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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21, 2014

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    I don't know I'm either bi

    or a lesbian but I don't know
    pxrfxctdxrk pxrfxctdxrk 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk 66-70, M 256 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    Looking for moc. For more details see my

    profile please. thanks!!
    studgr8 studgr8 26-30, M Dec 28, 2014

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    myswagtho79 myswagtho79 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 75 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    I am still in Narnia,

    but I recently came out to my best friend. She accepted me, that made me so happy. I´m still scared to tell the rest of my friends, but one day I´ll do it, I´m sure of it!
    cherrychillz cherrychillz 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    I fell in love in love with a girl but cause

    I'm a girl I hide in fear and shame I try to keep a distance but every thing about her pulls me in she has the beauty an perfect soul I've always wondered if she knows Just say something or give me a hint But every day ends just as it begins With her thinking I just wanna be...
    watdoido2094 watdoido2094 18-21, F 5 Responses May 11, 2014

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    You know you are screwed

    when the girl you love, loves to tell you all about the frigging details of her crushes. You, on the other hand not only have to bear all of it, but you gotta look happy and respond enthusiastically. She would screenshot you every detail and ask you what to say next. So...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    I surprised her with a birthday card

    that I made for her (all by myself) and a gift card from her favorite online store. She was so very touched and overwhelmed by such a thoughtful gesture. She said "SO SWEET OF YOU" to me. Haha. Mission accomplished!
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 14 hrs ago

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    I am using EP to slowly let people know

    that I am a lesbian..I have some barriers to being open...sigh..
    femsweety12 femsweety12 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    I kicked down the door.

    Screw the haters!
    TheDesireToDance TheDesireToDance 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    How can I become straight?

    ??? I love my boyfriend for who he is and all but I am not in love with him. I've known I was into chicks all my life but I just avoided to face it. I avoided dating girls and attempted to avoid looking at women with ridiculous attraction. My boyfriend is pretty damn close to...
    dipeelee dipeelee 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Me being as young as I was started to like girls

    and since I grew up in a Christian family I've always been scared to actually say something and still am. I love near people who are so judgmental it's so annoying.. But I manage to pull through everyday.. One day I will tell everyone I'm Gay just not today .. Too scared.
    chynaaa chynaaa 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    This is my first time

    even writing the words "I am a lesbian," so this is a big step for me. I think I've always known (very very deep down, so far down that the thought never even came into my head), but I had my "aha" moment about 7 months ago (in the beginning of my senior year of college). I...
    anonymous0987654 anonymous0987654 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 4, 2014

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 47 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    Hi! I am a Canadian man interested in a lesbian

    or bi woman for MOC. Not just convenience, but also friendship, love, and mutual respect. You can look at my story and see if you're interested EP Link
    BilliamThomas BilliamThomas 46-50, M Dec 28, 2014

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    I'm Stuck In Closet-land..

    I'll start at the beginning.. I was a late bloomer in the love department. As a kid, I was always fine with just having fun whereas the other girls were more concerned with who liked who and which boys were the cutest. As much as I tried, I could not get into these conversations...
    ageyutsa ageyutsa 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 26, 2011

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    I am in the closet , in the real world .

    But on the Internet im not , I feel like I can be free here , and I love it , it feels like home , but then it comes to the real world and then happens my anxiety, my panic attacks . And I have to deal with it and not telling anyone , I wish someone found out but I'm to scared...
    zoeylove145 zoeylove145 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    i am in the closet and i cant come out anytime

    soon. i need a woman who can understand me and support me all the way. i crave intimacy, i wish i could fall in love. anyone interested in getting to know me more inbox me. i love honesty and sincerity.
    lesbewoman lesbewoman 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    I like being her friend

    and of course I still want to keep our friendship. But in order to do so, I need to get over my crush on her first. That's the only way. I need to be able to regard her as nothing more than just a friend. Unfortunately, she might think that I'm starting to get bored of her and...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Willing To Come Out For The Sake Of Love

    I am an average looking girl who has a boring life. I've been hiding inside the closet and now I realized that I've been depriving myself the chance of loving and being loved by someone. I am an introvert and it's quite difficult for me to open up with anyone. I've never been in...
    strikien strikien 26-30, F 13 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    On the first day of my first job I met another

    girl who was on her first day too. We talked and grew close. We r in the same department but diff sub departments. I always talk to her n abt her n remember everything abt her n always glance at her. Always say good Morning to her enthusiastically n say goodbye almost without...
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    I think anybody who is

    or was secretly attracted to other women or man knows how lonely it can be. It is depressing and you feel like you are constantly alone know matter how hard you try to keep yourself busy and surrounded by other people. This feeling of loneliness can fade but only temporarily...
    Kayceyy Kayceyy 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    My crush texts me random stuff all the time

    like: "I just finished reading this book." "Did you know that today is A's birthday?" "According to this website, I could get bagels from Store B." "My boss looks prettier than usual today." "I bought the new Starbucks drink." "Why didn't you like the picture that I posted...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    Sure But Not Willing.

