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I Am A Functioning Psychopath

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    RavenBundy RavenBundy 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 20

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    I'm feeling like myself again.

    I'm more relaxed, focused. I've ended my six month contract. I went to a lot of countries. Japan, Indonesia, Australia, Holand, Egypt. I think I've smiled and shake hands enough times to get back to where I was again. God damn mask made me go insane!
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 1 Response Jun 8

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    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 6

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    I am not a psychopath,

    so hopefully I won't get blasted for posting here. I have been rocked, shaped, traumatized by my experiences with individuals I can't fathom, whose behavior falls perfectly into the category of manipulative psychopathic/malignantly narcissistic. It is fascinating and extremely...
    SweetSpiritEnergy SweetSpiritEnergy 26-30 2 Responses May 8

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    Even in my childhood I couldn't "feel" like the

    other kids. Those feelings of connection, love, attachment, joy, remorse seem strange to me. I am able to feel frustrated, betrayed or depressed. And yes, I do have urges to hurt or kill, but the focus of my aggression is never worth the effort or the loss of freedom. I try...
    Ulfhednar74 Ulfhednar74 41-45, M 5 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    Through constant meditation,

    self-preservation, and physical dedication, I have been able to push my intellectual capabilities further. The illusion of society has become clearer to me. The desperate cries to copulate through skin exposure and a devil-may-care attitude has brought humanity away from the...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 27

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    Reluctant Psychopath - I'm Batman

    Batman? Not really. But it's kind of like that, the prospect of telling my story anonymously to other similar people, things that I've kept inside all my life (for the most part). In the past, when I researched Psychopathy to learn more about this 'grey area' in the psychological...
    redghost666 redghost666 31-35, M 6 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Psychopathic Wisdom

    I received this in an email today. Apparently it is close to something in a science fiction book. I liked it, you may, too. -Foreign policy is dictated by powerful men's prejudices. -War is simply honest diplomacy. -Capitalism is a dog eat-dog-system. With most other...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 7 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    Living with myself is extremely difficult

    as i hate all humans and yet my human nature calls me to interact with them and build relationships. Consequently either one i do makes me feel unhappy and as if i am betraying myself. Happiness just feels like a distant fleeting theoretical emotion i"ll never feel. I am...
    preesytt preesytt 18-21, M 7 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    Anyone else on medication from a psychiatrist?

    Ran out a week ago and I couldn't get a hold of my doctor until today. I get this buzzing in the back of my mind, like a tv channel that isn't clear or has some interference. There's also a restless energy that keeps building and I feel the pressure in my head increasing. It's...
    Ulfhednar74 Ulfhednar74 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 22

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    Can We Love?

    I was asked once, and I’m paraphrasing from memory, “If you were hiding in building with a group of people with your baby and a group of soldiers came in with orders to kill everyone they found, what would you do if your baby began to cry?” My answer is its too simple. What...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 5 Responses May 15, 2013

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    Thinking about being totally honest with my

    girlfriend about how I am. Two possibilities: First she runs away in fright, good less drama for me and an opportunity to find someone more of an asset. or Second, She thinks it's ok and I can use it as leverage if she doesn't like somethings I do or say. Thoughts?
    Ulfhednar74 Ulfhednar74 41-45, M 10 Responses May 18

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    Pink Slipping A Sociopath

    Today I am cranky. Not prone to patience. I much prefer a psychopath over a sociopath. I find psychopaths much easier to get along with and deal with. Being faced with a sociopath who took up too much of my time and energy today left me with only one choice. Pink slip him. A...
    plmay plmay 36-40 3 Responses May 30, 2012

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    His wisdom is just one tiny attribute ofWhy He

    deserves all of the love in my heart.He has never been able to feel love before.How could such a precious personNot be able to feel love until now?He, above all others, understands love.He has been so misunderstood, so wronged;He is not a monster, you ignorant people!He was so...
    KalonaAyeliski KalonaAyeliski 36-40, F Jun 18, 2014

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    Lazy Or Bored?

    I don’t know about others, but I get sick of hearing about how lazy psychopaths are. Empaths choosing words to describe what they can not understand infuriates me and this is just one more example of their drive to remove anything different from themselves. Psychopaths are lazy...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 31, 2013

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    I was diagnosed this summer.

