I Am a Drug Addict

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    What Ha

    Im a 53 yr old Male. Have a wonderful wife and 3 sons , 18, 17 & 7. The 7 yr old was left at our house when he was 8 months old. At first my wife was not sure it was best for us to keep him. She said when our two boys are off to collage Nicholas will just be starting school and...
    strunky strunky
    2 Responses Jul 1, 2013

    i have been abusing drugs

    for 6 years i have lost alot of weight from it. family. friends my life my savings my job. everything i am lonelly sad depressed i want my life back and same with my family i came from a home were both my parents were addicts and same with my sister i went from loving...
    maddiipaiige maddiipaiige
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 1, 2016

    We Who Can Comeback From The "drug Hell"

    Hello boys and girls..! Ya… I had been a Meth addict… I started doing Meth at the age of 16 and I has been addicted to meth for 2 years. Before that I had heard about Meth from my friends, my guy..But I never thought that I would ever put it up in my mouth, felt it and...
    Kandiagio Kandiagio
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 10, 2012

    Oxycodone and OxyContin are my drugs of choice.

    ..my dad nearly died from it and I told myself is never be like that. I struggle with addiction all the time and so far I've been clean for about 3 months, but the struggle is always there and I will always be an addict.
    babykaykez babykaykez
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Jan 26, 2014

    I have been clean for 10 months

    and 2 days ago I relapsed on meth. I don't know how to stop it now! My wife is getting suspicious and has every right to be. I tell myself after this bag I'm done again but it hasn't happened. When I got low I got more. I want to come clean and tell my wife but I don't want to...
    jjeff88 jjeff88
    26-30, M
    Mar 14, 2015

    I've always been one to use in moderation.

    started with the whole raving and E and learning to shuffle on the weekends enjoying life... then losing party privileges cause i had to pick up a second job to help the fam... to working two full time jobs and hardly finding time to sleep. being introduced to harder substances...
    destinyisfate destinyisfate
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Mar 29, 2014

    Guess who's high again?

    Lasted 2 days without.
    JacobtheJunkie JacobtheJunkie
    22-25, M
    Jan 12, 2016

    My friends think I only do a bit of weed on

    some occasions how they are wrong, I wouldn't use the word addict as such I probably could completely quit but why would I. On holiday at the moment and finding it hard to cope but it's not impossible
    nochurchinthewild nochurchinthewild
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 15, 2014
    johnboi284 johnboi284
    31-35, M
    May 16, 2015

    Recovering Drug Addict Pharmacist

    Statistically, 15% of healthcare professionals will struggle with some form of addiction at some point in their careers. With 3 million nurses, 1 million doctors, and a quarter million pharmacists in the U.S., that means that at any given time, there are 650,000 healthcare...
    jaredcombs jaredcombs
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Oct 19, 2009

    No One Came To Save Me

    I shaked and stuttered as i read my Life & Addiction essay. I kept thinking "in the end, everyone will clap for me." no one did. i asked why, upset and broken. "because your story was so sad. no one elses was like that." How my world ended was why i was in this place, rehab. Or...
    BellaVara BellaVara
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 22, 2012

    Well.. I think I am turning into one.

    a few months back, I tried Molly for the first time and had the worst experience of my life. I'm a lightweight, but I always forget that and get scared/worried that I won't take enough (of anything) to feel good. What made this experience bad was that I took about 6 shots of...
    ilubx ilubx
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 27, 2015

    no more weed left this month

    but got a hold of some oxycodone and I'm sitting here listening to music feeling good but sleepy.
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 24, 2015

    A needle in my arm, the thoughts in my

    head What's it matter anyways? By the morning, I'll be dead It'll all end quick, why not do it right now? Yeah, I'm dealing with some ****, I just don't know how And my friend's got the powder, so I hook him up with pills And his friends got the rocks, so we're hookin' up some...
    jasminepeck jasminepeck
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 11, 2015

    Mary Molly

    I'm 14 years old. i started drugs a year ago at first I smoked weed, snort coke popped pills after morphine and now hash and mdma. my story isn't that interesting, im still young and I don't smoke crack or wtv I just needed to share that. I started doing drugs because my two...
    manue420 manue420
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 12, 2013

    I love smoking meth more

    than anything nothing makes me happier.
    MrHhol MrHhol
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jun 14, 2015

    I am only turning 17

    and my youth has been wasting away with constant drug use. I am surrounded with friends and family who constantly do drugs, I was brought up around it and I eventually go in. It has ruined my life. Drugs and alcohol. I thought it would cure the pain. I thought I would stop...
    jamieregan jamieregan
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 16, 2013

    Everyday I seem to lose more

    and more hope and care less and less about the value of my life. My outlook on life has become so pathetic over the years, it's sad. I stick that needle into my veins as if it were as routine as getting dressed in the morning. I don't even beat myself up for it afterwards like I...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jun 18, 2014
    MrNightmare0 MrNightmare0
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Jun 3, 2015

    I huff air cans And I feel like a ****** up

    piece of **** for doing this
    scissorovacomb scissorovacomb
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 26, 2015

    I am a meth addict. I've been to rehab twice.

