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I Am a Heroin Addict

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 665 People

    Just As Expected...

    I used heroin intravenously every day, multiple times a day. I was clean for 219 days and f*cked it all up...I have only used once though, but im so afraid I will make it into a habit again...it scares me how much I still loved it..its like I loved it even more after staying away...
    SarawAnn SarawAnn
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Nov 18, 2013

    Heroin: The Kiss Of God

    I call heroin the kiss of god because there is no feeling to describe it. Everyone says it's unlike anything they've ever experienced, true, but I'm not like everyone else. Heroin for me, felt like me being lifted up to heaven god gives me a kiss than I gently come back to...
    teex0ox teex0ox
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Oct 13, 2013

    I just went through what was probably the worst

    full-blown relapse of my life. Still can't believe how stupid I am. For almost 30 years I have wrestled with addiction and gone through long periods of recovery, only to stumble again. Rinse and repeat. Love and relationships are a massive relapse issue for me and have...
    EmperorJulian EmperorJulian
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Jan 19, 2015
    junkiechic junkiechic
    31-35, F
    Jul 20, 2014

    18 Year Old Girl Struggling With A New Heroin Addiction

    Most of the stories I have stumbled across have been written by addicts who have been abusing for many years, making me feel like my story may not affect others as much. I haven't even been using for a year yet. It all started back in November 2011... Since march I had been...
    em416 em416
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jun 25, 2012

    account got deleted again lol.

    ..if you need that in Orlando or the surrounding area feel free to message me and I'll take care of you asap. I have nothing but good reviews on here so u know it's legit.
    SUFFER407 SUFFER407
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 12

    I am so sick today! I hate feeling this way!

    I wish I could snap my fingers and get over this but I know it's not that easy. Am I alone in this?
    tenths14 tenths14
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 29, 2014

    My names is Mika and I'm 29yo.

    I have been shooting heroin since I was 14. I've done numerous different jail stints and literally sold my soul for heroin. I am coming up on 7months clean, but I still think about it. People ask if I could go back in time and change it all would I? And I say no I wouldn't...
    MikaPGHsLostCause MikaPGHsLostCause
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Mar 19, 2015

    Scent of death is all around Broken body on

    the ground Twisted guts liquid sh*ts Puking vile throwing fits Mangled muscles primal pain Bones are bruised hijacked brain Aching arms veins are shot Cotton mouth running snot Vision blurred eyes are red Starving sickness must be fed Burning throat lungs are...
    musicismymedicine musicismymedicine
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 22, 2014
    alexa1234 alexa1234
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Aug 24, 2014

    Once again I successfully fooled myself into

    thinking I could get high once in a while. How could I seriously expect to only indulge in something so lovely and easy on occasion? DENIAL... I've been to rehabs, 12 step meetings, taken suboxone for "maintenance" repeatedly, been in psych wards... All this **** I've been...
    shibbq shibbq
    26-30, M
    7 Responses Oct 20, 2014

    Heroin-the Devil I

    Heroin - I destroy homes, tear families apart, take your children, and that's just the start. I'm more costly than diamonds, more costly than gold, the sorrow I bring is a sight to behold, and if u need me, remember I'm easily found. I live all around you, in schools and in town...
    IShallDefeatTheDevil IShallDefeatTheDevil
    22-25, F
    9 Responses Aug 23, 2013

    272 Days Clean From Herion

    Life is funny! I'd never ever think i'd be sitting at home with nothing to do and be very happy about it. My life was a mess. A little over a year ago I was living in a hotel broke jobless and about to lose my son. One day it just hit me. I really can't do this anymore. Being on...
    girltoday girltoday
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Feb 28, 2013

    Want To Know What It's Like To Do Heroin?

                                                  ...
    slowdowntony slowdowntony
    41-45, M
    18 Responses Aug 15, 2010

    Different Kind Of Pain...

