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I Am A Functioning Psychopath

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    for a long time i have been fascinated by

    psychopaths. over the past few month i have had these horribly wrong feelings that i enjoyed like sometimes i would be with family or friends or teachers and i could be thinking how easy it would be to kill them and more recently i have been thinking about acting on them even...
    wildeyejoker wildeyejoker 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    ThurnUndTaxis ThurnUndTaxis 26-30, M 1 Response May 5

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    Me

    You shouldn't fear me, I'm more afraid of you I use facts, You use emotions You act I simply react. I won't attack you, I will defend myself If you wave at me, I will wave back If you treat me well, I will treat you well If you screw me, I will get you back But you won't even...
    YFNP YFNP 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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    Walking down the street I am ever aware.

    Most of the people I pass are accustomed to normalcy, it is in their nature, How is this? For this reason I watch them, I observe them. How can I act more normal? For these reasons I feel like I am more aware when walking in public, I am always thinking and watching, unlike...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    What I am about to declare will be more

    than frustrating to most of the members around here. Psychologically speaking, psychopaths are weak. You read right. The power we seek to obtain, this hunger for control, is pure weakness. Earlier in our lives, we lost this control. We couldn't achieve what was on our mind. We...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 2 Responses May 4

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    Do other functional psychopaths have a sense of

    humor? How would you describe it?
    Ulfhednar74 Ulfhednar74 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 28

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    I have control. Have not been overpowered once.

    I have no friends, socializing is a fun game for me, to see how many people I can manipulate and sway to a cheap and garbage opinion that I give. These People are puppets, dogs that I tease with snausages, only giving up the chewy treat if they have impressed me. Not often. I...
    craval craval 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 1

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    The Streets Are My Playground, And I Never Needed Mic Skills.

    You make me smile. I like you and your huge ego. We're both so aching for a fight. Would you even know what you have over me or what to do with it. The game hasn't even begun and i can see your words being your own undoing. Just like all the other boys looking at me, refusing to...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    I am not a psychopath,

    so hopefully I won't get blasted for posting here. I have been rocked, shaped, traumatized by my experiences with individuals I can't fathom, whose behavior falls perfectly into the category of manipulative psychopathic/malignantly narcissistic. It is fascinating and extremely...
    SweetSpiritEnergy SweetSpiritEnergy 26-30 2 Responses May 8

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    The Hollow Shell

    not much goes on inside, not much movement at all. emotional spectrum is so small, boredom, frustration, and on occasion, anger. but on the whole, I move through each day, without feeling. When I get mad, I am furious. like lightening it can strike, then be gone just as quick...
    APS9 APS9 31-35 3 Responses Mar 17, 2013

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    I am a psychopath. I have been able to change

    and be happy. I think I was able to even trick myself into thinking I had truly changed. Now I believe I was acting as how normal people do so well I bought into it. I now have a son that I want to have a better life than me. My world crashed, and back to the must unimaginable...
    Dub720 Dub720 31-35, M 2 Responses Mar 28

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    Thinking about being totally honest with my

    girlfriend about how I am. Two possibilities: First she runs away in fright, good less drama for me and an opportunity to find someone more of an asset. or Second, She thinks it's ok and I can use it as leverage if she doesn't like somethings I do or say. Thoughts?
    Ulfhednar74 Ulfhednar74 41-45, M 9 Responses May 18

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    Beginners Manual On Becoming A Socialized Psychopath

    Avoid lying. Lying is natural to the pyschopath but it is a hinderence and will get you in trouble. So how do you do this? Practice my psychopathic friends, practice. Telling the truth is a learned behavior. The more you practice it the more neural pathways you will develop to...
    plmay plmay 36-40 20 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    The urges have come back.

    I do not find peace of mind in sleep anymore. I can't sleep. The irony is that I'm analytical, logical. And yet, the source behind these urges remain unknown to me. I need to crack bones. Snap a neck. Kill. Why? No idea. I just do. This is getting out of control!
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 6 Responses May 21

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    Okay, so get this: I've been sick

    for the past few days, and I had a test, so I couldn't study for it. Today, I couldn't sleep all night, shivering and dreaming that I failed the course because of this exam. I woke up scared; that's right, I was scared. For no reason. Just because I never took a make-up exam for...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M Mar 30

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    Today I sat back and watched the world.

    I took note of peoples routines and little behaviours. The small things people do to feel human or to satisfy their own urges are hilarious. You never really take note until you pay attention, but soon you realize everybody is displaying their whole life in small ways. In a...
    TheUrge21 TheUrge21 18-21, M 2 Responses May 21

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    Calling All Psychopaths!!

