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I Am A Functioning Psychopath

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    The Quickening

    That feeling of your blood burning through your veins, the slightly sexual feeling you get from the heat, the Adrenalin boost as you see a million million scenario's unfold in the shell of your mental sandbox. Then the cooling as all that will be, will never be enough and if it...
    baserock baserock 22-25, M Jul 3, 2013

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    Question for psychopaths

    who have been in relationships... I've heard a lot about the psychopath establishing a 'dominance bond' not a 'love bond'. Likewise I've heard they can act like the perfect mate but can become obsessive, possessive and controlling with their partner, at least for a while before...
    imagine524 imagine524 18-21, F 9 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    The Hollow Shell

    not much goes on inside, not much movement at all. emotional spectrum is so small, boredom, frustration, and on occasion, anger. but on the whole, I move through each day, without feeling. When I get mad, I am furious. like lightening it can strike, then be gone just as quick...
    APS9 APS9 31-35 3 Responses Mar 17, 2013

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    It's Nothing Personal.

    I don't know why I want to put this point across, but I do. when I say "it's nothing personal" I really mean it. hurting YOU is not the primary focus. nor is using YOU for my own gain. you are just a thing, a toy to be played with, an experience to be explored. I may be all...
    g1Fd g1Fd 31-35 2 Responses Aug 30, 2013

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    Sup guys, my first post.

    I've come to realise in a psychopath and was wondering if some of you who may be like me could verify this. I'd like to start with saying i believe in God and ALWAYS doing the right thing and that is a rule i live by. However...i never ever feel guilt at the idea and few...
    rokobenj rokobenj 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    Another interesting video about us :

    http://youtu.be/pROu77TvZzA Might be a little mainstream, try to bear with it.
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    The Streets Are My Playground, And I Never Needed Mic Skills.

    You make me smile. I like you and your huge ego. We're both so aching for a fight. Would you even know what you have over me or what to do with it. The game hasn't even begun and i can see your words being your own undoing. Just like all the other boys looking at me, refusing to...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    If you were to follow me through my day,

    you will notice that I smoke a pack of cigarettes, I drink 4 cups of strong black coffee, I ********** 4 times a day on average and I drink 6 to 7 units of alcohol each day. I cannot understand why inspite of the amateur research esearch I have done on my habits, I simply cannot...
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 21

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    Interesting material

    for people who want to know more about us : http://youtu.be/stG2gd9_JUg
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Absolerium Absolerium 22-25 5 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 18 hrs ago

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    Me

    You shouldn't fear me, I'm more afraid of you I use facts, You use emotions You act I simply react. I won't attack you, I will defend myself If you wave at me, I will wave back If you treat me well, I will treat you well If you screw me, I will get you back But you won't even...
    YFNP YFNP 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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    I'm hungry for something more,

    everyday the things I use to keep myself focused and away from boredom become more and more dull. It's not enough anymore, I need a life, I need an exciting, adrenaline filled career. After college, I've been planning to jump back into the world, I've been a ghost to the people...
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I WANT TO CUT YOU OPEN,

    SEE YOUR COLOURS RUN! I WANT TO PLAY I WANT TO HAVE A FRIEND TO HAVE SOME FUN! DON'T BE AFRAID, DON'T CRY, JUST GIVE IN THIS IS THE LAST TIME I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN SO COME ON, RELAX, JUST SIT STILL YOU BELONG TO ME AND YOU WILL KEEP QUIET AND LOOK ME IN THE EYE CUZ I WANNA **** YOU...
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F Dec 14, 2014

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    Outside I'm Successful

    I'm a high functioning psychopath with tendencies towards charismatic. I make people around me feel good. I love to feed off their positive emotions. I can't feel them but I can see them and it gives me energy to continue. I am successful well educated, intelligent a master at...
    cutout cutout 26-30 10 Responses Sep 10, 2011

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    My narcissism : During my amateur research,

    I came across similarities between narcissists, psychopaths and people suffering from ASPD. Similarities between psychopaths and narcissists are many including the false persona that is portrayed, the lack of empathy and preoccupation with power and success. Psychopathic...
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 21

