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I Am a Closeted Gay

Please read and give advice, I want it all 2,785 People

    Beneath this fragile frame lies a battle

    between pride and shame..
    huskysheep huskysheep 13-15, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    (Warning: read my earlier post to understand

    what I'm talking about) My heart is pounding right now it's about a hour away from when I plan on face timing my cousin to come out to him I'm super nervous right now to the point that I'm starting to think of backing down I know that it is last minute nerves but I can't help it...
    Gayguy22 Gayguy22 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 8

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    I'm in the closet , my parents are homophobic

    and my siblings are all hateful so I have to keep it to myself. It's hard living in the closet but I try every way to meet or gay and bi guys
    OtakuKidd OtakuKidd 13-15, M 9 Responses Jul 12

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    An Odd Poem I Thought Of...

    If I was gay, what would you say? Would it ruin your day? would you just run the other way? I think most would be disappointed or ashamed, maybe even blame. It's something that bothers me daily, but I never tell, but I tell myself I just have to sit tight and try to be well...
    sjt49 sjt49 18-21, M 7 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I feel like the universe does not want me to

    come out... I've been trying to come out to my cousin that I'm really close to (which I talked about in my last post that was forever ago though) for the last 5 months but every time I've went to we've had stuff come up like tonight for example I was going face time so I could...
    Gayguy22 Gayguy22 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 8

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    It's Never Too Late

    As a kid I was bullied every day by this one boy who didn't know how to show that he liked me. His name was Jerry. At the time, I had no idea he had a crush on me. And he was afraid because I was also a guy and he thought there was something wrong with being gay. He used to tease...
    HitchhikingProphet HitchhikingProphet 18-21, M 9 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    I really do hate when girls say I want a gay

    best friend. We may both have the same sexual preferences but it doesn't mean I like to play with dolls or like to dress up in pretty dresses. Ok so just stop โœ‹๐Ÿ˜’
    elismith elismith 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 1

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    We did it again. For those of you

    who have been following the adventures of Jay and Corey, you know that we are two 14 year old boys who fell in love on EP, but we met up in real life. 3 weeks ago, we tricked our moms into taking us to the same mall to shop. While our moms shopped independently, Corey and I made...
    cumminatcha cumminatcha 13-15, M 11 Responses Mar 30

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    I don't really know where to begin.

    It's so uncomfortable and depressing that I'm not even sure I feel like talking about it. I grew up in a traditional Christian family where homosexuality is not only a big taboo, but pretty much condemned or at least seriously frowned upon. My family loves me very much, they...
    canttakeitin canttakeitin 22-25, M 5 Responses Jul 6

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    I was returning to home riding on my bike

    and caught in rain and as usual searching for feeling of romance with the guy I have crush on and I wondered, did I get what I was looking for? Ya I found him. I found him in the smell of air. I found him in the drops of rain. I found him in the coldness of environment. I...
    Roggerr621 Roggerr621 26-30 8 Responses Jan 24

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    People have started to get the hint

    that I might be gay, most likely to how I act. I am nervous whether I should come out and tell people or not. I am unsure whether I should tell anyone anytime soon or wait a few more weeks, or months, or years...
    DamoiseauDynavolt DamoiseauDynavolt 16-17, M 5 Responses Jul 4

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    I'm scared, I don't know what to do.

    I hide from my family and can't come out. I have a long distance relationship with a girl and she loves me, but no one knows because they think I'm straight.
    BlackPaint0000 BlackPaint0000 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    So since sixth grade I realized I had an

    attraction to males. I always thought I liked females. I mean, I had girlfriends in the past. Well, for a while I thought I was bi. That was only because I didn't want to hate myself for not liking girls. I used to be so against people that were gay, it's how I was raised. I...
    Fuerst1 Fuerst1 16-17, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm a 20 year old closeted gay/bisexual male.

