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I Am a Grieving Parent

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    A Last Glance

    This was something I wrote shortly after my 18 year old daughter passed away. This happened late in the afternoon of the evening she died.  It was the last time I saw her. We were up in her room, as i hung out with her watching her get ready for work.  She died...
    iamstillrighthere iamstillrighthere 51-55, F 13 Responses Jun 4, 2010

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    Almost 3 Years

    No matter how much time goes by my love for my son never stops. I love him so. I swear, I love him more and more by the day. December 2nd will be 3 years since my Love Joy has been gone. Oh how, I wish just to have a hug from him. I dont know if I collected enough hugs in his 7...
    Caprisun Caprisun 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 28, 2011

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    Miss My Mum So Much

    as fare back as i can remember mum would talk to me about her problem money and my dad beating her mostly. it was always sad to here her but i would love to sit and listen right now she has been dead since nov 2006 it took 18month for her to slowly drift away in front of us and...
    mariebaby mariebaby 36-40, F Sep 22, 2012

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    Cant Stand The Pain

    my daughter committed suicide and I miss her soooooo much don't know why she didn't come to me . She recently had a birthday and the pain is unbearable I want to be with her although I have 3 other children she was the only one I could talk to. I missssss her sooooo much help me...
    ldk513 ldk513 56-60, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2013

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    My Only Baby Girl

    I lost my only baby girl when she was only 3 days old. After running to her appointments we came home. She was asleep so I put her to bed. When I checked her later she was not breathing. My life shattered that day.She died from ASD/VSD. She had 4 holes in her heart.I was alone...
    Haleymyangelbaby Haleymyangelbaby 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 19, 2013

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    I Lost My Little Butterfly 3 Times

    My second child was a precious girl whose smile lit up the room. At 2 years she was diagnosed with Rett Syndrome. My daughter would never walk, talk or experience the world normally. This was the first grief and loss experience with Amanda. At the age of 11 my butterfly was...
    bec321 bec321 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 12, 2013

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    I Have Never Lost My Child,but My Grandmother Did

    Before i was born,My grandmother ,had 5 children.My mom is the oldest.When my mom's brother was 13,he was killed in a car wreck.It devastated my grandparents beyond believe.I heard my grandmother had a nervous breakdown.She never stopped talking about him,till the day that she...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 17 Responses Jul 3, 2012

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    My Loving Sweet 16 Year Old Daughter

    Just over 2 weeks ago my life came to a screeching halt. My daughter was just getting ready to return back to school and start grade 11 with a vengeance. She attends an all girls private school (her choice) and was beginning the year as sports captain and house captain. She also...
    grievingmom40 grievingmom40 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    Lyura

    That was going to be her name. Lie-er-ruh. She would've been beautiful.. But she was a rape baby. My beautiful Lyura, whom I would love so much, would have lived with the burden of being the daughter of a female rapist and a scarred daddy. A daddy that, despite his immense love...
    xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 29, 2011

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    My Brothers Last Words To My Mom.

    The night before my brothers 18th birthday, we stopped off at my mothers job, to see her on her break. My brother had very thick brown hair, he could never seem to keep out of his eyes. It irritated myt mom, who was always brushing it back. That night was no different. Standing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 21, 2011

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    Rocky Moments

    It will be 7 years in June when I lost my son and the pain never seems to get any easier. Most days now I can cope with the pain but sometimes there is days like today when it just hurts so bad and I miss him so much. It's times like this when I feel so alone and the tears just...
    Sherdare Sherdare 41-45, F 6 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    Mason'S Story

    There are currently over 110,00 people waiting for an organ donation. The largest group waiting is from 18-49 years of age. An average of 18 people die each day while on the waiting list for an organ donation. Organs and tissues from a single non-living donor can be used to...
    hkolb hkolb 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 17, 2013

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    I Miss My Son

    My Son passed away 2 months ago and it seems like 200 years. Wow this is such intense grief So many emotions and feelings , and I feel like i am in a different place, just like he is...another world I know I'm not alone and am getting counselling, it helps but the pain is like...
    Ladyrider63 Ladyrider63 46-50, F 7 Responses May 11, 2012