    I am 20 now and have lesbian desires. I have been with guys and had sex with them but I would rather have stayed home and ***********. I love to ********** at least once a day. I have a good office job and dress very sexy most the time. I am 5'6" and weight 120 lbs. I have...
    deananne deananne 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 15, 2013

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    Couldn't Change Even If I Wanted Too

    It is scary to be yourself in a world full of hateful people. In a world full of people who don't understand that being gay isn't a choice. It isn't something that you decided. I don't wake up and think "You know what I'm feeling a little gay today." lol. It is something that I...
    EElena EElena 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    some times it ****** me off!

    ! i feel like i shouldnt feel the need to come out to people i love and who should love me because. they should already know like my parents...some times i wonder if they never so it some how some where!! even though i hid it desperately..or if they so it i am sur they named some...
    findingjoy12 findingjoy12 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I am a closet lesbian!

    I had a crush on my second grade teacher. Then fell in love with a straight woman I worked with. I could stand next to her and feel this exotic sexy energy! I fantasized about her every night. Then fell in love with a lesbian who was already taken. I had lots of crushes on women...
    Lalola1956 Lalola1956 56-60, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    I'm a married woman looking

    for another woman to help give me something my husband can't, to chat to and maybe swap some pics, inbox me x
    Nikkalax Nikkalax 26-30, F Jan 4

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    My family has always lived their lives

    for God. And in our religion, they believe being gay is wrong. Since I was little, I knew I was different from them because I was always attracted to females. When I was in 7th grade, I got my first lesbian crush. I tried to fight it but finally I couldn't anymore. I let myself...
    Tristag8 Tristag8 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 25 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 173 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I'm in a long term relationship with a man

    but over the past few years have come to realise I am attracted to women. I don't know if I was always a lesbian really and suppressed it when I was younger but I guess it doesn't really matter now. I'm not looking for sex talk on here though. I'm a genuine person just trying to...
    EllisRose EllisRose 36-40, F 5 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    So I came out to my friend yesterday.

    It was the most nerve-wracking thing I have ever done. She took it so well and kept telling me "it's okay" when I started to cry (it was at night, and the place was poorly lit so no one else noticed). She asked me when did I realize that I'm gay and when I told her I kinda knew...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F Jan 13

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    It is a wonderful feeling to be able to openly

    talk about my crush with my close friend whom I came out to a few weeks ago. And guess what, she said that she got a different vibe about my crush and kept asking me if the girl I like is really straight because normal "just friends" don't do what she does to me. I told her I...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Not sure if I should come out to my close friend

    when I meet her next week. She isn't homophobic, and I know she has friends who are gay but coming out is such a huge thing for me. What are the pros and cons of coming out to someone? It's like, I want to, but at the same time I keep telling myself to wait for a few more months...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 8

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    I am looking for girls 13-15 to talk to

    and become friends with. Please message me! I'm not looking for a relationship, and please don't send any inappropriate messages.
    b00knerd01 b00knerd01 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Oh God, I can't just disappear from her life

    just like that because we're going to travel together in 3 months' time! Omg. This stupid crush or whatever this is that I'm feeling should be gone by then. Please, please, please make these feelings go away! Why did I agree to be her travel partner in the first place? This...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Iam closet lesbian i've never met anyone

    before that shared the same experience specially where I live its horrible to have all those feeling and not being able to share them with anyone even with your best friend. I've tried to convince myself that I'm straight i dated men never felt like it's the right thing to do...
    sally944 sally944 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 14

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    Some people know about it,

    but I guess that if I ever had a girlfriend, I would not introduce her to anyone but a very tight group of friends. Most times I am ashamed of myself. I always considered myself a very open person, but at the same time I wish I could be loved. People already hate me for who I...
    cursedswan cursedswan 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    The Closet Gets Cramped

    Hi, my name is Stephanie. :) I am a college student who only recently started coming to terms with my sexuality. I've known for as long as I can remember that I liked girls, but I always did my best to stifle the truth, and keep my feelings buried. This is a huge contributing...
    stephanie929 stephanie929 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    Hi. I'm a Female, British Pakistani,

    Sunni, 20, living in England, Birmingham. I am a closeted Lesbian. I'm at an age where the family are beginning to pressure me to find a guy to marry. I'm looking for a Gay Muslim Guy who lives around or in Birmingham, is interested in a life-long MOC, who will be willing to...
    BritishMuslimWoman BritishMuslimWoman 18-21 Dec 23, 2014

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