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I Am a Mother Even Though My Child Is Dead

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    i may not be a mother

    but i am a father. my child is dead and my horrible sister who bashed us for having a child, her child lives and my is dead the pain is fresh. it all happened last month
    saint0928 saint0928 18-21, M Jul 2, 2014

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    I Miss Him And I Only Saw His Face In A Dream...

    My son, Hunter Raven would have been 15 this year. He was merely a zygote by scientific standards. I was forced to take the "Morning After Pill" at about 70 hours after sex.I miss him so much and I will never forget how much I despise my then boyfriend for belittling me.I get so...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 2 Responses Mar 6, 2013

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    This Is To My Child. I Had My Abortion 3 Yrs Ago And Decided I Needed To Write A Letter To Her. It His Helped Me Come To Terms With The Guilt.

    Posted January 5th, 2012 at 2:33PM To my first angel- I will name you Riley. Your father and I always liked that name so it seems like that would have been yours. You would have been a beautiful child with beautiful green eyes and light hair. Short like both your parents. You...
    makkay2011 makkay2011 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2012

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    Missing My Baby. I Did The Wrong Thing

    i found i was pregnant when my first bourne was almost 5 years old.  i had been having alot of "woman trouble" and the pain would get unbarable.  the doctors told me that i would die if i gave birth,  if i made it that long and my baby would die to. ...
    sashclamp sashclamp 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2009

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    Jamie's Mommy Forever

    When I was 19 I got prego (2005). After dreaming since I was really little of being a mom, I was overjoyed to say the least. It was sunday, I was going to the dr monday to conferm my calculation of 5w6d. At about 3am I woke to horrible pain in my abdomin. Thinking it was just my...
    ttlisaof2 ttlisaof2 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    Yes....

    I am a mother. I went to a party when I was 16 years old, where I was beaten, and raped. The result of the rape restuled in a child. I was 16, and scared to death. I had no idea what I was going to do. After thinking. I decide that I was going to keep my baby. I was going to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    Am I Really A Mother?

    Hello everyone. I gave birth to a stillborn baby boy at 20 weeks about four years ago. I have no children and have had two miscarriages. One before him and one after him. I am 34 and doubt I will ever have a child. My stillborn baby (I named Xavier) is buried here at a local...
    jlb0505 jlb0505 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    I Am Nathaniel's Mother.

    I am Nathaniel's mother. I conceived in December 2004. He was born just 6 short months later. He was born, not lost.  I gave birth to him and I gave him life. But he wasn't ready. His lungs weren't ready. He died 9 1/2 hours later, laying in my arms. I buried my son. He now...
    critterbug84 critterbug84 22-25 5 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    I can't be his friend on facebook anymore because I can't stand to see the pictures. I am glad that he has someone special in his life again...but I want to be the one in his life...
    RahRah73 RahRah73 41-45, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    really disappointed in myself. apparently I'm stupid and a terrible friend. no wonder people don't want to talk to me. I feel so alone and like no one cares about me, my family...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 29

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    Dear family, You are my world, so much that I can't bear to tell you how empty I am feeling inside. At the end of the day I cry because I can't bear to do it in front of you. Dear...
    AerynAVA AerynAVA 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 29

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    Somewhere I keep thinking there's people way worse off than me. At least I have a car, a job, and shelter. Would be kinda nice to have a decent paying job or at least one real...
    sweetiebomb sweetiebomb 22-25 Apr 29

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    im so done with life, i just wanna die wauw
    lorebriers lorebriers 18-21, F 2 Responses May 2

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    everyday is sad or full of stress. I feel I'm so behind in life that I might as well give up. I don't see an end to this except death
    mel982 mel982 31-35, M 3 Responses May 8

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    Yep. I'm a sucker for punishment. I hold onto hope. I just want to hear his voice again.
    ExoFae ExoFae 22-25, F May 9

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    I'm new to this world but what exactly is yiffing??
    Geeklvngrl28 Geeklvngrl28 26-30, F 1 Response May 18

