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I Am a Monster

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    Monstrum (latin For Monster)

    We're strange and dangerous we exist within the lore of those who don't believe we are real we are frightening. We exist in hundreds of forms no two are alike. I get angered, my eyes turn red, lungs heave, jaw locks, just your basic emotionally induced mythological mortal-monster...
    Purebrednewfie Purebrednewfie 18-21, M Sep 9, 2012

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    I Can't Hide

    November 1st, one am, I'm washing off my black and blue pace paint. I was a skeleton for a couple hours. There's black smeared everywhere, all over the washcloth and my cheeks. After several minutes of attempting to clean it up I look up into the face of the person staring back...
    brokenteeth brokenteeth 18-21, F Nov 1, 2012

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    I think the reason I've never really really

    enjoyed sex it because my best friend and my boyfriend were never the same person.
    gentlepanic gentlepanic 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    Ever felt that you were different?

    Ever felt foreign in your own house? Ever been so angry, you almost put someone you love in danger? Ever been molested at such a young age, you didn't know what it meant at that time but as you grew up, you realised and you're disgusted with yourself? Well I have. I'm not...
    thatbritishchick thatbritishchick 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I am a monster. But I'm not the kind most think

    of. I am the kind that hides, but hides in plain sight. On the outside I appear just fine. But on the inside I am very dangerous. I know more than I want to. I feel too deeply-all feelings set me off. They stir up a tempest in my dark void of a soul. The storm awakens my...
    TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns 18-21 1 Response Feb 16

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    I'm a monster- Don't be surprised

    if you see me on the news
    SpacePirate SpacePirate 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 11

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    It's The Devil Inside Me I Don't Trust

    I have had thoughts and feelings so intense that I've been afraid of myself.  What I may be capable of doing someday if the opportunity presented itself.  I have acted on it before and have been a danger to myself and another.  More than one occasion.  Only certain people at...
    SomeEPMember SomeEPMember 18-21 2 Responses Dec 27, 2010

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    Monster...

    Who are we to judge? We are also the monsters that lurk in the deepths of our pennie mind. No one is to blame but the thing that straves for death,blood..Fear... Don't blame me or anyone for your foolishness,You were the One who started this.Am I wrong to tell you the truth?To...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 13, 2011

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    im a monster... everyone in my community says

    so even my family... the kids bully me... the adults encourage it and even join in... even strangers join in their "fun" i was adopted... taken out of a bad family situation. ive always been different... i see things... know things i shouldnt... ive always been non social... and...
    GhostieDSE GhostieDSE 18-21, M 9 Responses Jun 12

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    Closet

    A childs definition of a monster is the boogeyman or the closet monster. an adults interpritation is somebody who destroys lives. viciousness, calousness is a motivation of an animal not a monster. Monsters arn't real.
    unsub66 unsub66 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 3, 2010

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    They Fear For Me

    If I don't conceal it, It will kill them. If I don't get rid of it, It will feed and kill. The creature Brought me to tears Of the thoughts It wishes to do. I see blood, Bones, Flesh, My loved ones... I fear it, But I'm stuck with it.
    YamiNoSukai YamiNoSukai 16-17, F 7 Responses Dec 25, 2010

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    -The Beast In Me-

    Sometimes I feel like a monster. I feel the beast in my soul and it's dark lonely and cold. I think everyman has some sort of monster in his soul which drives some to commit acts of evil. And other days I sort of feel like Herman Munster.
    JimMorrisonRocks JimMorrisonRocks 26-30, M Oct 20, 2013

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    It Is No Choice

    It is no choice that I am this way... That I harm without will, yet have no regrets in doing so. My touch is heated, filled with lust but it is hunger, not sustenance. Oh how many have felt my caress and thought they shall feed from me. My passion is dark fire, coming in waves...
    Wolfeyes Wolfeyes 36-40, M Oct 20, 2013

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    Something Supernatural

    Everyone has a dark side about them and I am no exception and while I am not actually a real monster...sometimes I feel there is something supernatural about me, I kind of feel that way at most times. I'm not the sick, twisted freak everybody thinks i am, i'm just a human...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Mar 25, 2013

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    I Feel Less And Less Human Every Day

    Ever since the beginning of 2012 i've been feeling less and less human. more like a beast than anything. i move faster than i normally do, i get manic for absolutely no reason at all. my moods are so erratic that i can't stand it. i growl out of nowhere for no reason as well...
    BornWarrior87 BornWarrior87 22-25, M 2 Responses May 1, 2012

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    In The Desert By Stephen Crane

