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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    A friend sparked an enormous soul searching the

    other day when she asked me if I was a bug to be picked up and eaten? If you know me at all you'll realise how much pride I have in my "strength" so I did not like to be asked this question. Like when a social worker told me I was like an amoeba, the most thought provoking...
    Faerylight Faerylight 41-45, F 7 Responses Jul 3, 2015

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 53 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    Mine was not physical

    or mental abuse. Please see my input into "I was sexually abused"
    maturegurl maturegurl 46-50, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    This story is my own,

    I’m not telling it to get pity but cause it helps to talk about it and I know it can help others in the same situation or who have been there…. This is not a fun story, some may find it hard some may find it hard… some can relate.. When I was born, I already had a big...
    ChantouKimmy ChantouKimmy 41-45, F 7 Responses Mar 20, 2015

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    Both my parents inflicted physical,

    emotional and verbal abuse on me, but my father was the worst. I just moved with my sister temporarily and he has a key to her house and comes and goes as he pleases. She keeps in touch with him but I don't and we haven't spoken in over a year. I can't forgive what he's done. I...
    Salamander2 Salamander2 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 22, 2015

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    I was sexually abused by two brothers over a

    four year period. It started when i was 8. Thought it was my fault, still kinda do. I mean, if I hadn't been born, it wouldn't of happened. I had the same nightmare night after night. When I finally told someone, I felt so embarrassed. I still do to this day. I couldn't change...
    gr8love gr8love 36-40, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I'm 16 years old. My Step father sexually,

    emotionally, and physically abused me since i was 9 years old. I can't escape. He won't stop screaming. I won't stop self harming. I'm so hurt.
    AnotherDepressedGirl AnotherDepressedGirl 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 9

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    I have never had not one person to tell me

    that I should stay away from my mother because it could be bad for my health. Because she is a woman I feel like everyone covers up for her and give her excuses when they barely know her...and it's very disappointing when it comes from relatives it makes me feel like me or my...
    PetiteChica PetiteChica 18-21, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have carried the guilt

    and pain with me for over 30 years never telling anyone what had happened. Its only now i find the strength to talk about the abuse. Why does it have to be so hard. I have days when i just want to end it all but somehow just keep on going.
    alexed65 alexed65 46-50, M 5 Responses Mar 7, 2014

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    I guess I was technically abused

    though I've never really looked at it that way. When I was 12 I had an older male friend of the family who would look after me when my parents were both traveling. One day we were just hanging out at home and we were talking about girls and sex and we got on the topic of...
    jeepxjdude2000 jeepxjdude2000 26-30, M 4 Responses Jan 15

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    " I am " I am 16 But mentally I am 10

    Emotionally I am afraid of everything I am a victim of abuse and I am ashamed . No one knows how hard it's to hide the pain behind a mask . The memory's will always haunting but I am trying to forget . The emotional wounds just won't go away . I am dead inside just a shell...
    kittenmajor kittenmajor 18-21, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 26 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    reading some of these posts.

    ..just adding my 2 cents. If any of you think you are going to get comfort from your abuser admitting what they done or saying they are sorry or the person who enabled it to happen, think again. My father never could admit the truth to anyone, although he did say he was sorry as...
    taintdrose taintdrose 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 4, 2015

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 19 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    When I was like 5 my moms boyfriend would abuse

    me and my brothers everyday until she got home it was a living hell.
    Marines75 Marines75 13-15, M 11 Responses Mar 22, 2015

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    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    I wonder what it's like to have a dad.

    I have a biological father, but he's certainly not a "dad". To this day, I still do not know all the things he did to me. To us. I remember being locked in the basement every. single. night. I remember being lifted by the ear and dragged across the room. I remember not being...
    p3141592 p3141592 22-25, F Nov 12, 2015

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 9 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    (BEWARE, THIS IS LENGTHY AND DEscriptIVE) It

    was another night my uncle had stayed over to go work with my dad the next morning. I remember playing with my pink princess bouncy ball in the family room with my two younger sister's Rachel and Char. As we were throwing it to each other, uncle Dan ran in and took the ball and...
    loverenzy loverenzy 16-17, F Jan 11

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    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234 18-21, F 8 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    I just want to post a "THANK YOU!

