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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 28 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    I have a best friend she's awesome

    and a girl too. We love eachother lots have made out lots when drunk and had drunken talks about being together. We both have boyfriends now and she keeps talking about getting with eachother but with one of our boyfriends but I more want to just experiment with her! I told her...
    purplepants911 purplepants911 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    The reason for this is

    because my family are strict Muslims and wouldn't allow me to be a lesbian. I remember once i was joking about it, just to see their reaction and they took it so seriously that now i am scared to tell them. I know for sure that this isn't a phase. However i'm 17 now so i will...
    Sammim4lik Sammim4lik 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    When I was in grade 6 I found out there was a

    thing called lgbt then that summer I thought what if I was trans then I took into deep thought about it I had tons of dreams but then I realized my whole frickin like was pink then I knew I was for sure a girl then in grade 7 my teacher told the class if we had any trouble just...
    20tatumt 20tatumt 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    And i am crushing on one of my mother's nurses

    so badly. She's perfection. Tall. Soft...Latina. I watch her as she moves about. I let my gaze stear over her thighs and bottom. Ahh if only i could stand her before me and peel those scrubs off. Fill my hands with her. Burry my face in the very center of her....all of this and...
    jrzseakret jrzseakret 36-40 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I never reveal my affection towards a girl.

    I have strong urges to be with one but i never go for it. Its against my family and religion. I just want a girl who understands me and someone who's struggling with the same thing. I want to run away and be with a woman i can call my own. I dont want to come out. I just want to...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 15

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    Well I am mostly still in the closet.

    My closest friends know. Well basically anyone who isn't my family knows. and i would prefer to keep it that way. I joked about it to my mom once (to test the waters) and her reaction was not one i would like to see ever again. She may be fine with everyone else being gay but...
    TaquilaTopaz TaquilaTopaz 26-30, F Apr 15

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 25 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I Am Almost Certain I'm Gay... But I Love My Boyfriend. Argh. Help.

    I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm really just starting to accept that I'm a lesbian. The signs were always there, and I suppose it's always been in the back of my head since I was little. Men really don't interest me. I LOVE them purely and fully. I even feel in love with them.I...
    PeaceLilyGirl PeaceLilyGirl 22-25, F 37 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    account ;) : lezzz-rock-on.tumblr.com
    jlove987 jlove987 16-17, F Apr 19

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    I fell in love in love with a girl but cause

    I'm a girl I hide in fear and shame I try to keep a distance but every thing about her pulls me in she has the beauty an perfect soul I've always wondered if she knows Just say something or give me a hint But every day ends just as it begins With her thinking I just wanna be...
    watdoido2094 watdoido2094 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11, 2014

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    Some days are harder

    than others... Today is one of them. Just keep fighting. Day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. Just keep fighting. It's my choice for it to be like this I understand, I'm not ready to come out. A lesbian 17 year old in my high school, forget it! I'd rather have it this way...
    Kayceyy Kayceyy 16-17, F Mar 24

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    Okay so this girl that I have a crush on is

    definitely straight. Spent two weeks together and it was fun but I could tell that she regards me as nothing more than just a friend. I didn't get any signs or hints from her. Yeah, she likes guys and she still contacts the guy that she has a crush on. So yeah. That's all I had...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F Apr 13

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 46 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I'm Sri Lankan (closest to Asian Indian)

    and have always been interested and attracted towards women more than men, and it is actually scary to even try to attempt and date. I'm scared that someone will find out that I want to date females before I can even decipher what "category" I fit into. I haven't been successful...
    sara0088 sara0088 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 8

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    its so hard. laying in bed every night

    and fighting the urge to get online and look up videos of lesbians. its my only way of releasing the sexual frustration I have built up. I want to be out and to have a girlfriend and just be myself.
    sydlittle sydlittle 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    The Closet Gets Cramped

    Hi, my name is Stephanie. :) I am a college student who only recently started coming to terms with my sexuality. I've known for as long as I can remember that I liked girls, but I always did my best to stifle the truth, and keep my feelings buried. This is a huge contributing...
    stephanie929 stephanie929 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    Like my parents picked me up from school today

    for our family doctor visit, and they were joking around about how i'm going to be married with a husband and kids one day and i'm like ..............o_0 . They are not disgusted by gays and lesbians, but it would hurt them so bad if I came out and told them about the real me...
    imasweetheart imasweetheart 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 18-21, F 14 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    If you are a woman 30-50 years old

    who dreams about teaching a young lesbian how to worship her body, message me. I want to be taught how to make love.. I want to explore a mature woman's body..
    Bicurious12345 Bicurious12345 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    This guy is a threat.

