DaddyDoctorWho 18-21, M Jun 10

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    I have carried the guilt

    and pain with me for over 30 years never telling anyone what had happened. Its only now i find the strength to talk about the abuse. Why does it have to be so hard. I have days when i just want to end it all but somehow just keep on going.
    alexed65 alexed65 46-50, M 4 Responses Mar 7

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    There is a special place in hell

    for child abusers. Taking something as precious as a child's innocence through violence, sexual acts, or otherwise is the ultimate crime, and no amount of jail time with suffice.
    Annaelaine Annaelaine 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22

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    I grew up being abused by my father he was

    always drunk pull me out of bed out of a dead sleep because I gave my Mom a rough way to go he would beat me with a belt or board on my bare butt. After my parents divorced and my Mom got with a another man he use to beat my rear with a belt as well, needless to say she did not...
    Summerraine1 Summerraine1 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 17

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    I entered adult life

    so severely traumatized due to being starved for intimacy and attachment and terrorized as a kid that I slept on the floor wearing my boots and clothes until age 32, and I could not sit in a comfortable chair until that time. Then I stayed with a friends family at age 32 and...
    Ajushi Ajushi 31-35, M 3 Responses May 31

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    Sometimes I feel like the 4 years of abuse I

    went through are just dreams because I can't remember much of it.
    DarkAngel610 DarkAngel610 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 9

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    This group makes me sad.

    I hate that there are so many people out there that have been abused or hurt as children. I was molested by an older cousin for about six years. It started when I was about five with him just touching me whenever he could. I remember the first time he got into bed with me when I...
    BrittneyShuler BrittneyShuler 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 13

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    BRAIN HEALTH COCKTAIL FOR SEVERE CHILDHOOD

    TRAUMA SURVIVORS, DISSOCIATIVE IDENTITY DISORDER, ATTACHMENT DISORDER, DEVELOPMENTAL TRAUMA, "PTSD" - THIS IS FOR PEOPLE RECOVERING FROM IT, or "REINTEGRATING" THEIR FRACTURED PSYCHE, OR HAVE ALREADY REINTEGRATED IT: 1. Mood stabalizing: I use Lamictal. Least side affects...
    Ajushi Ajushi 31-35, M 3 Responses May 26

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    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    It was one of the nails

    that sealed my coffin, damning me to a short lived life of isolation. My life has been one wreck after another, but I suppose it starts here at the gateway. I considered myself a nice kid. I saved someone from drowning in a creek once. When I was 10, I got diagnosed with...
    Yearsgoby Yearsgoby 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Letter To My 7 Year Old Self

    Hey Kiddo… There are some things you need to know about the stuff you are going through right now. Some of this won’t make sense for a long time. And some of it will go against everything you know about yourself and the people around you. But it needs to be said. 1) It...
    MisfitChris MisfitChris 41-45 3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 83 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 15 Responses Feb 3

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    I know I was to young to remember

    when it all started. God who would put a sensitive child with a father like mine? From my earliest memories I was afraid of him. He was cruel mean and no doubt a perv. He tormented me in every way you can imagine and the problem was I was the middle child in between two sisters...
    ICRETO ICRETO 46-50, M 2 Responses May 20

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    At Least I Am Not Like Them

    The sick SOB that donated the ***** to create me used to like to get drunk and high. He would start by telling me how stupid, weak, and useless I was.  Then he would whip himself into a real anger and start swinging.  He would literally pound my head into the wall.  I...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40 2 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 18 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    I morph my personality to match with

    whoever I'm speaking to, like a chameleon. I have no sense of personhood or self at all within the context of human attachment and belonging. I'm a completely undeveloped person, like a raw, tortured, malnourished 3 year old brain trapped in a 40 year old body.
    Ajushi Ajushi 31-35, M 1 Response May 19

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    There Really Are Monsters

    Hi Dad... You are dead...and there is no way that I can tell you to your face what I have kept inside for so many years. Since your death I have struggled to find some peace and closure in my life. I have no way to tell you the things that need to be said except to tell you in a...
    Spyderflyer Spyderflyer 61-65 4 Responses Mar 25, 2013

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    Can someone who have been abused

    as a child message me so I can ask a couple of questions please it's urgent
    georgii50555 georgii50555 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 18

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    I had a flashback today.

