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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    Willing To Come Out For The Sake Of Love

    I am an average looking girl who has a boring life. I've been hiding inside the closet and now I realized that I've been depriving myself the chance of loving and being loved by someone. I am an introvert and it's quite difficult for me to open up with anyone. I've never been in...
    strikien strikien 26-30, F 12 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 20

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    I really need to come out

    but I'm scared . But I'm such a freak 😏
    loni07 loni07 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    I love girls but I have a soft spot

    for some guys. I want to tell people but it's not that easy. as everyone knows. girls message me ;)
    loveandles loveandles 18-21, F Jul 26

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    Not really......after all there isn't enough

    room for the two of us in my closet anyway. I guess I could get a bigger closet or just be out like I'm starting to be. Okay so long story, but basically I've discovered girls in a whole new way. All through my life I thought I was straight, normal, you know, not gay...
    ClaudNine ClaudNine 18-21, F 12 Responses Jul 17

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    A year ago I found out I was a lesbian.

    I had feelings for women way before but never actually thought I would be gay. No one else thinks I'm gay either because I look straight. Long hair, girly clothes, makeup etc. The problem is not that I'm afraid of coming out, but I'm afraid that I'll never find a girlfriend...
    irisjuuu irisjuuu 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    I grew up in a family

    that is very religious. They are very anti-homosexual and would never accept me if they knew. I tried to be what they wanted me to be to the extent of marrying a man and having a son. I was miserable and my heart still ached to find the true soul mate I knew was out there. I...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 27

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    infinite1994 infinite1994 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 21

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    I just want to start this off by saying

    that I have always known deep inside that I was a lesbian but I finally accepted that I am a lesbian and not bisexual or straight about three years ago. I have always known I was different, when I was little my friends would be flirting with other guys and talk with me about...
    workoutnut33 workoutnut33 18-21, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 31 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 5

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    I'm not as closeted as I was

    when I first added this experience some years ago. My mom now knows. I told her almost two years ago, Halloween, 2012. My one friend has known since I was 18, but now more people know because I joined a gay/straight alliance at my college. I'm still not ready for other family...
    lyricalongings lyricalongings 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 7

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    My parents don't know

    that im gay but im planning not to tell them for as long as i can keep it secret. (Dont want others to humiliate my parents)
    khulan03 khulan03 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

    Isn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F 76 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    I am a closet lesbian.

    .. A few weeks ago I started dating my best friend. I want to tell my mom but my mom doesn't really like her because my mom thinks she is a pot head (long story) but I wanna eventually tell her but I'm kinda scared. :/
    Lmaochickadee01 Lmaochickadee01 18-21 Aug 1

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    I dont trust girls who are attracted to

    me…like why? write me a 10 page paper with a legitimate thesis and valid points backing up your claim or you fake.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 7 Responses May 21

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    Dont Know What To Do

    im a student at university and i am a cheerleader but there is a problem im a lesbian and no one knows and i dont know what to do
    amy1200 amy1200 18-21, F 48 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    I fell in love in love with a girl but cause

    I'm a girl I hide in fear and shame I try to keep a distance but every thing about her pulls me in she has the beauty an perfect soul I've always wondered if she knows Just say something or give me a hint But every day ends just as it begins With her thinking I just wanna be...
    watdoido2094 watdoido2094 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11

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    I'm in a long term relationship with a man

    but over the past few years have come to realise I am attracted to women. I don't know if I was always a lesbian really and suppressed it when I was younger but I guess it doesn't really matter now. I'm not looking for sex talk on here though. I'm a genuine person just trying to...
    EllisRose EllisRose 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 25

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 20 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    I'm Stuck In Closet-land..

    I'll start at the beginning.. I was a late bloomer in the love department. As a kid, I was always fine with just having fun whereas the other girls were more concerned with who liked who and which boys were the cutest. As much as I tried, I could not get into these conversations...
    ageyutsa ageyutsa 18-21, F 11 Responses Sep 26, 2011

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    Am I.. Or Am I Not? Plz Help

    I feel a little weird writing this.. but at the same time i feel so releived that i found a place where i can speak my heart out and there WILL be people who understand me- well at least i hope. This is the first time that im actualli releasing all my thoughts n feelings, so i...
    NoelS NoelS 18-21, F 30 Responses Oct 5, 2008

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 26 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I wish I had the gusts to come out.

    ... I'm just too scared to
    confusedandcomplicated5 confusedandcomplicated5 16-17, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    This is my first time on this site.

    Let's hope it goes well haha. Seventh grade was really when understood my sexuality. In plain terms, I realized I liked girls. I was obsessed with this girl named Kennedy. I thought she was so beautiful, with her blonde hair and her blue eyes and her perfectly tanned skin. At...
    RecklessShenanigans RecklessShenanigans 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    no one even knows about this.

    but recently i've been developing feelings for my schoolmate and when i'm in the same room my friends notice i act funny. sometimes i just feel that i'm suffocated and helpless
    duhshi duhshi 13-15, F Jul 12

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    This is my first time

    even writing the words "I am a lesbian," so this is a big step for me. I think I've always known (very very deep down, so far down that the thought never even came into my head), but I had my "aha" moment about 7 months ago (in the beginning of my senior year of college). I...
    anonymous0987654 anonymous0987654 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 4

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    I've been with man for 6 years.

