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I Am a Closeted Gay

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    Ok well this is my first post

    and I'm sorry I haven't been active on this site but I do have an experience to share. Well I'm gay (well duh) anyway I've been more certain that I was when I was twelve. Well at that age I didn't really care as much but when I got around 14 to 15 I moved in with my father. He...
    brandonkrakora7 brandonkrakora7 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 6

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    Hey! It's been a while.

    I have came out of the closet. Well, to myself, and a few select people. The ones that are important. It all started New Year's Eve of last year, 2013. I was at my mom's house drinking up, in Mexico, and having fun with my brothers and brother in laws. One of my neighbors came...
    Becks8806 Becks8806 26-30, M 3 Responses Oct 20

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    I have extremely homophobic parents & family.

    I cant tell them I am gay because my dad has made his strong opinions on the subject of being gay very clear & has stated more then once if his son was gay he would throw me out. I also am an only child so he expects a lot from me. I am still a senior in high school & have no...
    SutureMyHeart SutureMyHeart 18-21, M 13 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    WTF. This site has become really stupid in the

    last few months. I just tried to make a post, and I was told that it "violated community policies." How? There wasn't even anything bad in there. All I said was that I wanted to come out to family, and I asked for advice from the EP community. What's the deal? Has anyone else...
    bas001 bas001 22-25, M Oct 22

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    Masterlicks Masterlicks 31-35, M 7 Responses Sep 30

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    Happy late National Coming out day,

    when I saw it posted everywhere my first thought was. "Cool...nope"
    sturmgewher44 sturmgewher44 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 12

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    Struggle With Myself!

    I have known that I was bi-sexual for quite a few years. It took me until recently to come to grips with that reality and actually date men. I have always been good with women, but guys were another story. I come from a very religious/spiritual family, and being gay or bi is a...
    grownbiman grownbiman 26-30, M 7 Responses Oct 28, 2012

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    I guess that I'm becoming more

    and more comfortable with who I am. I think that people around me like coworkers and my family can tell that there is a little something different about me. I've been a little more happier and I guess prouder as well. I have finally getting to the point in my life that I don...
    brady120378 brady120378 31-35, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hello.

    Hello my name is Evan,I'm 18 years, I don't really know why i'm writing this. I wanna come out to my father, but i'm quite nervous about it. I feel like he's always putting the homosexual community down, And even though he may not mean too I just don't know how to go about coming...
    evan151 evan151 18-21, M 23 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    A guy at school today was coming onto me

    so hard. He was overtly hitting on me (he is way out of the closet) and I didn't know how to respond. He doesn't know that I'm gay, I don't exactly look or behave like a flamboyant gay man (not in public anyway) he just thought I was cute. I had met him a few times before and...
    GayCharlie GayCharlie 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 14

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    Beneath this fragile frame lies a battle

    between pride and shame..
    huskysheep huskysheep 13-15, M 3 Responses Jul 25

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    Where I am- I'm out as gay to mostly everybody.

    The only ones who don't know are those outside of my friend group and majority of my family. I don't feel a need to chant "I'm gay" to everyone I meet. Does it matter who you like? Love is love. Just be you.
    OtakuTimeLord OtakuTimeLord 13-15, T 4 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    Yawh anyone wanna talk?

    Around my age message meh....I like cats btw ._.
    PANDASAREAWESOME67 PANDASAREAWESOME67 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 5

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    During my highschool life I have my bestfriend .

    Unfortunately I'm older than him . He is on first year when I was on 3rd year . We were always together . I went to his place for an over night and vice versa he goes to our place . Others says that we are like couple but we ignored them . We are happily enjoying our day by day...
    Andrai55 Andrai55 18-21 1 Response Oct 14

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    I wrote this poem as a release

    for myself, but if it can help just one person on here, I'd be happy. This just came to me at 3am in the morning waking me out of my sleep. I hope everyone enjoys it. I've only let a select few read it, I'm pretty apprehensive when it comes to my poetry. A Question of Love...
    brady120378 brady120378 31-35, M 8 Responses Jul 30

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    Masculine, Gay and Closeted; Though Everyone Knows and I'm Messed Up.

    I am gay and closeted to my friends. In some ways it's stupid. The people I call my friends have known me for 10+ years and there have been comments regarding my sexuality as I've never had a girlfriend or talked about girls. My response has always been: "...
    xy001 xy001 26-30, M 23 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Outed At Work And Laughing About It

    Its been a little while since I've posted anything, mainly because real life was just too entertaining to pass up. As the story title said, I got outed at work about six weeks ago. It was my sales manager of all people, a man who I believed couldn't count above three without...
    InkedAmongTheSands InkedAmongTheSands 31-35, M 4 Responses Apr 16, 2013

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    jacob7777777 jacob7777777 13-15, M 3 Responses Oct 22

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    Closeted Gay Male. I Hate My Life

    I am a 21 year old closeted gay male and nobody knows about my situation. Though being gay, I still walk, talk, look and act just like any straight guy you see out there, probably even more masculine than most. Except my sexual attraction is with the same sex. I'm a straight man...
    royalflush408 royalflush408 18-21, M 135 Responses Nov 29, 2009

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    Please ask me something

    that will get me horny...I will answer;)
    hawksfan145 hawksfan145 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 20

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    Hey my name is Daniel.

