I Am a Complicated Person

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    More like I cannot be defined.

    I've chatted with plenty of people here about any number of subjects. Some yes, more adult in nature. ;). More often than not however discussing relationship issues. based on discussions in "real life" as well, I think I have some skill in narrowing issues down for people...
    Luckranger71 Luckranger71
    41-45, M
    1 Response Apr 7, 2014

    She is a collection of paradox,

    cannot be understood. One time she loves passionately, and make you feel like you owned the world. The moment you think you know her, she feels suddenly so different she act distance, does she care you will ask yourself. She seem so cold yet so warm, so hateful and so loving...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Dec 5, 2015

    The older I get,the more complicated I become.

    I remember the days when expressing my feelings was easy without getting judged. It starts when you are being silently judged by so many.You no longer feel safe to show vulnerabilities. It takes a big part of you.I have been internalising those feelings because it's too complex...
    sparklingdiva sparklingdiva
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2015

    She was sensitive. She felt every emotion,

    every walk, every moment , every talk. She felt it all in the tips of her fingers , to the taste in your tongue. She felt your beauty gleaming from your skin, she felt your morning breath, your airbrushed skin, your raging wars. She felt them all. She heard all your sighs, all...
    TheWestlifer TheWestlifer
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 5, 2015

    I realize that there is no pleasing someone

    who isn't happy with themselves-- so I just have to let them go and do their thing. But damn if it doesn't suck investing your time in someone for it all to fizzle out.
    KismetWrites KismetWrites
    31-35
    3 Responses May 6, 2014

    Earthlostangel Earthlostangel
    46-50, F
    Apr 11

    I've been abused all my life.

    My had ADD & he took out his frustrations out on me, meaning he used burn me with lawn mower, threw me on multiple steps like 20 stairs steps. But I'll be damned if I let the past dictate my future. I do have ADD but I wanna start a foundation & write a book & give speeches to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 15, 2015

    I tend not to care about people close to me

    (except for my parents) once I don't see or be with them anymore. I still get in touch with friends and relatives but there's no emotional attachment at all. I know I sound cold but it's true...
    alltimestrokes alltimestrokes
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 17, 2015

    Being with you is like having the air sucked

    out of my lungs. In a room full of people who will never understand because I can never let them. I'm hiding in plain sight, things about me that I don't care to tell, but then again, you don't care to ask. I've never been accused of being cold but I have been told I'm boring...
    annalea annalea
    26-30, F
    Aug 17, 2015

    So, I have experience I really could not find a

    title to out it under. So here it is, I love washing dishes! Many years ago, I worked as a dishwasher at a restaurants. Because of the volume customers the work was very stressful, physically and mentally. What bugged me more was that people worked there didn't treat their...
    Dhack Dhack
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 27

    The most complicated of people are those

    who walk around with words running through their mind, yet choose silence when they're in presence of you. These people are dangerous. Dangerously complicatedly beautiful. Don't dismiss them for their words, for their silence might dismiss you, and then who will save you? When...
    TheWestlifer TheWestlifer
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 3, 2015

    I love being with people

    but it makes me anxious. I love being hugged or held by the right people and absolutely loathe it from others. I feel confident in who I am but cannot find a single thing others would like in me. I want to spread my wings and fly to NYC or somewhere but fear leaving home. I'm...
    beautifulbizarre beautifulbizarre
    18-21, F
    Aug 20, 2015

    I want what I can't have.

    Everything that I love is bad for me. When I can finally have what I want, I don't want it anymore. I'm always stuck between a gray area. I'm constantly questioning myself and my self worth. I love you. I need you. But you're bad for me.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 24

    I'm happy being alone

    but there's nights where I crave affection. Like a warm body to sleep next to, a chest to bury my face into, a warm and welcoming hug ( I haven't had one of those in over a year now), the physical presence of just a person who matters to me to share the moment and simply talk...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 29, 2015

    I feel so upset for letting myself get

    so fat. I went to cook for Gloria several years ago when I weighed 145 lbs. I doubled my weight and then some to over. 300. Gloria was delighted , she wanted a fat girlfriend. At the time I didn't realize she wanted to get me even fatter and eventually immobile. Now at over 700...
    Rhondalynne Rhondalynne
    41-45, F
    7 Responses Oct 7, 2014

    I've been told so many times how hard I am to

    work with. I always expect things to go my way and if they don't I can be very complicated.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 22, 2015

    I am a complicated person.

