I Am a Masochist

The pain I put myself through is almost entirely sexual. I love it all. I can't be the only one like this, right? I'm interested to hear from somebody like me.

It was about 4 months after my major "endurance test" evening and my birthday celebration night ;I'd not seen much of Val , mainly because there had been a lot of display nights for old and new SM'ers ; when she un-expectantly came...

My cute little thirteen-year-old friend Jen(who I've described in more detail in 'I Kissed A Girl And She Liked It.) was over again today for the third time in a row and, yet again, she draped her pretty long legs over me as she laid on...

I have many childhood stories that I could share with you about how i found out who i am .. a submissive/masochist that is.

My first memory would be with a neighborhood friend of mine. He was 2 years older than me. I was about 11 and...

When I was about 8 I used to burn my cock with scalding water lol. Anybody else do sexual torture as a little kid? I'm talking self inflicted, but if you were sexually abused and it is something you have overcome or are comfortable...

I love being humiliated by dominant, sexy men. I get a secret thrill every time I look into the eyes of a sadistic man, especially one who is interested in me. I burn myself all the time. I turn my water on to scalding hot and stick my...

A wonderful evening. I got ridiculously angry and horny so I cut some grapefruit. While eating the grapefruit I slashed my upper arm around to my left pec and traced what I thought are my better physical features with the knife to...

As Val took photographs of my marks one of the girls kept on asking if she could whip me ,but Val would not permit it , I helped by saying that after the session I'd just gone thru it wouldn't be possible, certainly not that night...

I don't know if I've awoken from sleep or if I've just blocked out the memories. All I know is this: I am terrified, I am restrained, and he stands over me. He doesn't have a weapon, but he doesn't need one. Hands tied together, he...

I can only become aroused and sexually climax if I can see that my partner becomes aroused by humiliating and physically hurting me. I need to know that my pain and suffering is a turn-on for him.

Im very submissive and even more passive and very shy and subconsious, but for me if i can just lie down somewhere why a man hurts me physically i get so much not sure if its pleasure or something else, maybe i want to hurt myself...

Just had a nice, fun shower with hot wax and sounding :)
About to eat some grapefruit and nurse last nights wounds.

I'm losing my faith in finding a long term partner, I keep scaring em.
My list is making me so lonely. can't ever find someone to keep up.
Biting, slapping, hair pulling, anal, dping, choking, fisting, even at times harder stuff like...

My youngest memory of masochism was when I was around 5. I would lay in bed at night pretending I was a captured girl on board a pirate ship. I imagined that i was locked in a tiny closet not being fed enough and being forced to eat...