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I Am a Closeted Gay

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    I'N NOT LONGER IN THE CLOSET!

    !! :D So I spoke to my cousin quite a bit moving up to the topic finally the moment come and I told him that I'm bisexuality but mostly prefer guys there was a slight pause and he asked are you for real so of course I responded yes another pause slightly longer then the other...
    Gayguy22 Gayguy22 16-17, M 11 Responses Jul 9

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    Where I am- I'm out as gay to mostly everybody.

    The only ones who don't know are those outside of my friend group and majority of my family. I don't feel a need to chant "I'm gay" to everyone I meet. Does it matter who you like? Love is love. Just be you.
    OtakuTimeLord OtakuTimeLord 13-15, M 4 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    After almost 19 years living on this Earth,

    I came up with one conclusion: for every action there is a reaction. Being deep inside the closet makes me a real lonely person. I feel like I have all the friends in the world, but no one which knows me completely. And that just sucks...
    Alex108 Alex108 18-21, M 7 Responses May 22

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    ncuristo ncuristo 16-17, M 3 Responses Nov 15

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    Im in a boarding school

    and im in a guys house, do i tell them the triat or keep it closed??
    evilmunky23 evilmunky23 16-17, M 4 Responses Nov 19

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    Hello.

    Hello my name is Evan,I'm 18 years, I don't really know why i'm writing this. I wanna come out to my father, but i'm quite nervous about it. I feel like he's always putting the homosexual community down, And even though he may not mean too I just don't know how to go about coming...
    evan151 evan151 18-21, M 23 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    In a perfect world, I would be out

    and happier then I am now. No one would care that I was "different." Maybe I would be have a boyfriend and be able to treat him like a king and he would do the same. In a perfect world, I wouldn't be laying in bed cuddling my pillow and wishing things could be different..
    sjt49 sjt49 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 26

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    Outed At Work And Laughing About It

    Its been a little while since I've posted anything, mainly because real life was just too entertaining to pass up. As the story title said, I got outed at work about six weeks ago. It was my sales manager of all people, a man who I believed couldn't count above three without...
    InkedAmongTheSands InkedAmongTheSands 31-35, M 4 Responses Apr 16, 2013

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    I want to run away . .

    . just . . . run away and never look back. I think about doing it . . . all the time. I want to be a photographer/actor (still deciding), I want to see the world. I WANT TO LIVE.
    Rasengxn Rasengxn 16-17, M Nov 25

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    "Quiet" Silence runs like a river inside me

    and hides the darkness that stands behind me. The sun shines while darkness plays in the heart of my soul in every inconceivable way. I am lost, floating on solid unseen air. Quietness is my soul position but I can't make any life decisions. God is here but I cant see him...
    taurusboi23 taurusboi23 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 23

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    I guess that I'm becoming more

    and more comfortable with who I am. I think that people around me like coworkers and my family can tell that there is a little something different about me. I've been a little more happier and I guess prouder as well. I have finally getting to the point in my life that I don...
    brady120378 brady120378 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 28

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    I have never spoken about this anywhere

    but I am a man who is predominately attracted to men but seek a future life getting married to a woman and having children.. And it's awful. I am not out to a single person, I do not think I am "gay" but rather attracted to men more so than women. I've had sex with many...
    roecle roecle 22-25, M 6 Responses Nov 14

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    I don't know where to put my eyes.

    On the streets, whenever I see some hot guy, I look twice before looking away. It's just that tension building up from the heart to the throat, drying up. It sucks to be alone without anyone to share this to. Sexuality is not a shame. Shame.
    rowrowrowthe rowrowrowthe 22-25, M 6 Responses Jan 12

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    I'm 19 years old and I am seriously questioning

    my sexuality right now, but I think that deep down I am gay, and just don't want to admit it. I go to a college that is very LGBT friendly, but where I live is a small town that is fairly homophobic. My family is Catholic, I went to a Catholic school until high school, and my...
    Trahere Trahere 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 6

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    Yet Another Masculine Closeted Gay...

    I finally decided to post a story. It's really nothing special, I'm 21, masculine and closeted gay. I've always kind of known, but never really accepted it. Already after having sex for the first time, with a girl, I knew something was missing. I finally came to terms with it a...
    babaganoosh89 babaganoosh89 22-25, M 15 Responses Aug 14, 2011

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    I have extremely homophobic parents & family.

