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I Am a Heroin Addict

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 664 People

    Ive been using for 13 years.

    Nobody even knows.
    Invisiblejack Invisiblejack 26-30 5 Responses Jun 4, 2015

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    Life As I Know It

    Heroin is a hell of a drug. Here's my story. I wanted to get out of this world and getting high has been my way out of my depression and to feel normal. I first starting drinking then started smoking pot. Then I was introduced to morphine and I was hooked on downers. I loved it I...
    Kelsey5 Kelsey5 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 3, 2012

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    Heroin: My Love Affair

    Six months ago I couldn't even tell you what black tar was. My boyfriend at the time, a serious drug abuser, introduced me to this evil. But it didn't feel evil. As the vapors from the tin foil filled my lungs I instantly developed a new crush. A new relationship was born that...
    asugirl11 asugirl11 18-21, F 32 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    7 Years Clean

    Hi everyone, have been 7 years clean and have turned my life around from being in a hell hole to being a very happy person again with lots more confidence. I know what it's like to feel sick and have to search for your dealer or wait hours for him and then when you do get some it...
    lorraineperici lorraineperici 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 20, 2013

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    Clean

    okay. people,, today is gonna be my first day without heroin for a long time. wanted to let you all know. . wish me luck. :) i can do this ****! pinky promise<3 25-11-2012 ~ ________________________________________________________________________________________________ well...
    Woesh Woesh 18-21, F 15 Responses Nov 24, 2012

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    Just As Expected...

    I used heroin intravenously every day, multiple times a day. I was clean for 219 days and f*cked it all up...I have only used once though, but im so afraid I will make it into a habit again...it scares me how much I still loved it..its like I loved it even more after staying away...
    SarawAnn SarawAnn 18-21, F 9 Responses Nov 18, 2013

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    Scent of death is all around Broken body on

    the ground Twisted guts liquid sh*ts Puking vile throwing fits Mangled muscles primal pain Bones are bruised hijacked brain Aching arms veins are shot Cotton mouth running snot Vision blurred eyes are red Starving sickness must be fed Burning throat lungs are...
    musicismymedicine musicismymedicine 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    Heroin-the Devil I

    Heroin - I destroy homes, tear families apart, take your children, and that's just the start. I'm more costly than diamonds, more costly than gold, the sorrow I bring is a sight to behold, and if u need me, remember I'm easily found. I live all around you, in schools and in town...
    IShallDefeatTheDevil IShallDefeatTheDevil 22-25, F 9 Responses Aug 23, 2013

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    I Have No One To Blame But Myself.

    I haven't told alot of people my story. Most people know that I'm an addict but I'm too ashamed to tell them what really happened. Hopefully someone on here will learn something from this and not do what I did. I met this guy when I was 17. He was so exotic to me. Turns out he...
    emily29707 emily29707 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 25, 2013

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    I'll start out by telling everyone a little bit

    about myself. I am 25 years old, I come from a good family, my father is an engineer and mother a principle. I have never wanted for anything in my entire life. I started experimenting with drugs and alcohol around age 13. I remember the first time I smoked, I was at a golf...
    KK20 KK20 26-30, M 4 Responses Mar 5, 2014

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    Ive been an addict 12yrs kickicked it 3 times

    now I'm on fourth day of detox if anyone is going threw this I would like to chat , I'm craving badly anyone have any tips for dealing with cravings. Would luv to hear from u x
    xlynx77 xlynx77 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2015

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    I've been having some weird things happening to

    me when I try to go to bed, as soon as I hit the pillow and actually fall asleep I have these very vivid dreams, sometimes weird dreams, and sometimes nightmares. They wake me up out of a dead sleep! The weird thing is I've noticed that if I get up and bumped a little bit of H I...
    sfon4 sfon4 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 23, 2015

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    Anyone want to make friends?

    especially in the uk, but anywhere welcome.
    TheGreatWizard TheGreatWizard 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 31, 2015

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    Different Kind Of Pain...

