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I Am a Masochist

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    I wonder if I would ever be able to have a

    healthy relationship..I guess it's possible if you are a sadist male..but to be masochist ? any ideas..may a girl like me with this character ?
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Feb 3, 2014

    I'm Very Innocent Looking But Very Sick In My Masochistic Desires :)

    This is a very enlightening and very hot forum, I thought I'd share a bit of my experiences and interests. I've loved painful, humiliating sex for as long as I can remember. I've had memberships for many years to extreme websites, the contents of which would give the average...
    LittleGenius85 LittleGenius85
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jan 17, 2012
    ThornCrown1 ThornCrown1
    26-30, M
    Nov 18, 2014

    I Am A Submissive Masochist.

    I'm from a small town, so I never really knew what this was. I always wanted to be the bad guy playing childhood games so I would get punished. Over the past couple years I've learned about masochism and from the first time I heard about it I knew it described me. I know a sadist...
    KisKat KisKat
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Feb 9, 2013

    Emotionally Drained

    It's tough. You've got to understand that. A history of abuse which stems from my own inciting. It's tough wanting something and then hating yourself for wanting it. I liken it to being on a diet. You want that piece of delicious, torturous cheesecake. You dig in, and for a...
    Amorialla Amorialla
    18-21, F
    Aug 19, 2012

    I enjoy pain. Helps that I am in the BDSM scene.

    Everything about it tickles my fancy. The heat, the bruises, the abusive words....all a beautiful combination for my lust. So hard to find a good sadist.
    LostinAtown LostinAtown
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2014

    So...recently I received a violation from

    experience project that made me feel as though there is something wrong with me after all for being the way I am. I admit 100 percent...there can be no denying it. I fully enjoy being inflicted with pain and humiliation. It's although my body is weird differently than the...
    DoeEyedOwl DoeEyedOwl
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 17, 2014

    The only think that i like about masochism is

    to get myself tied. some days i like to bound myself some other days no... when i want to bound myself i take a chain and I tie my ankle to bed with chain 1.5m and put the key in a block of ice away from me for I can not get it until the ice has melted and the key to fall...
    steve1990ss steve1990ss
    26-30, M
    May 23, 2015


    I hate myself for needing it and know its weird. But I can't stop, I'm addicted and always need more. I love the binding restraints and gags and twisting and piercings and heat. I need it. I want to be held and pushed and stepped on and humiliated and pissed on my face and...
    JMint JMint
    41-45, F
    6 Responses Jun 25, 2013

    im a masochist in a less sexual sense of the

    word, i am an asexual, i dont enjoy sex at all. but i enjoy pain and crave it, i find the rush from getting hurt addicting and enjoyable. i find it hard to explain, i get no sexual pleasure from pain, but i enjoy pain all the same.
    lilhunters lilhunters
    18-21, M
    May 12, 2015

    You Don't Deserve This

    My Master just left. When I text him and asked him if he was too busy to come over and beat and face **** me, he was here within 30 minutes. He uses a crop and a short whip, the crop feels great but the whip I find lacking usually. I asked him to get a cat 'o' nine tails , but he...
    beautifullytwisted beautifullytwisted
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 11, 2012

    I like women who are like this

    as well as sadistic
    Cuck4lesbian Cuck4lesbian
    26-30, M
    Sep 14, 2015

    i am a male, and i hope

    that there is another man tying me up, torturing me hard (whip me, cane me, spank me, electrocute me, fill up my body surface with melted candle, etc)...CONTINUE to torture me even at the moment where i couldn't stand anymore!!! but not killing me or leaving permanent scar on my...
    kennylim123 kennylim123
    22-25, M
    Dec 23, 2014

    I am in my early twenties

    and live in the conservative South. I consider myself well- educated and ambitious. I also consider myself self-aware. For several years now I have realized my boredom with "vanilla" relationships and can only fantasize about the pain I crave. I've looked endlessly online...
    Paynedangel21 Paynedangel21
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2014

    Need To Be Hurt.

