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I Am a Monster

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    Before I begin my post,

    let me just say that I don't need or want any of your judgments. I have judged myself far harsher than any of you could ever dream, and this is only one of the many reasons I belong in this experience... I have been having marital problems for several years now. Without going...
    IamMimic IamMimic 70+, M Jan 31

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    Because of what I know

    and what I have seen I am a danger to everyone-even myself.
    IcyDragon IcyDragon 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    Toxic Personality

    I don't know why I feel the way I do. I'm scared all of the time. I am getting weak. There is nothing that I ever want. When I think of having things, I get angry. I get angry when I think about rebuilding what I once had. I want no future. **** everything. I am too broken for...
    zbbdsamc zbbdsamc 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 19, 2013

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    RHSK143 RHSK143 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 22, 2010

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    I'm a monster- Don't be surprised

    if you see me on the news
    SpacePirate SpacePirate 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 11

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    I am a monster. But I'm not the kind most think

    of. I am the kind that hides, but hides in plain sight. On the outside I appear just fine. But on the inside I am very dangerous. I know more than I want to. I feel too deeply-all feelings set me off. They stir up a tempest in my dark void of a soul. The storm awakens my...
    IcyDragon IcyDragon 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    RAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

                           HEHEHEHE
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M 5 Responses Mar 22, 2010

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    In My Own Way

    Irony is,I'm a monster with a demon inside.I have to fight that demon to be a "lesser evil" for the people I care for.Bottom line is;I'm a monster in ways I can't even begin to divulge in their stand-alone forms.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    Something Supernatural

    Everyone has a dark side about them and I am no exception and while I am not actually a real monster...sometimes I feel there is something supernatural about me, I kind of feel that way at most times. I'm not the sick, twisted freak everybody thinks i am, i'm just a human...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Mar 25, 2013

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    Something I have to control.

    I'm  a monster, this is what I am, this is what I will be, I cannot stop myself, I try hard to think differently, to act normal, but some things are unchangeable. I only think of horrible things, violence, death, fights, war, rape. Even people who I know, they all get...
    Winterbass Winterbass 18-21, M 7 Responses Oct 9, 2010

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    I Can't Hide

    November 1st, one am, I'm washing off my black and blue pace paint. I was a skeleton for a couple hours. There's black smeared everywhere, all over the washcloth and my cheeks. After several minutes of attempting to clean it up I look up into the face of the person staring back...
    brokenteeth brokenteeth 18-21, F Nov 1, 2012

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    Tonight- I Meet Myself For The First Time

    I'm depressed because I have become this thing of a mess and how I really am can never be fully shown to any person because one hit and they'd be scarred for life. Once people think they know me I eventually show them a deeper layer and it takes them a while to handle and accept...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2013

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    Yes Sireee :)

     i'm a fat wittle goblin. idgaf right now though. Suck on those pickles.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 14, 2011

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    In The Desert By Stephen Crane

    In the desert I saw a creature, naked, b3stial, Who, squatting upon the ground, Held his heart in his hands, And ate of it. I said, “Is it good, friend?” “It is bitter—bitter,” he answered; “But I like it “Because it is bitter, “And because it is my heart.”
    TheMotherFuckingFox TheMotherFuckingFox 18-21, M Jul 12, 2013

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    I was dumped over text by my dream girl 2

    months ago. we have dated for 4 months but we spent tons of time together and I know that I love her. She wants nothing to do with me now and she always ignores me and flirts with guys already even tho she once claimed to love me. I've thought about her every single day and...
    dylanneo98 dylanneo98 16-17, M Mar 8

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    Monster...

    Who are we to judge? We are also the monsters that lurk in the deepths of our pennie mind. No one is to blame but the thing that straves for death,blood..Fear... Don't blame me or anyone for your foolishness,You were the One who started this.Am I wrong to tell you the truth?To...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 13, 2011

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    There is a tipping point,

    a line which once crossed I know there can be no return. I crave what's on the other side, that beast inside my head that batters and tears against the cage that holds it as it screams in rage. I have thoughts and desires no person should have to live with, fantasies that would...
    demonmonster demonmonster 41-45, M Jan 11

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    I think the reason I've never really really

    enjoyed sex it because my best friend and my boyfriend were never the same person.
    gentlepanic gentlepanic 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    My father married my stepmother 5 years ago.

