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I Am a Different Person When Alone

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    My Friends Don't Know Me

    Yeah, so I've always been quite lonely and sad until recently, and I was surprised how easy it was to be happy around them. My nickname is Happy because I was always so happy to be with them. But at home, alone, everything is just so depressing and I even start crying with no...
    felicity6 felicity6 13-15, F Jul 19, 2012

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    Too Much

    When I am alone, I think too much.  I think about all the things that's wrong with this world. I think about my inability to have children. I think about my boyfriend finally seeing me for the mental patient I really am.  I think about him leaving me because of it one day.  I...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F Apr 8, 2011

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    Wanna Cry When Alone

    i'm happy with other people. i crack a lot of jokes..   i am the clown in our group..   but when i'm alone, i wanna cry..   maybe this website is a great help for me to lessen my loneliness when i'm alone.
    MeglioBlue MeglioBlue 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2010

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    Enemy of own self- This side of me tends to

    contradict every move I make but this side of me is just what i needed because this, makes my life a little bit interesting.
    MylifeasMae MylifeasMae 18-21, F Mar 27

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    I'm Only My Complete Self When I'm Alone.

    This is so true of me, I can't even say. This is not me saying I'm not myself when I'm around other people or my friends, this is saying that I can never be totally myself. First, let me say, that I think to a certain extent, everyone has/feels the need to put up a...
    JigsawLo JigsawLo 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 2, 2009

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    The Fun Time

    When I am alone and no one is around. I am the person I truly am. I sing, I dance, I laugh and I cry. But when others are around me I cant be that person, I'm just to embarrassed to be that person. I really wish I could be that person. Maybe one day I will have the confidence to...
    JAX112 JAX112 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 26, 2009

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    Crazy

    I loose control over myself when alone, so I give life to my hidden madness. My sick state, my disfigured face of rage, guilty, pain, happiness, and wish of die.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 20, 2013

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    Not in a bad way but I am different.

    I feel disillusioned by life at the moment. Very saddened and numb at the fact I have experienced a lot of let downs and hurt by the people I thought never would. Hurt like that changes you. I work with children though and everyday I put my hurt aside, smile and focus on them...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    The Vulnerable Me!

    I am easily emotionalized whenever sitting alone watching a movie on my computer or listening to a song. It all becomes much more personal and unbinding for me. I let go.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 8, 2011

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    It is so satisfying when you know that every chore is done, every one is okay and you can just be. You are finally able to carve out a small bit of time for yourself and do...
    Nuovinzi Nuovinzi 41-45, F Jun 28

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    Just so I could see how it felt to be wanted.
    reelman4372 reelman4372 31-35, M Jul 11

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    I don't get days like this often but boy is it great to do so little! I haven't even gotten dressed for the day. The house is neat and clean but I've done it sssslllooowwwllyyyy...
    Flygirl827 Flygirl827 41-45 1 Response Jun 28

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    I love the feel of my freshly shaved *****!
    3Lia 3Lia 41-45, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    Yeah, I dislike romantic stuff totally. I am passionate in whatever I do but romantic...requires some skill if you actually want me to fall for it lol. I prefer it if someone...
    Suxa90 Suxa90 22-25, F Jul 2

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    10 years. I got bullied for 10 years while in Primary School and High School, from grade 2 till grade 12, the year I graduated. So it all started in grade 2 when my best friend...
    darkbladeangel darkbladeangel 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    It's interesting that the Japanese tv dramas always like the stories about people with double sides of personality. It's like, the same person, but in one period of time is being...
    kekehuang kekehuang 36-40, F Jul 12

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    I have plenty of people who care about me but I still feel alone with all of my problems. I have nobody to listen to me. I have nobody to help me. I have the type of relationship...
    alexis1498 alexis1498 16-17, F 18 hrs ago

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    To Jenni and others: I have been an EP member for a long time now and have met so many ...some amazing, some not so amazing. Several have really come to mean a lot to me...
    Whym Whym 36-40, F 7 Responses Jul 9

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    I wish I could run away to somewhere where no one knows me and no one is looking for me. I wish I could wipe my brain and start over. Find a new me. Be a new me. Live as a...
    kitten96 kitten96 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    Having my heart broken was the most wonderful and terrible thing to happen to me. I had been in relationships before I met this girl, but this was completely different. I was such...
    accidentalme accidentalme 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    No matter how nature built us, making us needing company, we are also made to discover ourselves and ponder on certain things that many times, they cannot be shared with anyone but...
    DestinyAuthor DestinyAuthor 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    I don't think I'm a bad human being, I just think that the things I do can be pretty unforgivable sometimes. Maybe it's my teenage years, or my lack of experience or lack of...
    Cue0811 Cue0811 18-21 2 days ago