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    The Most Exclusive Fraternity

    The Most Exclusive Fraternity It was a phone call from my wife on that summer afternoon She's dead she said, our child is gone come home quickly, come home The sounds from inside my Jeep on that long drive home reflected the deep, gut wrenching wail of a father who could not fix...
    Endlesssumer Endlesssumer 51-55, M Sep 6, 2013

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    Grief Is Not A Good Thing

      Why are we as humans programmed to grieve? Its said even crows gather and appear to grieve one who has passed. Of course, is that grief or honoring the one passed? We don't know, but feelings of sadness and inability to get on with your life in the present (the only one that...
    jaysbarn jaysbarn 61-65 5 Responses Jul 21, 2011

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    My Little Angel

    When i lost my son, i wanted to die so bad. I felt i didnt deserve any happyness of an kind. But i now have two beautiful daughters and im happy to be alive. I have one in high school and my little one in kindergarten. I will see my baby boy again but i have a job to do here...
    SheldonCooperRocks SheldonCooperRocks 41-45, F 5 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    Twice The Pain

    Three days before my son's 30th birthday, I received a phone call from my brother. My daughter in law had tried to reach me, but she couldn't. My brother informed me that my son had been killed in his truck on the way to work early one morning. The truck crushed him and they said...
    DrJayJack DrJayJack 51-55, M 10 Responses May 17, 2011

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    It Hurts..

    Someone told me that the pain will go away. I'm not sure if that's so. However, I do know that I miss my son so much. It's been 6 months now since Fhrahji has been gone. He was seven when he passed away. He was born with many birth defects. When the day came for me to say good...
    Caprisun Caprisun 31-35, F 11 Responses Jun 17, 2009

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    If They Don't Speak Her Name....

    Not that me and my husband have ever been good at communicating with each other. He has decided not to say Sahvanna' name again, said that when he does it reminds me of her and I start to cry. I tryed to tell him I think of her 27/7 he let me know that this is the way it is gonna...
    Marty1027 Marty1027 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 30, 2012

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    Help! My Heart Is Breaking!

    My beautiful youngest daughter Amy died suddenly on Sunday, August 4. Her viewing is tomorrow! I am in such unbelievable pain and can't imagine how I will get through the next few days of viewing, mass and burial plus life w/o her! How do I function in the world and mother my...
    Amymariesmom Amymariesmom 56-60, F 9 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    Restlesspam Restlesspam 36-40, F Aug 17

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    My 10 Year Old Son

    my 10 year old son died of leukemia I was devastated but now I know is up in heaven with God I miss him a lot and he's always in my prayers
    fireman03 fireman03 70+, M Mar 21, 2013

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    My Heart Is Broken

    My son Dan, 27, died on April 28, 2011, 15 minutes after I had to make the most difficult decision a parent is ever faced with...to remove him from life support.  My world will never be the same since the night I got the call to come to the hospital, that he had been in a car...
    sj825 sj825 56-60 7 Responses May 4, 2011

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    Left Devastated And Lifeless

    My story starts with me being told i was unable to have child.... then one day to my dis be-leaf i was pregnant! I was soo happy, Not that my partner was mind you. we argued because he didnt want the child, but i stood my ground and said i was having my little bundle that brought...
    downAnDdestroyed downAnDdestroyed 22-25 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    My Baby Girl

    Hannah was a healthy baby when she was born. I had a difficult pregnancy and was put on bed rest at the end. She was born by c-section on Febuary 5th, 2007. She was a happy baby, and our family was complete. We had our baby boy who was now two and a half and our new born baby...
    sidsmommy1 sidsmommy1 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 2, 2012

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    My Story

    I lost my daughter, Mia Renee to Leukemia. Mia was a very happy child. She loved music and loved to smile and laugh even through the sickness she remained the same happy baby. She was was diagnosed in 2004 at 6 months of age. The doctors immediately admitted her and began...
    flanderst flanderst 36-40 1 Response May 13, 2013

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    My Little Angel Passed Away

    My severely handicapped daughter passed away a few months ago and I miss her terribly!  She was my purpose in life - I took care of her 24/7.  Now I am so lost and I don't know what to do with myself.  I moved out of state for the first time 2 years ago and was very isolated...
    anacapa123 anacapa123 61-65, F 3 Responses Feb 17, 2012

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    If They Don't Speak Her Name....

