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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    I never reveal my affection towards a girl.

    I have strong urges to be with one but i never go for it. Its against my family and religion. I just want a girl who understands me and someone who's struggling with the same thing. I want to run away and be with a woman i can call my own. I dont want to come out. I just want to...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15, 2015

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    I am a genuine, educated,

    athletic, handsome, physically fit DISCREET gay man looking for a discreet lesbian to enjoy life with. I am looking to experience all the little things in life with someone special, a best friend, a companion, my partner in crime. I enjoy the beach, dining out, health and...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc 41-45, M 4 days ago

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      Hi Ive never really down this It's

    crazy dealing with this My girlfriend texted me today she's on vacation she's in florida And sent me pics of her in a gay club adorably she also told her sisters about her being into women She just blurred it out I wished she had told she was going to and also It was random...
    Evelynmusic1 Evelynmusic1 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21, 2014

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    Dear bisexual lesbians.

    . Please do not chose to have relationship with a girl when you are already with a guy. It's a horrible thing for all parties involved... No use.
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm dying to come out to my friends

    and parents but I can't really imagine how. This is so depressing. So a while ago at school, my classmate borrowed my phone so that she could text her brother. But it took kind of long for her to return my phone which got me feel so anxious. I have a lot of secrets in my phone...
    bluejeansfemme bluejeansfemme 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2015

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    I Am Almost Certain I'm Gay... But I Love My Boyfriend. Argh. Help.

    I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm really just starting to accept that I'm a lesbian. The signs were always there, and I suppose it's always been in the back of my head since I was little. Men really don't interest me. I LOVE them purely and fully. I even feel in love with them.I...
    PeaceLilyGirl PeaceLilyGirl 22-25, F 51 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    I am 38 years old. Middle Eastern Muslim gay

    guy. I am looking for Middle Eastern lesbian or bisexual Muslim girl. I am conservative, very well educated and good looking. I know this might sounds very ambitious, but I am really dreaming of having ideal life with ideal wife, just like straight couples but without the...
    lovecater lovecater 36-40, M Nov 18, 2015

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    They had a beautiful story of two Indian women

    married to each other and settled in Chennai on a news paper. It was encouraging to know this happens. Both are bold enough, and, that's great.. I loved reading this article. I dream of a day, when I can settle down like that..
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 4

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 39 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    I don't know if i am a closet lesbian.

    I don't know if I would like to be a closet lesbian. But living in a country like India, i am nothing but closet lesbian. Here, it is so abnormal and shameful to talk about girl loving girl or girl living with a girl like a couple. they almost look at you shocked as if they have...
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 16

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    I joined this forum for this very purpose.

    .. I am pleased with where my life is, but sexually, I feel like I walk around looking and thinking about every female around me... I love a women and I can't help but to admire a women that shows some cleavage, I can't help but to find a reason to be around her.....
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 8, 2015

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    One of a kind closeted gay man looking

    for his soul mate, a closeted lesbian. 100% discreet and 100% masculine. I am handsome, physically fit, athletic, genuine, outgoing, career oriented. I am 5,11 tall, 170 lbs, dark brown hair with green eyes. I am Caucasian, Italian background and was born and raised in NY...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc 41-45, M Feb 2

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 73 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    Hi ladies. I really need a lesbian friend.

    Im from India. And its very difficult
    Chicklesbian Chicklesbian 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2015

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I'm just gonna rant here.

    I am so frustrated. Sometimes (let's be honest, very often) I think about how much easier my life would be if I were straight. I get hit on by many guys, and I guess I'm flattered. But I don't want a guy at all, I want a girl. I am still partly in the closet and am too afraid to...
    ilovethecure ilovethecure 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    I'm 17 years old and very new to this.

    I don't exactly know if I am a lesbian or not because I've never been with a girl, I just have no attention to guys and feel more attached to girls. How do I go about meeting girls? I live in the UK?
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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    ok, here is my simple story.

