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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I'm 17 years old and very new to this.

    I don't exactly know if I am a lesbian or not because I've never been with a girl, I just have no attention to guys and feel more attached to girls. How do I go about meeting girls? I live in the UK?
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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    I never reveal my affection towards a girl.

    I have strong urges to be with one but i never go for it. Its against my family and religion. I just want a girl who understands me and someone who's struggling with the same thing. I want to run away and be with a woman i can call my own. I dont want to come out. I just want to...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15, 2015

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    Hi, hope you are all well

    and healthy. I am 30 years old Indian Gay men & well settled Software employee and currently living in Hyderabad,India. I am single, not in a relation with any gay. Due to family and society pressure. I am looking for a decent educated understanding lesbian for MOC, Please...
    pranaireddy pranaireddy 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 21

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    I'm 21 and have never gone on a real date in my

    life.Isn't it sorrowful? Nothing is worse than being in the closet and suffering from the pains and loneliness :-/. I'm jealous and envy when I see the couples holding hands and loving each other.And I feel depressed when all my friends are in relationships and happy.I'm tired...
    MindMillion MindMillion 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 39 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    Hi ladies. I really need a lesbian friend.

    Im from India. And its very difficult
    Chicklesbian Chicklesbian 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2015

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    Actually I'm starting to come out

    and it's great. I can talk to my friends about stuff now. But I'm still need to tell my mom which is kinda a little tricky. But all good so far.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 19, 2015

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    I really want a relationship :(

    but I can't find one. I'm almost 15 and just came out of a relationship which thought would last forever :/. I want someone who will let me treat them like a princess<3 message me :p
    chloeruth15 chloeruth15 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2015

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    HINDU INDIAN LESBIAN,

    AGE 34, LOOKING FOR LESBIAN PARTNER. I am 34. Settled in Southern India. I am a Lesbian. I cannot relocate as I have very serious constraints with parents health and age as I am the only supporting member. I need a partner who is able to relocate to the place I live. I would...
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2015

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    i am in the closet and i cant come out anytime

    soon. i need a woman who can understand me and support me all the way. i crave intimacy, i wish i could fall in love. anyone interested in getting to know me more inbox me. i love honesty and sincerity.
    lesbewoman lesbewoman 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    Dear bisexual lesbians.

    . Please do not chose to have relationship with a girl when you are already with a guy. It's a horrible thing for all parties involved... No use.
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I am 37 y/o Muslim male,

    resident of USA looking for MOC with a Muslim asexual, bisexual or single lesbian female. I am open to relocation (UK, Canada or with in USA) for the right person. I am genuinely interested. Please contact me ASAP s_k_bari@yahoo.com
    skbari skbari 36-40, M Dec 11, 2015

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    I'm just gonna rant here.

    I am so frustrated. Sometimes (let's be honest, very often) I think about how much easier my life would be if I were straight. I get hit on by many guys, and I guess I'm flattered. But I don't want a guy at all, I want a girl. I am still partly in the closet and am too afraid to...
    ilovethecure ilovethecure 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    Is it possible to have

    such a strong connection with someone, such a strong attraction - but they don't feel anything at all? Is it possible to feel something so intense and real, and yet the only thing they feel is friendship? Is it possible to love someone for years and then be okay with being...
    alliedoodle alliedoodle 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 7

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    I've known I'm gay since I was 7

    when I had a "girlfriend" (my friend and I held hands and kissed each other on the cheek). When we got fake married with haribo rings, my mum said that was weird and that girls marry boys. That's when I started to fight myself. From aged 14-16 I had a boyfriend, but as we got...
    lauren1998 lauren1998 16-17 1 Response Dec 31, 2015

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 46 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    The Closet Gets Cramped