    I cant tell them I am gay because my dad has made his strong opinions on the subject of being gay very clear & has stated more then once if his son was gay he would throw me out. I also am an only child so he expects a lot from me. I am still a senior in high school & have no...
    SutureMyHeart SutureMyHeart 18-21, M 12 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Through all of my adolescent life I felt

    that there is nothing I can tell my parents or other relatives. The beginning of it all might be traced all the way back into my childhood. I was an overachiever and a spoiled brat with A+ grades and no duties whatsoever. One day in the third grade I got a D from a small test...
    RickMason RickMason 16-17, M 3 Responses Dec 4

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    I kind of came out to a friend last week.

    It was a great feeling to tell someone even though I haven't fully embraced it yet. I do want to see where this ends up though. I just wish there were some guys that lived in my area. If you live in Austin, Tx, message me and we could possibly hang out😜
    tirado17 tirado17 16-17, M 2 Responses Nov 27

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    Ok well this is my first post

    and I'm sorry I haven't been active on this site but I do have an experience to share. Well I'm gay (well duh) anyway I've been more certain that I was when I was twelve. Well at that age I didn't really care as much but when I got around 14 to 15 I moved in with my father. He...
    brandonkrakora7 brandonkrakora7 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 6

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    I'm a 20 year old closeted gay/bisexual male.

    I don't even know at this point whether I'm gay or bisexual. I've always found myself more sexually attracted to guys but could never imagine settling down with a guy for the rest of my life. Am I in denial? Who knows. Its 1 in the morning and I'm home from university. I've been...
    rcnb10 rcnb10 18-21, M 8 Responses Jan 4

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    mrjames1993 mrjames1993 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 15

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    finding that special guy is great.

    him not liking you back is awful
    ncuristo ncuristo 16-17, M Oct 26

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    Struggle With Myself!

    I have known that I was bi-sexual for quite a few years. It took me until recently to come to grips with that reality and actually date men. I have always been good with women, but guys were another story. I come from a very religious/spiritual family, and being gay or bi is a...
    grownbiman grownbiman 26-30, M 7 Responses Oct 28, 2012

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    Beneath this fragile frame lies a battle

    between pride and shame..
    huskysheep huskysheep 13-15, M 3 Responses Jul 25

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    I have accepted I'm gay a long time ago.

    I normally fantasize having sex with men, but I have this close girl friend at school and she likes to joke around saying she likes me and that we should have sex sometimes. She does this when we're around other close friends and it makes everyone laugh. I'd laugh at it, but in...
    imkryptonian imkryptonian 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    My Name Is X And I'M A Recovering Homophobe

    I am not a closeted gay. I was never really closeted. I was a homophobic homosexual and I may be one still. The product of a freakishly conservative, ignorant, and fearful family - God bless the Bible belt. Gays were sinful, subhuman, and deserved to die of AIDS. In retrospect, I...
    a1scat a1scat 26-30 7 Responses May 21, 2013

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    As you may have read fro my previous

    experiences I have a gf and also like to dress up as a girl. Lately I have come to realise more and more that I am really only attracted to men. Maybe this is the only place I can say it for now but I AM GAY and if anyone wants to talk I'd like that... Nick
    Nikki1988x Nikki1988x 26-30, T 2 Responses Nov 9

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    Hi everyone- so here's my situation.

    I'm in love with my best friend. At first our relationship started out as any other friendship. But as time passed by, him and I started hanging out a lot more. Well it came to the point to where I slept over at his pretty much everyday. I met al of his family and friends. We...
    erzp010 erzp010 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 13

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    No One Knows I Am Gay

    I am a 20 year old that has never told a soul about the situation I am in. I am gay and I am mortified to tell anyone. This is the first time I have said any of this. My parents divorced at a young age and I was verbally and physically beaten throughout school and at home. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    It's Never Too Late

    As a kid I was bullied every day by this one boy who didn't know how to show that he liked me. His name was Jerry. At the time, I had no idea he had a crush on me. And he was afraid because I was also a guy and he thought there was something wrong with being gay. He used to tease...
    HitchhikingProphet HitchhikingProphet 18-21, M 9 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    Gay In The Military

    I've been in the Military for about 5 years, and I've know I was gay for a lot longer than that. Its been hard being a closeted gay in the Military, and I think everyone knows how your typical "male" can be. I've been pretty good at hiding it for sometime, but i've never really...
    rickman88 rickman88 22-25 6 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    A very weird thing happened a couples of hours

    before i went home to my apartment. There was this friend (a guy, of course) who approached me. I knew him the moment i saw him coz i knew him for the last three years. Then we started chatting about school and stuffs blah blah blah. And then something unexpected happened. He...
    LooWee LooWee 18-21, M 7 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    Anyone Secretly Gay ?