    One time my son wrote to me about heroin withdrawal experience: sleepless nights, nausea/ vomiting, muscle spasms. Sometimes the fear of pain of withdrawal prevents heroin users to drop their deadly habit. But I want to tell you about different kind of pain- pain of a mother...
    Svet060313 Svet060313 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 13, 2013

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    Heroin: The Kiss Of God

    I call heroin the kiss of god because there is no feeling to describe it. Everyone says it's unlike anything they've ever experienced, true, but I'm not like everyone else. Heroin for me, felt like me being lifted up to heaven god gives me a kiss than I gently come back to...
    teex0ox teex0ox 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    It all started when i was 18

    and got my first bf n i was obsessed with him, he was tough n i was getting bullied, but not when he was around!! I looked up to him. Then he ended up cheating n going to prison in a short time, i was so upset. When he got out of prison the girl he cheated with killed herself...
    quietgirl14 quietgirl14 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    Things Are Getting Better

    167 days with out pills or herion. I really didnt think id ever be able to say that. Recovery is alot more than just not using its hard work. Making it through detox was hard no doubt. I felt like **** the first month. The cold sweats the leg aches the sleepness nights o the...
    girltoday girltoday 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    Anyone that wants to hear my story let me know

    as I have to send it to you privately as someone flagged it and it was removed...
    MikaPGHsLostCause MikaPGHsLostCause 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 20, 2015

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    I need help. I have been using Heroin

    for two years now. It used to be fun but now I am sick everyday and I just want to die. I live in Anniston, Alabama. I cannot afford treatment. Is there anyone out there that can help me. Can anyone relate?
    tenths14 tenths14 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Chasing the Dragon

    As all heroin addicts know, the next smoke or shoot is always the last one. The regret, shame, guilt, and all the other emotions that come with the failures of continuing to do heroin are something that i find difficult to deal with. Today is my day 6 clean, but as ...
    mgturbo1 mgturbo1 26-30, M 23 Responses Aug 14, 2009

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    I just went through what was probably the worst

    full-blown relapse of my life. Still can't believe how stupid I am. For almost 30 years I have wrestled with addiction and gone through long periods of recovery, only to stumble again. Rinse and repeat. Love and relationships are a massive relapse issue for me and have...
    EmperorJulian EmperorJulian 46-50, M 3 Responses Jan 19, 2015

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    And I have been, on and off

    for about three years or more. But that isn't what this post is primarily about. I'm posting here because I feel truly evil for my actions in attempts to acquire heroin... Generally I don't resort to screwing over other people for my fix. But my mom is very compassionate and...
    lysergic lysergic 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Yes heroin has consumed me,

    I don't remember letting that happen it just kinda of happened. All I did was answer the knock at the door. Heroin did the rest. And while I was distracted it made friends with my two daughters as well. We are all now addicted. Will we ever kick our addictions, who knows...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 21, 2014

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    Once again I successfully fooled myself into

    thinking I could get high once in a while. How could I seriously expect to only indulge in something so lovely and easy on occasion? DENIAL... I've been to rehabs, 12 step meetings, taken suboxone for "maintenance" repeatedly, been in psych wards... All this **** I've been...
    shibbq shibbq 26-30, M 7 Responses Oct 20, 2014

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    I am so sick today! I hate feeling this way!

    I wish I could snap my fingers and get over this but I know it's not that easy. Am I alone in this?
    tenths14 tenths14 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 29, 2014

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    I'm Ashamed To Say I Relapsed

    I relapsed recently. It wasn't the first time but it was the worst one. The other times were brief and I was able to pull myself together and get help. This time was really bad and I'm scared because I'm worried it could happen again. When I started using originally I...
    emily29707 emily29707 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 7, 2013

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    I Am A Herion Addict

    No, im not proud, but this is my life. I dont know how to get away from this addiction, how to stop! Im all to aware that im ruining my own young, beautiful 20 year old life, but my families as well. Where do you turn when you cant afford treatment? I need help.. ;(
    DaddysPrincess1210 DaddysPrincess1210 22-25, F 7 Responses Nov 7, 2013

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    It's 6am and I'm wigglin' like worm.

