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I Am a Heroin Addict

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    Chasing the Dragon

    As all heroin addicts know, the next smoke or shoot is always the last one. The regret, shame, guilt, and all the other emotions that come with the failures of continuing to do heroin are something that i find difficult to deal with. Today is my day 6 clean, but as ...
    mgturbo1 mgturbo1 26-30, M 23 Responses Aug 14, 2009

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    Anyone in Gwinnett, Ga.

    Who can hook me up?
    BaeNotBae BaeNotBae 18-21, M 4 Responses Nov 18

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    hi i just recently moved to san diego

    and i was wandering if there was anyone who could help me
    shellyloveblack shellyloveblack 22-25, F Sep 12

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    Sometimes I Forget

      I've been meeting a lot of new people, making a lot of new friends recently. I forget though, of these people, only about seven of them knew me during my 'heavy' years, my fall asleep during conversation or ring them at three am asking to pop over and borrow a lighter or...
    LickingStamps LickingStamps 26-30, F 11 Responses Oct 27, 2009

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    I am so sick today! I hate feeling this way!

    I wish I could snap my fingers and get over this but I know it's not that easy. Am I alone in this?
    tenths14 tenths14 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 29

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    Once Is Too Many But A Thousand Is Never Enough...

    I don't know what time it is when I wake, drenched in sweat, my skin crawling, alternating chills, gut wrenching nausea. I'm holding back bile rising in the back of my throat. My insides are twisting, churning, burning. My skin is ice cold and fiery hot at the same time. Every...
    LaPetiteSouris LaPetiteSouris 22-25, F 19 Responses Dec 3, 2011

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    I just bought a string

    and was shooting crack like heroin. Plus everybody here posting about their addiction is now bein looked up by operation stinger workers! :D have a nice day!
    TheTrollinator TheTrollinator 13-15, M Aug 7

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    ViciousFox ViciousFox 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    hobbitgetz hobbitgetz 41-45, F 4 Responses Nov 17

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    phishology phishology 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 15

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    Just moved to Haines City fl from AZan I need a

    connect. Super sick, please helppppp
    Vannabananaz94 Vannabananaz94 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I wake up every day around 6 A.

    M. I'm so hot I can hardly stand it, my legs are restless, my body is tired...I am tired... Tired of this fight. I am constantly trying to find a way to get money for my next fix. I put myself in the most dangerous situations. Anyone in their right mind would not wake up every...
    tenths14 tenths14 22-25, F 7 Responses Aug 18

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    I stopped using heroin,

    and now I'm extremely depressed...I don't know what to do with myself now....I HATE myself...
    girlinterruptedd girlinterruptedd 22-25, F 7 Responses Mar 30

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    I ******* I n g love it I never gonna quit .

    I'm on methadone and can use every so often. I want to try smak from America someone send me a lil something I will pay you im in Australia. .costs too much here. half a g is 5 to 700..fk that. msg me.
    nodkat nodkat 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 27

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    I Can't Stop. I Can't Get Enough.

    I can't stop using opiates. I am supposed to be clean right now, and just on methadone for withdrawals, but i am buying oxy's and snorting alot and waisting tons of money. I feel i am starting to fade back into my old ways. Right now with the methadone i am giving from the...
    Synapsethroughspace Synapsethroughspace 22-25, M 16 Responses Oct 6, 2012

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    I need help. I have been using Heroin

    for two years now. It used to be fun but now I am sick everyday and I just want to die. I live in Anniston, Alabama. I cannot afford treatment. Is there anyone out there that can help me. Can anyone relate?
    tenths14 tenths14 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 18

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    I am an addict and I'm having some serious

    cravings its really hard some days
    sarahest1986 sarahest1986 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 22

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    foleyyyy foleyyyy 26-30, F 4 hrs ago

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    ilookintothesun ilookintothesun 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 25

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    Not My Friend

    Let me introduce you to a friend, He’ll be there for you until the end. He’ll make you think you’re going to win, Welcome to the world of heroin. It all stats off when you have a bad day, Now everyday, he wants to come play. You can’t say no and turn your back, He’ll...
    brokenchildgrownup brokenchildgrownup 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 23, 2013

