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I Am a Grieving Parent

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    I hope every one have a beautiful Christmas Eve,

    My self I had a doctors appointment to day I cancel for another time next week, I didnt feel like going out today.I was looking over my sons desk top and came up on some videos I didnt know they were there, what a gift, As I sat back and watched how great it was to see him...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Dec 24, 2013

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    The Most Exclusive Fraternity

    The Most Exclusive Fraternity It was a phone call from my wife on that summer afternoon She's dead she said, our child is gone come home quickly, come home The sounds from inside my Jeep on that long drive home reflected the deep, gut wrenching wail of a father who could not fix...
    Endlesssumer Endlesssumer 51-55, M Sep 6, 2013

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    I Know They Say Time Heals But Time Has Stopped

    It has only been 2.5 years since my 17 was violently ripped from my life. I had read grief books, talked to people, counsellors, friends...but you get to a point where you are saying the same thing over and over again...I just want him back...just like we all do. Your friends...
    Tippytee Tippytee 41-45, F 3 Responses Aug 22, 2013

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    Twice The Pain

    Three days before my son's 30th birthday, I received a phone call from my brother. My daughter in law had tried to reach me, but she couldn't. My brother informed me that my son had been killed in his truck on the way to work early one morning. The truck crushed him and they said...
    DrJayJack DrJayJack 51-55, M 10 Responses May 17, 2011

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    Charles And The Ice Cream Truck..

    Today is a very beautiful sunny day for the first day of june, the sun is shinning so bright over head, the children are all out playing on the play ground, and i can hear the mister softy truck playing his happy tone in letting them know , here i am, (the ice cream truck) i...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2013

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    Shane

    I lost my stillborn son on February 4th, 1990. I could feel him, kicking, moving, and growing inside of me. From the moment that I knew I was going to be a mom for the second time, I loved him with all of my heart. What happened that day is a memory that I have in flashes - my...
    biddiegirl biddiegirl 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 11, 2013

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    Grief Is Not A Good Thing

      Why are we as humans programmed to grieve? Its said even crows gather and appear to grieve one who has passed. Of course, is that grief or honoring the one passed? We don't know, but feelings of sadness and inability to get on with your life in the present (the only one that...
    jaysbarn jaysbarn 61-65 5 Responses Jul 21, 2011

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    Cant Stand The Pain

    my daughter committed suicide and I miss her soooooo much don't know why she didn't come to me . She recently had a birthday and the pain is unbearable I want to be with her although I have 3 other children she was the only one I could talk to. I missssss her sooooo much help me...
    ldk513 ldk513 56-60, F 4 Responses Sep 7, 2013

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    My Loving Sweet 16 Year Old Daughter

    Just over 2 weeks ago my life came to a screeching halt. My daughter was just getting ready to return back to school and start grade 11 with a vengeance. She attends an all girls private school (her choice) and was beginning the year as sports captain and house captain. She also...
    grievingmom40 grievingmom40 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    My Little Angel Passed Away

    My severely handicapped daughter passed away a few months ago and I miss her terribly!  She was my purpose in life - I took care of her 24/7.  Now I am so lost and I don't know what to do with myself.  I moved out of state for the first time 2 years ago and was very isolated...
    anacapa123 anacapa123 61-65, F 3 Responses Feb 17, 2012

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    My Story

    I lost my daughter, Mia Renee to Leukemia. Mia was a very happy child. She loved music and loved to smile and laugh even through the sickness she remained the same happy baby. She was was diagnosed in 2004 at 6 months of age. The doctors immediately admitted her and began...
    flanderst flanderst 36-40 1 Response May 13, 2013

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    I Have Never Lost My Child,but My Grandmother Did

    Before i was born,My grandmother ,had 5 children.My mom is the oldest.When my mom's brother was 13,he was killed in a car wreck.It devastated my grandparents beyond believe.I heard my grandmother had a nervous breakdown.She never stopped talking about him,till the day that she...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 17 Responses Jul 3, 2012

