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I Am a Gay Man Trapped In a Womans Body

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 158 People

    Jac The Lad

    I've never felt female, and I mean EVER! I cut my hair to a boyish crop at 12 years old, ALWAYS used to stand in as a male partner in dance class (the class was EXTREMELY female heavy!) use to try and pee standing up when I was 9 and I used to get annoyed when my Mum introduced...
    punkylemon punkylemon
    22-25, T
    Feb 24, 2013

    What A Life

    OK. I just turned 18 and already my life seems to already have a pattern that it's falling into. Just recently I found out about a term for girl's who feel like they are attracted to gay men, they're called girl ****. Instantly, this is what I referred to myseld as. I was so...
    MsNewSesshomaru MsNewSesshomaru
    18-21, F
    Oct 2, 2012

    I Am So Lost

    When I was growing up I was a tomboy. I loved to play sports with the other guys. When my mom would buy me dolls or barbies I would blow them up with firecrackers or tie bottle rockets to them.  I hated wearing dresses or skirts. When I was forced to wear them I would wear...
    lonewolftiger lonewolftiger
    22-25, F
    10 Responses Feb 18, 2010


    I thought I was the only one with the idea of this.. Then again, there are over six billion people on the planet, so I couldn't have been. But it felt like it because nobody else felt the same way I did. I am a girl and I am a teenager- I guess it's not surprising when I found...
    threethirtyam threethirtyam
    Mar 29, 2013

    Who Am I, Where Am I, And How Did I Get Here?

    Growing up I was a major tomboy. I played with action figures, not dolls. I was running around playing touch football with the boys, not playing house. I actually preferred my brother's hand-me-downs than the dreaded JC Penny girl's clothing my grandparents bought for me. Girls...
    wansu wansu
    22-25, T
    5 Responses Nov 5, 2009

    I Am A Feminine Male In A Female Body

    Firstly, I just want to say a huge thank you to those of you who have contributed to this group so far - it's brought me a great deal of comfort. I do not however, feel exactly like I am a gay man in a female body, but I feel I come pretty close. I would describe my own...
    Jacks21 Jacks21
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 15, 2010

    Working Thing Out...

    I have always been attracted to gay men. I like being with them and talking with them. Most of my good friends are gay men. I sexually enjoy watching two men together and may actually have a little penis envy. I have always identified myself as lesbian becuase I felt emotional...
    ecolling ecolling
    22-25, F
    Apr 29, 2012

    Discovering Jake.

    I've always been different to all the girls I grew up around. I never felt comfortable in my body and I never had a great deal of interest in shopping for girly clothes or spending hours getting manicures.  I always preffered to hang out and have a beer and a laugh with the guys...
    jakeystar jakeystar
    22-25, T
    4 Responses Jun 20, 2012

    Living Confused And Depressed For 30 Years

    I was living for more than 30 years confused and wondering what was wrong with me, so did others around me.People made fun of me a lot. People on the street would think I am male and call me "sir" and then when I speak and tell them am female they would say sorry and look...
    Dani2011 Dani2011
    31-35, T
    5 Responses Mar 1, 2011


    Ok so, im only 16. But i always knew something was different about me. Growing up, i always dressed like a boy until around 7th grade, then in 8th grade i just changed and started being way more girly. I cut my hair different, got my first serious boyfriend, start wearing dresses...
    vampyperson102 vampyperson102
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 10, 2010

    I've always been into feminine gay guys.

    Always. I have never found myself attracted to 'manly men'.. Its all very confusing, I wouldn't describe myself as gay, because I am a girl who loves boys. But I feel like I am a man who loves boys who are like girls...Am I just a lesbian finding a female counterpart in a man...
    tliefdey tliefdey
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 17, 2014

    Learning To Love Myself

    I have known I was a gay man in a female body since I began to understand what “gay” meant—maybe when I was 10 or so. I play-acted in situations as a gay man but pretty much kept it all to myself, never tried to explain it to my family. I didn’t even...
    RomanticRunner RomanticRunner
    46-50, T
    10 Responses Oct 10, 2009

    Lose-lose Situation?

