I Am A Closet Smoker

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    I started smoke when I was 18.

    I worked at a coffee shop and everyone was smokers there so I eventually aquired the habit too. After about four years of smoking I dated a guy who hated it. he begged me to quit so because I was concerned about my health and pretty ashamed of this habit I quit for two years. I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 3

    I started smoking when I was about 16.

    And smoked regularly since until about two years ago (my husband had been CONSTANTLY badgering me to quit!). However.... My dearest friend Katie is a smoker and when we are together (And Todd is not about!) I will bum off of her (she will tease me, making me beg!)! I cannot go a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 16, 2015

    Yep, I am a smoker. Feels good to admit it.

    Most of my family smokes and knows that I do. I have a circle of friends who know about my habit. I also have a whole lot of people in my life that I desperately don't want to be be "found out." Kind of weird that I am so ashamed of it. I've smoked since I was a young girl. I've...
    Michigan12345 Michigan12345
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Jun 19, 2015

    Well, until I admitted it

    now of course! I'm fairly casual with the amount I smoke though, a pack of 20 could easily last the week, maybe even 9 days or so. Unless I'm massively stressed of course, then I tend to smoke a few a day to aid my relaxation.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 9, 2014

    Since my first post couple months ago,

    I have tried to come out of the closet. Here's how it's gone so far: 1. I started smoking before going to work, not caring if my co-workers smelled it on my clothing and hair. 2. I actually light and smoked a cigarette while walking down the street in broad daylight. 3. I let...
    SocialStigma SocialStigma
    46-50, M
    1 Response Oct 3, 2015

    Love having a cigarette in the closet.

    Only family member that smokes.
    Trex34 Trex34
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Sep 16, 2014
    alexjohnson28 alexjohnson28
    18-21, F
    Apr 21, 2015

    I qiut for all intensive purposes in 98.

    But I just love the flavor. I'd walk a mile for a camel.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 12, 2014

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