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I Am a Monster

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    Monster Sharp claws,

    Torn skin All from the monster Within Dark blood, Gushing arms The monster has come And will come again
    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F Nov 12, 2014

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    The Boy, The Man, The monster I want u to

    write the part of the man which entitles u tellin how u became a man the angry and dirty side of u as a man drifting into u becoming a monster. .. I don't know why man, but I feel my self slipping It's probably all this anguish I've gradually been sipping I might be...
    MikB92 MikB92 22-25, M Mar 2, 2014

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    To be humane has never been strength.

    I can see myself becoming more of what i am which is shaping me to who i am. Now it's only time until i lose my humanity that i have learned.
    shur09 shur09 13-15, F Mar 5

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    I feel like I'm a monster.

    If it wasn't for the **** I went through as a kid I wouldn't have multiple personalities. Specifically one named Sigma. He's so sadistic and he'll do anything to ruin other peoples lives, including mine. He can pretend to be me by mimicking my voice and deceive my friends. I'm...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 30, 2014

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    Toxic Personality

    I don't know why I feel the way I do. I'm scared all of the time. I am getting weak. There is nothing that I ever want. When I think of having things, I get angry. I get angry when I think about rebuilding what I once had. I want no future. **** everything. I am too broken for...
    zbbdsamc zbbdsamc 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 19, 2013

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    In The Desert By Stephen Crane

    In the desert I saw a creature, naked, b3stial, Who, squatting upon the ground, Held his heart in his hands, And ate of it. I said, “Is it good, friend?” “It is bitter—bitter,” he answered; “But I like it “Because it is bitter, “And because it is my heart.”
    TheMotherFuckingFox TheMotherFuckingFox 18-21, M Jul 12, 2013

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    I think the reason I've never really really

    enjoyed sex it because my best friend and my boyfriend were never the same person.
    gentlepanic gentlepanic 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 5, 2014

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    I Feel Less And Less Human Every Day

    Ever since the beginning of 2012 i've been feeling less and less human. more like a beast than anything. i move faster than i normally do, i get manic for absolutely no reason at all. my moods are so erratic that i can't stand it. i growl out of nowhere for no reason as well...
    BornWarrior87 BornWarrior87 22-25, M 2 Responses May 1, 2012

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    I'm a monster- Don't be surprised

    if you see me on the news
    SpacePirate SpacePirate 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 11, 2014

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    I'm a monster, because I've done things

    that will bring tears to my loved ones...
    WolfsterTheWere WolfsterTheWere 13-15, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    All lifelines, no matter how deluded,

    will never measure to the sheer amount of infinity I've compressed. It's not like I wanted to be this way, but to be honest, I've never really wanted anything. If society as a whole was to examine the base core of my way of life, maybe they'd stop calling me insane? Perhaps. But...
    Darktooth41 Darktooth41 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    im a monster... everyone in my community says

    so even my family... the kids bully me... the adults encourage it and even join in... even strangers join in their "fun" i was adopted... taken out of a bad family situation. ive always been different... i see things... know things i shouldnt... ive always been non social... and...
    GhostieDSE GhostieDSE 18-21, M 7 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    Because of what I know

    and what I have seen I am a danger to everyone-even myself.
    TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns 18-21 2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    It Is No Choice

    It is no choice that I am this way... That I harm without will, yet have no regrets in doing so. My touch is heated, filled with lust but it is hunger, not sustenance. Oh how many have felt my caress and thought they shall feed from me. My passion is dark fire, coming in waves...
    Wolfeyes Wolfeyes 36-40, M Oct 20, 2013

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    I Am a

        i am a monster sometimes . my anger is way out of control and i  become a monster when i get that angry . i become someone that can't even recognize myself that is why i feel that i am a monster .
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 2, 2009

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    I destroy relationships.

