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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    Kinda, but I am still.

    I have told three people who are my best friends. The people I trust with my darkest secrets. I just told one of them today, and I wasn't sure how she would react, we had never talked about how we feel about gays or lesbians and I was freaked out she wouldn't like it. She...
    Madamoiselle1 Madamoiselle1 16-17, F May 6

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    elle0489 elle0489 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    The reason for this is

    because my family are strict Muslims and wouldn't allow me to be a lesbian. I remember once i was joking about it, just to see their reaction and they took it so seriously that now i am scared to tell them. I know for sure that this isn't a phase. However i'm 17 now so i will...
    Sammim4lik Sammim4lik 16-17, F Mar 26

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 176 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21, 2014

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    I am in a long term relationship with a man.

    ..I have a daughter, who is not his but he has been involved most of her life. We live together and I figured out I was a lesbian about 6 years into our eight year relationship. I told him about a year ago and he was actually very supportive, even telling me I could have female...
    Baldbeauty Baldbeauty 26-30, F May 8

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    I did the stupidest thing ever.

    I pushed away the girl that I liked so much and said mean things to her. Idk why I always tend to push away ppl that gets close to me. Now tht I apologised to her and we're friends again, it's never the same as before... I like her even more this time.
    flowerbedxxx flowerbedxxx 18-21, F 1 Response May 6

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    I want to come out because im not fully lesbian,

    im bi but I feel like people and my family will look at my differently and not accept me. Can anyone relate? How can we overcome this feeling? I've been looking for a girlfriend with no luck as well. Is anyone looking or single? If so would you keep your relationship secret as...
    sexysoutherngirl24 sexysoutherngirl24 22-25, F 2 Responses May 6

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    I am a 22 year old female

    who has been in three long-term relationships with men. I am currently on my third one, and it is to that same point it was at with any other male I have been with. I get into these relationships for the wrong reasons. At first I feel I am genuinely into these people and I think...
    kaylabean92 kaylabean92 22-25, F 4 Responses May 3

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    Hi, any closer lesbians in the UK wanna chat?

    Message me xxx preferably under 20
    rainbowgirl07 rainbowgirl07 18-21, F May 16

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    I Am Almost Certain I'm Gay... But I Love My Boyfriend. Argh. Help.

    I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm really just starting to accept that I'm a lesbian. The signs were always there, and I suppose it's always been in the back of my head since I was little. Men really don't interest me. I LOVE them purely and fully. I even feel in love with them.I...
    PeaceLilyGirl PeaceLilyGirl 22-25, F 42 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    Willing To Come Out For The Sake Of Love

    I am an average looking girl who has a boring life. I've been hiding inside the closet and now I realized that I've been depriving myself the chance of loving and being loved by someone. I am an introvert and it's quite difficult for me to open up with anyone. I've never been in...
    strikien strikien 26-30, F 12 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk 66-70, M 249 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    infinite1994 infinite1994 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Well, I'm out now. Happy Mother's Day,

    I'm gay! Well, that's not exactly how it came out. She didn't say much, it was kind of awkward. But it's done.
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 2 Responses May 10

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    I fell in love in love with a girl but cause

    I'm a girl I hide in fear and shame I try to keep a distance but every thing about her pulls me in she has the beauty an perfect soul I've always wondered if she knows Just say something or give me a hint But every day ends just as it begins With her thinking I just wanna be...
    watdoido2094 watdoido2094 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11, 2014

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    We were best friends.

    For five years I have gotten to know her. I grew up with her. Now, she's a stranger. When we got into the same college it seemed the only choice was to room with each other. We knew the risks, but we thought that we did not apply to those circumstances. WE were closer... WE...
    redefiningjane redefiningjane 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    I'm just stressing out about coming out of the

    closet to someone close to me. I want to tell my brother first since we are really close, and I had originally made plans to tell him when I turned 18, but I turn 19 tomorrow and I still haven't told him. Should I come out to my brother tonight? I think it would just be so nice...
    buddytori buddytori 18-21, F 4 Responses May 9

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    I'd like to chat with a femme,

    someone who can help with my dirty thoughts
    Layla0961 Layla0961 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have loved a women body

    since I was 12 i have always touched myself in miny ways just to feel a women no one in my family knows and I'm 31 now can I tell them no its no use cause they would dis own me
    starryeyes2008 starryeyes2008 31-35, F 3 Responses May 24

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    So I haven't come out

    yet to my parents or anyone else except for two people. Yes I know it's important to do this, but it's so stupid. My parents already suspect me of being lesbian and they never fail to remind me that they will love me no matter what. I just think the whole coming out thing is...
    Madamoiselle1 Madamoiselle1 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 30

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    I'm Stuck In Closet-land..

