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I Am a Closet Lesbian

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    I have been struggling with this

    for a while but have come to the conclusion that I am definitely a lesbian. Although I have admitted this to myself I really don't feel ready to tell friends and family, it would be nice to speak to people in the same situation :)
    Ellie5293 Ellie5293 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 4

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    The Closet Gets Cramped

    Hi, my name is Stephanie. :) I am a college student who only recently started coming to terms with my sexuality. I've known for as long as I can remember that I liked girls, but I always did my best to stifle the truth, and keep my feelings buried. This is a huge contributing...
    stephanie929 stephanie929 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    i am in the closet and i cant come out anytime

    soon. i need a woman who can understand me and support me all the way. i crave intimacy, i wish i could fall in love. anyone interested in getting to know me more inbox me. i love honesty and sincerity.
    lesbewoman lesbewoman 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    All I can say is... I'm in trouble.

    We have a family friend that we only see about once or twice a year, she is beautiful and a really nice and interesting person in general. She is also married with kids (****.) and happens to be about 20 years older than me. (Double ****.) I don't know what happened today but...
    Kayceyy Kayceyy 16-17, F 16 hrs ago

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    Willing To Come Out For The Sake Of Love

    I am an average looking girl who has a boring life. I've been hiding inside the closet and now I realized that I've been depriving myself the chance of loving and being loved by someone. I am an introvert and it's quite difficult for me to open up with anyone. I've never been in...
    strikien strikien 26-30, F 12 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    I am using EP to slowly let people know

    that I am a lesbian..I have some barriers to being open...sigh..
    femsweety12 femsweety12 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    Is anyone going through the same thing

    as I am? Where I'm just hiding the fact I'm a lesbian.
    Melsilva Melsilva 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    A whatsapp conversation with her

    yesterday:- Me: it's okay, I still have other great and amazing people in my life like my mom, siblings, friends and you. ((I was trying to tell her that she's special)) Her: so I don't fall within the friends category? ((Not sure how to reply and said something stupid and...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    Why Do People Assume You Choose To Be Gay Or Lesbian?

    Today during my Sociology class, we were talking about deviance and how a lot of psychologists believe that you're born 'bad'. Well, one of my stupid classmates, Ian, said, "I don't believe you can be born bad just as much as you can be born gay,"Well, that got me ticked off. Why...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 25 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I tried so hard to like boys.

    But it just never really worked. When I tried dating guys, after a couple weeks I just couldn't do it anymore, I felt nothing towards them. Every time. I kept trying to go farther with guys sexually and I never felt aroused or good. When I lost my virginity to a guy it was awful...
    SavannaJade SavannaJade 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    its so hard. laying in bed every night

    and fighting the urge to get online and look up videos of lesbians. its my only way of releasing the sexual frustration I have built up. I want to be out and to have a girlfriend and just be myself.
    sydlittle sydlittle 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I’m Tired And I’m Coming Out!

    I have been a resident of the closet for a long time. I’m 22! So I have been hiding here for so many years. I used to consider it my comfort zone. A place where I can safely hide my ego from being hurt by homophobes who can’t understand. I am a lesbian. And a few months...
    deleted deleted 26-30 32 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    Hey, I need a girl to talk to.

    ... It's not about sex, I feel bad and need comfort.
    scarletlocks scarletlocks 18-21, T 2 Responses Feb 11

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    My worst fear is that I'm going to come out

    and then magically not like girls anymore, but I know that's not gonna happen lol x
    ParisMaisie ParisMaisie 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    She claims she's straight

    and she was annoyed at the fact a tomboy stole her first kiss. She kept pushing me to admit that I like girls yesterday but if I Say it, she might stop hanging out with me and things might be different. Almost everytime she wears zip or button tops she will dare me to open it...
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F Feb 22

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    I've been feeling so very alone.

