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I Am a Masochist

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    Desperation

    I hate myself for needing it and know its weird. But I can't stop, I'm addicted and always need more. I love the binding restraints and gags and twisting and piercings and heat. I need it. I want to be held and pushed and stepped on and humiliated and pissed on my face and...
    JMint JMint 36-40, F 5 Responses Jun 25, 2013

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    I Don't Care If You Think It Is Wrong

    This is who I am, and am not ashamed. A masochist needs the Sadist, and vice versa. The Sadist being the brush, and the masochist, His paint - Together they form an Art, so breathtaking, yet, sadly, often misunderstood.
    FuerDich FuerDich 31-35, F Oct 30, 2013

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    Some time ago I posted "I Collect" in many

    experience groups. There was a link to a three page site ( www.icollectusedwomen.yolasite.com ) saying I collect women. Out of all these stories and groups and all these girls and women professing they want to be sex slaves or they want to runaway or they want to be used, I...
    ownerofmany ownerofmany 51-55, M Mar 1, 2014

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    Emotionally Drained

    It's tough. You've got to understand that. A history of abuse which stems from my own inciting. It's tough wanting something and then hating yourself for wanting it. I liken it to being on a diet. You want that piece of delicious, torturous cheesecake. You dig in, and for a...
    Amorialla Amorialla 18-21, F Aug 19, 2012

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    The Punishment Bra

    As a student on a pretty strict budget, I am always looking for new ways to find pleasure through relatively inexpensive means. Being a masochist, I decided to google new methods of breast "torture". As I was scrolling through yet another lengthy page I discovered something...
    braunkar braunkar 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    I'm Scared

    I am a masochist. Even when I was a kid, I knew how I felt about pain and humiliation---and I knew not to let other people see it in me. It didn’t scare me back then, it was just how things were…it was natural. But as I got older, I realized what I was, what I wanted, what...
    alyssa000 alyssa000 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 30, 2012

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    Another Flop

    Finally saw the potential good match again and it was just sad, now he's ignoring me which is ******* frustrating... Gone through another attempt at a normal relationship in the meanwhile.... What to do now? Give up looking for anything ... I'm literally just sleeping with who I...
    SilverStarsCrumble SilverStarsCrumble 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 21, 2013

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    I Am A Masochist

    When I was little (7-12) I had strange sexual fantasies about getting tied up, abused, raped. I would see images that seemed begin to my parents, like watching the princess in a Disney movie getting kidnapped, and it would arouse me. I used to go walking late at night alone...
    TwistedLullaby TwistedLullaby 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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    Today is one of those days

    where I just want to let him take complete control of me. I need his firm seduction!
    Idounn Idounn 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 9

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    I Can Think Of No Other Pleasure.

    I was ashamed and shocked at myself that I would want such things. Being raised in a Catholic family (still *try* to hold on to those beliefs) and by judgemental parents, I never thought that I would turn out this way. Maybe its because I was violently abused AND sexually abused...
    Idounn Idounn 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 10, 2013

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    So last night I held the center of my hands

    directly over the candlelight and it stung really bad! I loved every second of it :)
    ThornCrown1 ThornCrown1 22-25, M Nov 17, 2014

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    No Secret

    It's really no secret to my friends that I'm into bdsm, bondage and masochism. I had one relationship that was bondage oriented and another that was more on the sadomasochistic side.  Both were very enjoyable in that aspect. When it comes to pain, I have a low pain tolerance...
    MasochistMonday MasochistMonday 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2012

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    A Fantasy

    I don't know if I've awoken from sleep or if I've just blocked out the memories. All I know is this: I am terrified, I am restrained, and he stands over me. He doesn't have a weapon, but he doesn't need one. Hands tied together, he hauls me out of my bed and drags be from the...
    Amorialla Amorialla 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2012

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    Pain..... Can't Get Enough

    At first it started with just a cuts or burns. I also only did it like once a month. I didn't really think it was that serious and I didn't know that what was happening to me would get more serious and frequent over the years. I am now much older and way more tolerant of pain. I...
    AlekEagle AlekEagle 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 7, 2012

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    I have recently discovered the joys of self

    torture. So far ive "stabbed" the center pf my palm with the sharpest knife I could find (did not pierce). Ive held my hand over a candlelight for as long as I can without burning the flesh (don't want scars). Ive also discovered starvation for long periods of time fulfills my...
    ThornCrown1 ThornCrown1 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    Bad Feels So Good

    I am finally open about this. For so long I was in denial, but the truth is I love pain. I get off just thinking about spanking or getting spanked. If I accidentally hurt myself, I like it. It is a strange kind of feeling. My natural instincts tell me that pain is bad but my...
    Cutecolleen Cutecolleen 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    I Need It.

