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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2014

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    me and my girl friend are

    now best friends it was her decision to be friends , i still love her , we talk daily everything is normal except we are not a couple anymore, i love her and i have to suppress my feelings and just be her best buddy which i am trying to be, but its killing me inside that i love...
    juslive21 juslive21 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    I fell in love in love with a girl but cause

    I'm a girl I hide in fear and shame I try to keep a distance but every thing about her pulls me in she has the beauty an perfect soul I've always wondered if she knows Just say something or give me a hint But every day ends just as it begins With her thinking I just wanna be...
    watdoido2094 watdoido2094 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11, 2014

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 25 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I'm bisexual. I think?

    ? When I was 14 I came out as bisexual to my friends, and my family eventually found out through one of my social media posts. To make a long story short, I grew up in a very religious home and so obviously the "traditional" family is the only way to go. When my family found the...
    savannashea96 savannashea96 18-21, F 1 Response May 29

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    Couldn't Change Even If I Wanted Too

    It is scary to be yourself in a world full of hateful people. In a world full of people who don't understand that being gay isn't a choice. It isn't something that you decided. I don't wake up and think "You know what I'm feeling a little gay today." lol. It is something that I...
    EElena EElena 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 176 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I've been a lesbian for four years now,

    but my family and I are Christian, and my family would disown me if I told them that I love lady parts. I hate hiding who I am. What should I do?
    xdragonxfangx xdragonxfangx 18-21, F 3 Responses May 24

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    Willing To Come Out For The Sake Of Love

    I am an average looking girl who has a boring life. I've been hiding inside the closet and now I realized that I've been depriving myself the chance of loving and being loved by someone. I am an introvert and it's quite difficult for me to open up with anyone. I've never been in...
    strikien strikien 26-30, F 12 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 32 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    I Am Almost Certain I'm Gay... But I Love My Boyfriend. Argh. Help.

    I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm really just starting to accept that I'm a lesbian. The signs were always there, and I suppose it's always been in the back of my head since I was little. Men really don't interest me. I LOVE them purely and fully. I even feel in love with them.I...
    PeaceLilyGirl PeaceLilyGirl 22-25, F 46 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    I've never been with another girl,

    but God knows I want to. I don't know why it's so hard, but my fear that I'll fall for someone who will expose me to my strictly religious family scares the crap out of me. I just want to be happy for a little while, but I don't want to lose the people I love.
    headXXbanger headXXbanger 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    So lately I've been very angry

    and depressed so I haven't smiled much But...today... I saw a lesbian couple in Walmart and the biggest smile came over my face and made me the happiest I've been in a while I kept it to myself tho...so no one would know
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 6

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    Hi, any closer lesbians in the UK wanna chat?

    Message me xxx preferably under 20
    rainbowgirl07 rainbowgirl07 18-21, F May 16

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    I have a girlfriend right now

    and i'm so scared to death if I come out to my parents. They're ******* religious and our religion is pretty different among the others like they dont allow haircuts,wearing pants/sleeveless/shorts/tight clothes, piercings,same sex relationships etc.. but i dont follow it lmao...
    poqari poqari 18-21, F 2 Responses May 11

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    its so hard. laying in bed every night

    and fighting the urge to get online and look up videos of lesbians. its my only way of releasing the sexual frustration I have built up. I want to be out and to have a girlfriend and just be myself.
    sydlittle sydlittle 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 47 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21, 2014

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    I live in the closet.

    ..I've struggled with my sexuality for as long as is can remember I've always liked girls/women s*xually or not...it puts me in a tight spot and in a lot of pain because I don't think exactly the people around me family/friends understand me or accept me for who I am when I come...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 3

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    i am in the closet and i cant come out anytime

    soon. i need a woman who can understand me and support me all the way. i crave intimacy, i wish i could fall in love. anyone interested in getting to know me more inbox me. i love honesty and sincerity.
    lesbewoman lesbewoman 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    I hate how people/family/friends have to throw

    the bible into LBGT we shouldn't have to fake it just for their liking whether its lesbian,gay,bi or trans I think I've said this before...I am a closeted lesbian because I have heard LBGT be called disgusting over and over by someone I know I am now even more afraid to come...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 5

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    The reason for this is

    because my family are strict Muslims and wouldn't allow me to be a lesbian. I remember once i was joking about it, just to see their reaction and they took it so seriously that now i am scared to tell them. I know for sure that this isn't a phase. However i'm 17 now so i will...
    Sammim4lik Sammim4lik 16-17, F Mar 26