    I never realized it myself until my therapist finally put the pieces together. At her request, I had several brain scans that showed my area of the brain which produces emotions like empathy is significantly smaller than average. I was actually doing research on the subject when...
    reaperthejack reaperthejack 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    How to spot the difference between a psychopath

    and a person who truly believes in soul mates? (early, obviously with time it becomes obvious)
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F May 13

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    I am wondering you guys have dreams about?

    I usually do not remember my dreams, or they're violent. Just curious if others dream alike me, or what are in yours.
    secuity secuity 31-35, M 3 Responses Jun 5

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    Walking down the street I am ever aware.

    Most of the people I pass are accustomed to normalcy, it is in their nature, How is this? For this reason I watch them, I observe them. How can I act more normal? For these reasons I feel like I am more aware when walking in public, I am always thinking and watching, unlike...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    I doubt myself, abilities

    when I cant even achieve a simple goal of escaping the moribund life that I lead, the pretentious people that are around me and the internal suffering that these things cause.
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I want to know the opinion of a psychopath on

    this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?t=2021&v=DakEcY7Z5GU i wonder if you could look to the end
    jack3683 jack3683 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 2

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    There is something quite admirable about fire.

    Strong, pure and deadly. It draws strength and intensity from its victims and leaves them unrecognizable. Beautiful.
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M Aug 21

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    for a long time i have been fascinated by

    psychopaths. over the past few month i have had these horribly wrong feelings that i enjoyed like sometimes i would be with family or friends or teachers and i could be thinking how easy it would be to kill them and more recently i have been thinking about acting on them even...
    wildeyejoker wildeyejoker 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25

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    Me

    You shouldn't fear me, I'm more afraid of you I use facts, You use emotions You act I simply react. I won't attack you, I will defend myself If you wave at me, I will wave back If you treat me well, I will treat you well If you screw me, I will get you back But you won't even...
    YFNP YFNP 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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    The urges have come back.

    I do not find peace of mind in sleep anymore. I can't sleep. The irony is that I'm analytical, logical. And yet, the source behind these urges remain unknown to me. I need to crack bones. Snap a neck. Kill. Why? No idea. I just do. This is getting out of control!
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 7 Responses May 21

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    I consider myself normal

    but apparently the councillor of the school it attend said it would be necessary to undergo a psychopathy test long story short she thinks I'm a psycho simply because I'm "manipulative" I resent being called a psycho and I can relate to ANYONE you simply need to emulate the...
    RegANONdixo RegANONdixo 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 25

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    Beginners Manual On Becoming A Socialized Psychopath

    Avoid lying. Lying is natural to the pyschopath but it is a hinderence and will get you in trouble. So how do you do this? Practice my psychopathic friends, practice. Telling the truth is a learned behavior. The more you practice it the more neural pathways you will develop to...
    plmay plmay 36-40 20 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Someone very important to me recently

    disappeared from here. If you are reading this, my offer still stands, A. You know how to contact me.
    thereptile64 thereptile64 22-25, M May 14

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    A Fox Farewell To Freinds

    It appears the professional hunters have been loosed. Due to an unfortunate twist in an otherwise blissful experience here, LEOs have targeted my account. Though their attention was secondary to the initial issue, it has spread to me. In the last 24 hours there have been at least...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    There had been speculations concerning the true

    definition of a psychopath, and another for sociopath. Clearly, there is a difference, but the matter of the subject isn't quite clear yet. A logical differentiation of the two terms reveals that psychopaths are more calculating and reserved. If one commits a crime, he'll plan...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 6 Responses Apr 9

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    The Hollow Shell

    not much goes on inside, not much movement at all. emotional spectrum is so small, boredom, frustration, and on occasion, anger. but on the whole, I move through each day, without feeling. When I get mad, I am furious. like lightening it can strike, then be gone just as quick...
    APS9 APS9 31-35 3 Responses Mar 17, 2013

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    Today i made powerful connections towards a

    certain criminal organisation. (Their name will remain anonymous). I plan to gain their trust, and eventually branch out to their main suppliers. The ones who are really in power. Then when i no longer need them i am going to cut off their supply of narcotics, and wait for them...
    Sharkeyes Sharkeyes 13-15, M 7 Responses Jun 5

