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I Am a Closeted Gay

Please read and give advice, I want it all 3,374 People

    Masculine, Gay and Closeted; Though Everyone Knows and I'm Messed Up.

    I am gay and closeted to my friends. In some ways it's stupid. The people I call my friends have known me for 10+ years and there have been comments regarding my sexuality as I've never had a girlfriend or talked about girls. My response has always been: "...
    xy001 xy001 26-30, M 23 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Beneath this fragile frame lies a battle

    between pride and shame..
    huskysheep huskysheep 13-15, M 3 Responses Jul 25, 2014

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    I want to find someone

    who is older than me to date so i can move out with them. By the way im only 15. But im also looking for someone who cares about themselves & the person their dating.
    Davidthree Davidthree 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    So I'm new here so I don't really know how this

    works...So here goes nothing! I live in a very religious country run by delusional Islam fanatics (not gonna mention the name of my country because I don't want to get in trouble) and in my country being gay is against the law and you will be stoned to death if you are caught...
    Monst3rInTheClos3t Monst3rInTheClos3t 16-17, M 3 Responses Jan 10

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    Falling In Love With My Straight Best Friend....

    That's right. I think I might be falling in love with my straight best friend, I know it must be a common thing for people like me, or people like us I guess I should say...but god damn does it suck... I am definitely in th closet and to the best of my knowledge no one knows that...
    slwat1st slwat1st 22-25, M 34 Responses Oct 30, 2011

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    can't read my , can't read my,

    no they can't read my poker face.
    internallybroken internallybroken 16-17, M 3 Responses May 25, 2014

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    I don't know where to put my eyes.

    On the streets, whenever I see some hot guy, I look twice before looking away. It's just that tension building up from the heart to the throat, drying up. It sucks to be alone without anyone to share this to. Sexuality is not a shame. Shame.
    rowrowrowthe rowrowrowthe 22-25, M 6 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I feel like one hand has the key to open the

    closet door and is ready to use it, while the other hand is holding that arm back and gripping tighter every time it resists. Am I ready? Is it too early? Why have I waited this long? Should I wait longer? It's a constant conflict.
    sophomorefreakshow sophomorefreakshow 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    My best friend came home.

    We were home alone and we started tickling but moved to shirtless-wrestling which ended in shirtless hugging, massaging and cuddling and playful neck biting. Then I put my shirt on and he asked me for another while so I took it off and went once again to cuddling. Do you...
    monaxi monaxi 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    Well yesterday was very unexpected.

    I had a rough night on New Years (almost got arrested) parents got a call at 4am that I was found passed out by the cops. But the parents were in Florida at the time so not much they could do. They got back last night around 5am and I knew there would be a talk in the morning...
    KY2LAX KY2LAX 22-25, M 7 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I'm 19 years old and I am seriously questioning

    my sexuality right now, but I think that deep down I am gay, and just don't want to admit it. I go to a college that is very LGBT friendly, but where I live is a small town that is fairly homophobic. My family is Catholic, I went to a Catholic school until high school, and my...
    Trahere Trahere 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I'N NOT LONGER IN THE CLOSET!

    !! :D So I spoke to my cousin quite a bit moving up to the topic finally the moment come and I told him that I'm bisexuality but mostly prefer guys there was a slight pause and he asked are you for real so of course I responded yes another pause slightly longer then the other...
    Gayguy22 Gayguy22 16-17, M 11 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    Where I am- I'm out as gay to mostly everybody.

    The only ones who don't know are those outside of my friend group and majority of my family. I don't feel a need to chant "I'm gay" to everyone I meet. Does it matter who you like? Love is love. Just be you.
    OtakuTimeLord OtakuTimeLord 13-15, M 4 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    Closeted Gay Male. I Hate My Life

    I am a 21 year old closeted gay male and nobody knows about my situation. Though being gay, I still walk, talk, look and act just like any straight guy you see out there, probably even more masculine than most. Except my sexual attraction is with the same sex. I'm a straight man...
    royalflush408 royalflush408 18-21, M 136 Responses Nov 29, 2009

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    Struggle With Myself!