    I don't even know at this point whether I'm gay or bisexual. I've always found myself more sexually attracted to guys but could never imagine settling down with a guy for the rest of my life. Am I in denial? Who knows. Its 1 in the morning and I'm home from university. I've been...
    rcnb10 rcnb10 18-21, M 9 Responses Jan 4

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    I'm 30, closeted , gay

    and a religious Jew or so I thought I was. My journey has been intense! I've dated women for years while denying what my urges are really leaning towards....after years of cruising, bathhouses, gay **** and apps...it dawned on me last week that it's time to get real and honest...
    lion84 lion84 26-30, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I don't even have anybody woth telling at the

    moment. My friends are all haters and my parents think being gay is wrong on religious grounds and will disown me when I tell them.
    marcusru marcusru 16-17, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'N NOT LONGER IN THE CLOSET!

    !! :D So I spoke to my cousin quite a bit moving up to the topic finally the moment come and I told him that I'm bisexuality but mostly prefer guys there was a slight pause and he asked are you for real so of course I responded yes another pause slightly longer then the other...
    Gayguy22 Gayguy22 16-17, M 10 Responses Jul 9

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    I finally met my EP boyfriend in real life.

    I'm Jay, and I'm in love with Corey. We are both 14. We met here on EP, but we only live an hour apart. Neither of us have told our parents that we're gay, so at first, our proximity seemed to be irrelevant. Then we hatched a plan. We both asked our mothers to take us to the...
    cumminatcha cumminatcha 13-15, M 10 Responses Mar 9

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    Yet Another Masculine Closeted Gay...

    I finally decided to post a story. It's really nothing special, I'm 21, masculine and closeted gay. I've always kind of known, but never really accepted it. Already after having sex for the first time, with a girl, I knew something was missing. I finally came to terms with it a...
    babaganoosh89 babaganoosh89 22-25, M 14 Responses Aug 14, 2011

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    Hi, my name is Ruben

    and I'm 17 years old ๐Ÿ˜Š. I grew up like a normal kid in a normal family ๐Ÿ‘ช, with normal friends and normal stuff around me. It was when I was really young that I started to know that I was different from the other boys around my age. I didn't like the same things as they...
    rubencaldeira rubencaldeira 18-21, M 6 Responses Jan 20

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    I was growing in a traditional Chinese family

    and I'm the only child. My parents want me to get married and have babies.
    lxtsw lxtsw 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 14

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    I'm 19 years old and I am seriously questioning

    my sexuality right now, but I think that deep down I am gay, and just don't want to admit it. I go to a college that is very LGBT friendly, but where I live is a small town that is fairly homophobic. My family is Catholic, I went to a Catholic school until high school, and my...
    Trahere Trahere 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 6

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    Falling In Love With My Straight Best Friend....

    That's right. I think I might be falling in love with my straight best friend, I know it must be a common thing for people like me, or people like us I guess I should say...but god damn does it suck... I am definitely in th closet and to the best of my knowledge no one knows that...
    slwat1st slwat1st 22-25, M 25 Responses Oct 30, 2011

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    Prom is not going to be fun

    for me. I can't go with the person I want to go with...that truth bothers me and makes me just feel ugh
    cr1sn cr1sn 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    No One Knows I Am Gay

    I am a 20 year old that has never told a soul about the situation I am in. I am gay and I am mortified to tell anyone. This is the first time I have said any of this. My parents divorced at a young age and I was verbally and physically beaten throughout school and at home. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    I'm sick of hot straight men

    who are cocky enough to think they can tease massesโ€” women and men alike. When I say tease, I mean show off their supper hot bodies and faces and emphasises the fact that we will never have them, especially the gay men. Because there is this feeling of assurance and...
    RealitysDesire RealitysDesire 16-17, M a week ago

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    Ok well this is my first post

    and I'm sorry I haven't been active on this site but I do have an experience to share. Well I'm gay (well duh) anyway I've been more certain that I was when I was twelve. Well at that age I didn't really care as much but when I got around 14 to 15 I moved in with my father. He...
    brandonkrakora7 brandonkrakora7 16-17, M 3 Responses Mar 6

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    There is simply no one in this world

    that does not have any complication in their life. Everyone has their own problem and they are handling as much they can. Although there are so many way to solve their problems, every way has its consequences. Sometimes itโ€™s really hard for someone to choose which one is the...
    Akashamarnam Akashamarnam 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Struggle With Myself!