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    All this not talking, it being my fault, it just all blaming me... I have been strong and kept it all to myself and no one knows how upset and hurt I really am. I just laugh it off...
    TiredOfBeingHurt TiredOfBeingHurt 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Shout out to high walls and fake smiles ?
    sa3r1na sa3r1na 18-21, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I kind of became emotionally detached so I wouldn't breakdown as much, I don't seem to care about anything anymore although I am really good at pretending that I'm happy and...
    asplashofprivacy asplashofprivacy 16-17, M 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I cut myself. nobody loves me because of it. can I still be loved?
    NerdyDevinxX NerdyDevinxX 16-17, M 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    This picture speaks volumes. I've cried every day since I lost my son. Somedays are harder than others, it's hard to fully believe that I am, in fact, a mother even though my...
    kay5262 kay5262 18-21, F 2 Responses May 1

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    I feel like I need to get this off my chest, since I have held it in for as long as I could remember and it broke me in so many ways. I am from a first generation American Chinese...
    Jchen52m Jchen52m 18-21 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    February 17 2000- Early on this morning,two police officers showed up at the club I was dancing at(don't judge me!) and ask "Are you the mother of J------ Martin-Zecharias?". That...
    CocoaBelle CocoaBelle 41-45, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My MIL is passive-aggressive, controlling, two-faced, hypocritical, manipulative person. When I first met her, she was wonderful; big personality, loving, and outgoing...Until she...
    NoMorePainNoMoreGuilt NoMorePainNoMoreGuilt 31-35, F 10 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've come to realize that I don't have any responsibilities concerning her, and that I really shouldn't worry myself about her. I do admit its hard for me to ignore her as my fianc...
    Msprissy Msprissy 36-40, F 3 days ago

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    Whatever else may happen in my life, I know this much is true...that I am blessed beyond measure to have my two beautiful children in my life, and to be able to call myself their...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 14 Responses May 10

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    What a terrible thing! Spanking children! Don´t you think? Children who are spanked grow up to become violent as adults, right? That is the politically correct view these days...
    Helle31 Helle31 31-35, F 5 Responses May 20

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    What a terrible thing! Spanking children! Don´t you think? Children who are spanked grow up to become violent as adults, right? That is the politically correct view these days...
    Helle31 Helle31 31-35, F 11 Responses 4 days ago

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    I need help! I hate my mother in law! Any time her name is mentioned or I hear her voice I literally feel sick to my stomach! This woman has her hooks into my husband and I do not...
    pissedoff1966 pissedoff1966 46-50, F 4 Responses May 16

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    My mother abandoned me at 13. Kicked me out then sent me to another province alone , on a train. She never took me back even though she said it was just for a few months. All of my...
    Twinkletoes83 Twinkletoes83 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    I found this site and have hesitated for months about joining. I have been estranged from my only child. I got married at 20 and had my beautiful daughter. When the abuse in...
    Tiralynn Tiralynn 61-65, F 9 hrs ago

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    I am really glad that people cannot read my thoughts. I was at a friend's house a while ago, and even though I am engaged, I kept staring at his friend's... Lower half... And...
    Delphineidunna Delphineidunna 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Even though I have run into quite a few fakes and perverts during my nine months on EP, I have still not given up the hope of getting in touch with real spanking parents here! I...
    Susanna3 Susanna3 31-35, F 3 Responses May 11

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    Even though I have run into quite a few fakes and perverts during my nine months on EP, I have still not given up the hope of getting in touch with real spanking parents here! I...
    Susanna3 Susanna3 31-35, F 2 Responses May 11

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    Hi I go by Fruity punch on here.I would like to share a personal story from my experience with my mother.Let me start back when I was younger for you to understand the emotional...
    Fruitypunch15 Fruitypunch15 31-35 1 Response May 13

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    This really belongs in several categories, but first and foremost, I am a mother. I have a six year old daughter that I surrendered custody of to my step mom when she was one. I...
    FosterCareSurvivor2007 FosterCareSurvivor2007 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I think my mother is psychotic...I'm not sure how to deal with her anymore. I'm 17 and I have been dreaming of the day when I turn 18 for so long now. As long as I can remember, my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 3

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    My parents and I never had a very close relationship. I will admit that it is partially my fault, but it felt it necessary since I was little to put a distance between myself and...
    Marchi Marchi 22-25 May 6

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    First with the abusive mom. Why would I want to celebrate the woman who spanked a 2 year old with 2x4 for leaving a toy out? Why would I want to celebrate the woman who set our...
    teadiva teadiva 31-35, F 1 Response May 11

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