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    Living with myself is extremely difficult

    as i hate all humans and yet my human nature calls me to interact with them and build relationships. Consequently either one i do makes me feel unhappy and as if i am betraying myself. Happiness just feels like a distant fleeting theoretical emotion i"ll never feel. I am...
    preesytt preesytt 18-21, M 7 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    My feelings towards animals : I was watching a

    movie with a segment on animal cruelty. There was a sick clip in the segment about a bird being tortured. You could hear the unstoppable squealing of the bird. The sound was not disturbing to me anymore than the scream of a little girl. Something in me FELT something, the...
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    what if i told you, im only human?

    would you believe me? or try to deceive me? what if i told you, i like when i feel? does that make me soft? or somehow less real? what if i told you, its all in your head? all of those hormones, thinking you feel instead. what if i told you, your world is a lie, your...
    ToKillAKestral ToKillAKestral 22-25, F Apr 17, 2014

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    A Lion Among Sheep?

    I don't know what to say here. How do I put into words that which I do not feel? I've read a lot of the posts on this page because I'm interested in understanding myself and people like me. But I haven't seen any. I'm 17 years old and i don't feel the raging horomones or constant...
    Bayardleach Bayardleach 18-21, M 11 Responses Apr 12, 2013

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    Even in my childhood I couldn't "feel" like the

    other kids. Those feelings of connection, love, attachment, joy, remorse seem strange to me. I am able to feel frustrated, betrayed or depressed. And yes, I do have urges to hurt or kill, but the focus of my aggression is never worth the effort or the loss of freedom. I try...
    Ulfhednar74 Ulfhednar74 36-40, M 4 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    Sex : I hate relationships,

    I feel the need to have them just because I need sex. But relationships are complicated and unpredictable. You have to manipulate her all the time. You have to play the Game which I'll say I'm good at but don't like at all. Prostitutes seem such a relief. It's quick, easy and...
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Curing the boredom? How do you guys deal with

    it? Every minute I'm not doing something, I'm bored. Sometimes I literally feel like I'm crawling out of my skin because I'm so damn bored. Off the top of my head, sex, cigarettes, opiates and messing with people will stave it off temporarily. It's probably the one thing that...
    camiicane camiicane 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 22

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    It's my birthday today,

    i deserve weed, sex, and a live punching bag
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Staying angry at people.

    Normal people GET angry. I STAY angry. People get mad and after that they either forget or forgive the person they are mad at. At my relatively young age, I hold grudges against a dozen people. I'm obsessed with getting back at them, it can be smart and cunning or it might be...
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I get this great pleasure from making women

    insecure. Last week, this girl told me she had a crush on a guy I stated I found very attractive. She said it in a condescending way which exuded confidence. Her: "I'm even friends with all his friends. I can just go and talk to them whenever I want" Me: "Oh really? So why...
    FemalePsychopath FemalePsychopath 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    Impulsivity is a weakness.

    I still can't stop drinking.
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    And yet, most of the people on here seem to be

    teenagers with a "Dark and Mysterious" complex. So many 666's in names, so many people talking about the "Monster inside." Stop watching Dexter. It is no more indicative of a true psychopath than Christopher Nolan's Joker is of a true clown. Psychopaths are not "Evil." We're...
    Solluth Solluth 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 21, 2014

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    Lazy Or Bored?

    I don’t know about others, but I get sick of hearing about how lazy psychopaths are. Empaths choosing words to describe what they can not understand infuriates me and this is just one more example of their drive to remove anything different from themselves. Psychopaths are lazy...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 31, 2013

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    Walking down the street I am ever aware.

