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I Am a Drug Addict

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    Drugs Ruin Not Just You But The Soul You Call Your Own

    i didn't have a very long drug using life it all really started when i was 17, im 19 now i know only 2 years that's not a long time but in that time i lived a life time of memories and i was so stuck on this pink cloud of addiction i loved every bit of it i didn't know what i was...
    rootzyz rootzyz 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 28, 2013

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    I am a meth addict. I've been to rehab twice.

    This second time was only a week ago. I am 30 days sober today. Before I relapsed I was clean for 8 months. I have been on dope since I was 18, I'm now 21. I've made some horrible choices and been treated like garbage because of my addiction. That kind of life isn't one you want...
    morgannmckenna morgannmckenna 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 3

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    I Say I Care, But I Don't

    I say I care, and want to stop, but I never do, I just keep using. Like why not, that's what goes through my head. nothing, no one matters to me enough to stop.
    APS9 APS9 31-35 3 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    A drug addict I am. And guess what?

    I really want to stop but depression makes me come back. Like a loyal dog to its abusive owner. It makes me lose all the money I have and I have to make money again in order to get back the thing that harms me the most.
    LilithAbney LilithAbney 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I Can't Stop.

    It's like going in circles all the time, and the more I try to stop, the more I realize I just don't wanna stop. I don't want it to be over. I need that feeling. I need Molly. But I'm lost, I'm all alone, I'm empty, broken. I want to die. I hate myself. Nobody understands me.
    MileyMolly92 MileyMolly92 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    Maintenence Addictions Suck..

    I'm a recovering addict. I used any pain pill I could get ahold of,and sometimes snorted heroin. Never shot up, I was too chicken **** to go that far. Mostly vicodin and oxys,I'm a troubled girl,so taking meds kinda took the pain away. My ex and I were together for 11 years,and...
    Fedup724 Fedup724 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2012

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    Its a Sacry Thing to Say.......

    Its a scary and lonely and lonely place to be a drug addict!! I was a a normal person once , I didn't need anything to help through the day . I would enjoy a drink or even a smoke of weed now and again but I didn't need it !! I never broke the law !! I had a **** childhood but...
    summer68 summer68 36-40, F 7 Responses Jul 27, 2008

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    I'm addicted to prescription painkillers.

    Withdrawing bc I'm sick of this **** and I want it to be over but it's really ******* hard and feels impossible. I can't think can't sleep can't eat can't ******* function.
    Brinkofgreatness Brinkofgreatness 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    Addict.

     I've been in and out of rehabs for the past four years. Heroin grabs me by the ***** and doesnt let go. i'm in a five month treatment program right now in washington. i seem to be getting it now. but yea i had so much trouble being myself until i started drinking. drinking...
    joshua666 joshua666 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 20, 2010

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    I Dont Know How Much Longer

    i am 19 years old. i started using when i was 18, and i used intraveniously every.single.day. multiple times a day for about a year. i am now 160 days sober to the date, but i dont know how much longer i can make it last. i didnt quit for myself, i quit for my family and the few...
    SarawAnn SarawAnn 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    Mary Molly

    I'm 14 years old. i started drugs a year ago at first I smoked weed, snort coke popped pills after morphine and now hash and mdma. my story isn't that interesting, im still young and I don't smoke crack or wtv I just needed to share that. I started doing drugs because my two...
    manue420 manue420 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    One Year Ago

    I was driving past a ***** mall and I noticed a guy laying down on his back on the sidewalk. It was 7pm and no one was around. I pulled up and asked if he was ok but he didn't say anything. I tried to wake him up. I checked his pulse but felt nothing. I ran to the end of the...
    chumchi chumchi 41-45, F 9 Responses Aug 13, 2012

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    Im Messed Up

    Iv been addicted to my medication since high school and do other drugs as well. Not proud of it all. And im the only one that can help my self. Cuz my friends all have there own problems with alcohol, drugs etc. So yah I need help and fast..
    victoriouss victoriouss 22-25 1 Response Jun 24, 2013

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    Where Do I Even Begin?

