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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    Hi i have not been on this site

    for a year but this my story. i grew up with my brothers my sister was living and still is living with my grandmother. and in my neighbourhood there were only boys as well and i als grew up as a tomboy. but i grew out of it in middle school because a girl in my class said that i...
    lovefemales lovefemales 22-25, T 2 Responses Jul 4

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2014

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    I never reveal my affection towards a girl.

    I have strong urges to be with one but i never go for it. Its against my family and religion. I just want a girl who understands me and someone who's struggling with the same thing. I want to run away and be with a woman i can call my own. I dont want to come out. I just want to...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I'm a 24 year old female

    who is completely unsure of her sexuality. I've never been with another female, but I find myself becoming more and more curious as I grow older. I've been with a handful of guys (all awkward, drunken college experiences), but I've never been in a relationship. I am very much a...
    CuriousF420 CuriousF420 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    its so hard. laying in bed every night

    and fighting the urge to get online and look up videos of lesbians. its my only way of releasing the sexual frustration I have built up. I want to be out and to have a girlfriend and just be myself.
    sydlittle sydlittle 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I hate how people/family/friends have to throw

    the bible into LBGT we shouldn't have to fake it just for their liking whether its lesbian,gay,bi or trans I think I've said this before...I am a closeted lesbian because I have heard LBGT be called disgusting over and over by someone I know I am now even more afraid to come...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 5

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    my whole life i have kept to myself.

    Ive never really had deep romantic feelings about anyone, boy or girl. Im also not really an affectionate person. The one relationship I was in was with a guy and it lasted probably six months. I never even kissed him. Lately though, Ive been having thoughts about what it would...
    JubeJubes JubeJubes 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 9

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    i am in the closet and i cant come out anytime

    soon. i need a woman who can understand me and support me all the way. i crave intimacy, i wish i could fall in love. anyone interested in getting to know me more inbox me. i love honesty and sincerity.
    lesbewoman lesbewoman 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    Just going to be honest here that's what the

    sites about right? Well my family think being gay or lesbian is an outright sin my cousin moved halfway across the country after coming out and I'm scared I'll have to do the same eventually.
    silent62 silent62 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 47 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 176 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I'm sitting here playing with my best friend's

    hair as she falls asleep and all I can think about is how I want a relationship like this with someone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 9

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    I am 38 years old. Middle Eastern Muslim gay

    guy. I am looking for Middle Eastern lesbian or bisexual Muslim girl. I am conservative, very well educated and good looking. I know this might sounds very ambitious, but I am really dreaming of having ideal life with ideal wife, just like straight couples but without the...
    lovecater lovecater 36-40, M Jun 29

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    Well first I'm new to this

    so let me just start off with my story! Well I'm a bisexual male who is in a relationship with my bf but the thing is I'm not out to anyone in my family just my friends who are in the same boat as me! I'm looking for a female in similar situation who wants to get to know...
    nashville88 nashville88 26-30, M Jul 24

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    (This is just a late night thought.

    .. Feel free to ignore me) Annnd it sucks haha I'm most likely gonna be closeted to my family until they all die or vice versa and I don't trust a majority of my friends enough to tell them just yet. So pretending to be straight is super uncomfortable because I don't like lying...
    tragicallyvintage tragicallyvintage 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 8

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    I really want to meet someone

    and stop being lonely i just don't know how to put my out there to meet people without being afraid.
    Brok3nSoul Brok3nSoul 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    infinite1994 infinite1994 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I fell in love in love with a girl but cause

    I'm a girl I hide in fear and shame I try to keep a distance but every thing about her pulls me in she has the beauty an perfect soul I've always wondered if she knows Just say something or give me a hint But every day ends just as it begins With her thinking I just wanna be...
    watdoido2094 watdoido2094 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11, 2014

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    I've known I liked girls

    for as long as I can remember. I've gone out with guys before thinking maybe something was wrong with me? As a pastor's kid it isn't really 'okay'. I'm sick of hearing the bad things they say about gay people right in front of me. I just wish I could come out and that they would...
    luvvyowl luvvyowl 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    Im looking for Rhea. I met you here on EP a few

    years ago. I would give anything to hear from you, just to say hi and catch up. I wonder about you from time to time, wonder if you're happy and how things are going. Please, if you see this, message me. It's all water under the bridge.
    thesupernurse thesupernurse 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 18

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    To accept that I am a lesbian has always been

    the most difficult thing i had to do. Since I was 13 I've known and til today i can't exit what i hoped and prayed was a phase. It's not easy for me to just come out and be true to myself, to accept and display love in ways i want to and this is a sad and cruel way to treat...
    fudgyElla fudgyElla 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 15

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21, 2014

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    I Am Almost Certain I'm Gay... But I Love My Boyfriend. Argh. Help.

