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I Am A Functioning Psychopath

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    One night she cried; Her fear was

    so deep. That night she died; Forever in peaceful sleep.
    ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi 36-40, F Mar 26

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    im not like the rest of my friends .

    .. they are dexter lever killers when im the different one ,im the future killer you see walking over the sunset in a gas mask after he just did a biochemical bombing on half the world laughing. ahahhahaha
    ImperialKushCloud ImperialKushCloud 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 9

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    i think a girl in my class is a psychopath.

    we started reading up on it at the same time. she was in denial. she said she cares about people. i asked her if it all really felt the same. the limit to which you can let someone in or love them. or atleast think you do. i think psychopaths do love, in our own way granted, but...
    ToKillAKestral ToKillAKestral 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 14

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    Hello, Sweet Drag Of Death.

    I've smoked my first cigarette in quite some time, three years to be exact. It felt sensual. The first drag of it gave me a flash of ******, I almost felt like how a lonely woman would feel, being made sweet love to for the first time! A problem lies with my hatred towards...
    blackpigeon blackpigeon 26-30, M Apr 9

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    Reluctant Psychopath - I'm Batman

    Batman? Not really. But it's kind of like that, the prospect of telling my story anonymously to other similar people, things that I've kept inside all my life (for the most part). In the past, when I researched Psychopathy to learn more about this 'grey area' in the psychological...
    redghost666 redghost666 31-35, M 7 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    For a very long time I didn't understand what I

    am. I only knew that I was different. While all the other kiddies had pizza time and cone hat birthday parties with friends, I was the one in the corner. Watching. Learning. Then I began to see that they thought of me as someone else. An outcast. So I learned how to be like them...
    SocialEnigma SocialEnigma 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 16

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    Can We Love?

    I was asked once, and I’m paraphrasing from memory, “If you were hiding in building with a group of people with your baby and a group of soldiers came in with orders to kill everyone they found, what would you do if your baby began to cry?” My answer is its too simple. What...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 5 Responses May 15, 2013

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    A Little Fun Perhaps?

    so i have been having some very serious, albeit equally interesting conversations on ep so far. mostly about my dx and similair topics. why dont we just have some fun? i am going to start writing inapropriate and offencive replies to some of the more pathetic stories...
    g1Fd g1Fd 31-35 1 Response Apr 30, 2013

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    I've been having a lot of free time lately.

    all of my toys are either torn to pieces or rotting in boxes.. or too far away for me to reach out and play. Eventful as it is, work doesn't excite me anymore. people keep asking me to do things, and i do them. the money i earn, i spend it all on candy and girls. even though...
    blackpigeon blackpigeon 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 1

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    i bought a dwarf hampster the other day.

    ive never really been a fan of animals, but im making an effort. i figure if i can create a meaningful attachment to an animal then perhaps people would be less of a struggle? has anyone tried this before? and how do i resist sqeezing?
    ToKillAKestral ToKillAKestral 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I'm not a very sociable creature

    and I do not enjoy most people's company nor their opinions or feelings. I am however quite curious as to know how other psychopaths think. Not only am I a psychopath but I am also a sociopath, so please if anyone out there bothers to acknowledge my existence then try your...
    JezebelWhitman JezebelWhitman 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 9

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    Calling All Psychopaths!!

    People, Listen to me, we've been sitting on here sharign stories and talking about feelings/or lack of feelings and how to fit in for far too long now! It's nt us that should be fittign around them, it's the rest of the cattle that should be serving us! Anyone out there that...
    jackdaw1978 jackdaw1978 31-35 13 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    Today, Today!

