I Am a Dreamer and a Thinker

When I was 15 I believed that I was gifted - how or why, I don't know - But I believed it.

I knew then that no matter what I did, my life would be successful and struggle would be a word I read in someone else story, but not mine...

Its really strange how life goes on with things teaches you and things you will learn from it.

When you're in love with unexpected guy in unexpected time , when you don't know how your relationship will end ! Or confused wondering if...

I used to love lying on my bed, pondering and reflecting on the outside world. Do nothing and just lay there with my eyes closed. I would let my thoughts wander by themselves and take me anywhere.

But lately I find myself trapped in...

Well I wrote this a while back for a psyche that kept hounding me about writing down my thoughts, so I gave her what she asked for.. but a small window a day would take me too long.

OK, well, Carroll you wanted to see a journal but...

Beyoncé- I was Here

I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time
Know there was something that, meant something that I left behind
When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets
Leave something to remember, so they won't forget

I...

This one is for the ladies…

By the time the Lord made woman, he was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?"And the Lord answered, "...

A time comes in your life when you finally get it. When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling...

Lately my mind has changed. Im not sure what happened but at times its like no ones home. At times im engulfed in a feeling of hopelessness. It feels horrible. Everything is meaningless, pointless, worthless. Nothing matters. Im not...

In the "Waking Moments" (whatever that means) I cook up ideas: Some Lego Playsets, (which sadly my Digital Designer won't let me connect certain pieces certain ways,) some story ideas for a Fantasy Fiction novel, some possibilities that...

I dream about a lot of things in life. it's not normal for anyone to wake up everyday and not want anything in life. Come on, you only have one life to live, better make the best of it. Dream of something, anything and make it happen...

I dream big dreams.

I think big thoughts.

All I need to do is act on them. Make the dream reality. Don't just think- act.

A big lesson, but an important one. Dream big, but follow through.

I spent the better part of this afternoon contemplating the purpose of dreams. Why, I asked myself is the brain capable of creating this conscious manifestation of something that we desire when it is wholly impossible in reality? Cruel...

Well, looks like I'm still fighting strong. I wake up everyday with an empty void but I get back up. Don't know how long I can fight on any longer. The universe deals people the cards they deserve. I would fold if I could. If there is...

I am always thinking about the purpose of life, the 'reality' of existence, trying to logically fit the pieces of the puzzle together, trying to understand, trying to find answers, trying to find you..... I am always looking for signs...

every night I lay in bed and just think about as much as possible I will pretty much do this until I go to sleep
I really enjoy it because it lets me imagine freely and just enter a world of my own
I lay down just trying to comprehend...

My dreams are so big. They are bigger than me. At times I get scared that I will never fulfill them. Passion ever flowing sometimes they bombard me. All this passion, all of these ideas it breaks my heart to even entertain the thought...

I once had the arrogance to believe that I would change the world. But, as what happens over time, the world changed me. The ideals are still there, but they keep get buried deeper every year. I become a little more cynical. I've...

Why do we punish ourselves for dreaming? Through dreams we can think about a possible future! If not for dreams I'd bet we'd still be in caves. Not to mention how miserable we can be without dreams! Why do you think we are so hard on...

I want to get far, far away from home. Just take my bycykel and go endless places.
See nature's power and feel free! No rules, no fear and no worries! I think that will be happiness for me.

I think there is too many rules in life...

I've been here a few weeks now but I still feel so young & inexperienced, on this site I mean, not in real life.  OK, well sometimes in real life too but that's another story.  I had no idea where to write...