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    I am a passionate person. The things and people I love in my life I love passionately and with an intensity that I know can be overwhelming for some. My level of intensity is not...
    FloatingStars FloatingStars 36-40 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am in relation with wonderful person for about 2 years now. Before that we were best friends. We mt in my previous office. I am more than happy to be with him. He makes me feel...
    TrueLoverN TrueLoverN 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I have this habit of taking it personal when a friend doesn't take the time to try to talk to me (she's probably just busy with life, like me) or doesn't take the initiative to try...
    brittanys13 brittanys13 22-25, F Jul 15

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    I understand that I made and will continue to make mistakes in my life. I can admit when I am wrong. I learn from my mistakes and just try and be a better person. When one can...
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    I guess because society pushed on us teens that fat girls are ugly and thin is the "In" trend all that other crap that I just believed it and even though on some good days I find...
    musicdance814 musicdance814 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I met an old friend, almost didn't recognised her. Life has battered and bruised her. After hanging out with her. We hug so tight we both didn't want to let go. I felt broken for...
    Quanitta Quanitta 26-30, F 4 hrs ago

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    I used to let everybody into my life, but now I'm very selective and don't want to let anybody in who I don't think is good enough. If people want to be in my life, they have to...
    annoyedagnostic annoyedagnostic 18-21, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I just lay on my back in a dark room, motionless and completely silent. I stare at the dark ceiling and feel how the tears crawl down my temples and travel further down...
    OpenlyHonestly OpenlyHonestly 22-25, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    What a difference a day makes. Today I got my diagnosis This morning my knowledge about borderline was somewhat limited. I have had friends who had borderline and those were very...
    Fireleaf1991 Fireleaf1991 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Hopefully one day soon I can sing this song whole heartedly and it will be true: WHITESNAKE "Here I Go Again" (Selection of Lyrics) I don't know where I'm going But, I sure know...
    Awakening29 Awakening29 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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    I just want my "friends" to leave me alone and stop asking me to go out with them. I wish they would just understand without me having to tell them how I feel; I don't have the...
    emmacla emmacla 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    I was a straight woman who fell in love with a lesbian BPD almost 2 years ago, deeply and madly in love. Last spring, she "needed space," announcing this days before an...
    Dim485 Dim485 51-55, F 21 hrs ago

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    Honestly I just don't know anymore every time I try to be positive on life things just go bad again. Every since 7th grade things haven't been all that but things didn't really get...
    XFallingAngelX XFallingAngelX 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    Wow what do you know I am the most rare personality type. Figures as such. The INFJ personality type is very rare, making up less than one percent of the population, but they...
    Powederedtoastman Powederedtoastman 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 19

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    If I tell anyone I know that I pretty much always feel lonely, I'll probably be smacked in the face and get called dramatic. I just moved to a new city recently, so I guess now I...
    0hman 0hman 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    Well...yes.I have travelled since birth and seen a variety of lives and experiences.I was a very stimulated child with culture and cultures,history,books...and awesome mother <3...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    Yes, I am female, with all the correct body parts, but I think differently, than most women. I don't play the normal women games, I hate shopping of any kind. I go into a store buy...
    kathouse68 kathouse68 66-70, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    (Note-I know I am NOT alone, there are many like me, and worse than me. This is simply the BEST topic to post this story under) I'm not really living. I'm just killing time. I...
    GlamGasm GlamGasm 22-25, T 4 days ago

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    I was diagnosed a few years back by a counselor i was seeing with Avoidant personality disorder. After years of struggling to keep and hold onto a job including two failed attempts...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 15

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    I show off that I'm independent and don't need anyone in my life but to be completely blunt, I don't want to be alone anymore but I feel like there's no one there for me
    sammy1524 sammy1524 16-17, F 16 hrs ago

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    I feel so alone right now 😔
    babylove142 babylove142 18-21, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    Well...I'm all alone now :/
    pop482999 pop482999 18-21, M 13 hrs ago

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    I find it rather comforting to be alone than to feel like a fish out of water in clubs or bars. Serenity >> Chaos
    szchwakovpf szchwakovpf 18-21, M 8 hrs ago

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    Most definitely I would. Being alone isn't all bad, as I'm learning to accept.
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M 7 hrs ago

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    I just want someone, ya know? Even when im around people i feel lonely. People dont connect with me i guess. :(
    SidVicious369 SidVicious369 13-15, M 7 hrs ago

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    I'm alone most days in this house. I don't have many friends because they moved away after we graduated. I am stuck here doing the same things everyday, like a robot. But unlike a...
    DiamondNikki12 DiamondNikki12 18-21, F 5 hrs ago