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    Its becoming clearer

    and clearer to me, I always have an ulterior motive. Earlier it used to be most of the time.
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    Outside I'm Successful

    I'm a high functioning psychopath with tendencies towards charismatic. I make people around me feel good. I love to feed off their positive emotions. I can't feel them but I can see them and it gives me energy to continue. I am successful well educated, intelligent a master at...
    cutout cutout 26-30 9 Responses Sep 10, 2011

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    I’ve been waiting for long to come across a

    site like this. A functioning psychopath: that’s exactly what I might just be. I never felt the need to get myself diagnosed, but I am pretty narcissistic, apathetic and have only a few emotions like anger and the likes. Most people believe psychopaths have violent urges, but...
    Gravstorme Gravstorme 22-25, M 4 Responses Jun 9

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    I can successfully think about hurting you

    and hold a conversation with you at the same time. I'm glad I can control my urges in public...other wise going out would be no fun
    JonathanCTVirgo JonathanCTVirgo 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 12

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    The Child In The Playground... I Am Not A Monster.. Fear Not.

    Gah, I can't hide it anymore. I can't. I've wet the bed up till I was 12. I've lit things on fire.. and still have a small flame for it. I have seemingly tramatic experiences from childhood... Infancy maybe. And lastly, I've done unmentionable things to small animals in my youth...
    JeuneCirque JeuneCirque 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2012

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    And yet, most of the people on here seem to be

    teenagers with a "Dark and Mysterious" complex. So many 666's in names, so many people talking about the "Monster inside." Stop watching Dexter. It is no more indicative of a true psychopath than Christopher Nolan's Joker is of a true clown. Psychopaths are not "Evil." We're...
    Solluth Solluth 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 21, 2014

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    Question for psychopaths

    who have been in relationships... I've heard a lot about the psychopath establishing a 'dominance bond' not a 'love bond'. Likewise I've heard they can act like the perfect mate but can become obsessive, possessive and controlling with their partner, at least for a while before...
    imagine524 imagine524 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I am a diagnosed psychopath,

    I was diagnosed at the age of 14 after I unsuccessfully attempted to go on a murder spree. I failed at the first hurdle: killing my younger brother. I slashed his throat with a kitchen knife, but it was too blunt, and he eve managed to survive the multiple stab woulds to his...
    pelliott1711 pelliott1711 18-21, M 11 Responses Jun 8

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    The Streets Are My Playground, And I Never Needed Mic Skills.

    You make me smile. I like you and your huge ego. We're both so aching for a fight. Would you even know what you have over me or what to do with it. The game hasn't even begun and i can see your words being your own undoing. Just like all the other boys looking at me, refusing to...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    I have a love/hate relationship with "normal"

    people. It's great that they're so trusting, weak, and gullible for obvious reasons, but I find it annoying how they seem to assume that everyone who isn't as empathetic as they are must be victims of abuse or just immature. It hasn't even dawned on them that they're just stupid...
    insertgenericusername insertgenericusername 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 2, 2014

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    It's nearly summer, the weather's warm.

    I don't enjoy driving on the highway anymore, with that cool breeze caressing my cheeks. People are wearing less clothes, but what made me think is the following. These 14 year old teenage girls, showing 95% of their flesh, wearing these slutty clothes, walking around boys. And...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 3 Responses May 9

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    It's quite a rush knowing you have someones

    emotions and entire life wrapped around your pinky finger, isn't it?
    twistedview twistedview 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 1

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    Dear Psychopath

    The first time I met you, your eyes were the first thing I noticed. They were not of a particularly startling color, shape, or size. But they were cold and still, and I wondered how they could bore into me while taking no rest to blink. Physiologically, something within me was...
    dezoed dezoed 22-25 10 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    Phrases said by psychopaths: "we're soul

    mates" "I feel like we've known eachother our whole lives" "life's short" "I always say what I think regardless of it being inappropriate" "people need to be themselves" "I'm a very calm person" "to be honest" any others anyone can think of? They're like catch phrases.
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 6 Responses