    He's the father of my children. I'm completely unhappy. I want to be with a woman! L
    Secretlezzz Secretlezzz 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    So today i went to a gay parade near my town,

    i go there every year with my two best friends. Last year we got into a conversation about out of the three who would be the least homosexual, they said me :(, during the spring i came out to these friends because i thought they would be the most open and okay with it. They wee...
    Girlm35 Girlm35 16-17, F 18 hrs ago

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    The Closet Gets Cramped

    Hi, my name is Stephanie. :) I am a college student who only recently started coming to terms with my sexuality. I've known for as long as I can remember that I liked girls, but I always did my best to stifle the truth, and keep my feelings buried. This is a huge contributing...
    stephanie929 stephanie929 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    I think I'm ready to tell my best friend,

    she will be the first and probably only person I tell. She seems pretty open minded and accepting. How do I go about telling her? I want our friendship to be the same as it is now, I don't want it to be awkward. Should I sit her down in the quad durring lunch once school starts...
    NEBookWorm NEBookWorm 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk 66-70, M 261 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    Nobody knows im into girls

    and I have a bf I don't want, and I also in love with my beautiful best friend, anyone help? Xx
    AceTeen123 AceTeen123 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 10

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    To be honest I don't know

    if I'm lesbian, straight, or bi. I've never had a girlfriend or anything but I have had a few boyfriends in the past none of the relationships lasted very long. But I do find some girls very attractive especially if I know they are lesbian. I know many lesbians and am friends...
    MJtheatregirl MJtheatregirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    So Yeah.......... *update*

    I joined EP days ago and I like it so far. I expressed my feelings through my story called "confused." I said that I was bi, but im having other thoughts and feelings. It has not been a week yet and I am becoming more distant from boys. I find boys attractive, but cannot date...
    Natalie542 Natalie542 13-15, F 16 Responses Aug 10, 2013

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 27

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    My 7-Year Closet Lesbian Story (Updated: 10/06/2012)

      The story I am about to tell is one that I never told a soul. A story I chose to tell anonymously to the unjudging ears (or at least I hope) of the internet because I couldn’t tell anyone - neither to my family nor to my very close friends. This is the first time I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Feb 8, 2009

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 167 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    Hello there fellow Lesbians!

    My name is Alexus Patricia Linn, and I am here to share on my behalf of me being a Lesbian. Once Upon A Time, I wad born in Rialto, a city known to be known in California. As old as I could remember, in the 3rd grade, I began to notice myself as different and a loner while in...
    MissLex69 MissLex69 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    unicornsarerad unicornsarerad 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 23

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    I have no idea where I can go from here.

    I know I like girls, that's not the problem. I joined this site because on here I can be myself. I can tell the truth about who I am, no lies. I'm young but I am a lesbian. I've dated a few guys, gotten groped and hated every minute of it. I don't know where to look for people...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 13

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    I am using EP to slowly let people know

    that I am a lesbian..I have some barriers to being open...sigh..
    femsweety12 femsweety12 31-35, F 8 Responses Feb 17

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    I've known I like girls

    since I was little but I like boys too. It's still quite confusing to me if I actually 'like' boys I mean I'm physically attracted to men and women at the same time and I'm sure I like girls but not so sure about guys. I find some boys attractive and cute but it's been long...
    msmika msmika 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 21

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    I just like to play with women in the bedroom,

    but my relationship has to be with a man. 💁
    NicoleMeagan NicoleMeagan 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 28

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    Every time my parents bring up a conversation

    of someone being gay I get nervous. I know for a fact that I am a lesbian and I also know that my parents aren't against any LGBT people. But every time they hear that someone my age has come out, they say that the person is just confused or is looking for attention. I really...
    aurorad19 aurorad19 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 1

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    Hi :) I'm new to this

    and I wanna meet people that are like me! :D
    Yasmin8 Yasmin8 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 4

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    Happy New Year to all!

    I'm Nikki, 23 yrs old. I live in the US and the Caribbean. I recently began exploring these attractions I have towards women and well my family/friends don't know about it and I am pretty anxious and pensive about it so I hope through this site I can meet people going through...
    nikkiHappiness nikkiHappiness 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 2

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    My 1st kiss was a girl.

    It's a secret that has been eating me alive since I was 8. I'm 23 now and I know since I was younger that I am a lesbian but all my life i have denied it. I have had a few boyfriends but none of them I've been attracted to. I have played sport all my life and I have a few...
    expuser1 expuser1 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    I am, no one knows & I don't want to tell

    anyone one. It also makes me really uncomfortable thinking about having to talk to anyone about it. Help?
    haleydev haleydev 18-21, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I have known I liked girls

    since about 3rd grade. I am now a 23 year old college grad who had never even kissed a girl. In fact I have been in a heterosexual relationship for 6 years. I care for my boyfriend but I feel a deep emptiness inside. But I'm pretty sure I will forever have this void because I...
    lowfatyogurt lowfatyogurt 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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