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I Am a Drug Addict

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    lovelypoison44 lovelypoison44 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Hi I'm trying to quit smoking herion.

    . I hate it! I don't feel "normal" I want to feel "normal" again.. Everyday I can't get up & go unless I smoke! It sucks so bad having to literally DEPEND on a drug! I'm tired of it! Me & boyfriend are trying to quit herion but it's sooooo hard!!! Ugh! we don't inject, we SMOKE...
    fugginemma fugginemma 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    Oxycodone and OxyContin are my drugs of choice.

    ..my dad nearly died from it and I told myself is never be like that. I struggle with addiction all the time and so far I've been clean for about 3 months, but the struggle is always there and I will always be an addict.
    babykaykez babykaykez 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 26

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    I'm so addicted to any benzo I love them

    so much I take them everyday or whenever I can get my hands on them I also smoke weed and will do other **** occasionally but I wanna be sober so badly
    malibubarbie420 malibubarbie420 18-21, F Dec 1, 2013

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    Mary Molly

    I'm 14 years old. i started drugs a year ago at first I smoked weed, snort coke popped pills after morphine and now hash and mdma. my story isn't that interesting, im still young and I don't smoke crack or wtv I just needed to share that. I started doing drugs because my two...
    manue420 manue420 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    Can't Stop

    I wish I could stop using so bad.... I have lost nearly every single friend I have. I spend every single ******* dollar of my paycheck on drugs. The only thing keeping me from killing myself is the fact that I can't get high if I'm dead. I was doing so good after I stopped...
    TheJungle TheJungle 16-17, M 4 Responses Aug 15, 2012

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    Hi I Love Cocaine

    Hi I just became really addicted to cocaine. I love it and need to piut lines up my nose every day haha I'm actually messed up out of my mind right now and I feel great haha. It's the best feeling in the world it all started for me when I started hanging out with a friend who...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Feb 17, 2013

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    What Ha

    Im a 53 yr old Male. Have a wonderful wife and 3 sons , 18, 17 & 7. The 7 yr old was left at our house when he was 8 months old. At first my wife was not sure it was best for us to keep him. She said when our two boys are off to collage Nicholas will just be starting school and...
    strunky strunky 51-55 2 Responses Jul 1, 2013

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    Hooked On Opiotes

    Someone please help me I'm trying to get clean but I'm miserable
    Failedtaper Failedtaper 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    A New Beginning

    Hey whats going on again everyone, today is day 4 in about 20 mins it will be day 5 clean and off heroin. I cant even begin to describe in words how much better I feel now that I am clean, and now it feels as if I dont even need to use my suboxone in the a.m and p.m which is...
    james117 james117 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 14, 2012

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    i'm 32 and have been using drugs

    since i was 15. started with weed and alcohol(always does right?) then moved onto ex and acid. everyday weed smoker for about ten years. found coke. had a $100 dollar a day coke habit for a about a year. can't remember how i afforded it. then fell in love with the bottle. 120...
    lostandbewildered lostandbewildered 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    I'm Finally Admitting It: I'm A Pothead

    Before I begin, I ask that you please don't tell me that you can't get addicted to weed. True, your body doesn't experience any withdrawal symptoms for real, but you can still want it like crazy. If I have a 20 in my pocket, I give in to that urge. And to me, that's being...
    fadedphoenix fadedphoenix 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 10, 2013

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    I Don't Know When I Will Be Home.

    I'm sat here counting the lose change from my pockets, I hear the sound of coins falling onto the table....thud,thud,thud, I know any miniute you will be home, I know I have to leave soon if I want to get a fix, otherwise we will fight once more, I relise I don't have enough...
    runningtonowhere runningtonowhere 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    I am only turning 17

    and my youth has been wasting away with constant drug use. I am surrounded with friends and family who constantly do drugs, I was brought up around it and I eventually go in. It has ruined my life. Drugs and alcohol. I thought it would cure the pain. I thought I would stop...
    jamieregan jamieregan 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2013

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    "Cause every time I go to try to

    leave Somethin' keeps pullin' on my sleeve I don't wanna, but I gotta stay These drugs really got a hold of me Cause every time I try to tell 'em "no" They won't let me ever let 'em go I'm a sucker all I gotta say These drugs really got a hold of me" Eminem - Drug Ballad
    HowLongWillWeBeWaiting HowLongWillWeBeWaiting 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 1

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    The Trials Of Me...

    I'm a 26 year old man and a recovering drug addict. This may be long and tragic. Well, I abused drugs for many years, started smoking weed and drinking at the tender age of 12. I was constantly influenced by my peers (or I influenced them), and eventually I moved on to...
    StressinIt StressinIt 26-30, M 5 Responses Sep 16, 2013

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    Had my first withdrawal tonight.