    When I was 14 I smoked my first cigarette... I hung out with a crowd of kids that were several years older than I was and in their eyes this made me the cool kid. That feeling of acceptance became my first addiction. I am only just now realizing that that desire to be accepted is...
    blovely0521 blovely0521 26-30 1 Response Mar 21, 2013

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    I'M A Criminal Drug Addict

    They say I'm bi polar.., I struggled all my life by being unwanted because I was adopted. And traumatic experiences leading to a wild life style of partying. Never been in trouble ,because I never got. Hit Rick bottom and got a Aggravated Dwi. I've pretty much been depressed most...
    jenp1984 jenp1984 26-30 2 Responses Jul 29, 2013

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    Hello, I'm Sarah. I'm fourteen

    and addicted to prescription and over-the-counter pills. It all kind of seems like a blur. It seems like yesterday I was your typical American teenager, but now it's all different. I need my fix. It doesn't matter what it is anymore. I'll take anything I can get. Anti-Nausea...
    sarah81199 sarah81199 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 17

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    What Ha

    Im a 53 yr old Male. Have a wonderful wife and 3 sons , 18, 17 & 7. The 7 yr old was left at our house when he was 8 months old. At first my wife was not sure it was best for us to keep him. She said when our two boys are off to collage Nicholas will just be starting school and...
    strunky strunky 51-55 1 Response Jul 1, 2013

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    The Trials Of Me...

    I'm a 26 year old man and a recovering drug addict. This may be long and tragic. Well, I abused drugs for many years, started smoking weed and drinking at the tender age of 12. I was constantly influenced by my peers (or I influenced them), and eventually I moved on to...
    StressinIt StressinIt 26-30, M 5 Responses Sep 16, 2013

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    The Way I Escape Is Drugs

    I started out with speed, then people gave me a couple ruffie's to try to have sex with me, take advantage of me.. then I was raped by a biker couple while my husband went on an out of town job trip, I opened the door when someone knocked and boom this Hells Angel's member came...
    Smokinhotblonde Smokinhotblonde 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2013

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    But i dont wanna be. Some girl i met in college

    a few months ago let me smoke some meth with her, it was my first time. I told my bf and he got so mad he almost left me. We both smoke pot but dont really mess with anything else. I promised I wouldn't do it again, but four months later the girl rarely talks to me (I think she...
    Jujubee45 Jujubee45 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    I'm Finally Admitting It: I'm A Pothead

    Before I begin, I ask that you please don't tell me that you can't get addicted to weed. True, your body doesn't experience any withdrawal symptoms for real, but you can still want it like crazy. If I have a 20 in my pocket, I give in to that urge. And to me, that's being...
    fadedphoenix fadedphoenix 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 10, 2013

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    How I Lost My Leg ( Btw -i Am Detoxing Of Suboxone Right Now.....and It Sucks But......

     ........it's better than detoxing off of dope.) This was not the start of my druggin' but the start of my heroin addiction. This is my first story that i have written. I started when I was 23. I am 29 now. I was dating someone obviously not good for me. Got arrested went to...
    Lanora22 Lanora22 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 27, 2011

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    Letting Go Of Drugs....one Mans Struggle..starting Soon

    Hey, Before i start please dont think that i am advocating the use of drugs in any manner.  I just want to give my perspective on my use of drugs and what im going through now.  I am a drug user, not hardcore but ive done the majority of things..barring crack and heroin...
    ec228 ec228 26-30, M 4 Responses Jun 2, 2010

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    I Need Someone To Save Me

    I wrote last year this time. I had plans to stay away from roxies,.close my CPS case, get my son back, get josh back...noo it just got worse and worse. I met an older guy named dave who didnt want me to sleep with him, just wanted to hear my stories. He put a roof over my head...
    BellaVara BellaVara 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Its Hard Not to Be

    Its difficult not to do drugs, if i see drugs. especially for a male who has been doing drugs since the end of high school. i cant stop, and may never stop. as it is, i mooch off everyone. i cant hold a job, i cant do anything right. i'm a loser.
    COURAGE26 COURAGE26 26-30, M 6 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    Admitting Is the First Step.

