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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    I Am Almost Certain I'm Gay... But I Love My Boyfriend. Argh. Help.

    I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm really just starting to accept that I'm a lesbian. The signs were always there, and I suppose it's always been in the back of my head since I was little. Men really don't interest me. I LOVE them purely and fully. I even feel in love with them.I...
    PeaceLilyGirl PeaceLilyGirl 22-25, F 51 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    I was supposed to be sending my resumes online

    and how did I stumbled across this interesting site! I guess this place shall be my emotional dumpster from now on. So the story goes... I have always been single and straight (i guess i never found out) and I have known my current partner for 7 years. We were co-workers in...
    KatyFizzy KatyFizzy 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2015

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    If there is a nice girl who's close to my age,

    friendly and need love and support, message me. It would work even better if you have facebook to talk even more.
    MedodeM MedodeM 18-21, F Nov 14, 2015

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    I really want a relationship :(

    but I can't find one. I'm almost 15 and just came out of a relationship which thought would last forever :/. I want someone who will let me treat them like a princess<3 message me :p
    chloeruth15 chloeruth15 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2015

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    I've been in relationships before,

    and they lasted quit a long time before my lifestyle ruined them. I'd like to think that I'm fully invested in a relationship, I just enjoy my privacy. I'm not very into public displays of affection, but I wouldn't mind hold someone's hand while walking somewhere or driving. I...
    TheWonderer93 TheWonderer93 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    They had a beautiful story of two Indian women

    married to each other and settled in Chennai on a news paper. It was encouraging to know this happens. Both are bold enough, and, that's great.. I loved reading this article. I dream of a day, when I can settle down like that..
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    I am confused about my orientation.

    My girlfriend just keeps me at a distance. Seems funny cause the one friend would have done anything for her. Not sure if this is what scared her. Just went to see a social worker and said that I should really think of my orientation. Its kind of hard if you don't know one. So...
    gilleslord gilleslord 56-60, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2015

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    Well actually closet pansexual

    but what ever. Wanted to know if any girls rp and maybe want a secret relationship with me I don't bite message me 😏💋
    Comicfangirl15 Comicfangirl15 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 21

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 14, 2015

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    I'm dying to come out to my friends

    and parents but I can't really imagine how. This is so depressing. So a while ago at school, my classmate borrowed my phone so that she could text her brother. But it took kind of long for her to return my phone which got me feel so anxious. I have a lot of secrets in my phone...
    bluejeansfemme bluejeansfemme 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2015

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    One of a kind closeted gay man looking

    for his soul mate, a closeted lesbian. 100% discreet and 100% masculine. I am handsome, physically fit, athletic, genuine, outgoing, career oriented. I am 5,11 tall, 170 lbs, dark brown hair with green eyes. I am Caucasian, Italian background and was born and raised in NY...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc 41-45, M 3 days ago

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2014

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    I have never done this before,

    you know, posting thing. I don't even do facebook but I guess there is first time for everything. or I am just so tired of being kept inside and want a way to somewhat release my feeling. I mostly keep my life private. Which means there is no one who knows about my sexuality and...
    WanderingIdiot WanderingIdiot 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    its so hard. laying in bed every night

    and fighting the urge to get online and look up videos of lesbians. its my only way of releasing the sexual frustration I have built up. I want to be out and to have a girlfriend and just be myself.
    sydlittle sydlittle 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I am 38 years old. Middle Eastern Muslim gay

    guy. I am looking for Middle Eastern lesbian or bisexual Muslim girl. I am conservative, very well educated and good looking. I know this might sounds very ambitious, but I am really dreaming of having ideal life with ideal wife, just like straight couples but without the...
    lovecater lovecater 36-40, M Nov 18, 2015

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    If there is a nice girl who's close to my age,

    friendly and need love and support, message me. It would work even better if you have facebook to talk even more.
    MedodeM MedodeM 18-21, F Nov 14, 2015

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    i am in the closet and i cant come out anytime

    soon. i need a woman who can understand me and support me all the way. i crave intimacy, i wish i could fall in love. anyone interested in getting to know me more inbox me. i love honesty and sincerity.
    lesbewoman lesbewoman 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    I'm just gonna rant here.

