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I Am A Functioning Psychopath

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 602 People

    I am a diagnosed psychopath,

    I was diagnosed at the age of 14 after I unsuccessfully attempted to go on a murder spree. I failed at the first hurdle: killing my younger brother. I slashed his throat with a kitchen knife, but it was too blunt, and he eve managed to survive the multiple stab woulds to his...
    pelliott1711 pelliott1711
    22-25, M
    10 Responses Jun 8, 2015

    The Child In The Playground... I Am Not A Monster.. Fear Not.

    Gah, I can't hide it anymore. I can't. I've wet the bed up till I was 12. I've lit things on fire.. and still have a small flame for it. I have seemingly tramatic experiences from childhood... Infancy maybe. And lastly, I've done unmentionable things to small animals in my youth...
    JeuneCirque JeuneCirque
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 6, 2012

    Can We Love?

    I was asked once, and I’m paraphrasing from memory, “If you were hiding in building with a group of people with your baby and a group of soldiers came in with orders to kill everyone they found, what would you do if your baby began to cry?” My answer is its too simple. What...
    PaleFox PaleFox
    46-50, M
    5 Responses May 15, 2013

    Through constant meditation,

    self-preservation, and physical dedication, I have been able to push my intellectual capabilities further. The illusion of society has become clearer to me. The desperate cries to copulate through skin exposure and a devil-may-care attitude has brought humanity away from the...
    whiplash95 whiplash95
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jul 27, 2015

    for a long time i have been fascinated by

    psychopaths. over the past few month i have had these horribly wrong feelings that i enjoyed like sometimes i would be with family or friends or teachers and i could be thinking how easy it would be to kill them and more recently i have been thinking about acting on them even...
    wildeyejoker wildeyejoker
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 25, 2015

    And yet, most of the people on here seem to be

    teenagers with a "Dark and Mysterious" complex. So many 666's in names, so many people talking about the "Monster inside." Stop watching Dexter. It is no more indicative of a true psychopath than Christopher Nolan's Joker is of a true clown. Psychopaths are not "Evil." We're...
    Solluth Solluth
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Sep 21, 2014

    I am interested in what peoples' opinions are

    on the topic of secondary psychopathy? for anybody who wants to share. and no I don't believe they feel more guilt or remorse like some posts on Google that pop up say. I believe other stuff but I'm open to hearing anybody opinions and interested.
    darkertendencies darkertendencies
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 24, 2015

    The Streets Are My Playground, And I Never Needed Mic Skills.

    You make me smile. I like you and your huge ego. We're both so aching for a fight. Would you even know what you have over me or what to do with it. The game hasn't even begun and i can see your words being your own undoing. Just like all the other boys looking at me, refusing to...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

    Living with myself is extremely difficult

    as i hate all humans and yet my human nature calls me to interact with them and build relationships. Consequently either one i do makes me feel unhappy and as if i am betraying myself. Happiness just feels like a distant fleeting theoretical emotion i"ll never feel. I am...
    preesytt preesytt
    18-21, M
    7 Responses Jul 12, 2014

    Pink Slipping A Sociopath

    Today I am cranky. Not prone to patience. I much prefer a psychopath over a sociopath. I find psychopaths much easier to get along with and deal with. Being faced with a sociopath who took up too much of my time and energy today left me with only one choice. Pink slip him. A...
    plmay plmay
    3 Responses May 30, 2012

    Calling All Psychopaths!!

    People, Listen to me, we've been sitting on here sharign stories and talking about feelings/or lack of feelings and how to fit in for far too long now! It's nt us that should be fittign around them, it's the rest of the cattle that should be serving us! Anyone out there that...
    jackdaw1978 jackdaw1978
    13 Responses Feb 6, 2013

    Hello everyone.I guess this is the last story

    I'm writing here. This website was fun!I have changed quite a bit since I began confessing some of my stories.Fights, mental breakdowns, home invitations, business, and much more were experienced with surprising ease.To all who have seen or heard me in person, I truly hope we...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon
    Mar 30, 2016

