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I Am a Gay Man Trapped In a Womans Body

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 158 People

    Discovering Jake.

    I've always been different to all the girls I grew up around. I never felt comfortable in my body and I never had a great deal of interest in shopping for girly clothes or spending hours getting manicures.  I always preffered to hang out and have a beer and a laugh with the guys...
    jakeystar jakeystar
    22-25, T
    4 Responses Jun 20, 2012

    Who Am I, Where Am I, And How Did I Get Here?

    Growing up I was a major tomboy. I played with action figures, not dolls. I was running around playing touch football with the boys, not playing house. I actually preferred my brother's hand-me-downs than the dreaded JC Penny girl's clothing my grandparents bought for me. Girls...
    wansu wansu
    22-25, T
    5 Responses Nov 5, 2009

    What A Life

    OK. I just turned 18 and already my life seems to already have a pattern that it's falling into. Just recently I found out about a term for girl's who feel like they are attracted to gay men, they're called girl ****. Instantly, this is what I referred to myseld as. I was so...
    MsNewSesshomaru MsNewSesshomaru
    18-21, F
    Oct 2, 2012

    Learning To Love Myself

    I have known I was a gay man in a female body since I began to understand what “gay” meant—maybe when I was 10 or so. I play-acted in situations as a gay man but pretty much kept it all to myself, never tried to explain it to my family. I didn’t even...
    RomanticRunner RomanticRunner
    46-50, T
    10 Responses Oct 10, 2009

    Everyone Thinks I Am Kidding

    To me getting dressed up and putting on makeup is like drag. I don't hate makeup or having boobs but I feel like its a persona. I never admired women as a child.  I convinced my dad to get me a bomber jacket so I could pretend I was  Murdock from the A- Team.  I...
    lastkissgdknight lastkissgdknight
    4 Responses Feb 9, 2010

    I Found A Guy That Likes It

    This is the first relationship I have been in where I was totally honest about me being a gay guy in a woman's body! There was some blushing involved, but the end result of this: My man says, hey, so I get a woman who can suck **** like a gay guy, likes sex in all sorts of ways...
    TheNiceChemist TheNiceChemist
    8 Responses Nov 6, 2012

    Married And Attracted To Gay Men

    I am married and i love my husband he is amazing but i still am just in love and attracted to gay men. i perticularly am attraqcted to a gay celebrity, i just look and think how beautiful and feminine and fragile he is and i go crazy, i am not attracted to women at all but...
    ajhop22 ajhop22
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 13, 2012

    I Am A Feminine Male In A Female Body

    Firstly, I just want to say a huge thank you to those of you who have contributed to this group so far - it's brought me a great deal of comfort. I do not however, feel exactly like I am a gay man in a female body, but I feel I come pretty close. I would describe my own...
    Jacks21 Jacks21
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 15, 2010


    I thought I was the only one with the idea of this.. Then again, there are over six billion people on the planet, so I couldn't have been. But it felt like it because nobody else felt the same way I did. I am a girl and I am a teenager- I guess it's not surprising when I found...
    threethirtyam threethirtyam
    Mar 29, 2013

    My Family Rocks!

    OK, I HAD to share this with you, guys. I came out to my family about being a gay transguy the other day, starting with my brother and this is honestly what happened. Me: Bro, I'm a man in a woman's body... and I'm gay. Bro: Yeah. That doesn't surprise me. *Continues making...
    punkylemon punkylemon
    26-30, T
    1 Response Feb 26, 2013

    Why I Believe I Am A Gay Man Trapped In A Woman's Body

    I believe this because, I attract females as well as males. I have a lot of gay friends.I enjoy being around all kinds of people and having fun. I love to travel and try new things. I love hanging out at gay male ***** clubs. I enjoy being a woman but am penis envy. Women tend to...
    laditea laditea
    46-50, F
    Nov 7, 2013

    I Feel Like A Gay Boy In A Womans Body...