    It took me a little bit to recover. I was walking in the park with my husband when it happened and he wanted to know what was wrong. I had stopped walking, ducked my head and covered my eyes. At first I didn't want to tell but he was persistent so I told him, "I'm having a...
    Smilenbhappy Smilenbhappy 46-50, F 4 days ago

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    8065 members in this group.

    And i thought i was unique.
    discovery5 discovery5 41-45, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    I wish she instead asked,

    " Are a Child Abuse Survivor". It is a Statement. How she made it a choice for all. I was never ABUSED as a Child. My Abuse began when I was 35.
    paradisequeen paradisequeen 41-45, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 28 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    Almost no one knows about it,

    not even my Mother or my best friend.
    ItsTheSmallThingsInLife ItsTheSmallThingsInLife 31-35, M 3 Responses Jun 2

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 33 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 21 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Thoughts On Forgiveness

    This is mainly copied from a response I made to someone on a group about forgiving your abusers. Forgiveness is a route that many survivors choose to take.  And that's great.  If it's what's actually right for them.  But it is not the only route to take.  It is not necessary...
    TruthSpeaks71 TruthSpeaks71 41-45 8 Responses Aug 30, 2012

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    I am a Child abuse survior.

    .I was abused by father whom is and was a drunk when he would try and correct me he did it drunk would pull me out of bed and beat my rear end on the bare butt with a board or belt ( he was not doing it out of love he was always drunk) Another man that abused me was my mother's...
    DarkPurpleSecret DarkPurpleSecret 41-45, F Jun 5

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 10 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    RECOMMENDATIONS FOR SURVIVAL: I come from a

    background where there was no attachment intimacy or nurturing. My body developed in a state of fear and trauma completely deprived of oxytocin; my attachment figure was a source of terror and dissociation. I have gone on likewise deprived of love/intimacy/attachment through...
    Ajushi Ajushi 31-35, M 1 Response May 21

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    So here is my story all my life I seeked

    attention I wanted to be the cemter of attention : talking loud .acting dramaticly .fighting with teacher to make them noticing me born in a family that d perfect outside but inside I sugered from verbal and physical abuse been beaten seing my parents always fighting that becom...
    aryela aryela 18-21, F Jul 10

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 23 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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    I was sexually abused by two brothers over a

    four year period. It started when i was 8. Thought it was my fault, still kinda do. I mean, if I hadn't been born, it wouldn't of happened. I had the same nightmare night after night. When I finally told someone, I felt so embarrassed. I still do to this day. I couldn't change...
    gr8love gr8love 31-35, F 22 Responses Mar 9

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 55 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    HOW TO HEAL YOUR BRAIN: 1.

    READ THESE BOOKS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR BRAIN AND HOW TO IMPROVE IT. What happened is you lacked human intimacy and attachment. You were starved for love, and if you're still lacking healthy intimate attachment relationship as an adult, then you are still some...
    Ajushi Ajushi 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 5

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 40 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    Before I start my story I want it to be known I

    am a strong and capable woman, mother and everything else I am supposed to be. It took me a long time to be able to say that. From the time I was four years old until the time I was 17 and ran away I was abused physically, emotionally and sexually. My mother was my biggest...
    cmdaniels74 cmdaniels74 36-40, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    The Nightmare Has Ended

    I have lived the last 20 years of my life either being abused by you or abusing myself with alcohol and other addictions in an attempt to escape the memories of your torment. During the decade of abuse I always hoped that you would “accidently” kill me. I had hoped you would...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 7 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    Been abused since grade 8 I am

    now in grade 12. I used to get beat all the time and now I stand my ground and stand up for myself. Never let anyone make you believe your not good enough even your parents. Whether your a guy or girl you don't deserve it and your amazing. Don't stay a victim become a survivor...
    respect78 respect78 16-17, F 5 Responses May 24

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 26 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    The more I think about it now.

    The more it seems so hurtful. Yet it is not happening now... its more of a bickering stage. with a bit of nail scars. yes its all from her. Out of 5 Siblings. I was the ONE. I don't Understand why it has happened. I can only wonder why someone would do this to me. I can proudly...
    PrettyRabbit PrettyRabbit 22-25 3 Responses Jun 13

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    I always imagine what my life would have been

    and how I would be if what happen didn't happen..
    freedom16 freedom16 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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