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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    ODU9Lesbian ODU9Lesbian 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    infinite1994 infinite1994 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 21

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    I'm in love with someone close to me,

    and I know she's a lesbian, but she doesn't know that I am. And if I tell her, then I probably have to tell my parents, and the whole world, and I don't know how they'll react.
    jjm52534 jjm52534 13-15 1 Response 2 days ago

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    And that's why I'm a loner.

    .. ;-; Does laughing this off would make me feel better?
    TheDesireToDance TheDesireToDance 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 21

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    Alright here goes: So I've never really had

    much romantic interaction with anyone and I've been a bit of a loner since elementary school. I've never kissed anyone before or had sex, and I really want to do those things with a girl. I don't find guys attractive at all and the thought of being with a girl is so exciting. I...
    skyfox051 skyfox051 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 26

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    unicornsarerad unicornsarerad 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 23

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    I'm a 30 year old Indian lesbian looking

    for a gay gentleman in US/UK or any abroad country, so we both could settle there. I believe its better that to stay away from our parents.. I have started my venture into writing lately. I'm a forward thinker exploring myself and would love to explore the World as well. I would...
    dragonofsouthind dragonofsouthind 31-35, F Sep 27

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 3 Responses May 27

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 20

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 46 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    AngelLuvsBabyBlue AngelLuvsBabyBlue 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 10

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    Right now I am in urge to move out.

    .. I can't stand them anymore. .
    xwolverinex xwolverinex 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    This is my first time

    even writing the words "I am a lesbian," so this is a big step for me. I think I've always known (very very deep down, so far down that the thought never even came into my head), but I had my "aha" moment about 7 months ago (in the beginning of my senior year of college). I...
    anonymous0987654 anonymous0987654 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 4

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 5

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    it's suffocating being closeted.

    however i feel i am already consider the better ones who are closeted compare to people who had been undergoing much worse. My parent will not accept this if they noe i am a lesbian and would force me to cut off all ties with my girlfriend. i am sure they had suspicion now as i...
    LuCiFeRz LuCiFeRz 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 22

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    My 7-Year Closet Lesbian Story (Updated: 10/06/2012)

      The story I am about to tell is one that I never told a soul. A story I chose to tell anonymously to the unjudging ears (or at least I hope) of the internet because I couldn’t tell anyone - neither to my family nor to my very close friends. This is the first time I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Feb 8, 2009

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    Am I.. Or Am I Not? Plz Help

    I feel a little weird writing this.. but at the same time i feel so releived that i found a place where i can speak my heart out and there WILL be people who understand me- well at least i hope. This is the first time that im actualli releasing all my thoughts n feelings, so i...
    NoelS NoelS 18-21, F 30 Responses Oct 5, 2008

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 7 Responses May 21

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    The Closet Gets Cramped

    Hi, my name is Stephanie. :) I am a college student who only recently started coming to terms with my sexuality. I've known for as long as I can remember that I liked girls, but I always did my best to stifle the truth, and keep my feelings buried. This is a huge contributing...
    stephanie929 stephanie929 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    I think I like girls

    and fantasy about them, I've even had my heart beat fast for a Girl but never a guy. Last year a girl came after me but I wasn't ready so she gave up on me. When she gave up on me then I realise what a fool I was and regret not responding to her. I miss her... I still have the...
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 27

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 24 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    constancer constancer 22-25, F Oct 7

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    I'm a 30 year old Indian lesbian looking

    for a gay gentleman in US/UK or any abroad country, so we both could settle there. I believe its better that to stay away from our parents.. I have started my venture into writing lately. I'm a forward thinker exploring myself and would love to explore the World as well. I would...
    dragonofsouthind dragonofsouthind 31-35, F Sep 27

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    im coming out of the closet in a small way here

    on this website. im still working on accepting it completely
    huzzah111 huzzah111 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 1

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    and i dont know how to come out.

    I would like to snapchat some girls to get the hang of even talking to girls. Message me for my snapchat name... p.s. i send awesome pics.
    Geminilovexxx Geminilovexxx 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 23

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    For years I have struggled with my sexuality.