    In the desert I saw a creature, naked, b3stial, Who, squatting upon the ground, Held his heart in his hands, And ate of it. I said, “Is it good, friend?” “It is bitter—bitter,” he answered; “But I like it “Because it is bitter, “And because it is my heart.”
    TheMotherFuckingFox TheMotherFuckingFox 18-21, M Jul 12, 2013

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    Because of what I know

    and what I have seen I am a danger to everyone-even myself.
    TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns 18-21 2 Responses Mar 3

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    There is a tipping point,

    a line which once crossed I know there can be no return. I crave what's on the other side, that beast inside my head that batters and tears against the cage that holds it as it screams in rage. I have thoughts and desires no person should have to live with, fantasies that would...
    demonmonster demonmonster 41-45, M Jan 11

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    Something I have to control.

    I'm  a monster, this is what I am, this is what I will be, I cannot stop myself, I try hard to think differently, to act normal, but some things are unchangeable. I only think of horrible things, violence, death, fights, war, rape. Even people who I know, they all get...
    Winterbass Winterbass 18-21, M 7 Responses Oct 9, 2010

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    Yes Sireee :)

     i'm a fat wittle goblin. idgaf right now though. Suck on those pickles.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 14, 2011

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    Failing Resistance

    Sitting in my world, Looking out from within, I envy the people And the world that theyre in, Looks so ****** normal And so happy to me, Ignorance a bliss I want it all I want to be free. Free from the voices The things I can smell, bleed and see, The Whispers, The...
    ravenge ravenge 26-30, F 13 Responses Feb 26, 2011

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    My father married my stepmother 5 years ago.

    I thought nothing of it, besides I was only 10 and they were together for what seemed like forever. My father moved to New York to live with her when I was only 2 and I stayed at home with my mom. I visited him every summer and she seemed pretty nice while they were dating, but...
    kyky789 kyky789 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    Monster Within

    No, I wouldn't call myself a monster yet however I do believe that under the right circumstances, with the proper motivation and in certain environments: we all have the capacity to become monsters. Some will never have to attain that knowledge and they will live peacefully with...
    RoaringFlameLostinShadow RoaringFlameLostinShadow 31-35, M Aug 20, 2012

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    Before I begin my post,

    let me just say that I don't need or want any of your judgments. I have judged myself far harsher than any of you could ever dream, and this is only one of the many reasons I belong in this experience... I have been having marital problems for several years now. Without going...
    IamMimic IamMimic 70+, M Jan 31

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    My Dark Sick Twisted Side

    she's a monster.that cant be control. consuming me day and night with thoughts so troubling and so heinous. it makes me feel like im the monster. i could hear her dark trace-inducing voice hypnotizing me to believing and tempting me to do the most stupidest and imprudent things...
    moodyconfusion moodyconfusion 13-15, F Nov 6, 2013

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    Do I Have A Split Personality

    I think i have a split personality because one minute i can be as sweet as sugar as my mum used to say then the next i turn into an evil demonic freak all i can think about is killing people and pain is this normal or should i go seek professional help because it scares me coz...
    unwrittensuicide unwrittensuicide 16-17, F 6 Responses Feb 22, 2010

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    RAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

                           HEHEHEHE
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M 5 Responses Mar 22, 2010

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    Toxic Personality

    I don't know why I feel the way I do. I'm scared all of the time. I am getting weak. There is nothing that I ever want. When I think of having things, I get angry. I get angry when I think about rebuilding what I once had. I want no future. **** everything. I am too broken for...
    zbbdsamc zbbdsamc 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 19, 2013

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    I feel like I'm a monster.

    If it wasn't for the **** I went through as a kid I wouldn't have multiple personalities. Specifically one named Sigma. He's so sadistic and he'll do anything to ruin other peoples lives, including mine. He can pretend to be me by mimicking my voice and deceive my friends. I'm...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Disgusted And Ashamed - Forgive Me Banshee

    For 7 days I have been full of deception. I have known for this short time that blarracuda is Venusapple. I added her to my circle not knowing she was Venusapple. She has been likable as blarracuda...then she confessed to me on Nov.1st. My first reflex was anger. Then I...
    KrazyAuntKim KrazyAuntKim 46-50, F 19 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    Lurking Inside

    I can be very sweet and helpful but inside there is a monster lurking fighting to come out. I am aroused by violence. I work hard each day on this person others see. Few have ever seen the real me, once they have they are never the same.
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jan 31, 2010

