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I Am A Functioning Psychopath

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    The Quickening

    That feeling of your blood burning through your veins, the slightly sexual feeling you get from the heat, the Adrenalin boost as you see a million million scenario's unfold in the shell of your mental sandbox. Then the cooling as all that will be, will never be enough and if it...
    baserock baserock 22-25, M Jul 3, 2013

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    Sup guys, my first post.

    I've come to realise in a psychopath and was wondering if some of you who may be like me could verify this. I'd like to start with saying i believe in God and ALWAYS doing the right thing and that is a rule i live by. However...i never ever feel guilt at the idea and few...
    rokobenj rokobenj 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    at the same time you have to be you,

    you just need to control yourself live life and just do it now everything you have to do with, sometimes I feel like I can't express myself as much cus I have serious trust issues too and I really don't wanna open up to anyone and be lonely because of a secret I have
    myselfslate myselfslate 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 6

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    I have spent a good time!

    Playing with my toy this past month. At first, I felt like breaking him or burning him but I might change my mind! I've rewound my toy and watched him play with his "gang" for a while now. I've been cooped up in my room for so long remembering my old toys and how much fun I...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Can We Love?

    I was asked once, and I’m paraphrasing from memory, “If you were hiding in building with a group of people with your baby and a group of soldiers came in with orders to kill everyone they found, what would you do if your baby began to cry?” My answer is its too simple. What...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 5 Responses May 15, 2013

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    Living with myself is extremely difficult

    as i hate all humans and yet my human nature calls me to interact with them and build relationships. Consequently either one i do makes me feel unhappy and as if i am betraying myself. Happiness just feels like a distant fleeting theoretical emotion i"ll never feel. I am...
    preesytt preesytt 18-21, M 7 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    The people who know me enough watch everything

    they do around me. They make sure to not upset me in anyway. Most people are on there best behavior around me. I guess this is what people call "controlling". But how can I control everyone so well but fail to control myself in many ways? I wonder.
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 12

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    Listening to classical music makes me less

    impulsive and allows me to concentrate on what I'm doing. I'm not sure about how this works but if you're reading this, I think you should try it out once.
    Klaussss Klaussss 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 2

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    I must say, I haven't been able to find many

    others out there (especially females, goodness). Most of my life, I've only had the pleasure of dealing with sociopaths (quite the roller-coaster). So far this has been intriguing, so I figured I'd be polite and say hello.
    lizzyifyouplease lizzyifyouplease 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 10

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    Dear Psychopath

    The first time I met you, your eyes were the first thing I noticed. They were not of a particularly startling color, shape, or size. But they were cold and still, and I wondered how they could bore into me while taking no rest to blink. Physiologically, something within me was...
    zoeb555 zoeb555 22-25, F 10 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    Lazy Or Bored?

    I don’t know about others, but I get sick of hearing about how lazy psychopaths are. Empaths choosing words to describe what they can not understand infuriates me and this is just one more example of their drive to remove anything different from themselves. Psychopaths are lazy...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 31, 2013

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    People don't understand what's building up

    inside me, and when I release it all, they will regret hurting me. I am hungry to see their blood pour from their vital arteries as they scream in pain. I'm gonna hurt them. I don't understand forgiveness cos the only way to be forgiven is by getting what you deserve. I just sit...
    wouldyoumissme wouldyoumissme 16-17, M 3 Responses Mar 16

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    I suppose since you wound up here some of you

    will have come across M.E Thomas, the host of the blog SociopathWorld.. Do we think shes is actaully a socio or do people have their doubts?
    MaladaptedReason MaladaptedReason 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 19

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    I've gotten better at choosing situations,

    but one thing I noticed is how it's not that I want to do bad **** all the time. Yes I may want to indulge in exiting things 24/7 , It's just that I guess my personal interest comes first and I'm usually only thinking about that, I'll try to focus and think about others but...
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M Mar 4

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    Even in my childhood I couldn't "feel" like the

    other kids. Those feelings of connection, love, attachment, joy, remorse seem strange to me. I am able to feel frustrated, betrayed or depressed. And yes, I do have urges to hurt or kill, but the focus of my aggression is never worth the effort or the loss of freedom. I try...
    Ulfhednar74 Ulfhednar74 36-40, M 5 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    The Streets Are My Playground, And I Never Needed Mic Skills.

