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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 46 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    I was sexually abused by two brothers over a

    four year period. It started when i was 8. Thought it was my fault, still kinda do. I mean, if I hadn't been born, it wouldn't of happened. I had the same nightmare night after night. When I finally told someone, I felt so embarrassed. I still do to this day. I couldn't change...
    gr8love gr8love 36-40, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    When I was like 5 my moms boyfriend would abuse

    me and my brothers everyday until she got home it was a living hell.
    Marines75 Marines75 13-15, M 10 Responses Mar 22

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    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 21 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234 16-17, F 8 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    LoganSurfing LoganSurfing 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 16

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    ~Once upon a time, there was a girl,

    a young angel, pretty and blonde, who had appeared sixteen and one night her and her boyfriend had sex and she got pregnant and fell from grace but a prince married her because her boyfriend left . A couple months later, a beautiful baby met her new father and mother. 2 years...
    LadyXSilverthorne LadyXSilverthorne 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I'm still not certain about being a survivor.

    Mom was 15 when I was born, and I was 5 when she and her new boyfriend were murdered. They were both bound and forced to watch her ex-boyfriend sexually assault me, and then I was taped to a ladder-backed chair and watched while he brutally murdered them. My family was very...
    scarred4lifeby5 scarred4lifeby5 61-65, M 1 Response Jun 1

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    Time To Share

    I haven't really talked a whole lot about my past here, but recently, I think I have felt inspired to do so because of the strength of other friends in my circle who have talked about their experience. I think it's important to share, not for the purpose of reliving the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 31 Responses Apr 30, 2011

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 55 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    This story is my own,

    I’m not telling it to get pity but cause it helps to talk about it and I know it can help others in the same situation or who have been there…. This is not a fun story, some may find it hard some may find it hard… some can relate.. When I was born, I already had a big...
    ChantouKimmy ChantouKimmy 41-45, F 7 Responses Mar 20

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 120 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 32 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 8 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 19 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    My dad died suddenly a few weeks ago.

    My mom called me at work and let me know she's found him dead. It was a huge shock and I'm still not quite recovered. He was an alcoholic and would beat me with a leather belt after verbally abusing me. He'd call me stupid or scream "What the hell is wrong with you?" When I...
    AlacrityMelancholy AlacrityMelancholy 41-45, F 3 Responses Jun 6

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    LETTER TO MY MOTHER when I was 4,

    I remember standing at the door on the right side of the house in Waterloo, crying and begging you to take me to grandmas with the boys but you never let me go. You made me stay by myself with randy,(my bio father) all day and most of the evening. You knew what he was doing to...
    letters2mymother letters2mymother 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    okay here goes, my first memory i remember is

    when i was 3 and my dad bought me a play house castle i had so much fun with it. i walk out my room and see my dad beating my naked mom, i'll never forget that its burned in my brain. my dad left after a while and my mom met the devil himself it is because of this that i feel i...
    IamTheReject IamTheReject 18-21, M 2 Responses May 23

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    Sexual abuse. I was sexually abused

    as a child and it's the biggest secret I have. I suppressed the memories because I was very young but I always had flashbacks. They came periodically but I never paid them attention. I didn't want to deal with the pain that came with them. But I knew I was different. I cringed...
    Dezaria Dezaria 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    jeepxjdude2000 jeepxjdude2000 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 17

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    Things were done to me by my Mom

    and Dad. I remember the things they did, and I remember their faces while they were doing it. But when I try to say it out loud, or admit it to myself, I feel ashamed, and I wonder if I just made it up. But I know it happened, and I always knew it happened. I tried sharing it...
    trek99 trek99 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 6

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    I am a victim of child abuse .

    I've been abused by my dad ever since i was 3 years old. It stopped about a year ago right after I went to childcare .
    emmie278 emmie278 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 15

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    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8 36-40, F 5 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 12 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    My dad started off as a good man.

