I Am a Closeted Gay

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    My Name Is X And I'M A Recovering Homophobe

    I am not a closeted gay. I was never really closeted. I was a homophobic homosexual and I may be one still. The product of a freakishly conservative, ignorant, and fearful family - God bless the Bible belt. Gays were sinful, subhuman, and deserved to die of AIDS. In retrospect, I...
    a1scat a1scat
    9 Responses May 21, 2013

    Outed At Work And Laughing About It

    Its been a little while since I've posted anything, mainly because real life was just too entertaining to pass up. As the story title said, I got outed at work about six weeks ago. It was my sales manager of all people, a man who I believed couldn't count above three without...
    InkedAmongTheSands InkedAmongTheSands
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Apr 16, 2013

    I'm 29 yrs closeted gay from Delhi .

    Cute , well educated ,well established with good upbringing . Looking for moc with a lesbian or bi gal. U can text me or mail me at mayukh98715@gmail.com
    mayukh98715 mayukh98715
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 15, 2016

    I have extremely homophobic parents & family.

    I cant tell them I am gay because my dad has made his strong opinions on the subject of being gay very clear & has stated more then once if his son was gay he would throw me out. I also am an only child so he expects a lot from me. I am still a senior in high school & have no...
    SutureMyHeart SutureMyHeart
    22-25, M
    11 Responses Dec 22, 2013


    Hello my name is Evan,I'm 18 years, I don't really know why i'm writing this. I wanna come out to my father, but i'm quite nervous about it. I feel like he's always putting the homosexual community down, And even though he may not mean too I just don't know how to go about coming...
    evan151 evan151
    22-25, M
    22 Responses Jan 27, 2013

    Okay, so I've been trying to tell my story

    for many times and i often delete what I write. Im a closeted gay, 21, 183 meters, currently in the gym and still a college student with good grades. Im very masculine (no offence to any feminines) and a of my friends are straight guys. Everyone thinks that im the perfect guy...
    jay21xx jay21xx
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2016

    I guess you could say I'm

    so deep in the closet, I'm finding Christmas presents
    sturmgewher44 sturmgewher44
    18-21, M
    4 Responses May 25, 2015
    deleted deleted
    Jan 15, 2016

    I love an Egyptian guy

    who I got to know a week ago. I thought he was gay but yesterday he said he might go out with gf I felt not ok and I decided not to talk to him again lol Btw I am in AB Canada, pm me if you live near me or something. i probably stay in Toronto ON this summer. As a closeted gay...
    FuzzyNando FuzzyNando
    18-21, M
    Mar 6, 2016

    Hi, my name is Ruben

    and I'm 17 years old 😊. I grew up like a normal kid in a normal family 👪, with normal friends and normal stuff around me. It was when I was really young that I started to know that I was different from the other boys around my age. I didn't like the same things as they...
    rubencaldeira rubencaldeira
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Jan 20, 2014

    I'm really frustrated with EP getting rid of

    the site. This is the best thing I've ever found and it's helped me so much. Idk what I'll do after this. This is what saved me from killing myself and without it I don't know what will happen. I need this site and EP seriously needs to reconsider what they are doing not only to...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Mar 23, 2016

    Well yesterday was very unexpected.

    I had a rough night on New Years (almost got arrested) parents got a call at 4am that I was found passed out by the cops. But the parents were in Florida at the time so not much they could do. They got back last night around 5am and I knew there would be a talk in the morning...
    22-25, M
    7 Responses Jan 6, 2014

    One of a kind closeted gay man looking

    for his soul mate, a closeted lesbian. 100% discreet and 100% masculine here. I am handsome, physically fit, athletic, genuine, outgoing, career oriented and kind. I am 5,11 tall, 170 lbs, dark brown hair with green eyes. I am Caucasian, Italian background and was born and...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc
    41-45, M
    Mar 20, 2016

    I wrote this poem as a release

    for myself, but if it can help just one person on here, I'd be happy. This just came to me at 3am in the morning waking me out of my sleep. I hope everyone enjoys it. I've only let a select few read it, I'm pretty apprehensive when it comes to my poetry. A Question of Love...
    brady120378 brady120378
    36-40, M
    7 Responses Jul 30, 2014