    This second time was only a week ago. I am 30 days sober today. Before I relapsed I was clean for 8 months. I have been on dope since I was 18, I'm now 21. I've made some horrible choices and been treated like garbage because of my addiction. That kind of life isn't one you want...
    morgannmckenna morgannmckenna
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Apr 3, 2014

    I've been clean about 5 months now,

    but I'm having the WORST cravings ever. I'm shaking as I'm writing this, feel like I'm illing all over again. I need so,done to talk to before I relapse, plz help me!!
    Mizbaltimore Mizbaltimore
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 12, 2015

    I Don't Know When I Will Be Home.

    I'm sat here counting the lose change from my pockets, I hear the sound of coins falling onto the table....thud,thud,thud, I know any miniute you will be home, I know I have to leave soon if I want to get a fix, otherwise we will fight once more, I relise I don't have enough...
    runningtonowhere runningtonowhere
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2012


    natalienicole2015 natalienicole2015
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 1, 2015

    "Cause every time I go to try to

    leave Somethin' keeps pullin' on my sleeve I don't wanna, but I gotta stay These drugs really got a hold of me Cause every time I try to tell 'em "no" They won't let me ever let 'em go I'm a sucker all I gotta say These drugs really got a hold of me" Eminem - Drug Ballad
    deleted deleted
    Sep 1, 2014

    I wish i didn't remember.

    ... I remember sitting in that laundry room, restless as i waited eagerly for the pipe to circle back to me, smoke burning my teeth as i inhaled, thoughts swirling and barreling into each other. I remember stealing my friends car, watching the trust vacate her eyes as she...
    chelsbels105 chelsbels105
    22-25, F
    Sep 9, 2015

    I am an addict, I doctor shopping,

    ER hopping drug addict. I have been clean 95 days. I havent been to the ER or to the Doc to obtain narcotic prescriptions in 95 days. Pretty good seeing I have been addicted to opioids for 18 years. I regret all the lying I did, but in my defense withdrawing is a horrific...
    thebooboo thebooboo
    26-30, F
    Jul 17, 2015

    Orlando UCF Area. Subutex 8mg ,

    also have quarters mg . Can get baggies and bars G3772 you out if u can take care of me a little. txt 4072806082
    deleted deleted
    Oct 14, 2015

    i'm two days heroin free.

    .. It hurts sooooo bad
    Avalina20 Avalina20
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 23, 2015

    I've been drug free for a week exactly.

    I hope it doesn't all come crashing down on me.
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    I've been using drugs

    since 12. I OD'd at 19 from H so I moved on to cocaine. I've actually been able to downgrade even though I trade one vice for another. No more cocaine now weed, alcohol, and prescription drugs, but my bills get paid. I don't beat my kids or fight the cops. I need those to...
    dirtydarkness dirtydarkness
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jun 20, 2014

    Last night I got together with my best friend

    and we bought some dope and it was my first time doing it. It was strong and we were told it had fentanyl in it. We were a little worried at first but my friend was already experienced at doing it and she shot up before helping me do a smaller line. I smoked weed before I...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 4, 2015

    i am addicted to opiates.

    any pills i can get my hands on. lately i've been stealing hydrocodone & i feel like a disgusting piece of scum for it. right now i'm trying to ween myself off using tramadol. do you think this will work? i'm mostly just afraid of accidental overdose. as much as i hate myself...
    cymmetry cymmetry
    22-25, T
    2 Responses Mar 8, 2016

    I will always crave it

    but its nice to be off
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 8, 2014

    i got subs in orlando area.

    . hit me up if your tryna take a break or prevent from being sick
    newtofl15 newtofl15
    26-30, M
    Oct 21, 2015

    One Year Ago

    I was driving past a ***** mall and I noticed a guy laying down on his back on the sidewalk. It was 7pm and no one was around. I pulled up and asked if he was ok but he didn't say anything. I tried to wake him up. I checked his pulse but felt nothing. I ran to the end of the...
    chumchi chumchi
    41-45, F
    8 Responses Aug 13, 2012

    I'm so happy I found some dilaudid

    and I'm just starting to feel it. I'm feeling goooood!
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jun 27, 2015

    A drug addict I am. And guess what?