    I am so frustrated. Sometimes (let's be honest, very often) I think about how much easier my life would be if I were straight. I get hit on by many guys, and I guess I'm flattered. But I don't want a guy at all, I want a girl. I am still partly in the closet and am too afraid to...
    ilovethecure ilovethecure 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    Does this happen to you?

    You meet some gorgeous, funny, smart girl and you KNOW that if you linger around her any longer, and even if you entertain thoughts about her for more than 3 second, you're gonna fall in love with her as quickly as Alice fell into the rabbit hole... So you consciously start...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 9, 2015

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 73 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk 66-70, M 244 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    Actually I'm starting to come out

    and it's great. I can talk to my friends about stuff now. But I'm still need to tell my mom which is kinda a little tricky. But all good so far.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 19, 2015

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 46 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 39 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    I came out to my therapist today.

    Then on my drive home I almost threw up. Then I scream cried while realizing I might tell my mom one day. I won't probably. But at least I told someone.
    DoIknowmenow DoIknowmenow 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 22

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 177 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    HINDU INDIAN LESBIAN,

    AGE 34, LOOKING FOR LESBIAN PARTNER. I am 34. Settled in Southern India. I am a Lesbian. I cannot relocate as I have very serious constraints with parents health and age as I am the only supporting member. I need a partner who is able to relocate to the place I live. I would...
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2015

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    I love her sooooo muchhh!

    But there's a zero chance for us. Damn!
    bluejeansfemme bluejeansfemme 18-21, F Dec 29, 2015

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    I have recently started to realise

    that I am a lesbian. Although I have always been drawn to females I never really thought it was unusual or that it meant anything. But after 8 years with the father of my 2 children I have begun to face the real reasons I've never felt completely happy. It was actually him who...
    mummypig mummypig 31-35, F 11 Responses Sep 12, 2015

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    I don't know if i am a closet lesbian.

    I don't know if I would like to be a closet lesbian. But living in a country like India, i am nothing but closet lesbian. Here, it is so abnormal and shameful to talk about girl loving girl or girl living with a girl like a couple. they almost look at you shocked as if they have...
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 16

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    They had a beautiful story of two Indian women

    married to each other and settled in Chennai on a news paper. It was encouraging to know this happens. Both are bold enough, and, that's great.. I loved reading this article. I dream of a day, when I can settle down like that..
    carrydawg carrydawg 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    i am basically looking

    for 18-28yrs old lesbian/asexual/bisexual/straight girl for short term moc and there are other terms too.things will be planned out properly and there will be confidentiality.i have no problem with your orientation,thinking and background.if you are interested,tell me about...
    imsearching4ud imsearching4ud 26-30, M Dec 5, 2015

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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      Hi Ive never really down this It's

    crazy dealing with this My girlfriend texted me today she's on vacation she's in florida And sent me pics of her in a gay club adorably she also told her sisters about her being into women She just blurred it out I wished she had told she was going to and also It was random...
    Evelynmusic1 Evelynmusic1 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I'm 17 years old and very new to this.

    I don't exactly know if I am a lesbian or not because I've never been with a girl, I just have no attention to guys and feel more attached to girls. How do I go about meeting girls? I live in the UK?
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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    I've known I'm gay since I was 7

    when I had a "girlfriend" (my friend and I held hands and kissed each other on the cheek). When we got fake married with haribo rings, my mum said that was weird and that girls marry boys. That's when I started to fight myself. From aged 14-16 I had a boyfriend, but as we got...
    lauren1998 lauren1998 16-17 1 Response Dec 31, 2015

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