I Am a Closet Lesbian

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 4,994 People

    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Jan 21, 2014

    I m bi but I m now dating a woman

    and m very much in love. I used to date hot and successful men but they are all selfish spoiled brats. The girl I m dating is the woman of my dream. She's beautiful, rich, generous,has very hot body and loves being a dominatrix. She pays for everything. Took me to very nice...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 22, 2015

    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Jan 27, 2014

    Dear bisexual lesbians.

    . Please do not chose to have relationship with a girl when you are already with a guy. It's a horrible thing for all parties involved... No use.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 6

    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200
    18-21, F
    43 Responses Sep 11, 2012

    i am in the closet and i cant come out anytime

    soon. i need a woman who can understand me and support me all the way. i crave intimacy, i wish i could fall in love. anyone interested in getting to know me more inbox me. i love honesty and sincerity.
    lesbewoman lesbewoman
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 14, 2014

    It is not easy being in the closet

    when you want to come out. I am tied down with helplessness and homophobic family and friends, when all I want to do is come out and be who I am.
    Weeknd95 Weeknd95
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 7

    Butterfly, it's flower.

    I think of you often Rhea. I would love to hear from you and catch up on the changes that have happened in a few years' time. Please message me if you read this.
    thesupernurse thesupernurse
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 21

    I had an affair with another woman.

    She was beautiful, strong, intelligent, naive and a million other things. We had six months. It has been years since. But I still miss her. Still miss how.i could be me with her. I wrote a story about us. I wrote it because I couldn't tell anyone about us, couldn't talk...
    Kirbyyyy Kirbyyyy
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 8

    I joined this forum for this very purpose.

    .. I am pleased with where my life is, but sexually, I feel like I walk around looking and thinking about every female around me... I love a women and I can't help but to admire a women that shows some cleavage, I can't help but to find a reason to be around her.....
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 8, 2015

    I have never done this before,

    you know, posting thing. I don't even do facebook but I guess there is first time for everything. or I am just so tired of being kept inside and want a way to somewhat release my feeling. I mostly keep my life private. Which means there is no one who knows about my sexuality and...
    user0512 user0512
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Feb 6

    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Jan 5, 2014
    Comicfangirl15 Comicfangirl15
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 19

    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 20, 2014

    Hi, hope you are all well

    and healthy. I am 30 years old Indian Gay men & well settled Software employee and currently living in Hyderabad,India. I am single, not in a relation with any gay. Due to family and society pressure. I am looking for a decent educated understanding lesbian for MOC, Please...
    pranaireddy pranaireddy
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 21

    When I finally find a gf,

    I will **** her and **** her and **** her...
    ShyNymphoLesbian ShyNymphoLesbian
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 8

    I'm a lesbian but I've never had the courage to

    tell anyone about who I really am. Nobody even knows that I'm really into girls. All the guys at school think I'm playing hard to get.
    cheeronerica cheeronerica
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 15

    y do i still think n missing my ex .

    .so suffocating.. how do i do this
    lonerBI lonerBI
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 21

    I've known I'm gay since I was 7

    when I had a "girlfriend" (my friend and I held hands and kissed each other on the cheek). When we got fake married with haribo rings, my mum said that was weird and that girls marry boys. That's when I started to fight myself. From aged 14-16 I had a boyfriend, but as we got...
    lauren1998 lauren1998
    18-21
    2 Responses Dec 31, 2015

    I am in counseling with my husband whom I love

    dearly to help us get back together after my infidelity with a woman. Oddly the therapy makes me feel worse because I see what a basket case I have made him while I am still personally struggling with my own identity because of my actions. All the while I keep up appearances...
    GingerDame GingerDame
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jul 26, 2015

    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Apr 27, 2013

    They had a beautiful story of two Indian women

    married to each other and settled in Chennai on a news paper. It was encouraging to know this happens. Both are bold enough, and, that's great.. I loved reading this article. I dream of a day, when I can settle down like that..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 4