    He would like every single photo that my crush posts and that to me is a major indicator that he likes her too. Well actually, I don't know. I have a guy friend who does the same to me too but that's because he's a really nice guy and I bet he does the same to his other friends...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F Mar 23

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    I could've came out twice today,

    but didn't. My friends and I were sitting in our school hallway (pretty empty) and one of them asked, who are you going to marry? Us being girls (and that we usually assume people are straight) said a man. I was kind of hesitant on answering the question, but if I insisted, then...
    PotatoesRAwesome PotatoesRAwesome 41-45, F Mar 25

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 175 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I am currently writing a play about coming out

    stories that I hope will educate and remind people of the difficulties faced by people coming out every day and how people react but also about the positive reactions people receive which I believe are important too. One section of the play is about someone who hasn't come out...
    Kayceyy Kayceyy 16-17, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    This is my first time

    even writing the words "I am a lesbian," so this is a big step for me. I think I've always known (very very deep down, so far down that the thought never even came into my head), but I had my "aha" moment about 7 months ago (in the beginning of my senior year of college). I...
    anonymous0987654 anonymous0987654 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 4, 2014

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    My worst fear is that I'm going to come out

    and then magically not like girls anymore, but I know that's not gonna happen lol x
    ParisMaisie ParisMaisie 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk 66-70, M 251 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    I have been hiding being a lesbian from

    everyone friends/family. I feel like I can't talk to anyone or tell anyone. I feel extremely alone and can't stomach the thought of being with a man even though that's what my family wants from me. I'm 27 years old and have never had a serious relationship or been physical with...
    anli28 anli28 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    My friend thinks my crush

    and I should be travel partners when I told her about our two-week trip together. It was fun and we had a great time. We have made plans to go on a day trip together in two months' time. But today I'm going to talk about our first trip ever together. She was very kind to me...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 75 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    I had this girl, she use to hang out with me

    and something happened and she kissed me. A lot happened after that but now I find myself attracted to other girls but my family doesn't accept lesbians... Idk what to do
    breemarlie breemarlie 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    Someone please tell me it's normal

    for my sexuality (the fact I don't know what my sexuality is and don't want to decide on a label) to keep me awake at night, it's all I'm thinking about... It's stressing me out too much
    standardclosetcase standardclosetcase 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 23

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    Willing To Come Out For The Sake Of Love

    I am an average looking girl who has a boring life. I've been hiding inside the closet and now I realized that I've been depriving myself the chance of loving and being loved by someone. I am an introvert and it's quite difficult for me to open up with anyone. I've never been in...
    strikien strikien 26-30, F 12 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    imawarrior imawarrior 16-17, F Mar 29

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    I'm Stuck In Closet-land..

    I'll start at the beginning.. I was a late bloomer in the love department. As a kid, I was always fine with just having fun whereas the other girls were more concerned with who liked who and which boys were the cutest. As much as I tried, I could not get into these conversations...
    ageyutsa ageyutsa 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 26, 2011

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21, 2014

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    i am in the closet and i cant come out anytime

    soon. i need a woman who can understand me and support me all the way. i crave intimacy, i wish i could fall in love. anyone interested in getting to know me more inbox me. i love honesty and sincerity.
    lesbewoman lesbewoman 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    would love to get to know others

    who are in a similar situation, preferably similar in age too (im 22). ive known since I was really young that I was different and that I was into girls but didnt admit it to myself till I was 16. my family are very homophobic, often saying things that are hard to hear and...
    Char16 Char16 22-25 1 Response Apr 6

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