    It's been only a recent discovery of mine that I'm only attracted to gay men. Mentally and physically. I feel like it is a hopeless situation. No gay man will ever really want to be with me, a girl. Sure there are the drunken nights when 'things happen' but it will never ever...
    raeczar raeczar
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2011

    Long Road To Understanding (myself)

    I still don't have it all figure out but several years ago I came out as transgender. I had always felt like my biological sex (female) didn't fit with who I was. I assumed I would like women because I felt like a man and had never liked fooling around with guys. After a few...
    PhoenixFire690 PhoenixFire690
    1 Response Oct 21, 2011

    Who I Am Naturally

    For about a year now I've been trying to decide if I should actually start to transition. Hormones were the main thing I was concerned about, I thought the only way I could truly be the guy I am inside is if I injected myself with T. After tons of research and soul searching, I...
    wansu wansu
    22-25, T
    3 Responses Jul 13, 2010

    My Inner Gay Man

    Hi, i am a 22 year old woman, for several years i have been attracted to men, not the twilight pretty boys you see in magazines, but the big husky/muscular hairy straight gay (testosterone and ****) being sexually dominated over, (of course the have to have a deep voice, tough...
    barazoku barazoku
    Oct 15, 2011

    I Don'T Know Anymore

    i'm not sure if it's because of my lack of hormones. i'm physically a woman, and i don't get my period anymore. i just don't have enough hormones. I know i'm a man in a woman's body, but i'm not sure if i'm gay anymore. i just don't care for male or female. like i'm interested in...
    childcalledit childcalledit
    22-25, T
    1 Response Jun 26, 2013

    Only Just Figured It Out

     I'm a feminine, slight, curvaceous woman who played with dolls as a kid and likes to dress pretty. Another reason to know why I am female, or have female sexuality is that I doodle figure 8's (hourglass figures) and eyes.  These are known to be expressions of female...
    oystersx oystersx
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Oct 21, 2009

    I Have No Idea What I Am

    When I was little, I was the normal little girl who played with dolls and barbies and liked to get dressed up when it was something special. I dreamed of getting married and having children. I had crushes on boys and spoke openly about who I liked. But I thought that I was...
    SomethingInBetween SomethingInBetween
    22-25, T
    6 Responses Sep 29, 2012

    Realizing The Truth Has Made Me Free

    It certainly is strange to be perceived as a female by everyone else when inside your head you are a guy. In the culture we live in, while most people are finally accepting alternative sexualities, they are meanwhile still so ignorant of the complexities of gender identity. I...
    michaelmraz michaelmraz
    1 Response Sep 9, 2012

    Everyone Thinks I Am Kidding

    To me getting dressed up and putting on makeup is like drag. I don't hate makeup or having boobs but I feel like its a persona. I never admired women as a child.  I convinced my dad to get me a bomber jacket so I could pretend I was  Murdock from the A- Team.  I...
    lastkissgdknight lastkissgdknight
    4 Responses Feb 9, 2010

    I am 23 years old and I started to be telling

    myself that I am a gay man in a womans body 2 years ago when I started hanging out with gay friends and after a few drinks we always ended up making out. That was just for fun, but then I slowly started to watch gay ****( I was always into femdom where the women where playing...
    wendulina wendulina
    26-30, F
    Mar 20, 2014

    Eight Categories Of Relationships

    This is my theory about the categories of human "pair-bonding" relationships.  I rather not use the term "sexual", since the term "sexual" always tends to mean something related to "sexual intercourse", which is not mandatory in pair-bonding formation...
    jjjyyy jjjyyy
    6 Responses Aug 11, 2010

    Married And Attracted To Gay Men

    I am married and i love my husband he is amazing but i still am just in love and attracted to gay men. i perticularly am attraqcted to a gay celebrity, i just look and think how beautiful and feminine and fragile he is and i go crazy, i am not attracted to women at all but...
    ajhop22 ajhop22
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 13, 2012

