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I Am a Mother Even Though My Child Is Dead

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    This Is To My Child. I Had My Abortion 3 Yrs Ago And Decided I Needed To Write A Letter To Her. It His Helped Me Come To Terms With The Guilt.

    Posted January 5th, 2012 at 2:33PM To my first angel- I will name you Riley. Your father and I always liked that name so it seems like that would have been yours. You would have been a beautiful child with beautiful green eyes and light hair. Short like both your parents. You...
    makkay2011 makkay2011 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2012

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    Yes....

    I am a mother. I went to a party when I was 16 years old, where I was beaten, and raped. The result of the rape restuled in a child. I was 16, and scared to death. I had no idea what I was going to do. After thinking. I decide that I was going to keep my baby. I was going to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    I Am Nathaniel's Mother.

    I am Nathaniel's mother. I conceived in December 2004. He was born just 6 short months later. He was born, not lost.  I gave birth to him and I gave him life. But he wasn't ready. His lungs weren't ready. He died 9 1/2 hours later, laying in my arms. I buried my son. He now...
    critterbug84 critterbug84 22-25 5 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    Am I Really A Mother?

    Hello everyone. I gave birth to a stillborn baby boy at 20 weeks about four years ago. I have no children and have had two miscarriages. One before him and one after him. I am 34 and doubt I will ever have a child. My stillborn baby (I named Xavier) is buried here at a local...
    jlb0505 jlb0505 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    Jamie's Mommy Forever

    When I was 19 I got prego (2005). After dreaming since I was really little of being a mom, I was overjoyed to say the least. It was sunday, I was going to the dr monday to conferm my calculation of 5w6d. At about 3am I woke to horrible pain in my abdomin. Thinking it was just my...
    ttlisaof2 ttlisaof2 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    I Miss Him And I Only Saw His Face In A Dream...

    My son, Hunter Raven would have been 15 this year. He was merely a zygote by scientific standards. I was forced to take the "Morning After Pill" at about 70 hours after sex.I miss him so much and I will never forget how much I despise my then boyfriend for belittling me.I get so...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 2 Responses Mar 6, 2013

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    i may not be a mother

    but i am a father. my child is dead and my horrible sister who bashed us for having a child, her child lives and my is dead the pain is fresh. it all happened last month
    saint0928 saint0928 18-21, M Jul 2, 2014

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    Missing My Baby. I Did The Wrong Thing

    i found i was pregnant when my first bourne was almost 5 years old.  i had been having alot of "woman trouble" and the pain would get unbarable.  the doctors told me that i would die if i gave birth,  if i made it that long and my baby would die to. ...
    sashclamp sashclamp 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2009

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    I was 18 turning 19 when I had my son (Angel King Perrion Reddick) , I had named him after my uncle who died about 5 years ago he was murdered, his birthday past this month August...
    heirydtoni heirydtoni 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I've ranted a lot about the reasons I don't like children enough, so I'll just give a condensed version. They're loud. Their high-pitched voices hurt my ears. They take up all the...
    Stratosara Stratosara 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M 1 day ago

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    i have this feeling of just sharing all the pains and problems in my life to someone i know and trust deeply in real life and be happy with it and have a funny but nice tal about...
    dathglas dathglas 13-15, M 2 days ago

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    As a girl, we may think that we should always have his attention but as a lady, we know that that is not always the case. As a boy, he could always give you the attention you want...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    My spirit has a two fists. One holds my heart while the other is empty. Your heart was once in that empty fist, but the weight of your heart was too much for the fist to withstand...
    Lifeisainterestingmystery Lifeisainterestingmystery 31-35, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I dont get why you need a reason to be nice. You do what you think is right. You choose. You decided. Dont blame someone else of the outcome. If they're doing something wrong, its...
    Sashimi21 Sashimi21 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I moved into a really nice apartment off campus and had my friends visit. I'm renting one room and there are 5 others so it's a really big and beautiful place. But there will only...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    It was always gradual, her progression to becoming more and more intoxicated as the night dragged on, that is. My mother would come home from a long day at work, and in that...
    light108 light108 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    When i was 13...i don't know if anyone will read this i just feel i need to get this in writing because i have told only my therapist and my dad. My therapist didn't help much, and...
    Sawke Sawke 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Most days I feel lonley. I feel isolated even though I am always surrounded by people. I have no problem talking to them but it's more about establishing a relationship with them...
    ThoughtfulSoul ThoughtfulSoul 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    From the age of 7-18 I never really had a home. If I did, then it wasn't for very long. We bounced from one persons house to the next with the occasional motel or car in between. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 days ago

