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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 17

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    I am using EP to slowly let people know

    that I am a lesbian..I have some barriers to being open...sigh..
    femsweety12 femsweety12 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 17

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I'm in a long term relationship with a man

    but over the past few years have come to realise I am attracted to women. I don't know if I was always a lesbian really and suppressed it when I was younger but I guess it doesn't really matter now. I'm not looking for sex talk on here though. I'm a genuine person just trying to...
    EllisRose EllisRose 36-40, F 5 Responses Mar 24

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    Today i was looking around facebook .

    .. watching how my friends have boyfriends and look so happy .... i have tried so hard, but it just not who i am, i like woman so very much and cannot keep hiding it. Everyone is happy dating .... and not me, because i am a woman, and like other woman... and i usually dont feel...
    spankeegirl1 spankeegirl1 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    This is my first time admitting it

    but I am a lesbian. For years I have been and I am still hiding it from the people I love because I'm scared. I just want to be free and love who ever I want but at the moment I can't. Will it ever get better?
    SecretUK SecretUK 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 20

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    im coming out of the closet in a small way here

    on this website. im still working on accepting it completely
    huzzah111 huzzah111 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 1

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 3 Responses May 27

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    Heya ladies, I'm getting pretty tired of being

    told, “You can't write this or that.” I've decided that's ok though because I've found a new website. I've only been here for 2 weeks but it's 100% FREE with thousands of active open minded people like us. It's called Secret Erotica . Com. I hope you guys don't read this as...
    DevilishTongue DevilishTongue 26-30, F Dec 10

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 27

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    Nobody who actually knows me knows I'm a

    lesbian. I don't know how to "come out". Inside all I can think about is women. Not one woman in particular, since I don't have the courage to talk to any really, but anyways. I think about women a lot. The other morning I was like, half asleep, half dreaming. I was thinking...
    sydlittle sydlittle 18-21, F Oct 29

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    My crush has been telling me about the guy

    that she has a crush on, and I keep telling her that she should do something about it because who knows, maybe the guy likes her too. I don't know why I'm encouraging her to go after the guy. It hurts every time she mentions about him and I can tell that she really likes him...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 6

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    I'm 16 years old and I know I'm a lesbian I have

    for years I've never kissed a girl but I have kissed a guy and I didn't like it but it's hard because I can't come out because I know for sure my family will be against it and my mum will hate me as she is religious and I know my friends will be freaked out but I hate it because...
    mish6 mish6 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 26

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    I can't sleep. I've been crying

    for the past hour all because of my crush. She showed me the texts that she got from the guy that she likes. My crush has to go to work tomorrow and yet she's still up texting the guy even though it's past one 1am here. She showed me the text where the guy said that he finds her...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Happy New Year to all!

    I'm Nikki, 23 yrs old. I live in the US and the Caribbean. I recently began exploring these attractions I have towards women and well my family/friends don't know about it and I am pretty anxious and pensive about it so I hope through this site I can meet people going through...
    nikkiHappiness nikkiHappiness 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 2

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    Ok this past Saturday I finally got what I have

    been longing for from the one I fell in love with. She was perfect! She knows how to eat girls out, I just wish she would she that I'm still in love with her. Even after 4 years. I want her to feel the same. I have to tell her when I see her the next time.
    GeorgiaPeach03 GeorgiaPeach03 18-21, F Nov 14

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 20

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 5

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 75 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    Today my straight girl crush surprised me with

    a homemade cake. It was really very sweet of her to spend her weekend baking something specially for me. Honestly, this is the first time ever that someone actually baked something for me and naturally, I was deeply touched. She knew I had to work during the weekend and the...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    it sucks to be closeted

    but the african culture has forces us to be closeted... the femmes have it easy coz they look just like a normal female but the butch and studs have it hard coz they look masculine and all that,,, but all in all i love girls and i hope one day this will be different and i will...
    barbrabarbie barbrabarbie 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 26 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    My worst fear is that I'm going to come out

    and then magically not like girls anymore, but I know that's not gonna happen lol x
    ParisMaisie ParisMaisie 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 9

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    This is my first time

    even writing the words "I am a lesbian," so this is a big step for me. I think I've always known (very very deep down, so far down that the thought never even came into my head), but I had my "aha" moment about 7 months ago (in the beginning of my senior year of college). I...
    anonymous0987654 anonymous0987654 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 4

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    I can't take this anymore.

    I have never felt so alone or scared before. It is like I am hemorrhaging all these emotions with no share them and it's messy and scary and heartbreaking. And worst of all, I can't fully explain it to anyone I know because my best friend is my boyfriend. I can't keep playing...
    Musicartlife Musicartlife 26-30 4 Responses Nov 23

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    marilife marilife 31-35, F Nov 28

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    unicornsarerad unicornsarerad 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 23

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    Hence my fish profile picture.

