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I Am a Manic Depressive

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    i am depressed again;

    as usual. i think what's worst than being all year round depressed is being depressed in one moment and then be manic and then be depressed again. coz you get to feel how it is to be happy, to have meaning in your life, to feel "normal" like the other people out there and then...
    bijouxnoir bijouxnoir 22-25, F Nov 24, 2014

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    I battle with manic depression,

    I have done for about 13 years, I have antidepressants, none seem to work, I've tried suicide, so I have just resigned to let some one kill me! I live in hope anyway, but basically I don't try to do anything anymore! The doctors have given up on me and so have I!
    Seany83 Seany83 31-35 1 Response Jan 21, 2014

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    I lost my virginity to a monster I thought

    loved me. How can I be so blind? Why did I fall for that? I was so broken. I went mad. I lost my monster.
    Flowerpower5678 Flowerpower5678 18-21, F 1 Response May 18

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    Out Of Depression And Understanding Mania

    I have a blog on mania and depression with personal experience and daily handling of different states. visit: http://foxonline.blogs.experienceproject.com/
    foxonline foxonline 26-30, F Oct 17, 2010

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    Ehh, Well.

    This is what doctors and psychologists have told me I have, anyway. For awhile, they thought I had bipolar disorder because my mom had it, and I guess it's a hereditary gene. Woo hoo, lucky me. I have my highs and my downs, like everyone, though my highs tend to be a lot higher...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 30, 2011

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    Bipolar.............

    When I was younger, I was told I was manic depressive by one of my Dr's,  about 3 years ago, was said to be Bipolar.  I am having a hell of a time with this!  I take a medication which i can not stand to do and even still, sometimes maybe a week at a time, I am a...
    usmile4me usmile4me 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2008

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    I'm at a really good place in my life.

    It's been a struggle and if anyone out there is suffering from bi polar disorder you can always talk to me and I can help.
    Flowerpower5678 Flowerpower5678 18-21, F 2 Responses May 5

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    I am as blank as a new tab window on a PC.

    Just a pale white blank page of nothing. That's how I feel right now at 9:58 pm. Do I dare think it should be any different. Have you ever felt like a blob of nothing. No shape or form just nothing. It's the holidays and tomorrow I am getting Christmas cruise tickets for us and...
    bamagrl54 bamagrl54 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    Its Daily and Its Been 12 Years

    I'm 36 I work out every day (but with rock and roll on my shuffle otherwise i wouldnt even bother going to the gym), when i'm there i'm angry, i don't look at anybody nor speak with anybody, when i leave to work i'm angry and depresesed its really worrisome because...
    treblue treblue 36-40 1 Response Jun 4, 2009

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    I spin out of control ,

    even with medical treatment and medicine for over 20 yrs . I need help
    Bethlynn Bethlynn 46-50, F 2 Responses May 9, 2014

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    So I go in to get my monthly dosage.

    .. the whole gambit of the cocktail prescribed by this doctor and that. (all with a different set of initials following their name) The pharmacist was rather rude, and it took about 35 seconds of this rudeness to **** me off to the point where I started to get that.... hmmm...
    JLBetts JLBetts 46-50, M Nov 1, 2014

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    I am a combination of manic

    depressive/anxiety/adhd
    midnightstarr midnightstarr 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    It really gets old honestly.

    Medicine, therapy, people asking why i'm so emotional all of the time. It just really gets old. Anyone else know this feeling? How it really feels to even have this?
    2grunge4u 2grunge4u 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 1, 2014

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    Bipolar I

     ive had the diagnosis for almost two yrs ... bipolar d/o is a hard  mental illness to diagnose ...  because most people dont go to the dr when they are manic because it feels so good ...  i never knew how much went into bipolar d/o until i started educating...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 24, 2007

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    Never The Same

    First I'm mad sad pist irrated upset hatefull for weeks. Then I'm happy laughing ok most of my life I hate ppl and wana die I love all people very Into animals and helping all. Respect all was raised with nothing so want something but my moods hurt me anyone like me out there
    Hatefull1 Hatefull1 26-30 Feb 4, 2012

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    Bipolar.............

    When I was younger, I was told I was manic depressive by one of my Dr's,  about 3 years ago, was said to be Bipolar.  I am having a hell of a time with this!  I take a medication which i can not stand to do and even still, sometimes maybe a week at a time, I am a...
    usmile4me usmile4me 31-35, F Jan 29, 2008

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    My Boyfriend Is Manic Depressive, How Can I Help Him?