    One time my son wrote to me about heroin withdrawal experience: sleepless nights, nausea/ vomiting, muscle spasms. Sometimes the fear of pain of withdrawal prevents heroin users to drop their deadly habit. But I want to tell you about different kind of pain- pain of a mother...
    Svet060313 Svet060313
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Sep 13, 2013

    I am a heroin delaudid morphine oxy addict in

    Waco Texas anyone near me and want to chat message me
    ijustluvit ijustluvit
    26-30, F
    Nov 10, 2015

    I wake up every day around 6 A.

    M. I'm so hot I can hardly stand it, my legs are restless, my body is tired...I am tired... Tired of this fight. I am constantly trying to find a way to get money for my next fix. I put myself in the most dangerous situations. Anyone in their right mind would not wake up every...
    tenths14 tenths14
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Aug 18, 2014

    It all started when i was 18

    and got my first bf n i was obsessed with him, he was tough n i was getting bullied, but not when he was around!! I looked up to him. Then he ended up cheating n going to prison in a short time, i was so upset. When he got out of prison the girl he cheated with killed herself...
    quietgirl14 quietgirl14
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2014
    eastorlandoneedman eastorlandoneedman
    22-25, M
    Mar 4

    Make It To The Moon

    I am not just an addict I'm a coward. I didn't come from an abusive or broken home. I was loved and sheltered and safe and most of all provided for. Everythinv was set up to be a cookie cutter existence. And it scared me. I wanted to experience life. To be the crazy feirce...
    skylitdetroit skylitdetroit
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Nov 2, 2013
    bunnyglow bunnyglow
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2015

    Heroin Addiction

    After reading the comments to my heroin addiction story I thought I would update all of you as to how I’m doing. Thanks to everyone who read my story, and thanks to the people who took the time to comment on it.Anyway, I start my second semester of my second year at uni...
    mgturbo1 mgturbo1
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Jan 20, 2010

    7 Years Clean

    Hi everyone, have been 7 years clean and have turned my life around from being in a hell hole to being a very happy person again with lots more confidence. I know what it's like to feel sick and have to search for your dealer or wait hours for him and then when you do get some it...
    lorraineperici lorraineperici
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Sep 20, 2013

    I am a heroin addict.

    Whos with me
    BritishAndProud BritishAndProud
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Dec 8, 2015

    "MY MOTHER INTRODUCED ME TO HEROIN,

    AND JESUS CHRIST INTRODUCED ME TO FREEDOM
    Heavenbound5511 Heavenbound5511
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 24, 2014

    Things Are Getting Better

    167 days with out pills or herion. I really didnt think id ever be able to say that. Recovery is alot more than just not using its hard work. Making it through detox was hard no doubt. I felt like **** the first month. The cold sweats the leg aches the sleepness nights o the...
    girltoday girltoday
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Nov 14, 2012

    Sometimes I Forget

      I've been meeting a lot of new people, making a lot of new friends recently. I forget though, of these people, only about seven of them knew me during my 'heavy' years, my fall asleep during conversation or ring them at three am asking to pop over and borrow a lighter or...
    LickingStamps LickingStamps
    26-30, F
    11 Responses Oct 27, 2009

    Not My Friend

    Let me introduce you to a friend, He’ll be there for you until the end. He’ll make you think you’re going to win, Welcome to the world of heroin. It all stats off when you have a bad day, Now everyday, he wants to come play. You can’t say no and turn your back, He’ll...
    brokenchildgrownup brokenchildgrownup
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Oct 23, 2013

    As I said on a previous post I started getting

    high on heroin at age 14, I started drinking and smoking pot at age 12. Now I wanna say this prior to that I had everything handed to me. I grew up in a rich suburban neighborhood with the best of everything. I was a published poet in 7th and 8th grade and attended a private...
    MikaPGHsLostCause MikaPGHsLostCause
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2015

    Everyday Struggle

    Hello all, this is my first post and as I type this I have a straightened paper clip scrapping the inside of my cleared out pen getting a few lines out of 3 different straws to hold myself over until my fiance gets home to figure out when we will get our next fix. I can't live...
    Recam24 Recam24
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 20, 2012