    *****, tired of this life.

    family, friends all turned their backs on me. Even my own mother, do not support me. I'm tired already: bad words, bullying. I hate myself, I hate life. I'm not asking a lot, love, care. just to know that you are loved and wait. sometimes at night I think of suicide. This world...
    Christian16Cartier Christian16Cartier
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jan 28, 2016

    Why don't people just understand

    that coming out is a long hard thing
    kev2424 kev2424
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Mar 24, 2015

    The other day my mom told me: "Don't bring home

    a 'Barbie'." I thought about saying: "What about a 'Ken'?", but decided that probably wasn't the best idea. Lol.
    GCassr22 GCassr22
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Nov 8, 2015

    I'm coward and I hate it.

    Being closeted gay is not easy but going out is a lot harder. But at least I live a life where I don't hurt girl's feelings by not making them as cover. PS. hey, live a message :D
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2016


    !! :D So I spoke to my cousin quite a bit moving up to the topic finally the moment come and I told him that I'm bisexuality but mostly prefer guys there was a slight pause and he asked are you for real so of course I responded yes another pause slightly longer then the other...
    Gayguy22 Gayguy22
    18-21, M
    8 Responses Jul 9, 2014

    In a perfect world, I would be out

    and happier then I am now. No one would care that I was "different." Maybe I would be have a boyfriend and be able to treat him like a king and he would do the same. In a perfect world, I wouldn't be laying in bed cuddling my pillow and wishing things could be different..
    sjt49 sjt49
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Nov 26, 2014

    I just told someone. After 3 years of being sure

    and more of being confused before that, I just told the first person that I am gay. It was possibly the most terrifying thing I've ever done. I texted a friend I've known for years at midnight and asked if we could talk at some point, but he got really worried and said he'd meet...
    Andy12798 Andy12798
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    I've never been able to tell anyone,

    I was terrified to experiment in school worried that my dad or anyone would find out. My family is super religious and they wouldn't understand. I've had to keep all my fantasies inside for so long.
    meeknick meeknick
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 10, 2016
    soxman97 soxman97
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Feb 7, 2016

    I'm in the closet , my parents are homophobic

    and my siblings are all hateful so I have to keep it to myself. It's hard living in the closet but I try every way to meet or gay and bi guys
    OtakuKidd OtakuKidd
    18-21, M
    8 Responses Jul 12, 2014

    i find myself watching a lot of pr0n,

    and having fantasies when i see hot guys on the street. and these days i keep thinking how great it would be to be in some kind of relationship. pretty messed up i know. currently living with parents so i don't wanna rock the boat.
    bender898989 bender898989
    26-30, M
    Feb 6, 2016

    I'm gay/bi and I can't do this anymore.

    Most of my family is religious and very conservative and homophobic. I just had a conflict with my parents this morning over my dad sprinkling water on me to wake me up. From how that went down I'm feeling they would probably kick me out and/or disown if I ever told them. So...
    GCassr22 GCassr22
    22-25, M
    5 Responses Feb 7, 2016

    It's the first time that I talk about it 'out

    loud'. I only talk about this by message but well I need to do it some day so...here I am! :D I'm 17 and I know it since I had around 13/14 yo, I never say it to any of my friends or family because I'm Afraid of what can happen before that... I start using EP some months ago and...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

    So.. I'm a 24 year old guy.

    I like men but I'm not out to my family and closest friends and I prefer to live this way, because, despite I'm predominantly attracted to men, I've realized I don't really fit in the common gay world, I don't see myself having lots of openly gay friends, going to gay clubs, gay...
    inspiratie inspiratie
    22-25, M
    8 Responses Jul 9, 2015

    I can't be a part of this group anymore

    because I finally came out to my family :)))))
    abelive06 abelive06
    16-17, M
    4 Responses Apr 26, 2015

    I despise closet gay men I find many to be

    cowards. Here I am living my truth being who I truly am dealing with overcoming all the bs living my life honestly. Yet you guys get to have your cake and eat it too have the acceptance and still have your fun I ran into my stepdad at a gay club and its caused a lot of pain to...
    hg111 hg111
    26-30, M
    Feb 24, 2016

    I'm a 20 year old closeted gay/bisexual male.