    This is my first post on EP,

    I am looking for some help from others with my same mindset. I don't really know how to word this, how do I know if I am feeling love? I have always known that I am really different and until a few years ago I didn't have a name for it. I have always said I love you to my...
    SuccessfulMonster SuccessfulMonster
    31-35, M
    1 Response Sep 13, 2015

    There had been speculations concerning the true

    definition of a psychopath, and another for sociopath. Clearly, there is a difference, but the matter of the subject isn't quite clear yet. A logical differentiation of the two terms reveals that psychopaths are more calculating and reserved. If one commits a crime, he'll plan...
    whiplash95 whiplash95
    22-25, M
    6 Responses Apr 9, 2015

    I hate the labeling people put on themselves on

    this page. Its ignorant and disrespectful to those who experience these "symptoms". Internet test, or their boyfriennd isnt nice that week so he must be insane.. ...but, one does get a bit of an ego listening to all these, pathetic "i killed a bird once im a psychopath...
    krowbar krowbar
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 16, 2015

    What I am about to declare will be more

    than frustrating to most of the members around here. Psychologically speaking, psychopaths are weak. You read right. The power we seek to obtain, this hunger for control, is pure weakness. Earlier in our lives, we lost this control. We couldn't achieve what was on our mind. We...
    whiplash95 whiplash95
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 4, 2015

    Beginners Manual On Becoming A Socialized Psychopath

    Avoid lying. Lying is natural to the pyschopath but it is a hinderence and will get you in trouble. So how do you do this? Practice my psychopathic friends, practice. Telling the truth is a learned behavior. The more you practice it the more neural pathways you will develop to...
    plmay plmay
    20 Responses Sep 25, 2011

    I act outwardly normal,

    but in my dreams I often have violent and cannibalistic fantasies. Mostly about me torturing and eating people I'm sexually attracted to. Sometimes the other way round. I guess this makes me a functioning psychopath
    Christuner666 Christuner666
    31-35, M
    Apr 21, 2016
    RavenBundy RavenBundy
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 20, 2015

    I get this great pleasure from making women

    insecure. Last week, this girl told me she had a crush on a guy I stated I found very attractive. She said it in a condescending way which exuded confidence. Her: "I'm even friends with all his friends. I can just go and talk to them whenever I want" Me: "Oh really? So why...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 9, 2014
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jun 6, 2015

    It's quite a rush knowing you have someones

    emotions and entire life wrapped around your pinky finger, isn't it?
    twistedview twistedview
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Aug 1, 2015

    The urges have come back.

    I do not find peace of mind in sleep anymore. I can't sleep. The irony is that I'm analytical, logical. And yet, the source behind these urges remain unknown to me. I need to crack bones. Snap a neck. Kill. Why? No idea. I just do. This is getting out of control!
    whiplash95 whiplash95
    22-25, M
    7 Responses May 21, 2015

    I need help. I keep having fantasies about

    bloody disgusting things... I feel like I don't belong anywhere... I just feel the serious need to hurt someone very bad.
    RavenBundy RavenBundy
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 13, 2016

    The Hollow Shell

    not much goes on inside, not much movement at all. emotional spectrum is so small, boredom, frustration, and on occasion, anger. but on the whole, I move through each day, without feeling. When I get mad, I am furious. like lightening it can strike, then be gone just as quick...
    APS9 APS9
    3 Responses Mar 17, 2013

    Psychopathic Wisdom

    I received this in an email today. Apparently it is close to something in a science fiction book. I liked it, you may, too. -Foreign policy is dictated by powerful men's prejudices. -War is simply honest diplomacy. -Capitalism is a dog eat-dog-system. With most other...
    PaleFox PaleFox
    46-50, M
    7 Responses Aug 2, 2013

    The Quickening

    That feeling of your blood burning through your veins, the slightly sexual feeling you get from the heat, the Adrenalin boost as you see a million million scenario's unfold in the shell of your mental sandbox. Then the cooling as all that will be, will never be enough and if it...
    baserock baserock
    26-30, M
    Jul 3, 2013

    Lazy Or Bored?

