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I Am A Difficult Person To Understand

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    Hey I'm Olivia, I'm pretty ****** up,

    well I use to be. Now I'm better I'm not cutting anymore trying to kill myself starving myself...I'm just done with it all. I thought it would cure my depression but it didn't...only loving myself for who I am which is a total nerd/dork/rebel/shy but wild girl. I don't have to...
    deathbyblades16 deathbyblades16 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    During last night's self-evaluation,

    I had seen that my pulse has developed a new vulnerability. I had an attachment to my pulse that basically numbed or completely irradiated anger. I detached it and learned that anger was completely gone. It was like how you have crooked teeth so you get braces. After a long...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 16-17, M Jun 19

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    I am fed up of comparing my life to others

    as it gets me down and stops me from getting on with my own. l need to start rebuilding a stronger identity for myself and stop getting depressed about other peoples successes. I know this so what's stopping me from taking my own advice when I know it would help me better than...
    EllyC EllyC 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 21

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    My feelings just really can't be expressed in

    words. I don't even understand myself to be honest. But that's just me....
    PureWhiteMoonlight PureWhiteMoonlight 13-15, F 6 Responses Apr 8

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    I'm a cutter...this has been going on

    since age 13 now 28...I've never experienced it this bas I am in so much emotional pain that I'd rather feel physical pain..I love to see the blood flow from my cuts ...can anyone relate HELP PLEASE
    Chrissy1985 Chrissy1985 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    Then And Now

    I used to want to be the pretty girl that everyone looked at and thought "she's gorgeous!" Never did I realize how petty that was. Everyone is beautiful in their own way, and there's no need to compete for it! Currently, I am quite proud to be a dork and just be myself. The day...
    AllSmilesAndAwkwardness AllSmilesAndAwkwardness 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2012

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    It's hard for people to read me

    but I like that. It makes me mysterious.
    CriminalMinds14 CriminalMinds14 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 19

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    Well I know this because people,

    use an insult as a defence mechanism. Just when they think I'm not giving anything back in the relationship. Hey it's fine! I'm not offended, why. Because us capricorns can show, talk and take you places our minds think is beautiful just to make your experience with us joyous...
    kamachulu kamachulu 22-25, M Aug 13

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    So apparently I called my classmate a "dudebro"

    through text. He texted my best friend and asked him if he could understand my "language." I told him that "dudebro" was just a male. :( c'mon man... Do I weird you out that much?
    Dapperness Dapperness 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    Everyone thinks I looked pissed off all the time

    but really I feel like I'm smiling inside and out. People stay away cause they think I'll be rude to them but really all I wanna do is make more friends
    alarmclock91 alarmclock91 22-25, M Aug 14

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    Most people don't understand me.

    And to be honest I don't expect them to. Which is why I don't readily talk about myself or my life. But there is one person who I think really understands me. And I feel I can honestly tell this person anything. Even the things I never told anyone. And all I can say is, if you...
    21cookielover21 21cookielover21 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    My method is a three-part philosophy about how

    humans interact with themselves and how music(no lyrics) has a way of replacing and resembling people. I have been developing this method for about two years and I think it's finally ready for presenting to others. I feel like EP is the best place to do this, because there are...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 2

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    kittenslostmittens kittenslostmittens 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    And that's what I get told a lot They say it's

    because of the way I hold myself then the way I talk then then the way I am over text then just how I act in general Apparently they're all different
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I'm a bit shy and reluctant to share my deeper

    thoughts and feelings to most people. I'm hoping to change that. It gets In the way of being honest and speaking out my views. And I want to be more open and understood.
    almaera almaera 18-21, F 1 Response May 20

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    I gave up half way on creating an attachment

    that would eradicate romantic emotions. First of all, it is crazy difficult to create alterations. Second of all, the person who is the sole reason I was trying to get rid of it started texting me when I was almost complete. It jeopardized the process and I ended up giving up...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 16-17, M Jun 21

