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I Am a Closeted Gay

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    I'm a 20 year old closeted gay/bisexual male.

    I don't even know at this point whether I'm gay or bisexual. I've always found myself more sexually attracted to guys but could never imagine settling down with a guy for the rest of my life. Am I in denial? Who knows. Its 1 in the morning and I'm home from university. I've been...
    rcnb10 rcnb10 22-25, M 8 Responses Jan 4, 2014

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    I'm 29 yrs closeted gay from Delhi .

    Cute , well educated ,well established with good upbringing . Looking for moc with a lesbian or bi gal. U can text me or mail me at mayukh98715@gmail.com
    mayukh98715 mayukh98715 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 15

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    I wouldn't say I'm a "Closeted gay.

    " I'm just curious I guess. Like, I do have a girlfriend, but I've messed about with other lads in the past, and wouldn't rule it out in the future. I wouldn't label myself anything except "Interested" lol. Which I think is a good way to be, you live once, have fun, be open...
    WhatsUpLads WhatsUpLads 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 9, 2015

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    Hello.

    Hello my name is Evan,I'm 18 years, I don't really know why i'm writing this. I wanna come out to my father, but i'm quite nervous about it. I feel like he's always putting the homosexual community down, And even though he may not mean too I just don't know how to go about coming...
    evan151 evan151 18-21, M 24 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    awkward when your mates are asking you

    if you think the girl that just walked past was fit, when in my head I have no interest and just say yeah so they'll shut up.
    CookmySock CookmySock 18-21, M 8 Responses Feb 25, 2015

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    I'm in the closet , my parents are homophobic

    and my siblings are all hateful so I have to keep it to myself. It's hard living in the closet but I try every way to meet or gay and bi guys
    OtakuKidd OtakuKidd 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    Whats up guys....and girls.

    so I was talking to a guy on here who said that I should share the experiences I've had with guys, as it may be able to help encourage some guys to embrace their sexuality, or give them a boost in confidence. I started using Grindr 2 yeas ago, and yes...I'm 20..but I've had...
    HeyHey20 HeyHey20 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 2

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    I can't seem to find a way out.

    It's dark in here snd it seems like there's only room in here for me. But I don't want to be in the closet any more. It's confined me for too long. I want to break down the door and bring my favorite scarf with me. All I want is to be free. Can anyone give me some advice? I...
    TakumiSilentpaw TakumiSilentpaw 46-50, T 2 Responses Jan 6

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    It's been frustrating.

    It seems like it's tell Everyone you're gay (which I have no plans on doing) or stay alone. I knew this would be tough from the start but I hope to see a turning point in this journey eventually.
    thisissamwut thisissamwut 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 14, 2015

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    Hey everyone.. I'm new here,

    found out a about this place a while ago and it looks like fun and comfortable. I came out to myself 2 years ago. I also came out to a few close friends but we don't really see each other very often anymore. I ended my last relationship around 6 months ago.. My ex was going...
    andante131 andante131 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Is there anyone on here that's closeted,

    lives in the Southeast U.S.A., and has religious and conservative homophobic parents and family?
    GCassr22 GCassr22 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 30, 2015

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    Falling In Love With My Straight Best Friend....

    That's right. I think I might be falling in love with my straight best friend, I know it must be a common thing for people like me, or people like us I guess I should say...but god damn does it suck... I am definitely in th closet and to the best of my knowledge no one knows that...
    slwat1st slwat1st 22-25, M 36 Responses Oct 30, 2011

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    The other day my mom told me: "Don't bring home

    a 'Barbie'." I thought about saying: "What about a 'Ken'?", but decided that probably wasn't the best idea. Lol.
    GCassr22 GCassr22 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 15

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    I have told very few people

    since my youth that I felt I was gay. I had many experiences with men and friends as a youth, but went off to college, got married and raised two wonderful children acting "straight." Now that they are off to college and although I truly love my wife I have decided it is...
    JeffTn2 JeffTn2 46-50, M 4 Responses Jan 9