    I Used To Say This Jokingly, But Meant It Every Time

    Not a day goes by where I wonder if my life would have been better had I just been born a man. One thing that kept me from admitting that I'm trans for so long, was that I was attracted to men. I was confusing gender with being synonymous with sexuality. I felt, when I was...
    CaptainPeachFuzz CaptainPeachFuzz
    31-35, T
    4 Responses Mar 2, 2013

    My Boyfriend Gets Scared

    He doesn't know what to do with me, but I try to dominate the relationship, buy all the gifts, make all the plans, etc. I am much more agressive in bed. I watch gay **** all the time and sometimes its the only way I can get off. I love ******* my boyfriend and- especially when i...
    isthisrlyme isthisrlyme
    1 Response May 22, 2012

    I'm New To This...

    I really don't know where to begin. Firstly this /realization/ of having a gay male identity is very new to me (within the past year), but it has definitely existed within me for my entire life. As a kid and young teen, I would never consider using my attractiveness as a female...
    sushibabyx sushibabyx
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 17, 2012

    Not Who I Should Be...

    So I am biologically a girl. I was born that way and my parent's are crazy pastors and think that's how god made me and that's how I am and If I change that then I will go to hell and so on and so forth...but. I feel more like a gay man in a woman's body and it's driving me nuts...
    CaliburHowl CaliburHowl
    1 Response Aug 2, 2012

    Becomming "me" For The First Time....

    I have always known I was "different" from other girls/women. When I was young I wanted to be with the boys, play with the boys, be one of them, as I felt like a boy...and I was teased and ridiculed so I conformed to what a "girl" should be. I pushed down any...
    fallingleaves59 fallingleaves59
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Oct 11, 2009

    So, It's Kind Of Complicated

    i want to be a gay boy so i can have an older hot boyfriend who will treat me like a lady. how will i ever manage to make that come true? seriously. how?
    peppersasen peppersasen
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2010

    I'm A Flamboyant Feminine Man In A Woman's Body

    Most people look at me as though I were joking, and once they figure out I'm serious they still laugh but they don't understand. I've always identified with males. Even when I was a child I have always had dreams I was a man. My biggest issue is that I'm relatively feminine and I...
    ArtsyReese ArtsyReese
    22-25, T
    2 Responses Jul 26, 2010

    Frustrating About Being In A Relationship

    Just so you guys know that English isn't my first language, so if you can't really understand what I am talking about, I apologize. And there will be some using of strong language or different perspective, if you don't think you can accept it, stop reading now since I don't want...
    yonamiryo yonamiryo
    1 Response Dec 24, 2011

    I Cannot Believe I'm Not The Only One

    i am a 72 year old woman, still slim and some say attractive....i have always been attracted to gay men..but not to other women......this has confused me...recently i began listening to george michael's music on you tube and all my emotions came forth when i realized i was 'in...
    pinkertonlee pinkertonlee
    Dec 31, 2012

    Accepting The Truth

    Last year I finally joined facebook and started looking for old friends. As I wandered cyberspace I discovered a very strange truth, 98% of the guys I had crushes on in high school are gay. For a teenage girl who was trying to date at the time it was very disturbing to hardly...
    hairyontheinside hairyontheinside
    6 Responses Jun 17, 2011

    Who Do I Talk To?

    So my story is pretty much the same as the other ones I am reading here. I still am not sure if I am just confused or actually transgender. I want to talk to someone who has known me for a while and get their input. I have been debating this issue with myself for the last couple...
    whydowefalldown whydowefalldown
    Sep 28, 2013

    Most Heterosexual Men Turn Me Off.

    Not so much 'trapped' in a woman's body (I love my body - but wouldn't it be nice to change it at will? I would love to feel what its like to be a man - to have that strength and ease in the world). However, am seriously disappointed that gay men will never find me attractive...
    clareak clareak
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 20, 2011

    I Feel Like A Gay Boy In A Womans Body...