    Its amazing what a few bites, scratches, cuts, and chokings could do to me in such a short time. I am a total submissive pup, and didn't even realize until hooking up with my girlfriend! Shes absolutely in love with it, being a sadomasochist herself, and is never surprised when I...
    WanderingAimlessly WanderingAimlessly 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 23, 2011

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    My Pain For His Pleasure

    Im very submissive and even more passive and very shy and subconsious, but for me if i can just lie down somewhere why a man hurts me physically i get so much not sure if its pleasure or something else, maybe i want to hurt myself physically but i allow men to do it for me, (a...
    denise12345 denise12345 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 29, 2012

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    It's A Bit More Than Physical.

    I enjoy pain of all types, and with it the natural uncontrollable fear. I don't just want to feel pain, I don't just want you to slap me around or beat the **** out of me, I want to feel that I am less than you and that I have no power over you what so ever. I don't want to play...
    newki newki 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 19, 2010

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    ThornCrown1 ThornCrown1 22-25, M Nov 18, 2014

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    I'm 75% sadistic and 25% masochist,

    though I thoroughly and greatly enjoy recieving pain issued in masculine fashion. I love inflicting pain (nothing damaging or permanent) on a masculine muscular male, but if a male (or group of males) can over power me, I can accept it like a man and take my punishment. There...
    MasterOfMuscle MasterOfMuscle 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 14, 2013

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    Training Masochists

    First, pain is a sensory overload, but the source is pure raw energy. A metaphor for this is a multi-line telephone. You have 4 lines all engaged the the fifth person calls, that busy signal is pain. Add two more lines and you have more energy-information flowing in and at call...
    dragonofjapan dragonofjapan 56-60, M 2 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    I am a masochist because: I like to have my

    *** spanked until it is so bruised that it is difficult for me to sit for a couple of days. I can ****** from ***** slapping. Give me enough hard slaps on my ***** especially my **** and the pain turns into pleasure until i am screaming my way to an ******. I love wearing...
    juanitam86 juanitam86 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2013

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    I knew there was a limited attraction to

    feeling pain. I hid it for years, but my ex-wife knew about it and enjoyed spanking and beating my *** with a belt. As we drifted apart, she made it clear my submissive nature needed to blossom more than with her boyfriends and her. She set up a weekend for me to meet a domme...
    donn2 donn2 61-65, M 1 Response Apr 15, 2014

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    I Like It When It Hurts.

    Pain isn't a bad thing.  People think it's a bad thing, and it's not - not really.  Truth be told, intensity is what I crave.  Not pain specifically.  Pain is nothing if there's no intensity behind it.   But when there is, it's the most awesome...
    deleted deleted 26-30 16 Responses Nov 30, 2006

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    i am a male, and i hope

    that there is another man tying me up, torturing me hard (whip me, cane me, spank me, electrocute me, fill up my body surface with melted candle, etc)...CONTINUE to torture me even at the moment where i couldn't stand anymore!!! but not killing me or leaving permanent scar on my...
    kennylim123 kennylim123 22-25, M Dec 23, 2014

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    I Have A Job, Don't I?...

    I have a job, don't I?
    Whatever Whatever 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 4, 2007

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    Wannabe Pet/Slave

    I don't have any fun stories about when I was younger and experimenting with pain, but I do want to and I hope they don't go too easy on me. I've been punched and kicked a bit, plus I've been scratched until bleeding, but it's always been in a sexual context and I want to try it...
    Peanuts75 Peanuts75 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 18, 2013

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    I enjoy pain. Helps that I am in the BDSM scene.

    Everything about it tickles my fancy. The heat, the bruises, the abusive words....all a beautiful combination for my lust. So hard to find a good sadist.
    LostinAtown LostinAtown 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2014

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    You Don't Deserve This

    My Master just left. When I text him and asked him if he was too busy to come over and beat and face **** me, he was here within 30 minutes. He uses a crop and a short whip, the crop feels great but the whip I find lacking usually. I asked him to get a cat 'o' nine tails , but he...
    beautifullytwisted beautifullytwisted 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2012

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    The only think that i like about masochism is

    to get myself tied. some days i like to bound myself some other days no... when i want to bound myself i take a chain and I tie my ankle to bed with chain 1.5m and put the key in a block of ice away from me for I can not get it until the ice has melted and the key to fall...
    steve1990ss steve1990ss 22-25, M May 23