    I'm a gay 14 year old. I was wondering if anyone wanted to chat. Lol I kinda want to be in a relationship, but if you just wanna be friends that's ok too. Gamer or person who likes to watch anime would be a plus. Usually like Caucasian males but I'll see if I like you. Maybe...
    dan827 dan827 13-15, M Oct 4

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    finding that special guy is great.

    him not liking you back is awful
    ncuristo ncuristo 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    Yet Another Masculine Closeted Gay...

    I finally decided to post a story. It's really nothing special, I'm 21, masculine and closeted gay. I've always kind of known, but never really accepted it. Already after having sex for the first time, with a girl, I knew something was missing. I finally came to terms with it a...
    babaganoosh89 babaganoosh89 22-25, M 15 Responses Aug 14, 2011

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    I have had lots of relationships with women

    before but things never quite click. I'm beginning to think I'm looking for the wrong type of person completly
    ConfusingLee ConfusingLee 41-45, M 1 Response Oct 19

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    seeeelfieee! :) so today in auto shop,

    there's a guy I have a crush on and we have been friends since middle school. we mess around a lot and stuff. It was just "guys being guys" ya know, but now I'm starting to have feelings for him and today we were messing around as usual, but this time the play fighting totally...
    Rasengxn Rasengxn 16-17, M Oct 13

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    No One Knows Except My Best Friend

    I am 15yrs old and in high school. My parents would so freak out if they knew I was gay. Even my friends at school would freak out. I am so afraid of telling anyone because of the negative impact and because I know lots of people can be so very cruel. My parents are devoted...
    IloveBVB IloveBVB 16-17, M 8 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    My Name Is X And I'M A Recovering Homophobe

    I am not a closeted gay. I was never really closeted. I was a homophobic homosexual and I may be one still. The product of a freakishly conservative, ignorant, and fearful family - God bless the Bible belt. Gays were sinful, subhuman, and deserved to die of AIDS. In retrospect, I...
    a1scat a1scat 26-30 7 Responses May 21, 2013

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    I'm out to my friends

    but not to my family. It's hard because I can't openly date guys because I'd have to hide it from my homophobic dad. I couldn't even get a boyfriend anyways ._.
    PFowler PFowler 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 25

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    "Quiet" Silence runs like a river inside me

    and hides the darkness that stands behind me. The sun shines while darkness plays in the heart of my soul in every inconceivable way. I am lost, floating on solid unseen air. Quietness is my soul position but I can't make any life decisions. God is here but I cant see him...
    taurusboi23 taurusboi23 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 23

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    It's the first time that I talk about it 'out

    loud'. I only talk about this by message but well I need to do it some day so...here I am! :D I'm 17 and I know it since I had around 13/14 yo, I never say it to any of my friends or family because I'm Afraid of what can happen before that... I start using EP some months ago and...
    Bral05 Bral05 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 21

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    can't read my , can't read my,

    no they can't read my poker face.
    internallybroken internallybroken 16-17, M 4 Responses May 25

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    Falling In Love With My Straight Best Friend....

    That's right. I think I might be falling in love with my straight best friend, I know it must be a common thing for people like me, or people like us I guess I should say...but god damn does it suck... I am definitely in th closet and to the best of my knowledge no one knows that...
    slwat1st slwat1st 22-25, M 31 Responses Oct 30, 2011

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    Gay In The Military

    I've been in the Military for about 5 years, and I've know I was gay for a lot longer than that. Its been hard being a closeted gay in the Military, and I think everyone knows how your typical "male" can be. I've been pretty good at hiding it for sometime, but i've never really...
    rickman88 rickman88 22-25 6 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    Time to start coming out to my family.

    I've come out to my aunt, but I need to stop being a wuss and come out to the people that really matter--my mom and sister. I have waited too long already to come out. I am 23 years old, and I have not even tried to date anyone because I've been so effing closeted. That's BS...
    bas001 bas001 22-25, M 5 Responses Oct 22

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    the pic is for those

    who don't know what I look like, so here ya go! :D I think I've said this on here or not, maybe I forgot, but .... yes ... I AM GAY I found out that I liked ... well ... guys in middle school , but I didn't say anything cause I thought it was nothing and that I was just...
    Rasengxn Rasengxn 16-17, M 3 Responses Oct 7

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    Hi, my name is Ruben

    and I'm 17 years old 😊. I grew up like a normal kid in a normal family 👪, with normal friends and normal stuff around me. It was when I was really young that I started to know that I was different from the other boys around my age. I didn't like the same things as they...
    rubencaldeira rubencaldeira 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 20