    Not that me and my husband have ever been good at communicating with each other. He has decided not to say Sahvanna' name again, said that when he does it reminds me of her and I start to cry. I tryed to tell him I think of her 27/7 he let me know that this is the way it is gonna...
    Marty1027 Marty1027 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 30, 2012

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    My Little Angel Passed Away

    My severely handicapped daughter passed away a few months ago and I miss her terribly!  She was my purpose in life - I took care of her 24/7.  Now I am so lost and I don't know what to do with myself.  I moved out of state for the first time 2 years ago and was very isolated...
    anacapa123 anacapa123 61-65, F 3 Responses Feb 17, 2012

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    I Know They Say Time Heals But Time Has Stopped

    It has only been 2.5 years since my 17 was violently ripped from my life. I had read grief books, talked to people, counsellors, friends...but you get to a point where you are saying the same thing over and over again...I just want him back...just like we all do. Your friends...
    Tippytee Tippytee 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 22, 2013

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    My Sleeping Angel Ariana. Mummy Misses U Everyday Baby Girl!

    It will be 6 weeks tomorrow that I gave birth to my sleeping angel Ariana. I was 38.6 weeks pregnant when I hadn't felt her move, so we went up to the hospital to get the heartbeat checked. I thought that she maybe wasn't moving Bcoz she had moved down so much and it was almost...
    Ari15 Ari15 26-30, F Feb 24, 2013

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    I don't know if this counts,

    but here's my story. My first girlfriend that I really loved had moved to South Carolina with me being stuck in Texas. We talked every night and saw each other whenever we could get a chance. In July of 2007 she got pregnant with our child, and that November she was hit and...
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 27

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    You've Heard It Said "There Are People That Have It A Lot Worse Than You", Well When You Lose A Child, That's As Bad As It Gets.

    It was a little after 8pm on Friday the 19th of August 2011, just five months ago. I was in bed so I just let the phone ring and allowed the answering machine get it. My son's girlfriend left a message saying "pick up, it's an emergency, April has been hit by a car". she said...
    draggnbottom2 draggnbottom2 51-55 3 Responses Jan 29, 2012

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    Laura

    Laura died at birth . The doctors don't know why . I miss her so much. I look in the sky and every Rainbow I feel is her telling me I am Ok mommy.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 18, 2012

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    Firefighter

    My son wanted to be a firefighter. He loved to dress up as such, and even go out with his cute outfit, telling everyone he would someday be the chief of all firefighters in the city. "Dad, I love you, but I don't want to have a boring job like yours... sitting all day in an...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 139 Responses Jun 22, 2010

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    Shane

    I lost my stillborn son on February 4th, 1990. I could feel him, kicking, moving, and growing inside of me. From the moment that I knew I was going to be a mom for the second time, I loved him with all of my heart. What happened that day is a memory that I have in flashes - my...
    biddiegirl biddiegirl 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 11, 2013

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    Butterfly

    She died aged five minutes. She is my butterfly child. Her name is Susannah Abigail Nova. We chose Nova because, in Hopi, it means 'chasing butterflies'. We wanted a traditional name- it didn't turn out that way, we chose a bit of an out there name- because of the meaning. I will...
    lovingmylosses lovingmylosses 31-35, F Apr 20, 2013

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    My Little Lion.

    His name was Gabriel Anthony. His favorite animal was the Lion because they were so strong and pretty. He loved the lion king like I did. He was my little lion cub, always pretending he were one on the prowl and reminding me of Simba. I had just put him to bed, making up a bed...
    Didosaurus Didosaurus 18-21, F 10 Responses Aug 21, 2011

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    Where's My Kid?