    I have known that I was bi-sexual for quite a few years. It took me until recently to come to grips with that reality and actually date men. I have always been good with women, but guys were another story. I come from a very religious/spiritual family, and being gay or bi is a...
    grownbiman grownbiman 26-30, M 7 Responses Oct 28, 2012

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    unicorns345 unicorns345 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I wrote this poem as a release

    for myself, but if it can help just one person on here, I'd be happy. This just came to me at 3am in the morning waking me out of my sleep. I hope everyone enjoys it. I've only let a select few read it, I'm pretty apprehensive when it comes to my poetry. A Question of Love...
    brady120378 brady120378 36-40, M 8 Responses Jul 30, 2014

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    suckmegay suckmegay 16-17, M Dec 18, 2014

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    The the love I am receiving from loved ones

    could be temporary love because many of them hate gays and lesbians even my parents :-( thats why i have not told them any thing yet because i dont what to be loved lessed
    JamOnly JamOnly 13-15, M 5 Responses Jan 7

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    Hi ! I actually need some advice here.

    .. It's gonna sound stupid, but... How do I act more like a straight guy ? I don't want my parents thinking I'm gay so I need to act a little different. It was still okay in the past, but now... I feel my inner gay coming out... I'm talking a little sassy and making tons of hand...
    jonho10 jonho10 13-15, M 5 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    But not anymore I came out

    and told my parents, I thought that they were going to disown me, instead we had a very long talk about it and they said that they always known that I was gay, they still love me and support me.
    plastickid plastickid 13-15, M 5 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    I am pretty openly gay

    when I meet someone new cause I go to school out of state but I'm in the closet with my family. I don't even plan on telling them anytime soon.
    michel513 michel513 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 9

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    After almost 19 years living on this Earth,

    I came up with one conclusion: for every action there is a reaction. Being deep inside the closet makes me a real lonely person. I feel like I have all the friends in the world, but no one which knows me completely. And that just sucks...
    Alex108 Alex108 18-21, M 7 Responses May 22, 2014

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    I'm a 20 year old closeted gay/bisexual male.

    I don't even know at this point whether I'm gay or bisexual. I've always found myself more sexually attracted to guys but could never imagine settling down with a guy for the rest of my life. Am I in denial? Who knows. Its 1 in the morning and I'm home from university. I've been...
    rcnb10 rcnb10 18-21, M 8 Responses Jan 4, 2014

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    Ok well this is my first post

    and I'm sorry I haven't been active on this site but I do have an experience to share. Well I'm gay (well duh) anyway I've been more certain that I was when I was twelve. Well at that age I didn't really care as much but when I got around 14 to 15 I moved in with my father. He...
    brandonkrakora7 brandonkrakora7 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

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    I met 2 guys lastnight,

    I kissed one of them, the other one was Blonde and said he was straight and even got angry when I touched his ***... And then later everyone left and we had to sleep in the same bed and the Blonde one kissed me and we had sex, I was the TOP, and he said it was his first time...
    TheBelovedMan TheBelovedMan 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    I'm gay obviously and I still in the closet

    because I am afraid of my parents and their strict anti-gay lifestyle :3 ...
    aldogarza84 aldogarza84 16-17, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    It's the first time that I talk about it 'out

    loud'. I only talk about this by message but well I need to do it some day so...here I am! :D I'm 17 and I know it since I had around 13/14 yo, I never say it to any of my friends or family because I'm Afraid of what can happen before that... I start using EP some months ago and...
    Bral05 Bral05 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    No One Knows Except My Best Friend

    I am 15yrs old and in high school. My parents would so freak out if they knew I was gay. Even my friends at school would freak out. I am so afraid of telling anyone because of the negative impact and because I know lots of people can be so very cruel. My parents are devoted...
    IloveBVB IloveBVB 16-17, M 7 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    so... Im quite camp anyway

    and I think my friends have guessed I'm gay, and I'm almost ready to come out to the person I have been worried about the most... my dad. basically in the next 2 weeks I am aiming to come out to him, I feel ready, and I'm ready to start living. wish me luck people XD
    happygolfer97 happygolfer97 16-17, M 8 Responses Jan 10

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    It's Never Too Late

    As a kid I was bullied every day by this one boy who didn't know how to show that he liked me. His name was Jerry. At the time, I had no idea he had a crush on me. And he was afraid because I was also a guy and he thought there was something wrong with being gay. He used to tease...
    HitchhikingProphet HitchhikingProphet 18-21, M 9 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    Looking for moc. For more details see my

    profile please. thanks!!
    studgr8 studgr8 26-30, M Dec 28, 2014

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    suckmegay suckmegay 16-17, M Dec 27, 2014

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    I want a daddy that will duck me hard

    and go balls deep in my tight virginia ***. 14-50 age. I want fun love story and fantasies and pictures.
    ladykiller907 ladykiller907 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 4

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    Gay kiik- suck_it_baby_ Looking

    for some fun too Snap chat too just ask 15+
    suckmegay suckmegay 16-17, M Jan 1

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    Not closeted anymore.