    I have been attracted to women since I can remember. I am married to a man and my desire to be with a woman is getting stronger. I love my husband dearly, but I am no longer attracted to him sexually. I feel so lost.
    larriz1 larriz1 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Is there any single lesbians around the age of

    13 that would be willing to date me
    bulliedweakling bulliedweakling 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 19

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    I'm a 30 year old Indian lesbian looking

    for a gay gentleman in US/UK or any abroad country, so we both could settle there. I believe its better that to stay away from our parents.. I have started my venture into writing lately. I'm a forward thinker exploring myself and would love to explore the World as well. I would...
    dragonofsouthind dragonofsouthind 31-35, F Sep 27

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    Nobody who actually knows me knows I'm a

    lesbian. I don't know how to "come out". Inside all I can think about is women. Not one woman in particular, since I don't have the courage to talk to any really, but anyways. I think about women a lot. The other morning I was like, half asleep, half dreaming. I was thinking...
    sydlittle sydlittle 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 29

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    Looking for a closet lesbian,

    who wants to marry a closet Gay guy to satisfy parents and society. But be free to live her life as she wants in private.
    Studio54 Studio54 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 6

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    My worst fear is that I'm going to come out

    and then magically not like girls anymore, but I know that's not gonna happen lol x
    ParisMaisie ParisMaisie 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 9

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    Hi im jennifer my parents wud kill me

    if they found out i was bi
    jenny12ark jenny12ark 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 22

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 172 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    It's true. I'm a closet lesbian.

    I can't shake this feeling, this urge, this tension. It just won't go away. I think about being with a woman romantically and sexually all of the time. I dream about buying her flowers and candy, and about laying her down in bed and having my way with her. I need a girl I...
    sydlittle sydlittle 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 20

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    Ok this past Saturday I finally got what I have

    been longing for from the one I fell in love with. She was perfect! She knows how to eat girls out, I just wish she would she that I'm still in love with her. Even after 4 years. I want her to feel the same. I have to tell her when I see her the next time.
    GeorgiaPeach03 GeorgiaPeach03 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I keep going from Lesbian to bisexual on what I

    think about myself. The thing is I need help. This guy likes me & I'm not sure what to think off him. I think I'm a Lesbian but I'm not sure. Should I get with him maybe kiss & see how it feels? Or just not get with him cause I really don't have feelings for him. I guess I have...
    TheShipsGoingDown TheShipsGoingDown 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 76 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    I think it has come to a time in my life

    where I need to admit to myself that I am bi or lesbian. I have loved men in the past but physically they don't do much for me and I find my mind wandering about women in the bedroom. My brother came out as gay and I feel that now I can't do the same because he beat me to it...
    Poppy1985 Poppy1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 8

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 26 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk 66-70, M 257 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    Happy New Year to all!

    I'm Nikki, 23 yrs old. I live in the US and the Caribbean. I recently began exploring these attractions I have towards women and well my family/friends don't know about it and I am pretty anxious and pensive about it so I hope through this site I can meet people going through...
    nikkiHappiness nikkiHappiness 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 2

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    I am using EP to slowly let people know

    that I am a lesbian..I have some barriers to being open...sigh..
    femsweety12 femsweety12 31-35, F 5 Responses Feb 17

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    well yes i am a closet lesbian my mum know knows

    as of last week along with my aunts and my cousin and one of my friends they were all completely fine with it by the way i'm 17 my mum says where we live is a little backwards and keeps asking me if i'm sure it could be because my hormones are all over ??? i know its DEFINITELY...
    Charb2345 Charb2345 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 15

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    i think or im bi ive dated guys

    and had that experience but never dated a girl so i think i want to try so i can have that experience so are there any girl around my age willing to date me?
    munchkin07 munchkin07 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 25

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    none of my friends know it though.

    It feels weird and I am super scared. I really love on of my friends and she is in my class in school and in my soccer team. I see her all the time and it makes me insane. I have kissed her before when we did dares at sleepovers but everyone did for it. Since then it means more...
    kirakitten kirakitten 13-15, F 6 Responses Oct 8

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    I'm Stuck In Closet-land..

    I'll start at the beginning.. I was a late bloomer in the love department. As a kid, I was always fine with just having fun whereas the other girls were more concerned with who liked who and which boys were the cutest. As much as I tried, I could not get into these conversations...
    ageyutsa ageyutsa 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 26, 2011

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    Anyone in northwest Oregon?

    I want an EP friend that i can talk to in real life
    imbleedinghope imbleedinghope 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    I'm so frustrated when my family going to store

    with me to buy clothes... I always going to men clothes instead women clothes. My family kept nagging me that I am woman not man. I was like yes I know that but I rather men clothes better but I don't want to be transgender. I just want to be tomboy lesbian. I am also get very...
    xwolverinex xwolverinex 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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