    ... but when I was a kid, I thought I could be both, male and female when I grow up. I still love trucks, soccer a.s.o. as well as glitter, girly coulours, a.s.o. I tend to dress like a gay man, I wished I could be. Everytime I see a gay couple, I could cry. It's so romantic to...
    Nikiintodarkness Nikiintodarkness
    May 28, 2013

    My Family Rocks!

    OK, I HAD to share this with you, guys. I came out to my family about being a gay transguy the other day, starting with my brother and this is honestly what happened. Me: Bro, I'm a man in a woman's body... and I'm gay. Bro: Yeah. That doesn't surprise me. *Continues making...
    punkylemon punkylemon
    22-25, T
    1 Response Feb 26, 2013

    Looking Into Myself.

    Hello all I am so glad to have found this place. I am 32 years old with two kids. I know that I am having a very hard time. My father just passed away and I am currently in a loving relationship and trying to leave my abusive husband. I know that there has been always something...
    BwanaSheba BwanaSheba
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Aug 27, 2010

    I Am Both!

    I've always known there was a hormone imbalance that ran in the family on my mom's side. And growing up, I used to wonder if I was also effected by that imbalance, because of how so many times I'd feel more male then female. But, I've never had any sexual interest in other...
    Shunasazzi Shunasazzi
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Oct 12, 2012

    Im A Top In A Woman's Body How Screwed Is That

    I think I've always known but was always told by my family how it was gross and wrong. my first sex dream i was male and i can feel my penis in my dreams. even though it make life hard i'm not unhappy having this body because it gave me a beautiful daughter but i wish it was...
    teramage2002 teramage2002
    3 Responses Jan 5, 2012

    Struggling to Be Me

    ever since i was little like 4 or 5 i knew i was a boy in a girls body, around age 8 i knew i was a gay man. I have struggled with depression from this for many years, im now 18. I am not girly in any way really. My parnets forced me to wear a lot of dresses and pink colors when...
    childcalledit childcalledit
    22-25, T
    18 Responses Oct 6, 2009

    I Found A Guy That Likes It

    This is the first relationship I have been in where I was totally honest about me being a gay guy in a woman's body! There was some blushing involved, but the end result of this: My man says, hey, so I get a woman who can suck **** like a gay guy, likes sex in all sorts of ways...
    TheNiceChemist TheNiceChemist
    8 Responses Nov 6, 2012

    Why I Believe I Am A Gay Man Trapped In A Woman's Body

    I believe this because, I attract females as well as males. I have a lot of gay friends.I enjoy being around all kinds of people and having fun. I love to travel and try new things. I love hanging out at gay male ***** clubs. I enjoy being a woman but am penis envy. Women tend to...
    laditea laditea
    46-50, F
    Nov 7, 2013

    Life Struggles....

    So, my life in a nutshell. I was so much like a boy when I was little that my mom used to joke about me being born one. I had short hair, refused to wear skirts and dresses. I always wanted to be outside in the dirt playing with other boys. Don't get me wrong, I've never hated...
    BrokenIdentity BrokenIdentity
    Mar 7, 2013

    I Thought I Was The Only One!

    I often say I am a gay man trapped in a womans body. People chuckle at this usually and think i am joking. Im not. I am biologically female.. with extreme penis envy. I want one! I am extremley attracted to gay and bi men. I get far more turned on to watch two gay men go at it...
    dacaskja dacaskja
    9 Responses Jul 2, 2010

    Would Life Have Been Better As A Man?

    Every single night I cant sleep because of the pain of being alone. Did you know that your brain processes the emotional pain of heartache/being alone as PHYSICAL pain, not emotional pain? Mine is very bad. It usually starts 2 to 3 hours before I go to bed every night, then I lay...
    instantquack instantquack
    18-21, F
    Jan 24, 2013
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