    I'm still badass though. And I can assure you my friends are reading this, but have no idea it's me lmao
    lezbelez lezbelez 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    Hello! We are recruiting lesbian women

    for a research study about lesbians' health and eating behaviors. Women must identify as a lesbian and be between the ages of 18-25 to participate. For completing the survey, you will be eligible to enter a raffle to win a $50 Amazon.com gift card or 1 of 5 $10 Amazon.com gift...
    ODU9Lesbian ODU9Lesbian 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7

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    I think it has come to a time in my life

    where I need to admit to myself that I am bi or lesbian. I have loved men in the past but physically they don't do much for me and I find my mind wandering about women in the bedroom. My brother came out as gay and I feel that now I can't do the same because he beat me to it...
    Poppy1985 Poppy1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 8

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    I'm Stuck In Closet-land..

    I'll start at the beginning.. I was a late bloomer in the love department. As a kid, I was always fine with just having fun whereas the other girls were more concerned with who liked who and which boys were the cutest. As much as I tried, I could not get into these conversations...
    ageyutsa ageyutsa 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 26, 2011

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    its so hard. laying in bed every night

    and fighting the urge to get online and look up videos of lesbians. its my only way of releasing the sexual frustration I have built up. I want to be out and to have a girlfriend and just be myself.
    sydlittle sydlittle 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 24 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    The Closet Gets Cramped

    Hi, my name is Stephanie. :) I am a college student who only recently started coming to terms with my sexuality. I've known for as long as I can remember that I liked girls, but I always did my best to stifle the truth, and keep my feelings buried. This is a huge contributing...
    stephanie929 stephanie929 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    im dying to try tribbing .

    .looks like so much fun but i dont know how to tell my best friend to do it with me..i dont think she'll judge me. We are always telling eahother how we watch lesbian **** and how we are so horny and our boyfriend dont satisfy us enough. I dont know if i shd just tell her.
    les509 les509 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    Willing To Come Out For The Sake Of Love

    I am an average looking girl who has a boring life. I've been hiding inside the closet and now I realized that I've been depriving myself the chance of loving and being loved by someone. I am an introvert and it's quite difficult for me to open up with anyone. I've never been in...
    strikien strikien 26-30, F 13 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 174 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    AngelLuvsBabyBlue AngelLuvsBabyBlue 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 10

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 25

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    I fell in love in love with a girl but cause

    I'm a girl I hide in fear and shame I try to keep a distance but every thing about her pulls me in she has the beauty an perfect soul I've always wondered if she knows Just say something or give me a hint But every day ends just as it begins With her thinking I just wanna be...
    watdoido2094 watdoido2094 18-21, F 5 Responses May 11

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    So...this girl I like asked me to go on a

    holiday with her and I said yes. I'm not sure where I'm going to get the money from, but it would be stupid of me to say no, right?
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    infinite1994 infinite1994 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 21

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    I'm in my late twenties

    and still (uncomfortably) tucked away in the far back of the closet. I've known I was gay since I was 9 but it was always very difficult for me to accept that I was gay. I'm feminine and I like feminine women. It's near impossible to tell that I'm gay and I can probably not...
    Michele87 Michele87 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 3

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    So in addition to the above tag I am also a

    Muslim and of Indian decent. How's that for triple threat lol. I have chosen to commit to a life of celibacy and most days I am quite happy and satisfied with my life choices but lately I have been feeling like I want more...that im just to in the same space of piece as I was in...
    DrKara DrKara 22-25 1 Response Dec 4

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    I keep going from Lesbian to bisexual on what I

    think about myself. The thing is I need help. This guy likes me & I'm not sure what to think off him. I think I'm a Lesbian but I'm not sure. Should I get with him maybe kiss & see how it feels? Or just not get with him cause I really don't have feelings for him. I guess I have...
    TheShipsGoingDown TheShipsGoingDown 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 13

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    Couldn't Change Even If I Wanted Too

    It is scary to be yourself in a world full of hateful people. In a world full of people who don't understand that being gay isn't a choice. It isn't something that you decided. I don't wake up and think "You know what I'm feeling a little gay today." lol. It is something that I...
    EElena EElena 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    I've been dating my boyfriend

    for about 3 years now. He knows/thinks I'm bisexual, but the truth is I'm gay. Very, very gay. I know that I need to come out to him and tell him the truth, and I know that when I do then our relationship will be over - and that's for the best. I'm very ready to be out and...
    persemad persemad 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 8

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    I'm in love with someone close to me,

    and I know she's a lesbian, but she doesn't know that I am. And if I tell her, then I probably have to tell my parents, and the whole world, and I don't know how they'll react.
    jjm52534 jjm52534 13-15 1 Response Nov 17

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