    One of a kind closeted gay man looking

    for his soul mate, a closeted lesbian. 100% discreet and 100% masculine. I am handsome, physically fit, athletic, genuine, outgoing, career oriented. I am 5,11 tall, 170 lbs, dark brown hair with green eyes. I am Caucasian, Italian background and was born and raised in NY...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc
    41-45, M
    Feb 2

    They had a beautiful story of two Indian women

    married to each other and settled in Chennai on a news paper. It was encouraging to know this happens. Both are bold enough, and, that's great.. I loved reading this article. I dream of a day, when I can settle down like that..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 4

    I'm just gonna rant here.

    I am so frustrated. Sometimes (let's be honest, very often) I think about how much easier my life would be if I were straight. I get hit on by many guys, and I guess I'm flattered. But I don't want a guy at all, I want a girl. I am still partly in the closet and am too afraid to...
    ilovethecure ilovethecure
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Nov 8, 2015

    One of a kind closeted gay man looking

    for his soul mate, a closeted lesbian. 100% discreet and 100% masculine. I am handsome, physically fit, athletic, genuine, outgoing, career oriented. I am 5,11 tall, 170 lbs, dark brown hair with green eyes. I am Caucasian, Italian background and was born and raised in NY...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Mar 6

    Is it possible to have

    such a strong connection with someone, such a strong attraction - but they don't feel anything at all? Is it possible to feel something so intense and real, and yet the only thing they feel is friendship? Is it possible to love someone for years and then be okay with being...
    alliedoodle alliedoodle
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 7

    I love her sooooo muchhh!

    But there's a zero chance for us. Damn!
    bluejeansfemme bluejeansfemme
    18-21, F
    Dec 29, 2015

    I've been in relationships before,

    and they lasted quit a long time before my lifestyle ruined them. I'd like to think that I'm fully invested in a relationship, I just enjoy my privacy. I'm not very into public displays of affection, but I wouldn't mind hold someone's hand while walking somewhere or driving. I...
    TheWonderer93 TheWonderer93
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 19

    I really want a relationship :(

    but I can't find one. I'm almost 15 and just came out of a relationship which thought would last forever :/. I want someone who will let me treat them like a princess<3 message me :p
    chloeruth15 chloeruth15
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2015

    I don't know why it says I'm violating

    guidelines. All I want to do is way that I'm not up for grabs over pm. Have some respect for yourself and me by not being a creep. Thank you.
    Stormeyes Stormeyes
    18-21, F
    Feb 23

    A friend has suggested exploring

    while my husband is at work. I think she means with her. I hadn't considered this before.
    DoIknowmenow DoIknowmenow
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Jan 26

    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 27, 2014

    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots
    18-21, F
    24 Responses Dec 15, 2011

    I love girls only. I wanna chat with them.

    .. I wanna feel talk with them... I wanna feel them by words... I wanna love them. No men plz.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 25

    I came out to my therapist today.

    Then on my drive home I almost threw up. Then I scream cried while realizing I might tell my mom one day. I won't probably. But at least I told someone.
    DoIknowmenow DoIknowmenow
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jan 22

    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine
    22-25, F
    14 Responses Jul 17, 2014

    Couldn't Change Even If I Wanted Too

    It is scary to be yourself in a world full of hateful people. In a world full of people who don't understand that being gay isn't a choice. It isn't something that you decided. I don't wake up and think "You know what I'm feeling a little gay today." lol. It is something that I...
    EElena EElena
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Sep 25, 2013

    Does this happen to you?

