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I Am a Monster

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    I am not the kind of person you want to be

    friends with or get to know. I seem to destroy everything and everyone in my path whether I try to or not. After months of searching and trying to figure out why I am so alone, it has all come down to this conclusion. I am a monster of a human, someone so ridiculously awful. I...
    PrincessKayleigh PrincessKayleigh 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 23, 2014

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    Failing Resistance

    Sitting in my world, Looking out from within, I envy the people And the world that theyre in, Looks so ****** normal And so happy to me, Ignorance a bliss I want it all I want to be free. Free from the voices The things I can smell, bleed and see, The Whispers, The...
    ravenge ravenge 26-30, F 13 Responses Feb 26, 2011

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    In My Own Way

    Irony is,I'm a monster with a demon inside.I have to fight that demon to be a "lesser evil" for the people I care for.Bottom line is;I'm a monster in ways I can't even begin to divulge in their stand-alone forms.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I feel like I'm a monster.

    If it wasn't for the **** I went through as a kid I wouldn't have multiple personalities. Specifically one named Sigma. He's so sadistic and he'll do anything to ruin other peoples lives, including mine. He can pretend to be me by mimicking my voice and deceive my friends. I'm...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 30, 2014

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    Hey My name is rose I'm a Succubus vampire

    real life I have little fangs I don't sleep in coffins only a regular bed about me I don't sparkle in the sunlight that was a lie also we do see in cameras that's a human lie about us about vampires we love drinking blood I like human blood with my diet blood will be animal...
    vampirecastle vampirecastle 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2015

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    Kingdarkroom Kingdarkroom 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 2, 2014

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    I'm a monster, because I've done things

    that will bring tears to my loved ones...
    WolfsterTheWere WolfsterTheWere 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 29, 2015

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    It's The Devil Inside Me I Don't Trust

    I have had thoughts and feelings so intense that I've been afraid of myself.  What I may be capable of doing someday if the opportunity presented itself.  I have acted on it before and have been a danger to myself and another.  More than one occasion.  Only certain people at...
    SomeEPMember SomeEPMember 18-21 2 Responses Dec 27, 2010

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    I am a monster. But I'm not the kind most think

    of. I am the kind that hides, but hides in plain sight. On the outside I appear just fine. But on the inside I am very dangerous. I know more than I want to. I feel too deeply-all feelings set me off. They stir up a tempest in my dark void of a soul. The storm awakens my...
    TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns 18-21 1 Response Feb 16, 2014

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    Monster Sharp claws,

    Torn skin All from the monster Within Dark blood, Gushing arms The monster has come And will come again
    sighselly sighselly 13-15, F Nov 12, 2014

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    I Feel Less And Less Human Every Day

    Ever since the beginning of 2012 i've been feeling less and less human. more like a beast than anything. i move faster than i normally do, i get manic for absolutely no reason at all. my moods are so erratic that i can't stand it. i growl out of nowhere for no reason as well...
    BornWarrior87 BornWarrior87 22-25, M 2 Responses May 1, 2012

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    elKraken elKraken 70+ 1 Response Nov 14, 2014

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    "why should I apologize

    for the monster I gave become when the ones who made me this way don't"
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 5, 2014

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    All lifelines, no matter how deluded,

    will never measure to the sheer amount of infinity I've compressed. It's not like I wanted to be this way, but to be honest, I've never really wanted anything. If society as a whole was to examine the base core of my way of life, maybe they'd stop calling me insane? Perhaps. But...
    Darktooth41 Darktooth41 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    Ever felt that you were different?

    Ever felt foreign in your own house? Ever been so angry, you almost put someone you love in danger? Ever been molested at such a young age, you didn't know what it meant at that time but as you grew up, you realised and you're disgusted with yourself? Well I have. I'm not...
    thatbritishchick thatbritishchick 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2014

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    I used to be afraid of monsters

    now my powers are awake in the boogie man to them a myth a ancient dragon demon hybrid a predator that won't hesitate to put one down the werewolfs in town won't go near my house
    Poisonmyst Poisonmyst 16-17, M Oct 4, 2015

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    I believe humans thinks we are monsters

    because we drink there blood to survivor makes us powerful and stronger about me I don't care what humans thinks not believe in real vampires some vampires r mean but I'm a nice vampire you will ever met no I'm not a monster ;)
    romanceVampire12 romanceVampire12 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2015

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    The dreams I have just make me feel like I'm

    gonna become a monster. Everytime I have a dream. I always seem to turn into some sort of creature that has the choice to either kill the woman that stole my mans heart or just be alone with the thought of him knowing that I'm some hideous creature that tried to kill his love...
    Dynasty2000 Dynasty2000 16-17, F Nov 11, 2014

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    Like everyone says , im never allowed outside

    without a mask that's covers the face of the " devil " or so my mother calls me , I'm always smiling , everything I do , it's permanent , people have lied to me so many times I know better then to believe someone when they promise to except me without my cover , I'm surrounded...
    turntechbiology turntechbiology 18-21, F Oct 12, 2014