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    The Loss Of A Child Is The Hardest Thing

    a loss of a child is the hardest thing especially when they are 10 years old my son died of leukemia he was the most friendliest and loving child I love playing ball with him and riding our bikes together I know is in heaven with his mother and I miss them both dearly
    fireman03 fireman03 70+, M 1 Response Mar 23, 2013

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    A Last Glance

    This was something I wrote shortly after my 18 year old daughter passed away. This happened late in the afternoon of the evening she died.  It was the last time I saw her. We were up in her room, as i hung out with her watching her get ready for work.  She died...
    iamstillrighthere iamstillrighthere 51-55, F 15 Responses Jun 4, 2010

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    Mason'S Story

    There are currently over 110,00 people waiting for an organ donation. The largest group waiting is from 18-49 years of age. An average of 18 people die each day while on the waiting list for an organ donation. Organs and tissues from a single non-living donor can be used to...
    hkolb hkolb 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 17, 2013

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    The Sun Shinny Day..

    Well the women are waiting for me to come out to the garden,so I'm off and running, I call these woman, The woman in waiting. They been there for me right after my son passed, telling me to plant a memorial garden something in memory of my son.Now just for him but a garden for...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Jun 1, 2013

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    Today Is A Dark Day

    There is no pain like losing a child. It engulfs you, swallows you whole. Nothing prepares you, because you cannot phantom losing your child. You are filled with a thousand questions without answers. I can not bare to see the reminders of him. He was my first. The one I begged...
    passionateheart61 passionateheart61 46-50, F 3 Responses May 1, 2012

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    Well I took my walk and went to the laundry,

    met some very nice people, I had my sons picture on the shirt I had on and a woman common on it, she said is that your handsome son, I see you and him in it so I'm taken it as thats your son, I told her what happen and she said well I guest we are in the same place, She...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Dec 25, 2013

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    Hello There..

    Todays is very rainy, its coming down very hard, there isn't much I can do today with the rain and all, I wanted to go pick up more flower to plant at my sons burial place, i'm going back friday, I want to see how well they did his head stone, I never seen it, it took two months...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F May 28, 2013

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    That's what I'm going to do

    now when I feel really low I;m going into his videos and have some happiness in my life, It could have not come at a better time,I FEEL SO CLOSE TO HIM :) Touching him, well while watching him, I 'm even closer to him with my heart. my baby still lives :) Right now I have the...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2013

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    You are all ways here.

    Six months now, it took two hours to have you, you left the house at 12:30 and the time of death was 2:45, it took just as long to lose you.I was in so much pain haven you and more them that when you was gone.twenty four years of joy, laughter, happiness ,love and just...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    My Brothers Last Words To My Mom.

    The night before my brothers 18th birthday, we stopped off at my mothers job, to see her on her break. My brother had very thick brown hair, he could never seem to keep out of his eyes. It irritated myt mom, who was always brushing it back. That night was no different. Standing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 21, 2011

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    My Heart Is Broken

    My son Dan, 27, died on April 28, 2011, 15 minutes after I had to make the most difficult decision a parent is ever faced with...to remove him from life support.  My world will never be the same since the night I got the call to come to the hospital, that he had been in a car...
    sj825 sj825 56-60 7 Responses May 4, 2011

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    IT';S OK..

    The truth is, i'm one of those few people, who cares when i ask whats wrong.? the only problem is i usually have no idea what to say afterwards, or how to make it better, i try not to use phrases like (that sucks)or i'm sorry, i can never find the right words to say, but i...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F May 28, 2013

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    You've Heard It Said "There Are People That Have It A Lot Worse Than You", Well When You Lose A Child, That's As Bad As It Gets.

    It was a little after 8pm on Friday the 19th of August 2011, just five months ago. I was in bed so I just let the phone ring and allowed the answering machine get it. My son's girlfriend left a message saying "pick up, it's an emergency, April has been hit by a car". she said...
    draggnbottom2 draggnbottom2 51-55 3 Responses Jan 29, 2012

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    Help! My Heart Is Breaking!