    You meet some gorgeous, funny, smart girl and you KNOW that if you linger around her any longer, and even if you entertain thoughts about her for more than 3 second, you're gonna fall in love with her as quickly as Alice fell into the rabbit hole... So you consciously start...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 7, 2014

    I am 37 y/o Muslim male,

    resident of USA looking for MOC with a Muslim asexual, bisexual or single lesbian female. I am open to relocation (UK, Canada or with in USA) for the right person. I am genuinely interested. Please contact me ASAP s_k_bari@yahoo.com
    skbari skbari
    36-40, M
    Dec 11, 2015

    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

      Hi Ive never really down this It's

    crazy dealing with this My girlfriend texted me today she's on vacation she's in florida And sent me pics of her in a gay club adorably she also told her sisters about her being into women She just blurred it out I wished she had told she was going to and also It was random...
    Evelynmusic1 Evelynmusic1
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 3

    I don't know if i am a closet lesbian.

    I don't know if I would like to be a closet lesbian. But living in a country like India, i am nothing but closet lesbian. Here, it is so abnormal and shameful to talk about girl loving girl or girl living with a girl like a couple. they almost look at you shocked as if they have...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Jan 16

    I don't know if I am a lesbian

    but I love women with big breasts. And I haven't had a real relationship with a woman i have sucked and groupe my friends breasts. Whenever I see a woman with big breasts it makes me happy.
    dreasboobs dreasboobs
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 5, 2014

    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul
    18-21, F
    72 Responses Jul 18, 2007

    ok, here is my simple story.

    I am married and a friend of mine is also married. We get together when one of our husbands are out of town. She comes over or I go over to her place, when her husband is out. It is just between us girls, but I so love it when we can get together. We always have fun and it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk
    70+, M
    229 Responses Jul 6, 2013

    I hate it. I'm not who I seem to be.

    I like girls okay? I wish I could just say that out loud so people would just shut the fvxk up about relationships. Not that I hate them, I myself been trying to get into one but no luck so far. I'm in no position to say so, I hate to think what the consequences are. Honestly...
    PotatoStarch99 PotatoStarch99
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 26

    I Am Almost Certain I'm Gay... But I Love My Boyfriend. Argh. Help.

    I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm really just starting to accept that I'm a lesbian. The signs were always there, and I suppose it's always been in the back of my head since I was little. Men really don't interest me. I LOVE them purely and fully. I even feel in love with them.I...
    PeaceLilyGirl PeaceLilyGirl
    22-25, F
    57 Responses Feb 21, 2012

    I am a genuine, educated,

    athletic, handsome, physically fit DISCREET gay man looking for a discreet lesbian to enjoy life with. I am looking to experience all the little things in life with someone special, a best friend, a companion, my partner in crime. I enjoy the beach, dining out, health and...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc
    41-45, M
    Jan 29

    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18
    18-21, F
    41 Responses Mar 11, 2012

    Well actually closet pansexual

    but what ever. Wanted to know if any girls rp and maybe want a secret relationship with me I don't bite message me 😏💋
    Comicfangirl15 Comicfangirl15
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jan 21

    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 25, 2014

    The Closet Gets Cramped

    Hi, my name is Stephanie. :) I am a college student who only recently started coming to terms with my sexuality. I've known for as long as I can remember that I liked girls, but I always did my best to stifle the truth, and keep my feelings buried. This is a huge contributing...
    stephanie929 stephanie929
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Nov 17, 2013

    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap
    18-21, F
    176 Responses Dec 28, 2007

    My hands are shaking

    and I believe I will be crying a lot while writing this because I always thought I will die without me saying a word about me being who I am.. Just like many others, when I was young I grew up with boys and grew up as a tomboy. I remember the fights and tears I had every time...
    carrieberry12 carrieberry12
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Jun 19, 2015

    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel
    18-21, F
    5 Responses May 21, 2014

    I am a genuine, educated,

    athletic, handsome, physically fit DISCREET gay man looking for a discreet lesbian to enjoy life with. I am looking to experience all the little things in life with someone special, a best friend, a companion, my partner in crime. I enjoy the beach, dining out, health and...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc
    41-45, M
    Feb 8
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