    I cause best friends to become worst enemies. I rip the town from its roots, shaking everything and everyone in it. I ruin lives. I am a monster. Don't tell me otherwise because lying is for losers.
    DarkSoulInsaneHeart DarkSoulInsaneHeart 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    RHSK143 RHSK143 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 22, 2010

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    Disgusted And Ashamed - Forgive Me Banshee

    For 7 days I have been full of deception. I have known for this short time that blarracuda is Venusapple. I added her to my circle not knowing she was Venusapple. She has been likable as blarracuda...then she confessed to me on Nov.1st. My first reflex was anger. Then I...
    KrazyAuntKim KrazyAuntKim 46-50, F 18 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    Monster...

    Who are we to judge? We are also the monsters that lurk in the deepths of our pennie mind. No one is to blame but the thing that straves for death,blood..Fear... Don't blame me or anyone for your foolishness,You were the One who started this.Am I wrong to tell you the truth?To...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 13, 2011

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    Something Supernatural

    Everyone has a dark side about them and I am no exception and while I am not actually a real monster...sometimes I feel there is something supernatural about me, I kind of feel that way at most times. I'm not the sick, twisted freak everybody thinks i am, i'm just a human...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Mar 25, 2013

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    Before I begin my post,

    let me just say that I don't need or want any of your judgments. I have judged myself far harsher than any of you could ever dream, and this is only one of the many reasons I belong in this experience... I have been having marital problems for several years now. Without going...
    IamMimic IamMimic 70+, M Jan 31, 2014

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    No matter what I may do,

    or what I say, I'll always see myself as a monster. I almost did something horrible to my ex who had played a lit of mind games with me...It took sheer will power and manipulation of myself and her to make sure I didn't...I lied to her so much...all so I could keep her safe from...
    Warmonger100 Warmonger100 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    I walk talk and sound like a man,

    but somehow im not. Ive always been different inside, my clockwork wound a little too tight and some of the gears sprang loose. So i dont move exactly right or carry myself in exactly the way i should, that sameness that covers you, doesnt cover me. That same sameness that...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M Oct 3, 2014

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    In My Own Way

    Irony is,I'm a monster with a demon inside.I have to fight that demon to be a "lesser evil" for the people I care for.Bottom line is;I'm a monster in ways I can't even begin to divulge in their stand-alone forms.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    Closet

    A childs definition of a monster is the boogeyman or the closet monster. an adults interpritation is somebody who destroys lives. viciousness, calousness is a motivation of an animal not a monster. Monsters arn't real.
    unsub66 unsub66 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 3, 2010

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    Tonight- I Meet Myself For The First Time

    I'm depressed because I have become this thing of a mess and how I really am can never be fully shown to any person because one hit and they'd be scarred for life. Once people think they know me I eventually show them a deeper layer and it takes them a while to handle and accept...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2013

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    Rawr!!!

    No but for real, I am. In fact I have a very big scar on my back that spells the word monster because my step dad carved it into my back with a knife when I was kid and it still hasn't fully healed or anything. So if I take my shirt off and turn around it's pretty damn noticeable...
    ScottyIsaDinosaurMotherfuckers ScottyIsaDinosaurMotherfuckers 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 2, 2011

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    I am not human I gave up on

    that a long time ago
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    Like everyone says , im never allowed outside

    without a mask that's covers the face of the " devil " or so my mother calls me , I'm always smiling , everything I do , it's permanent , people have lied to me so many times I know better then to believe someone when they promise to except me without my cover , I'm surrounded...
    turntechbiology turntechbiology 16-17, F Oct 12, 2014

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    Yes Sireee :)

     i'm a fat wittle goblin. idgaf right now though. Suck on those pickles.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 70+, F 4 Responses Sep 14, 2011

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    The dreams I have just make me feel like I'm

    gonna become a monster. Everytime I have a dream. I always seem to turn into some sort of creature that has the choice to either kill the woman that stole my mans heart or just be alone with the thought of him knowing that I'm some hideous creature that tried to kill his love...
    Dynasty2000 Dynasty2000 16-17, F Nov 11, 2014