    I don't even know at this point whether I'm gay or bisexual. I've always found myself more sexually attracted to guys but could never imagine settling down with a guy for the rest of my life. Am I in denial? Who knows. Its 1 in the morning and I'm home from university. I've been...
    rcnb10 rcnb10
    22-25, M
    8 Responses Jan 4, 2014

    Gay In The Military

    I've been in the Military for about 5 years, and I've know I was gay for a lot longer than that. Its been hard being a closeted gay in the Military, and I think everyone knows how your typical "male" can be. I've been pretty good at hiding it for sometime, but i've never really...
    rickman88 rickman88
    6 Responses Sep 3, 2012

    So here's a story. So last Saturday I decided

    to go to a bathhouse for some fun. I had been to this same bathhouse many times before so this wasn't new to me. Like putting on a glove. So the day starts out with me in the sauna. I'm just relax breaking a sweat when another guy gets in. This guy is just a hunter. This world...
    ran20 ran20
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Dec 30, 2013

    It's Never Too Late

    As a kid I was bullied every day by this one boy who didn't know how to show that he liked me. His name was Jerry. At the time, I had no idea he had a crush on me. And he was afraid because I was also a guy and he thought there was something wrong with being gay. He used to tease...
    HitchhikingProphet HitchhikingProphet
    18-21, M
    9 Responses Feb 18, 2012

    Hello everybody! I'm Christian.

    I'm gay. Looking for friends. In amour I do not believe( maybe I'm wrong. I will be glad to new acquaintances. life is Beautiful....
    Christian16Cartier Christian16Cartier
    18-21, M
    7 Responses Feb 5, 2016
    soxman97 soxman97
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Feb 14, 2016

    I do not love myself I'm not like others I'm

    gay It scares me My parents don't understand me My father will kill me I'm afraid What should I do? Thank you in advance
    boys15 boys15
    16-17, M
    7 Responses Jan 16, 2016

    I am attracted to men now.

    I thought it was a phase, but now I am more convinced that men are what I truly like. But I can't come out any time soon, since most people I know and family are homophobic.
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Apr 5, 2016

    Ok so I really like this guy in my grade.

    We don't talk like everyday but we do talk a bit. I told him I'm gay and he's completely fine with it. In fact he has 2 mothers so I didn't really doubt anything there. However I kinda think he likes me. Our eyes keep meeting in class and stuff. Or I'll catch him looking at me...
    dan827 dan827
    16-17, M
    1 Response Feb 26, 2016

    I have always known that I am gay

    and have never ever thought about coming out of the closet, but now as I am getting older and relationships and desires are becoming more common for people my age, I want to express who I really am to people but don't think I ever can! I don't want to disappoint anyone or ruin...
    NeverGonnaGiveUp21 NeverGonnaGiveUp21
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jun 25, 2015

    I don't know why?. My parents are homophobic(

    it's upsetting to me. I left from them. I miss them. I live with an older brother. I am happy, that I have he. Is he not such, as my parents. He supports me in all. He doesn't know, I'm gay. Today I want to tell him, that I'm gay. I'm scared, that he also homophobic. I'm afraid...
    Christian16Cartier Christian16Cartier
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 14, 2016
    soxman97 soxman97
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 14, 2016

    Falling In Love With My Straight Best Friend....

    That's right. I think I might be falling in love with my straight best friend, I know it must be a common thing for people like me, or people like us I guess I should say...but god damn does it suck... I am definitely in th closet and to the best of my knowledge no one knows that...
    slwat1st slwat1st
    22-25, M
    37 Responses Oct 30, 2011

    Ok well this is my first post

    and I'm sorry I haven't been active on this site but I do have an experience to share. Well I'm gay (well duh) anyway I've been more certain that I was when I was twelve. Well at that age I didn't really care as much but when I got around 14 to 15 I moved in with my father. He...
    brandonkrakora7 brandonkrakora7
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 6, 2014

    How come all the cute guys are

    either straight or taken?
    GCassr22 GCassr22
    22-25, M
    6 Responses Apr 9, 2016

    I feel so judged by everything I do .

