I Am a Manic Depressive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 219 People

    I get happy for one minute

    or half an hour then the depression comes back . I do have my reasons .
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 5, 2015

    i feel the substanceflowing slowly like acid

    through my veinsmy bones turn numbthey don’t do what i have to do .soi swim from one thought to anotherits exhausting, if i could escape from gravity,from this cage of bones im infrom this monsters that i get along witha little script of mineits march i think. 
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis
    22-25, F
    May 20, 2014

    My Boyfriend Is Manic Depressive, How Can I Help Him?

    My boyfriend is manic depressive I don't know how I can help him. But I love him so. We are now a happy couple for more then 7 years. The first time when I saw him this was when we knew each other 1 year. While he was in the military, he just broke with the military and went...
    LittleAnt LittleAnt
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jan 31, 2009

    Out Of Depression And Understanding Mania

    I have a blog on mania and depression with personal experience and daily handling of different states. visit: http://foxonline.blogs.experienceproject.com/
    foxonline foxonline
    26-30, F
    Oct 17, 2010

    love aint the must powerful people like me.

    . live between the flames and the heavens we can be in glory but we are still burning .. we live wonders and it still hurts you may fully love me but as with the weather love cant stop this. love cant stop the snow love cant stop the acid love won’t suck the demon off...
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis
    22-25, F
    Aug 15, 2014

    Idk this for sure, ive been researchin tryna

    figure out what kind of depression i have but idk, ive got a appointment next week with my meds dr so imma ask to be tested again, cuz i think i was misdiagnosed. My symptoms seem more like manic depression then anything else. N i jus wanna know so i wont think about it anymore
    theresajanelle theresajanelle
    16-17, F
    Nov 2, 2015

    I'm at a really good place in my life.

    It's been a struggle and if anyone out there is suffering from bi polar disorder you can always talk to me and I can help.
    Flowerpower5678 Flowerpower5678
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 5, 2015

    Never The Same

    First I'm mad sad pist irrated upset hatefull for weeks. Then I'm happy laughing ok most of my life I hate ppl and wana die I love all people very Into animals and helping all. Respect all was raised with nothing so want something but my moods hurt me anyone like me out there
    Hatefull1 Hatefull1
    Feb 4, 2012

    When im depressed its different every tyime.

    The depression has a different feel. Like theres the one where i feel nothing n its hard to concentrate like im in another place in my head, theres the one where im so angry n snappy, theres the one where i jus wanna die n hurt myself, theres the one where im so sad n hopeless n...
    theresajanelle theresajanelle
    16-17, F
    Nov 2, 2015

    I battle with manic depression,

    I have done for about 13 years, I have antidepressants, none seem to work, I've tried suicide, so I have just resigned to let some one kill me! I live in hope anyway, but basically I don't try to do anything anymore! The doctors have given up on me and so have I!
    Seany83 Seany83
    1 Response Jan 21, 2014

    Bipolar I

     ive had the diagnosis for almost two yrs ... bipolar d/o is a hard  mental illness to diagnose ...  because most people dont go to the dr when they are manic because it feels so good ...  i never knew how much went into bipolar d/o until i started educating...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Aug 24, 2007

    This Is Very Difficult to T...

    This is very difficult to talk about.  But I get where I can hardly move in life and the end of life seems the best option.  It does not matter what good thing maybe happening I am still depressed.  People saying just think happy thoughts and do positive things...
    allofus allofus
    46-50, M
    4 Responses May 13, 2009

    I am a combination of manic

    midnightstarr midnightstarr
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 22, 2014

    i am depressed again;

    as usual. i think what's worst than being all year round depressed is being depressed in one moment and then be manic and then be depressed again. coz you get to feel how it is to be happy, to have meaning in your life, to feel "normal" like the other people out there and then...
    bijouxnoir bijouxnoir
    22-25, F
    Nov 24, 2014

    I have been for as long

    as I can recall, only I was not diagnosed until my life took one final (we thought it to be final) nosedive crisis. It was then that I was diagnosed and although I had never heard of the term outside of a Jimi Hendrix tune....it fit. I am a survivor of 2 suicide attempts (and...
    bbush69 bbush69
    46-50, M
    1 Response Sep 10, 2014

    ...every Aspect of My Life.