    OK I am addicted to many things. I started drinking and smoking pot around the age of 11/12. There is so much of my life that I don't remember. Started smoking cigarettes at 12 as well. When I was 13, I first tried coke,  I also snorted Rids and tylenol 3. I have battled...
    TiPoupon TiPoupon 18-21, F 4 Responses May 20, 2008

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    No One Came To Save Me

    I shaked and stuttered as i read my Life & Addiction essay. I kept thinking "in the end, everyone will clap for me." no one did. i asked why, upset and broken. "because your story was so sad. no one elses was like that." How my world ended was why i was in this place, rehab. Or...
    BellaVara BellaVara 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2012

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    Hi I Love Cocaine

    Hi I just became really addicted to cocaine. I love it and need to piut lines up my nose every day haha I'm actually messed up out of my mind right now and I feel great haha. It's the best feeling in the world it all started for me when I started hanging out with a friend who...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Feb 17, 2013

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    I Don't Know When I Will Be Home.

    I'm sat here counting the lose change from my pockets, I hear the sound of coins falling onto the table....thud,thud,thud, I know any miniute you will be home, I know I have to leave soon if I want to get a fix, otherwise we will fight once more, I relise I don't have enough...
    runningtonowhere runningtonowhere 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    Im Add Icted To Heroin

    I started using heroin about 2 yrs ago.. I was using for a couple of months until i found out i was pregnant.. And then i stopped...just like that... i stopped!!!! My son is now 11 months old and am back to my old habits.. i have been using again since he was about 3 months old...
    jademarie2012 jademarie2012 26-30 3 Responses Aug 2, 2012

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    A New Beginning

    Hey whats going on again everyone, today is day 4 in about 20 mins it will be day 5 clean and off heroin. I cant even begin to describe in words how much better I feel now that I am clean, and now it feels as if I dont even need to use my suboxone in the a.m and p.m which is...
    james117 james117 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 14, 2012

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    Yeah Addiction

    i'm a drug addict. It sucks. i'm trying to tame the beasts and it's hard but i've got them backed into the corner for now. Good luck with yours.
    vardo5 vardo5 26-30, M 7 Responses Oct 12, 2007

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    Im cali, im 16 years old,

    and i am a drug addict, i am addicted to the life style and i dont see myself ever getting out. Im trapped. It makes me feel so good, but at times it makes me fall on my face. i need help. i want help. Ive been to multipul residential treatment centers but they just introduce me...
    Calihoffmanxd Calihoffmanxd 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    B0BjustB0B B0BjustB0B 51-55 4 Responses Mar 16

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    I am only turning 17

    and my youth has been wasting away with constant drug use. I am surrounded with friends and family who constantly do drugs, I was brought up around it and I eventually go in. It has ruined my life. Drugs and alcohol. I thought it would cure the pain. I thought I would stop...
    jamieregan jamieregan 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2013

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    Hi My Name Is Ed I'm a Addict

    I'm a addict and would like to share part of my story. Have been drugging and drinking for over 30 years. I started out at Young age pre-teen. I grew up with drugs and alcohol all my life it seem to be normal for it's what my family did. I grew up very shy I did not talk in...
    edupnorth edupnorth 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 13, 2008

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    Oxycodone and OxyContin are my drugs of choice.

    ..my dad nearly died from it and I told myself is never be like that. I struggle with addiction all the time and so far I've been clean for about 3 months, but the struggle is always there and I will always be an addict.
    babykaykez babykaykez 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 26

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    Recovering Drug Addict Pharmacist

    Statistically, 15% of healthcare professionals will struggle with some form of addiction at some point in their careers. With 3 million nurses, 1 million doctors, and a quarter million pharmacists in the U.S., that means that at any given time, there are 650,000 healthcare...
    jaredcombs jaredcombs 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    Im Addicted

    I'm almost 43 years old. People say you can't get addicted to weed. But its true. Some people do and some don't. I'm addicted to marijuana. I have a love and hate relationship with marijuana. I love the drug, yet I hate having bad trips when I have them. But not very often I do...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    I'm so addicted to any benzo I love them

    so much I take them everyday or whenever I can get my hands on them I also smoke weed and will do other **** occasionally but I wanna be sober so badly
    malibubarbie420 malibubarbie420 18-21, F Dec 1, 2013

