I Am A Little Messed Up Today

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    I haven't been feeling myself lately it's been

    like this for months but recently more intense. I just want to stay in bed all day, but I don't feel sorry for myself. I want to be left alone but I feel lonely. think I really need help and I don’t think my mom understands enough because she’s not seeing what I’m thinking...
    bucket1412 bucket1412
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 8, 2014

    Earlier I was with the girl I like (love?

    ) and she said she might not come back to school next year. I didn't mean to but my head shot around to look at her. I make it so obvious that I feel so strongly about her.
    em11111 em11111
    22-25, F
    Apr 29, 2015

    Just Not Feeling Well Emotionally

    Maybe it's a bit of depression or perhaps my therapists stirred some things up this week, but I just don't feel well...messed up.The frustrating thing is that I usually don't know the source of it, but do I really wanna know?I seem to hold everything at a subconscious level, so I...
    SeaBunnie SeaBunnie
    46-50, F
    1 Response Aug 24, 2012

    I'm All Over The Place.

    ..... I'm all over the place right now, One minute im fine, then the next minute i'm in tears, i dont know what the hell it is, all I know is that I am thinking NOT good things today, and its just not good at all =/
    HisLittleAriel HisLittleAriel
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 4, 2015

    Well this past few days actually.

    long story short before this relationship I was in a very emotionally charged one for almost 5 years. it had lots of ups and downs but we were madly in love while it lasted. the spark dint leave, she just left is all. but yeah cause of that i have been very reserved and leery of...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 13, 2015

    revenge of cymbalta.

    .. screw you brain warping chemical. what a day...i feel like im drunk without the upside..... i hate this...im exhausted
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Apr 9, 2016

    Saw my counselor today

    and we talked stuff out and were a lot better. Not exactly what we used to be. I still have a lot of pain connected to our past. I don't think that can get resolved though. I plan on seeing her next week again. My schedule has always been seeing her once a week that is when I'm...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 18, 2014

    I think I mess a lot of things up

    because I take things too far. I try to fix things but I think I ultimately make them worse. Sometimes I just get this anxious feeling even though there is nothing I can do to fix it.
    deleted deleted
    Aug 31, 2015

    I can't this anymore.

    I only feel emptiness.
    WinterSkyout WinterSkyout
    18-21, F
    Nov 27, 2014

    When I'm upset or bored i plot murders in my

    head and even ask friends to play along and they do because they know it helps
    sadnesskillsme sadnesskillsme
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 13, 2015

    Ive been working hard to prep

    for our first TG together at our place. We have been together 8 years. Married 3 years this past October. Our parents are coming over. We have traditionally gone to his parents house or his aunts house or his brothers wife's parents house for TG and ALL Holidays. However, this...
    DesireHappy DesireHappy
    46-50, F
    Nov 27, 2014

    Okay, so I was on Wellbutrin

    and having been slowly getting off of it, I am feeling a little wiggy, but it is getting better. I went running at lunch and burnt off some of the craziness I am feeling. The Wellbutrin cause me to have very irrational thoughts and behaviors, and I had to get off it. I have cut...
    Hockeyplayer56 Hockeyplayer56
    46-50, M
    Apr 27, 2015

    I just feel like throwing my phone against the

    wall..I'm useless, and I upset her again today..I feel like I'm no good for her at all, I think she deserves someone better, someone who can be there for her physically, someone who she can lean on to when she's tired, someone who can stroke her hair so she can fall asleep...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 22, 2016

    The Watchers

    The Watchers are after me. They crave my fear. Sometimes I hear them coming in the door and making noises. You’ll even catch one scurry through the hall occasionally. I pretend to ignore it but I can’t help but fear that they will soon get me. The smell of blood scares...
    elena918 elena918
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 14, 2011

    Today is day one of being away from my family

    for almost a year. They are my rock and my anchor. I feel empty inside, and when I'm away from them I become very self destructive. I try to replace the pain I'm feeling with a bunch of old bad habits. My heart is broken.
    TheWolfWalker TheWolfWalker
    31-35, M
    Aug 8, 2014

    So I took too much Allegra

    and so far I've caused 13 vehicle fires. IT WASNT MY FAULT!!! THE PIXIES GAVE ME THEIR GOLD TO DO IT!!!!
    HerpMcDerppp HerpMcDerppp
    18-21, M
    May 8, 2014

    Life Is Like A Beautiful Melody, Only The Are Lyrics Messed Up.

    I've been told instead of telling people I know how I feel, I should write out what's going through in my head anonymously, so I guess that's why I'm here right now... I wonder, is there anyone else out there that is just completely messed up in the head? Yet you pretend to be...
    MinxieWinx MinxieWinx
    18-21, F
    Oct 28, 2012
    idkwbu idkwbu
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2014

    Wow Factor Ltd.