    You make me smile. I like you and your huge ego. We're both so aching for a fight. Would you even know what you have over me or what to do with it. The game hasn't even begun and i can see your words being your own undoing. Just like all the other boys looking at me, refusing to...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    Great Job, You Guys.

    I like to consider the functioning psychopath the truly intelligent psychopath. You and I understand that society is a sandbox, and if you're not in it (or at least nearby), you can't play with it. Of course, we all know how much fun a manipulative life can be. So, bravo for...
    MrSyntax MrSyntax 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    Beginners Manual On Becoming A Socialized Psychopath

    Avoid lying. Lying is natural to the pyschopath but it is a hinderence and will get you in trouble. So how do you do this? Practice my psychopathic friends, practice. Telling the truth is a learned behavior. The more you practice it the more neural pathways you will develop to...
    plmay plmay 36-40 20 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    I have interest in dating a

    psychopath/sociopath. Could any of you fine gentleman offer any advice I might find useful?
    Liliumx Liliumx 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    His wisdom is just one tiny attribute ofWhy He

    deserves all of the love in my heart.He has never been able to feel love before.How could such a precious personNot be able to feel love until now?He, above all others, understands love.He has been so misunderstood, so wronged;He is not a monster, you ignorant people!He was so...
    KalonaAyeliski KalonaAyeliski 36-40, F Jun 18, 2014

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    A Fox Farewell To Freinds

    It appears the professional hunters have been loosed. Due to an unfortunate twist in an otherwise blissful experience here, LEOs have targeted my account. Though their attention was secondary to the initial issue, it has spread to me. In the last 24 hours there have been at least...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    People worship me. I surround myself with

    open-minded, smart people. I enjoy their strong personalities; the way they want to get everyone's approval. They're so easy. I manipulate them like puppets. I surround myself with these kind of people, being a role model to them. As for the weak, the wounded, the sick, the...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 15

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    2 Years In And 4 To Go- Revenge

    I have spent 2 years on my revenge plan and I may have 4 long more years to go. The timing is significant and by the end of the next 4 years I will either have succeeded or I will go for broke. It has been a long process. There are some days I just wish I could kill the targets...
    plmay plmay 36-40 3 Responses Oct 1, 2012

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    what if i told you, im only human?

    would you believe me? or try to deceive me? what if i told you, i like when i feel? does that make me soft? or somehow less real? what if i told you, its all in your head? all of those hormones, thinking you feel instead. what if i told you, your world is a lie, your...
    ToKillAKestral ToKillAKestral 22-25, F Apr 17, 2014

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    I get this great pleasure from making women

    insecure. Last week, this girl told me she had a crush on a guy I stated I found very attractive. She said it in a condescending way which exuded confidence. Her: "I'm even friends with all his friends. I can just go and talk to them whenever I want" Me: "Oh really? So why...
    FemalePsychopath FemalePsychopath 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    The only emotions I believe I can truly feel

    and not fake or try to feel is anger and frustration.
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 4

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    Psychopathic Wisdom

    I received this in an email today. Apparently it is close to something in a science fiction book. I liked it, you may, too. -Foreign policy is dictated by powerful men's prejudices. -War is simply honest diplomacy. -Capitalism is a dog eat-dog-system. With most other...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 7 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    And yet, most of the people on here seem to be

    teenagers with a "Dark and Mysterious" complex. So many 666's in names, so many people talking about the "Monster inside." Stop watching Dexter. It is no more indicative of a true psychopath than Christopher Nolan's Joker is of a true clown. Psychopaths are not "Evil." We're...
    Solluth Solluth 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 21, 2014

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    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 2

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    Is it possible for someone to be both?

    What if someone was born psychopath but then because of nurture, they developed sociopathy as well. :O I very might as well have both...
    LadyExile LadyExile 18-21 1 Response Mar 12

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    A Lion Among Sheep?