    I've had a few minor symptoms before but tonight was agonizing. I'm running out of money. I got the last I could tonight so I didn't have to be in pain anymore but I'm scared cause I know its only going to get worse. I don't know what I'm going to do I don't wanna feel like that...
    xkrissex xkrissex 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 23

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    EAdead EAdead 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 12

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    It Will Never End

    When I was 14 I was given pain killers by my doctor,it didn't take long for me to start abusing them. By the time I was 16 I started drinking and abusing pain killers every single day. Last year I was offered cocaine by one of Andre's friends and I took him up on the offer. Since...
    YoungGothicWriter YoungGothicWriter 18-21 6 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    I've always been one to use in moderation.

    started with the whole raving and E and learning to shuffle on the weekends enjoying life... then losing party privileges cause i had to pick up a second job to help the fam... to working two full time jobs and hardly finding time to sleep. being introduced to harder substances...
    destinyisfate destinyisfate 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 29

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    No One Came To Save Me

    I shaked and stuttered as i read my Life & Addiction essay. I kept thinking "in the end, everyone will clap for me." no one did. i asked why, upset and broken. "because your story was so sad. no one elses was like that." How my world ended was why i was in this place, rehab. Or...
    BellaVara BellaVara 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2012

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    "When I come home from work,

    I'm fiendin for an eight-ball I got crack on my mind, I'm hearin cocaine call Telling me to beep the dealer to deliver me stuff Keep it a secret from my wife, cause she thinks I don't use drugs" Necro - I Need Drugs
    HowLongWillWeBeWaiting HowLongWillWeBeWaiting 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 1

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    I am a meth addict. I've been to rehab twice.

    This second time was only a week ago. I am 30 days sober today. Before I relapsed I was clean for 8 months. I have been on dope since I was 18, I'm now 21. I've made some horrible choices and been treated like garbage because of my addiction. That kind of life isn't one you want...
    morgannmckenna morgannmckenna 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 3

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    We Who Can Comeback From The "drug Hell"

    Hello boys and girls..! Ya… I had been a Meth addict… I started doing Meth at the age of 16 and I has been addicted to meth for 2 years. Before that I had heard about Meth from my friends, my guy..But I never thought that I would ever put it up in my mouth, felt it and...
    Kandiagio Kandiagio 18-21, F 1 Response May 10, 2012

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    Hi My Name Is Ed I'm a Addict

    I'm a addict and would like to share part of my story. Have been drugging and drinking for over 30 years. I started out at Young age pre-teen. I grew up with drugs and alcohol all my life it seem to be normal for it's what my family did. I grew up very shy I did not talk in...
    edupnorth edupnorth 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 13, 2008

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    My friends think I only do a bit of weed on

    some occasions how they are wrong, I wouldn't use the word addict as such I probably could completely quit but why would I. On holiday at the moment and finding it hard to cope but it's not impossible
    nochurchinthewild nochurchinthewild 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    Im Add Icted To Heroin

    I started using heroin about 2 yrs ago.. I was using for a couple of months until i found out i was pregnant.. And then i stopped...just like that... i stopped!!!! My son is now 11 months old and am back to my old habits.. i have been using again since he was about 3 months old...
    jademarie2012 jademarie2012 26-30 3 Responses Aug 2, 2012

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    Where Do I Even Begin?

    When I was 14 I smoked my first cigarette... I hung out with a crowd of kids that were several years older than I was and in their eyes this made me the cool kid. That feeling of acceptance became my first addiction. I am only just now realizing that that desire to be accepted is...
    blovely0521 blovely0521 26-30 1 Response Mar 21, 2013

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    I am addicted to speed (amphetamine

    if ya dont know) and have been since I was 17 I use to take 8 grams a day sometimes more I have been off it for about 5 months now yay me!
    BlondieBabyMwahX BlondieBabyMwahX 18-21, F 3 Responses May 14

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    Im cali, im 16 years old,

    and i am a drug addict, i am addicted to the life style and i dont see myself ever getting out. Im trapped. It makes me feel so good, but at times it makes me fall on my face. i need help. i want help. Ive been to multipul residential treatment centers but they just introduce me...
    Calihoffmanxd Calihoffmanxd 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I'm so addicted to any benzo I love them

    so much I take them everyday or whenever I can get my hands on them I also smoke weed and will do other **** occasionally but I wanna be sober so badly
    malibubarbie420 malibubarbie420 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    But i dont wanna be. Some girl i met in college

    a few months ago let me smoke some meth with her, it was my first time. I told my bf and he got so mad he almost left me. We both smoke pot but dont really mess with anything else. I promised I wouldn't do it again, but four months later the girl rarely talks to me (I think she...
    Jujubee45 Jujubee45 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    I will always crave it

    but its nice to be off
    HowLongWillWeBeWaiting HowLongWillWeBeWaiting 22-25, M Sep 8

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    Hi in addicted to benzos

    and cough syrup but I don't know how to stop please help
    chriscb chriscb 13-15, M Aug 27

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    Im Addicted

    I'm almost 43 years old. People say you can't get addicted to weed. But its true. Some people do and some don't. I'm addicted to marijuana. I have a love and hate relationship with marijuana. I love the drug, yet I hate having bad trips when I have them. But not very often I do...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    My Name Is Jerry And I Am An Addict

    My drugs of choice are methamphetamine , marijuana, and alcohol. I belong to the fellowship of NA. I open the door and make coffee at my home group. My sobriety depends on service work. Its probably not the only way to get clean but it worked for me. I have suffered from the...
    jerriloferi jerriloferi 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 5, 2009

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    A drug addict I am. And guess what?