    I really want to stop but depression makes me come back. Like a loyal dog to its abusive owner. It makes me lose all the money I have and I have to make money again in order to get back the thing that harms me the most.
    LilithAbney LilithAbney
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 18, 2014

    when you start looking on the ground

    for little peices that fell, just to get high I'm disappointed in myself. #addiction
    calibuds calibuds
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 12, 2014

    I Say I Care, But I Don't

    I say I care, and want to stop, but I never do, I just keep using. Like why not, that's what goes through my head. nothing, no one matters to me enough to stop.
    APS9 APS9
    3 Responses Nov 3, 2012

    I am just now looking at my addiction.

    I have been clean for four years. After 10 years on the street, selling my body, 5 years in prison, and waking up one morning asking myself "what are you doing?" I am clean! Four years! It wasn't even hard. I mean I was sick and terrible feeling, and thank god I was pregnant or...
    fayeunold fayeunold
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Dec 5, 2014

    It's hard to quit. I stopped using morphine 4

    months ago. Haven't touched that since but few moths back I relapsed and took some codeine. Tried to get clean again after using it for a week and I was drug free for about 2 months until few days ago I relapsed again. I should try to quit again but it just seems pointless...
    JacobtheJunkie JacobtheJunkie
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 8, 2016

    Im Add Icted To Heroin

    I started using heroin about 2 yrs ago.. I was using for a couple of months until i found out i was pregnant.. And then i stopped...just like that... i stopped!!!! My son is now 11 months old and am back to my old habits.. i have been using again since he was about 3 months old...
    jademarie2012 jademarie2012
    3 Responses Aug 2, 2012
    Dorsey6114 Dorsey6114
    22-25, M
    Oct 14, 2015

    I'm Finally Admitting It: I'm A Pothead

    Before I begin, I ask that you please don't tell me that you can't get addicted to weed. True, your body doesn't experience any withdrawal symptoms for real, but you can still want it like crazy. If I have a 20 in my pocket, I give in to that urge. And to me, that's being...
    fadedphoenix fadedphoenix
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jul 10, 2013

    I tried it just to know what it felt like.

    at first I didn't feel anything, then my ears began to tingle. I was spinning. my heart was racing and I felt like I was on top of the world. then once I came down, i wanted more. I am addicted to ice and im afraid I can't stop.... the dope makes me feel alive and as if I am not...
    theprincess13 theprincess13
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 24, 2015

    The Trials Of Me...

    I'm a 26 year old man and a recovering drug addict. This may be long and tragic. Well, I abused drugs for many years, started smoking weed and drinking at the tender age of 12. I was constantly influenced by my peers (or I influenced them), and eventually I moved on to...
    StressinIt StressinIt
    26-30, M
    5 Responses Sep 16, 2013

    i'm 32 and have been using drugs

    since i was 15. started with weed and alcohol(always does right?) then moved onto ex and acid. everyday weed smoker for about ten years. found coke. had a $100 dollar a day coke habit for a about a year. can't remember how i afforded it. then fell in love with the bottle. 120...
    lostandbewildered lostandbewildered
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 23, 2014

    I sit here with the third bloomer

    for my night under my tongue u know it's not lsd it's probably some nBOMe or something Idk lastnight when I began on my journey I had saved myself enough bk-molly or actual mdma not sure which either I had saved enough(from my 4 day long binge in the stuff) to dose again to putt...
    TheSameOne TheSameOne
    22-25, M
    Jun 1, 2015
    B0BjustB0B B0BjustB0B
    56-60, M
    6 Responses Mar 16, 2014
    Tripppy Tripppy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 25, 2015

    does anyone else think they see ****

    when high on dilaudid(hydromorphone)?
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 23, 2015

    I am addicted to speed (amphetamine

    if ya dont know) and have been since I was 17 I use to take 8 grams a day sometimes more I have been off it for about 5 months now yay me!
    BlondieBabyMwahX BlondieBabyMwahX
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 14, 2014

    "When I come home from work,

    I'm fiendin for an eight-ball I got crack on my mind, I'm hearin cocaine call Telling me to beep the dealer to deliver me stuff Keep it a secret from my wife, cause she thinks I don't use drugs" Necro - I Need Drugs
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 1, 2014

    I need some paper to get high

    or drunk I need to get this ***** off my mind , she ain't right for me
    calibuds calibuds
    18-21, M
    Dec 22, 2014
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