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    infinite1994 infinite1994 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Yesterday my gf and I fought,

    it was nobody's fault, but the fight went nasty and now she doesn't wanna talk to me.. though i have said sorry million times, she is not picking my calls. what should i do ? i love her but it seems like she is going away :( i feel helpless
    juslive21 juslive21 22-25, F 5 Responses May 25

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    Though I haven't technically come out to my

    family, I don't feel the need to specifically hide it, If I were to get serious with someone I wouldn't be afraid of people knowing, I just don't see the point in stating it if no one asks. :)
    TheHippieBitch TheHippieBitch 16-17, F Jun 14

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    My hands are shaking

    and I believe I will be crying a lot while writing this because I always thought I will die without me saying a word about me being who I am.. Just like many others, when I was young I grew up with boys and grew up as a tomboy. I remember the fights and tears I had every time...
    carrieberry12 carrieberry12 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 19

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    Okay here we go... From being a child I've

    always known I was different. I was a tomboy and loved playing football and other sports with the boys at school. When I became a teenager I stopped playing sports and became a lot more feminine but still always thought I was different. I was the 'class clown' in high school and...
    sf19921234 sf19921234 22-25 1 Response Jun 9

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I don't know what to say.

    I have been in the closet most of my life and I'm still in. I don't know how to come out. I am scared that my family and IRL friends, my URL friends already knows it, will not like me anymore. So... how to come out "safe"?
    TheMadHatterWasHere TheMadHatterWasHere 18-21, F 1 Response May 14

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    Do you ever feel like you have

    so much love to give - you could care for them, ask them about their day, listen to their stories, hug them, kiss them, tell them how great they are and how you love them more than anything in the world...you don't even expect to be loved back, all you want is a place in their...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 3 Responses May 13

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    Hmm, yes I'm still in the closet

    but in coming out. I've told a few friends they are super supportive. But what's stopping me from telling my dad, who has actually questioned me about it. He told me that he doesn't care and will still love. I think. I fully accept myself. What's stopping me from saying it, I...
    Madamoiselle1 Madamoiselle1 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 16

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    my whole life i have kept to myself.

    Ive never really had deep romantic feelings about anyone, boy or girl. Im also not really an affectionate person. The one relationship I was in was with a guy and it lasted probably six months. I never even kissed him. Lately though, Ive been having thoughts about what it would...
    JubeJubes JubeJubes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 9

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    I never reveal my affection towards a girl.

    I have strong urges to be with one but i never go for it. Its against my family and religion. I just want a girl who understands me and someone who's struggling with the same thing. I want to run away and be with a woman i can call my own. I dont want to come out. I just want to...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15

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    I am 38 years old. Middle Eastern Muslim gay

    guy. I am looking for Middle Eastern lesbian or bisexual Muslim girl. I am conservative, very well educated and good looking. I know this might sounds very ambitious, but I am really dreaming of having ideal life with ideal wife, just like straight couples but without the...
    lovecater lovecater 36-40, M 4 days ago

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    I'd like to chat with a femme,

    someone who can help with my dirty thoughts
    Layla0961 Layla0961 18-21, F 4 Responses May 27

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    Im looking for Rhea. I met you here on EP a few

    years ago. I would give anything to hear from you, just to say hi and catch up. I wonder about you from time to time, wonder if you're happy and how things are going. Please, if you see this, message me. It's all water under the bridge.
    thesupernurse thesupernurse 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 18

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    My worst fear is that I'm going to come out

    and then magically not like girls anymore, but I know that's not gonna happen lol x
    ParisMaisie ParisMaisie 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I come from a RELIGIOUS background.

    I got a good reputation and have a lot of good friends and love to hangout with people. My family and friends loves me and i obviously love them too. But they dont no im a lesbian! No one knows! If i come out nothing will be the same everything will change. Yh so thats why im...
    L4Love L4Love 18-21, F 3 Responses May 11

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    sometimes I wonder if my relationships with

    guys never work out because I really like girls. My parents nor my friends would understand if I came out. Sometimes I want to go out and actually experience it to see if this is what I want. When having sex with guys I don't get off. But when I watch lesbian **** or read sex...
    RichC7 RichC7 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 4

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    This has been rough. A couple days ago my

    boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me because I'm a lesbian. He told me he's known that I'm a lesbian for the past 2 years, but he thought he could deal with being with a gay girl forever. He can't. I love him so much and it really breaks my heart to imagine a life without him...
    Crystalbot Crystalbot 22-25, F 2 Responses May 12

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