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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    I'm your typical closet case.

    .. Done 'gay things' with a couple of special friends who I'm pretty sure are closet cases too. I have had a boyfriend that was very serious but it wasn't intimate at all. My friends at uni reckon that this girl is into me and I think she might be too... But she's definitely a...
    standardclosetcase standardclosetcase 18-21, F Mar 23

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    my gay is showing and I am experiencing

    both fear and excitement.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F Mar 11

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    Like my parents picked me up from school today

    for our family doctor visit, and they were joking around about how i'm going to be married with a husband and kids one day and i'm like ..............o_0 . They are not disgusted by gays and lesbians, but it would hurt them so bad if I came out and told them about the real me...
    imasweetheart imasweetheart 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My worst fear is that I'm going to come out

    and then magically not like girls anymore, but I know that's not gonna happen lol x
    ParisMaisie ParisMaisie 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I am a prisoner. A sudden realization has blown

    away my foundation. 10 year relationship with a man who i cannot tolerate to touch me. 2 beautiful children and one giant secret. i am a lesbian. Sad really. 36 years to find the truth only to push it down. What would come of it? Coming out? Proclaiming "i am she". We women are...
    jrzseakret jrzseakret 36-40 3 Responses Mar 24

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    I am using EP to slowly let people know

    that I am a lesbian..I have some barriers to being open...sigh..
    femsweety12 femsweety12 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 75 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    Any lesbians or bisexual girls thats got

    blackberry messenger? If so then what's your pins? You could message me here if you like:) just looking for a relationship a girl that I could settle with😍😣 my pin is 55B97BF8
    lilyyyyyyyxxx lilyyyyyyyxxx 18-21, F Mar 21

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    I think, at least. I also prefer saying gay

    over lesbian but I don't mean to offend anyone. I'm 13 and I was so close to coming out to my best friend a few hours ago. For the past few days, I've been thinking about this girl at my school, how I long to be in her arms (because she usually puts her arm around me, and I have...
    PotatoesRAwesome PotatoesRAwesome 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 28 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    My hse mate was giving me shots.

    I had abt 10 shots and she till wasn't letting me go. She wanted me to get drunk. So I texted my friend who was having a reunion to come save me. It was just jokingly but my friend left the reunion early and drove 30 min to my place just to save me. Aww, I think I like her. I...
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F Mar 4

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    I have been hiding being a lesbian from

    everyone friends/family. I feel like I can't talk to anyone or tell anyone. I feel extremely alone and can't stomach the thought of being with a man even though that's what my family wants from me. I'm 27 years old and have never had a serious relationship or been physical with...
    anli28 anli28 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2014

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    And i am crushing on one of my mother's nurses

    so badly. She's perfection. Tall. Soft...Latina. I watch her as she moves about. I let my gaze stear over her thighs and bottom. Ahh if only i could stand her before me and peel those scrubs off. Fill my hands with her. Burry my face in the very center of her....all of this and...
    jrzseakret jrzseakret 36-40 1 Response a week ago

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    The Closet Gets Cramped

    Hi, my name is Stephanie. :) I am a college student who only recently started coming to terms with my sexuality. I've known for as long as I can remember that I liked girls, but I always did my best to stifle the truth, and keep my feelings buried. This is a huge contributing...
    stephanie929 stephanie929 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    Any lesbians or bisexual girls thats got

    blackberry messenger? If so what's your pins. You could message me here if you like:) just looking for a relationship a girl that I could settle with:))
    lilyyyyyyyxxx lilyyyyyyyxxx 18-21, F Mar 8

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    nj00001 nj00001 18-21, T 3 Responses Mar 8

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    We're going on a holiday together this week.

    Yes, this is really happening, I'm going overseas with my crush. But yea, this is happening because she couldn't think of anyone else who could accompany her and so she asked me and I said yes. Desperate times call for desperate measures, I guess.
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    I'm sure loads of girls have posted about this,

    and I'm sorry if this is just another one of those stories. But I really need to get this out. I am currently in a relationship with a guy. I love him a lot. But I'm almost positive that I am a lesbian, or at the very least, bisexual with a very strong tendency towards women...
    goshawk8 goshawk8 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    I Am Almost Certain I'm Gay... But I Love My Boyfriend. Argh. Help.