    I've been having some weird things happening to

    me when I try to go to bed, as soon as I hit the pillow and actually fall asleep I have these very vivid dreams, sometimes weird dreams, and sometimes nightmares. They wake me up out of a dead sleep! The weird thing is I've noticed that if I get up and bumped a little bit of H I...
    sfon4 sfon4
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Jun 23, 2015

    I'm 35 I was on heroin

    for 6 yrs and now on suboxion for 3 I've been using in off and on i moved to GA....no lookin..help me out
    misslynxs misslynxs
    36-40, F
    1 Response Aug 7, 2014

    I Have No One To Blame But Myself.

    I haven't told alot of people my story. Most people know that I'm an addict but I'm too ashamed to tell them what really happened. Hopefully someone on here will learn something from this and not do what I did. I met this guy when I was 17. He was so exotic to me. Turns out he...
    emily29707 emily29707
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jun 25, 2013

    Chasing the Dragon

    As all heroin addicts know, the next smoke or shoot is always the last one. The regret, shame, guilt, and all the other emotions that come with the failures of continuing to do heroin are something that i find difficult to deal with. Today is my day 6 clean, but as ...
    mgturbo1 mgturbo1
    26-30, M
    23 Responses Aug 14, 2009

    Yes heroin has consumed me,

    I don't remember letting that happen it just kinda of happened. All I did was answer the knock at the door. Heroin did the rest. And while I was distracted it made friends with my two daughters as well. We are all now addicted. Will we ever kick our addictions, who knows...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 21, 2014

    Heroin: My Love Affair

    Six months ago I couldn't even tell you what black tar was. My boyfriend at the time, a serious drug abuser, introduced me to this evil. But it didn't feel evil. As the vapors from the tin foil filled my lungs I instantly developed a new crush. A new relationship was born that...
    asugirl11 asugirl11
    18-21, F
    32 Responses Jan 22, 2013

    I'll start out by telling everyone a little bit

    about myself. I am 25 years old, I come from a good family, my father is an engineer and mother a principle. I have never wanted for anything in my entire life. I started experimenting with drugs and alcohol around age 13. I remember the first time I smoked, I was at a golf...
    KK20 KK20
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Mar 5, 2014

    Ive been an addict 12yrs kickicked it 3 times

    now I'm on fourth day of detox if anyone is going threw this I would like to chat , I'm craving badly anyone have any tips for dealing with cravings. Would luv to hear from u x
    xlynx77 xlynx77
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2015

    I Am A Herion Addict

    No, im not proud, but this is my life. I dont know how to get away from this addiction, how to stop! Im all to aware that im ruining my own young, beautiful 20 year old life, but my families as well. Where do you turn when you cant afford treatment? I need help.. ;(
    DaddysPrincess1210 DaddysPrincess1210
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Nov 7, 2013

    It's really hard when the person closest to you

    pretends to listen and understand then it's the same thing they hold against you in the heat of the moment I will no longer allow said person to tell me to shut the **** up and that I'm an addict :/...
    bunnyglow bunnyglow
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2015

    I am a heroin delaudid morphine oxy addict in

    Waco Texas anyone near me and want to chat message me
    ijustluvit ijustluvit
    26-30, F
    Nov 10, 2015

    I have several connecs

    for boy in the orlando area. Message me on here for my number....$10 no bullshit....no pinching out of your **** and no 'taking care of me'.
    markspector markspector
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Jan 2

    I'm Ashamed To Say I Relapsed

    I relapsed recently. It wasn't the first time but it was the worst one. The other times were brief and I was able to pull myself together and get help. This time was really bad and I'm scared because I'm worried it could happen again. When I started using originally I...
    emily29707 emily29707
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Oct 7, 2013

    Anyone want to make friends?

    especially in the uk, but anywhere welcome.
    TheGreatWizard TheGreatWizard
    36-40, M
    1 Response Oct 31, 2015

    Ive been using for 13 years.