    I thought nothing of it, besides I was only 10 and they were together for what seemed like forever. My father moved to New York to live with her when I was only 2 and I stayed at home with my mom. I visited him every summer and she seemed pretty nice while they were dating, but...
    kyky789 kyky789 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    Lurking Inside

    I can be very sweet and helpful but inside there is a monster lurking fighting to come out. I am aroused by violence. I work hard each day on this person others see. Few have ever seen the real me, once they have they are never the same.
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jan 31, 2010

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    Monstrum (latin For Monster)

    We're strange and dangerous we exist within the lore of those who don't believe we are real we are frightening. We exist in hundreds of forms no two are alike. I get angered, my eyes turn red, lungs heave, jaw locks, just your basic emotionally induced mythological mortal-monster...
    Purebrednewfie Purebrednewfie 13-15, M Sep 9, 2012

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    Monster!!

    yes, i am the moo moo monster!! lol P.S. i have got no idea why i decided to say that, so just ignore me!!
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 2 Responses Jul 31, 2011

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    The Boy, The Man, The monster I want u to

    write the part of the man which entitles u tellin how u became a man the angry and dirty side of u as a man drifting into u becoming a monster. .. I don't know why man, but I feel my self slipping It's probably all this anguish I've gradually been sipping I might be...
    MikB92 MikB92 18-21, M Mar 2

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    I'm tired of beans a monster.

    I am tired of being able to walk out in 30 below temperatures and be just fine. I am tiredbbeing a creature ice and cold. I just don't feel that froze numbness in my soul anymore. I have tried so incredibly hard to be more than what I am. I can't even be who I was meant to be.
    nermy77 nermy77 22-25, T Jan 13

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    I'm A Monster

    It's not the first time, but I was out wandering the streets and someone called me a monster.
    WhoisChaff WhoisChaff 26-30 1 Response Feb 14, 2012

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    "you know it's bad when your girlfriend is a 10

    and yet you still don't want to sleep with her"..thanks *******. Good luck finding someone else who wants you.
    Vixen2010 Vixen2010 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 8

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    Ever felt that you were different?

    Ever felt foreign in your own house? Ever been so angry, you almost put someone you love in danger? Ever been molested at such a young age, you didn't know what it meant at that time but as you grew up, you realised and you're disgusted with yourself? Well I have. I'm not...
    thatbritishchick thatbritishchick 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    Closet

    A childs definition of a monster is the boogeyman or the closet monster. an adults interpritation is somebody who destroys lives. viciousness, calousness is a motivation of an animal not a monster. Monsters arn't real.
    unsub66 unsub66 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 3, 2010

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    I'M On Eage

    im a monster.... i hurt myself lie a monster i dont hurt other people thou :) but what i so to myself is worse. 10 times worse.i dont know why i do it. or i do i do it because it feels good. it feels great the first cut builds and soon its 10 or 20 cuts soon its more and more...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 11, 2013

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    I Am a

        i am a monster sometimes . my anger is way out of control and i  become a monster when i get that angry . i become someone that can't even recognize myself that is why i feel that i am a monster .
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 2, 2009

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    Monster Within

    No, I wouldn't call myself a monster yet however I do believe that under the right circumstances, with the proper motivation and in certain environments: we all have the capacity to become monsters. Some will never have to attain that knowledge and they will live peacefully with...
    RoaringFlameLostinShadow RoaringFlameLostinShadow 31-35, M Aug 20, 2012

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    Disgusted And Ashamed - Forgive Me Banshee

    For 7 days I have been full of deception. I have known for this short time that blarracuda is Venusapple. I added her to my circle not knowing she was Venusapple. She has been likable as blarracuda...then she confessed to me on Nov.1st. My first reflex was anger. Then I...
    KrazyAuntKim KrazyAuntKim 46-50, F 19 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    Do I Have A Split Personality

    I think i have a split personality because one minute i can be as sweet as sugar as my mum used to say then the next i turn into an evil demonic freak all i can think about is killing people and pain is this normal or should i go seek professional help because it scares me coz...
    unwrittensuicide unwrittensuicide 16-17, F 6 Responses Feb 22, 2010

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    Monster

    Im emo so people think im a monster I love it <3
    SceneZ SceneZ 13-15, F Mar 19, 2012

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    The Monster in Me: "I want to see your FEAR.