    I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm really just starting to accept that I'm a lesbian. The signs were always there, and I suppose it's always been in the back of my head since I was little. Men really don't interest me. I LOVE them purely and fully. I even feel in love with them.I...
    PeaceLilyGirl PeaceLilyGirl 22-25, F 36 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    imawarrior imawarrior 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    Some days are harder

    than others... Today is one of them. Just keep fighting. Day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. Just keep fighting. It's my choice for it to be like this I understand, I'm not ready to come out. A lesbian 17 year old in my high school, forget it! I'd rather have it this way...
    Kayceyy Kayceyy 16-17, F Mar 24

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 25 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I'm A 17 Year Old Lesbian,

    I Glenda Have A GF Who Is Amazing I Love Her ;) But I Wish I Could Live A Normal Life, Just Like A Straight Couple Would, Get Married Earn Good Money :) Have Children. Just Chill Without Being Judged With My Girlfriend ): We Are Both Closet Lesbian. Our Families Are Pretty...
    K7R4N7LC K7R4N7LC 16-17, F Mar 2

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    The reason for this is

    because my family are strict Muslims and wouldn't allow me to be a lesbian. I remember once i was joking about it, just to see their reaction and they took it so seriously that now i am scared to tell them. I know for sure that this isn't a phase. However i'm 17 now so i will...
    Sammim4lik Sammim4lik 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 46 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    Sometimes I look at her real hard

    while she's looking away...lost in her own thoughts... That moment is a metaphor of my life. I'm right in front of her, already hopelessly in love, waiting for her to understand, to acknowledge, if not respond to my feelings. Sometimes I cannot believe that she is not aware of...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    infinite1994 infinite1994 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Any lesbians or bisexual girls thats got

    blackberry messenger? If so then what's your pins? You could message me here if you like:) just looking for a relationship a girl that I could settle with😍😣
    lilyyyyyyyxxx lilyyyyyyyxxx 18-21, F Mar 20

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    I could've came out twice today,

    but didn't. My friends and I were sitting in our school hallway (pretty empty) and one of them asked, who are you going to marry? Us being girls (and that we usually assume people are straight) said a man. I was kind of hesitant on answering the question, but if I insisted, then...
    PotatoesRAwesome PotatoesRAwesome 41-45, F a week ago

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 18-21, F 15 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Erm I'm 19 now when I was 14 I had a friend

    who was a different kinda friend to all my other friends, we used to kiss and cuddle and fondle each other and it all just felt so right and perfect... Then when I was 17 I had another friend who was like that and I'm still friends with both of the girls now, however it's purely...
    standardclosetcase standardclosetcase 18-21, F a week ago

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    I fell in love in love with a girl but cause

    I'm a girl I hide in fear and shame I try to keep a distance but every thing about her pulls me in she has the beauty an perfect soul I've always wondered if she knows Just say something or give me a hint But every day ends just as it begins With her thinking I just wanna be...
    watdoido2094 watdoido2094 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11, 2014

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    i am in the closet and i cant come out anytime

    soon. i need a woman who can understand me and support me all the way. i crave intimacy, i wish i could fall in love. anyone interested in getting to know me more inbox me. i love honesty and sincerity.
    lesbewoman lesbewoman 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    So some of you suggested

    that I ask this girl to hang out with me. Okay guess what? I did. I mean, I didn't actually ask her, I suggested to her. I told her that maybe we should hang out sometime. And you know what? She told me that she didn't understand and said, and I quote "but we always hang out on...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 25

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    I hate seeing a cute girl ,

    but I can't say anything .
    hazellboo hazellboo 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    The girl I like n I had a chat.

    She asked me if why I always think "bend" (cause I always talk abt lgbt) and not straight? Why I always have a dirty mind? Then she asked me if I am a lesbian? Then she said hope u have a nightmare. I replied, my nightmare is u becoming thinner and prettier than me...
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F Mar 7

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 175 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    Willing To Come Out For The Sake Of Love

    I am an average looking girl who has a boring life. I've been hiding inside the closet and now I realized that I've been depriving myself the chance of loving and being loved by someone. I am an introvert and it's quite difficult for me to open up with anyone. I've never been in...