    Most of the people I pass are accustomed to normalcy, it is in their nature, How is this? For this reason I watch them, I observe them. How can I act more normal? For these reasons I feel like I am more aware when walking in public, I am always thinking and watching, unlike...
    MrOllie MrOllie 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    there is a lot of stuff i do

    and have done though my favourite thing to do is ruin every relationship i have for no reason other than im bored ★★★
    satoko satoko 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Alcohol withdrawal day one : Withdrawal is

    making me feel weak. I'm not in control. Maybe it's making me more human for the time being. I'm feeling things like anxiety, mild paranoia and depression.
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Reluctant Psychopath - I'm Batman

    Batman? Not really. But it's kind of like that, the prospect of telling my story anonymously to other similar people, things that I've kept inside all my life (for the most part). In the past, when I researched Psychopathy to learn more about this 'grey area' in the psychological...
    redghost666 redghost666 31-35, M 6 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    A Fox Farewell To Freinds

    It appears the professional hunters have been loosed. Due to an unfortunate twist in an otherwise blissful experience here, LEOs have targeted my account. Though their attention was secondary to the initial issue, it has spread to me. In the last 24 hours there have been at least...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    How do you all define "functional"?

    What caused you to decide that you're functional vs the alternative. Just curious. I personally feel that as long as I'm not forcibly detained (either in jail or a psychiatric facility), I can consider myself functional.
    camiicane camiicane 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm never seen as the bad one,

    just the good guy, the nice guy, the people who cross paths with me find themselves isolated, focused on me, the ones who try to hurt me end up looking like bad people and fools, that's the way it's always been
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I really wish the difference between sociopathy

    and psychopathy was upheld. Anyway, psychopathy is not something you can alter. You know you are different. Am I a diagnosed psychopath? No. Have I read alot on this subject v. autism or even asbergers? Yes. (Un?)fortunately I believe I qualify for the big bad wolf. I have...
    AsiG AsiG 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 24, 2014

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    Great Job, You Guys.

    I like to consider the functioning psychopath the truly intelligent psychopath. You and I understand that society is a sandbox, and if you're not in it (or at least nearby), you can't play with it. Of course, we all know how much fun a manipulative life can be. So, bravo for...
    MrSyntax MrSyntax 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    The Child In The Playground... I Am Not A Monster.. Fear Not.

    Gah, I can't hide it anymore. I can't. I've wet the bed up till I was 12. I've lit things on fire.. and still have a small flame for it. I have seemingly tramatic experiences from childhood... Infancy maybe. And lastly, I've done unmentionable things to small animals in my youth...
    JeuneCirque JeuneCirque 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2012

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    so my mental stability has been detoriourating

    slowly and has become dangerously weak i constantly think of either killing myself or others or both am i insane?
    Anastas17 Anastas17 18-21, T 3 days ago

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    I swear I can feel it.

    That underlying bitterness and hatred is just festering inside. Just talking to someone yesterday gave me the urge to bite into their throat and rip it out. One side of me feared this thought, but at the same time, I wondered how it would feel...
    DripDripBooyah DripDripBooyah 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 22

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    I had an accident when I was 14.

    I was crossing the road and vehicles were going by at around 60 kms. per. hour, a heavy bike hits me below my right knee. I roll on the road 5 times. Everybody around me including my friend was worried about me. Amidst those worried people, only I was to be seen with a smile on...
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M Feb 23

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    What's it like to care about anything?

    To have a lasting emotional connection with someone? Sometimes I wish I knew. Being blind like everyone else wouldn't be that bad.
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    Pink Slipping A Sociopath

    Today I am cranky. Not prone to patience. I much prefer a psychopath over a sociopath. I find psychopaths much easier to get along with and deal with. Being faced with a sociopath who took up too much of my time and energy today left me with only one choice. Pink slip him. A...
    plmay plmay 36-40 3 Responses May 30, 2012

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    Beginners Manual On Becoming A Socialized Psychopath

    Avoid lying. Lying is natural to the pyschopath but it is a hinderence and will get you in trouble. So how do you do this? Practice my psychopathic friends, practice. Telling the truth is a learned behavior. The more you practice it the more neural pathways you will develop to...
    plmay plmay 36-40 20 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Listening to classical music makes me less

    impulsive and allows me to concentrate on what I'm doing. I'm not sure about how this works but if you're reading this, I think you should try it out once.
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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