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I Am a Manic Depressive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 172 People

    Mental Facility # 1

    I just got diagnosed with Bi-Polar a few months back and I find it very surreal to be in a mental hospital.  My urge to commit suicide was strangling me every day for about 9 months after a terrible incident with an ex girlfriend (its in my profile).  My sleep patterns...
    TumYeto TumYeto 18-21, M May 4, 2008

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    Bipolar.............

    When I was younger, I was told I was manic depressive by one of my Dr's,  about 3 years ago, was said to be Bipolar.  I am having a hell of a time with this!  I take a medication which i can not stand to do and even still, sometimes maybe a week at a time, I am a...
    usmile4me usmile4me 31-35, F Jan 29, 2008

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    I spin out of control ,

    even with medical treatment and medicine for over 20 yrs . I need help
    Bethlynn Bethlynn 46-50, F 2 Responses May 9, 2014

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    I Am On/ Off Depressed

    since i can remember i've always been very down on myself. I've always been very socially awkward but still had a lot of friends, yet i find flaws in my person all the time. I've recently had a three week spell off happiness and it was amazing but now, I am back to normality...
    gmac19 gmac19 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 26, 2011

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    Never The Same

    First I'm mad sad pist irrated upset hatefull for weeks. Then I'm happy laughing ok most of my life I hate ppl and wana die I love all people very Into animals and helping all. Respect all was raised with nothing so want something but my moods hurt me anyone like me out there
    Hatefull1 Hatefull1 26-30 Feb 4, 2012

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    I battle with manic depression,

    I have done for about 13 years, I have antidepressants, none seem to work, I've tried suicide, so I have just resigned to let some one kill me! I live in hope anyway, but basically I don't try to do anything anymore! The doctors have given up on me and so have I!
    Seany83 Seany83 31-35 1 Response Jan 21, 2014

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    Out Of Depression And Understanding Mania

    I have a blog on mania and depression with personal experience and daily handling of different states. visit: http://foxonline.blogs.experienceproject.com/
    foxonline foxonline 26-30, F Oct 17, 2010

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    Ehh, Well.

    This is what doctors and psychologists have told me I have, anyway. For awhile, they thought I had bipolar disorder because my mom had it, and I guess it's a hereditary gene. Woo hoo, lucky me. I have my highs and my downs, like everyone, though my highs tend to be a lot higher...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 30, 2011

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    My Best Friend

    My best friend died four months ago. Since then I have become worse. Thoughts go racing through my head; jumping from one subject to another I'm a nonstop party girl, constantly running around. I hate being home. Because I'm not happy there. I do too many wild or risky...
    km101306 km101306 16-18, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2008

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    i feel the substanceflowing slowly like acid

    through my veinsmy bones turn numbthey don’t do what i have to do .soi swim from one thought to anotherits exhausting, if i could escape from gravity,from this cage of bones im infrom this monsters that i get along witha little script of mineits march i think. 
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 18-21, F May 20, 2014

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    This Is Very Difficult to T...

    This is very difficult to talk about.  But I get where I can hardly move in life and the end of life seems the best option.  It does not matter what good thing maybe happening I am still depressed.  People saying just think happy thoughts and do positive things...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M 4 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I have been for as long

    as I can recall, only I was not diagnosed until my life took one final (we thought it to be final) nosedive crisis. It was then that I was diagnosed and although I had never heard of the term outside of a Jimi Hendrix tune....it fit. I am a survivor of 2 suicide attempts (and...
    bbush69 bbush69 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 10, 2014

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    So I go in to get my monthly dosage.

    .. the whole gambit of the cocktail prescribed by this doctor and that. (all with a different set of initials following their name) The pharmacist was rather rude, and it took about 35 seconds of this rudeness to **** me off to the point where I started to get that.... hmmm...
    JLBetts JLBetts 46-50, M Nov 1, 2014

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    My Boyfriend Is Manic Depressive, How Can I Help Him?

    My boyfriend is manic depressive I don't know how I can help him. But I love him so. We are now a happy couple for more then 7 years. The first time when I saw him this was when we knew each other 1 year. While he was in the military, he just broke with the military and went...
    LittleAnt LittleAnt 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 31, 2009

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    i am depressed again;

    as usual. i think what's worst than being all year round depressed is being depressed in one moment and then be manic and then be depressed again. coz you get to feel how it is to be happy, to have meaning in your life, to feel "normal" like the other people out there and then...
    bijouxnoir bijouxnoir 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    I am a combination of manic

    depressive/anxiety/adhd
    midnightstarr midnightstarr 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    Bipolar I

     ive had the diagnosis for almost two yrs ... bipolar d/o is a hard  mental illness to diagnose ...  because most people dont go to the dr when they are manic because it feels so good ...  i never knew how much went into bipolar d/o until i started educating...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 24, 2007

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    It really gets old honestly.

    Medicine, therapy, people asking why i'm so emotional all of the time. It just really gets old. Anyone else know this feeling? How it really feels to even have this?
    2grunge4u 2grunge4u 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 1, 2014

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    ...every Aspect of My Life.

    Hi, I've been a manic depressive my entire life, even back to my earliest childhood. It becomes so embedded that it affects every aspect of my life, especially relationships. My marriage is crumbling to pieces because I terribly afraid of intimacy and even the mere thought of...
    Malfunc Malfunc 56-60 Jun 6, 2008

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    Bipolar.............