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    Masochistic Child

    My youngest memory of masochism was when I was around 5. I would lay in bed at night pretending I was a captured girl on board a pirate ship. I imagined that i was locked in a tiny closet not being fed enough and being forced to eat and drink gross things. At this point, I...
    mabs0253 mabs0253 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 21, 2010

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    me and my boyfriend who have only dated

    for 7 months have been having sex for this long and when we first started it was nice love making sex nothing rough. as time went by we started trying new things at first he started slapping my butt, then he started pulling my hair and now every week or so I made it my goal to...
    kmram kmram 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2014

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    Introducing Myself

    Hi all! My name is Nikki or Nicole and I am a 25 year old college student .. I also bar tend at a local pub part time. I hate these first intros because of two annoying reasons.. one, it feels like a personal ad and two, you have the pressure to make that damned first impression...
    MyssNikk MyssNikk 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 29, 2011

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    This is an actual experience,

    not a fantasy. I am Masochistic but it is hard to have any relationship being a masochist because of fear of what the other person might think. Sometimes it is hard to get across what I feel. I don't know how to put it into context so that people may understand. I have dated...
    50shadesofexodus 50shadesofexodus 26-30, F 3 Responses May 11

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    I Am A Submissive Masochist.

    I'm from a small town, so I never really knew what this was. I always wanted to be the bad guy playing childhood games so I would get punished. Over the past couple years I've learned about masochism and from the first time I heard about it I knew it described me. I know a sadist...
    KisKat KisKat 18-21, F 7 Responses Feb 9, 2013

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    My Sick Fantasy Finally Fulfilled

    No one that knows me can ever read this... I don't want them to know I am as sick as I am. I promise you, I appear so normal... no one would ever know I have this side.... I'm just a hot girl you see and hit on - I've been called the girl next door. Compared to Jennifer Love...
    slavegirl311 slavegirl311 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2011

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    I am always thinking about getting beat up real

    hard mostly by a lover(though i don't have one). And the visuals are really brutal and also gory and lead to death sometimes. I "get off" on these fantasies. It is very much sexual for me. Violence (on me) has been connected to my sexual desire. I don't know what to do?
    agha09 agha09 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 31, 2014

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    I'm just confessing everything tonight aren't I?

    I should be sleeping, but that's overrated. I'm a Female to Male Transgendered person. So, I still look very female with large breasts, high voice, I'm only five feet two inches, and I am lacking anything big below the belt because I'm pre hormones or any type of surgery...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 1 Response May 7

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    I Am A Masochist To Some Extent

    I like the physical pain within limits. Emotional pain I am completely against. I find the physical is a form of release for me. You tread in dangerous waters though in finding the right person to trust with this.
    sunbeam22 sunbeam22 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    The One Story I Have Never Told

    The best sex I have ever had was not memorable because of the person. But because of the things we did in that room on that night. We started by snorting an Oxy for each of us, and then we took a couple of hits from his bong. The room was dark, except for the small glow coming...
    meganloren meganloren 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    Trash Dumpster *****

    I have many childhood stories that I could share with you about how i found out who i am .. a submissive/masochist that is. My first memory would be with a neighborhood friend of mine. He was 2 years older than me. I was about 11 and he was around 13. Anyways, we got into a...
    MyssNikk MyssNikk 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 3, 2011

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    Never Thought I'd Go There

    I enjoy video and images of genital torture, and how often I work the edge of pain to pleasure when ************, don’t like the idea or images of mutilation or permanent injury, but binding, pinching, squeezing and smacking my genitals I've found very arousing when...
    1youngfool 1youngfool 56-60, M Oct 12, 2013

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    I'm Very Innocent Looking But Very Sick In My Masochistic Desires :)

    This is a very enlightening and very hot forum, I thought I'd share a bit of my experiences and interests. I've loved painful, humiliating sex for as long as I can remember. I've had memberships for many years to extreme websites, the contents of which would give the average...
    LittleGenius85 LittleGenius85 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 17, 2012

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    I don't like I LOVE physical/mental pain

    and older men aha anyways...I am a submissive masochist. I like when a guy takes total control. That being said I like being bitten, hair pulled, whipped, cut, slapped, anything that could make me bleed or bruised...message me if u have any questions. :)
    XcopXthisXforeignX XcopXthisXforeignX 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    well ~ just ever so slightly masochistic ~

    needing a sexy girl to hit it and bite it and scratch it and cut it and burn it... ... ...
    vinvicau vinvicau 66-70, M 1 Response Apr 11, 2014

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