    ... but when I was a kid, I thought I could be both, male and female when I grow up. I still love trucks, soccer a.s.o. as well as glitter, girly coulours, a.s.o. I tend to dress like a gay man, I wished I could be. Everytime I see a gay couple, I could cry. It's so romantic to...
    Nikiintodarkness Nikiintodarkness
    May 28, 2013

    I Used To Say This Jokingly, But Meant It Every Time

    Not a day goes by where I wonder if my life would have been better had I just been born a man. One thing that kept me from admitting that I'm trans for so long, was that I was attracted to men. I was confusing gender with being synonymous with sexuality. I felt, when I was...
    CaptainPeachFuzz CaptainPeachFuzz
    31-35, T
    4 Responses Mar 2, 2013

    I Don'T Know Anymore

    i'm not sure if it's because of my lack of hormones. i'm physically a woman, and i don't get my period anymore. i just don't have enough hormones. I know i'm a man in a woman's body, but i'm not sure if i'm gay anymore. i just don't care for male or female. like i'm interested in...
    childcalledit childcalledit
    26-30, T
    1 Response Jun 26, 2013

    I am 23 years old and I started to be telling

    myself that I am a gay man in a womans body 2 years ago when I started hanging out with gay friends and after a few drinks we always ended up making out. That was just for fun, but then I slowly started to watch gay ****( I was always into femdom where the women where playing...
    wendulina wendulina
    26-30, F
    Mar 20, 2014

    So, It's Kind Of Complicated

    i want to be a gay boy so i can have an older hot boyfriend who will treat me like a lady. how will i ever manage to make that come true? seriously. how?
    peppersasen peppersasen
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2010

    Life Struggles....

    So, my life in a nutshell. I was so much like a boy when I was little that my mom used to joke about me being born one. I had short hair, refused to wear skirts and dresses. I always wanted to be outside in the dirt playing with other boys. Don't get me wrong, I've never hated...
    BrokenIdentity BrokenIdentity
    Mar 7, 2013

    Living Confused And Depressed For 30 Years

    I was living for more than 30 years confused and wondering what was wrong with me, so did others around me.People made fun of me a lot. People on the street would think I am male and call me "sir" and then when I speak and tell them am female they would say sorry and look...
    Dani2011 Dani2011
    31-35, T
    5 Responses Mar 1, 2011

    I'm A Flamboyant Feminine Man In A Woman's Body

    Most people look at me as though I were joking, and once they figure out I'm serious they still laugh but they don't understand. I've always identified with males. Even when I was a child I have always had dreams I was a man. My biggest issue is that I'm relatively feminine and I...
    ArtsyReese ArtsyReese
    22-25, T
    2 Responses Jul 26, 2010

    I Thought I Was The Only One!

    I often say I am a gay man trapped in a womans body. People chuckle at this usually and think i am joking. Im not. I am biologically female.. with extreme penis envy. I want one! I am extremley attracted to gay and bi men. I get far more turned on to watch two gay men go at it...
    dacaskja dacaskja
    9 Responses Jul 2, 2010

    I Am Both!

    I've always known there was a hormone imbalance that ran in the family on my mom's side. And growing up, I used to wonder if I was also effected by that imbalance, because of how so many times I'd feel more male then female. But, I've never had any sexual interest in other...
    Shunasazzi Shunasazzi
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Oct 12, 2012

    Who Do I Talk To?

    So my story is pretty much the same as the other ones I am reading here. I still am not sure if I am just confused or actually transgender. I want to talk to someone who has known me for a while and get their input. I have been debating this issue with myself for the last couple...
    whydowefalldown whydowefalldown
    Sep 28, 2013

    Im A Top In A Woman's Body How Screwed Is That

    I think I've always known but was always told by my family how it was gross and wrong. my first sex dream i was male and i can feel my penis in my dreams. even though it make life hard i'm not unhappy having this body because it gave me a beautiful daughter but i wish it was...
    teramage2002 teramage2002
    3 Responses Jan 5, 2012

    Looking Into Myself.

