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I Am a Different Person When Alone

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    Not in a bad way but I am different.

    I feel disillusioned by life at the moment. Very saddened and numb at the fact I have experienced a lot of let downs and hurt by the people I thought never would. Hurt like that changes you. I work with children though and everyday I put my hurt aside, smile and focus on them...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 15, 2014

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    Enemy of own self- This side of me tends to

    contradict every move I make but this side of me is just what i needed because this, makes my life a little bit interesting.
    MylifeasMae MylifeasMae 22-25, F Mar 27, 2014

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    Crazy

    I loose control over myself when alone, so I give life to my hidden madness. My sick state, my disfigured face of rage, guilty, pain, happiness, and wish of die.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 20, 2013

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    I guess everybody has another side of them

    that they let certain people see and I am one of those people that hide a side of myself that I don't want certain of my friends and family to know about. When I am with friends and family I appear to be sweet and innocent and a nice guy but when I am by myself my corrupted self...
    Culinaryman23 Culinaryman23 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 16, 2014

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    My Friends Don't Know Me

    Yeah, so I've always been quite lonely and sad until recently, and I was surprised how easy it was to be happy around them. My nickname is Happy because I was always so happy to be with them. But at home, alone, everything is just so depressing and I even start crying with no...
    felicity6 felicity6 13-15, F Jul 19, 2012

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    Wanna Cry When Alone

    i'm happy with other people. i crack a lot of jokes..   i am the clown in our group..   but when i'm alone, i wanna cry..   maybe this website is a great help for me to lessen my loneliness when i'm alone.
    MeglioBlue MeglioBlue 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2010

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    I'm Only My Complete Self When I'm Alone.

    This is so true of me, I can't even say. This is not me saying I'm not myself when I'm around other people or my friends, this is saying that I can never be totally myself. First, let me say, that I think to a certain extent, everyone has/feels the need to put up a...
    JigsawLo JigsawLo 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 2, 2009

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    The Vulnerable Me!

    I am easily emotionalized whenever sitting alone watching a movie on my computer or listening to a song. It all becomes much more personal and unbinding for me. I let go.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 8, 2011

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    You thought it was an experience

    but it was me, Dio!
    Ennyo Ennyo 18-21, M Jun 29, 2015

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    Too Much

    When I am alone, I think too much.  I think about all the things that's wrong with this world. I think about my inability to have children. I think about my boyfriend finally seeing me for the mental patient I really am.  I think about him leaving me because of it one day.  I...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F Apr 8, 2011

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    The Fun Time

    When I am alone and no one is around. I am the person I truly am. I sing, I dance, I laugh and I cry. But when others are around me I cant be that person, I'm just to embarrassed to be that person. I really wish I could be that person. Maybe one day I will have the confidence to...
    JAX112 JAX112 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 26, 2009

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