I Am a Mess

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 252 People

    I know my life is in this cycle.

    It all revolves around men. I have this craving for attention, so I seek it wherever I can find it. Then, sometimes, I stay with a guy for a day, sometimes I force myself to stay longer hoping it will fix the hole in my heart. But, in the end, I wind up leaving to seek adventure...
    mattihope mattihope
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 28, 2015

    I fainted today, first time in my life.

    Everything went black and *plop*. Probably cz I haven't ate more than a bite in about a week. I just manage to stuff my mouth, just to maintain some strength, thank god for liquid food. Now, I have been through a worse patch, I had my bf of three years break up with me a week...
    bujji14 bujji14
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 29, 2015

    I want to say my peace.

    I have had people tell me I'm hurting them by posting certain things. I'm here to post experiences when I need to. I'm not here to step on toes. I'm here to express myself as I feel I can't to others in "real life". I would appreciate it if you wouldn't take my experiences as...
    katariffik katariffik
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 26, 2015

    Well To Say The Least.....

    This is me.... especailly tonight....
    deleted deleted
    Nov 12, 2010

    I don't even know where to start.

    I stumbled on this app by accident and figured I would try it out since I have a million emotions bottled up inside and no one to talk to about them. Firstly I have been with my boyfriend for 6 years and he is an alcoholic/drug addict who also has some serious personality...
    Beth0888 Beth0888
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 25, 2014

    I've been out a lot recently.

    .. So when I woke up this afternoon (yes, this afternoon) I brushed my teeth & washed my face, put on my pyjamas & my dressing gown, & now I'm sitting on the sofa. I have no immediate plans to even brush my hair. It's a bank holiday tomorrow. Reckon I'll have some beer later...
    SevenTierCrazyCake SevenTierCrazyCake
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Aug 30, 2015

    How Not To Fall For A Guy, Who Won't Fall For You?

    Ok, first post but i wouldn't write it down if i didnt need any help. I am a gay guy who lives in tge middle east, imagine the drama, anyway i managed to play it cool although i havent had a real relationship before and it just annoys thst lately i knew why. For a moment of...
    Transintional Transintional
    May 22, 2011

    My hand in yours is where it belongs.

    My hearts in despair every moment you're gone. When I sleep by your side all my good dreams come true. I accepted the lonely and then I met you. When you smile you light up my darkness inside. I want to share all the parts that I hide. I'm afraid I've fallen for this love that...
    shoxic shoxic
    22-25, F
    Jan 28, 2015


    i slept on my dreads funny, and theyre at the horrid lose phase, so i just look like sideshow bob. my eyes are black because i didnt take my eyeliner off last night, and swollen from all the bloody feathers in our house. not to mention im wearing a 5 year old Matchless top, and...
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    9 Responses Sep 5, 2008

    I used to be such a perfectionist neato clean

    person... and now I have let myself go into a slob... and I don't seem to even care enough to fix it... well I do want to but the effort.. I can't seem to apply myself anymore over the indifference... sad to say... in that was I USED to be a better person O.o The End
    PastelLime PastelLime
    Oct 30, 2015

    I somehow managed to splash sauce onto a wall

    that was lyke 2 feet from where I was standing, just by opening up a can of spaghetti .^,
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8
    16-17, M
    Jan 3, 2015

    What Is My Mental Illness?

    Well I'm not sure.. so I'm asking you. To start the explanation of something left unexplained for a decade now, I'm too confused to know. Confusion and guilt are the most consistent emotions. Let's start with the present, how I've been in bed for two days. I can't sleep at...
    honeyglo honeyglo
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 6, 2011


    My childhood was a disaster, and I often get looks of absolute horror when I tell the stories. I often feel like I can't really, truly and deeply relate to most people, because I don't have a background that many people can relate to. I do the best I can, but honestly, people who...
    waterbaby waterbaby
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Dec 24, 2009

    This acct was closed earlier today

    but is still open for now so might as well use it once more. Leaving someone i love is not something i have ever done before.Got married very young but with everything else going on, even that is in the air. Wife not talking to me after iwas upset earlier today over leaving...
    deleted deleted
    Jan 2

    It shouldnt bother me you moving on.

    ..I didnt think I liked you that much...I didnt think itd have this effect on me...but it hurts and idk why...
    bellrose2886 bellrose2886
    26-30, F
    Sep 6, 2015


    I shut my emotions down in December 2010 after an emotional trauma. I felt nothing. Thanks to a couple of great teachers I had, I got some of them back, but I still don't have the worst ones. Shame, for example. Or any of the others I got from emotional abuse. I was a mess...
    chococat159 chococat159
    Mar 25, 2013

    Messy Messy Word Of Mine

     I feel fat, but I'm not fat. All I've eaten in 3 days is 2 slices of pizza. It's not intentional. I am so ******* lazy, I cant even be bothered making a coffee. I cant be stuffed doing the laundry and I'm out of clean underwear, so I just dont bother wearing any. I guess I...
    Jovalley Jovalley
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 2, 2010

    Not even of the hot mess variety.

