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I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

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    "What Happens In This House, Stays In This House."

    That was the catchphrase growing up with my parents. As an adult, hearing something like that sends alarm bells ringing. This is a story of how abuse and neglect nearly ruined me, but hasn't. I am two short years away from being thirty years old, and it's only through writing on...
    littledharmabum littledharmabum 26-30, F 24 Responses Mar 30, 2008

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    I don't remember allot about my childhood.

    but I remember the abuse more clearly. I really wish I could get mental help. it's like my hart has shattered into shards of glass .
    flowergirl1997 flowergirl1997 18-21, F 20 Responses May 23

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    I just want to post a "THANK YOU!

    " to all the people on this site who use their experiences to support others. I've been having a difficult time coping and it usually gets worse around the holidays and my birthday, which is today (yesterday legally but that's a long story). Anyway, thanks guys. Hugs to everyone...
    ashamedofmyfamily ashamedofmyfamily 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    Anger is not something to be ashamed of.

    Anger is a natural response to injustice and can help break the cycle of abuse. Anger is a crucial part of recovery. Two weeks ago on 7/31/2015, I finally put the pieces together, saw the actions for what they were and realized my mother is not only a victim of a Narcissist...
    wowodeals wowodeals 26-30, F Aug 15

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    You got knocked up and then you served your

    little girl up to your sicko husband while you were at work knowing exactly what he was doing to me. Yes, I do know for a fact that you knew exactly what was going on. which is why you made sure The boys were at grandmas and I was the only one left at home alone with him because...
    letters2mymother letters2mymother 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 20

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    This story is my own,

    I’m not telling it to get pity but cause it helps to talk about it and I know it can help others in the same situation or who have been there…. This is not a fun story, some may find it hard some may find it hard… some can relate.. When I was born, I already had a big...
    ChantouKimmy ChantouKimmy 41-45, F 6 Responses Mar 20

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    I was abused in a foster home.

    Males who have been raped and sexually abused, you're not alone. I'm not comfortable sharing my story so publicly but I'm here for anyone who needs to talk.
    lubesh lubesh 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 27

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    i was nearly 12 year old.

    i have attained puberty but didn't know much about it. i was cute as all young obes are. i used to go to grocery shop on my own . One day i went after sun set. shop owner kept me standing there while he served others. i felt irritated. but have to got things from shop. so i...
    sexaddict1987 sexaddict1987 26-30, M Aug 7

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    you didnt believe me you didnt protect me you

    dont deserve my love yet i give it anyway because i am stronger and i dont need you to believe me or protect me anymore ...your broken child
    PixieLoveChild PixieLoveChild 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 8

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    A Few Words Of Encouragement

    before i let anyone in on my abuse story, i just want to say how grateful we should all be that we even RECOGNIZE that we were abused. there are many people who take tons of therapy to learn these things about their lives. i had to teach myself through small baby steps how to do...
    foldedunfolding foldedunfolding 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    Ofelia, Or How Another Book Saved My Life.

    I like keeping certain things in order. My room, desk, and papers may look like a complete mess to an untrained eye, but my thoughts and memories are always preserved with a flawless method because since I cannot forget, keeping all the drawers in my mind clean allows me to put...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 32 Responses Jul 18, 2010

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    My Life: . No real dad - I was the spawn of a

    one night stand. . abusive step dad - beatings for no reason, beat my mum and raped her in front of me. Constant bullying from him . never had anyone to turn to, never really thought anyone else would understand what I was going through. . Parents eventually split- mum turned...
    Paroxic Paroxic 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 17

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    I was a child and barely knew what happened to

    me. I got to the age of early 20s and that's all when it kicked in. That is when I put a name to what happened to me and it destroyed me. What I want to say to people who survived sexual abuse ( especially men) is that you can let that ordeal define you as a person but never...
    Jarwan Jarwan 22-25 2 Responses Aug 11

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    Happy People And Me

    I was abused verbally, physically, sexually.The main one being my dad, although it was my uncle who raped me first.But my dad had continued access, and he used it.My mom worked every night-well, five days a week, and...yeah.So my experience is that the worst thing that can...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 24 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    Strong

    Please be aware, the story may contain triggers. Please stop reading if you feel you've had enough. I need to write and share this, but there is no need for you to suffer from what I wrote. Today I feel strong. Usually I use those days to be merry and happy, but today I...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 14 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    Here's A Thought...