    Hello all I am so glad to have found this place. I am 32 years old with two kids. I know that I am having a very hard time. My father just passed away and I am currently in a loving relationship and trying to leave my abusive husband. I know that there has been always something...
    BwanaSheba BwanaSheba
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Aug 27, 2010

    My Inner Gay Man

    Hi, i am a 22 year old woman, for several years i have been attracted to men, not the twilight pretty boys you see in magazines, but the big husky/muscular hairy straight gay (testosterone and ****) being sexually dominated over, (of course the have to have a deep voice, tough...
    barazoku barazoku
    Oct 15, 2011

    Most Heterosexual Men Turn Me Off.

    Not so much 'trapped' in a woman's body (I love my body - but wouldn't it be nice to change it at will? I would love to feel what its like to be a man - to have that strength and ease in the world). However, am seriously disappointed that gay men will never find me attractive...
    clareak clareak
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 20, 2011


    Ok so, im only 16. But i always knew something was different about me. Growing up, i always dressed like a boy until around 7th grade, then in 8th grade i just changed and started being way more girly. I cut my hair different, got my first serious boyfriend, start wearing dresses...
    vampyperson102 vampyperson102
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 10, 2010

    Frustrating About Being In A Relationship

    Just so you guys know that English isn't my first language, so if you can't really understand what I am talking about, I apologize. And there will be some using of strong language or different perspective, if you don't think you can accept it, stop reading now since I don't want...
    yonamiryo yonamiryo
    1 Response Dec 24, 2011

    Who I Am Naturally

    For about a year now I've been trying to decide if I should actually start to transition. Hormones were the main thing I was concerned about, I thought the only way I could truly be the guy I am inside is if I injected myself with T. After tons of research and soul searching, I...
    wansu wansu
    22-25, T
    3 Responses Jul 13, 2010

    I Have No Idea What I Am

    When I was little, I was the normal little girl who played with dolls and barbies and liked to get dressed up when it was something special. I dreamed of getting married and having children. I had crushes on boys and spoke openly about who I liked. But I thought that I was...
    SomethingInBetween SomethingInBetween
    22-25, T
    6 Responses Sep 29, 2012

    Lose-lose Situation?

    It's been only a recent discovery of mine that I'm only attracted to gay men. Mentally and physically. I feel like it is a hopeless situation. No gay man will ever really want to be with me, a girl. Sure there are the drunken nights when 'things happen' but it will never ever...
    raeczar raeczar
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2011

    Accepting The Truth

    Last year I finally joined facebook and started looking for old friends. As I wandered cyberspace I discovered a very strange truth, 98% of the guys I had crushes on in high school are gay. For a teenage girl who was trying to date at the time it was very disturbing to hardly...
    hairyontheinside hairyontheinside
    6 Responses Jun 17, 2011

    My Boyfriend Gets Scared

    He doesn't know what to do with me, but I try to dominate the relationship, buy all the gifts, make all the plans, etc. I am much more agressive in bed. I watch gay **** all the time and sometimes its the only way I can get off. I love ******* my boyfriend and- especially when i...
    isthisrlyme isthisrlyme
    1 Response May 22, 2012

    Only Just Figured It Out

     I'm a feminine, slight, curvaceous woman who played with dolls as a kid and likes to dress pretty. Another reason to know why I am female, or have female sexuality is that I doodle figure 8's (hourglass figures) and eyes.  These are known to be expressions of female...
    oystersx oystersx
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Oct 21, 2009

    Struggling to Be Me

    ever since i was little like 4 or 5 i knew i was a boy in a girls body, around age 8 i knew i was a gay man. I have struggled with depression from this for many years, im now 18. I am not girly in any way really. My parnets forced me to wear a lot of dresses and pink colors when...
    childcalledit childcalledit
    26-30, T
    18 Responses Oct 6, 2009

    Long Road To Understanding (myself)