    My boyfriend is manic depressive I don't know how I can help him. But I love him so. We are now a happy couple for more then 7 years. The first time when I saw him this was when we knew each other 1 year. While he was in the military, he just broke with the military and went...
    LittleAnt LittleAnt 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 31, 2009

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    I Am On/ Off Depressed

    since i can remember i've always been very down on myself. I've always been very socially awkward but still had a lot of friends, yet i find flaws in my person all the time. I've recently had a three week spell off happiness and it was amazing but now, I am back to normality...
    gmac19 gmac19 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 26, 2011

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    I have been for as long

    as I can recall, only I was not diagnosed until my life took one final (we thought it to be final) nosedive crisis. It was then that I was diagnosed and although I had never heard of the term outside of a Jimi Hendrix tune....it fit. I am a survivor of 2 suicide attempts (and...
    bbush69 bbush69 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 10, 2014

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    My Best Friend

    My best friend died four months ago. Since then I have become worse. Thoughts go racing through my head; jumping from one subject to another I'm a nonstop party girl, constantly running around. I hate being home. Because I'm not happy there. I do too many wild or risky...
    km101306 km101306 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2008

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    i feel the substanceflowing slowly like acid

    through my veinsmy bones turn numbthey don’t do what i have to do .soi swim from one thought to anotherits exhausting, if i could escape from gravity,from this cage of bones im infrom this monsters that i get along witha little script of mineits march i think. 
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 22-25, F May 20, 2014

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    ...every Aspect of My Life.

    Hi, I've been a manic depressive my entire life, even back to my earliest childhood. It becomes so embedded that it affects every aspect of my life, especially relationships. My marriage is crumbling to pieces because I terribly afraid of intimacy and even the mere thought of...
    Malfunc Malfunc 56-60 Jun 6, 2008

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    love aint the must powerful people like me.

    . live between the flames and the heavens we can be in glory but we are still burning .. we live wonders and it still hurts you may fully love me but as with the weather love cant stop this. love cant stop the snow love cant stop the acid love won’t suck the demon off...
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 22-25, F Aug 15, 2014

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    Mental Facility # 1

    I just got diagnosed with Bi-Polar a few months back and I find it very surreal to be in a mental hospital.  My urge to commit suicide was strangling me every day for about 9 months after a terrible incident with an ex girlfriend (its in my profile).  My sleep patterns...
    TumYeto TumYeto 18-21, M May 4, 2008

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    This Is Very Difficult to T...

    This is very difficult to talk about.  But I get where I can hardly move in life and the end of life seems the best option.  It does not matter what good thing maybe happening I am still depressed.  People saying just think happy thoughts and do positive things...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M 4 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I'm pretty sure I'm manic.. My mind won't stop racing, I can't focus on one thing, I forget stuff, I'm starting to have this crazy ideas, I can't sit still.. I feel like I'm on...
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    You might look at my profile and think I'm a depressive with no humour. Yes, my posts are real and I suffer from depression, but it doesn't mean I'm incapable of sense of humour. I...
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am going on medication tomorrow. I was recently diagnosed with chronic depression and anxiety, also known as Dysthymia. Since the 4th grade, and I'm now a Junior in High School...
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    Im so sad and lonely dépressive i need a gf that undrestands me i dont care about âge or distance i want a true lover
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I feel like I bother my family, as they're constantly saying I'm moody, depressive and sad.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I think it's been a bit over 5 years, but that depends on when I should count that it started. It esentially started with a semi-trauma. Maybe a bit before that but holy damn did...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    StephBlakeIsInfinite StephBlakeIsInfinite 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    This was my official diagnosis from the doctor: Manic Depressive. I VERY RARELY have the manic phase, though, so I generally speak about it as "depression" because I suffer from...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    I was talking to my mom about one of my friends. This friend got in an argument with her parents and needed to get out of the house. Knowing all too well how it feels to be in a...
    AKGhost98 AKGhost98 16-17, F Jul 22

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    Im always being judge by people because i have anxiety and major depressive disorder. People who don't go through this is always the first to judge me. I just want somebody to...
    bigmamajoe bigmamajoe 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    I think I want to really be alone for a while. Lately, I have been going through en like one after the other. I think I need to take a time out from the dating world and calm...
    kc248753 kc248753 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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