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    So here's a story. So last Saturday I decided

    to go to a bathhouse for some fun. I had been to this same bathhouse many times before so this wasn't new to me. Like putting on a glove. So the day starts out with me in the sauna. I'm just relax breaking a sweat when another guy gets in. This guy is just a hunter. This world...
    ran20 ran20 26-30, M 3 Responses Dec 30, 2013

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    After almost 19 years living on this Earth,

    I came up with one conclusion: for every action there is a reaction. Being deep inside the closet makes me a real lonely person. I feel like I have all the friends in the world, but no one which knows me completely. And that just sucks...
    Alex108 Alex108 18-21, M 7 Responses May 22

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    I should not say that I am in closet.

    ..I came come out to my friend and my mom..hopefully she was ok with that. However, it is not easy to come out to everybody because of the Asian tradition or culture. I saw video that a teenager guy came out to his family and was rejected by his parents..it was a sad thing a sad...
    wasurato wasurato 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 26

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    A very weird thing happened a couples of hours

    before i went home to my apartment. There was this friend (a guy, of course) who approached me. I knew him the moment i saw him coz i knew him for the last three years. Then we started chatting about school and stuffs blah blah blah. And then something unexpected happened. He...
    Baloyloy Baloyloy 18-21, M 7 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    I have a straight guy friend

    who is always vain and so noisy in our class, we became so close because we are always together in our hobbies ,that we even share our stories every time we have problems .Here' s now my story started .He always ask me what to do and I'm happy that i'm good in giving advises...
    Andrai55 Andrai55 18-21 Oct 14

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    Yawh I'm 13 and looking 4 a bf soooo yawh

    message me just no one too old like maybe no one over 15? I dunno xD but yawh
    PANDASAREAWESOME67 PANDASAREAWESOME67 13-15, M Oct 7

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    It's Never Too Late

    As a kid I was bullied every day by this one boy who didn't know how to show that he liked me. His name was Jerry. At the time, I had no idea he had a crush on me. And he was afraid because I was also a guy and he thought there was something wrong with being gay. He used to tease...
    HitchhikingProphet HitchhikingProphet 18-21, M 9 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    No One Knows I Am Gay

    I am a 20 year old that has never told a soul about the situation I am in. I am gay and I am mortified to tell anyone. This is the first time I have said any of this. My parents divorced at a young age and I was verbally and physically beaten throughout school and at home. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    *HEART EYES* ♡.♡ =D man of my dreams well

    there's a lot LOL but this is one of them
    Rasengxn Rasengxn 16-17, M Oct 8

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    I have been in a relationship with the most

    amazing guy for 10 months now and I only came out to my parents 6 months ago and some of my closest friend, My parents didnt take it well and never want to talk about it, and if we do talk about it, it always ends up in a fight.
    iseemeseeingyou iseemeseeingyou 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 27

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    I'm bi and here is the thing,

    I am open in my school, but no one in my family knows and not coming out...ever
    bisexuwhale bisexuwhale 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Well yesterday was very unexpected.

    I had a rough night on New Years (almost got arrested) parents got a call at 4am that I was found passed out by the cops. But the parents were in Florida at the time so not much they could do. They got back last night around 5am and I knew there would be a talk in the morning...
    KY2LAX KY2LAX 22-25, M 7 Responses Jan 6

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    That awkward moment you are sad you don't have

    a lot of gay friends then you realize oh ya that's cuz your not outa the closet rrrrrright....... Sadface :(((
    Adamisbamfin Adamisbamfin 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 23

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    One thing about being gay is

    that you really do not have to announce it to the world. I mean, telling them that you are gay is like telling them that he is a boy or a girl. You see, being gay is just as normal as eating pizza only that you get to have a lot of assorted colors. Haha. --- although who am i...
    Baloyloy Baloyloy 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 21

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    I'm in the closet , my parents are homophobic

    and my siblings are all hateful so I have to keep it to myself. It's hard living in the closet but I try every way to meet or gay and bi guys
    OtakuKidd OtakuKidd 13-15, M 9 Responses Jul 12

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    I'm a 20 year old closeted gay/bisexual male.

    I don't even know at this point whether I'm gay or bisexual. I've always found myself more sexually attracted to guys but could never imagine settling down with a guy for the rest of my life. Am I in denial? Who knows. Its 1 in the morning and I'm home from university. I've been...
    rcnb10 rcnb10 18-21, M 8 Responses Jan 4

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    Note: This is pretty long,

    but interesting, and this is not about me. Please do reply to my question below. A classmate-acquaintance or nearly can be called a friend has been driving me a little frustrated, and I can't exactly pin-point if he is gay or not. If is, then is in the closet, but I'm just...
    Wrathes Wrathes 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 28

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