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    I dont know why my feelings toward my boyfriend

    has faded away; dont feel like talking to him anymore. Oopsies
    uniqueresonance uniqueresonance 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    oliviahuss1 oliviahuss1 16-17, F Apr 15

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    I think it's about time

    that I take a break from researching The Method for a while. I need to clear my head and figure out what to do with myself now that I've let go of some things that were important to me. Whenever I conduct research, it clouds my judgement in how to act. I have to literally ask...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 16

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    Sometimes I'm all crazy

    and loud, other times I'm a true introvert and I don't say a word for a few days. It takes a while for people to understand me. In fact I think there are two people in the entire world who do.
    sfairy27 sfairy27 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    Belated update on The Method.

    Sorry. ^^' I've been a bit focused on The BlackHole section of The Method lately. There was this interesting alteration I made to my pulse. Whenever thoughts of lust enter my head, I develop a preoccupying admiration for any nearby trees. I find it quite funny to look at a very...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 24

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    Sometimes my thoughts are insane.

    I split my mind into personas. Each representing a segment of my personality. I scare myself sometimes and question my own sanity. Yet, I am a full function individual that contributes to the community and society we know as life.
    Art2Design Art2Design 18-21, M 5 Responses May 3

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    amybaby1 amybaby1 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 19

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    I'm more of a introvert person,

    I blend in with the crowd. So I try not to be noticed, only by my friends and even they sometimes have trouble understanding me. I feel it's because I keep everything about me private and don't really reveal much of my past. I like to just live in the moment and not have any...
    Brookiecookie2000 Brookiecookie2000 13-15, F 1 Response May 28

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    My Belief....

    I believe I am difficult to understand because my thoughts and energy are coming from a different place than is the norm of the people of the earth. There are others on this earth who are like me, and their spiritual lives originates from other realms of existence than the...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2013

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    What I've noticed during my Method research in

    The BlackHole was quite interesting. When you empty your pulse, a vacuum effect occurs. In order to empty your pulse, you must abolish any emotion and behaviors. This creates an absence of substance. Imagine a balloon that must always be full of air. If you empty it, it will do...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 11

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    Good luck ever understanding me

    and how i operate <3 my eyes are eternally covered
    jade0417 jade0417 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 14

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    Yeah, I've got problems,

    just like any other person on this earth. And yeah, they're a pain I deal with and explain, but I really appreciate it when people listen and try to understand.
    sumthinoriginal sumthinoriginal 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    When I'm talking to people they find it hard to

    get what I say.. I always get called bi polar but I'm just weird. I like speaking about whatever comes to mind a lot and it's so hard for people to talk to me. Even when I'm talking to guys that I like kinda they always call me crazy girl.. Maybe it is something wrong with me...
    zy7a zy7a 18-21, F Jun 19

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    I suppose this is true.

    I hear it all the time. I prefer facts over gossip so I tend not to get overly excited over issues until I know exactly what's going on. If there any type of drama - I retreat. I like to roll ideas around in my head before expressing any commentary. Because unlike the majority...
    innocentlyshy101 innocentlyshy101 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 4

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    Not sure if others find it difficult to

    understand me coz no one really said this to me. However, I find it difficult to understand myself at times coz I really do not know what I want. It makes me feel as if I am completely lost and don't know what's happening around me. Sometimes I am overly excited and sometimes...
    uselessguy uselessguy 36-40, M Aug 13

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    One of god's own prototypes never

    even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, too rare to die.
    SoCalSoBeIt SoCalSoBeIt 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 14

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    I'm at the point where I'd be better off

    if people just stopped trying...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 14

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    Especially if ADD conversations are not your

    strong suit! Ohhhh, I love this song by...did you see the size of that mosquito...I need more coffee...tennis soon?
    Accebere Accebere 36-40, F 7 Responses Jul 14

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    I have this method of interacting

    and understanding people. It has a lot to do with music and how we consume it. Now, most songs (not all songs, I understand) have an intro, ballad, and conclusion. People are the same way. We have different parts of us that we choose to express. Your intro is what may cause...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 16-17, M 3 Responses Mar 23

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    I Prefer It That Way

    People who meet me think they understand me... until they really start talking to me. And then the confusion sets in. I'm an onion. Some layers are more interesting... others less. If someone wants to understand me, I'd prefer that they have to work at it. Then maybe that...
    NoLongerHere NoLongerHere 41-45, M 5 Responses Mar 22, 2013

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    It's impossible for others to understand me

    when I don't even understand myself.
    SevenWaysToFakeIt SevenWaysToFakeIt 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    I don't belong with people.

