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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    are there any girls between the ages of 24-30

    that would like to get to know each other? I would really love to hear about others with similar feelings.
    anli28 anli28 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am a prisoner. A sudden realization has blown

    away my foundation. 10 year relationship with a man who i cannot tolerate to touch me. 2 beautiful children and one giant secret. i am a lesbian. Sad really. 36 years to find the truth only to push it down. What would come of it? Coming out? Proclaiming "i am she". We women are...
    jrzseakret jrzseakret 36-40 3 Responses Mar 24

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    Sometimes I look at her real hard

    while she's looking away...lost in her own thoughts... That moment is a metaphor of my life. I'm right in front of her, already hopelessly in love, waiting for her to understand, to acknowledge, if not respond to my feelings. Sometimes I cannot believe that she is not aware of...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    We finally went out together today,

    mainly because we needed to settle a few things for our trip. We spent 2 hours at a cafe to do what we planned to do, then I brought her to a bakery that she had been dying to go to...ate some cakes and finally I drove her home. It was nice, of course there were accidental...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 28 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21, 2014

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    Someone please tell me it's normal

    for my sexuality (the fact I don't know what my sexuality is and don't want to decide on a label) to keep me awake at night, it's all I'm thinking about... It's stressing me out too much
    standardclosetcase standardclosetcase 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 23

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    imawarrior imawarrior 16-17, F Mar 29

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    infinite1994 infinite1994 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27, 2014

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    monikamilk monikamilk 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    I never reveal my affection towards a girl.

    I have strong urges to be with one but i never go for it. Its against my family and religion. I just want a girl who understands me and someone who's struggling with the same thing. I want to run away and be with a woman i can call my own. I dont want to come out. I just want to...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 15

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    I think, at least. I also prefer saying gay

    over lesbian but I don't mean to offend anyone. I'm 13 and I was so close to coming out to my best friend a few hours ago. For the past few days, I've been thinking about this girl at my school, how I long to be in her arms (because she usually puts her arm around me, and I have...
    PotatoesRAwesome PotatoesRAwesome 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    When I was in grade 6 I found out there was a

    thing called lgbt then that summer I thought what if I was trans then I took into deep thought about it I had tons of dreams but then I realized my whole frickin like was pink then I knew I was for sure a girl then in grade 7 my teacher told the class if we had any trouble just...
    20tatumt 20tatumt 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Like my parents picked me up from school today

    for our family doctor visit, and they were joking around about how i'm going to be married with a husband and kids one day and i'm like ..............o_0 . They are not disgusted by gays and lesbians, but it would hurt them so bad if I came out and told them about the real me...
    imasweetheart imasweetheart 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    its so hard. laying in bed every night

    and fighting the urge to get online and look up videos of lesbians. its my only way of releasing the sexual frustration I have built up. I want to be out and to have a girlfriend and just be myself.
    sydlittle sydlittle 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    Erm I'm 19 now when I was 14 I had a friend

    who was a different kinda friend to all my other friends, we used to kiss and cuddle and fondle each other and it all just felt so right and perfect... Then when I was 17 I had another friend who was like that and I'm still friends with both of the girls now, however it's purely...
    standardclosetcase standardclosetcase 18-21, F Mar 25

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    Any lesbians or bisexual girls thats got

    blackberry messenger? If so then what's your pins? You could message me here if you like:) just looking for a relationship a girl that I could settle with😍😣
    lilyyyyyyyxxx lilyyyyyyyxxx 18-21, F Mar 20

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 18-21, F 15 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Okay, I'm going to come out on here now,

    I've already told my family so I'm proud to say I'm a lesbian have been for a while but I didn't label myself. My friends and my close family know and now I'm letting all of you know. I am a lesbian and I'm not at all attracted or interested in guys. I so happy I'm not in the...
    ThisIsLife13 ThisIsLife13 13-15, F 5 Responses Apr 7

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 46 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    I'm your typical closet case.

    .. Done 'gay things' with a couple of special friends who I'm pretty sure are closet cases too. I have had a boyfriend that was very serious but it wasn't intimate at all. My friends at uni reckon that this girl is into me and I think she might be too... But she's definitely a...
    standardclosetcase standardclosetcase 18-21, F Mar 23

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    I Am Almost Certain I'm Gay... But I Love My Boyfriend. Argh. Help.