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    Heroin-the Devil I

    Heroin - I destroy homes, tear families apart, take your children, and that's just the start. I'm more costly than diamonds, more costly than gold, the sorrow I bring is a sight to behold, and if u need me, remember I'm easily found. I live all around you, in schools and in town...
    IShallDefeatTheDevil IShallDefeatTheDevil 22-25, F 8 Responses Aug 23, 2013

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    Long Time Not See

    as u can see, it has been a while since i last uploaded anything. first of all, i failed. im using again. using alot. lost 3 teeth due to meth, and im also doing heroin. and well pretty much everything i can get my hands on. i dont know why, i just cant stop, i dont wanna think...
    Woesh Woesh 18-21, F 11 Responses Mar 14, 2013

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    brynnshane brynnshane 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 4

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    272 Days Clean From Herion

    Life is funny! I'd never ever think i'd be sitting at home with nothing to do and be very happy about it. My life was a mess. A little over a year ago I was living in a hotel broke jobless and about to lose my son. One day it just hit me. I really can't do this anymore. Being on...
    girltoday girltoday 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    I'm Ashamed To Say I Relapsed

    I relapsed recently. It wasn't the first time but it was the worst one. The other times were brief and I was able to pull myself together and get help. This time was really bad and I'm scared because I'm worried it could happen again. When I started using originally I...
    emily29707 emily29707 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 7, 2013

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    Heroin Addiction

    After reading the comments to my heroin addiction story I thought I would update all of you as to how I’m doing. Thanks to everyone who read my story, and thanks to the people who took the time to comment on it.Anyway, I start my second semester of my second year at uni...
    mgturbo1 mgturbo1 26-30, M 6 Responses Jan 20, 2010

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    Until Now

    I have been a member of this group for a while now but I have never been able to bring myself to write my story. I fell in love with opiates the very first time. I can remember being addicted to pills and doing all of the other things that go along with being an addict, but like...
    aprilriver aprilriver 31-35, F 14 Responses Aug 21, 2011

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    Life As I Know It

    Heroin is a hell of a drug. Here's my story. I wanted to get out of this world and getting high has been my way out of my depression and to feel normal. I first starting drinking then started smoking pot. Then I was introduced to morphine and I was hooked on downers. I loved it I...
    Kelsey5 Kelsey5 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 3, 2012

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    turfman14 turfman14 22-25, M Aug 27

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    ok it has been decided

    that I'm going to give lady H a break, and let my poor veins recover. I used tonight, bugger all actually. I just thought, christ I've blown 400 in one week on bloody white powder. and I feel ill at that thought. .the **** I did for that cash wasn't savory. I don't hate renting...
    nodkat nodkat 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    25,Addict & In Love With Harry

    Please no hate. I'm a 25 yo female,addicted to opiates since 19.Don't use other drugs I.e meth,coke etc. Hardly drink.Can't tolerate Mary Jane. Can't stop tinking about heroin.,or morphine. Been on methadone near 2 weeks now,35mg. But I can't sleep on it, my pupils are pinned...
    nodkat nodkat 26-30, F 9 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    alexa1234 alexa1234 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 24

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    my Dr never told me 15 years ago

    that the meds he was putting me on would make me an addict...and because of the total no of people that actually need the meds can't find them which makes it even harder so, the government gets upset when we resort to street meds to keep well. now I am addicted to heroin...
    hobbitgetz hobbitgetz 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 17

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    Moving to Austin soon

    and would really like to find a hookup
    Thegonz81 Thegonz81 31-35, M Oct 18

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    Different Kind Of Pain...