    I don't know what to say here. How do I put into words that which I do not feel? I've read a lot of the posts on this page because I'm interested in understanding myself and people like me. But I haven't seen any. I'm 17 years old and i don't feel the raging horomones or constant...
    Bayardleach Bayardleach 18-21, M 12 Responses Apr 12, 2013

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    The Hollow Shell

    not much goes on inside, not much movement at all. emotional spectrum is so small, boredom, frustration, and on occasion, anger. but on the whole, I move through each day, without feeling. When I get mad, I am furious. like lightening it can strike, then be gone just as quick...
    APS9 APS9 31-35 3 Responses Mar 17, 2013

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    Ever since I took my new doctor's advise

    and stopped smoking, my life hasn't been amusing as it was. I stopped talking to most of my friends, I stopped having sex, I even sold my late driver's house. Soon after that, I became a total nut case! Thinking about what I did in the past and how I've ruined so many lives...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 1 Response Mar 7

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    Me

    You shouldn't fear me, I'm more afraid of you I use facts, You use emotions You act I simply react. I won't attack you, I will defend myself If you wave at me, I will wave back If you treat me well, I will treat you well If you screw me, I will get you back But you won't even...
    YFNP YFNP 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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    No one even understands how hard this is,

    I see people talk about having this disorder like its fun.This is frustration and anger that most people can't even fathom. Waking up some days is so ******* hard. To get up get dressed, slap a smile on my face is so ******* hard. To watch and try to correct what I say and do to...
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 6 Responses Mar 16

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    Calling All Psychopaths!!

    People, Listen to me, we've been sitting on here sharign stories and talking about feelings/or lack of feelings and how to fit in for far too long now! It's nt us that should be fittign around them, it's the rest of the cattle that should be serving us! Anyone out there that...
    jackdaw1978 jackdaw1978 31-35 14 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    Pink Slipping A Sociopath

    Today I am cranky. Not prone to patience. I much prefer a psychopath over a sociopath. I find psychopaths much easier to get along with and deal with. Being faced with a sociopath who took up too much of my time and energy today left me with only one choice. Pink slip him. A...
    plmay plmay 36-40 3 Responses May 30, 2012

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    Dub720 Dub720 31-35, M 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    I WANT TO CUT YOU OPEN,

    SEE YOUR COLOURS RUN! I WANT TO PLAY I WANT TO HAVE A FRIEND TO HAVE SOME FUN! DON'T BE AFRAID, DON'T CRY, JUST GIVE IN THIS IS THE LAST TIME I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN SO COME ON, RELAX, JUST SIT STILL YOU BELONG TO ME AND YOU WILL KEEP QUIET AND LOOK ME IN THE EYE CUZ I WANNA **** YOU...
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F Dec 14, 2014

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    kill killlkillkillkillkill letme please.

    ... I'm going to die...I need to see blood and guts... please.... ddiiiiieeeeee
    SpectrumOfTears SpectrumOfTears 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 19

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    Question for psychopaths

    who have been in relationships... I've heard a lot about the psychopath establishing a 'dominance bond' not a 'love bond'. Likewise I've heard they can act like the perfect mate but can become obsessive, possessive and controlling with their partner, at least for a while before...
    imagine524 imagine524 18-21, F 9 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I'm back... I don't want to die.

    .. I want to... to.... I want to kill~ Yeah... That should help~...
    SpectrumOfTears SpectrumOfTears 13-15, F Mar 19

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    Smugness Is Imagined???

    No, Zoe, not imagined. Revealed by you and your postings and the very terms "disorder" and "condition". Like where I said I was delighted by your sarcasm - which was true, it was poignant and entertaining and pointed out a very real conflict in the poster's ideas. But you replied...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 5 Responses May 12, 2013

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    For a book about a serial killer in a post

    apocalyptic society, Fletcher by David Horscroft was quite relatable. Discarding the whole 'insane serial killer thing' i found it an interesting portrayal of a path.
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    No one is on my side.

    When asked about psychopathy, people, drained by the media and Hollywood, get repulsed. They should. I need them to be. So they will fear me. Of course they don't know squat about my true self. They just think I'm that distant introvert, filled with emotions. I attract them...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 16

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    Walking down the street I am ever aware.

    Most of the people I pass are accustomed to normalcy, it is in their nature, How is this? For this reason I watch them, I observe them. How can I act more normal? For these reasons I feel like I am more aware when walking in public, I am always thinking and watching, unlike...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    The Child In The Playground... I Am Not A Monster.. Fear Not.

    Gah, I can't hide it anymore. I can't. I've wet the bed up till I was 12. I've lit things on fire.. and still have a small flame for it. I have seemingly tramatic experiences from childhood... Infancy maybe. And lastly, I've done unmentionable things to small animals in my youth...