    Even to myself. I have many emotions that make me this way.
    BellaGirl7 BellaGirl7
    41-45, F
    4 Responses May 20, 2014

    I live in a Muslim household,

    but I seldom go to mosque. I don't cover up even when I do go to mosque. I like my independence and how my religious parents accommodate me however they need to.
    Shafqat98 Shafqat98
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 2, 2015

    at times I'm sentimental,

    at times I'm silly ..you really don't know what to expect...hell sometimes I surprise myself
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 14, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 3

    Im very complicated kinda old fashioned in a

    scence, But very simple honest and sincere here. I have likes people don't approve of or cant relate. But to each is own.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 22, 2015

    I am difficult....I am not an easy person to

    get close to because I am so complicated
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 1
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 9

    I have a boyfriend for almost 5yrs

    and i love him so much that i think i am being obsessed with him. I always want to see him and as the time goes by he suddenly change the way he treats me because he know that i cant replace him with another guy and knows that i love him so much. I know we fight. I know we argue...
    candizmaey candizmaey
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 12

    I've been told this thousands of times

    and really it all comes down to trust for me. I don't trust easy, so I remain a closed book. Plenty of people have asked me "don't you trust me" or said "if you trusted me, you'd do this..." And it's not that I don't want to trust people, it's just that I wear my heart on my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 20, 2015

    I'm afraid to get hurt.

    I feel like I'm going to be alone forever because I'm always afraid I'm going to add a heart break on top of the pile of all my other problems that I have to deal with daily. Please don't hate me for that
    izzyyxo izzyyxo
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 6, 2014
    lostlittlefirefly lostlittlefirefly
    36-40, F
    8 Responses Jul 2, 2014

    Day Dreams.

    My entire personality has been composed of day dreaming. I don't think I was born with any particular personality traits but rather composed myself as a musician to his composition. When I look outside there are telephone wires and grey shabby chic buildings I see the birds...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 22, 2013
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Aug 14, 2015

    I am a person with Bi-polar2 / border line

    personality disorder....so I am up and down, side ways some days...and dislike being judged due to the fact that I have these disorders, we are not crazy, dangerous or any of the stigmas that go with it, just a little more feeling than most.....I feel disconnected at times, but...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

    Don't be a jerk. Try to love everyone.

    Give more than you take. And do it despite the fact that you only really like about seven out of five hundred people.
    MyGuardianAngel MyGuardianAngel
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Oct 28, 2014

    People Aren't Logical

    Just because I interrupt you while you're talking because a thought has suddenly exploded into my mind without warning and it has temporarily captured the entirety of my attention doesn't mean that I don't think you're interesting and amazing and that I don't want to listen to...
    caddisfly9 caddisfly9
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Oct 19, 2010

    Through The Rabbit Hole.

    I'm sitting in my bedroom and the day is half done already. The air is chilly but it reminds me a little bit of being back in Indy during the fall, so it's a comfortable sort of chill. It's something familiar.I've sat here many times over the past weeks, just thinking about my...
    Intelligently Intelligently
    31-35, F
    11 Responses Apr 27, 2011

    Just spend a day with me

    and you'd understand. I'm really thoughtful and question everything, do my own thing quietly sometimes, sometimes I'm loud, sometimes I'll just sit in complete silence... Not a thought in my mind. If you could figure out what goes on in my mind and why for every second of one...
    Bingabang Bingabang
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 24, 2013

    To the point that I still don't quite

    understand myself, although I get better.
    Ticklemeplease7 Ticklemeplease7
    18-21, M
    Oct 20, 2015

    You can't talk to me!

    You don't understand your sex...you ain't been mindfucked yet.
    TheUltimateCrazyCatLady TheUltimateCrazyCatLady
    22-25, F
    4 Responses May 14, 2014

    I think we are all complicated in our own way.

