I Am a Hypochondriac

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    Hostage

    I'm being held hostage.  It can kill me at any minute, mercilessly, without warning.  And I know it.  It doesn't make any demands or tell me what it wants.  I try to be good to it and that is when it turns on me.  I can't trust it.  It betrays me in my most vulnerable...
    Tsunami3 Tsunami3
    36-40, M
    8 Responses Aug 2, 2011

    I do realize my health in terms of physical,

    mental and emotional is not well, but I've come to terms with the fact that I'm a hypochondriac. I'd like to almost blame this one on my parents because they were (and still are) worriers. My mom is a constant worrier and no matter what I did as a child, she would find it to...
    internalpuppetshow internalpuppetshow
    18-21, M
    Sep 24, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 6, 2015

    Im new here so hello everyone.

    ....idk really how to do.this but im gonna say that my fears everyday is that I have cancer, brain tumor,brain aneurysm, or im dying and pancrentice or a bleeding stomach....I do have fibromyalgia( so the doctor says and it really does add up but at the same time what if theyre...
    wnwkaw2015 wnwkaw2015
    22-25, F
    Jul 19, 2015

    this has lead me into serious depression.

    24*7 I am thinking about my health, it started with peryonie's disease, this continued for about 2-3 months, then I felt that I was getting deaf slowly, went to a doctor, got audiometry done , everything was fine, then post this I had a feeling I will go blind soon , I visited...
    kary12900 kary12900
    22-25, M
    Jul 27, 2015

    Hi. I'm 20 years old

    and I am going through a really rough patch of hypochondriac. Ive been dealing with this since I was 8, but it had been better for about a year. Suddenly, its close to the worst its ever been. This usually happens when Im stressed or unhappy in other areas of my life, but I have...
    kaylee48sc kaylee48sc
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 22, 2015

    If you are reading this blog,

    you must have typed in "hypochondria" in the search bar. Then maybe, just maybe you are someone who is struggling with this condition as I am. For me, I was diagnosed in college with generalized anxiety disorder. I then only went to the psychologist because my friend said they...
    ash21love ash21love
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Dec 19, 2013

    anyone who needs help ,

    feel free to ping.... I've battled this thing for too long now, finally getting better at handling this.. Maybe I'll be able to help you too...
    kary12900 kary12900
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 7, 2015

    I Can't Enjoy My Life

    I'm 37 years old. My first "illness" occured when I was 19 and pregnant with my first child.  My left arm kept falling asleep. I looked up what that could be a symptom for and was convinced it was MS.  The doctor told me the baby was probably laying on a nerve. ...
    courtelisa courtelisa
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Jun 12, 2010

    I have the exact same thing :( I am an

    overweight 19 year old female, not healthy and not fit whatsoever, I have no motivation it's just horrible, I am in constant fear of having a heart attack, every second of every day I am consumed with the "fact" that I am dying, everything just feels in my head unrealistic and...
    Hypoanx Hypoanx
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 2, 2014

    Hi everyone, I've been dealing with medical

    anxiety for the past several years and it's really hard to stop it. I am scared of medication and want to beat hypochondria naturally. I do okay when I'm distracted but when I'm feeling any symptom at all or examining myself is when it really gets me worried. I am good about...
    Designer4Ever Designer4Ever
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 24, 2015
    KidAnxiety KidAnxiety
    18-21, M
    Jun 18, 2015

    I started at the age of 10

    when I was at the road trip with my classmates and one of them vomited in the bus. Since than I am an emetophobiac. I couldn't sleep and I needed to sleep with my mother because I had nausea everynight. It was pretty bad. I couldn't go to the road trips anymore. I was too scared...
    mirticak mirticak
    16-17
    Jul 14, 2015

    i am scared to take any medication

    because i am afraid that i will have an allergic reaction to them...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 28, 2015

    started antidepressants about 3 weeks ago

    for panic attacks. I've had very few panic attacks since then but i still have the hypochondriac thoughts. every day i fear dying. i fear suffering a painful and unexpected death. i cant live life like this. i really want to change this mentality because its one of the things...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 19, 2015

    I'm finally accepting this type of anxiety.

    I have social and general anxiety too. Okay, story time... So I am absolutely indecisive about my trust with doctors. Ever since I had high blood pressure issues while being pregnant (nine years ago), I have had trust issues. After about a few months after the delivery, I had a...
    piscesdame piscesdame
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 20, 2015

    this whole thing started about 8 months ago

    and since it has been an ongoing battle. i freak out abouts stds, cancer, infections. i've had a small ache in the side of my stomach the past week and i convince myself it's something horrible. everyone i tell says it's most likely a pulled muscle, but it just doesn't sink in...
    ml328 ml328
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 25, 2014

    I have been an hypochondriac

    for most of my life. when I was 7 my sister was born prematurely which was the probable start to my condition. the first time was when I hugged an houseworker whom we later found out had HIV. even though it is actually quite hard to transmit HIV I was certain that I had it. the...
    Sellsteyn Sellsteyn
    22-25, M
    Aug 9, 2015

    every time I have a bottle of water left in my

    room that's been there for a few days I get scared to drink it or pour it in on ice to drink it; I'm always scared that the chemicals from the bottle has tainted the water and I'll get really sick lol
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 25

    Here It All Begins Again.....