    Hi, I've been a manic depressive my entire life, even back to my earliest childhood. It becomes so embedded that it affects every aspect of my life, especially relationships. My marriage is crumbling to pieces because I terribly afraid of intimacy and even the mere thought of...
    Malfunc Malfunc
    Jun 6, 2008

    So I go in to get my monthly dosage.

    .. the whole gambit of the cocktail prescribed by this doctor and that. (all with a different set of initials following their name) The pharmacist was rather rude, and it took about 35 seconds of this rudeness to **** me off to the point where I started to get that.... hmmm...
    JLBetts JLBetts
    46-50, M
    Nov 1, 2014

    I am as blank as a new tab window on a PC.

    Just a pale white blank page of nothing. That's how I feel right now at 9:58 pm. Do I dare think it should be any different. Have you ever felt like a blob of nothing. No shape or form just nothing. It's the holidays and tomorrow I am getting Christmas cruise tickets for us and...
    bamagrl54 bamagrl54
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 4, 2013

    Mental Facility # 1

    I just got diagnosed with Bi-Polar a few months back and I find it very surreal to be in a mental hospital.  My urge to commit suicide was strangling me every day for about 9 months after a terrible incident with an ex girlfriend (its in my profile).  My sleep patterns...
    TumYeto TumYeto
    18-21, M
    May 4, 2008

    My Best Friend

    My best friend died four months ago. Since then I have become worse. Thoughts go racing through my head; jumping from one subject to another I'm a nonstop party girl, constantly running around. I hate being home. Because I'm not happy there. I do too many wild or risky...
    km101306 km101306
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2008


    When I was younger, I was told I was manic depressive by one of my Dr's,  about 3 years ago, was said to be Bipolar.  I am having a hell of a time with this!  I take a medication which i can not stand to do and even still, sometimes maybe a week at a time, I am a...
    usmile4me usmile4me
    31-35, F
    Jan 29, 2008

    I spin out of control ,

    even with medical treatment and medicine for over 20 yrs . I need help
    Bethlynn Bethlynn
    46-50, F
    2 Responses May 9, 2014


    When I was younger, I was told I was manic depressive by one of my Dr's,  about 3 years ago, was said to be Bipolar.  I am having a hell of a time with this!  I take a medication which i can not stand to do and even still, sometimes maybe a week at a time, I am a...
    usmile4me usmile4me
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 29, 2008

    They wont diagnose me

    because Im too young... I am 100% certain i have some form of bipolar
    deleted deleted
    Jan 21

    I Am On/ Off Depressed

    since i can remember i've always been very down on myself. I've always been very socially awkward but still had a lot of friends, yet i find flaws in my person all the time. I've recently had a three week spell off happiness and it was amazing but now, I am back to normality...
    gmac19 gmac19
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jul 26, 2011

    It really gets old honestly.

    Medicine, therapy, people asking why i'm so emotional all of the time. It just really gets old. Anyone else know this feeling? How it really feels to even have this?
    2grunge4u 2grunge4u
    13-15, F
    1 Response Nov 1, 2014

    I take mood stabilizers

    for my manic depression. I was diagnosed with clinical depression at age 15. I would say my depression has improved in the last 6 years, like I'm not always isolating myself and more willing to interact.... but when something bad happens I end up going into a whirlwind of...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411
    18-21, F
    Nov 26, 2015

    Its Daily and Its Been 12 Years

    I'm 36 I work out every day (but with rock and roll on my shuffle otherwise i wouldnt even bother going to the gym), when i'm there i'm angry, i don't look at anybody nor speak with anybody, when i leave to work i'm angry and depresesed its really worrisome because...
    treblue treblue
    1 Response Jun 4, 2009

    Ehh, Well.

    This is what doctors and psychologists have told me I have, anyway. For awhile, they thought I had bipolar disorder because my mom had it, and I guess it's a hereditary gene. Woo hoo, lucky me. I have my highs and my downs, like everyone, though my highs tend to be a lot higher...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 30, 2011

    I lost my virginity to a monster I thought

    loved me. How can I be so blind? Why did I fall for that? I was so broken. I went mad. I lost my monster.
    Flowerpower5678 Flowerpower5678
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 18, 2015

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