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    I'm recently married. I'd only met my MIL once before, & she seemed nice. She wasn't overly friendly or anything, but not rude or unkind, either. A surprise pregnancy led me to...
    lulabelle138 lulabelle138 31-35, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I never made a huge dramatic scene I slipped away quietly after a beautiful night Maybe I'll meet you in a far off dream When you can speak to me calmly sweet and nice I'll carry...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was at my Aunt's house with a cousin that I didn't particularly enjoy. She went out of her way to hurt my feelings or make fun of me or my actions. I was 12 or 13 at the time and...
    icanhearyoucaring icanhearyoucaring 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    You don't need to know my feelings. They're mine to deal with. You say you're sorry, but you can't really do anything about what I am going through. Leave me be and I'll come...
    RetardedGixer RetardedGixer 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    This is ******* hilarious. I'm done xD
    Antivist0 Antivist0 18-21, F Aug 23

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    I haven't always hated my mother. As a child I would hear my family talk bad about her and I would always defend her telling them they that are wrong. But as I got older I realized...
    yuppitsme42 yuppitsme42 26-30, F Aug 22

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    I'm fourteen years old and a freshman in high school. I'm about 200 pounds. I haven't been able to forgive my mom for initially causing my weight. However, the truth is, obesity...
    EndTheFatKid EndTheFatKid 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    whenever I get close to someone there's these girls who would take them away argg batches
    SleepyHeadSnorelax SleepyHeadSnorelax 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    this is definitely me. for example I acted like the bullying I was receiving as a freshman last year wasn't affecting me. then one day my mom asked if everything was ok at school...
    Andyg99 Andyg99 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 20

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    Just so my partner doesn't worry.. Sometimes I don't say that certain things hurt because I'd rather him not worry about it
    Catho Catho 18-21, F Aug 19

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    Damn this stupid habit of mine...
    Pain24 Pain24 13-15, F Aug 19

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    I do this all the time. its so annoying its like a habit.
    FindWhatMakesYou FindWhatMakesYou 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 19

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    I do this all the time.. I don't want to worry anyone :(
    Antonellaaa Antonellaaa 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    Confessions of a Habitual Apologizer: I’m sorry. I say it when I bump into someone at the store, when my card doesn’t swipe the first time, and when my phone cuts out. In...
    MissMimiMusic MissMimiMusic 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 19

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    I like gay yiff eps XD M/m
    Fabhoxton Fabhoxton 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    I pretend that everything is okay, that I am a happy and cheerful person when deep down, it is killing me. Every time, I feel sad. Everybody thinks that I am happy, that I am...
    asiangirll asiangirll 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    So I ve been going thru a situation with a relative. She is the type of person that would point fingers , judge and say really cruel things about a individual she will use what...
    XoxoJLN XoxoJLN 22-25, F Aug 16

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    Simple mind and non discriminate so I appear to be naive. I won't judge you on your past so don't test me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 16

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    My whole childhood is built on drugs, mothering my sister, being the one to make sure everything's okay, and being the strong one. Memories of my childhood aren't all bad. I have...
    Flower124 Flower124 18-21 Aug 16

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    She is the most annoying mean, vindictive, person I know! I never liked my mother even as a child I have always felt discussed by her ugliness. I blame her for why my brothers are...
    Madimaria123 Madimaria123 41-45, F Aug 14

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    13.7.15 Today was a weird day I was left out by my friends. I was there with them but it was like I didn't exist even though they were talking to me I was too upset and lost in...
    Darkprincess24 Darkprincess24 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 13

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