    The night has settled over my house. I am alone once again. Spent the day surrounded by people and still I was alone. I hate this life of mine but I am unsure how to break free. Do I really want to. I am so different, so dark and so deadly. Can I ever be free from me?  I never...
    cutout cutout 26-30 7 Responses Sep 22, 2011

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    A New Page As entertaining

    as the past couple of years were, I couldn't keep my mask on any longer. I was on the verge of insanity! Having the power to control a part of organised "business" is very addictive. I would play with thugs and their owners the same way a kid would play with silly putty. I...
    blackpigeon blackpigeon 26-30, M 3 Responses Mar 7

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    I have a love/hate relationship with "normal"

    people. It's great that they're so trusting, weak, and gullible for obvious reasons, but I find it annoying how they seem to assume that everyone who isn't as empathetic as they are must be victims of abuse or just immature. It hasn't even dawned on them that they're just stupid...
    ieatgingers ieatgingers 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    A LOVER'S HAND I feel myself touching your

    Hand, (I feel the warmth of life as you do.) The same Hand that took me so violently, (I remember saving you, by force) And brought so much pain and agony to me. (And liberty and joy you never knew) The Hand that I fought so hard, (But found impossible to resist) Until it...
    ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi 36-40, F Mar 26

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    i pushed someone down the stairs yesterday

    so that i could rush to their aid. they fell unconscious, and everyone thinks im a hero because i got them to breathe again. thats me. the hero. haha.
    ToKillAKestral ToKillAKestral 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 10

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    I feel like i am the only person

    who is awake in a sea of people. They try so hard to fit in, to not do anything against the norm. They are clones. Zombies. Living dead. Slaves to the system. They need the self proclaimed moral majority to dictate right from wrong. Their highest ambition is to work, retire, and...
    mierdamundo mierdamundo 31-35 4 Responses Jan 29

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    A Lion Among Sheep?

    I don't know what to say here. How do I put into words that which I do not feel? I've read a lot of the posts on this page because I'm interested in understanding myself and people like me. But I haven't seen any. I'm 17 years old and i don't feel the raging horomones or constant...
    Bayardleach Bayardleach 18-21, M 11 Responses Apr 12, 2013

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    I was under the impression

    that i cared for the people around me... then i thought about it and noticed i situate those around through what they can do for me, setting them up as a net so i never fall. if i wanted to achieve and one of them got into my way i am sure i would quickly remove them from their...
    bleetingsheep bleetingsheep 18-21 1 Response Feb 16

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    what if i told you, im only human?

    would you believe me? or try to deceive me? what if i told you, i like when i feel? does that make me soft? or somehow less real? what if i told you, its all in your head? all of those hormones, thinking you feel instead. what if i told you, your world is a lie, your...
    ToKillAKestral ToKillAKestral 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    Great Job, You Guys.

    I like to consider the functioning psychopath the truly intelligent psychopath. You and I understand that society is a sandbox, and if you're not in it (or at least nearby), you can't play with it. Of course, we all know how much fun a manipulative life can be. So, bravo for...
    MrSyntax MrSyntax 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    Well. I guess sociopath.

    Message me if you're similar. It'd be decent to speak to somebody who isn't just a Dexter fanboy.
    lukehyde1994 lukehyde1994 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 17

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    Imagine... Imagine. You are born on an Island.

    You've lived on this island your entire life, completely alone. It's only other inhabitance are venomous reptiles. Large unfeeling monitor lizards. A single bite from one of these soulless creatures, and its toxic saliva would crawl through your veins putrefying you slowly from...
    Machinestrr Machinestrr 26-30, M 4 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    Beginners Manual On Becoming A Socialized Psychopath

    Avoid lying. Lying is natural to the pyschopath but it is a hinderence and will get you in trouble. So how do you do this? Practice my psychopathic friends, practice. Telling the truth is a learned behavior. The more you practice it the more neural pathways you will develop to...
    plmay plmay 36-40 21 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    It's Nothing Personal.

    I don't know why I want to put this point across, but I do. when I say "it's nothing personal" I really mean it. hurting YOU is not the primary focus. nor is using YOU for my own gain. you are just a thing, a toy to be played with, an experience to be explored. I may be all...
    g1Fd g1Fd 31-35 2 Responses Aug 30, 2013

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    i sometimes imagine myself being a part of law

    enforcement, with a badge over my belt and a gun in my hand. people would clap and cheer my name as i patrol through the ashes of a burning city. mayors and cheifs congradulating me on the cases and crimes i've solved.with a magnificent smile across my face, i shoot my way...
    blackpigeon blackpigeon 26-30, M Feb 14

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    Outside I'm Successful

    I'm a high functioning psychopath with tendencies towards charismatic. I make people around me feel good. I love to feed off their positive emotions. I can't feel them but I can see them and it gives me energy to continue. I am successful well educated, intelligent a master at...
    cutout cutout 26-30 10 Responses Sep 10, 2011

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    A link I considered and praise

    as mull-worthy. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dbh5l0b2-0o
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 30

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    Poison...