    About two years ago I was working as a dental assistant. It was my last week so I decided to get a final cleaning and oral cancer screening. As the hygienist did the exam she noticed something and told me to wait and she would get the Dr. The Dr came back in and took a look and...
    minme21 minme21
    22-25
    1 Response Apr 7, 2009

    I am very scared about my health.

    , i feel like every little pain is something big to the point were i will die. Today i went to the gym i only started about 2-3 weeks ago and i dont go everyday. Im pretty sure i worked to hard and that is why i feel the way i do. So i walked home and since ive been home ive had...
    Ronnieronz Ronnieronz
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 11

    I've been dealing with hypochondria

    for over an year and it's taking over my life. I can't focus, I can't do anything right. I pushed everyone away and I cry a lot, I'm feeling hopeless. At first I was worried about breast cancer, then bone cancer and stomach cancer. Right now I'm worried about skin cancer, I have...
    Hachikura Hachikura
    13-15, F
    1 Response Dec 25, 2014

    I Suffer From Really Bad Health Anxiety

    I get really bad anxiety almost everyday. I'm always worried about dying. If I have an ache or pain I always think I have cancer. The more I think about it the worse I feel. I also have swallowing anxiety. It happens every time I eat. Sometimes I have to stop eating because it...
    FLGrl FLGrl
    51-55, F
    9 Responses Jun 9, 2013

    17 Years....

    It all started with a book on AIDS (and a relative’s death from the disease) when I was eleven years old. Since that time, I have had the following diseases…. Kaposi’s sarcoma Oral candidiasis Oral hairy leukoplakia Pneumocystis pneumonia Cryptoccocal meningitis...
    worriedunwell worriedunwell
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

    I havent wrote on this

    for a while and the previous time i did i was talking about being a hypochondriac. Well again im back talking about it. I have been feeling alot better about myself and about my health however right now im most stressed about getting or having a blood clot. Recently in i get...
    Ronnieronz Ronnieronz
    18-21, F
    Apr 8

    I've suffered from anxiety disorders my whole

    life practically. This year has been horrible. Panic attacks daily. Constantly worrying myself sick about every little bodily symptom... Small bumps/cysts I find, muscle twitches, spasms, pains, dizziness- you name it. Have had my heart checked, fine. Have had blood counts, fine...
    faithhopelove13 faithhopelove13
    22-25
    3 Responses Jan 22, 2014
    LostInADream96 LostInADream96
    18-21, F
    Oct 27, 2015

    So Glad To Have Found This Site

    It's unbelievable how much it helps to read other people's stories.  I'm 48 years old.  My 26 year old son has always called me a hypochondriac but I never admitted it to myself until tonight.  I think it started when I was about 14 and smoked pot.  Immediately, my heart...
    cntrydaze cntrydaze
    46-50
    7 Responses Oct 4, 2011
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 26, 2015

    I am a hypochondriac

    and I know it. Its been like this for maybe 10 years, I am now 23. I have your typical throat closing up, having a heart attack feeling. But the scariest for me is the fear of my throat closing shut. The fear of my throat closing shut came about when I had an allergic reaction a...
    XanxiousX XanxiousX
    26-30, F
    Jan 8, 2014

    Every little thing that happens to my body.

    Every little tingle or ache or pain that I feel, I'll freak out. I start googling symptoms, and convince myself that I'm dying. The worst part is that I'll never know if I'm dying or not because I'm HORRIFIED of going to the doctor and finding out the answer. I live in fear of...
    cocopuffnation cocopuffnation
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 28, 2014

    *hope this helps* So.

    .. I "WAS" a hypochondriac person but somewhat still suffering the illness. Crying every night infront of my mom, worrying about every single symptoms I have.. and its hard that people around me dont know what I feel because they cant see it.. they just dont know it was killing...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 14, 2015

    When I was 12, I experienced my first heart

    palpitation. Ever since then, every little thing I feel in my chest scares the hell out of me. Sometimes it makes it hard to sleep. Sometimes the anxiety is so bad I feel like I have to go to the hospital. For every check up I get, I am always told that my numbers are fantastic...
    Nostalgicwin Nostalgicwin
    22-25
    Sep 20, 2015

    I've just recently come to figure out

    that I am a hypochondriac. It's actually been quite a relief. There's a part of my brain that can now be reasonable and think, no you don't have this diagnosis. You have a mental illness because you've chosen to ignore anxiety and push yourself harder and harder. You need to...
    anonygurl anonygurl
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 14, 2014

    Thank goodness for this site!

    I kind of have always known I was a hypochondriac, but as of recently, this has gotten so out of hand that for the first time in my 33 years of existence, I had to make an appt with a psychiatrist. I've always battled with this since childhood. My first memory of having some...
    pgge pgge
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 4

    Hi I’m new here, shy,

    and skeptical of most internet things. I’m also highly caffeinated at the moment so here goes nothing. my mom has been very ill most of my life (with several types of issues) and everyone in my family has lived to a terribly old age and gone completely crazy. I’m terrified...
    csquint csquint
    22-25, F
    Aug 5, 2015

    I swear Google is the devil.