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    I need to get help but it's my senior year in

    high school & I don't want to **** this up. I'm trying my hardest to stay away from drugs but my depression makes me want them. I got started in the 8th grade, my bestfriend stole pot from her dad and we smoked it. It was fun for a couple years but I knew that there was more...
    macixo macixo 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    The Way I Escape Is Drugs

    I started out with speed, then people gave me a couple ruffie's to try to have sex with me, take advantage of me.. then I was raped by a biker couple while my husband went on an out of town job trip, I opened the door when someone knocked and boom this Hells Angel's member came...
    Smokinhotblonde Smokinhotblonde 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 25, 2013

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    Everyday I'm Hustlin

    I'm 27 years old, a mother of 3. Pain pills run my life. I rarely purchase pills because I hustle all day an to earn them. I dedicate my days chasing ****. I live with immense guilt everyday. My family is beaking and its my fault. I wish I could jusy stop and be free
    youOme youOme 26-30 3 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    I'm so addicted to any benzo I love them

    so much I take them everyday or whenever I can get my hands on them I also smoke weed and will do other **** occasionally but I wanna be sober so badly
    malibubarbie420 malibubarbie420 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    I've always been one to use in moderation.

    started with the whole raving and E and learning to shuffle on the weekends enjoying life... then losing party privileges cause i had to pick up a second job to help the fam... to working two full time jobs and hardly finding time to sleep. being introduced to harder substances...
    destinyisfate destinyisfate 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    It Will Never End

    When I was 14 I was given pain killers by my doctor,it didn't take long for me to start abusing them. By the time I was 16 I started drinking and abusing pain killers every single day. Last year I was offered cocaine by one of Andre's friends and I took him up on the offer. Since...
    YoungGothicWriter YoungGothicWriter 18-21 6 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    Otc Drug And Legal Herb Addictions

    Hello, I have recently realized that the way I use some otc drugs and legal herbs is creating some bad effects as of late, and would like to share and get support from others out there. First, a bit of background. 7 years ago when I was 21, I was depressed and went to a...
    cubicleclown cubicleclown 26-30 4 Responses Jul 3, 2013

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    Hooked On Opiotes

    Someone please help me I'm trying to get clean but I'm miserable
    Failedtaper Failedtaper 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I apologize in advance for grammar, i typed this on my phone. i have loved a drug addict for 5 years now. his drug of choice? the 30 mg roxycodone painkillers and now heroin.. we...
    tinkerbell1200 tinkerbell1200 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hey! I'm new here at EP and I really need someone to talk to, good advice, experiences and such.. I don't know what to do! My boyfriend did do drugs and tried to take his own life...
    lilcarey lilcarey 22-25, F Mar 27

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    Hey! I'm new here at EP and I really need someone to talk to, good advice, experiences and such.. I don't know what to do! My boyfriend did do drugs and tried to take his own life...
    lilcarey lilcarey 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    My boyfriend used to be a drug addict. He said he used every drug in the books for a while and was addicted to heroine, but got clean a year ago. I know couple of days ago his...
    isobeljune isobeljune 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    My sister completed a 60 day stint in rehab and was just released this past Monday. She has had a long history with prescription pills but has never had the right treatment to deal...
    Anec233 Anec233 26-30, F Mar 21

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    I have a 2 year old with the love of my life. This is my first encounter with drug addiction of any kind. His choice is Rx pills, but I'm convinced it's progressed to heroin. We...
    AlmostWhole AlmostWhole 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    My ex husband of 15 years was a drug addict. Very hard to live with and love. I finally had to leave him ......in hope that he would get help and change for our children and myself...
    dawwnrenee dawwnrenee 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 8

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    My boyfriend and I have been together for about a year now. I knew from the beginning he struggled with a drug addiction, but I had no idea what I was getting into. We were only...
    Shelllbywilssson Shelllbywilssson 18-21, F Mar 30

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