    I don’t know about others, but I get sick of hearing about how lazy psychopaths are. Empaths choosing words to describe what they can not understand infuriates me and this is just one more example of their drive to remove anything different from themselves. Psychopaths are lazy...
    PaleFox PaleFox
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Jul 31, 2013

    i think it's funny that on every post,

    there is always somebody laughing at them calling them a wannabe. if i were a psychopath, i don't think i'd join a group on EP saying so, but what do i know? i'm no psychopath.
    screambloodygore screambloodygore
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 18, 2015

    A Fox Farewell To Freinds

    It appears the professional hunters have been loosed. Due to an unfortunate twist in an otherwise blissful experience here, LEOs have targeted my account. Though their attention was secondary to the initial issue, it has spread to me. In the last 24 hours there have been at least...
    PaleFox PaleFox
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Aug 6, 2013
    cashetty69 cashetty69
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Aug 13, 2015

    I'm not. But I feel so much better

    when I read the posts in this group. Life getting me down - read here and I feel better. Other EP groups annoying me - read here and I feel so much better. Possibly because people are what they are here. It's very flat here, emotionless to a large degree. Like a cold gust of...
    paliglass paliglass
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Oct 6, 2015

    I can successfully think about hurting you

    and hold a conversation with you at the same time. I'm glad I can control my urges in public...other wise going out would be no fun
    JonathanCTVirgo JonathanCTVirgo
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 12, 2015
    dp44 dp44
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2015

    I'm feeling like myself again.

    I'm more relaxed, focused. I've ended my six month contract. I went to a lot of countries. Japan, Indonesia, Australia, Holand, Egypt. I think I've smiled and shake hands enough times to get back to where I was again. God damn mask made me go insane!
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon
    1 Response Jun 8, 2015

    Dear Psychopath

    The first time I met you, your eyes were the first thing I noticed. They were not of a particularly startling color, shape, or size. But they were cold and still, and I wondered how they could bore into me while taking no rest to blink. Physiologically, something within me was...
    dezoed dezoed
    10 Responses Apr 23, 2013

    Great Job, You Guys.

    I like to consider the functioning psychopath the truly intelligent psychopath. You and I understand that society is a sandbox, and if you're not in it (or at least nearby), you can't play with it. Of course, we all know how much fun a manipulative life can be. So, bravo for...
    MrSyntax MrSyntax
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Sep 9, 2013

    There are hardly things I can't do.

    I'm attractive which is helpful, I engage in a lot of extra-curricular activities which lets me hide in plain sight. I get them to do what I want, and usually I'm just very curious to see if the method works so I manipulate them into something I don't even have the need. I like...
    Irisia Irisia
    18-21, F
    Feb 18, 2016

    I am going to be somewhat brutally honest here

    because i would like some real feedback. I have always known that I thought differently from other people but recently I have been putting more and more things together that seem to fit the picture of a psychopath or sociopath (I am not entirely sure of the distinction since...
    eviscerated eviscerated
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015

    Question for psychopaths

    who have been in relationships... I've heard a lot about the psychopath establishing a 'dominance bond' not a 'love bond'. Likewise I've heard they can act like the perfect mate but can become obsessive, possessive and controlling with their partner, at least for a while before...
    imagine524 imagine524
    7 Responses Jun 27, 2014

    Outside I'm Successful

    I'm a high functioning psychopath with tendencies towards charismatic. I make people around me feel good. I love to feed off their positive emotions. I can't feel them but I can see them and it gives me energy to continue. I am successful well educated, intelligent a master at...
    cutout cutout
    8 Responses Sep 10, 2011

    I'm sitting in my living room with my whole

    family watching tv. On the show we are watching there is a crazy "psychopathic" killer on the loose. I can tell by the comments my family makes about the man that they (just like the show) have a twisted thinking that all psychopaths are crazy killers. Though some are, some can...
    Manipulatorr Manipulatorr
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Nov 17, 2015