    Just a complete mess.
    geeky4script geeky4script
    18-21, F
    Mar 17, 2014

    i don't know what to do at all with anything

    or how i feel or assfffghskskll i don't know!!!!!!!!
    jenosaida jenosaida
    1 Response May 2, 2015

    It's funny, I use to be the girl

    who always laughed, smiled and was just happy... Now I'm feeling numb and a mess.
    anonymouschicky anonymouschicky
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 17, 2014

    I am so annoyed right

    now I basically accidentally revealed stuff my mother n sister told me not to and both of them fu*ck me up. Mother slaps me whilst sister thinks its okay to take advantage of the situation and kick me . I haven't eaten since yesterday
    taytay1401 taytay1401
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Oct 8, 2015

    I don't even know where to begin,

    I feel as though I am loosing my battle to keep the past from affecting my future. I'm a mom of 2 girls and married, that's about the jist of my "family". My mom only contacts me if she wants to see our girls, but she acts like there's no problems. My brother she treats like he...
    rdhdstepchld rdhdstepchld
    36-40, F
    Feb 1, 2014

    All Over The Place

    I'm a total mess. I can't even keep up with myself. Sometimes, I'm running from myself. Only mature people see potential in me. I want stability but can never achieve it. I can't handle money properly, can't keep things clean (even though I'm a germ-a-phobe), can't pass my...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe
    2 Responses May 5, 2011

    I Am A Mess

    I totally know i messed up a lot, but i ended up teaching myself ..felt no regret and moving forward...c:
    micy micy
    Jun 2, 2012

    I feel like I'm at constant war with myself.

    A part of me wants to do and be like everyone else, but my other side is telling me to stay faithful. It's hard dealing with myself and these influences. I'm always bombarded by these influences everyday and it sometimes makes me feel alone. I want to stand strong in my faith...
    Coletteisawesome Coletteisawesome
    18-21, F
    Aug 27, 2014

    I have feelings that I know are too deep in my

    consciousness that they became a part of me. For a few years now, I have had difficulty suppressing an anxiety that keeps me from succeeding in my life. I have multiple fears, including the fear of failure and success(Is that even possible?) Everything I do that has consequences...
    candisos candisos
    18-21, F
    Mar 28, 2015

    I am a true mess. Im a muslim girl

    who loves her religion, but can't fix herself to follow it properly. my parents divorced when i was young. i don't know who my dad is really, but i think i had a good childhood, but i always felt like everyone is better off. I don't feel like explaining my life, but i just want...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 7, 2014

    I'm happy and I'm sad.

    I'm sweet and I'm sour. I'm smart and I'm ignorant. I'm kind and I'm cruel. I'm in love but I'm not sure. I'm deep and I'm shallow. I'm pretty and I'm ugly. I'm a friend and an enemy. I love and I hate. I fix and I break. I'm an angel and I'm evil. I wanna live and I wanna die...
    MargoRothSpiegelman MargoRothSpiegelman
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 22, 2014

    No Longer A Mess

    We all know how unpleasant it is.. i too had an emotional and pain shutdown. A reflexologist confirmed it when i was very young. i was a mess because of the abusive early environment around me and then was lost for a long time after that. it really is unpleasant being alone, lost...
    uprisingneed uprisingneed
    31-35, M
    Sep 10, 2013

    I really don't see anything in me

    that would make my mother proud. I have made so many bad decisions and took too many wrong turns to a point where it couldn't be any worse- trouble with the police- kicked out of school. Today all the students are going to school it's supposed to be the first day back but I am...
    taytay1401 taytay1401
    13-15, F
    Sep 3, 2015

    Here I am waking for the day.

    ..slowly. I am sore and my shoulders are tired from painting walls and ceilings. As I type away here, I watch my fingers..the two of them..lol.. my index ones, that do all the typing. ;-) I see enough paint on my hands, in my hair and ..lordy be.. I fell asleep with the clothes...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2014

    I've lost myself again

    and all the dark thoughts are coming back. I've never thought about suicide as much as now. Where did it all go so wrong?
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 11, 2015

    I am just plan screwed up.

    Nothing else to say.
    deleted deleted
    Aug 16, 2015

    Too much excuses! I am sick

    and tired of waiting! I am always on a losing end... When will I matter again? I hate this feeling of being at the bottom of the food chain... I wish I could be numb for a while...
    Mikey022 Mikey022
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 29, 2014

    Complete mess of a person,

    a utter waste of space. There isn't any hope for me :(
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2014

    The longer I'm on here the worse my grammar

    gets. Words go missing. Probably because I'm always here in the middle of the night or when emotional.
    Spoticus Spoticus
    18-21, F
    Nov 24, 2015

    Im Being Bullied At School And I really Don't

    Want to Go Back To The Same School This September I Cut And My Mom Just Says Stop Being ***** I Am Seeing A Therapist And I Told Her Im Insterested In Living With My Dad and Changing Schools My Mom Said No I Honestly Just want to Die And cant go back to that school
    Makemeover11 Makemeover11
    22-25, F
    Aug 10, 2014

    Everything is a mess at the moment,

    geez. I don't know where to start honestly. Good news first I guess, my sister will soon give birth to a son! Whooh! That's amazing, and I hope I'll be a great aunt B) Too bad they live in the neighbouring country. Well, we're going to visit them this summer which I hope will be...
    Mjaah Mjaah
    16-17, F
    Mar 29

    seriously. I know I have been having a hard

    time... but man... I feel alone... and sad ... and tired... I don't want to feel like this. but I do... I feel like my emotions are out of control. I just honestly don't want to feel this way anymore. I want it to go away...
    Luna77721 Luna77721
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 21, 2014
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