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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 74 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    What are you supposed to do

    when your mother questions why you are such good friends with a lesbian, tells you to be careful then gets mad when you just say okay to her million questions. I'm Just not ready to come out to her but don't know how to handle this without being suspicious
    Wholenewworld123 Wholenewworld123 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    After ending a 7 year old relationship with my

    sons father I began a romantic relationship with a woman. Although I had slight attractions to women in the past this was the first time I became intimate with one. We have been dating for 9 months now and our connection is amazing problem is my family will never be accepting...
    Wholenewworld123 Wholenewworld123 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 29

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    I really want to meet someone

    and stop being lonely i just don't know how to put my out there to meet people without being afraid.
    Brok3nSoul Brok3nSoul 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    freesoul95 freesoul95 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 3

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    I've never been with another girl,

    but God knows I want to. I don't know why it's so hard, but my fear that I'll fall for someone who will expose me to my strictly religious family scares the crap out of me. I just want to be happy for a little while, but I don't want to lose the people I love.
    headXXbanger headXXbanger 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    I'm sitting here playing with my best friend's

    hair as she falls asleep and all I can think about is how I want a relationship like this with someone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 9

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    its so hard. laying in bed every night

    and fighting the urge to get online and look up videos of lesbians. its my only way of releasing the sexual frustration I have built up. I want to be out and to have a girlfriend and just be myself.
    sydlittle sydlittle 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    Hi i have not been on this site

    for a year but this my story. i grew up with my brothers my sister was living and still is living with my grandmother. and in my neighbourhood there were only boys as well and i als grew up as a tomboy. but i grew out of it in middle school because a girl in my class said that i...
    lovefemales lovefemales 26-30, T 2 Responses Jul 4

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    infinite1994 infinite1994 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Studio54 Studio54 31-35, M Aug 9

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    This is my first time

    even writing the words "I am a lesbian," so this is a big step for me. I think I've always known (very very deep down, so far down that the thought never even came into my head), but I had my "aha" moment about 7 months ago (in the beginning of my senior year of college). I...
    anonymous0987654 anonymous0987654 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 4, 2014

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    I never reveal my affection towards a girl.

    I have strong urges to be with one but i never go for it. Its against my family and religion. I just want a girl who understands me and someone who's struggling with the same thing. I want to run away and be with a woman i can call my own. I dont want to come out. I just want to...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 25 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    Hmm, yes I'm still in the closet

    but in coming out. I've told a few friends they are super supportive. But what's stopping me from telling my dad, who has actually questioned me about it. He told me that he doesn't care and will still love. I think. I fully accept myself. What's stopping me from saying it, I...
    Madamoiselle1 Madamoiselle1 16-17, F Jun 16

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    Willing To Come Out For The Sake Of Love

    I am an average looking girl who has a boring life. I've been hiding inside the closet and now I realized that I've been depriving myself the chance of loving and being loved by someone. I am an introvert and it's quite difficult for me to open up with anyone. I've never been in...
    strikien strikien 26-30, F 12 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    To accept that I am a lesbian has always been

    the most difficult thing i had to do. Since I was 13 I've known and til today i can't exit what i hoped and prayed was a phase. It's not easy for me to just come out and be true to myself, to accept and display love in ways i want to and this is a sad and cruel way to treat...
    fudgyElla fudgyElla 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 15

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    I joined this forum for this very purpose.

    .. I am pleased with where my life is, but sexually, I feel like I walk around looking and thinking about every female around me... I love a women and I can't help but to admire a women that shows some cleavage, I can't help but to find a reason to be around her.....
    noname2pic noname2pic 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I've known I liked girls

    for as long as I can remember. I've gone out with guys before thinking maybe something was wrong with me? As a pastor's kid it isn't really 'okay'. I'm sick of hearing the bad things they say about gay people right in front of me. I just wish I could come out and that they would...
    luvvyowl luvvyowl 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    ok, here is my simple story.