    Living in a Muslim arabian society ? I feel too lonely ! I cant discuss my problem with others ! I feel like i am stuck inside a small box ! If anyone living double life ( acting like str8 ) but
    iyadraad iyadraad 18-21, T 1 Response Dec 10

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    I'm in the closet , my parents are homophobic

    and my siblings are all hateful so I have to keep it to myself. It's hard living in the closet but I try every way to meet or gay and bi guys
    OtakuKidd OtakuKidd 13-15, M 9 Responses Jul 12

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    I I'm secretly gay and Lonly looking

    for a BF in Scotland I don't speak Scottish witch is weird but I will also take eney one I am 13 if you want to chat then I can chat on ep Skype oovoo or snap chat
    MKM1232 MKM1232 13-15, M Nov 7

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    So here's a story. So last Saturday I decided

    to go to a bathhouse for some fun. I had been to this same bathhouse many times before so this wasn't new to me. Like putting on a glove. So the day starts out with me in the sauna. I'm just relax breaking a sweat when another guy gets in. This guy is just a hunter. This world...
    ran20 ran20 26-30, M 3 Responses Dec 30, 2013

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    Hi ! I actually need some advice here.

    .. It's gonna sound stupid, but... How do I act more like a straight guy ? I don't want my parents thinking I'm gay so I need to act a little different. It was still okay in the past, but now... I feel my inner gay coming out... I'm talking a little sassy and making tons of hand...
    jonho10 jonho10 13-15, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    It's the first time that I talk about it 'out

    loud'. I only talk about this by message but well I need to do it some day so...here I am! :D I'm 17 and I know it since I had around 13/14 yo, I never say it to any of my friends or family because I'm Afraid of what can happen before that... I start using EP some months ago and...
    Bral05 Bral05 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 21

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    I'm bi and here is the thing,

    I am open in my school, but no one in my family knows and not coming out...ever
    bisexuwhale bisexuwhale 13-15, M 3 Responses Oct 26

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    Falling In Love With My Straight Best Friend....

    That's right. I think I might be falling in love with my straight best friend, I know it must be a common thing for people like me, or people like us I guess I should say...but god damn does it suck... I am definitely in th closet and to the best of my knowledge no one knows that...
    slwat1st slwat1st 22-25, M 32 Responses Oct 30, 2011

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    Being in the closet is like being in dark

    for a while until u come to the light
    KillerBitch4 KillerBitch4 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 5

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    Eney one want to keep in touch

    kik/oovoo/Skype/snap chat me
    MKM1232 MKM1232 13-15, M Nov 7

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    I'm writing my personal statement

    for my college applications and I mentioned being gay. I realized that by saying that I couldn't let me parents read it and help me edit it. That made me really sad.
    GayCharlie GayCharlie 18-21, M Nov 10

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    suckmegay suckmegay 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    can't read my , can't read my,

    no they can't read my poker face.
    internallybroken internallybroken 16-17, M 4 Responses May 25

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    Hi, my name is Ruben

    and I'm 17 years old 😊. I grew up like a normal kid in a normal family 👪, with normal friends and normal stuff around me. It was when I was really young that I started to know that I was different from the other boys around my age. I didn't like the same things as they...
    rubencaldeira rubencaldeira 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 20

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    Masculine, Gay and Closeted; Though Everyone Knows and I'm Messed Up.

    I am gay and closeted to my friends. In some ways it's stupid. The people I call my friends have known me for 10+ years and there have been comments regarding my sexuality as I've never had a girlfriend or talked about girls. My response has always been: "...
    xy001 xy001 26-30, M 24 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    I just want to run away from home

    and live my life the way I want to and be with the person I know I can spend the rest of my life with and usually I'm not a romantic but I'm starting to feel like one. ugghh why am I feeling this way! I can't wait till I move out!
    Rasengxn Rasengxn 16-17, M 3 Responses Nov 11

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    No One Knows Except My Best Friend

    I am 15yrs old and in high school. My parents would so freak out if they knew I was gay. Even my friends at school would freak out. I am so afraid of telling anyone because of the negative impact and because I know lots of people can be so very cruel. My parents are devoted...
    IloveBVB IloveBVB 16-17, M 7 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    Mason1234567 Mason1234567 16-17, M 2 Responses Nov 2

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    I have a girlfriend but I really want a

    boyfriend with a big ****
    ericmann ericmann 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    Well yesterday was very unexpected.

    I had a rough night on New Years (almost got arrested) parents got a call at 4am that I was found passed out by the cops. But the parents were in Florida at the time so not much they could do. They got back last night around 5am and I knew there would be a talk in the morning...