    When I was younger, I was told I was manic depressive by one of my Dr's,  about 3 years ago, was said to be Bipolar.  I am having a hell of a time with this!  I take a medication which i can not stand to do and even still, sometimes maybe a week at a time, I am a...
    usmile4me usmile4me 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2008

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    Its Daily and Its Been 12 Years

    I'm 36 I work out every day (but with rock and roll on my shuffle otherwise i wouldnt even bother going to the gym), when i'm there i'm angry, i don't look at anybody nor speak with anybody, when i leave to work i'm angry and depresesed its really worrisome because...
    treblue treblue 36-40 1 Response Jun 4, 2009

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    I am as blank as a new tab window on a PC.

    Just a pale white blank page of nothing. That's how I feel right now at 9:58 pm. Do I dare think it should be any different. Have you ever felt like a blob of nothing. No shape or form just nothing. It's the holidays and tomorrow I am getting Christmas cruise tickets for us and...
    bamagrl54 bamagrl54 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    love aint the must powerful people like me.

    . live between the flames and the heavens we can be in glory but we are still burning .. we live wonders and it still hurts you may fully love me but as with the weather love cant stop this. love cant stop the snow love cant stop the acid love won’t suck the demon off...
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 18-21, F Aug 15, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    This manic episode is really taking its toll on me. I am currently obsessing over my hair. Two days ago I was obsessed with DIY projects and now I want to cut my hair off (this...
    honestcloud honestcloud 26-30, F Jan 28

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    I've been in treatment for years and nothing seems to work. I go through my manic episodes so full of energy and wanting to try new things like learn to play piano or go back to...
    angelique422 angelique422 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    So for a few years now I've been dealing with my manic-depression and it's gotten better and worse through time. I began taking mediciation to help when I was 12 though it didn't...
    13nanna 13nanna 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    My Feelings for them.That beyond description.... They've taught me a lot of things which i've never learned at school or feckin sick mad criminal parents. They were only my savior...
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F 15 hrs ago

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    I feel like i don't belong anywhere :( why am i so different?
    MissWaddles MissWaddles 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 27

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    :(.. Just had a meeting with my work partner and boss. A few months back the work partner was bad and leaving me to do most the work load.. Btw i am a cleaner. I put up with it for...
    MissWaddles MissWaddles 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    I know your my parents but stop trying to help me, I'm mentally and physically tired. I just want to die and rest in peace, how come you don't want that for me...to finally feel at...
    nicolebnagy nicolebnagy 18-21, F Jan 31

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    Sometimes I really wish I could disappear.. I don't feel good enough for this world and feel too hurt often. sometimes I really don't like myself. I can't explain why, I think its...
    MissWaddles MissWaddles 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I'm 33yrs old obese and legally blind, I hate my life
    cruzito582 cruzito582 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    Had a really rough day. Can someone cheer me up or just tell me things you like to do when you feel sad...
    totorolover totorolover 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    They are the best. I've been huge fan of them 17yrs in my life! I saw them at concert...It was one of high light of my life.
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA 31-35, F Feb 15

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    I've been married for 15 years. Five years ago my wife was hospitalized for bipolar manic depressive. She has since been hospitalized two more times and has subsequently been...
    NewlyNude NewlyNude 31-35, M 5 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Confused, distraught, helpless, alone, judged, restless, tired, wired, but most of all frightened. I don’t know how to process that I have a disease that has no cure. A disease I...
    Isabellarose94 Isabellarose94 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 30

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    Lately I've been struggling with my depression, it's been getting to a point where my suicidal tho have kicked back into high gear. I've never felt quite as hopeless and useless a...
    EpicChick22 EpicChick22 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    It all started when I asked my parents for a Facebook. My mom yelled at me because she is paranoid about the internet and she thinks I'll get targeted or bullied or something. She...
    ForeverAloneForeverFriendZoned ForeverAloneForeverFriendZoned 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 31

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    My username has a double meaning, referring to two ways I could accurately be called a QuadrupleThreat: 1) I'm a musician who is can play four instruments proficiently. 2) I'm an...
    QuadrupleThreat QuadrupleThreat 26-30, M Feb 3

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    do you remember the hippie entrepreneur, who seems to have stayed there while others matured. I was one of those, a depressive who chose to go with what seemed was my nature...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M 6 hrs ago

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    I have a constant cycle where I start at a stable-ish mood and then I work up the manic ladder and then crash and im depressed for about a month after which I move back up to a...
    madimase madimase 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    STILL MANIC all these limericks have a narrative line; if you read them all together you'll be doing fine. the man behind them will come into form; bit by bit he'll fit a manic...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M 5 days ago

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    i draw to vent depressive emotion and i cut myself to vent depressive emotion. so why not combine the two? http://s3.amazonaws.com/ep_albums/-58611108/439656/ht1nv--58611108-i.jpg...
    bloodyborgiabastard bloodyborgiabastard 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    I found this online and wanted to post it To see if it helps anyone "THE DISCOURAGED BORDERLINE – This subcatetory has personality traits similar to the dependent personality...
    cutie7710 cutie7710 36-40, F Feb 9

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    MY LIMERICK OBSESSION these limericks, an obvious obsession, are a form of psychotic expression. it`ll last for a while, and I`ll wear a smile; it`s part of my manic depression...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M Feb 6

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    I'm not sure if anyone has shared this but I found Dr.Roger Sparhawks book, calm seas to be extremely informative on bipolar. with years of clinicals under his belt he described...
    AllOutWar AllOutWar 22-25, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    It pulls you to so many directions, some days you do not know which way to go......It makes you feel so much at once, or so little at other times, a full mind to an empty mind...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I lost will to do anything now. He broke up with me because he read my stupid depressive posts here, but i wasn't saying he gave up on