    I have known that I was bi-sexual for quite a few years. It took me until recently to come to grips with that reality and actually date men. I have always been good with women, but guys were another story. I come from a very religious/spiritual family, and being gay or bi is a...
    grownbiman grownbiman 26-30, M 7 Responses Oct 28, 2012

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    No One Knows Except My Best Friend

    I am 15yrs old and in high school. My parents would so freak out if they knew I was gay. Even my friends at school would freak out. I am so afraid of telling anyone because of the negative impact and because I know lots of people can be so very cruel. My parents are devoted...
    IloveBVB IloveBVB 16-17, M 6 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    Hello.

    Hello my name is Evan,I'm 18 years, I don't really know why i'm writing this. I wanna come out to my father, but i'm quite nervous about it. I feel like he's always putting the homosexual community down, And even though he may not mean too I just don't know how to go about coming...
    evan151 evan151 18-21, M 23 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    I don't know where to put my eyes.

    On the streets, whenever I see some hot guy, I look twice before looking away. It's just that tension building up from the heart to the throat, drying up. It sucks to be alone without anyone to share this to. Sexuality is not a shame. Shame.
    rowrowrowthe rowrowrowthe 22-25, M 6 Responses Jan 12

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    Shyloveman Shyloveman 22-25, M 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    I just can't believe

    that at 35 I'm still in the closet. How much more numb can my limbs be from being squeezed into this area? Just one person knows that I am gay, or I should say I came out to them and that is my best friend. She said that she was so proud of me and would stand behind me 100...
    brady120378 brady120378 31-35, M 6 Responses Jul 2

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    Gay In The Military

    I've been in the Military for about 5 years, and I've know I was gay for a lot longer than that. Its been hard being a closeted gay in the Military, and I think everyone knows how your typical "male" can be. I've been pretty good at hiding it for sometime, but i've never really...
    rickman88 rickman88 22-25 6 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    I have been in the closet

    for all of my life (which is probably 48 years). Just after I discovered the joy of ************ I had my first mutual ************ session with a friend - although we never jerked each other off. At about age 14, my friend Steven and I started ************ each other which I...
    wantonwanker wantonwanker 61-65, M 3 Responses Jul 4

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    Today is my birthday.

    .. Yey... Im nineteen now... OMG i haven't received any gifts yet
    Baloyloy Baloyloy 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 10

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    Hello, I am a closeted gay guy,

    from Nigeria. It's really lonely and dark in here but I fear that if I come out, I might get killed by the greatly populated homophobes in my country. It's really dangerous and everyday is a risk for me because I am surrounded by them: by friends and my family. I just need...
    amosswaye amosswaye 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 2

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    I've never actually said this aloud

    or wrote this down, so this feels really weird. but here it goes: I am gay. I've known since first grade, but the midwest isn't that proactive when it comes to that stuff. It isn't mean about homosexuality, but it just does not talk about it. Well I am a junior in High school, a...
    zdales98 zdales98 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 11

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    My Name Is X And I'M A Recovering Homophobe

    I am not a closeted gay. I was never really closeted. I was a homophobic homosexual and I may be one still. The product of a freakishly conservative, ignorant, and fearful family - God bless the Bible belt. Gays were sinful, subhuman, and deserved to die of AIDS. In retrospect, I...
    a1scat a1scat 26-30 7 Responses May 21, 2013

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    My God.. There is this cute guy

    who came over at our house just after lunch.. We are alone now and he is sitting right beside me. I am playing with my iPad while he is surfing the net through his phone.. I am gonna explode!!!
    Baloyloy Baloyloy 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    It's hard to make the choice to be what

    everyone else wants you to be or just be who you are and really be happy. I think I've become comfortable with people liking everything else about me that I become afraid that if I expose the fact that I am gay I will lose that genuine connection. But I guess one day I will...
    simplycomplex82 simplycomplex82 31-35, M 2 Responses Jul 20

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    Well yesterday was very unexpected.