    I don't have anyone I can talk to about this. I'm terrified that even saying it out loud will wind up hurting people I care about. I just wish I had someone I could talk to with no judgement, no fear that it will come back to my family, someone who's been in this place before.
    bibliophileXlady bibliophileXlady 26-30 5 Responses Feb 1

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    I like her, we text each other till 4am on

    weekends. But she always deny she's into girls. I guess she's just too friendly.
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F Feb 20

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    I'm still confused but I guess I'm a 90% lesbian

    because I only wish to be in a relationship with a female. I just want someone that can relate to me and can keep up a conversation. Talking crap is also a form of entertainment :)
    Rachh13 Rachh13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    i am 27 yrs old and just a couple yrs ago i

    realized that i am attracted to women. the hardest thing for me right now is the fact that i haven't been able to explore these feeling further. i don't know why it took me so long to realize that i like women; all the early signs were there for me but i never paid close...
    laencantadora laencantadora 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    I'm only 16 and I'm already a closet lesbian.

    It started at school. I was 11 years old and I saw this beautiful girl across the room, and I felt something weird... I knew that something "weird" was happening. We became best friends and we were REALLY close. But when I was about 13 I decided it was time to let her go. I...
    wholeticia wholeticia 18-21, F Feb 22

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    I'm a Closeted Lesbian

    I'm not sure how I got to this point. It's like I have two different lives--two sets of friends, two sets of stories; everything split rather unequally to fit into 'gay' and 'normal'. Not straight. Normal. My mother is my idol, and she's the hardest-working, most beautiful...
    Harpertrap Harpertrap 18-21, F 175 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I told my friend today.

    I was the first whom she came out as a bisexual, so I thought she would understand me. I was right. she supports me. She told me: "whatever you need me or talk about something; I'm here for you. We are together in this". Was even better because she told me this face to face...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 3 Responses May 27, 2014

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    There are rumors going around school

    that I'm gay, and honestly I don't care, because I'd rather be outed than have to do it myself
    pansarecute pansarecute 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 31

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    I Am Almost Certain I'm Gay... But I Love My Boyfriend. Argh. Help.

    I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm really just starting to accept that I'm a lesbian. The signs were always there, and I suppose it's always been in the back of my head since I was little. Men really don't interest me. I LOVE them purely and fully. I even feel in love with them.I...
    PeaceLilyGirl PeaceLilyGirl 22-25, F 34 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    Do any girls want to exchange pictures of

    themselves for some of my girlfriend?
    YouCanCallMeSir YouCanCallMeSir 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sometimes in order to protect my identity,

    I flirt with guys. It's not the same feelings like flirting with girls.
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    It is a wonderful feeling to be able to openly

    talk about my crush with my close friend whom I came out to a few weeks ago. And guess what, she said that she got a different vibe about my crush and kept asking me if the girl I like is really straight because normal "just friends" don't do what she does to me. I told her I...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    On my birthday we worked overtime till 930pm

    then she brought me out for dinner where she paid and we shared a cup cause it's bottomless drink. We chat till the shop closed at 1130pm. Then she brought me to a bakery cafe and bought me a cake and then she sent me home at 1:45am. We work the next day at 830am. Is this what...
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    This is my first time

    even writing the words "I am a lesbian," so this is a big step for me. I think I've always known (very very deep down, so far down that the thought never even came into my head), but I had my "aha" moment about 7 months ago (in the beginning of my senior year of college). I...
    anonymous0987654 anonymous0987654 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 4, 2014

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    I kicked down the door.

    Screw the haters!
    TheDesireToDance TheDesireToDance 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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    My mom just found out

    that I am in love with one of my best friends.. She was fuming mad at me. She said that I better stop seeing her... I could only cry. I wanted to tell her that I am really gay and there is nothing I can do with it. I want to run away from home so I can be free.
    Mikey022 Mikey022 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    Lesbian, But I Can't Find Other Lesbians Or Don't Know Where To Look.