    I still don't have it all figure out but several years ago I came out as transgender. I had always felt like my biological sex (female) didn't fit with who I was. I assumed I would like women because I felt like a man and had never liked fooling around with guys. After a few...
    PhoenixFire690 PhoenixFire690
    1 Response Oct 21, 2011

    I Cannot Believe I'm Not The Only One

    i am a 72 year old woman, still slim and some say attractive....i have always been attracted to gay men..but not to other women......this has confused me...recently i began listening to george michael's music on you tube and all my emotions came forth when i realized i was 'in...
    pinkertonlee pinkertonlee
    Dec 31, 2012

    Working Thing Out...

    I have always been attracted to gay men. I like being with them and talking with them. Most of my good friends are gay men. I sexually enjoy watching two men together and may actually have a little penis envy. I have always identified myself as lesbian becuase I felt emotional...
    ecolling ecolling
    22-25, F
    Apr 29, 2012

    Not Who I Should Be...

    So I am biologically a girl. I was born that way and my parent's are crazy pastors and think that's how god made me and that's how I am and If I change that then I will go to hell and so on and so forth...but. I feel more like a gay man in a woman's body and it's driving me nuts...
    CaliburHowl CaliburHowl
    1 Response Aug 2, 2012

    Jac The Lad

    I've never felt female, and I mean EVER! I cut my hair to a boyish crop at 12 years old, ALWAYS used to stand in as a male partner in dance class (the class was EXTREMELY female heavy!) use to try and pee standing up when I was 9 and I used to get annoyed when my Mum introduced...
    punkylemon punkylemon
    26-30, T
    Feb 24, 2013

    I'm New To This...

    I really don't know where to begin. Firstly this /realization/ of having a gay male identity is very new to me (within the past year), but it has definitely existed within me for my entire life. As a kid and young teen, I would never consider using my attractiveness as a female...
    sushibabyx sushibabyx
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 17, 2012

    I Am So Lost

    When I was growing up I was a tomboy. I loved to play sports with the other guys. When my mom would buy me dolls or barbies I would blow them up with firecrackers or tie bottle rockets to them.  I hated wearing dresses or skirts. When I was forced to wear them I would wear...
    lonewolftiger lonewolftiger
    22-25, F
    10 Responses Feb 18, 2010

    Realizing The Truth Has Made Me Free

    It certainly is strange to be perceived as a female by everyone else when inside your head you are a guy. In the culture we live in, while most people are finally accepting alternative sexualities, they are meanwhile still so ignorant of the complexities of gender identity. I...
    michaelmraz michaelmraz
    1 Response Sep 9, 2012

    Becomming "me" For The First Time....

    I have always known I was "different" from other girls/women. When I was young I wanted to be with the boys, play with the boys, be one of them, as I felt like a boy...and I was teased and ridiculed so I conformed to what a "girl" should be. I pushed down any...
    fallingleaves59 fallingleaves59
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Oct 11, 2009

    Eight Categories Of Relationships

    This is my theory about the categories of human "pair-bonding" relationships.  I rather not use the term "sexual", since the term "sexual" always tends to mean something related to "sexual intercourse", which is not mandatory in pair-bonding formation...
    jjjyyy jjjyyy
    6 Responses Aug 11, 2010

    I've always been into feminine gay guys.

    Always. I have never found myself attracted to 'manly men'.. Its all very confusing, I wouldn't describe myself as gay, because I am a girl who loves boys. But I feel like I am a man who loves boys who are like girls...Am I just a lesbian finding a female counterpart in a man...
    tliefdey tliefdey
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 17, 2014

    Would Life Have Been Better As A Man?

    Every single night I cant sleep because of the pain of being alone. Did you know that your brain processes the emotional pain of heartache/being alone as PHYSICAL pain, not emotional pain? Mine is very bad. It usually starts 2 to 3 hours before I go to bed every night, then I lay...
    instantquack instantquack
    18-21, F
    Jan 24, 2013
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