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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    It's so hard for me. Honestly.

    It's hard to tell people that I'm a lesbian. It's so hard for me to openly state that I am a lesbian. I like girls. Not guys. And...I feel so tired. Feel so tired of the judging. Like, I just like the same gender. I'm not any different from before. Am I? I wish people would...
    minyoungismine minyoungismine 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 4

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    Hey, I'm Emma and I'm 16.

    I never really accepted it until yesterday. I got really drunk and I told a friend that I might be lesbian. I always knew it but it's really hard to accept it. I never hard a girlfriend but I know that I love girls. Last year in my school I had a how can I say this.. A Slutty...
    emchoc emchoc 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    Hello there fellow Lesbians!

    My name is Alexus Patricia Linn, and I am here to share on my behalf of me being a Lesbian. Once Upon A Time, I wad born in Rialto, a city known to be known in California. As old as I could remember, in the 3rd grade, I began to notice myself as different and a loner while in...
    MissLex69 MissLex69 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    I'm in a long term relationship with a man

    but over the past few years have come to realise I am attracted to women. I don't know if I was always a lesbian really and suppressed it when I was younger but I guess it doesn't really matter now. I'm not looking for sex talk on here though. I'm a genuine person just trying to...
    EllisRose EllisRose 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 24

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    Hey, so I first posted on here almost a year

    ago (22/09/13) Back then, I was confused, I was lost, I was in need of help and advice and most off all, kind words and healthy solutions to the problem I found myself in. As I explained back then, I had searched articles and forums, looking for someone in a similar situation...
    Rach130 Rach130 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    I'm in love with one of my closest friend.

    We flirt a lot.... so much so that sometimes it really freak out people around us. She cares about me as a friend, but i don't know if there's something more to it. Ours is a really homophobic n patriarchal society...even if she had any feelings for me, she would repress them. I...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 6

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    im just confused about my sexuality like

    sometimes im like "omg i want her" then sometimes im like "yeah hes cute" im just in need of help(im 14 btw)
    riley1220 riley1220 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 8

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    unicornsarerad unicornsarerad 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 23

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    Ok so I have finally decided to come out to my

    best friends, any tips on how to tell them? All tips are welcome!!!
    irisjuuu irisjuuu 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 5

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    I think I'm ready to tell my best friend,

    she will be the first and probably only person I tell. She seems pretty open minded and accepting. How do I go about telling her? I want our friendship to be the same as it is now, I don't want it to be awkward. Should I sit her down in the quad durring lunch once school starts...
    NEBookWorm NEBookWorm 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    cittykatluv cittykatluv 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 7 Responses May 21

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 20

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    Funny thing... I have a lesbian best friend

    and last time we talked she said "I know for sure you do not like girls, you just love men too much and I would never imagine you with a girl".... If only she knew xD
    Joojo3 Joojo3 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    Well this is my first time to post this

    so anyway, I was so confused with my sexuality since I was 8th Grade, it's been horrible years ever I have. So after That I lost motivation in my school, sports and everything. I was have a battle with myself because I used to not accept myself who I am.. So I entered High...
    awolfgirl9 awolfgirl9 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 9

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    I'm thinking about coming out now.

    I want to come out. I'm just not sure about how to go about coming out.
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Willing To Come Out For The Sake Of Love

    I am an average looking girl who has a boring life. I've been hiding inside the closet and now I realized that I've been depriving myself the chance of loving and being loved by someone. I am an introvert and it's quite difficult for me to open up with anyone. I've never been in...
    strikien strikien 26-30, F 12 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    I am 29, gay, straight-acting,

    well educated, Hindu and I live in Delhi. I am looking for a MOC with a feminine and closeted lesbian. If anyone is interested, then please mail me at seekingmoc28@gmail.com.
    seekingmoc28 seekingmoc28 26-30, M Sep 5

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    infinite1994 infinite1994 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 21

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    So Yeah.......... *update*

    I joined EP days ago and I like it so far. I expressed my feelings through my story called "confused." I said that I was bi, but im having other thoughts and feelings. It has not been a week yet and I am becoming more distant from boys. I find boys attractive, but cannot date...
    Natalie542 Natalie542 13-15, F 16 Responses Aug 10, 2013

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    Lez be honest, mang. Girl on girl is a whirl

    and man on man I can't stand.
    thelonerinyourbed thelonerinyourbed 70+, T Aug 27

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    This is my first time

    even writing the words "I am a lesbian," so this is a big step for me. I think I've always known (very very deep down, so far down that the thought never even came into my head), but I had my "aha" moment about 7 months ago (in the beginning of my senior year of college). I...
    anonymous0987654 anonymous0987654 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 4

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    I'm Stuck In Closet-land..