    You shouldn't fear me, I'm more afraid of you I use facts, You use emotions You act I simply react. I won't attack you, I will defend myself If you wave at me, I will wave back If you treat me well, I will treat you well If you screw me, I will get you back But you won't even...
    31-35, M
    1 Response Nov 16, 2013

    If I'm being honest I'm not functioning,

    atleast not right now. I fit the standard criteria for a psychopath but the one trait I wasn't afflicted by was boredom. Until now. Normally I have something - even a long term goal to keep me focused but right now, nothing. I just want this restless feeling to go away.
    ColdCalculator ColdCalculator
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    I’ve been waiting for long to come across a

    site like this. A functioning psychopath: that’s exactly what I might just be. I never felt the need to get myself diagnosed, but I am pretty narcissistic, apathetic and have only a few emotions like anger and the likes. Most people believe psychopaths have violent urges, but...
    Gravstorme Gravstorme
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Jun 9, 2015

    I have finally got back on the wagon.

    I said my goodbyes to my toy. I tazed him till he passed out then shoved him into my car. He woke up to a fog of marijuana smoke. I looked at him and said: Hi. This might be hard on you, but it's going to be a lot harder for me. See, I haven't killed a toy for a really long...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon
    1 Response May 20, 2015

    I am wondering you guys have dreams about?

    I usually do not remember my dreams, or they're violent. Just curious if others dream alike me, or what are in yours.
    secuity secuity
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Jun 5, 2015

    His wisdom is just one tiny attribute ofWhy He

    deserves all of the love in my heart.He has never been able to feel love before.How could such a precious personNot be able to feel love until now?He, above all others, understands love.He has been so misunderstood, so wronged;He is not a monster, you ignorant people!He was so...
    KalonaAyeliski KalonaAyeliski
    41-45, F
    Jun 18, 2014

    Reluctant Psychopath - I'm Batman

    Batman? Not really. But it's kind of like that, the prospect of telling my story anonymously to other similar people, things that I've kept inside all my life (for the most part). In the past, when I researched Psychopathy to learn more about this 'grey area' in the psychological...
    redghost666 redghost666
    31-35, M
    6 Responses Nov 30, 2012

    I have taken a step forward in life.

    I have completely settled to submerge myself in society. My acts are untraceable. I am now where no man has ever been. Whatever obstacle I have encountered, I have broken through. I am now at the pinnacle of my lifetime. I understand more, I analyse more, and my manipulation...
    whiplash95 whiplash95
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Sep 21, 2015

    my whole family is, they ahve been killing me

    sonce childhood, I need help
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 19, 2015

    If you feel like a wolf in the shadows,

    read this. I wrote this in response to someone who inspired me with his poetry. What do you guys think? Can you relate? P.S. My poetry is not the best, for I'm not a writer myself, but I improvised and this is what I came up with. Through the shadows I search relentlessly...
    Daretotryme Daretotryme
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2016

    Walking down the street I am ever aware.

    Most of the people I pass are accustomed to normalcy, it is in their nature, How is this? For this reason I watch them, I observe them. How can I act more normal? For these reasons I feel like I am more aware when walking in public, I am always thinking and watching, unlike...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 20, 2014

    I have a love/hate relationship with "normal"

    people. It's great that they're so trusting, weak, and gullible for obvious reasons, but I find it annoying how they seem to assume that everyone who isn't as empathetic as they are must be victims of abuse or just immature. It hasn't even dawned on them that they're just stupid...
    insertgenericusername insertgenericusername
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 2, 2014

    This is a question to all true psychopaths.

    I want to understand how you function in relationship. what qualities of a person attracts you? Is obsession and control your way of showing love?
    braveheart30 braveheart30
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Nov 2, 2015

    I am not a psychopath,

    so hopefully I won't get blasted for posting here. I have been rocked, shaped, traumatized by my experiences with individuals I can't fathom, whose behavior falls perfectly into the category of manipulative psychopathic/malignantly narcissistic. It is fascinating and extremely...
    SweetSpiritEnergy SweetSpiritEnergy
    2 Responses May 8, 2015
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