    I am married and a friend of mine is also married. We get together when one of our husbands are out of town. She comes over or I go over to her place, when her husband is out. It is just between us girls, but I so love it when we can get together. We always have fun and it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Aug 9, 2015

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    i am basically looking

    for 18-28yrs old lesbian/asexual/bisexual/straight girl for short term moc and there are other terms too.things will be planned out properly and there will be confidentiality.i have no problem with your orientation,thinking and background.if you are interested,tell me about...
    imsearching4ud imsearching4ud 26-30, M Dec 5, 2015

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    HINDU INDIAN LESBIAN,

    AGE 34, LOOKING FOR LESBIAN PARTNER. I am 34. Settled in Southern India. I am a Lesbian. I cannot relocate as I have very serious constraints with parents health and age as I am the only supporting member. I need a partner who is able to relocate to the place I live. I would...
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2015

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    Well actually closet pansexual

    but what ever. Wanted to know if any girls rp and maybe want a secret relationship with me I don't bite message me 😏💋
    Comicfangirl15 Comicfangirl15 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 21

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    I am 37 y/o Muslim male,

    resident of USA looking for MOC with a Muslim asexual, bisexual or single lesbian female. I am open to relocation (UK, Canada or with in USA) for the right person. I am genuinely interested. Please contact me ASAP s_k_bari@yahoo.com
    skbari skbari 36-40, M Dec 11, 2015

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    A friend has suggested exploring

    while my husband is at work. I think she means with her. I hadn't considered this before.
    DoIknowmenow DoIknowmenow 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 26

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    I love her sooooo muchhh!

    But there's a zero chance for us. Damn!
    bluejeansfemme bluejeansfemme 18-21, F Dec 29, 2015

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    I was supposed to be sending my resumes online

    and how did I stumbled across this interesting site! I guess this place shall be my emotional dumpster from now on. So the story goes... I have always been single and straight (i guess i never found out) and I have known my current partner for 7 years. We were co-workers in...
    KatyFizzy KatyFizzy 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2015

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    I really want a relationship :(

    but I can't find one. I'm almost 15 and just came out of a relationship which thought would last forever :/. I want someone who will let me treat them like a princess<3 message me :p
    chloeruth15 chloeruth15 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2015

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    They had a beautiful story of two Indian women

    married to each other and settled in Chennai on a news paper. It was encouraging to know this happens. Both are bold enough, and, that's great.. I loved reading this article. I dream of a day, when I can settle down like that..
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F Feb 4

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    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk 66-70, M 244 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 177 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I have never done this before,

    you know, posting thing. I don't even do facebook but I guess there is first time for everything. or I am just so tired of being kept inside and want a way to somewhat release my feeling. I mostly keep my life private. Which means there is no one who knows about my sexuality and...
    WanderingIdiot WanderingIdiot 22-25, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    The Closet Gets Cramped

    Hi, my name is Stephanie. :) I am a college student who only recently started coming to terms with my sexuality. I've known for as long as I can remember that I liked girls, but I always did my best to stifle the truth, and keep my feelings buried. This is a huge contributing...
    stephanie929 stephanie929 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    Does this happen to you?

    You meet some gorgeous, funny, smart girl and you KNOW that if you linger around her any longer, and even if you entertain thoughts about her for more than 3 second, you're gonna fall in love with her as quickly as Alice fell into the rabbit hole... So you consciously start...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 9, 2015

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    If there is a nice girl who's close to my age,

    friendly and need love and support, message me. It would work even better if you have facebook to talk even more.
    MedodeM MedodeM 18-21, F Nov 14, 2015

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2014

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    Is it possible to have

    such a strong connection with someone, such a strong attraction - but they don't feel anything at all? Is it possible to feel something so intense and real, and yet the only thing they feel is friendship? Is it possible to love someone for years and then be okay with being...
    alliedoodle alliedoodle 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 7

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    I've known I'm gay since I was 7

    when I had a "girlfriend" (my friend and I held hands and kissed each other on the cheek). When we got fake married with haribo rings, my mum said that was weird and that girls marry boys. That's when I started to fight myself. From aged 14-16 I had a boyfriend, but as we got...
    lauren1998 lauren1998 16-17 2 Responses Dec 31, 2015

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 46 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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