    I need to be hurt, i like to be blamed and treated like absolute dirt.  Yell at me, hit  me, cut me, choke me till im blue, hurt me in every sick way, i love to see the monster in people come out to play and take there hatered on me. Over and over again. i wish i could...
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Nov 22, 2009
    Iwantmybellypunched Iwantmybellypunched
    2 Responses Nov 13, 2015

    I knew there was a limited attraction to

    feeling pain. I hid it for years, but my ex-wife knew about it and enjoyed spanking and beating my *** with a belt. As we drifted apart, she made it clear my submissive nature needed to blossom more than with her boyfriends and her. She set up a weekend for me to meet a domme...
    donn2 donn2
    61-65, M
    Apr 15, 2014

    Another Flop

    Finally saw the potential good match again and it was just sad, now he's ignoring me which is ******* frustrating... Gone through another attempt at a normal relationship in the meanwhile.... What to do now? Give up looking for anything ... I'm literally just sleeping with who I...
    SilverStarsCrumble SilverStarsCrumble
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 21, 2013

    I have only been with one person

    who was always okay with trying new things. He helped feed my need of getting rug burns, playing out fantasies and with some bondage. The person I'm with now is NOT into, well anything I'm into. Just basic *** slapping or choking. It's hard being with him sexually because I don...
    BlackAndBlur BlackAndBlur
    22-25, F
    Oct 15, 2015

    I suppose I am?? I love it

    when my GF tortures my Bellybutton during our sex. Does that count? she loves the same.
    7531yo 7531yo
    22-25, M
    Nov 13, 2015

    The Punishment Bra

    As a student on a pretty strict budget, I am always looking for new ways to find pleasure through relatively inexpensive means. Being a masochist, I decided to google new methods of breast "torture". As I was scrolling through yet another lengthy page I discovered something...
    braunkar braunkar
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 25, 2013

    The Needle Experiment

    Lately, I have been trying out new things when it comes to giving myself painful and pleasurable experiences. So I decided to take a little trip to my local surgical supply store. While there, I purchased a box of 100 18 gauge syringe needles. The second I got home, I just had...
    braunkar braunkar
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 19, 2013

    The One Story I Have Never Told

    The best sex I have ever had was not memorable because of the person. But because of the things we did in that room on that night. We started by snorting an Oxy for each of us, and then we took a couple of hits from his bong. The room was dark, except for the small glow coming...
    meganloren meganloren
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 28, 2013

    I'm just confessing everything tonight aren't I?

    I should be sleeping, but that's overrated. I'm a Female to Male Transgendered person. So, I still look very female with large breasts, high voice, I'm only five feet two inches, and I am lacking anything big below the belt because I'm pre hormones or any type of surgery...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming
    18-21, T
    1 Response May 7, 2015

    Masochistic Child

    My youngest memory of masochism was when I was around 5. I would lay in bed at night pretending I was a captured girl on board a pirate ship. I imagined that i was locked in a tiny closet not being fed enough and being forced to eat and drink gross things. At this point, I...
    mabs0253 mabs0253
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Feb 21, 2010

    well ~ just ever so slightly masochistic ~

    needing a sexy girl to hit it and bite it and scratch it and cut it and burn it... ... ...
    vinvicau vinvicau
    66-70, M
    1 Response Apr 11, 2014

    I Need It.

    Its amazing what a few bites, scratches, cuts, and chokings could do to me in such a short time. I am a total submissive pup, and didn't even realize until hooking up with my girlfriend! Shes absolutely in love with it, being a sadomasochist herself, and is never surprised when I...
    WanderingAimlessly WanderingAimlessly
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 23, 2011

    We all have different tastes.

    Fortunately for me, Sir and I are very well matched. He deeply enjoys inflicting abuse and I deeply enjoy receiving it. I love him...we feed off of each other's needs like parasites.
    pinioned pinioned
    41-45, F
    Aug 8, 2015

    I Can Think Of No Other Pleasure.