    I enjoy poisoning people and by poisoning I mean getting into their lives somehow to study them from far then step forward and get nearer, learn everything useful about them... the stronger the more interesting it gets for me. It's like a challenge I MUST take. Some people...
    CreativeButcher CreativeButcher 18-21 14 Responses Jul 1, 2013

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    I'm Tired

    I'm so tired of keeping up the pretenses around others, it's exhausting!! Each day my skin crawls the minute I come into contact with anyone, and yet there I am happy, bubbly, smiling, laughing at what the cattle say to me. Everyone is so busy writing and researching what...
    jackdaw1978 jackdaw1978 31-35 8 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    im going to take over the world.

    i know it sounds crazy, but isnt it usually the crazy things that come true? I'll start with my area, and move onward. (Y)
    ToKillAKestral ToKillAKestral 22-25, F Apr 7

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    Psychopathic Wisdom

    I received this in an email today. Apparently it is close to something in a science fiction book. I liked it, you may, too. -Foreign policy is dictated by powerful men's prejudices. -War is simply honest diplomacy. -Capitalism is a dog eat-dog-system. With most other...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 5 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    I have never felt emotion

    and until when I was around 12, I had thought emotions and consciences were something of fantasy, like the religion or santa. I don't understand the machinations of human feeling, no idea why people become "friends", and I constantly manipulate people for reasons ranging from...
    PatrickMorgan PatrickMorgan 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 5

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    I'm so empty inside, I don't feel any emotion,

    but I can express to other people any emotion I want them to see. My entire life is an play, and I'm the actor.
    redaction redaction 16-17, M 3 Responses Mar 21

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    Dare A War And You'll Be Eager

    "My loyal subject. You, My former bishop, have your own pawns now!" I said, looking for a final snarky remark. As you try to find an explanation for my sudden generosity, all you could give is thanks. It brings me a smile to see you take charge for the first time. Everyday, you...
    blackpigeon blackpigeon 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 10, 2013

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    Have you ever really wondered what you are?

    Because if you are like me, then you are not human. Websites dictionary definition of human is: Main Entry: 1hu·man Pronunciation: ˈhyü-mən, ˈyü- Function: adjective Etymology: Middle English humain, from Anglo-French, from Latin humanus; akin to Latin homo human being...
    Machinestrr Machinestrr 26-30, M 5 Responses Dec 13, 2013

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    I "WAS" a functioning (sic) Psychopath.

    I drove the Lamborghini down that Highway To Hell at full force, pedal to the metal, 24/7, 8 days a week. The throttle's groan was my death nell. As the wheels exploded, and blew off in their distinguished directions, adjacent one another and never to intercede in...
    mytruthisme mytruthisme 46-50, M Mar 2

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    I am soo bored any other psychopaths

    as bored as I am as fun as it is playing people off against each other there pathetic little minds cannot see past emotions and feelings and all that crap sometimes being a psychopath is so lonely and boring I need an intellectual challenge anyone else out there feel similar
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jan 11

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    Me

    You shouldn't fear me, I'm more afraid of you I use facts, You use emotions You act I simply react. I won't attack you, I will defend myself If you wave at me, I will wave back If you treat me well, I will treat you well If you screw me, I will get you back But you won't even...
    YFNP YFNP 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 16, 2013

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    The Hollow Shell

    not much goes on inside, not much movement at all. emotional spectrum is so small, boredom, frustration, and on occasion, anger. but on the whole, I move through each day, without feeling.When I get mad, I am furious. like lightening it can strike, then be gone just as quick...
    APS9 APS9 31-35 3 Responses Mar 17, 2013

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    ''Drugs, money, sex, revolution is next.

    '' Imagine you bought a square of land in a low cost country, made walls around it with a gate. Entering the gate is free, leaving will cost a year salary. Inside this square of yours there are a huge factory producing jeans (or anything, really), there are shopping malls...
    Ulsberg Ulsberg 31-35 3 Responses Mar 11

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    Poetry of passion and pain.