    My beautiful youngest daughter Amy died suddenly on Sunday, August 4. Her viewing is tomorrow! I am in such unbelievable pain and can't imagine how I will get through the next few days of viewing, mass and burial plus life w/o her! How do I function in the world and mother my...
    Amymariesmom Amymariesmom 56-60, F 9 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    Hello My New Found Family,,

    So far todays a good day, they say the sea calms after the storm, yesterday i was like a storm it was really hard for me, but today. It was good, i went on like normal, i don't know who was direction me, but it was different then my so call normal day after the lost of my son, i...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F May 29, 2013

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    I wish my sisters were happy

    for me to day knowing that I'm in a good place with my Lord your God and feeling the joy that I found my sons videos to make my day happy, but instead they bring me heart ack , Stress, first thing this morning I did not get a happy holiday or merry christmas but instead i;m...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Dec 25, 2013

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    I don't know if this counts,

    but here's my story. My first girlfriend that I really loved had moved to South Carolina with me being stuck in Texas. We talked every night and saw each other whenever we could get a chance. In July of 2007 she got pregnant with our child, and that November she was hit and...
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    What Would I Have Done?

    someone just asked me, if I got a hold of these guys before the police had,? what would i have done? hun,well  the police don't have them yet,I first would have to anscer to God, and it would be a battle with him. My love for my Lord your god,I would have to ask for forgiveness...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F May 27, 2013

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    My Beatiful Baby Girl

    I lost my daughter, Kierstyn on April 9.  She was 25, but I still called her Baby Girl.  That's what she'll always be to me.  I just really don't see how I'm going to make it through this.  We were closer than any mother and daughter I've ever met.  She was my whole life...
    mouthkarma mouthkarma 41-45, F 7 Responses May 3, 2011

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    You Won't See Me Fall..

    You may see me struggle , but you won't see me fall,  Regardless if i'm weak, stressed or not. I'm going to stand tall ,Every one says life is easy, but truly living it is not , times get tuff. People struggle and canstantly get put on the spot. I;m going to wear the biggest...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F May 7, 2013

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    Stage2 Pg7b..

     I was in my kitchen making me a cup of tea,  I was thinking of the support group today,  one person was speaking about keep the good memories alive and try not to think of the bad, I totally agree with that, But when i question, how can i do that when i still have my sons...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 1 Response May 27, 2013

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    Lyura

    That was going to be her name. Lie-er-ruh. She would've been beautiful.. But she was a rape baby. My beautiful Lyura, whom I would love so much, would have lived with the burden of being the daughter of a female rapist and a scarred daddy. A daddy that, despite his immense love...
    xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 29, 2011

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    Stage2 Pg.8a ,,

    I'm getting close to stage2, pg.10.  I figure I should be some what in a good sence of where i'm going and what i'm going to do, (I HOPE) I think I need a few more stages, like up to 20. I really don't feel like I will be adjusted , i'm still in dought, I don't know why my mind...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 1 Response May 28, 2013

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    1:55am ...

    Here we go again, its 1:55am in the morning, can't sleep, what else is new? i think i get one night a week that i can get a sound sleep, i got tired just laying here in the dark looking up towards the ceiling wishing my son was here, and talking to him, looking around the room...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F May 31, 2013

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    Restlesspam Restlesspam 36-40, F Aug 17

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    Almost 3 Years

    No matter how much time goes by my love for my son never stops. I love him so. I swear, I love him more and more by the day. December 2nd will be 3 years since my Love Joy has been gone. Oh how, I wish just to have a hug from him. I dont know if I collected enough hugs in his 7...
    Caprisun Caprisun 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2011

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    Heart Broken

    I went out to the garden, the ladies were all ready out there, they said don't be upset, I looked at the garden someone cut down some of the flowers, and they took the roses up, who would be so curl, all the stones were push around, my heart broke, only thing I could say is lord...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2013

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    well I had a full day,

    all my work is done, i enjoyed watching my sons videos as I worked around the house, I can't believe i even decorated the little pine tree i brought I hang some thing up all so around the house :) lite his white candles and took pictures of his pictures i put up around the tree...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Dec 24, 2013

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    My Little Angel

    When i lost my son, i wanted to die so bad. I felt i didnt deserve any happyness of an kind. But i now have two beautiful daughters and im happy to be alive. I have one in high school and my little one in kindergarten. I will see my baby boy again but i have a job to do here...
    SheldonCooperRocks SheldonCooperRocks 41-45, F 5 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    MartíN - My Angel.

