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I Am A Functioning Psychopath

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 616 People

    I am going to be somewhat brutally honest here

    because i would like some real feedback. I have always known that I thought differently from other people but recently I have been putting more and more things together that seem to fit the picture of a psychopath or sociopath (I am not entirely sure of the distinction since...
    eviscerated eviscerated 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    I doubt myself, abilities

    when I cant even achieve a simple goal of escaping the moribund life that I lead, the pretentious people that are around me and the internal suffering that these things cause.
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 29, 2015

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    Beginners Manual On Becoming A Socialized Psychopath

    Avoid lying. Lying is natural to the pyschopath but it is a hinderence and will get you in trouble. So how do you do this? Practice my psychopathic friends, practice. Telling the truth is a learned behavior. The more you practice it the more neural pathways you will develop to...
    plmay plmay 36-40 20 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Redemption is always fair.

    The force that drives it is the purest. The reason behind it is the most plausible and on successful completion, the outcome is the most desirable.
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M Oct 23, 2015

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    There had been speculations concerning the true

    definition of a psychopath, and another for sociopath. Clearly, there is a difference, but the matter of the subject isn't quite clear yet. A logical differentiation of the two terms reveals that psychopaths are more calculating and reserved. If one commits a crime, he'll plan...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 6 Responses Apr 9, 2015

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    Dear Psychopath

    The first time I met you, your eyes were the first thing I noticed. They were not of a particularly startling color, shape, or size. But they were cold and still, and I wondered how they could bore into me while taking no rest to blink. Physiologically, something within me was...
    dezoed dezoed 22-25 10 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    I have always found that human support

    and sympathy are quite a lethal addiction. They have a sweet taste and a warm touch. They weaken the individual to the very core and loosen him up. On the other hand sympathy for oneself and one's own needs have a drastically different effect altogether. It gives the strength...
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 1, 2015

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    Human beings are like colours,

    they mix with each other and influence each other. They change themselves and others. I have always looked at myself as a person with a distinct colour, I am immiscible. I don't yield, yet I have the potential to drastically influence and change others. Their is no name as to...
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 13, 2015

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    Lazy Or Bored?

    I don’t know about others, but I get sick of hearing about how lazy psychopaths are. Empaths choosing words to describe what they can not understand infuriates me and this is just one more example of their drive to remove anything different from themselves. Psychopaths are lazy...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 2 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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    The Hollow Shell

    not much goes on inside, not much movement at all. emotional spectrum is so small, boredom, frustration, and on occasion, anger. but on the whole, I move through each day, without feeling. When I get mad, I am furious. like lightening it can strike, then be gone just as quick...
    APS9 APS9 36-40 3 Responses Mar 17, 2013

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    This is a question to all true psychopaths.

    I want to understand how you function in relationship. what qualities of a person attracts you? Is obsession and control your way of showing love?
    braveheart30 braveheart30 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 2, 2015

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    I was greeted with the news of suicide of a

    distant relative. Apparently, he laid on a railway track and was very cleanly and beautifully decapitated by an oncoming train. As any concerned distant relative I went to the funeral, mostly to see his body. The son was shocked , naturally. It was easy to persuade him that...
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 2, 2015

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    Living with myself is extremely difficult

    as i hate all humans and yet my human nature calls me to interact with them and build relationships. Consequently either one i do makes me feel unhappy and as if i am betraying myself. Happiness just feels like a distant fleeting theoretical emotion i"ll never feel. I am...
    preesytt preesytt 18-21, M 7 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    A Fox Farewell To Freinds

    It appears the professional hunters have been loosed. Due to an unfortunate twist in an otherwise blissful experience here, LEOs have targeted my account. Though their attention was secondary to the initial issue, it has spread to me. In the last 24 hours there have been at least...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    Its becoming clearer

    and clearer to me, I always have an ulterior motive. Earlier it used to be most of the time.
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M Aug 23, 2015

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    Great Job, You Guys.

