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I Am a Manic Depressive

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    I battle with manic depression,

    I have done for about 13 years, I have antidepressants, none seem to work, I've tried suicide, so I have just resigned to let some one kill me! I live in hope anyway, but basically I don't try to do anything anymore! The doctors have given up on me and so have I!
    Seany83 Seany83 31-35 1 Response Jan 21

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    I am a combination of manic

    depressive/anxiety/adhd
    midnightstarr midnightstarr 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 22

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    Ehh, Well.

    This is what doctors and psychologists have told me I have, anyway. For awhile, they thought I had bipolar disorder because my mom had it, and I guess it's a hereditary gene. Woo hoo, lucky me. I have my highs and my downs, like everyone, though my highs tend to be a lot higher...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 30, 2011

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    Bipolar.............

    When I was younger, I was told I was manic depressive by one of my Dr's,  about 3 years ago, was said to be Bipolar.  I am having a hell of a time with this!  I take a medication which i can not stand to do and even still, sometimes maybe a week at a time, I am a...
    usmile4me usmile4me 31-35, F Jan 29, 2008

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    love aint the must powerful people like me.

    . live between the flames and the heavens we can be in glory but we are still burning .. we live wonders and it still hurts you may fully love me but as with the weather love cant stop this. love cant stop the snow love cant stop the acid love won’t suck the demon off...
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 18-21, F Aug 15

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    Bipolar.............

    When I was younger, I was told I was manic depressive by one of my Dr's,  about 3 years ago, was said to be Bipolar.  I am having a hell of a time with this!  I take a medication which i can not stand to do and even still, sometimes maybe a week at a time, I am a...
    usmile4me usmile4me 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2008

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    My Best Friend

    My best friend died four months ago. Since then I have become worse. Thoughts go racing through my head; jumping from one subject to another I'm a nonstop party girl, constantly running around. I hate being home. Because I'm not happy there. I do too many wild or risky...
    km101306 km101306 16-18, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2008

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    Mental Facility # 1

    I just got diagnosed with Bi-Polar a few months back and I find it very surreal to be in a mental hospital.  My urge to commit suicide was strangling me every day for about 9 months after a terrible incident with an ex girlfriend (its in my profile).  My sleep patterns...
    TumYeto TumYeto 18-21, M May 4, 2008

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    I am as blank as a new tab window on a PC.

    Just a pale white blank page of nothing. That's how I feel right now at 9:58 pm. Do I dare think it should be any different. Have you ever felt like a blob of nothing. No shape or form just nothing. It's the holidays and tomorrow I am getting Christmas cruise tickets for us and...
    bamagrl54 bamagrl54 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    This Is Very Difficult to T...

    This is very difficult to talk about.  But I get where I can hardly move in life and the end of life seems the best option.  It does not matter what good thing maybe happening I am still depressed.  People saying just think happy thoughts and do positive things...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M 4 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I Am On/ Off Depressed

    since i can remember i've always been very down on myself. I've always been very socially awkward but still had a lot of friends, yet i find flaws in my person all the time. I've recently had a three week spell off happiness and it was amazing but now, I am back to normality...
    gmac19 gmac19 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 26, 2011

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    Bipolar I

     ive had the diagnosis for almost two yrs ... bipolar d/o is a hard  mental illness to diagnose ...  because most people dont go to the dr when they are manic because it feels so good ...  i never knew how much went into bipolar d/o until i started educating...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 24, 2007

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    My Boyfriend Is Manic Depressive, How Can I Help Him?

    My boyfriend is manic depressive I don't know how I can help him. But I love him so. We are now a happy couple for more then 7 years. The first time when I saw him this was when we knew each other 1 year. While he was in the military, he just broke with the military and went...
    LittleAnt LittleAnt 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 31, 2009

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    ...every Aspect of My Life.

    Hi, I've been a manic depressive my entire life, even back to my earliest childhood. It becomes so embedded that it affects every aspect of my life, especially relationships. My marriage is crumbling to pieces because I terribly afraid of intimacy and even the mere thought of...
    Malfunc Malfunc 56-60 Jun 6, 2008

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    Out Of Depression And Understanding Mania

    I have a blog on mania and depression with personal experience and daily handling of different states. visit: http://foxonline.blogs.experienceproject.com/
    foxonline foxonline 26-30, F Oct 17, 2010

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    I spin out of control ,

    even with medical treatment and medicine for over 20 yrs . I need help
    Bethlynn Bethlynn 46-50, F 2 Responses May 9

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    Never The Same

    First I'm mad sad pist irrated upset hatefull for weeks. Then I'm happy laughing ok most of my life I hate ppl and wana die I love all people very Into animals and helping all. Respect all was raised with nothing so want something but my moods hurt me anyone like me out there
    Hatefull1 Hatefull1 26-30 Feb 4, 2012

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    i feel the substanceflowing slowly like acid

    through my veinsmy bones turn numbthey don’t do what i have to do .soi swim from one thought to anotherits exhausting, if i could escape from gravity,from this cage of bones im infrom this monsters that i get along witha little script of mineits march i think. 
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 18-21, F May 20

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    Its Daily and Its Been 12 Years

    I'm 36 I work out every day (but with rock and roll on my shuffle otherwise i wouldnt even bother going to the gym), when i'm there i'm angry, i don't look at anybody nor speak with anybody, when i leave to work i'm angry and depresesed its really worrisome because...
    treblue treblue 36-40 1 Response Jun 4, 2009