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    I'M On Eage

    im a monster.... i hurt myself lie a monster i dont hurt other people thou :) but what i so to myself is worse. 10 times worse.i dont know why i do it. or i do i do it because it feels good. it feels great the first cut builds and soon its 10 or 20 cuts soon its more and more...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 11, 2013

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    I Am a

        i am a monster sometimes . my anger is way out of control and i  become a monster when i get that angry . i become someone that can't even recognize myself that is why i feel that i am a monster .
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 2, 2009

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    I'm A Monster

    It's not the first time, but I was out wandering the streets and someone called me a monster.
    WhoisChaff WhoisChaff 26-30 1 Response Feb 14, 2012

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    The Boy, The Man, The monster I want u to

    write the part of the man which entitles u tellin how u became a man the angry and dirty side of u as a man drifting into u becoming a monster. .. I don't know why man, but I feel my self slipping It's probably all this anguish I've gradually been sipping I might be...
    MikB92 MikB92 22-25, M Mar 2

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    there is a monster lurking inside of me ,

    no matter how much i work to get something i want in the end i wouldn't get it, because as u people wouldn't have noticed monsters are the lonely beings in the world, because even god who cares a lot about humans would try to kill or eliminate monsters from the face of the earth...
    dayyam dayyam 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 23

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    Tonight- I Meet Myself For The First Time

    I'm depressed because I have become this thing of a mess and how I really am can never be fully shown to any person because one hit and they'd be scarred for life. Once people think they know me I eventually show them a deeper layer and it takes them a while to handle and accept...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2013

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    I was dumped over text by my dream girl 2

    months ago. we have dated for 4 months but we spent tons of time together and I know that I love her. She wants nothing to do with me now and she always ignores me and flirts with guys already even tho she once claimed to love me. I've thought about her every single day and...
    dylanneo98 dylanneo98 16-17, M Mar 8

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    In My Own Way

    Irony is,I'm a monster with a demon inside.I have to fight that demon to be a "lesser evil" for the people I care for.Bottom line is;I'm a monster in ways I can't even begin to divulge in their stand-alone forms.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    RHSK143 RHSK143 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 22, 2010

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    I destroy relationships.

    I cause best friends to become worst enemies. I rip the town from its roots, shaking everything and everyone in it. I ruin lives. I am a monster. Don't tell me otherwise because lying is for losers.
    DarkSoulInsaneHeart DarkSoulInsaneHeart 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    The Monster in Me: "I want to see your FEAR.

    I want to see it all over your face and all over your body. I want to watch you cry and tremble in terror, I want to hear you beg and scream, I want to bask in your misery. I want to make you feel the complete epitome of powerlessness at my hands. I want to drive you crazy, make...
    ItsInAllofUs ItsInAllofUs 22-25 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    How are you feeling right now?

    If you don't feel okay,don't be hesitate to tell me,it is really okay and I will listen
    alddbd alddbd 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 6

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    How are you feeling right now?

    If you don't feel okay,don't be hesitate to tell me,it is really okay and I will listen
    alddbd alddbd 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 6

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    Cooooookies >:(

    Give me your cookies or I will eat you children~! >:( 
    JnRxRockz JnRxRockz 16-17 1 Response Feb 26, 2011

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    hehe i drink monsters like crazy i dont know why they r just soo good.. i sometimes go a day without eating and just drink monsters.. lol is that bad?
    1stayingstrong 1stayingstrong 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    If anyone out there is an actual monster hunter and not some fake bastard then message me. I want to be a monster hunter and I know all the risks. I know it's dangerous but I'm...
    HuntingThings101 HuntingThings101 16-17, F Jul 22

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    If anyone out there is an actual monster hunter and not some fake bastard then message me. I want to be a monster hunter and I know all the risks. I know it's dangerous but I'm...
    HuntingThings101 HuntingThings101 16-17, F Jul 22

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    The tickle monster side had come out of me. I need to tickle someone! Do anyone in the mood for some tickle torture message me. Girls only please
    oceanskywalker oceanskywalker 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    Both me and my brother are snuggle monsters. We both end up snuggling on the sofa during a good movie!
    Wattouat Wattouat 18-21, F Jul 6

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    Hey Don't you guys know monster is really bad for you n I don't even think it teased good but I do know of a energy drink that I like and is actually good for you if you wanna try...
    rosiebloom rosiebloom 22-25, F Jul 6

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    Hey Don't you guys know monster is really bad for you n I don't even think it taste good but I do know of a energy drink that I like and is actually good for you if you wanna try...
    rosiebloom rosiebloom 22-25, F Jul 6

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