    I like to consider the functioning psychopath the truly intelligent psychopath. You and I understand that society is a sandbox, and if you're not in it (or at least nearby), you can't play with it. Of course, we all know how much fun a manipulative life can be. So, bravo for...
    MrSyntax MrSyntax 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    I'm feeling like myself again.

    I'm more relaxed, focused. I've ended my six month contract. I went to a lot of countries. Japan, Indonesia, Australia, Holand, Egypt. I think I've smiled and shake hands enough times to get back to where I was again. God damn mask made me go insane!
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 1 Response Jun 8, 2015

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    The Quickening

    That feeling of your blood burning through your veins, the slightly sexual feeling you get from the heat, the Adrenalin boost as you see a million million scenario's unfold in the shell of your mental sandbox. Then the cooling as all that will be, will never be enough and if it...
    baserock baserock 22-25, M Jul 3, 2013

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    Often, I just want to turn myself around

    and blindly shoot at people, both family and unknown and see where do I hit them, am I that good a shot or not? Will I feel remorse if I hit them, will there be regret?
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 11, 2015

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    A scalpel held by an enemy will never cut

    as deep as the one held by someone trusty. I don't have any scars; mental or physical. It is something I realised innately.Hence, I never trust. Maybe a day will come when a scalpel will be held over my heart or neck , ready to give freedom to my living spark, I will not have to...
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M Oct 17, 2015

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    I'm not. But I feel so much better

    when I read the posts in this group. Life getting me down - read here and I feel better. Other EP groups annoying me - read here and I feel so much better. Possibly because people are what they are here. It's very flat here, emotionless to a large degree. Like a cold gust of...
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 6 Responses Oct 6, 2015

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    There is something in dating a budding

    psychiatrist. Her ever analyzing eyes , a relative lack of knowledge of the various concepts of psychiatry plus the charm I put on her result in a good steady dose of narcissism for me. She finds me fascinating and she is distracted, completely unaware of what I might be...
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M 37 mins ago

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    Can We Love?

    I was asked once, and I’m paraphrasing from memory, “If you were hiding in building with a group of people with your baby and a group of soldiers came in with orders to kill everyone they found, what would you do if your baby began to cry?” My answer is its too simple. What...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 5 Responses May 15, 2013

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    I really wish the difference between sociopathy

    and psychopathy was upheld. Anyway, psychopathy is not something you can alter. You know you are different. Am I a diagnosed psychopath? No. Have I read alot on this subject v. autism or even asbergers? Yes. (Un?)fortunately I believe I qualify for the big bad wolf. I have...
    AsiG AsiG 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 24, 2014

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    I hate the labeling people put on themselves on

    this page. Its ignorant and disrespectful to those who experience these "symptoms". Internet test, or their boyfriennd isnt nice that week so he must be insane.. ...but, one does get a bit of an ego listening to all these, pathetic "i killed a bird once im a psychopath...
    krowbar krowbar 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 16, 2015

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    I am mesmerized by the Sun.

    Its undeniable that there is life on earth majorly due to its presence. It gives us life and at the same time threatens the order of nature. It's like we are all living on borrowed time. No wonder people worship it, but that's misguided.
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M Sep 6, 2015

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    I can successfully think about hurting you

    and hold a conversation with you at the same time. I'm glad I can control my urges in public...other wise going out would be no fun
    JonathanCTVirgo JonathanCTVirgo 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 12, 2015

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    I get this great pleasure from making women

    insecure. Last week, this girl told me she had a crush on a guy I stated I found very attractive. She said it in a condescending way which exuded confidence. Her: "I'm even friends with all his friends. I can just go and talk to them whenever I want" Me: "Oh really? So why...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 9, 2014

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    What I am about to declare will be more

    than frustrating to most of the members around here. Psychologically speaking, psychopaths are weak. You read right. The power we seek to obtain, this hunger for control, is pure weakness. Earlier in our lives, we lost this control. We couldn't achieve what was on our mind. We...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 1 Response May 4, 2015

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    His wisdom is just one tiny attribute ofWhy He

    deserves all of the love in my heart.He has never been able to feel love before.How could such a precious personNot be able to feel love until now?He, above all others, understands love.He has been so misunderstood, so wronged;He is not a monster, you ignorant people!He was so...
    KalonaAyeliski KalonaAyeliski 36-40, F Jun 18, 2014

