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I Am A Functioning Psychopath

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    Psychopathic Wisdom

    I received this in an email today. Apparently it is close to something in a science fiction book. I liked it, you may, too. -Foreign policy is dictated by powerful men's prejudices. -War is simply honest diplomacy. -Capitalism is a dog eat-dog-system. With most other...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 7 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    No one even understands how hard this is,

    I see people talk about having this disorder like its fun.This is frustration and anger that most people can't even fathom. Waking up some days is so ******* hard. To get up get dressed, slap a smile on my face is so ******* hard. To watch and try to correct what I say and do to...
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 6 Responses Mar 16

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    People don't understand what's building up

    inside me, and when I release it all, they will regret hurting me. I am hungry to see their blood pour from their vital arteries as they scream in pain. I'm gonna hurt them. I don't understand forgiveness cos the only way to be forgiven is by getting what you deserve. I just sit...
    wouldyoumissme wouldyoumissme 16-17, M 3 Responses Mar 16

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    The Streets Are My Playground, And I Never Needed Mic Skills.

    You make me smile. I like you and your huge ego. We're both so aching for a fight. Would you even know what you have over me or what to do with it. The game hasn't even begun and i can see your words being your own undoing. Just like all the other boys looking at me, refusing to...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    I get this great pleasure from making women

    insecure. Last week, this girl told me she had a crush on a guy I stated I found very attractive. She said it in a condescending way which exuded confidence. Her: "I'm even friends with all his friends. I can just go and talk to them whenever I want" Me: "Oh really? So why...
    FemalePsychopath FemalePsychopath 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 9, 2014

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    I have spent a good time!

    Playing with my toy this past month. At first, I felt like breaking him or burning him but I might change my mind! I've rewound my toy and watched him play with his "gang" for a while now. I've been cooped up in my room for so long remembering my old toys and how much fun I...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 1 Response Mar 25

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    Ever since the day I was born I knew

    that I was something different. Something... better. I have often felt that I was was put on this Earth to be some sort of hero or leader of some kind. I thought I was sort some of 'alpha human' that was above everyone else, that the world revolved around me and nobody else. I...
    WhoDaresSins WhoDaresSins 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Lazy Or Bored?

    I don’t know about others, but I get sick of hearing about how lazy psychopaths are. Empaths choosing words to describe what they can not understand infuriates me and this is just one more example of their drive to remove anything different from themselves. Psychopaths are lazy...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 31, 2013

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    Pink Slipping A Sociopath

    Today I am cranky. Not prone to patience. I much prefer a psychopath over a sociopath. I find psychopaths much easier to get along with and deal with. Being faced with a sociopath who took up too much of my time and energy today left me with only one choice. Pink slip him. A...
    plmay plmay 36-40 3 Responses May 30, 2012

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    I am a psychopath. I have been able to change

    and be happy. I think I was able to even trick myself into thinking I had truly changed. Now I believe I was acting as how normal people do so well I bought into it. I now have a son that I want to have a better life than me. My world crashed, and back to the must unimaginable...
    Dub720 Dub720 31-35, M 2 Responses Mar 28

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    kill killlkillkillkillkill letme please.

    ... I'm going to die...I need to see blood and guts... please.... ddiiiiieeeeee
    SpectrumOfTears SpectrumOfTears 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 19

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    Question for psychopaths

    who have been in relationships... I've heard a lot about the psychopath establishing a 'dominance bond' not a 'love bond'. Likewise I've heard they can act like the perfect mate but can become obsessive, possessive and controlling with their partner, at least for a while before...
    imagine524 imagine524 18-21, F 9 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    People worship me. I surround myself with

    open-minded, smart people. I enjoy their strong personalities; the way they want to get everyone's approval. They're so easy. I manipulate them like puppets. I surround myself with these kind of people, being a role model to them. As for the weak, the wounded, the sick, the...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 15

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    I must say, I haven't been able to find many

    others out there (especially females, goodness). Most of my life, I've only had the pleasure of dealing with sociopaths (quite the roller-coaster). So far this has been intriguing, so I figured I'd be polite and say hello.
    lizzyifyouplease lizzyifyouplease 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 10