    I was ashamed and shocked at myself that I would want such things. Being raised in a Catholic family (still *try* to hold on to those beliefs) and by judgemental parents, I never thought that I would turn out this way. Maybe its because I was violently abused AND sexually abused...
    Idounn Idounn
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Feb 10, 2013

    I'm 75% sadistic and 25% masochist,

    though I thoroughly and greatly enjoy recieving pain issued in masculine fashion. I love inflicting pain (nothing damaging or permanent) on a masculine muscular male, but if a male (or group of males) can over power me, I can accept it like a man and take my punishment. There...
    MasterOfMuscle MasterOfMuscle
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Dec 14, 2013

    Today is one of those days

    where I just want to let him take complete control of me. I need his firm seduction!
    Idounn Idounn
    22-25, F
    Jun 9, 2015

    I don't like I LOVE physical/mental pain

    and older men aha anyways...I am a submissive masochist. I like when a guy takes total control. That being said I like being bitten, hair pulled, whipped, cut, slapped, anything that could make me bleed or bruised...message me if u have any questions. :)
    XcopXthisXforeignX XcopXthisXforeignX
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 9, 2015

    Pain..... Can't Get Enough

    At first it started with just a cuts or burns. I also only did it like once a month. I didn't really think it was that serious and I didn't know that what was happening to me would get more serious and frequent over the years. I am now much older and way more tolerant of pain. I...
    AlekEagle AlekEagle
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 7, 2012

    I want a masochist man ,

    i am woman 39 years i want him young and cute
    queentalia queentalia
    36-40, F
    Apr 6, 2016

    me and my boyfriend who have only dated

    for 7 months have been having sex for this long and when we first started it was nice love making sex nothing rough. as time went by we started trying new things at first he started slapping my butt, then he started pulling my hair and now every week or so I made it my goal to...
    kmram kmram
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2014

    I am a masochist because: I like to have my

    *** spanked until it is so bruised that it is difficult for me to sit for a couple of days. I can ****** from ***** slapping. Give me enough hard slaps on my ***** especially my **** and the pain turns into pleasure until i am screaming my way to an ******. I love wearing...
    juanitam86 juanitam86
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2013

    I have recently discovered the joys of self

    torture. So far ive "stabbed" the center pf my palm with the sharpest knife I could find (did not pierce). Ive held my hand over a candlelight for as long as I can without burning the flesh (don't want scars). Ive also discovered starvation for long periods of time fulfills my...
    ThornCrown1 ThornCrown1
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 16, 2014

    Bad Feels So Good

    I am finally open about this. For so long I was in denial, but the truth is I love pain. I get off just thinking about spanking or getting spanked. If I accidentally hurt myself, I like it. It is a strange kind of feeling. My natural instincts tell me that pain is bad but my...
    Cutecolleen Cutecolleen
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 29, 2012

    I Have A Job, Don't I?...

    I have a job, don't I?
    Whatever Whatever
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jan 4, 2007

    Training Masochists

    First, pain is a sensory overload, but the source is pure raw energy. A metaphor for this is a multi-line telephone. You have 4 lines all engaged the the fifth person calls, that busy signal is pain. Add two more lines and you have more energy-information flowing in and at call...
    dragonofjapan dragonofjapan
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Feb 3, 2013

    I want to be beaten and receive physical

    and emotional pain. I met an awesome guy who said he will enjoy slapping me on my face, ***, thighs, and other areas. He'll call me the worst names possible, pull my hair and spit in my face. I'll be dominated, degraded, humiliated, and abused. But this still isn't enough for...
    ImJustATotalFaggot ImJustATotalFaggot
    26-30, M
    Jan 26, 2016

    My Pain For His Pleasure

    Im very submissive and even more passive and very shy and subconsious, but for me if i can just lie down somewhere why a man hurts me physically i get so much not sure if its pleasure or something else, maybe i want to hurt myself physically but i allow men to do it for me, (a...
    denise12345 denise12345
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jun 29, 2012

    Introducing Myself

    Hi all! My name is Nikki or Nicole and I am a 25 year old college student .. I also bar tend at a local pub part time. I hate these first intros because of two annoying reasons.. one, it feels like a personal ad and two, you have the pressure to make that damned first impression...
    MyssNikk MyssNikk
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Mar 29, 2011

    I Like It When It Hurts.