    I'll start at the beginning.. I was a late bloomer in the love department. As a kid, I was always fine with just having fun whereas the other girls were more concerned with who liked who and which boys were the cutest. As much as I tried, I could not get into these conversations...
    ageyutsa ageyutsa 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 26, 2011

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    Do you ever feel like you have

    so much love to give - you could care for them, ask them about their day, listen to their stories, hug them, kiss them, tell them how great they are and how you love them more than anything in the world...you don't even expect to be loved back, all you want is a place in their...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 1 Response May 13

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2014

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    I am hoping to chat to Asian lesbians/bisexuals

    (closeted or not) here in the UK. I'm hoping there's another woman who understands how it feels to close yourself up and not be able to talk to anyone about these feelings, no matter how close they are to you
    sara0088 sara0088 22-25, F May 10

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    its so hard. laying in bed every night

    and fighting the urge to get online and look up videos of lesbians. its my only way of releasing the sexual frustration I have built up. I want to be out and to have a girlfriend and just be myself.
    sydlittle sydlittle 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 18-21, F 14 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 74 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    Yesterday my gf and I fought,

    it was nobody's fault, but the fight went nasty and now she doesn't wanna talk to me.. though i have said sorry million times, she is not picking my calls. what should i do ? i love her but it seems like she is going away :( i feel helpless
    juslive21 juslive21 22-25, F 3 Responses May 25

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    I have a girlfriend right now

    and i'm so scared to death if I come out to my parents. They're ******* religious and our religion is pretty different among the others like they dont allow haircuts,wearing pants/sleeveless/shorts/tight clothes, piercings,same sex relationships etc.. but i dont follow it lmao...
    poqari poqari 18-21, F 2 Responses May 11

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    Couldn't Change Even If I Wanted Too

    It is scary to be yourself in a world full of hateful people. In a world full of people who don't understand that being gay isn't a choice. It isn't something that you decided. I don't wake up and think "You know what I'm feeling a little gay today." lol. It is something that I...
    EElena EElena 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 47 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    I'm bisexual. I think?

    ? When I was 14 I came out as bisexual to my friends, and my family eventually found out through one of my social media posts. To make a long story short, I grew up in a very religious home and so obviously the "traditional" family is the only way to go. When my family found the...
    savannashea96 savannashea96 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I don't know what to say.

    I have been in the closet most of my life and I'm still in. I don't know how to come out. I am scared that my family and IRL friends, my URL friends already knows it, will not like me anymore. So... how to come out "safe"?
    TheMadHatterWasHere TheMadHatterWasHere 18-21, F 1 Response May 14

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    Nothing is better than hearing your boyfriend

    moan loud like a female! While he was laying naked on the bed I start licking and kissing his leg then worked my way to his tight a$$. While going up and down with my tongue I pushd one finger in . He loved it so I start doing Sixty9 and put turtle (his pen!s) in my mouth. It...
    QueenTay91 QueenTay91 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    HEYYY guess what?! Im gay!

    🌈 But dont tell my family 😶😶😶
    L4Love L4Love 18-21, F May 11

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    This is my first time

    even writing the words "I am a lesbian," so this is a big step for me. I think I've always known (very very deep down, so far down that the thought never even came into my head), but I had my "aha" moment about 7 months ago (in the beginning of my senior year of college). I...
    anonymous0987654 anonymous0987654 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 4, 2014

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 25 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I never reveal my affection towards a girl.

    I have strong urges to be with one but i never go for it. Its against my family and religion. I just want a girl who understands me and someone who's struggling with the same thing. I want to run away and be with a woman i can call my own. I dont want to come out. I just want to...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 15

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