    " to all the people on this site who use their experiences to support others. I've been having a difficult time coping and it usually gets worse around the holidays and my birthday, which is today (yesterday legally but that's a long story). Anyway, thanks guys. Hugs to everyone...
    ashamedofmyfamily ashamedofmyfamily 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 17, 2015

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    Making Peace with Your Past: Choosing

    Forgiveness Are you haunted by something that happened in your past? Whether someone wronged you or you made a decision you regret, Dr. Phil says that forgiveness is what you do for yourself, not for other people. When you forgive, it doesn't mean that you approve of what's...
    Q2013 Q2013 46-50, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 139 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    When I talk about the abuse I still suffer from

    my sadistic birth mother on different forums of this website, it's disturbing that some people respond with,,, wtf did u do to your mom? As if the abuse has to be my fault not my abusive mother. But for someone to say that and jump to an abusive parent's defense feels more...
    Archangel216 Archangel216 36-40, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2015

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    reading so many stories from this group i've

    seen how vigilant friends here..your survival inspires me to do the same thank you for sharing...
    snowhow snowhow 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2015

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Strong

    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 15 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    I was 8 years old when he first touched me.

    He was in the basement spending the day at our house watching tv. I went to ask him if he wanted to play with me and my sisters, because he usually would. He told me he was too tired to play so I told him ok. I went turned around and went to walk upstairs until he strangely...
    loverenzy loverenzy 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    In my family, the only person I was really

    close to was my mother. Once my parents divorced my brother and I lived with my mother while my father moved to the city. My mother slowly become physically and mentally abusive, beating and constantly emotionally messing with my brother and I. My brother adapted these methods...
    marcyr marcyr 16-17, M 9 Responses Jun 7, 2015

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    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 22 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    When I was showering earlier,

    I actually went into a panic when washing and rinsing my face off. I thought I couldn't breathe and started imagining my dad was suffocating me again. Out of everything he has done, I can't stand screaming (even kids that are happy), I can't stand people touching me or about...
    44JC 44JC 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 1, 2015

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    I have started to write a story more

    than three times here . At the age of 41 im still ashamed. I have angels here that have given me strenght. I am still scarred with blood that will never wash away... tattoos of ripped skin and bruises...lead in my arm. The spector of a two year old girl who never gets any...
    Myeyestellu Myeyestellu 41-45, F 7 Responses Jan 11

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    It can be so hard to heal.

    My mind is continuously jumping back to the times I've been hurt. I used to hate the idea of healing from my past because the hurt of my past was all I knew and I became so comfortable with it. I was physically abused since I was 3 years old. Throughout that time I sexually...
    dancinglawn dancinglawn 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2015

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    I was abused s3xually by a family member

    and verbally abused by a parent growing up. I survived, but it left some scars one was acute fear and panic attacks. I made many bad decisions in my life all because of fear. It impacted my marriage, myself, and my children. I had no self esteem at all and lost myself in...
    Iamonlyheretowrite1 Iamonlyheretowrite1 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 3

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    I don't remember allot about my childhood.

    but I remember the abuse more clearly. I really wish I could get mental help. it's like my hart has shattered into shards of glass .
    flowergirl1997 flowergirl1997 18-21, F 19 Responses May 23, 2015

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 23 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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    I am sixteen now. When I was little I lived

    with my grandparents. My grandfather would sometimes whip me with a belt on my lower half, or yell at me at the top of his lungs sometimes and bang his fists on the table at me, once for messing up on a colouring assignment. and I would run and hide; in closet or under my bed...
    chelbacca chelbacca 16-17, F 8 Responses Jan 20

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    I am not sure if I was abused by my male cousin

    as a child of 10 or not . My family had money problems and we had to move in with my aunts and male cousin. I was told to share his bed . I was 10 and he was 11 , we had never been close at all. I got undressed in the dark and got into bed with him He had a flashlight under...
    anthony2001 anthony2001 61-65, M 1 Response Jan 11

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    I didn't join this site with the intention of

    sharing this experience. Not at all. I've previously done so to my therapist, but (with the exception of my sister) no one else. No one. But it is plain to me now that it's essential to do so in order to try to explain my personality and behaviour- to myself if nothing else...
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses Sep 17, 2015

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 23 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    I had a nightmare last night.

    I can't remember the details but I remember that all too familiar feeling. I wish closing your eyes actually protected you. I'm so glad my children will never have to close their eyes to escape me or their father.
    Atru727 Atru727 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2015

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    stolen youth Only an infant,

    not even a teen, far from being a woman A tiny 3 feet tall human being that you took by the hand You said to me: you're beautiful pretty girl, want to play? Come and see me, I got a secret for you, come my way A nice little game you said, but only for you and me Better not...
    ChantouKimmy ChantouKimmy 41-45, F 19 Responses Aug 11, 2015

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