    A relationship between a functional psychopath and an epileptic narcissist. We never loved each other. How could we? We had no understand of love. No capacity for love. From the beginning, we used each other. We were both useful for very different reasons. We were the perfect...
    Machinestrr Machinestrr 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 17, 2013

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    2 Years In And 4 To Go- Revenge

    I have spent 2 years on my revenge plan and I may have 4 long more years to go. The timing is significant and by the end of the next 4 years I will either have succeeded or I will go for broke. It has been a long process. There are some days I just wish I could kill the targets...
    plmay plmay 36-40 4 Responses Oct 1, 2012

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    Psychopaths are so misunderstood.

    It is a crying shame. It is that are right, and intelligent, and ready to manipulate for own good. "Normal" people have no clue.
    ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    Dear Psychopath

    The first time I met you, your eyes were the first thing I noticed. They were not of a particularly startling color, shape, or size. But they were cold and still, and I wondered how they could bore into me while taking no rest to blink. Physiologically, something within me was...
    zoeb555 zoeb555 18-21, F 12 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    The Child In The Playground... I Am Not A Monster.. Fear Not.

    Gah, I can't hide it anymore. I can't. I've wet the bed up till I was 12. I've lit things on fire.. and still have a small flame for it. I have seemingly tramatic experiences from childhood... Infancy maybe. And lastly, I've done unmentionable things to small animals in my youth...
    JeuneCirque JeuneCirque 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    Lazy Or Bored?

    I don’t know about others, but I get sick of hearing about how lazy psychopaths are. Empaths choosing words to describe what they can not understand infuriates me and this is just one more example of their drive to remove anything different from themselves. Psychopaths are lazy...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M Jul 31, 2013

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    Smugness Is Imagined???

    No, Zoe, not imagined. Revealed by you and your postings and the very terms "disorder" and "condition". Like where I said I was delighted by your sarcasm - which was true, it was poignant and entertaining and pointed out a very real conflict in the poster's ideas. But you replied...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 5 Responses May 12, 2013

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    Pink Slipping A Sociopath

    Today I am cranky. Not prone to patience. I much prefer a psychopath over a sociopath. I find psychopaths much easier to get along with and deal with. Being faced with a sociopath who took up too much of my time and energy today left me with only one choice. Pink slip him. A...
    plmay plmay 36-40 3 Responses May 30, 2012

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    Does This Ever Happen To You?

    I spend my life not enjoying the present. But when I look back at it I feel emotion. Here is an example. My daughter took two of the dogs with her for the night leaving one dog home with me. This dog is my favorite dog and I love her. I knew she felt bad about being left behind...
    plmay plmay 36-40 10 Responses Sep 7, 2011

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    Nature's WayHe hunts; She runs.

    He pounces; She struggles.He laughs; She's helpless.Bite.Blood.Breathless. 
    ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I Don'T Feel Sad Mom

    My daughter was relating how she was not sad over the recent death of a relative. I was moved, as my circle of love is very small. In fact I was devastated, for a week. After that I moved on. My daughter told me how sad she felt because she saw my sadness. The only thing that...
    plmay plmay 36-40 2 Responses May 10, 2013

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    Now I lay me down to sleep I pray my Captor my

    soul to keep. If I should die before I wake, A lovely meal for Him I would make.
    ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi ahyokaatuyastanvusdayvhvsgi 36-40, F Mar 26

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    Embracing the Darkness

    I am a psychopath. A well camouflaged one. If you met me you probably wouldn't be able to tell what i am. I discovered what i am about 5 years ago after a particularly nasty breakup. Before said relationship i was self contained, unemotional and content and it made me feel things...
    MrTimeReturns MrTimeReturns 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 26, 2013

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    I have perfected my mask

    so perfectly that i sometimes forget i am wearing it, i have become "functioning" through the study of people, its as simple as that. I love what i am, we are the alpha leaders hahaha the apex predators blending in perfectly to main stream society there's no limit as to how far...
    bleetingsheep bleetingsheep 18-21 4 Responses Mar 7

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