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    I am done with illogical

    and inconsistent people. They frustrate me to no end. Why are people so simple? It's pathetic.
    lizzyifyouplease lizzyifyouplease 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I really wish the difference between sociopathy

    and psychopathy was upheld. Anyway, psychopathy is not something you can alter. You know you are different. Am I a diagnosed psychopath? No. Have I read alot on this subject v. autism or even asbergers? Yes. (Un?)fortunately I believe I qualify for the big bad wolf. I have...
    AsiG AsiG 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 24, 2014

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    His wisdom is just one tiny attribute ofWhy He

    deserves all of the love in my heart.He has never been able to feel love before.How could such a precious personNot be able to feel love until now?He, above all others, understands love.He has been so misunderstood, so wronged;He is not a monster, you ignorant people!He was so...
    KalonaAyeliski KalonaAyeliski 36-40, F Jun 18, 2014

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    At one point I thought the psychotherapist got

    it wrong. But prehaps not. Has it been hard? Well yes. Knowing what I am however helped a little in the sense of that I am different from the majority of people. That not everyone thinks the same way. I tried to change... To develop emotion. At one point I thought I had, I was...
    Apical Apical 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Okay, so get this: I've been sick

    for the past few days, and I had a test, so I couldn't study for it. Today, I couldn't sleep all night, shivering and dreaming that I failed the course because of this exam. I woke up scared; that's right, I was scared. For no reason. Just because I never took a make-up exam for...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 30

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    I'm back... I don't want to die.

    .. I want to... to.... I want to kill~ Yeah... That should help~...
    SpectrumOfTears SpectrumOfTears 13-15, F Mar 19

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    Reluctant Psychopath - I'm Batman

    Batman? Not really. But it's kind of like that, the prospect of telling my story anonymously to other similar people, things that I've kept inside all my life (for the most part). In the past, when I researched Psychopathy to learn more about this 'grey area' in the psychological...
    redghost666 redghost666 31-35, M 6 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    A Lion Among Sheep?

    I don't know what to say here. How do I put into words that which I do not feel? I've read a lot of the posts on this page because I'm interested in understanding myself and people like me. But I haven't seen any. I'm 17 years old and i don't feel the raging horomones or constant...
    Bayardleach Bayardleach 18-21, M 12 Responses Apr 12, 2013

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    The Quickening

    That feeling of your blood burning through your veins, the slightly sexual feeling you get from the heat, the Adrenalin boost as you see a million million scenario's unfold in the shell of your mental sandbox. Then the cooling as all that will be, will never be enough and if it...
    baserock baserock 22-25, M Jul 3, 2013

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    Calling All Psychopaths!!

    People, Listen to me, we've been sitting on here sharign stories and talking about feelings/or lack of feelings and how to fit in for far too long now! It's nt us that should be fittign around them, it's the rest of the cattle that should be serving us! Anyone out there that...
    jackdaw1978 jackdaw1978 31-35 14 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    The Child In The Playground... I Am Not A Monster.. Fear Not.

    Gah, I can't hide it anymore. I can't. I've wet the bed up till I was 12. I've lit things on fire.. and still have a small flame for it. I have seemingly tramatic experiences from childhood... Infancy maybe. And lastly, I've done unmentionable things to small animals in my youth...
    JeuneCirque JeuneCirque 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2012

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    Dub720 Dub720 31-35, M 7 Responses Mar 28

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    The people who know me enough watch everything

    they do around me. They make sure to not upset me in anyway. Most people are on there best behavior around me. I guess this is what people call "controlling". But how can I control everyone so well but fail to control myself in many ways? I wonder.
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 12

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    Living with myself is extremely difficult

    as i hate all humans and yet my human nature calls me to interact with them and build relationships. Consequently either one i do makes me feel unhappy and as if i am betraying myself. Happiness just feels like a distant fleeting theoretical emotion i"ll never feel. I am...
    preesytt preesytt 18-21, M 7 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    Outside I'm Successful

    I'm a high functioning psychopath with tendencies towards charismatic. I make people around me feel good. I love to feed off their positive emotions. I can't feel them but I can see them and it gives me energy to continue. I am successful well educated, intelligent a master at...
    cutout cutout 26-30 9 Responses Sep 10, 2011

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    Me

    You shouldn't fear me, I'm more afraid of you I use facts, You use emotions You act I simply react. I won't attack you, I will defend myself If you wave at me, I will wave back If you treat me well, I will treat you well If you screw me, I will get you back But you won't even...
    YFNP YFNP 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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    Can We Love?