    Just think about it, if you disagree, please tell me why I'm wrong. I won't clobber you over it, ok? ( I reserve the right to be wrong, I *don't* have to be perfect, and neither do you. ) Our abusers were weak. Weak people. They wanted to project that weakness outward, so they...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Jul 20, 2013

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    This whole Jared Fogle (Subway guy) thing has

    me really disturbed. He lives not far from me. I was abused as a boy. It's never left me. I never told, and the abuser went unpunished until he was caught many years later for doing the same thing. This has burned my *** for so many years because of the guilt I felt for not...
    tachem46032 tachem46032 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 19

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    My Dad

    I am 40 years old, and a survivor of child abuse. Although it seems so far away now, I choose to write because I am so moved by the other stories on here. I hope that I can be of help to some of you. The pain we endured cannot be reversed, but perhaps we can do something to...
    SleeplessKnight SleeplessKnight 41-45, M 8 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    When I was like 5 my moms boyfriend would abuse

    me and my brothers everyday until she got home it was a living hell.
    Marines75 Marines75 13-15, M 11 Responses Mar 22

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    Being a survivor is something I embrace in

    myself. I could ponder endlessly as to why I experienced the trauma... and believe me, I have. But honestly, I've fought hard to put it behind me and rise above... to end the nightmare of the storm it created within me. Surviving is about living... and life is too short for...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 9 Responses Jan 26

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    I think I am ready to share my secret

    if you still want to know.
    rehabparty23 rehabparty23 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 3

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    I recently decided to stop speaking to my

    mother. I know she will never admit to what she did, but I was able to overlook it in the interest of my brother. This summer it became too much. Not only would she not admit her crimes, she continues to reference how I am to blame for all the tragedies in our lives. I...
    AliM3ss AliM3ss 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    There are some people

    who will say one type of abuse is worse than another. Do they not realize when they say that they are saying some forms of abuse are good? Or okay, in comparison to something else. Abuse to me is horrible, no matter the form it takes. When someone hurts you and breaks you, you...
    Sophia117 Sophia117 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 11

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    Normal Sex? After years of being abused

    as a child, I’ve always had issues with sex. As a teenager I had a pretty unhealthy relationship with sex. I was always conscious that I didn’t want to hurt anyone, take advantage of anyone or push anyone else’s limits. However, I always craved that for myself. I like to...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 26

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    My Parents

    I have never received a hug or kiss from my parents. If I have I don't remember it. I've never gotten a birthday present or blown out candles. I didn't know kids got all this until I made real friends in 5th grade. I didn't understand. My friends don't understand how I could get...
    atraptbird atraptbird 16-17, F 34 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    A friend sparked an enormous soul searching the

    other day when she asked me if I was a bug to be picked up and eaten? If you know me at all you'll realise how much pride I have in my "strength" so I did not like to be asked this question. Like when a social worker told me I was like an amoeba, the most thought provoking...
    Faerylight Faerylight 41-45, F 7 Responses Jul 3

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    My cousin molested me

    since i was to young to remember. I started to realize it was wrong around the ages of 7-8. He slept over all the time practically lived with me. I started to tie my pajamas really tight or wear jeans to bed but he would always get them off. One night i stayed up till the...
    Prettygurl234 Prettygurl234 16-17, F 8 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    My Mother Destroyed Me

    When I was a child my mother abused me mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically. She used to beat me in the face and head, call me names, pull my hair and made me believe I was worthless. For most of my childhood, I didn't realize I was being abused. I guess I just...
    AyselMoonbaby AyselMoonbaby 31-35, F 126 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    I was 11 years old, my mom was working,

    my stepdad was drinking his usual beer. I was in my room trying to stay out of his way I didn't want another beating from his belt. It wasn't long before I heard him calling my name. I went downstairs and he told me to bring him another beer. When I handed him the beer he...
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 19 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    I sometimes still have nightmares about my abuse

    as a child. My mom and my stepdad used to beat the hell out of me. I had no one to go to. Family members acted as if I was ok so they wouldn't have to get involved. Everyone didn't think it was as serious as I said it was. I'd get beat because it was Tuesday. My mom accused me...
    Lovelessgal Lovelessgal 31-35, F 5 Responses Aug 26