    It preys on hypochondriacs. It may not be the literal devil, but if you are a hypochondriac reading stuff on the Internet is scary. A few months ago, I had really bad cramps and i believed whole heartedly that I had ovarian cancer. I was scared out of my mind. I literally stayed...
    reneeo11314 reneeo11314
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 22, 2015

    I'm scared I have cancer.

    . I was crying earlier :l I mean what if the doctors just threw away my blood when I got my blood test? And said its okay? What if? :(
    Slubberdegullion Slubberdegullion
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jul 28, 2015

    Whats Wrong With Me!

    So this past year Ive been constantly torturing myself thinking that every feeling is a problem, ive believed that I might be pregnant numerous times, and even though I get a negative test, its one of those rare instances and I must Be! Or if i have pain in pelvic area, i have...
    thisaintreal22 thisaintreal22
    22-25
    4 Responses Mar 27, 2008

    Tired of Being Scared

    I am tired of being a hypochondriac.  I have always had mild health anxiety, but since last year it has taken control of my life.  I had a swollen lymph node...  the doctor  ordered a cat scan and referred me to an ent....  Everything was perfectly fine...
    alwaysscared alwaysscared
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2008

    It's great when you convince yourself you have

    AIDS but are too scared to get tested bc no one wants to hear they have AIDS
    Idontwanttosendyouapic Idontwanttosendyouapic
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 10, 2015

    Do not Google symptoms!

    Worst idea ever when you're a hypochondriac
    Happybri123 Happybri123
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 21, 2015

    so. I've completely had enough of this

    insufferable problem and Im going to start a youtube channel addressing the issues that come with hypochondria. to share my own experiences which will hopefully give other people comfort of not being the only ones. I'll keep everyone updated and post the link to this group when...
    angiebirdflyaway angiebirdflyaway
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 21, 2015

    I'm basically just dreading the day my heart

    stops every day of my life. I'm only 19, but since I was little - way too little to be worrying about death - I have had panic attacks where I just convince myself that the end is near. I know everyone dies but the idea that it could happen at any time to any of us just makes me...
    ac425 ac425
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 27, 2014
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 11, 2014

    This is how my mind works: I notice a new mole,

    ITS SKIN CANCER! I notice red dots on my body, ITS LEUKEMIA! My breasts hurt, ITS BREAST CANCER! I feel super dizzy, ITS A BRAIN TUMOR! I feel tired and don't have appetite, ITS ALL CANCERS MIXED TOGETHER SPREADING ALL OVER MY BODY!
    Slubberdegullion Slubberdegullion
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jan 6, 2015

    Sometimes I think it would be easier

    if I got a med degree, just so I wouldn't be so in the dark. I hate not knowing the difference between nothing and life-threatening, and having to go through an expensive circus every time I want to try and find out about something, for myself or my kids. Once when we were on...
    AshCents AshCents
    26-30
    Mar 18

    Lupus runs in my family

    and I'm constantly terrified I'm going to get it or cancer. Every bump or bruise I get makes me want to die.
    Sunshinemms Sunshinemms
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 19, 2015

    I havent wrote on this

    for a while and the previous time i did i was talking about being a hypochondriac. Well again im back talking about it. I have been feeling alot better about myself and about my health however right now im most stressed about getting or having a blood clot. Recently in i get...
    Ronnieronz Ronnieronz
    18-21, F
    Apr 8

    A couple weeks ago I went to the doctors

    because I was having problems with my stomach.. My regular doctor was out of town so I had to see some random doctor and he had absolutely zero bed side manner .. I left feeling worse than when I went in.. He was kind of panicky when he talked to me..he asked me if I had any...
    lauraM519 lauraM519
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 10, 2015

    I am just starting to suffer from this awful

    disease.. every little symptom i feel, i think the worst..that i may have a grave disease. anyone else feel the same? need some support..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 5, 2015

    hi everyone this is my first time ever speaking

    in a group of any kind. I'm 32 years old and have severe hypochondria. this has completely taken over my life. just recently I googled some stories of other people who struggle with this and just reading the things that they worry about on a daily basis cured my anxiety for at...
    ssivula ssivula
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 8, 2015

    Cancer Consumed!

    I am a 21 yr old girl and have been suffering hypochondria for at least 6 months or more. My story is as follows:-   My mother and I moved interstate nearly 2 years ago to look after my aunty who fell ill from type 2 diabetes among other things. Moving to a new state was a...
    jenandcurt jenandcurt
    18-21
    5 Responses Jun 16, 2008

    I'm not as bad as I used to be

    when I was younger. I was at the doctor constantly. Always thought I was dying. Always thought the worse when I had a regular headache or any other kind of pain in my body. I KNEW that it was just me being "neurotic," but I couldn't help it. I had obsessive thoughts about...
    RubyLane RubyLane
    46-50, F
    Feb 4, 2014

    when you go to the doctors

    and dont believe them when they tell you youre fine
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 15, 2014

    suziefreshone suziefreshone
    22-25, F
    Jul 23, 2015
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