    It was only when I was 3 that he began abusing my mother then me. He would come home drunk and we would both hide in a closet and hope he fell asleep before he found us. Sometimes he would end up breaking my mums arm or my leg and we would go to hospital but just tell the nurses...
    Alexrrrr Alexrrrr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 24 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    CULT SURVIVORI grew up in a evangelical

    fundamentalist group that was ran by my "Family". I escaped child abuse, neglect and the rise of a religious cult.I am finally willing to share my story. The more it gets out there- The safer I am. PLEASE HELP.
    DestinyChangesC DestinyChangesC 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 9

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    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 26 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    Being a survivor is something I embrace in

    myself. I could ponder endlessly as to why I experienced the trauma... and believe me, I have. But honestly, I've fought hard to put it behind me and rise above... to end the nightmare of the storm it created within me. Surviving is about living... and life is too short for...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 9 Responses Jan 26

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    tonight is a bad night.

    i feel so unhappy right now. i just want to be loved. but i cant even love myself. let me drown in memories instead. but that won't make me feel better. i dont understand why im so unset right now. i just want something to feel.
    dancinglawn dancinglawn 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25

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    A friend sparked an enormous soul searching the

    other day when she asked me if I was a bug to be picked up and eaten? If you know me at all you'll realise how much pride I have in my "strength" so I did not like to be asked this question. Like when a social worker told me I was like an amoeba, the most thought provoking...
    Faerylight Faerylight 41-45, F 7 Responses Jul 3

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    To Ali Mirza, my abuser

    for 25 years: I am writing to inform you that I know exactly who and what you are. (A Malignant Narcissist, psychopath, antisocial, hateful, wife beater, child abuser, blackmailer, emotional terrorist, pathological liar, manipulator, coward, adult bully & emotional rapist - a...
    wowodeals wowodeals 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    Does anyone know how to move past it.

    I drank the pain away for a long time and now I'm sober.. I have also been in a relationship with a very abusive woman too. I don't want be a victim ever again. It's hard to function . I gravitate to abusive people. How do I move on and stop being a victam
    sirnatural sirnatural 36-40, M 3 Responses May 20

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    Please look at my page about the abuse I was

    forced to endure by my mother Letters to the My mother and anyone that thinks child abuse is ok
    letters2mymother letters2mymother 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    What do you guys think about all the groups here

    who support corporal punishment? Is spanking/hitting kids ok in any circumstance? Do you consider this child abuse?
    StellaNoir StellaNoir 31-35, F 12 Responses May 23

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    It happened so many years ago

    but I still remember it like it was yesterday. I don't hold bad feelings against him.
    Thog Thog 51-55, M 2 Responses Jul 15

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    I am a victim of child abuse .

    I have been abused by my dad every since i was 3 years old. It stopped about a year ago
    empje3 empje3 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    I just want to post a "THANK YOU!

    " to all the people on this site who use their experiences to support others. I've been having a difficult time coping and it usually gets worse around the holidays and my birthday, which is today (yesterday legally but that's a long story). Anyway, thanks guys. Hugs to everyone...
    ashamedofmyfamily ashamedofmyfamily 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I've been having more flashbacks

    than usual lately. They vary with intensity but never really go away. I have been living with it for so long that I've come to accept they will always be there. The problem I have is that those who know about it think that I'm just a bitter person who can't let go of the past...
    ashamedofmyfamily ashamedofmyfamily 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    I was abused in a foster home.

    Males who have been raped and sexually abused, you're not alone. I'm not comfortable sharing my story so publicly but I'm here for anyone who needs to talk.
    lubesh lubesh 16-17, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Hello Im a 31 year old Female.

    ..Married with Children. .I was Molested by my Dad...I remember I was about 8 years old...My dad would turn on *********** soo I can watch with him..My dad wanted to Specifically watch the Women performing Fellacio on a Man...When it was over he would have me do the Same to him...
    Charitee Charitee 31-35, F 6 Responses Jul 15

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    I don't remember allot about my childhood.

    but I remember the abuse more clearly. I really wish I could get mental help. it's like my hart has shattered into shards of glass .
    flowergirl1997 flowergirl1997 18-21, F 20 Responses May 23

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