    Hi, my name is Stephanie. :) I am a college student who only recently started coming to terms with my sexuality. I've known for as long as I can remember that I liked girls, but I always did my best to stifle the truth, and keep my feelings buried. This is a huge contributing...
    stephanie929 stephanie929 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    They had a beautiful story of two Indian women

    married to each other and settled in Chennai on a news paper. It was encouraging to know this happens. Both are bold enough, and, that's great.. I loved reading this article. I dream of a day, when I can settle down like that..
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    i am basically looking

    for 18-28yrs old lesbian/asexual/bisexual/straight girl for short term moc and there are other terms too.things will be planned out properly and there will be confidentiality.i have no problem with your orientation,thinking and background.if you are interested,tell me about...
    imsearching4ud imsearching4ud 26-30, M Dec 5, 2015

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    I have never done this before,

    you know, posting thing. I don't even do facebook but I guess there is first time for everything. or I am just so tired of being kept inside and want a way to somewhat release my feeling. I mostly keep my life private. Which means there is no one who knows about my sexuality and...
    WanderingIdiot WanderingIdiot 22-25, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    I am 38 years old. Middle Eastern Muslim gay

    guy. I am looking for Middle Eastern lesbian or bisexual Muslim girl. I am conservative, very well educated and good looking. I know this might sounds very ambitious, but I am really dreaming of having ideal life with ideal wife, just like straight couples but without the...
    lovecater lovecater 36-40, M Nov 18, 2015

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    I have recently started to realise

    that I am a lesbian. Although I have always been drawn to females I never really thought it was unusual or that it meant anything. But after 8 years with the father of my 2 children I have begun to face the real reasons I've never felt completely happy. It was actually him who...
    mummypig mummypig 31-35, F 11 Responses Sep 12, 2015

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    I joined this forum for this very purpose.

    .. I am pleased with where my life is, but sexually, I feel like I walk around looking and thinking about every female around me... I love a women and I can't help but to admire a women that shows some cleavage, I can't help but to find a reason to be around her.....
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 8, 2015

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    Does this happen to you?

    You meet some gorgeous, funny, smart girl and you KNOW that if you linger around her any longer, and even if you entertain thoughts about her for more than 3 second, you're gonna fall in love with her as quickly as Alice fell into the rabbit hole... So you consciously start...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 9, 2015

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    I came out to my therapist today.

    Then on my drive home I almost threw up. Then I scream cried while realizing I might tell my mom one day. I won't probably. But at least I told someone.
    DoIknowmenow DoIknowmenow 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 22

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21, 2014

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    One of a kind closeted gay man looking

    for his soul mate, a closeted lesbian. 100% discreet and 100% masculine. I am handsome, physically fit, athletic, genuine, outgoing, career oriented. I am 5,11 tall, 170 lbs, dark brown hair with green eyes. I am Caucasian, Italian background and was born and raised in NY...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc 41-45, M 4 days ago

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    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk 66-70, M 244 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    If there is a nice girl who's close to my age,

    friendly and need love and support, message me. It would work even better if you have facebook to talk even more.
    MedodeM MedodeM 18-21, F Nov 14, 2015

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    I m bi but I m now dating a woman

    and m very much in love. I used to date hot and successful men but they are all selfish spoiled brats. The girl I m dating is the woman of my dream. She's beautiful, rich, generous,has very hot body and loves being a dominatrix. She pays for everything. Took me to very nice...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 22, 2015

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    Well actually closet pansexual

    but what ever. Wanted to know if any girls rp and maybe want a secret relationship with me I don't bite message me 😏💋
    Comicfangirl15 Comicfangirl15 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 21

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    its so hard. laying in bed every night

    and fighting the urge to get online and look up videos of lesbians. its my only way of releasing the sexual frustration I have built up. I want to be out and to have a girlfriend and just be myself.
    sydlittle sydlittle 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I don't know if i am a closet lesbian.

    I don't know if I would like to be a closet lesbian. But living in a country like India, i am nothing but closet lesbian. Here, it is so abnormal and shameful to talk about girl loving girl or girl living with a girl like a couple. they almost look at you shocked as if they have...
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 16

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    I love her sooooo muchhh!

    But there's a zero chance for us. Damn!
    bluejeansfemme bluejeansfemme 18-21, F Dec 29, 2015

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 177 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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