    . I feel as if everything I do is wrong ... They are "Christian " conservative and I am a closeted gay liberal .. I am currently still living with them.. I feel as if they know I'm gay but won't say it and I know they won't accept it .. For once I would like to feel appreciated...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 18, 2016

    Well not anymore I came out to my three sons

    last weekend and there reaction was very understanding and adult like. I was so pleased each of them hugged and kissed me and told me it was ok and that they had suspected anyway. I love my sons more and more they are real good boys. But they now tease me about it and to be...
    deleted deleted
    7 Responses Jul 14, 2015

    IMPORTANT: For a lot of people this is their

    only way of dealing with their LGBT feelings and queries. There are a lot of local LGBT support groups out there. If you know of a local support group or on-line forum please posts a comment below. If you find a helpful post copy and paste to a secure location on your...
    runtom runtom
    61-65, M
    2 Responses Mar 23, 2016

    Hi, hope you are all well

    and healthy. I am 30 years old Indian Gay men & well settled Software employee and currently living in Hyderabad,India. I am single, not in a relation with any gay. Due to family and society pressure. I am looking for a decent educated understanding lesbian for MOC, Please...
    pranaireddy pranaireddy
    31-35, M
    Jan 21, 2016

    I can't live like this anymore.

    But I can't come out any time soon, since almost everyone I know is homophobic. Ugh.
    GCassr22 GCassr22
    22-25, M
    5 Responses Apr 5, 2016

    One of a kind closeted gay man looking

    for his soul mate, a closeted lesbian. 100% discreet and 100% masculine. I am handsome, physically fit, athletic, genuine, outgoing, career oriented. I am 5,11 tall, 170 lbs, dark brown hair with green eyes. I am Caucasian, Italian background and was born and raised in NY...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc
    41-45, M
    Feb 22, 2016

    I need some friend. I find myself without

    anyone to talk to or to facetime. If interested message me.
    KiddC KiddC
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Mar 2, 2016

    Beneath this fragile frame lies a battle

    between pride and shame..
    huskysheep huskysheep
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jul 25, 2014

    I am a genuine, educated,

    athletic, handsome, physically fit DISCREET gay man looking for a discreet lesbian to enjoy life with. I am looking to experience all the simple things in life with someone special, a best friend, a companion, my partner in crime. I enjoy the beach, dining out, health and...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc
    41-45, M
    Apr 10, 2016

    I wouldn't say I'm a "Closeted gay.

    " I'm just curious I guess. Like, I do have a girlfriend, but I've messed about with other lads in the past, and wouldn't rule it out in the future. I wouldn't label myself anything except "Interested" lol. Which I think is a good way to be, you live once, have fun, be open...
    WhatsUpLads WhatsUpLads
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Sep 9, 2015

    can't read my , can't read my,

    no they can't read my poker face.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 25, 2014

    Love is unpredictable!

    I don't know what is happening with me. Again I met boy here. You are amazing. He Is interesting me. We have a lot in common with him. He, as well as I loves to read, surfing. He is older than me, but I think, it's not scary. We are from different countries( this is bad. He...
    Christian16Cartier Christian16Cartier
    18-21, M
    Feb 7, 2016

    Masculine, Gay and Closeted; Though Everyone Knows and I'm Messed Up.

    I am gay and closeted to my friends. In some ways it's stupid. The people I call my friends have known me for 10+ years and there have been comments regarding my sexuality as I've never had a girlfriend or talked about girls. My response has always been: "...
    xy001 xy001
    26-30, M
    28 Responses Jan 17, 2009

    Closeted Gay Male. I Hate My Life

    I am a 21 year old closeted gay male and nobody knows about my situation. Though being gay, I still walk, talk, look and act just like any straight guy you see out there, probably even more masculine than most. Except my sexual attraction is with the same sex. I'm a straight man...
    royalflush408 royalflush408
    18-21, M
    158 Responses Nov 29, 2009

    One of a kind closeted gay man looking

    for his soul mate, a closeted lesbian. 100% discreet and 100% masculine. I am handsome, physically fit, athletic, genuine, outgoing, career oriented. I am 5,11 tall, 170 lbs, dark brown hair with green eyes. I am Caucasian, Italian background and was born and raised in NY...
    joesmithnyc joesmithnyc
    41-45, M
    Feb 11, 2016
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