    Nobody even knows.
    Invisiblejack Invisiblejack
    26-30
    5 Responses Jun 4, 2015

    Getting home from a long day of school

    and work, climbing into bed and getting as high as you want cuz you don't have anything to do for the next 11 hours is the most perfect thing ever :)) #relatable 😌🌊🌼🌸🌺🌻☀️🌀🍒🍑🍯
    bunnyglow bunnyglow
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 28, 2015

    Anyone that wants to hear my story let me know

    as I have to send it to you privately as someone flagged it and it was removed...
    MikaPGHsLostCause MikaPGHsLostCause
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 20, 2015

    Once Is Too Many But A Thousand Is Never Enough...

    I don't know what time it is when I wake, drenched in sweat, my skin crawling, alternating chills, gut wrenching nausea. I'm holding back bile rising in the back of my throat. My insides are twisting, churning, burning. My skin is ice cold and fiery hot at the same time. Every...
    LaPetiteSouris LaPetiteSouris
    22-25, F
    19 Responses Dec 3, 2011

    And I have been, on and off

    for about three years or more. But that isn't what this post is primarily about. I'm posting here because I feel truly evil for my actions in attempts to acquire heroin... Generally I don't resort to screwing over other people for my fix. But my mom is very compassionate and...
    lysergic lysergic
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 4, 2014

    Clean

    okay. people,, today is gonna be my first day without heroin for a long time. wanted to let you all know. . wish me luck. :) i can do this ****! pinky promise<3 25-11-2012 ~ ________________________________________________________________________________________________ well...
    Woesh Woesh
    18-21, F
    13 Responses Nov 24, 2012

    Even when I have long periods of not using I

    still keep coming back. Not proud just part of what makes me me.
    Direwolf65 Direwolf65
    51-55, M
    1 Response Apr 22, 2015

    tried to quit was successful

    for a week only because I went to a place I couldnt get it. came back to Cairo didn't last an hour b4 shooting up again...fucken disappointed if I don't quit this **** I'm afraid my husband will kill himself he's already tried...he's 15yrs using but I'm new only a year and I...
    trapdsoul trapdsoul
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 30, 2015

    It Happened So Fast. My Story Of Addiction.

    I had posted this on another site a while back. I just found this site today and I thought I'd share this. Hopefully anyone who thinks about heroin might think twice after reading this. While my story is a bit extreme-most people don't fall into addiction so quickly- it's...
    IrishMegan88 IrishMegan88
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jul 29, 2013

    I Should't Be Posting Here...

    ...As a 41 year old mother I should be advising my daughters to stay away from drugs but I can't. How can I, after all I'm addicted to heroin. It was never meant to be like this and up until three years ago my only vice was cigarettes! Then I bumped into an old friend whom I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Aug 13, 2013

    I need help. I have been using Heroin

    for two years now. It used to be fun but now I am sick everyday and I just want to die. I live in Anniston, Alabama. I cannot afford treatment. Is there anyone out there that can help me. Can anyone relate?
    tenths14 tenths14
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Aug 18, 2014

    Anyone that shoots heroin feel like they have

    broken nose cavities it happens about once a month and right now it's happening and I don't know how to deal it's hard to snort it and idk.. I'm starting to nod into happy place..
    bunnyglow bunnyglow
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2015

    Still stuck with my tires in the mud

    and i cant seem to go anywhere. I wrote my story last year and the title is 'I see a way out' , you will find it if you look on this website. Anyway I'm still here, in Nairobi, kenya, still hopelessly addicted to heroin. I had a relationship with a girl that was using, but after...
    stationz2 stationz2
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jun 6, 2014

    Life As I Know It

    Heroin is a hell of a drug. Here's my story. I wanted to get out of this world and getting high has been my way out of my depression and to feel normal. I first starting drinking then started smoking pot. Then I was introduced to morphine and I was hooked on downers. I loved it I...
    Kelsey5 Kelsey5
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Oct 3, 2012
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