    I really want to stop but depression makes me come back. Like a loyal dog to its abusive owner. It makes me lose all the money I have and I have to make money again in order to get back the thing that harms me the most.
    LilithAbney LilithAbney 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    Hello, I'm Sarah. I'm fourteen

    and addicted to prescription and over-the-counter pills. It all kind of seems like a blur. It seems like yesterday I was your typical American teenager, but now it's all different. I need my fix. It doesn't matter what it is anymore. I'll take anything I can get. Anti-Nausea...
    sarah81199 sarah81199 13-15, F 5 Responses Mar 17

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    I need to get help but it's my senior year in

    high school & I don't want to **** this up. I'm trying my hardest to stay away from drugs but my depression makes me want them. I got started in the 8th grade, my bestfriend stole pot from her dad and we smoked it. It was fun for a couple years but I knew that there was more...
    macixo macixo 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    I've been using drugs

    since 12. I OD'd at 19 from H so I moved on to cocaine. I've actually been able to downgrade even though I trade one vice for another. No more cocaine now weed, alcohol, and prescription drugs, but my bills get paid. I don't beat my kids or fight the cops. I need those to...
    dirtydarkness dirtydarkness 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    Everyday I seem to lose more

    and more hope and care less and less about the value of my life. My outlook on life has become so pathetic over the years, it's sad. I stick that needle into my veins as if it were as routine as getting dressed in the morning. I don't even beat myself up for it afterwards like I...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 18

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    I Dont Know How Much Longer

    i am 19 years old. i started using when i was 18, and i used intraveniously every.single.day. multiple times a day for about a year. i am now 160 days sober to the date, but i dont know how much longer i can make it last. i didnt quit for myself, i quit for my family and the few...
    SarawAnn SarawAnn 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    Relapse

    Here it is again, another time I’ve gone astray. I can’t believe I’m right back here, with eyes so sunk and grey. What will it take you say, to stop me in my tracks. I wish I knew, I try so hard, keep falling through the cracks. Family and friends around me, astounded by...
    Betterthandrone Betterthandrone 22-25 2 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    I'm addicted to prescription painkillers.

    Withdrawing bc I'm sick of this **** and I want it to be over but it's really ******* hard and feels impossible. I can't think can't sleep can't eat can't ******* function.
    Brinkofgreatness Brinkofgreatness 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    I'm a recovering addict.

    I've been an addict since I was 13, and I'm now recovering. Is there anyone in the same boat who wants to chat? I'm here for anyone battling addiction, I know how hard it is.
    AndyWarrior413 AndyWarrior413 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I Say I Care, But I Don't

    I say I care, and want to stop, but I never do, I just keep using. Like why not, that's what goes through my head. nothing, no one matters to me enough to stop.
    APS9 APS9 31-35 3 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    One Year Ago

    I was driving past a ***** mall and I noticed a guy laying down on his back on the sidewalk. It was 7pm and no one was around. I pulled up and asked if he was ok but he didn't say anything. I tried to wake him up. I checked his pulse but felt nothing. I ran to the end of the...
    chumchi chumchi 41-45, F 8 Responses Aug 13, 2012

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    Recovering Drug Addict Pharmacist

    Statistically, 15% of healthcare professionals will struggle with some form of addiction at some point in their careers. With 3 million nurses, 1 million doctors, and a quarter million pharmacists in the U.S., that means that at any given time, there are 650,000 healthcare...
    jaredcombs jaredcombs 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    Maintenence Addictions Suck..

    I'm a recovering addict. I used any pain pill I could get ahold of,and sometimes snorted heroin. Never shot up, I was too chicken **** to go that far. Mostly vicodin and oxys,I'm a troubled girl,so taking meds kinda took the pain away. My ex and I were together for 11 years,and...
    Fedup724 Fedup724 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2012

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    B0BjustB0B B0BjustB0B 51-55, M 5 Responses Mar 16

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    Well, I just got high again.

    What I would do to be sober. But at the same time I don't want to be. at all.. Everything is so.. Monochromatic and bland without it. This is what being left alone is like isn't it.. I feel like I want someone to tell me no, Maybe.
    SiCotic1 SiCotic1 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 25

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