    I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm really just starting to accept that I'm a lesbian. The signs were always there, and I suppose it's always been in the back of my head since I was little. Men really don't interest me. I LOVE them purely and fully. I even feel in love with them.I...
    PeaceLilyGirl PeaceLilyGirl 22-25, F 37 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    I had this girl, she use to hang out with me

    and something happened and she kissed me. A lot happened after that but now I find myself attracted to other girls but my family doesn't accept lesbians... Idk what to do
    breemarlie breemarlie 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    would love to get to know others

    who are in a similar situation, preferably similar in age too (im 22). ive known since I was really young that I was different and that I was into girls but didnt admit it to myself till I was 16. my family are very homophobic, often saying things that are hard to hear and...
    Char16 Char16 22-25 1 Response Apr 6

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    I'm Stuck In Closet-land..

    I'll start at the beginning.. I was a late bloomer in the love department. As a kid, I was always fine with just having fun whereas the other girls were more concerned with who liked who and which boys were the cutest. As much as I tried, I could not get into these conversations...
    ageyutsa ageyutsa 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 26, 2011

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    The reason for this is

    because my family are strict Muslims and wouldn't allow me to be a lesbian. I remember once i was joking about it, just to see their reaction and they took it so seriously that now i am scared to tell them. I know for sure that this isn't a phase. However i'm 17 now so i will...
    Sammim4lik Sammim4lik 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I'm Sri Lankan (closest to Asian Indian)

    and have always been interested and attracted towards women more than men, and it is actually scary to even try to attempt and date. I'm scared that someone will find out that I want to date females before I can even decipher what "category" I fit into. I haven't been successful...
    sara0088 sara0088 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 8

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    We're going on a holiday together this week.

    Yes, this is really happening, I'm going overseas with my crush. But yea, this is happening because she couldn't think of anyone else who could accompany her and so she asked me and I said yes. Desperate times call for desperate measures, I guess.
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    This is my first time

    even writing the words "I am a lesbian," so this is a big step for me. I think I've always known (very very deep down, so far down that the thought never even came into my head), but I had my "aha" moment about 7 months ago (in the beginning of my senior year of college). I...
    anonymous0987654 anonymous0987654 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 4, 2014

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    i am in the closet and i cant come out anytime

    soon. i need a woman who can understand me and support me all the way. i crave intimacy, i wish i could fall in love. anyone interested in getting to know me more inbox me. i love honesty and sincerity.
    lesbewoman lesbewoman 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    This guy is a threat.

    He would like every single photo that my crush posts and that to me is a major indicator that he likes her too. Well actually, I don't know. I have a guy friend who does the same to me too but that's because he's a really nice guy and I bet he does the same to his other friends...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F Mar 23

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    I could've came out twice today,

    but didn't. My friends and I were sitting in our school hallway (pretty empty) and one of them asked, who are you going to marry? Us being girls (and that we usually assume people are straight) said a man. I was kind of hesitant on answering the question, but if I insisted, then...
    PotatoesRAwesome PotatoesRAwesome 41-45, F Mar 25

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    I have a best friend she's awesome

    and a girl too. We love eachother lots have made out lots when drunk and had drunken talks about being together. We both have boyfriends now and she keeps talking about getting with eachother but with one of our boyfriends but I more want to just experiment with her! I told her...
    purplepants911 purplepants911 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 75 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    And i am crushing on one of my mother's nurses

    so badly. She's perfection. Tall. Soft...Latina. I watch her as she moves about. I let my gaze stear over her thighs and bottom. Ahh if only i could stand her before me and peel those scrubs off. Fill my hands with her. Burry my face in the very center of her....all of this and...
    jrzseakret jrzseakret 36-40 2 Responses Mar 25

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    My worst fear is that I'm going to come out

    and then magically not like girls anymore, but I know that's not gonna happen lol x
    ParisMaisie ParisMaisie 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 25 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I have been hiding being a lesbian from

    everyone friends/family. I feel like I can't talk to anyone or tell anyone. I feel extremely alone and can't stomach the thought of being with a man even though that's what my family wants from me. I'm 27 years old and have never had a serious relationship or been physical with...
    anli28 anli28 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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