    . Haha YESSS!
    EvanTheWeatherKid EvanTheWeatherKid 13-15, M 6 Responses Jan 3

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    Hello.

    Hello my name is Evan,I'm 18 years, I don't really know why i'm writing this. I wanna come out to my father, but i'm quite nervous about it. I feel like he's always putting the homosexual community down, And even though he may not mean too I just don't know how to go about coming...
    evan151 evan151 18-21, M 23 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    I have extremely homophobic parents & family.

    I cant tell them I am gay because my dad has made his strong opinions on the subject of being gay very clear & has stated more then once if his son was gay he would throw me out. I also am an only child so he expects a lot from me. I am still a senior in high school & have no...
    SutureMyHeart SutureMyHeart 18-21, M 12 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    I am fully gay, always have been.

    I am 60 years old, living alone, with a family I am still scared of, homophobic friends. The one guy that knows I am, I can't talk to. He is a big kid and has sex on his mind even more than I do. So I talk to my EP experiences and reply to those of you who are piqued by what I...
    Scott1954 Scott1954 56-60, M 1 Response Jan 14

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    Can't add photos coz I'm a bit afraid someone

    knows me here personally. Haha. But I am willing to trade DECENT photos to my friends here. ๐Ÿ˜Š . I'm serious. Haha
    LooWee LooWee 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    Hi Pakistani British muslim guy

    who is quite cultured and also know how to have a good time live in the Midlands and hopefully looking for preferably a lesbian muslim to marry for family sake message and see what it leads to thanks
    Pakman786 Pakman786 18-21 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Well,i really can't decide it.

    So,if you don't have certain about your orientation,you really need to have an experience with some person of the same gender? I feel attracted for other girls since i was a child,but then it stopped and i felt attraction for boys. In 2013 something "strange" happened: i was...
    TRextasy TRextasy 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I am from Cebu City, Philippines.

    Still closeted. Only came out to two of my friends.
    LooWee LooWee 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    A very weird thing happened a couples of hours

    before i went home to my apartment. There was this friend (a guy, of course) who approached me. I knew him the moment i saw him coz i knew him for the last three years. Then we started chatting about school and stuffs blah blah blah. And then something unexpected happened. He...
    LooWee LooWee 18-21, M 7 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    I am James and I'm 14

    and gay! I'm looking for a bf who is white and who is 11-17! It would be better if you live in the UK but if you don't it's fine! I will be loyal, caring, supportive, loving and will always cherish you! I want a boyfriend who loves me and let's me know that he loves me because I...
    james3950 james3950 13-15, M Jan 15

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    Hi, my name is Ruben

    and I'm 17 years old ๐Ÿ˜Š. I grew up like a normal kid in a normal family ๐Ÿ‘ช, with normal friends and normal stuff around me. It was when I was really young that I started to know that I was different from the other boys around my age. I didn't like the same things as they...
    rubencaldeira rubencaldeira 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 20, 2014

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    This is the first time I've ever done this.

    I noticed my affinity towards men and women when I was young. I was adopted at the age of two and I remember around five or six really loving my adoptive mother...like becoming REALLY attached to her. It was weird. I would get jealous of her and my dad if they kissed or showed...
    busydreaming busydreaming 26-30, F Jan 10

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    I am not closet gay, i am gay declรกrate

    but uf you want to speak about my experience, and you know how do you feel and this things i am open about that, i am intersting in this situation and also if its possible to help you its better for me... Dont feel shy write me!!!!
    aspicchef aspicchef 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    I have been experiencing temporary love from my

    family and loved ones because they act like a people lesbian people and transgender people at Aliens and to be honest **** them I honestly don't care what they think about me because if my mommy wants to this own me that's up to God & her and the same goes for my father
    1LifeNlove 1LifeNlove 13-15, M Jan 14

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    I'm not fully sure I'm gay

    but I like guys only and feel lik it's a super sensitive subject and I get discouraged about being gay easily I told two people and I'm going to come out this year 2015 is the year
    anthonyslay anthonyslay 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    My Name Is X And I'M A Recovering Homophobe

    I am not a closeted gay. I was never really closeted. I was a homophobic homosexual and I may be one still. The product of a freakishly conservative, ignorant, and fearful family - God bless the Bible belt. Gays were sinful, subhuman, and deserved to die of AIDS. In retrospect, I...
    a1scat a1scat 26-30 7 Responses May 21, 2013

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