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    Tomorrow I start a plan where I starve myself for around 2 weeks or so and then commit suicide. I had an old account, goingunder, but this membership will be used while I'm on this...
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    So tomorrow I start starvation instead of today, I had to stay home sick. Tomorrow I put up an excuse that I was bullied badly so everything else can go smoothly
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F Aug 21

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    **** I just really want to die
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F Aug 21

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    I hate my life. I hate my personality and my body and dependency. I'm so quick to laugh and fall in love and I'm ******* fat and I depend too much on a certain person that makes me...
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F Aug 21

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    Just thinking about my suicide right now....
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F Aug 21

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    I'm crying right now because I want to die so badly and I just hate myself so much
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F Aug 21

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    What's bothering me at the moment ...so yesterday at my highschool some girls I knew bullied me about being lesbian and pulled my hair and hit me. I also have this idol...he's...
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    I feel ******* worthless and just ******
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F Aug 21

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    I want to die so bad. There's nothing good left in my life. I have no friends and I get bullied all the time for my sexuality and body and music preference and my personality. I...
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    First day of my starvation. Feeling pretty good about it, just have to make sure not to take my Prozac or I probably won't go through with it.
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F Aug 22

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    2nd day of no food. My brother said yesterday that if I haven't had a meal all day and just snacks then that's the equivalent of no food. I'm pretty sure he didn't take me...
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F a week ago

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    Starving yourself isn't that hard I think. If I ever get hungry all I do is drink warm water and I feel full
    thelastwordsofTeague thelastwordsofTeague 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I got a mani-pedi today. When the girl asked me if I wanted color, I replied "of course!" and asked her to choose a very girly color herself. I ended up having my toenails painted...
    manasimehta manasimehta 26-30, T 4 Responses Aug 6

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    If you will then what color will you use
    Kyliethesissy Kyliethesissy 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 11

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    My official diagnosis is borderline-rapid cycling manic depressive disorder with anxiety. For those who don't understand that completely it means I have borderline personality...
    SeraphineL SeraphineL 22-25, F Aug 3

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    1. I'm a bisexual, grey-asexual, sapiosexual. 2. Aquarius 3. I'm the definition of borderline personality. 4. Manic depressive. 5. Dissociative Identity Disorder 6. Vegetarian 7...
    iMinnow iMinnow 18-21, F Aug 14

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    I wish my mom knew how miserable she makes me feel. I have a horrible relationship with her and nothing is ever good enough. I try to spend time with her but I don't have tons of...
    eaarcher93 eaarcher93 18-21, F Aug 19

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    For a year and a half. I was a bad drug addict and I was 17/18 and I was living with my sister and I ran away from her and her husbands house. All I had was my bookbag filled with...
    UnstableSammi UnstableSammi 22-25, F Aug 20

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    Your meta description is simply too extended! You must look at make it shorter than 155-160 people! WEBTARANTULA ADVICE: Meta description will have to explain very well material...
    Madonnadz Madonnadz 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    I can't ever get a relationship to last. Mainly because I'm a sex addict. I can never get enough of it and I'm addicted to orgasming I try to give myself as many as I can a day...
    Gothika88 Gothika88 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 22

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    Less than 10 months ago my life changed drastically, it was a sun shining day but yet a horrible day. Around 4 or 5 pm my sister found my mother dead in her bed. We had a clue on...
    ninja6152 ninja6152 13-15 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am a hateful person, people tell me that i'm a kind soul and that i'm just hurting. True, I was abused and raped, but so were others and they recovered. I am a manic depressive...
    Oldwounds Oldwounds 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Let me start off by explaining a bit of my issues, that are causing me to lose my mind. I am 41yrs old with really bad teeth and hair loss issues, live in my mother's back area of...
    about2giveup about2giveup 41-45 4 days ago

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    I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder when I was 20. I'm 22 now, and I know and any one that knows me, knows that there's been something wrong with me my whole life. It really...
    UnstableSammi UnstableSammi 22-25, F Aug 20

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    I am generally manic, with some mixed mood, and rarely depressive. The worst part is when things upset me, rather than get down, I get manic: disorganized, unable to focus, etc...
    cmeyerhoefer cmeyerhoefer 46-50, F Aug 5

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    I am trying to keep a positive outlook on things. I should really be pretty happy. My life is not a bad one. I have all of my limbs, and they all work pretty well. I still...
    milehighHeartbreak milehighHeartbreak 31-35, M 8 hrs ago

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    I thought this visually summed up life in my Bipolar kingdom.I believe that "Bipolar" as a definition for this disorder oversimplifies the condition for those who do not have it...
    SShawnO SShawnO 41-45, M Aug 8

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    At 12 I started to notice a mood and personality change and have chalked up my sadness, mood swings, lack of interest, and inconsistent insomnia to near comatose states to being a...
    Bobbyckat Bobbyckat 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    At 12 I started to notice a mood and personality change and have chalked up my sadness, mood swings, lack of interest, and inconsistent insomnia to near comatose states to being a...
    Bobbyckat Bobbyckat 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    At 12 I started to notice a mood and personality change and have chalked up my sadness, mood swings, lack of interest, and inconsistent insomnia to near comatose states to being a...
    Bobbyckat Bobbyckat 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 15

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