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    I'm still here alive a childhood lost

    but I'm still standing I try not to think about it but the painful members are for ever there wounds that will never heal like right now I can't even write about it without tearing up so I'm going to stop before I end up really crying
    masterLLL masterLLL 56-60, M 4 Responses Aug 4

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    I took 3 pregnancy test yesterday

    and they all came back positive so I went to the doctor today and found out I am 10 weeks along! A little about myself. My name is Karly I just turned 16. I am from Michigan but currently live in Florida. I met my boyfriend when I was 13. everything was GREAT for about a...
    allaboutkarly allaboutkarly 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 4

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    Abuse Comes In Many Forms and Degrees

      When I was a teenager, my mom kicked my step dad out when I told her he'd been sexually abusing my sister and me. There were tears and hugs that one night and then everything was expected to go on as normal. My mom acted like she didn't want to put us through a...
    sufirehorse66 sufirehorse66 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    My MN mother abused my cats to assert her power

    over me & to feed off my pain, helplessness and terror. I always felt so guilty that I couldn't protect them from her that I never told anyone about it. Can anyone relate?
    wowodeals wowodeals 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    Some days I don't feel like a survivor.

    How can something that happened fifty-eight years ago reduce me to a quivering mass of fear and horror? How can a scent awaken memories that flash back to those times? Today it was a voice. No one I knew, but it sounded so familiar. I began to cry as soon as I heard it, not...
    scarred4lifeby5 scarred4lifeby5 61-65, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    I'm not sure the heading is appropriate

    as I am indeed a survivor. Although at the time it never entered my head as abuse even through adolescent years and now into adult life it was abuse but I never saw it that way. I'm still not sure if the term "Abuse" is the correct one to use. I know it affects people...
    heterohelen heterohelen 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    This Is My Story...

    It's something I have always put away something that I have tried to forget something I don't normally talk about. But lately I'm thinking a lot I think about a lot of things... I'm thinking about the new direction I want to take in life I have decided to close this first chapter...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 23 Responses Oct 14, 2011

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    Being mocked for not being able to get over

    this is messed up but when it's my actual abuser doing it to me, I can't even deal.
    Charper44 Charper44 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 17

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    I guess survivor may not be an accurate term.

    Although still alive, technically having survived, the agony of my past haunts me day and night. If I could pick a song that best described me it would be from the musical hit "Oliver" and the song would be "Where is love?" How does one soldier on when hope has been snatched...
    pinkbinkybilly pinkbinkybilly 56-60, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    It's funny how things happen,

    and how they affect us. I was so starved for love by the time my grandmother hired the second nanny that I ate up being treated like a toddler. It wasn't real love, obviously, but it felt better than the emptiness I had before she came. At times I'm quite sure she got off on...
    scarred4lifeby5 scarred4lifeby5 61-65, M 2 Responses Jul 30

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    letters2mymother letters2mymother 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    Why We Keep Bringing It Up...an Essay

    So…dragonofjapan said something: “Yes, you were abused, but what are you going to do about it right now?” So I was thinking about that. What a lot of abuse survivors do…appears like wallowing. In some cases, it may actually be wallowing…but for most of us… What...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 55 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    Dear Daddy, I loved you

    so I hope you know I looked up to you even though You took my grace, you took my faith You made me weak and such a disgrace Just a baby, innocent, and whole You took that a away, all of it you stole And now I am here, shattered and confused How someone so little could take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    My parents made me watch Gilligans Island.

    I still have counselling to this day 😕
    LesGirl01 LesGirl01 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 11

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    stolen youth Only an infant,

    not even a teen, far from being a woman A tiny 3 feet tall human being that you took by the hand You said to me: you're beautiful pretty girl, want to play? Come and see me, I got a secret for you, come my way A nice little game you said, but only for you and me Better not...
    ChantouKimmy ChantouKimmy 41-45, F 21 Responses Aug 11

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    I remember being 6 years old

    and my older siblings had left home. My mother had jus had the youngest in our family. The twins were almost 3. My mother was a very sick alcoholic. Our father was the worst pervert I have ever met in real life. They started me on drugs and alcohol at this early age. After about...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F