    One time my son wrote to me about heroin withdrawal experience: sleepless nights, nausea/ vomiting, muscle spasms. Sometimes the fear of pain of withdrawal prevents heroin users to drop their deadly habit. But I want to tell you about different kind of pain- pain of a mother...
    Svet060313 Svet060313 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 13, 2013

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    It all started when i was 18

    and got my first bf n i was obsessed with him, he was tough n i was getting bullied, but not when he was around!! I looked up to him. Then he ended up cheating n going to prison in a short time, i was so upset. When he got out of prison the girl he cheated with killed herself...
    quietgirl14 quietgirl14 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    An addict who's homeless An addict who's

    dopesick An addict who's soulless An addict who has no idea what the **** hope is An addict who's coppin on the block An addict livin for the shot An addict who sells her soul, she'll never be whole An addict who's cold, prayin for no snow An addict on the streets An addict who...
    madefrombrokenparts madefrombrokenparts 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 4

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    Alyssateer Alyssateer 18-21 1 Response Oct 3

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    lookin to score in jax,

    anyone help me out?
    drdrowsy drdrowsy 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 27

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    7 Years Clean

    Hi everyone, have been 7 years clean and have turned my life around from being in a hell hole to being a very happy person again with lots more confidence. I know what it's like to feel sick and have to search for your dealer or wait hours for him and then when you do get some it...
    lorraineperici lorraineperici 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 20, 2013

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    18 Year Old Girl Struggling With A New Heroin Addiction

    Most of the stories I have stumbled across have been written by addicts who have been abusing for many years, making me feel like my story may not affect others as much. I haven't even been using for a year yet. It all started back in November 2011... Since march I had been...
    em416 em416 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 25, 2012

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    I Should't Be Posting Here...

    ...As a 41 year old mother I should be advising my daughters to stay away from drugs but I can't. How can I, after all I'm addicted to heroin. It was never meant to be like this and up until three years ago my only vice was cigarettes! Then I bumped into an old friend whom I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    Omg now i am living in south texas

    corpuschristi area. need help!!
    ilookintothesun ilookintothesun 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    It Happened So Fast. My Story Of Addiction.

    I had posted this on another site a while back. I just found this site today and I thought I'd share this. Hopefully anyone who thinks about heroin might think twice after reading this. While my story is a bit extreme-most people don't fall into addiction so quickly- it's...
    IrishMegan88 IrishMegan88 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 29, 2013

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    Never thought I would be clean off opiates

    for this long l! I feel unstoppable ready to get what I want! Opiate free since 6/1614!!! So thankful for my baby girl who gave me the will power to over come this almost life ending struggle! Also a shout out to all you on ep who I have talked with and who helped me so much...
    Synapsethroughspace Synapsethroughspace 22-25, M 4 Responses Sep 15

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    Clean

    okay. people,, today is gonna be my first day without heroin for a long time. wanted to let you all know. . wish me luck. :) i can do this ****! pinky promise<3 25-11-2012 ~ ________________________________________________________________________________________________ well...
    Woesh Woesh 18-21, F 16 Responses Nov 24, 2012

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    Heroin: The Kiss Of God

    I call heroin the kiss of god because there is no feeling to describe it. Everyone says it's unlike anything they've ever experienced, true, but I'm not like everyone else. Heroin for me, felt like me being lifted up to heaven god gives me a kiss than I gently come back to...
    teex0ox teex0ox 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    Once again I successfully fooled myself into

    thinking I could get high once in a while. How could I seriously expect to only indulge in something so lovely and easy on occasion? DENIAL... I've been to rehabs, 12 step meetings, taken suboxone for "maintenance" repeatedly, been in psych wards... All this **** I've been...
    shibbq shibbq 26-30, M 3 Responses Oct 20

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    It is impossible to find opiates

    and benzos in Lawrence, KS.. Anyone in this area hit me up
    FlailMartini428 FlailMartini428 22-25, F Oct 18

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    Lake Hills, Texas. (Austin) looking

    for anybody who can help me score. thanks.
    kovu22 kovu22 22-25, M Dec 3

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    I'll start out by telling everyone a little bit

    about myself. I am 25 years old, I come from a good family, my father is an engineer and mother a principle. I have never wanted for anything in my entire life. I started experimenting with drugs and alcohol around age 13. I remember the first time I smoked, I was at a golf...
    KK20 KK20 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 5

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