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    I am not human I gave up on

    that a long time ago
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    This site alone is a great reason

    why we should never ban abortion
    TicToxic TicToxic 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 15, 2015

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    I'm a monster because i have this obsession

    when I'm holding a knife where I imagine what it would be like to get stabbed or to stab the person in front of me... Sometimes I have a daydream where I kiss the person in front of me sometimes it's killing the one who's talking to me.
    anazahra anazahra 13-15, F Nov 26, 2015

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    I Am a

        i am a monster sometimes . my anger is way out of control and i  become a monster when i get that angry . i become someone that can't even recognize myself that is why i feel that i am a monster .
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 2, 2009

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    Closet

    A childs definition of a monster is the boogeyman or the closet monster. an adults interpritation is somebody who destroys lives. viciousness, calousness is a motivation of an animal not a monster. Monsters arn't real.
    unsub66 unsub66 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 3, 2010

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    Lurking Inside

    I can be very sweet and helpful but inside there is a monster lurking fighting to come out. I am aroused by violence. I work hard each day on this person others see. Few have ever seen the real me, once they have they are never the same.
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jan 31, 2010

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    I am a monster not because what ive don

    but what i can do without regrett people broke me and left my pieces on the ground and darkness picked Them up martial arts was the glue and dit Them back in one Now i am a monster they created and they fear but there is still one piece in me missing
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 1, 2015

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    I destroy relationships.

    I cause best friends to become worst enemies. I rip the town from its roots, shaking everything and everyone in it. I ruin lives. I am a monster. Don't tell me otherwise because lying is for losers.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    there is a monster lurking inside of me ,

    no matter how much i work to get something i want in the end i wouldn't get it, because as u people wouldn't have noticed monsters are the lonely beings in the world, because even god who cares a lot about humans would try to kill or eliminate monsters from the face of the earth...
    dayyam dayyam 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    I walk talk and sound like a man,

    but somehow im not. Ive always been different inside, my clockwork wound a little too tight and some of the gears sprang loose. So i dont move exactly right or carry myself in exactly the way i should, that sameness that covers you, doesnt cover me. That same sameness that...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M Oct 3, 2014

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    Because of what I know

    and what I have seen I am a danger to everyone-even myself.
    TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns 18-21 2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I... I hurt people. I hurt people physically

    and emotionally and I need help. I can't take this much longer. My friends don't even know me anymore. I don't even know myself. Please, I'm begging for help. I don't know how it happened... I just... Changed. I don't want to hurt any more people, and I need friends. Every once...
    Skull12340 Skull12340 18-21, M Mar 31, 2015

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    When i was young i was always happy

    and made others happy too, but when i was bullied like for almost hole my life i began to hate people more now i have bad habbits. I don't blame the guys who bullied me cause they made me stronger but they did leave me broken. There was a time when i thought hating made me feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 6, 2015

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    im a monster... everyone in my community says

    so even my family... the kids bully me... the adults encourage it and even join in... even strangers join in their "fun" i was adopted... taken out of a bad family situation. ive always been different... i see things... know things i shouldnt... ive always been non social... and...
    GhostieDSE GhostieDSE 18-21, M 7 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    How much I debated putting this in the "I have

    Borderline Personality Disorder" group but without exception everything I posted there drew people to me that I had to block or who felt they needed to block me... and thats so tiresome to me now. Why did I post here? Because I cant control what I am. And what I am hurts people...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 13

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    Disgusted And Ashamed - Forgive Me Banshee

    For 7 days I have been full of deception. I have known for this short time that blarracuda is Venusapple. I added her to my circle not knowing she was Venusapple. She has been likable as blarracuda...then she confessed to me on Nov.1st. My first reflex was anger. Then I...
    KrazyAuntKim KrazyAuntKim 46-50, F 18 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    etdragonstrom etdragonstrom 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 23, 2015

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    Remember when people thought the world was

    going to end back in 2012? Well, I actually WANTED it to happen. It's not like I wanted the Earth to explode, just something to reset humanity, like a pandemic or a giant storm. Just every time I saw something in the news that seemed to be a hint, I got a little jolt of...
    Corick Corick 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 6, 2015

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    Yet ironically I think

    if people shown themselves in reality as they appear on EP, I'd probably love everyone not condemn them :0
    nihiless nihiless 36-40, F Nov 22, 2015

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    Something Supernatural

    Everyone has a dark side about them and I am no exception and while I am not actually a real monster...sometimes I feel there is something supernatural about me, I kind of feel that way at most times. I'm not the sick, twisted freak everybody thinks i am, i'm just a human...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Mar 25, 2013

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    He may lay dormant inside me,

    he's still there through, and not one who will emotionally break your heart but physically
    Hotdudez78 Hotdudez78 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 13, 2014

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    "Monster" Ever since I could remember,

    Everything inside of me, Just wanted to fit in (oh oh oh oh) I was never one for pretenders, Everything I tried to be, Just wouldn't settle in (oh oh oh oh) If I told you what I was, Would you turn your back on me? And if I seem dangerous, Would you be scared? I get the feeling...
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F May 17, 2015

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