    I am married and a friend of mine is also married. We get together when one of our husbands are out of town. She comes over or I go over to her place, when her husband is out. It is just between us girls, but I so love it when we can get together. We always have fun and it...
    noname2pic noname2pic 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    I never really questioned my sexuality

    until college. I grew up basically being a tomboy, but there were only guys in my neighborhood as a kid, so I never thought anything of it. In 6th grade I do remember being attracted to my band teacher (she was a woman of course) but I think I was too young to realize what that...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 3

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    My worst fear is that I'm going to come out

    and then magically not like girls anymore, but I know that's not gonna happen lol x
    ParisMaisie ParisMaisie 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    I Am Almost Certain I'm Gay... But I Love My Boyfriend. Argh. Help.

    I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm really just starting to accept that I'm a lesbian. The signs were always there, and I suppose it's always been in the back of my head since I was little. Men really don't interest me. I LOVE them purely and fully. I even feel in love with them.I...
    PeaceLilyGirl PeaceLilyGirl 22-25, F 48 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 175 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I fell in love in love with a girl but cause

    I'm a girl I hide in fear and shame I try to keep a distance but every thing about her pulls me in she has the beauty an perfect soul I've always wondered if she knows Just say something or give me a hint But every day ends just as it begins With her thinking I just wanna be...
    watdoido2094 watdoido2094 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11, 2014

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    Alright so, as the title says it,

    I'm a closet lesbian. However, I have a boyfriend, whom I love greatly, but am not attracted to at all. I'm physically and emotionally pulled towards women, he is the only exception. I don't want to hurt him nor do I want him to hate me for holding onto him when I can't ever be...
    AutumnReverie AutumnReverie 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21, 2014

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    candies020 candies020 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 34 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    i am in the closet and i cant come out anytime

    soon. i need a woman who can understand me and support me all the way. i crave intimacy, i wish i could fall in love. anyone interested in getting to know me more inbox me. i love honesty and sincerity.
    lesbewoman lesbewoman 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    I am in counseling with my husband whom I love

    dearly to help us get back together after my infidelity with a woman. Oddly the therapy makes me feel worse because I see what a basket case I have made him while I am still personally struggling with my own identity because of my actions. All the while I keep up appearances...
    GingerDame GingerDame 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    I'm a 24 year old female

    who is completely unsure of her sexuality. I've never been with another female, but I find myself becoming more and more curious as I grow older. I've been with a handful of guys (all awkward, drunken college experiences), but I've never been in a relationship. I am very much a...
    CuriousF420 CuriousF420 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 47 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    I am 38 years old. Middle Eastern Muslim gay

    guy. I am looking for Middle Eastern lesbian or bisexual Muslim girl. I am conservative, very well educated and good looking. I know this might sounds very ambitious, but I am really dreaming of having ideal life with ideal wife, just like straight couples but without the...
    lovecater lovecater 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    Dxl24 Dxl24 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    My hands are shaking

    and I believe I will be crying a lot while writing this because I always thought I will die without me saying a word about me being who I am.. Just like many others, when I was young I grew up with boys and grew up as a tomboy. I remember the fights and tears I had every time...
    carrieberry12 carrieberry12 31-35, F 7 Responses Jun 19

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    I was in such an awkward situation today.

    An attractive friend of mine touched my arm and I got red like a tomato. I could see she was uncomfortable about the situasion but just pretended nothing happend. And I would find myself in this situasion more than once with my friends. I just want to be true to myself but I am...
    RagingB RagingB 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 20

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    Hi everyone, is there anyone out there looking

    for a MOC in London? Seems like I'm the only one :( A quick summary; I'm a Cypriot guy living in north London, I'm 29, good looking, good job, good banter, straight acting. I'm after someone who is easy to get on with, looking for all of what a relationship involves apart from...
    funkymonkey9 funkymonkey9 31-35, M Aug 1

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    Ok. So I've never even thought about the fact

    that I might be gay until recently. There's this girl who drives me absolutely insane. She comes around and I can't think and she's so funny and interesting and adorable and she's very open. And she did this poetry piece with cuttings by Andrea Gibson and I fell in love with it...
    millionsofsmiles millionsofsmiles 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 6