    I just joined this site because I saw another person post a similar concern as I have myself, but didn't quite answer all of my questions. I am a lesbian, been with men, been told all of my life being gay is wrong, or "weird", but now that I'm 20 years old I can form my own...
    brookesmelscer18 brookesmelscer18 18-21, F 27 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    Couldn't Change Even If I Wanted Too

    It is scary to be yourself in a world full of hateful people. In a world full of people who don't understand that being gay isn't a choice. It isn't something that you decided. I don't wake up and think "You know what I'm feeling a little gay today." lol. It is something that I...
    EElena EElena 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    At Fifteen

    My first serious gay relationship happened when I was 15. I'd kissed several girls prior to that, and had a fairly intense sexual experience in grade school, but lesbian lovesexmagic didn't happen till the summer before tenth grade. She was my next door neighbor, a cute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    I've told about 8 people about me.

    that includes only 1 family member. I plan on fully coming out to everyone my freshman year but I feel dumb when I can't even tell my sister or closer family members who I am.
    pansarecute pansarecute 13-15, F Feb 21

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    I Was Confused For So Long...

    I'm not one of those "I knew since I was 5 years old" lesbians...but I am gay. Very gay. And even though I'm closeted at the moment, I'm proud of who I am and I'm happy with being gay. It took a long time to even understand my sexuality, allow me to explain... When I was 12, a...
    shesaloverofthelight shesaloverofthelight 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 18, 2013

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    I'm a bi girl, still in the closet.

    I have a crush on my female teacher and I'm in love with my best friend. I'm selfharm because of all of this and I just want someone to talk to? Anyone? x
    katemicheal katemicheal 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I have an amazing boyfriend

    and I care about him but I can't love him. I can't love him because I like girls, not boys... And I've tried and tried and tried so hard to make it work but to me it's just an act. an act I need to keep on playing because I know what my parents and my friends would say if it...
    infinite1994 infinite1994 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    My Daughter Is A Closet Lesbian

    I have been wanting to write this story for a long time. This story is a tribute to my one and only daughter. For simplicity I will refer to my daughter as "M". After 5 children and several years of marriage my wife and I divorced. Our youngest, M, thought that I did not love her...
    Spockk Spockk 66-70, M 253 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    I fell in love in love with a girl but cause

    I'm a girl I hide in fear and shame I try to keep a distance but every thing about her pulls me in she has the beauty an perfect soul I've always wondered if she knows Just say something or give me a hint But every day ends just as it begins With her thinking I just wanna be...
    watdoido2094 watdoido2094 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11, 2014

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    I have never met another lesbian.

    The only LGBT people I have met are all gay boys. I feel invisible and sad and lonely because I don't know I just to actually meet someone like me and be validated. Like wow you actually exist and I'm not crazy. I wanna be real is all. I know I'm real but like my family is what...
    baabara baabara 22-25, M Feb 19

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    I'm Stuck In Closet-land..

    I'll start at the beginning.. I was a late bloomer in the love department. As a kid, I was always fine with just having fun whereas the other girls were more concerned with who liked who and which boys were the cutest. As much as I tried, I could not get into these conversations...
    ageyutsa ageyutsa 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 26, 2011

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    Not completely as some friends

    and my parents know and have been fantastic! However a lot of people and my family don't know. Anyone feel free to chat but only clean talk please
    Turnturn Turnturn 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    So I'm confused. This girl

    either really likes me or she just happens to be one hell of an amazing friend. She surprised me with a special order of a new york cheesecake with lemon curd (not just a piece, but a whole cake) delivered straight to my workplace (coz she doesn't have my residential address...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    Advice for coming out bi?

    Someone help please.. I hate being in the closet and I'm comfortable enough with myself now to come out but I'm scared.. Help xx
    katemicheal katemicheal 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I am a friendly and decent Indian gay man

    living in Bangalore, India. I am 30 years old and well settled in life, with a good IT job and all the comforts in life. I am quite masculine and straight acting. As it's the norm in Indian society, my parents are actively trying for getting me married. I have told them several...
    homosapien84 homosapien84 26-30, M Feb 8

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    I never reveal my affection towards a girl.

    I have strong urges to be with one but i never go for it. Its against my family and religion. I just want a girl who understands me and someone who's struggling with the same thing. I want to run away and be with a woman i can call my own. I dont want to come out. I just want to...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 15