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    I wrote this poem as a release

    for myself, but if it can help just one person on here, I'd be happy. This just came to me at 3am in the morning waking me out of my sleep. I hope everyone enjoys it. I've only let a select few read it, I'm pretty apprehensive when it comes to my poetry. A Question of Love...
    brady120378 brady120378 36-40, M 7 Responses Jul 30, 2014

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    It's so hard trying to tell people I'm gay

    because I always think they won't accept me for who I am!
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jan 2

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    anonymouse1997 anonymouse1997 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 12, 2015

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    I just told someone. After 3 years of being sure

    and more of being confused before that, I just told the first person that I am gay. It was possibly the most terrifying thing I've ever done. I texted a friend I've known for years at midnight and asked if we could talk at some point, but he got really worried and said he'd meet...
    Andy12798 Andy12798 16-17, M 3 Responses Nov 14, 2015

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    Well not anymore I came out to my three sons

    last weekend and there reaction was very understanding and adult like. I was so pleased each of them hugged and kissed me and told me it was ok and that they had suspected anyway. I love my sons more and more they are real good boys. But they now tease me about it and to be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jul 14, 2015

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    I have extremely homophobic parents & family.

    I cant tell them I am gay because my dad has made his strong opinions on the subject of being gay very clear & has stated more then once if his son was gay he would throw me out. I also am an only child so he expects a lot from me. I am still a senior in high school & have no...
    SutureMyHeart SutureMyHeart 22-25, M 11 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Hey everyone just wanted to post

    and see where it goes, I'm a closeted bi male looking for a MOC with a female between the ages of 23-29! If older that's ok too I'm a good educated guy loving guy African American who eventually would like to have kids as well. If anyone is interested please feel free to contact...
    nashville88 nashville88 26-30, M Dec 5, 2015

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    Hello everybody! I'm Christian.

    I'm gay. Looking for friends. In amour I do not believe( maybe I'm wrong. I will be glad to new acquaintances. life is Beautiful....
    Christian16Cartier Christian16Cartier 16-17, M 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    i find myself watching a lot of pr0n,

    and having fantasies when i see hot guys on the street. and these days i keep thinking how great it would be to be in some kind of relationship. pretty messed up i know. currently living with parents so i don't wanna rock the boat.
    bender898989 bender898989 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    Closeted Gay Male. I Hate My Life

    I am a 21 year old closeted gay male and nobody knows about my situation. Though being gay, I still walk, talk, look and act just like any straight guy you see out there, probably even more masculine than most. Except my sexual attraction is with the same sex. I'm a straight man...
    royalflush408 royalflush408 18-21, M 159 Responses Nov 29, 2009

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    It's Never Too Late

    As a kid I was bullied every day by this one boy who didn't know how to show that he liked me. His name was Jerry. At the time, I had no idea he had a crush on me. And he was afraid because I was also a guy and he thought there was something wrong with being gay. He used to tease...
    HitchhikingProphet HitchhikingProphet 18-21, M 9 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    I'N NOT LONGER IN THE CLOSET!

    !! :D So I spoke to my cousin quite a bit moving up to the topic finally the moment come and I told him that I'm bisexuality but mostly prefer guys there was a slight pause and he asked are you for real so of course I responded yes another pause slightly longer then the other...
    Gayguy22 Gayguy22 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    What's up guys, I'm new on this site,

    found it while looking some stuff up. Basically at the moment I have a lot of questions that I need answers to, I don't want to write it all out on here, because the story might get deleted lol. So if you'd like to maybe answer some of them, message me, or leave a like and i'll...
    HeyHey20 HeyHey20 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2015

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    I want someone to talk

    and give love , my name is Leo and I'm 16
    WWBTD WWBTD 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 28, 2015

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    One of a kind closeted gay man looking

    for his soul mate, a closeted lesbian. 100% discreet and 100% masculine. I am handsome, physically fit, athletic, genuine, outgoing, career oriented. I am 5,11 tall, 170 lbs, dark brown hair with green eyes. I am Caucasian, Italian background and was born and raised in NY...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc 41-45, M 13 hrs ago

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    Always knew i was gay

    since I was young but hide it from everyone dated women even got married because that was supposed to do
    dnd95 dnd95 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 18, 2015

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    I'm gay/bi and I can't do this anymore.