    I'll start at the beginning.. I was a late bloomer in the love department. As a kid, I was always fine with just having fun whereas the other girls were more concerned with who liked who and which boys were the cutest. As much as I tried, I could not get into these conversations...
    ageyutsa ageyutsa 18-21, F 11 Responses Sep 26, 2011

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 48 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    I'm thinking about coming out now.

    I want to come out. I'm just not sure about how to go about coming out.
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I am using EP to slowly let people know

    that I am a lesbian..I have some barriers to being open...sigh..
    femsweety12 femsweety12 31-35, F 8 Responses Feb 17

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    Nobody knows im into girls

    and I have a bf I don't want, and I also in love with my beautiful best friend, anyone help? Xx
    AceTeen123 AceTeen123 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 10

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    The Closet Gets Cramped

    Hi, my name is Stephanie. :) I am a college student who only recently started coming to terms with my sexuality. I've known for as long as I can remember that I liked girls, but I always did my best to stifle the truth, and keep my feelings buried. This is a huge contributing...
    stephanie929 stephanie929 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    Happy New Year to all!

    I'm Nikki, 23 yrs old. I live in the US and the Caribbean. I recently began exploring these attractions I have towards women and well my family/friends don't know about it and I am pretty anxious and pensive about it so I hope through this site I can meet people going through...
    nikkiHappiness nikkiHappiness 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 2

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    I wish I had the gusts to come out.

    ... I'm just too scared to
    confusedandcomplicated5 confusedandcomplicated5 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 17

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 21 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 18-21, F 14 Responses Jul 17

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    It's so hard to be in this situation.

    I know that my family will be disappointed if they will know about my gender preference. I've been in a girl-to-girl relationship twice. The last one, they thought that she was my best friend. Since she broke up with me, I kept on thinking if I want to continue this kind of...
    thelastheroine thelastheroine 18-21 2 Responses Jul 29

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    Okay so, I'm lesbian

    and I have been for a while, peoples opinions don't bother me it's just that my parents are huge homophobics and my older brother has already came out of the closet fully. My brother was kicked out, I don't want that to happen to me, I've only told a few people about my...
    supernichole supernichole 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk 66-70, M 260 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    I fell in love in love with a girl but cause

    I'm a girl I hide in fear and shame I try to keep a distance but every thing about her pulls me in she has the beauty an perfect soul I've always wondered if she knows Just say something or give me a hint But every day ends just as it begins With her thinking I just wanna be...
    watdoido2094 watdoido2094 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11

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    This is my first time on this site.

    Let's hope it goes well haha. Seventh grade was really when understood my sexuality. In plain terms, I realized I liked girls. I was obsessed with this girl named Kennedy. I thought she was so beautiful, with her blonde hair and her blue eyes and her perfectly tanned skin. At...
    RecklessShenanigans RecklessShenanigans 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 17

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27

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    I am 99% sure I fancy girls over boys

    but i really don't dare / want to tell anyone because of the reactions I will get and all of that. Sometimes I think "i'm just going to marry a guy friend and have children" because i'm too afraid
    miserebro miserebro 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 6

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 169 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I have known I liked girls

    since about 3rd grade. I am now a 23 year old college grad who had never even kissed a girl. In fact I have been in a heterosexual relationship for 6 years. I care for my boyfriend but I feel a deep emptiness inside. But I'm pretty sure I will forever have this void because I...
    lowfatyogurt lowfatyogurt 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 14

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    I really need to come out

    but I'm scared . But I'm such a freak 😏
    loni07 loni07 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    Couldn't Change Even If I Wanted Too

    It is scary to be yourself in a world full of hateful people. In a world full of people who don't understand that being gay isn't a choice. It isn't something that you decided. I don't wake up and think "You know what I'm feeling a little gay today." lol. It is something that I...
    EElena EElena 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    So... I have never been with a girl

    but I love to check them out secretly. Most girls like being friends with me because I act very friendly when I like a girl, but they think that's my personality and since I dress very girly nobody suspects a thing. I admit I like girly girls like me but have never met a lesbian...
    Joojo3 Joojo3 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 27

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    I am a closet lesbian.

    .. A few weeks ago I started dating my best friend. I want to tell my mom but my mom doesn't really like her because my mom thinks she is a pot head (long story) but I wanna eventually tell her but I'm kinda scared. :/
    Lmaochickadee01 Lmaochickadee01 18-21 Aug 1

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 25

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    I am, no one knows & I don't want to tell

    anyone one. It also makes me really uncomfortable thinking about having to talk to anyone about it. Help?
    haleydev haleydev 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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