    People, Listen to me, we've been sitting on here sharign stories and talking about feelings/or lack of feelings and how to fit in for far too long now! It's nt us that should be fittign around them, it's the rest of the cattle that should be serving us! Anyone out there that...
    jackdaw1978 jackdaw1978 31-35 14 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    Reluctant Psychopath - I'm Batman

    Batman? Not really. But it's kind of like that, the prospect of telling my story anonymously to other similar people, things that I've kept inside all my life (for the most part). In the past, when I researched Psychopathy to learn more about this 'grey area' in the psychological...
    redghost666 redghost666 31-35, M 6 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Lazy Or Bored?

    I don’t know about others, but I get sick of hearing about how lazy psychopaths are. Empaths choosing words to describe what they can not understand infuriates me and this is just one more example of their drive to remove anything different from themselves. Psychopaths are lazy...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 31, 2013

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    Pink Slipping A Sociopath

    Today I am cranky. Not prone to patience. I much prefer a psychopath over a sociopath. I find psychopaths much easier to get along with and deal with. Being faced with a sociopath who took up too much of my time and energy today left me with only one choice. Pink slip him. A...
    plmay plmay 36-40 3 Responses May 30, 2012

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    How to spot the difference between a psychopath

    and a person who truly believes in soul mates? (early, obviously with time it becomes obvious)
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F May 13

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    I have finally got back on the wagon.

    I said my goodbyes to my toy. I tazed him till he passed out then shoved him into my car. He woke up to a fog of marijuana smoke. I looked at him and said: Hi. This might be hard on you, but it's going to be a lot harder for me. See, I haven't killed a toy for a really long...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ May 20

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    A Fox Farewell To Freinds

    It appears the professional hunters have been loosed. Due to an unfortunate twist in an otherwise blissful experience here, LEOs have targeted my account. Though their attention was secondary to the initial issue, it has spread to me. In the last 24 hours there have been at least...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    What if a child had to watch his father rape,

    torturer and mutilate to death women in front of him since birth? What if his father had a grand idea of making his son into a cannibal, something that the father was too weak to try. What if the child was so empathetic that he decided to eat all the flesh so that he could, on...
    LightYagami LightYagami 18-21, M 4 Responses May 1

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    Dear Psychopath

    The first time I met you, your eyes were the first thing I noticed. They were not of a particularly startling color, shape, or size. But they were cold and still, and I wondered how they could bore into me while taking no rest to blink. Physiologically, something within me was...
    dezoed dezoed 22-25 10 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    I have always wanted to talk to someone

    who has been diagnosed and lives with the full blown un knowing fact that they are a Psychopath. I believe that they may be some of the most intellectual people to have conversations with as well as have an immensely interesting perception. If you are one of these people and...
    VintageSparrow VintageSparrow 22-25, F 4 Responses May 2

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    Can We Love?

    I was asked once, and I’m paraphrasing from memory, “If you were hiding in building with a group of people with your baby and a group of soldiers came in with orders to kill everyone they found, what would you do if your baby began to cry?” My answer is its too simple. What...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 5 Responses May 15, 2013

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    what if i told you, im only human?

    would you believe me? or try to deceive me? what if i told you, i like when i feel? does that make me soft? or somehow less real? what if i told you, its all in your head? all of those hormones, thinking you feel instead. what if i told you, your world is a lie, your...
    ToKillAKestral ToKillAKestral 22-25, F Apr 17, 2014

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    Ever since the day I was born I knew

    that I was something different. Something... better. I have often felt that I was was put on this Earth to be some sort of hero or leader of some kind. I thought I was sort some of 'alpha human' that was above everyone else, that the world revolved around me and nobody else. I...
    WhoDaresSins WhoDaresSins 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 25

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    Outside I'm Successful

    I'm a high functioning psychopath with tendencies towards charismatic. I make people around me feel good. I love to feed off their positive emotions. I can't feel them but I can see them and it gives me energy to continue. I am successful well educated, intelligent a master at...
    cutout cutout 26-30 9 Responses Sep 10, 2011

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    At one point I thought the psychotherapist got

    it wrong. But prehaps not. Has it been hard? Well yes. Knowing what I am however helped a little in the sense of that I am different from the majority of people. That not everyone thinks the same way. I tried to change... To develop emotion. At one point I thought I had, I was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 20