    I had a rough night on New Years (almost got arrested) parents got a call at 4am that I was found passed out by the cops. But the parents were in Florida at the time so not much they could do. They got back last night around 5am and I knew there would be a talk in the morning...
    KY2LAX KY2LAX 22-25, M 7 Responses Jan 6

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    Outed At Work And Laughing About It

    Its been a little while since I've posted anything, mainly because real life was just too entertaining to pass up. As the story title said, I got outed at work about six weeks ago. It was my sales manager of all people, a man who I believed couldn't count above three without...
    InkedAmongTheSands InkedAmongTheSands 31-35, M 4 Responses Apr 16, 2013

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    can't read my , can't read my,

    no they can't read my poker face.
    internallybroken internallybroken 13-15, M 3 Responses May 25

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    I have had wondering a about

    if I was different since I was very young, but was always more attracted to women. When I say attracted, it was a deep attraction. I met my wife when I was 18 and we married when I was 20. We have a 16 year old and been married 20 years. I love my wife and have always wanted to...
    tyrantsparky tyrantsparky 36-40, M 4 Responses Jul 20

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    Closeted Gay Male. I Hate My Life

    I am a 21 year old closeted gay male and nobody knows about my situation. Though being gay, I still walk, talk, look and act just like any straight guy you see out there, probably even more masculine than most. Except my sexual attraction is with the same sex. I'm a straight man...
    royalflush408 royalflush408 18-21, M 132 Responses Nov 29, 2009

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    COMING OUT - A Story by Jay.

    Hello, everyone. It's Jay from the "Jay and Corey Show." For those of you who have been around EP for a while, you probably know us. For those of you who are new, read some of our original posts. They will explain our back story in more detail. We are two recently turned 15...
    cumminatcha cumminatcha 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 20

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    Idk What To Do I'm Gay And No One Knows And I

    Really Want To Tell Them But I'm Worried How They Will React What Should I Do?
    SexieNiqqa SexieNiqqa 13-15, M 3 Responses Jul 10

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    So here's a story. So last Saturday I decided

    to go to a bathhouse for some fun. I had been to this same bathhouse many times before so this wasn't new to me. Like putting on a glove. So the day starts out with me in the sauna. I'm just relax breaking a sweat when another guy gets in. This guy is just a hunter. This world...
    ran20 ran20 26-30, M 3 Responses Dec 30, 2013

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    I am not a closeted gay

    but my 24 year old son is. He came out to his father and I (we are divorced) almost five years ago. But that's as far as it's gone. He got complete love and acceptance from both us but he can't seem to move forward. Rather than telling friends he pushes them all away. He leads a...
    Elle612927 Elle612927 51-55, F 6 Responses Jul 20

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    Well I just turned 19

    and still haven't come out as gay, I was active in sports in high school and thought it was best I didn't , I would have felt very uncomfortable in the locker rooms, with people knowing I'm gay. Anyway I always thought I was bi-sexual, but when it comes to sexual attraction...
    Robrb Robrb 18-21, M 8 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    Masculine, Gay and Closeted; Though Everyone Knows and I'm Messed Up.

    I am gay and closeted to my friends. In some ways it's stupid. The people I call my friends have known me for 10+ years and there have been comments regarding my sexuality as I've never had a girlfriend or talked about girls. My response has always been: "...
    xy001 xy001 26-30, M 18 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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