    Pain isn't a bad thing.  People think it's a bad thing, and it's not - not really.  Truth be told, intensity is what I crave.  Not pain specifically.  Pain is nothing if there's no intensity behind it.   But when there is, it's the most awesome...
    deleted deleted
    16 Responses Nov 30, 2006

    I Am A Masochist

    When I was little (7-12) I had strange sexual fantasies about getting tied up, abused, raped. I would see images that seemed begin to my parents, like watching the princess in a Disney movie getting kidnapped, and it would arouse me. I used to go walking late at night alone...
    TwistedLullaby TwistedLullaby
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2013

    So last night I held the center of my hands

    directly over the candlelight and it stung really bad! I loved every second of it :)
    ThornCrown1 ThornCrown1
    26-30, M
    Nov 17, 2014

    My Sick Fantasy Finally Fulfilled

    No one that knows me can ever read this... I don't want them to know I am as sick as I am. I promise you, I appear so normal... no one would ever know I have this side.... I'm just a hot girl you see and hit on - I've been called the girl next door. Compared to Jennifer Love...
    slavegirl311 slavegirl311
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 3, 2011

    I Live a Masochist Life

    Well, more than the spanking bit I live a life of a victim/masochist. I do enjoy wacking or biting someone but Mainly I destroy myself and all my dreams. I'm trying to pull out of a realtionship with a girl who tends to be on the Sadist side. Numb, cold, nasty. I know when she...
    santabob santabob
    3 Responses Jul 3, 2009

    I Don't Care If You Think It Is Wrong

    This is who I am, and am not ashamed. A masochist needs the Sadist, and vice versa. The Sadist being the brush, and the masochist, His paint - Together they form an Art, so breathtaking, yet, sadly, often misunderstood.
    FuerDich FuerDich
    36-40, F
    Oct 30, 2013

    I'm Scared

    I am a masochist. Even when I was a kid, I knew how I felt about pain and humiliation---and I knew not to let other people see it in me. It didn’t scare me back then, it was just how things were…it was natural. But as I got older, I realized what I was, what I wanted, what...
    alyssa000 alyssa000
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 30, 2012

    Trash Dumpster *****

    I have many childhood stories that I could share with you about how i found out who i am .. a submissive/masochist that is. My first memory would be with a neighborhood friend of mine. He was 2 years older than me. I was about 11 and he was around 13. Anyways, we got into a...
    MyssNikk MyssNikk
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Apr 3, 2011

    I am always thinking about getting beat up real

    hard mostly by a lover(though i don't have one). And the visuals are really brutal and also gory and lead to death sometimes. I "get off" on these fantasies. It is very much sexual for me. Violence (on me) has been connected to my sexual desire. I don't know what to do?
    agha09 agha09
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Jul 31, 2014

    A Fantasy

    I don't know if I've awoken from sleep or if I've just blocked out the memories. All I know is this: I am terrified, I am restrained, and he stands over me. He doesn't have a weapon, but he doesn't need one. Hands tied together, he hauls me out of my bed and drags be from the...
    Amorialla Amorialla
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 27, 2012

    Some time ago I posted "I Collect" in many

    experience groups. There was a link to a three page site ( ) saying I collect women. Out of all these stories and groups and all these girls and women professing they want to be sex slaves or they want to runaway or they want to be used, I...
    ownerofmany ownerofmany
    51-55, M
    Mar 1, 2014
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