    I was asked once, and I’m paraphrasing from memory, “If you were hiding in building with a group of people with your baby and a group of soldiers came in with orders to kill everyone they found, what would you do if your baby began to cry?” My answer is its too simple. What...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 5 Responses May 15, 2013

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    I'm not. I joined this experience

    because this is the most polite group I've found on ep. Whether it's fear of eachother or that you're all naturally polite I don't know. Anyway your politeness intrigues me.
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    Beginners Manual On Becoming A Socialized Psychopath

    Avoid lying. Lying is natural to the pyschopath but it is a hinderence and will get you in trouble. So how do you do this? Practice my psychopathic friends, practice. Telling the truth is a learned behavior. The more you practice it the more neural pathways you will develop to...
    plmay plmay 36-40 20 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Aside from psychopathy,

    I am psychotic, or experience psychotic delusions. I've had various episodes, some that last a life time. Things such as thinking I was dead, this lasted 6 months, I was in a car accident where the car rolled over 4 times on the highway. Believing I was a prophet or that I had...
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 28

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    Great Job, You Guys.

    I like to consider the functioning psychopath the truly intelligent psychopath. You and I understand that society is a sandbox, and if you're not in it (or at least nearby), you can't play with it. Of course, we all know how much fun a manipulative life can be. So, bravo for...
    MrSyntax MrSyntax 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    Happy birthday to me.

    I look back at this year of my life and see nothing that I can admire. Nothing but alcoholism, boredom and fruitless attempts at fitting in. I am faced with a choice this year; Either to embrace this condition and worsen it or to deceive myself by trying to change. And even...
    Klausssss Klausssss 18-21, M 4 Responses Apr 10

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    Is it possible for someone to be both?

    What if someone was born psychopath but then because of nurture, they developed sociopathy as well. :O I very might as well have both...
    LadyExile LadyExile 18-21 1 Response Mar 12

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    And yet, most of the people on here seem to be

    teenagers with a "Dark and Mysterious" complex. So many 666's in names, so many people talking about the "Monster inside." Stop watching Dexter. It is no more indicative of a true psychopath than Christopher Nolan's Joker is of a true clown. Psychopaths are not "Evil." We're...
    Solluth Solluth 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 21, 2014

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    A Fox Farewell To Freinds

    It appears the professional hunters have been loosed. Due to an unfortunate twist in an otherwise blissful experience here, LEOs have targeted my account. Though their attention was secondary to the initial issue, it has spread to me. In the last 24 hours there have been at least...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    Smugness Is Imagined???

    No, Zoe, not imagined. Revealed by you and your postings and the very terms "disorder" and "condition". Like where I said I was delighted by your sarcasm - which was true, it was poignant and entertaining and pointed out a very real conflict in the poster's ideas. But you replied...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 5 Responses May 12, 2013

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    I got the official go from my doctor to smoke

    weed two days ago.No need to say, but I'm slightly baked atm.I'm back to normal. No psychotic breaks, anxiety, nor drama.The downer is, most of my online friends are afraid of me since I became a total nut case!The good thing about it is, I can have better friends. Ones that are...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 1 Response Mar 12

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    what if i told you, im only human?

    would you believe me? or try to deceive me? what if i told you, i like when i feel? does that make me soft? or somehow less real? what if i told you, its all in your head? all of those hormones, thinking you feel instead. what if i told you, your world is a lie, your...
    ToKillAKestral ToKillAKestral 22-25, F Apr 17, 2014

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    Depression, stillness

    or a general feeling of nihilism, I don't know how to describe the way I'm feeling right now. I have no social life, no love life and most importantly a lack of concern for the way I function in society. I know I'm not going to be in trouble with the law. Even my parents are...
    Klausssss Klausssss 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    I suppose since you wound up here some of you

    will have come across M.E Thomas, the host of the blog SociopathWorld.. Do we think shes is actaully a socio or do people have their doubts?
    MaladaptedReason MaladaptedReason 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 19

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    Dear Psychopath

    The first time I met you, your eyes were the first thing I noticed. They were not of a particularly startling color, shape, or size. But they were cold and still, and I wondered how they could bore into me while taking no rest to blink. Physiologically, something within me was...
    zoer zoer 22-25, T 10 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    I have control. Have not been overpowered once.

    I have no friends, socializing is a fun game for me, to see how many people I can manipulate and sway to a cheap and garbage opinion that I give. These People are puppets, dogs that I tease with snausages, only giving up the chewy treat if they have impressed me. Not often. I...
    craval craval 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 1

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