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    The true self is revealed

    when no one is watching and there are no external disturbances present. Light is a necessary disturbance. That gives rise to a conclusion that everything has a darker side , be them the trees, flowers ,rocks anything. The light provides a colourful mask to hide the inner self...
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 18, 2015

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    I am interested in what peoples' opinions are

    on the topic of secondary psychopathy? for anybody who wants to share. and no I don't believe they feel more guilt or remorse like some posts on Google that pop up say. I believe other stuff but I'm open to hearing anybody opinions and interested.
    darkertendencies darkertendencies 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2015

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    All the time my brain in playing,

    plotting a consequence. It is like a frenzy fuelled by my desire to dominate. When I taste success, the desire is heightened.
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M Sep 24, 2015

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    The Child In The Playground... I Am Not A Monster.. Fear Not.

    Gah, I can't hide it anymore. I can't. I've wet the bed up till I was 12. I've lit things on fire.. and still have a small flame for it. I have seemingly tramatic experiences from childhood... Infancy maybe. And lastly, I've done unmentionable things to small animals in my youth...
    JeuneCirque JeuneCirque 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2012

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    Apparently a baby lamb has began to fancy a

    wolf. But the wolf is very keen on playing with the lamb, stalking at the very same time, waiting for the inevitable moment when it's neck is within the reach of his jaws. Such a beautiful moment it would be when the light will leave her eyes out of sheer exasperation and pain...
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 27, 2015

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    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 18, 2015

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    Parenting becomes a failure

    when emotions cloud rationality. Infinite doors are opened for the kids, bearing possibilities and opportunities for "fun". It is like an illusive lens giving a surreal view of everything being in order. Failed parenting is one of the most profound consequences of irrational...
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M Jan 16

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    Religion is just another lens

    that covers our eyes, tampers our vision and obstructs the view of the world that we see. Reality is far more simple, far more elegant. The world perceived without any "lens" is the world best seen, in its pure , raw form. There is a certain beauty in it that deserves respect...
    Dexterousvaibhav Dexterousvaibhav 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 29, 2015

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    The Streets Are My Playground, And I Never Needed Mic Skills.

    You make me smile. I like you and your huge ego. We're both so aching for a fight. Would you even know what you have over me or what to do with it. The game hasn't even begun and i can see your words being your own undoing. Just like all the other boys looking at me, refusing to...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    Question for psychopaths

    who have been in relationships... I've heard a lot about the psychopath establishing a 'dominance bond' not a 'love bond'. Likewise I've heard they can act like the perfect mate but can become obsessive, possessive and controlling with their partner, at least for a while before...
    imagine524 imagine524 18-21, F 9 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I'm sitting in my living room with my whole

    family watching tv. On the show we are watching there is a crazy "psychopathic" killer on the loose. I can tell by the comments my family makes about the man that they (just like the show) have a twisted thinking that all psychopaths are crazy killers. Though some are, some can...
    Manipulatorr Manipulatorr 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 17, 2015

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    Outside I'm Successful

    I'm a high functioning psychopath with tendencies towards charismatic. I make people around me feel good. I love to feed off their positive emotions. I can't feel them but I can see them and it gives me energy to continue. I am successful well educated, intelligent a master at...
    cutout cutout 26-30 9 Responses Sep 10, 2011

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    Reluctant Psychopath - I'm Batman

    Batman? Not really. But it's kind of like that, the prospect of telling my story anonymously to other similar people, things that I've kept inside all my life (for the most part). In the past, when I researched Psychopathy to learn more about this 'grey area' in the psychological...
    redghost666 redghost666 31-35, M 6 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Me

    You shouldn't fear me, I'm more afraid of you I use facts, You use emotions You act I simply react. I won't attack you, I will defend myself If you wave at me, I will wave back If you treat me well, I will treat you well If you screw me, I will get you back But you won't even...
    YFNP YFNP 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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