    I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm really just starting to accept that I'm a lesbian. The signs were always there, and I suppose it's always been in the back of my head since I was little. Men really don't interest me. I LOVE them purely and fully. I even feel in love with them.I...
    PeaceLilyGirl PeaceLilyGirl 22-25, F 47 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    So lately I've been very angry

    and depressed so I haven't smiled much But...today... I saw a lesbian couple in Walmart and the biggest smile came over my face and made me the happiest I've been in a while I kept it to myself tho...so no one would know
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 6

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    This is my first time

    even writing the words "I am a lesbian," so this is a big step for me. I think I've always known (very very deep down, so far down that the thought never even came into my head), but I had my "aha" moment about 7 months ago (in the beginning of my senior year of college). I...
    anonymous0987654 anonymous0987654 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 4, 2014

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    Hmm, yes I'm still in the closet

    but in coming out. I've told a few friends they are super supportive. But what's stopping me from telling my dad, who has actually questioned me about it. He told me that he doesn't care and will still love. I think. I fully accept myself. What's stopping me from saying it, I...
    Madamoiselle1 Madamoiselle1 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 16

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 74 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    Though I haven't technically come out to my

    family, I don't feel the need to specifically hide it, If I were to get serious with someone I wouldn't be afraid of people knowing, I just don't see the point in stating it if no one asks. :)
    TheHippieBitch TheHippieBitch 16-17, F Jun 14

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Hi everyone, is there anyone out there looking

    for a MOC in London? Seems like I'm the only one :( A quick summary; I'm a Cypriot guy living in north London, I'm 29, good looking, good job, good banter, straight acting. I'm after someone who is easy to get on with, looking for all of what a relationship involves apart from...
    funkymonkey9 funkymonkey9 31-35, M 20 hrs ago

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    I never really questioned my sexuality

    until college. I grew up basically being a tomboy, but there were only guys in my neighborhood as a kid, so I never thought anything of it. In 6th grade I do remember being attracted to my band teacher (she was a woman of course) but I think I was too young to realize what that...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 3

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    i like boys and girls.

    ..its strange to be surrounded by people who do not understand the way my feelings work...so its just me who knows about it apart from friend of mine and now this website. am looking forward to chat and maybe meet up with people who share a similar feelings. PS.- I gel better...
    KeekiBose KeekiBose 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 6

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    Okay here we go... From being a child I've

    always known I was different. I was a tomboy and loved playing football and other sports with the boys at school. When I became a teenager I stopped playing sports and became a lot more feminine but still always thought I was different. I was the 'class clown' in high school and...
    sf19921234 sf19921234 22-25 1 Response Jun 9

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    My hands are shaking

    and I believe I will be crying a lot while writing this because I always thought I will die without me saying a word about me being who I am.. Just like many others, when I was young I grew up with boys and grew up as a tomboy. I remember the fights and tears I had every time...
    carrieberry12 carrieberry12 31-35, F 7 Responses Jun 19

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    Alright so, as the title says it,

    I'm a closet lesbian. However, I have a boyfriend, whom I love greatly, but am not attracted to at all. I'm physically and emotionally pulled towards women, he is the only exception. I don't want to hurt him nor do I want him to hate me for holding onto him when I can't ever be...
    AutumnReverie AutumnReverie 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I was in such an awkward situation today.

    An attractive friend of mine touched my arm and I got red like a tomato. I could see she was uncomfortable about the situasion but just pretended nothing happend. And I would find myself in this situasion more than once with my friends. I just want to be true to myself but I am...
    RagingB RagingB 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 20

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    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk 66-70, M 247 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    After ending a 7 year old relationship with my

    sons father I began a romantic relationship with a woman. Although I had slight attractions to women in the past this was the first time I became intimate with one. We have been dating for 9 months now and our connection is amazing problem is my family will never be accepting...
    Wholenewworld123 Wholenewworld123 26-30, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Couldn't Change Even If I Wanted Too

    It is scary to be yourself in a world full of hateful people. In a world full of people who don't understand that being gay isn't a choice. It isn't something that you decided. I don't wake up and think "You know what I'm feeling a little gay today." lol. It is something that I...
    EElena EElena 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    My worst fear is that I'm going to come out

    and then magically not like girls anymore, but I know that's not gonna happen lol x
    ParisMaisie ParisMaisie 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I joined this forum for this very purpose.

    .. I am pleased with where my life is, but sexually, I feel like I walk around looking and thinking about every female around me... I love a women and I can't help but to admire a women that shows some cleavage, I can't help but to find a reason to be around her.....
    noname2pic noname2pic 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 8

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