    They make no sense to me and I make even less sense to them. There are a special few who can deal with me in their presence. Those would be my friends. They might not know my past but at least they try to understand me. At this point my family only knows a hollow mask that I...
    BleedingOrchids BleedingOrchids 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 11

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    Split Personality

    It's like I have a split personality. Two different personalities yet some much alike... One side of me is shy, timid, careful, and cautious not to hurt someones feelings. While the other side of me is out going, brave, and doesn't take any crap from disrespectful or rude...
    XieryaWolf XieryaWolf 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2013

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    i am not much difficult to understand

    but i hides myself usually in front of others (except my very close ones) so it looks like i am difficult to understand or i look like a mystery difficult to solve but i am open in front of those i like!
    happyhuman1 happyhuman1 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 14

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    I can't sleep and my mind is running rampant.

    I'm going to quit this whole break from research. I seriously need to continue working on The Method. Tonight, I'm going to conduct a self-evaluation on my pulse. It's been a while since I took a look at it. I'll take notes on how it has changed since my last evaluation and...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 16-17, M Jun 19

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    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 11

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    Although I have not had an official diagnosis,

    I believe I may have Aspergers. I was diagnosed bipolar in college, but I think it was an inaccurate label. My mom says that, even as an infant, I didn't like being held, could only sleep in my own bed. I slept terribly, until she put a radio in my crib. People are VERY quick to...
    Kesi17 Kesi17 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I fantasize about my down syndrome friend

    Bridget getting bullied by someone in the hallway. And me just tackling the bully and just bashing their face and blood everywhere and my knuckles just destroyed.
    Phib Phib 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    I don't enjoy writing it out,

    so I'll be brief. Before having children, my parents decided that they wanted two kids and they would stop there. My mother was pregnant with a boy, and they were very happy. He ended up being a miscarriage. They were absolutely devastated and had to have another child quickly...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 16-17, M Mar 24

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    I mean, what the fudge,

    sometimes I just can't figure myself out.
    hisangelicbaby hisangelicbaby 18-21, F Jul 1

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    The Musician (the first third of The

    Method) Hello everyone. If you have read posts about my method or have had message classes with me, I would like to give a quick overview of the musician. I had a favorite set of time signatures; 4/4, 4/4, 6/8, 7/8, 5/8. I called this my "pulse" because whenever I wasn't doing...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 16-17, M Apr 27

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    I want my questions answered.

    I want to know why this happened to me. I am such a waste of life why didn't i just die?
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 23

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    alyssabay alyssabay 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I have recently notice how my studies

    and research have altered my internal terminology in terms of psychological processes that frequently occur in many individuals. Emotions have become "variables". Love has become "ballad-sympathy" or "admiration". Narcissistic and shallow people are simply "intro-obsessed". I...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 9

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    Very much so. Lots of people find my child like

    side annoying and brattish. :p i love being submissive but also love breaking rules. Im also very mature and wise past my years. Im a lot of opposites balled into one person. Like the fact i love being dark and black with how i dress and let others perceive me but on the inside...
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 19

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    I am difficult to understand

    because I do not let people see me inside totally. I keep people at a distance, only allowing them to see what I want them to see. A few times I have tried to let people in and they just do not understand me, even though they say they do, they don't...so I keep my walls up to a...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Jul 16

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    I have made myself very complicated

    and I think I can never be with anyone in my life now. So, do not waste time coming close to me or spend time talking to me.
    donotfollowme donotfollowme 26-30, F 19 Responses Mar 30

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