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    I... I hurt people. I hurt people physically

    and emotionally and I need help. I can't take this much longer. My friends don't even know me anymore. I don't even know myself. Please, I'm begging for help. I don't know how it happened... I just... Changed. I don't want to hurt any more people, and I need friends. Every once...
    Skull12340 Skull12340 18-21, M Mar 31

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    Kingdarkroom Kingdarkroom 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 2, 2014

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    "why should I apologize

    for the monster I gave become when the ones who made me this way don't"
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 5, 2014

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    Lurking Inside

    I can be very sweet and helpful but inside there is a monster lurking fighting to come out. I am aroused by violence. I work hard each day on this person others see. Few have ever seen the real me, once they have they are never the same.
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jan 31, 2010

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    Failing Resistance

    Sitting in my world, Looking out from within, I envy the people And the world that theyre in, Looks so ****** normal And so happy to me, Ignorance a bliss I want it all I want to be free. Free from the voices The things I can smell, bleed and see, The Whispers, The...
    ravenge ravenge 26-30, F 13 Responses Feb 26, 2011

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    My father married my stepmother 5 years ago.

    I thought nothing of it, besides I was only 10 and they were together for what seemed like forever. My father moved to New York to live with her when I was only 2 and I stayed at home with my mom. I visited him every summer and she seemed pretty nice while they were dating, but...
    kyky789 kyky789 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 15, 2014

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    Ever felt that you were different?

    Ever felt foreign in your own house? Ever been so angry, you almost put someone you love in danger? Ever been molested at such a young age, you didn't know what it meant at that time but as you grew up, you realised and you're disgusted with yourself? Well I have. I'm not...
    thatbritishchick thatbritishchick 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2014

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    there is a monster lurking inside of me ,

    no matter how much i work to get something i want in the end i wouldn't get it, because as u people wouldn't have noticed monsters are the lonely beings in the world, because even god who cares a lot about humans would try to kill or eliminate monsters from the face of the earth...
    dayyam dayyam 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    "Monster" Ever since I could remember,

    Everything inside of me, Just wanted to fit in (oh oh oh oh) I was never one for pretenders, Everything I tried to be, Just wouldn't settle in (oh oh oh oh) If I told you what I was, Would you turn your back on me? And if I seem dangerous, Would you be scared? I get the feeling...
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    elKraken elKraken 70+ 1 Response Nov 14, 2014

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    Monstrum (latin For Monster)

    We're strange and dangerous we exist within the lore of those who don't believe we are real we are frightening. We exist in hundreds of forms no two are alike. I get angered, my eyes turn red, lungs heave, jaw locks, just your basic emotionally induced mythological mortal-monster...
    Purebrednewfie Purebrednewfie 18-21, M Sep 9, 2012

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    He may lay dormant inside me,

    he's still there through, and not one who will emotionally break your heart but physically
    Hotdudez78 Hotdudez78 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 13, 2014

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    It's The Devil Inside Me I Don't Trust

    I have had thoughts and feelings so intense that I've been afraid of myself.  What I may be capable of doing someday if the opportunity presented itself.  I have acted on it before and have been a danger to myself and another.  More than one occasion.  Only certain people at...
    SomeEPMember SomeEPMember 18-21 2 Responses Dec 27, 2010

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    I am a monster. But I'm not the kind most think

    of. I am the kind that hides, but hides in plain sight. On the outside I appear just fine. But on the inside I am very dangerous. I know more than I want to. I feel too deeply-all feelings set me off. They stir up a tempest in my dark void of a soul. The storm awakens my...
    TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns 18-21 1 Response Feb 16, 2014

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    I am not the kind of person you want to be

    friends with or get to know. I seem to destroy everything and everyone in my path whether I try to or not. After months of searching and trying to figure out why I am so alone, it has all come down to this conclusion. I am a monster of a human, someone so ridiculously awful. I...
    PrincessKayleigh PrincessKayleigh 16-17, F 5 Responses Aug 23, 2014

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