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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 104 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    My mom hits me a lot.

    Back when I was little, I used to cry a lot. I was a miserable child. My mom slapped me, hit me on my back, called me names. I never knew the meanings of the words she used. At least back then. My family was very poor, and my dad struggled to earn a living. Once, my mom nearly...
    Tearsinmycheek Tearsinmycheek 16-17, F 6 Responses Nov 28, 2014

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    I have a story like all of you been through the

    therapy of remembering more than I ever wanted too. but I found ways to cope then survive now i'm trying to thrive. my coping was writing poetry I would express my anger and rage that I had trouble admitting too in poems. it was freeing. to survive I also found a way to take...
    hopeful72 hopeful72 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    just kids experimenting

    or abuse?? boy 2.5 years older than sister engages her is sex play on landing while dad at pub and mum watching tv. too young to penetrate her. multuple positions. oral both ways
    Movingon45 Movingon45 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    I've realized something.

    Something horrible. It makes me want to cry, puke and scream. I don't know how I didn't see it before. I remembered something last night and it's importance has only surfaced now. The abuse wasn't started by my mother. It was my father. He started it all. He was an alcoholic...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    My Mother Let A Man Rape Me When I Was 10 Years Old

    When I was born my parents were in the process of getting a divorce. It wasnt long before my mother found someone else to take my fathers place. The knew man named Paul was in my mothers life for about 13 years total before they finally broke up. Paul had more than one girlfriend...
    17andSexXii 17andSexXii 18-21, F 45 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    To me, my parents were just *****

    and egg donors . They have some kind of love towards us in them, and they are good people now i think, but that doesn't matter to me anymore. I've established boundaries and don't intend to ever see them again. If I'm out of state, I likely might not even attend their funerals...
    Ajushi Ajushi 36-40, M 3 Responses Jan 6

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 26 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    I'll tell everybody I am 27 I never had friends

    not even a girlfriend the word rejection is huge and the pain is horrible been depressed for a long time already since I was 12 not very funny not even loneliness I think the only ones who may care about me is my grandma because my parents are not very friendly either I remember...
    forsa85 forsa85 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    It's funny how kids/teens these day say they

    were abused mentally/physically/emotionally over little things that are meaningless like a spank or their dad being an alcoholic, or them not getting enough hugs as a kid. It's pathetic. They just want attention and end up posting about in on Facebook or Cutting themselves. I'm...
    MrHypothetical MrHypothetical 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 9

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    It's been ten years today

    since she made sure with her abuse that I would forever live in pain, that I would never be normal and carefree no matter how far I ran and moved on. I realised this yesterday but my body has been trying to tell me for weeks. All the old injuries have been playing up, the...
    ScarredScared ScarredScared 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    Starving all the time was nothing new to me

    growing up. Other kids in school were the same way. My late father, used the money (Child tax benefit) to gamble, drink and feed himself the 'good' food. We had water soup with some vegetables in it cuz he took the meatier stuff out for himself. I was the cook cuz my father...
    roxrockman roxrockman 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 21, 2014

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    I'm going to do this,

    ok. And I'm NOT going to cry, no. When I was 7 my father left us. I am a child of 7, the youngest, and the only girl. It was tough on most of us when my father left, but I would like to say me, especially, because I was so attached to him. I guess I do owe him a lot because he...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 18-21, F 8 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    My Father And I

    It was Saturday, I hated Saturdays! My mother being a motor welder/winder used to love Saturdays. She would dress up from head to toe to meet her friends for lunch then do groceries. She'd be gone for hours. I can remember begging to go with her and she'd always say "No", my...
    SparkofHope SparkofHope 46-50, F 19 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    I was sexually abused

    as a BABY I was burned with cigarettes as a 2 year old. I still have the scars on my chest. My biological mother tried to drown me in the toilet. I've suffered broken bones Then they threw me out like GARBAGE!!!! And here I am TODAY
    AwesomeAlert AwesomeAlert 46-50, M 9 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    The Nightmare Has Ended

    I have lived the last 20 years of my life either being abused by you or abusing myself with alcohol and other addictions in an attempt to escape the memories of your torment. During the decade of abuse I always hoped that you would “accidently” kill me. I had hoped you would...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    My mom use to beat me

    until I was 13 or 14 and she didn't touch my twin brother or little sister.
    CaliArs CaliArs 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 8, 2014

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    Power Is Rebellion. It will serve you well to

    place the people behind bars. or at least destroy them emotionally, spiritually.
    Gabster27 Gabster27 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    Strong

    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 15 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    It stops with me. Yes,