    Almost two months ago, my 3 month old woke up crying earlier than usual. He hadn't finished his bottle, so I assumed he was hungry. He had this cry, very different than his normal cry. I took him to our bed, held him and he fell back asleep for 15 mins. Again, that distinct cry...
    Vlm9781 Vlm9781 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 31, 2013

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    It Hurts..

    Someone told me that the pain will go away. I'm not sure if that's so. However, I do know that I miss my son so much. It's been 6 months now since Fhrahji has been gone. He was seven when he passed away. He was born with many birth defects. When the day came for me to say good...
    Caprisun Caprisun 31-35, F 12 Responses Jun 17, 2009

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    Reality Setting In

    I hear all the time, you are so strong, you are amazing. I don't feel that way, from the outside I seem strong and calm, from the inside I'm in agony and disbelief. My whole world has come to a halt. I continue loving and I'm strong for my family but I just can't believe that my...
    grievingmom40 grievingmom40 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    I Miss My Son

    My Son passed away 2 months ago and it seems like 200 years. Wow this is such intense grief So many emotions and feelings , and I feel like i am in a different place, just like he is...another world I know I'm not alone and am getting counselling, it helps but the pain is like...
    Ladyrider63 Ladyrider63 46-50, F 7 Responses May 11, 2012

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    Stage2 Pg8c ,,

    I got off for a while today,i had to, i fell apart, i'm mean i really fell apart, i had no controll, i had no shame about letting go, i did care about my neighbors hearing what was going on, i just didn't care, that stiff upper lip my family raised us to believe , it went out the...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 1 Response May 28, 2013

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    My Little Lion.

    His name was Gabriel Anthony. His favorite animal was the Lion because they were so strong and pretty. He loved the lion king like I did. He was my little lion cub, always pretending he were one on the prowl and reminding me of Simba. I had just put him to bed, making up a bed...
    Didosaurus Didosaurus 18-21, F 10 Responses Aug 21, 2011

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    Laura

    Laura died at birth . The doctors don't know why . I miss her so much. I look in the sky and every Rainbow I feel is her telling me I am Ok mommy.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 18, 2012

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    My Little Angel Passed Away

    My severely handicapped daughter passed away a few months ago and I miss her terribly!  She was my purpose in life - I took care of her 24/7.  Now I am so lost and I don't know what to do with myself.  I moved out of state for the first time 2 years ago and was very isolated...
    anacapa123 anacapa123 61-65, F 3 Responses Feb 17, 2012

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    Firefighter

    My son wanted to be a firefighter. He loved to dress up as such, and even go out with his cute outfit, telling everyone he would someday be the chief of all firefighters in the city. "Dad, I love you, but I don't want to have a boring job like yours... sitting all day in an...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 140 Responses Jun 22, 2010

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    The house is so quiet ,

    peaceful, listening to my sons laughter on his video, the house feels full, the candles burned all night and still going, I feel him here, I'm loving it, I feel like a little walk, so I'm going to do that, probably go to the laundry and wash up my spreads, Its ok, that's what I...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Dec 25, 2013

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    Wake Me Up

    My last story for the night, i hate to end it with such grief, but i'm so angry, so hurt so lost in such disblief, i can't still understand why? this happen to my son, Why do i all ways whind up in the same place doing the same thing all over again, i'm back in his room with my...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 2 Responses Jun 6, 2013

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    Stage2 Pg.8b ,,

    I connected with my grief partner today, after 2 months, I didn't check with her earlier because I did not want her to know what I was going through, I did not want to set her back, my suprise, she felt the same way, her depression is so deep, she crys all the time, she says the...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F May 28, 2013

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