    There's a secret known only to those of us whose children have died long before their time. It's unspoken, yet understood. Once the obituary is written, the prayers said, the tidy crust-less sandwiches eaten and everyone who surrounded you with love goes back to their corners to...
    wheresmykid wheresmykid 56-60, F 4 Responses May 10, 2012

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    Silent Mourning

    There is this moment right before dawn, you can see the gentle glow of sun start to fill the sky. It's that pink haze that promises morning is coming, a new day will begin. In those fleeting moments there's hope, there's an expectation that the light will chase away the darkness...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 6, 2013

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    Today Is A Dark Day

    There is no pain like losing a child. It engulfs you, swallows you whole. Nothing prepares you, because you cannot phantom losing your child. You are filled with a thousand questions without answers. I can not bare to see the reminders of him. He was my first. The one I begged...
    passionateheart61 passionateheart61 46-50, F 3 Responses May 1, 2012

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    The Loss Of A Child Is The Hardest Thing

    a loss of a child is the hardest thing especially when they are 10 years old my son died of leukemia he was the most friendliest and loving child I love playing ball with him and riding our bikes together I know is in heaven with his mother and I miss them both dearly
    fireman03 fireman03 70+, M Mar 23, 2013

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    Reality Setting In

    I hear all the time, you are so strong, you are amazing. I don't feel that way, from the outside I seem strong and calm, from the inside I'm in agony and disbelief. My whole world has come to a halt. I continue loving and I'm strong for my family but I just can't believe that my...
    grievingmom40 grievingmom40 41-45, F 4 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    MartíN - My Angel.

    Almost two months ago, my 3 month old woke up crying earlier than usual. He hadn't finished his bottle, so I assumed he was hungry. He had this cry, very different than his normal cry. I took him to our bed, held him and he fell back asleep for 15 mins. Again, that distinct cry...
    Vlm9781 Vlm9781 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 31, 2013

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    No Answers

    One of my friends died recently at the age of 28 suddenly and without warning. Two days ago I was talking with his farther a 55 year old man who I have worked with at Heathrow Airport for 8 years. He is clearly a broken man and has lost his happiness and is just looking to move...
    Iain321 Iain321 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 27, 2013

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    I Miss My Daughter, I Miss Being Whole

    My Daughter was murdered on 11/1/2009 at the age of 25. She was our only child. I have only recently begun to accept it. Is that the right word? Accept? I should say I have only recently decided that I can move on with my life, no matter how unjust that is. Why couldn't I have...
    MedicalGirl1 MedicalGirl1 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 17, 2012

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    My Beatiful Baby Girl

    I lost my daughter, Kierstyn on April 9.  She was 25, but I still called her Baby Girl.  That's what she'll always be to me.  I just really don't see how I'm going to make it through this.  We were closer than any mother and daughter I've ever met.  She was my whole life...
    mouthkarma mouthkarma 41-45, F 7 Responses May 3, 2011

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    Yesterday

    yesterday it hit me since Sahvanna died 4/29/12 @9:40 pm, I havent done anything but cry. I make myself shower, rode to store few times. I go from bed to sofa. This isn't helping her and is hurting me. I gotta try to live. Still not sIure why but I keep waking up in morning i...
    Marty1027 Marty1027 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 2, 2012

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    To My Son.

    I feel as though I have left you behind.Because it's too painful to look at your picture for long, or even let my mind think of you for long.It just seems so cruel. To experience that love, only to have it taken away in a moment.People ask how many children I have- I never...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 26, 2012

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    Losing My Hero!!!

    I lost my daddy(hero) almost 6yrs ago and still dealing with it..we were very close...like best friends....how can I let go...I cant...
    gracielou1973 gracielou1973 36-40, F Sep 22, 2012

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    my parents were not that strict, but now with my two boys, i think in this day and age, strictness is better. would love to talk to other likeminded parents. dont be shy, you can...
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