I Am A Hard Person To Get Close Too

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 871 People

    keithm8 keithm8
    22-25, M
    Jul 15, 2015

    Truth About Me

    I'm terrified of being hurt again, and I'm a pretty weird person who doesn't mesh well with a lot of the people in my area, so I don't meet people. I don't talk to people in real life- only online. And when one of my online friends wants to meet me in real life I become terrified...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    31-35, F
    May 9, 2013

    With everything that I have been through in my

    life, I have obtained trust issues and commitment issues. My wall is so guarded, the militia couldn't break it down. Like, it's hard for me to let people in. I actually wish that I could be different sometimes, but then I don't because I've been this way for so long, I'm...
    CharleeLuv CharleeLuv
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 22, 2015

    It's Not Even On Purpose.

    I'm just... an onion. I am layers. layers upon layers of relational style, inspirations, interests, fears, dreams, vices... I choose which layer to present at which time. But it takes so very long for anyone to see more than one layer, if ever. And it's not because I don't want...
    flameoffire flameoffire
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 9, 2012

    One reason is because I am a little on the shy

    side. The other reason is because I don't trust everybody. You have to show me you are a worthy person so to speak. I have opened up to people before and they turned out to be anything but a friend. Therefore I have to feel you out first.
    WhoAreWeIsTheQuestion WhoAreWeIsTheQuestion
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 14, 2015

    Ever since my accident I usually shut ppl out

    other than ppl idk I just don't see why tho I do it and I don't realize what I'm doing till after I'm done ppl don't understand that I can't control myself like I use to, I never thought that I would express my self like this but just need Time and I need to vent ( I didn't even...
    daniel7268 daniel7268
    16-17, M
    Jun 24, 2014

    Me Too

    I have been hurt, I am scared, and I don't want to up. All this adds up to being closed off. So I am hard to get to know because I don't want it to happen again. I don't want to pick up the pieces and try to fit them together, again. It sucks! If you do ask me to open up, if...
    Sl1ckah3ad Sl1ckah3ad
    41-45, M
    Nov 9, 2013

    In my experience, you cannot fully trust a

    person until I have known them for at least longer than two years. I realized this when my supposed friend kept insulting me and then denying she ever did such a thing. She didn't exactly hurt my feelings, but I decided it would be better to stay away from her rather than...
    Lilyfire1 Lilyfire1
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2015

    i may be hard to get close to

    but once i let you in you are not going anywhere you become a person of need and interest. I will cling to you and sob when you leave. I either hate you or love you.
    justDlight justDlight
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 14, 2015

    This is especially true on this website.

    I have found that i expect all men to be the same unfortunately. they want one thing. they don't realize there are so many different facets to me. you can't have one without all the rest.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    2 Responses May 22, 2015

    Hurting The Ones You Care About

    A little while ago I hurt someone I care about because a story that I wrote made him think that I was out looking for someone, and this isn't the case. In my last story called, 'I am a hard person to get close too';  I talked about a certain type of man that I would like to come...
    ChocolateSauce ChocolateSauce
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jan 3, 2011

    Arms Length

    Trust is something I don't take lightly. It's hard for anyone to climb of the barrier of lies. The barrier no one has succeed to conquer but two. I have secrets as anyone does, but you'll merely know only my name, and basic information. I won't go into to details, but my past...
    TurnThePaige TurnThePaige
    18-21, F
    Aug 23, 2011

    I Am A Hard Person To Get Close Too.................

    I am a very hard person to get close too, and I have to admit that I know some of the reasons why. First off, I was married and my marriage wasn't suppose to end until death due us part. Secondly, My ex-husband and I were suppose to have (3) kids, open two businesses, (1) Real...
    ChocolateSauce ChocolateSauce
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 30, 2010

    I Truly Care, I Just Don't Always Show It.

    Ok, before I start, this is for everyone on EP, especially my circle. I'm sure you have noticed from speaking to me that I do not open up immediately, and I won't open up immediately. In my past, I have been let down by people I trusted countless times and now I just can't trust...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Jan 19, 2013
    IgnoreTheSmoke IgnoreTheSmoke
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 3, 2015

    Too Much.

    I open up.. let you in.. you can taste the weakness on the tip of your tongue. How I put my walls down so instantly before. Then I get hurt. Someone always cheats. Uses harsh words. ***** me up. In other words it's not going to happen again. There was this one man I was with...
    KISSndKILL KISSndKILL
    18-21, F
    Aug 15, 2011

    I've just been burnt too many times.

    I find it hard yo trust anyone too much anymore. I only let people see the surface.
    PaperTowns PaperTowns
    22-25, F
    Aug 17, 2015

    I have no idea how to talk to people.

    And I like that. So please, if you would like to get close to me, please respect my high levels of privacy. But due note: I will still let you be part of my life. I just have a weird way of doing so. I will take eons to respond to any sort of messaging. I might act like a cold...
    razzycharm razzycharm
    22-25, F
    Jul 15, 2015

    It is not because I am afraid of getting hurt

    or any of that bull ****. I am just different. I think differently than most. Feel differently. So there have been times I have opened up and it just doesnt seem to work out. I am not upset about it..its just life. Maybe someday my time will come. Some other person out there...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 11, 2014

    I'm not much of a people person,

    but I guess it's because I've always been used & thrown away. Also having Selective Mutism doesn't help, but no one even listens to me when I do speak so why try. Trust is something that takes time to build & if you're not going to make an effort why should I?
    SamiLy SamiLy
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 15, 2015

    Everything Ends Sometimes.

    Ever since I was little, I've been constantly let down by people I was close to...My dad left, my mom pushed me too hard, the people that i thought were my friends left me behind.Sometimes I just feel like I was meant to be alone.Alone by myself, the only person I can count on...
    christinexxcatastrophe christinexxcatastrophe
    13-15, F
    Oct 10, 2011
    loneleyboy loneleyboy
    13-15, M
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2015

    I don't know why but i'm just not much of a

    people person, i don't have many close friends and i hardly talk about anything to my family at all and i just cant talk to anyone much because i feel like i have nothing to talk about. Do i need help or something?
    stephanieleon34211 stephanieleon34211
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 15, 2015

    I'm shy. And for some reason the general public

    looks upon that like a disease or something. I get the occasional friendly person and it just brightens my day. But I also like just watching the person too, to get a 'feel' for them. The people that I'm very close to...we just click. I don't think anyone can be close with a ton...
    beautifulblessedchild beautifulblessedchild
    22-25, F
    May 23, 2015

    Friendship is fine. It's just

    when people get too attached and want to be more than friends, that's when I freak out and push them away. I don't understand this as I have never been hurt, maybe I'm subconsciously afraid of being hurt and I push them away before it can happen. I don't know and if I carry on...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 19

    I am not an easy person to know.

    I am awkward often when I meet people. I do better with people who like to talk about themselves so I do not have to do much talking. I like to be there for people. It is hard for me to let them be there for me. Every once and awhile someone will come into my life and it is...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 18, 2014

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