    .. My brain feels like it's about to rip from my skull... And it's only Day 2... FML I think I'll just go get a bag and be well again. Then I'll stick a gun to my head... And all the pain will end.
    SIRROM88 SIRROM88 22-25, M 4 Responses Jun 1, 2014

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    Everyday Struggle

    Hello all, this is my first post and as I type this I have a straightened paper clip scrapping the inside of my cleared out pen getting a few lines out of 3 different straws to hold myself over until my fiance gets home to figure out when we will get our next fix. I can't live...
    Recam24 Recam24 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 20, 2012

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    Even when I have long periods of not using I

    still keep coming back. Not proud just part of what makes me me.
    Direwolf65 Direwolf65 51-55, M 1 Response Apr 22, 2015

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    I am a heroin delaudid morphine oxy addict in

    Waco Texas anyone near me and want to chat message me
    ijustluvit ijustluvit 26-30, F Nov 10, 2015

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    "MY MOTHER INTRODUCED ME TO HEROIN,

    AND JESUS CHRIST INTRODUCED ME TO FREEDOM
    Heavenbound5511 Heavenbound5511 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 24, 2014

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    alexa1234 alexa1234 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 24, 2014

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    Anyone that shoots heroin feel like they have

    broken nose cavities it happens about once a month and right now it's happening and I don't know how to deal it's hard to snort it and idk.. I'm starting to nod into happy place..
    bunnyglow bunnyglow 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 16, 2015

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    junkiechic junkiechic 26-30, F Jul 20, 2014

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    Make It To The Moon

    I am not just an addict I'm a coward. I didn't come from an abusive or broken home. I was loved and sheltered and safe and most of all provided for. Everythinv was set up to be a cookie cutter existence. And it scared me. I wanted to experience life. To be the crazy feirce...
    skylitdetroit skylitdetroit 22-25, F 7 Responses Nov 2, 2013

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    Want To Know What It's Like To Do Heroin?

                                                  ...
    slowdowntony slowdowntony 41-45, M 18 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    My names is Mika and I'm 29yo.

    I have been shooting heroin since I was 14. I've done numerous different jail stints and literally sold my soul for heroin. I am coming up on 7months clean, but I still think about it. People ask if I could go back in time and change it all would I? And I say no I wouldn't...
    MikaPGHsLostCause MikaPGHsLostCause 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 19, 2015

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    Still stuck with my tires in the mud

    and i cant seem to go anywhere. I wrote my story last year and the title is 'I see a way out' , you will find it if you look on this website. Anyway I'm still here, in Nairobi, kenya, still hopelessly addicted to heroin. I had a relationship with a girl that was using, but after...
    stationz2 stationz2 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 6, 2014

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    As I said on a previous post I started getting

    high on heroin at age 14, I started drinking and smoking pot at age 12. Now I wanna say this prior to that I had everything handed to me. I grew up in a rich suburban neighborhood with the best of everything. I was a published poet in 7th and 8th grade and attended a private...
    MikaPGHsLostCause MikaPGHsLostCause 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 20, 2015

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    I wake up every day around 6 A.

    M. I'm so hot I can hardly stand it, my legs are restless, my body is tired...I am tired... Tired of this fight. I am constantly trying to find a way to get money for my next fix. I put myself in the most dangerous situations. Anyone in their right mind would not wake up every...
    tenths14 tenths14 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I Should't Be Posting Here...

    ...As a 41 year old mother I should be advising my daughters to stay away from drugs but I can't. How can I, after all I'm addicted to heroin. It was never meant to be like this and up until three years ago my only vice was cigarettes! Then I bumped into an old friend whom I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    Once Is Too Many But A Thousand Is Never Enough...

    I don't know what time it is when I wake, drenched in sweat, my skin crawling, alternating chills, gut wrenching nausea. I'm holding back bile rising in the back of my throat. My insides are twisting, churning, burning. My skin is ice cold and fiery hot at the same time. Every...
    LaPetiteSouris LaPetiteSouris 22-25, F 19 Responses Dec 3, 2011

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    tried to quit was successful

    for a week only because I went to a place I couldnt get it. came back to Cairo didn't last an hour b4 shooting up again...fucken disappointed if I don't quit this **** I'm afraid my husband will kill himself he's already tried...he's 15yrs using but I'm new only a year and I...
    trapdsoul trapdsoul 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 30, 2015

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    I've never used. But I have had friends

    and relatives, some of whom got clean long term, some of whom went into the grey abyss way too soon. Last week we buried a friend who had been using on and off for several years. Mitigating circumstances, but a user nonetheless. But I also have a friend who just celebrated 8...
    Windandwonder Windandwonder 51-55, M 1 Response Jun 3, 2014

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