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    People fail to see the capabilities of a

    psychopath. Put aside the criminal blood lusted freaks that work on impulse who shames the psychopath image, you get the emotionally-absent leader. Winston Churchill knew that the Germans were launching an air assault on a certain English city. Instead of warning the anti-air...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 21

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    I WANT TO CUT YOU OPEN,

    SEE YOUR COLOURS RUN! I WANT TO PLAY I WANT TO HAVE A FRIEND TO HAVE SOME FUN! DON'T BE AFRAID, DON'T CRY, JUST GIVE IN THIS IS THE LAST TIME I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN SO COME ON, RELAX, JUST SIT STILL YOU BELONG TO ME AND YOU WILL KEEP QUIET AND LOOK ME IN THE EYE CUZ I WANNA **** YOU...
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F Dec 14, 2014

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    Psychopathic Wisdom

    I received this in an email today. Apparently it is close to something in a science fiction book. I liked it, you may, too. -Foreign policy is dictated by powerful men's prejudices. -War is simply honest diplomacy. -Capitalism is a dog eat-dog-system. With most other...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 7 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    His wisdom is just one tiny attribute ofWhy He

    deserves all of the love in my heart.He has never been able to feel love before.How could such a precious personNot be able to feel love until now?He, above all others, understands love.He has been so misunderstood, so wronged;He is not a monster, you ignorant people!He was so...
    KalonaAyeliski KalonaAyeliski 36-40, F Jun 18, 2014

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    And yet, most of the people on here seem to be

    teenagers with a "Dark and Mysterious" complex. So many 666's in names, so many people talking about the "Monster inside." Stop watching Dexter. It is no more indicative of a true psychopath than Christopher Nolan's Joker is of a true clown. Psychopaths are not "Evil." We're...
    Solluth Solluth 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 21, 2014

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    It's nearly summer, the weather's warm.

    I don't enjoy driving on the highway anymore, with that cool breeze caressing my cheeks. People are wearing less clothes, but what made me think is the following. These 14 year old teenage girls, showing 95% of their flesh, wearing these slutty clothes, walking around boys. And...
    whiplash95 whiplash95 18-21, M 4 Responses May 9

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    I'm not. I joined this experience

    because this is the most polite group I've found on ep. Whether it's fear of eachother or that you're all naturally polite I don't know. Anyway your politeness intrigues me.
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    right then who else panics

    when they realise everyone else knows what to do with their hands in public places
    ClearlyNotGarySpeed ClearlyNotGarySpeed 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    I have mastered the ability to play this world

    with control and much thought, I have got everything I wanted. when I was a child I would lose that control and kill while giggling. I feel that rage and the desire to go out and create a situation to release the pressure building up. I don't want to set it aside anymore tonight...
    Dub720 Dub720 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 28

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    Someone very important to me recently

    disappeared from here. If you are reading this, my offer still stands, A. You know how to contact me.
    thereptile64 thereptile64 22-25, M May 14

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    Sup guys, my first post.

    I've come to realise in a psychopath and was wondering if some of you who may be like me could verify this. I'd like to start with saying i believe in God and ALWAYS doing the right thing and that is a rule i live by. However...i never ever feel guilt at the idea and few...
    rokobenj rokobenj 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    Aside from psychopathy,

    I am psychotic, or experience psychotic delusions. I've had various episodes, some that last a life time. Things such as thinking I was dead, this lasted 6 months, I was in a car accident where the car rolled over 4 times on the highway. Believing I was a prophet or that I had...
    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 28

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    Even in my childhood I couldn't "feel" like the

    other kids. Those feelings of connection, love, attachment, joy, remorse seem strange to me. I am able to feel frustrated, betrayed or depressed. And yes, I do have urges to hurt or kill, but the focus of my aggression is never worth the effort or the loss of freedom. I try...
    Ulfhednar74 Ulfhednar74 41-45, M 5 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    The Quickening

    That feeling of your blood burning through your veins, the slightly sexual feeling you get from the heat, the Adrenalin boost as you see a million million scenario's unfold in the shell of your mental sandbox. Then the cooling as all that will be, will never be enough and if it...
    baserock baserock 22-25, M Jul 3, 2013

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    Depression, stillness

    or a general feeling of nihilism, I don't know how to describe the way I'm feeling right now. I have no social life, no love life and most importantly a lack of concern for the way I function in society. I know I'm not going to be in trouble with the law. Even my parents are...
    Klausssss Klausssss 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 9

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