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I Am a Mother Even Though My Child Is Dead

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    Jamie's Mommy Forever

    When I was 19 I got prego (2005). After dreaming since I was really little of being a mom, I was overjoyed to say the least. It was sunday, I was going to the dr monday to conferm my calculation of 5w6d. At about 3am I woke to horrible pain in my abdomin. Thinking it was just my...
    ttlisaof2 ttlisaof2 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    This Is To My Child. I Had My Abortion 3 Yrs Ago And Decided I Needed To Write A Letter To Her. It His Helped Me Come To Terms With The Guilt.

    Posted January 5th, 2012 at 2:33PM To my first angel- I will name you Riley. Your father and I always liked that name so it seems like that would have been yours. You would have been a beautiful child with beautiful green eyes and light hair. Short like both your parents. You...
    makkay2011 makkay2011 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2012

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    Am I Really A Mother?

    Hello everyone. I gave birth to a stillborn baby boy at 20 weeks about four years ago. I have no children and have had two miscarriages. One before him and one after him. I am 34 and doubt I will ever have a child. My stillborn baby (I named Xavier) is buried here at a local...
    jlb0505 jlb0505 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    I Miss Him And I Only Saw His Face In A Dream...

    My son, Hunter Raven would have been 15 this year. He was merely a zygote by scientific standards. I was forced to take the "Morning After Pill" at about 70 hours after sex.I miss him so much and I will never forget how much I despise my then boyfriend for belittling me.I get so...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 2 Responses Mar 6, 2013

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    i may not be a mother

    but i am a father. my child is dead and my horrible sister who bashed us for having a child, her child lives and my is dead the pain is fresh. it all happened last month
    saint0928 saint0928 18-21, M Jul 2, 2014

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    I Am Nathaniel's Mother.

    I am Nathaniel's mother. I conceived in December 2004. He was born just 6 short months later. He was born, not lost.  I gave birth to him and I gave him life. But he wasn't ready. His lungs weren't ready. He died 9 1/2 hours later, laying in my arms. I buried my son. He now...
    critterbug84 critterbug84 22-25 5 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    Yes....

    I am a mother. I went to a party when I was 16 years old, where I was beaten, and raped. The result of the rape restuled in a child. I was 16, and scared to death. I had no idea what I was going to do. After thinking. I decide that I was going to keep my baby. I was going to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    Missing My Baby. I Did The Wrong Thing

    i found i was pregnant when my first bourne was almost 5 years old.  i had been having alot of "woman trouble" and the pain would get unbarable.  the doctors told me that i would die if i gave birth,  if i made it that long and my baby would die to. ...
    sashclamp sashclamp 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2009

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    This is a long story that sort of has to do with more than laziness, alone, but does contribute to it, possibly: I started dating a lineman a year ago. (A lineman is a person who...
    Danichal Danichal 36-40, F Apr 14

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    I got really good in hiding my feelings over the past years. People around me say that I am always looking so happy even though I am fighting depression. And when people I like lie...
    Miridia96 Miridia96 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am a white mother of several biracial children. I have had a few affairs with black men in my community. I have gotten pregnant by my black lovers and had delivered their kids...
    maryannelamb maryannelamb 46-50, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    I am a white wife and mom with a house full of biracial children. I love black men so much and am currently married to a black man. We have been happily married for over 30 years...
    oldernudistfemale oldernudistfemale 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    On the outside, I am all smiles. I seem like a happy-go-lucky person that has time to be friendly towards everyone. It wouldn't be off to assume I have an amazing life for how...
    Shirogane Shirogane 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    My husband and I have been married for 7 years. The past two years it seems like we are room mates. He even sleep in the living room instead of our room. We go on doing our...
    Brokenbipolar Brokenbipolar 31-35, F Mar 27

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    These last couple of days have been the worst of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 27

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    really really upset right now. my day sucked today for several reasons, and now it sucks even more. i want to talk to someone... someone who can understand and just listen. im...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Most people hurt me a lot! even my friends keeps stabing me at my back, They did'nt know that I feel. when they ask me if Im ok when im alone, i wear a fake smile and say " Im...
    gabriellogabby gabriellogabby 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I am always trying to be okay although I am not. And it sucks. Really.
    TjDee TjDee 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    It's kinda wierd today, as it's my birthday, everyone is smiling at me, expecting to get one back as they usually do. But i cant really smile back at them, i am not happy... I sit...
    lynnewolf99 lynnewolf99 16-17, F Mar 28