    I want to see it all over your face and all over your body. I want to watch you cry and tremble in terror, I want to hear you beg and scream, I want to bask in your misery. I want to make you feel the complete epitome of powerlessness at my hands. I want to drive you crazy, make...
    ItsInAllofUs ItsInAllofUs 22-25 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    One of two top specialists in the world. The other expert sent for me, and I found myself being shipped to Japan in a wooden crate. (Evidently, everyone arrived in Japan in crates...
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    Do you want to know what ****** me off in the worst way anyone can imagine? Self-absorbed, self-righteous, egotistical, cruel, rude, judgmental ********. Do you know where I find...
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    I am monster all of the time. Just be careful not to surprise me if you ever meet me in real life. Just a warning ☺ you'll regret it.
    silentlyhurtingeveryday silentlyhurtingeveryday 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Okay soo I like telling everyone my suffering... Yal seem to enjoy it.. Sooo sit back and read it!! Okayy this one is about the first my boyfriend found out my weakness.. Grrr it...
    rebelricka94 rebelricka94 18-21, F Mar 19

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    You're so strange, people occasionally wonder if you're from another world.You don't try to be different, but you see most things from a very unique, very offbeat perspective...
    UnchartedOne UnchartedOne 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    I think the title explains everything pretty good. But never forget it.
    silentlyhurtingeveryday silentlyhurtingeveryday 13-15, F Mar 26

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    Got my fix for today ❤️❤️❤️❤️
    smileygirl506 smileygirl506 22-25, F Apr 2

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    I can feel her sometimes whispering in my ear. She tells me what I already know and sometimes what I don't want to know. She is confident and headstrong, she has shown me who I am...
    TypoKytty TypoKytty 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    I don't have cancer myself, but I know there are several types of cancer, and also many people fighting cancer. However, there is a large number of people who are unsuccessful in...
    ConcealedWildheart ConcealedWildheart 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    Get along with the voices that's inside of my head.
    Rydil Rydil 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    In the land of gods and monsters, I was an angel, Living in the garden of evil, Screwed up, scared, doing anything that I needed, Shining like a fiery beacon. You got that medicine...
    ifilayhere ifilayhere 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I replied to an "I'm a Weirdo" experience recently, saying, "I've heard it all -- a weirdo, a freak, a demon, a monster, a vampire, a werewolf, possessed, etcetera. Stuff like that...
    AVampireGirl AVampireGirl 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I'm 16 years old.There are 10 days till my birthday.I've been depressed for good 3 years.My whole puberty was a great mess.One year and two months ago,I got bulimic.Before that,I...
    mystiquebelle mystiquebelle 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    I really like the sound of their debut album tales told by dead friends. It was weird that I discovered that one last. (okay well no, I downloaded all of their songs at once and...
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    I have yet to see anyone about it or get an official diagnosis, but I think I have paranoid or disorganized schizophrenia. I have been experiencing auditory, visual, and even...
    e524 e524 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    Fight the planet, you cannot take points for given music is essential, life is actually more essential. " "The headphones are because cool because Nike. inch "When you're taking...
    homeoffice homeoffice 26-30, F Mar 28

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    (Kyle= my 4 year old little brother.) Kyle: Sissy why do you have those marks on your arm? Me: Well Bubs....um, I have these little mean monsters who hurt me on the inside, but...
    TealMarie TealMarie 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    He had love, Did not know, All the good things, Covered in blankets of snow, He had a father, and a mother, But he was a callous bother, So he goes to his woods, He does not know...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 31

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    Well i love these all equally, so they are in to specific order :) 1. Silhouettes by Of Monsters and Men 2. Let her go by Passenger 3. Lead me by Sanctus real 4. Belly of the...
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