    For example, our energy and our emotions can be up one day yet down the next. Besides the heavenly king, there's not a single individual who can read the thoughts in our heart; therefore, we can always surprise others even ourselves. I believe that this is what makes us...
    growingwisdom growingwisdom
    26-30, M
    1 Response May 14, 2015

    Earthlostangel Earthlostangel
    46-50, F
    Apr 11

    It Started When I Was Young

    I believe things that happen to you at a young age, mold you into the person you are today. I am not your "normal" person. I see things differently than most. We could be standing side by side and see a color, you would say it was blue, I would say it was black.I have always been...
    JustcallmeCurly JustcallmeCurly
    46-50, F
    Sep 29, 2012

    Complicated, Yes..

    I am cut into a puzzle, with a picture that's black. My multi-paneled face is where I shelve a horde of masks. I quip and gibe, for I am a toddler. I have wisdom but only because of you, father. I bend and fold my heart to match any sword. Which results in...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Apr 28, 2011

    And I don't like It. I wish I liked men.

    I see beautiful pictures of couples and I ache because I wish I wanted that. And I don't want to be with a woman because I would be obsessed. The women that I have liked always look better with men. I don't want to be with them, I don't like constantly feeling overwhelmed. This...
    Tipoftheiceberg2016 Tipoftheiceberg2016
    26-30, F
    Sep 28, 2015

    I love to work hard and to learn & just not to

    get a degree but I naturally love learning. When I little, I always said I wanna be a chef, I still have that passion & desire but I recently had an anxiety attack & said that I'm destined to be a computer engineer considering I love apple. But I do have ADHD & I know how hard...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 11, 2015

    Aren't we all? Human.

    Flawed. Contradictory. If you want to understand anyone, you first have to understand that we are all complicated.
    utahwriter utahwriter
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Jun 1, 2014
    The1960texan The1960texan
    51-55, M
    1 Response Jan 13

    I am having the biggest mental breakdown down

    I've had in a year. And I don't know what to do. I don't think anyone in my family will understand.
    NotAPeoplesPerson NotAPeoplesPerson
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 29, 2015

    I am always a little happy

    and always a little sad, I believe in God but study atheistic views. I am a fundamental Christian but also have an interest in the supernatural and the occult. I am faithful as the day is long, but a corner of my heart always wonders if I made the right decision. I seek to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 18

    I understand that. I'm hard to figure out

    and I act like I don't care. But for once in my life I want someone to understand why I cry at 3 am and not ask me questions. Someone who will just tell me they're there for me and care about me. Someone who wants to get to know the real me and tear the walls I created. Someone...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 21, 2015

    I'm not even sure I understand myself much

    anymore. It's complicated...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter
    41-45
    1 Response Oct 21, 2015

    Not Here For Naughty Fun Exchanges

    For those who care to read and also for those who don't care not to read and know first how I interact.I'm not here for nuaghty fun exchanges. I am not all for sex. If I want or need fun, I'd rather have it in real life.Checking and reading your Profiles after sending an invite...
    ladyryan ladyryan
    46-50, F
    8 Responses May 2, 2013

    Some People Seem To Think So I've been told I'm

    complicated, but I am not. I have simple tastes and simple needs. I just want perfection, that's all. Is that too much to ask? Perfect skin, perfect teeth, perfect hair. Perfect children, perfect friends and the perfect job. Is that really too much to hope for? Serenitree1
    Serenitree1 Serenitree1
    70+, F
    2 Responses Dec 31, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 8, 2015

    I bought some heels. I loved them.

    I walked in them and I admired their design. But they started to hurt my feet, it became painful to walk in them and I was unstable when I stood up. I realised that somewhere in their design there was a flaw. But a flaw not all could see. I still wanted to wear them because they...
    TheWestlifer TheWestlifer
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 11, 2015

    So many huge things happening in my life right

    now. I am feeling overwhelmed, and all of the rest of the feels too. I have to keep reminding me to let myself feel all of those yucky emotions too. They are a part of me, can help me learn, and though I might feel bad, I won't disappear. It is the hardest thing to do...
    WinnifredWildcat WinnifredWildcat
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Dec 12, 2015

    At times I wonder how is it possible

    for people to handle me.. of course not everyone can handle me.. except a very few and my mom tops the list.. I don't trust people easily.. but if I do, I trust them blindly.. even if that person pretends to hate me, I don't give up on them easily.. I like to be alone but I hate...
    amazingmoment90 amazingmoment90
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 5, 2015
    KendraKitty KendraKitty
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Jan 24, 2014
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