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    I miss home so badly. It's been a year since a moved and I've tried to get over it.it is not all bad, but the bad surely does seem to out weigh the good. My Adam is slowly getting...
    LittleMsGreenEyes LittleMsGreenEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    If I gave up on myself I'd be giving up on God and that would NEVER happen.
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Apr 1

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    I don't give up. but its becoming increasingly difficult to not give up. when I say that I mean life itself. but who can I talk to that wont tell me to get on antidepressants? no...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I regret the day that I left him.. Now he's getting married.. I smile in front of him just to show him Im okay with it but the truth Is, it's killing me.. Yeah, we still talk.. But...
    Gayle0311 Gayle0311 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    i died once when the guy i liked seemed really engaged in the conversation he was having with my best friend
    vinnyvinyal vinnyvinyal 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    he keeps giving what's mine to others...when he is caught I still stay with him... pretending it doesn't hurt telling him how much I forgive him... and we can make it work... deep...
    synexus synexus 31-35, F Apr 7

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    should a 13 year old feel this much pain from the start of age 8 ????
    skyisthelimit32 skyisthelimit32 13-15, F 18 Responses Apr 7

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    Sometimes I forget what made me sad to begin with. Its like if you keep pretending you are fine, then soon you will believe it. I never see the point in dwelling on the bad moments...
    CryoticLove CryoticLove 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    I always put on a smile and act happy infront of everyone when deep down Im really kinda sad. I just dont want my friends to worry
    Katiedollx Katiedollx 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    I've put on my Happy mask for a while now. It's failing me a little bit now. I just don't know what to do anymore...
    Michell31550 Michell31550 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    as we all know some days r better then others. although we may also know that if we keep ourselves busy we'll be alright. don't keep ourselves busy we'll fall apart.
    DML2451 DML2451 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    I always tell people that I am fine. Most people do not want to hear or know how you feel. Most people could care less how you feel. They only say that to be nice.
    planter715 planter715 51-55, M 6 days ago

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    so sick of everything at this point. I don't want to do anything anymore. things I loved to do have become not as important to me. my friends probably think I'm a terrible person...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I feel like if i say how I feel to people they will think I'm too annoying and just leave me
    yoli5656 yoli5656 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    When I say I'm fine I don't really mean it .. And I wish someone would look in my eyes and say you're not or something and try to help me cause I really need help.
    sexsexgirl sexsexgirl 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I want someone to actually care enough to ask if I'm sure I'm fine or someone to say I know you're not or something like that . I NEED someone to care
    yoli5656 yoli5656 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I love my parents to death, but sometimes I feel like they hate me. They yell, and cuss at me, but I know It's because of me. I shouldn't do mean or bad things to provoke them. So...
    MadisonFox00 MadisonFox00 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Maybe by Ingrid MichaelsonI don't believe in reincarnation. Lol
    SavannahAnsley SavannahAnsley 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't know why it's so hard to pick up your phone and send a quick message. is it wrong for me to be upset that people aren't talking to me? apparently I'm really annoying and a...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Im about to talk it out.. i need to dump all of this off my shoulders.. im sorry if its rambling at long.. I don't actually expect anyone to read.. but i need a place to put these...
    alienmom82 alienmom82 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    Outdated Concept Without Merit-This is a FAKE ILLNESS that does NOT exist and has been repeatedly disproven. I removed my child born to a American mother in the United States to...
    HappyinHague HappyinHague 41-45, M 5 Responses Mar 30

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    There is a special place in hell for narcissistic mothers. Narcissistic mothers do not have children for the same reasons the rest of us do. They do not look forward to the birth...
    rescueme99 rescueme99 41-45 4 Responses Apr 15

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    Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies. Pushing all the mercy down down down. I hate my mother in law. The first day I met her, she and her sister were screaming in my face...
    individualfreedom individualfreedom 26-30 1 Response 3 days ago