    Most of my family is religious and very conservative and homophobic. I just had a conflict with my parents this morning over my dad sprinkling water on me to wake me up. From how that went down I'm feeling they would probably kick me out and/or disown if I ever told them. So...
    GCassr22 GCassr22 18-21, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    It's the first time that I talk about it 'out

    loud'. I only talk about this by message but well I need to do it some day so...here I am! :D I'm 17 and I know it since I had around 13/14 yo, I never say it to any of my friends or family because I'm Afraid of what can happen before that... I start using EP some months ago and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    Hi, my name is Ruben

    and I'm 17 years old 😊. I grew up like a normal kid in a normal family 👪, with normal friends and normal stuff around me. It was when I was really young that I started to know that I was different from the other boys around my age. I didn't like the same things as they...
    rubencaldeira rubencaldeira 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 20, 2014

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    So.. I'm a 24 year old guy.

    I like men but I'm not out to my family and closest friends and I prefer to live this way, because, despite I'm predominantly attracted to men, I've realized I don't really fit in the common gay world, I don't see myself having lots of openly gay friends, going to gay clubs, gay...
    inspiratie inspiratie 22-25, M 8 Responses Jul 9, 2015

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    carlburns carlburns 16-17, M Dec 13, 2015

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    Love is unpredictable!

    I don't know what is happening with me. Again I met boy here. You are amazing. He Is interesting me. We have a lot in common with him. He, as well as I loves to read, surfing. He is older than me, but I think, it's not scary. We are from different countries( this is bad. He...
    Christian16Cartier Christian16Cartier 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My Name Is X And I'M A Recovering Homophobe

    I am not a closeted gay. I was never really closeted. I was a homophobic homosexual and I may be one still. The product of a freakishly conservative, ignorant, and fearful family - God bless the Bible belt. Gays were sinful, subhuman, and deserved to die of AIDS. In retrospect, I...
    a1scat a1scat 31-35 8 Responses May 21, 2013

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    soxman97 soxman97 18-21, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    So here's a story. So last Saturday I decided

    to go to a bathhouse for some fun. I had been to this same bathhouse many times before so this wasn't new to me. Like putting on a glove. So the day starts out with me in the sauna. I'm just relax breaking a sweat when another guy gets in. This guy is just a hunter. This world...
    ran20 ran20 26-30, M 3 Responses Dec 30, 2013

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    queerme queerme 51-55, M Jan 10

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    Falling in love is easy,

    when a hookup with him turned into something more for me. Three times in the last three years. He hasn't changed, but I have changed. Falling in love is easy, falling out is not. I have to tell myself I don't care. But I know that's a lie. I look at Facebook and see that he...
    ReclaimerSierra117 ReclaimerSierra117 18-21, M Nov 28, 2015

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    I'm 17 in high school & I've came out to my

    family but they act lik I never did. At school I'm not out cuz too many ppl no me & I feel I could lose friends. Does this ever get easier.
    kenny305 kenny305 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    Ok well this is my first post

    and I'm sorry I haven't been active on this site but I do have an experience to share. Well I'm gay (well duh) anyway I've been more certain that I was when I was twelve. Well at that age I didn't really care as much but when I got around 14 to 15 I moved in with my father. He...
    brandonkrakora7 brandonkrakora7 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

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    Gay In The Military

    I've been in the Military for about 5 years, and I've know I was gay for a lot longer than that. Its been hard being a closeted gay in the Military, and I think everyone knows how your typical "male" can be. I've been pretty good at hiding it for sometime, but i've never really...
    rickman88 rickman88 22-25 6 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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