    I was abused. Still am, and I'm 65 years old. I was watching an episode of Law and Order SVU, and one of the characters said it poignantly said that she was disgusted with her mother because her father sexually abused her. She stated that her father had abused her, but he...
    casualwear casualwear 61-65, M 4 Responses Jan 4

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    Was i abused? Thats the question,

    i did something with mom
    howard1945 howard1945 51-55, M Dec 18, 2014

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    I never really saw it

    as abuse. In fact I thought it was normal. I thought getting the **** beat out of you until you had trouble walking and being constantly belittled and mentally tormented all the time was normal. I really did. It was all I knew. But after I got a therapist he said it was...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    I have carried the guilt

    and pain with me for over 30 years never telling anyone what had happened. Its only now i find the strength to talk about the abuse. Why does it have to be so hard. I have days when i just want to end it all but somehow just keep on going.
    alexed65 alexed65 46-50, M 4 Responses Mar 7, 2014

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    I used to tell myself: 'I refuse to let those

    things stand in my way, I refuse to let them even leave a scratch in the paint' ...but I no longer need to tell myself that, and forgiving anyone for anything is not neccesary... The one I am deep inside, is and has always stayed unharmed. Hey... **** happens, we move on... we...
    Jumeia Jumeia 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 23 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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    THE TALL POLICEMAN DIDNT LISTEN:It was in May.

    . Still too cold for the public swimming pool to be opened..We lived in Vernayaz, a very small village, close to a town called Martigny, where the public pool was...I was with my friend Sandra who was 7 or 8 like me. It was after lunch, we were walking my dog near an electricity...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 12 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    Being a survivor is something I embrace in

    myself. I could ponder endlessly as to why I experienced the trauma... and believe me, I have. But honestly, I've fought hard to put it behind me and rise above... to end the nightmare of the storm it created within me. Surviving is about living... and life is too short for...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 10 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Time To Share

    I haven't really talked a whole lot about my past here, but recently, I think I have felt inspired to do so because of the strength of other friends in my circle who have talked about their experience. I think it's important to share, not for the purpose of reliving the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 33 Responses Apr 30, 2011

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    I grew up being beaten,

    molested and unwanted. Usually family and strangers alike only kept me around as long as I served a purpose but not one second longer than they had to. I feel dirty all the time. I'm unloved and unloveable. How do I know? I have severe depression. When people look at me they...
    bearblueh bearblueh 46-50, F 4 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 33 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    We would like to believe

    as a society that we build prisons for the evil that are in this world. The reality is the most evil are often the ones that are too clever to allow themselves to be locked up. They are true sociopaths, and they reproduce torturing the most innocent. They are ugly with their...
    venusdi venusdi 70+, F 16 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    howard1945 howard1945 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    I Cant Find My Strength Anymore

    Id like to start of by saying how incredible it is to read so many inspirational stories and to not feel so alone. Im a woman of 21 (I say woman but im not quite there yet) im currently in the middle of the courtcase that i feel is going to make or break me. My father having...
    annonymous2012 annonymous2012 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 5 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 9 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    I hope you get want you want on Christmas.

    We both know you never wanted a daughter. You never wanted me. You dreamt and talked about the day that you would never have to see my face again. You looked so happy when you told me about how nice it would be to have never had me. You abused me day in and day out to prove...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234 16-17, F 9 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 33 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    I Am Striving To Thrive

    For now, I am a survivor. My parents were teenage hippies and I do believe they wanted me, but had no idea what they were doing. Not that any parent really knows what they're doing, but some are a lot more prepared by an emotional maturity that most teens are not yet capable of...
    lovevolves8 lovevolves8 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    I was sexually abused

    as a child for over 10 years by my own family
    Skittlesrox94 Skittlesrox94 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    My Childhood

    Violence was very commonplace at home. I would often ask my mother whether it was normal to be beaten up by my father. She would reply that I was lucky to have a father who could provide for us and that complaining was very ungrateful towards my parents and towards God's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 27 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    I just wanna forget. I know it wasn't my fault.

    ..Sometimes the flash backs make me cry. Sometimes angry. My father is dead to me.
    roxrockman roxrockman 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    I grew up forced into this mindset

    that everything was war and I was a warrior. The weak perish. I've grown stronger but wearer. I am not a warrior; I am not a soldier; I am human though and vulnerability is something to guard, not hide.
    bakeittwice bakeittwice 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    I am not a child anymore

    but I still put up with abuse. I have no family nor friends as far as I am concerned. Not on this earth anyway. Junior high school and high school was hell, too. Like I had a mark on me saying, Pick on me! Then the last part of college was horrible, too. I can't believe it...
    creativegal82 creativegal82 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 54 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    canttell21 canttell21 18-21, F 11 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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