    As I Shiver ... I am in awe, you never shook, or even reached out to take my hand. "Your Heart n Things will suffice" , you proclaimed ... "It's been fun". * press play, again* *I shrugged to you* "Watchya ... Yella "? "Well... Let's see" , "Shall we"? Who settles who's...
    DreamChariot DreamChariot
    41-45, M
    1 Response Apr 21, 2012
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8
    16-17, M
    11 Responses Feb 10, 2015

    I think I messed up my date,

    or atleast I'm messed up that goes for granted. Everything went quite well, I was little nervous because I realized right away that I like this guy. His eyes just captivated me and I was afraid to look at him, but still there were times when we just were quiet and looked at...
    littleredpanda littleredpanda
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 25, 2014

    My head hurts , at my new job everything is

    different ... My husband loves someone else ... Had and argument with my mom ..I had to move in with after my divorce I had no where else to go let's just say she is so selfish I think I rather just live in the streets . I'm tired today lonely upset . Will things ever get better...
    amandalovee24 amandalovee24
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 27, 2014
    basketspace basketspace
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 21, 2015

    I'm sad. It's been a weird day.

    I keep thinking about my former lover. It's been over a year now. It's as if it was yesterday. I should move on. He has with a great good clean local lady. He's left me far away, on my own, and wondering if it was real. It was great to be in love. The romance was everything I...
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2016
    diannalynn22 diannalynn22
    26-30, F
    3 Responses May 6, 2014

    Sorry i am not supposed to be here.

    Please let me write this story.. I had counselling today.she is an amazing counsellar and i trust her since i've started taking her counselling,November in 2014. Today..she explained about prosess why i often get nightmares and flashbacks,what's trigger.. Well i joined on...
    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 3, 2016

    I've come to realise

    that I am more messed up inside than I thought I am. I was raised in a strict family, fed with negativity from my mom with bipolar disorder and depression. I was never allowed to hang out with any friends at all. I was unable to talk to my parents about my daily life because...
    april0132 april0132
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 21, 2014

    **** heroin. **** the people

    that supply it. **** the pain and devastation it brings when people we love die. **** this ******* drug. wishing I could wrap my arms around a friend in pain right now.
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    Apr 20, 2016

    I'm trying to keep it together today.

    I remember it like it was yesterday...the physical pain...the emotional pain and the pain in my heart. The confusion of what happened... it was suppose to be the happiest time of my life...but when I saw the look on my husband's face, I knew something horrible had happened. I...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Mar 12, 2015

    it's one of the days

    where I just replay endless conversations to figure out how I missed the clues I'm convinced were there that things would end this way. The shift in communication, the decrease in intimacy, the increase in distance, all of it. It's like my brain just wants to churn over...
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    Apr 16, 2016

    More like majorly messed up.

    I am so close to suicide. I spent two periods in guidance today crying my eyes out and when I got home I harmed myself more, punched my door and mirror so hard it broke, threw something and swallowed 25 pills to make sure I went to sleep. Long story short I fell asleep at 5pm...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 2, 2014

    I played guitar hero with my feet

    for about 3 hours. now everything is moving downwards like the colourful circles.
    Nojji Nojji
    16-17, F
    May 8, 2014
    Sinfool13 Sinfool13
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Sep 13, 2014

    I really feel off kilter lately.

    The past few months, I've been on a roller coaster mentally, physically and spiritually. A few years ago, I fell and damaged my back, leading to surgery...which led to losing my job...which led to deeper depression, learning to walk again, losing some of my hair, and other...
    sameoldsong sameoldsong
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 8, 2014

    Does anyone know of those dumb intelligence

    tests? They're like: which type of intelligence are you? My school has done these stupid tests at least twenty times already. I'm sick of it. Personally, I never liked those tests. I feel like I'm being judged every time I take one. I know it's not the intention of the teachers...
    aLovingRobot aLovingRobot
    Sep 22, 2015

    I felt a little more alone

    than usual today
    Sinfool13 Sinfool13
    18-21, M
    Oct 3, 2014

    I'm gonna drink a bunch of vodka then barf in

    my own shoes this is called being a young adult and coping with my life
    basketspace basketspace
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 3, 2015

    Oh yes. Nothing major.

    Happens every now and then. When I'm alone for too long, and crave for human interaction, and start thinking too much. I remember the bad days, and how far I've come from them. And then I remember that the things are not much different. Life still sucks. Though I try to be...
    LoganManish LoganManish
    26-30, M
    Jan 14, 2015
    DesireHappy DesireHappy
    46-50, F
    Nov 27, 2014
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 30, 2014

    Sleep deprived after dinner/some drinking

    for a friend who is moving to LA. Absolutely hate these sleep deprived days. I can't focus properly, can't have sustained coherent thoughts, and feel my attention is hopping all over the place. This happens every single time I lose sleep.
    bender898989 bender898989
    26-30, M
    Jan 23, 2016

    ... So I will not be on today.

    .. so groggy from Nyquil last night... have a good day.
    AlwaysPersevere71 AlwaysPersevere71
    41-45, M
    Jul 17, 2014
    PinksTheNewBlack PinksTheNewBlack
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 29, 2015


    I found a short poem: UNDERFACE Underneath my outside face There's a face that none can see. A little less smiley, A little less sure, But a whole lot more like me. This pretty much explains it all. I go to school every single day, and put on this massive smile. Everyone...
    MinxieWinx MinxieWinx
    18-21, F
    Oct 29, 2012
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