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I Am a Mother Even Though My Child Is Dead

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    Am I Really A Mother?

    Hello everyone. I gave birth to a stillborn baby boy at 20 weeks about four years ago. I have no children and have had two miscarriages. One before him and one after him. I am 34 and doubt I will ever have a child. My stillborn baby (I named Xavier) is buried here at a local...
    jlb0505 jlb0505 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    Yes....

    I am a mother. I went to a party when I was 16 years old, where I was beaten, and raped. The result of the rape restuled in a child. I was 16, and scared to death. I had no idea what I was going to do. After thinking. I decide that I was going to keep my baby. I was going to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    This Is To My Child. I Had My Abortion 3 Yrs Ago And Decided I Needed To Write A Letter To Her. It His Helped Me Come To Terms With The Guilt.

    Posted January 5th, 2012 at 2:33PM To my first angel- I will name you Riley. Your father and I always liked that name so it seems like that would have been yours. You would have been a beautiful child with beautiful green eyes and light hair. Short like both your parents. You...
    makkay2011 makkay2011 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2012

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    Jamie's Mommy Forever

    When I was 19 I got prego (2005). After dreaming since I was really little of being a mom, I was overjoyed to say the least. It was sunday, I was going to the dr monday to conferm my calculation of 5w6d. At about 3am I woke to horrible pain in my abdomin. Thinking it was just my...
    ttlisaof2 ttlisaof2 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    I Am Nathaniel's Mother.

    I am Nathaniel's mother. I conceived in December 2004. He was born just 6 short months later. He was born, not lost.  I gave birth to him and I gave him life. But he wasn't ready. His lungs weren't ready. He died 9 1/2 hours later, laying in my arms. I buried my son. He now...
    critterbug84 critterbug84 22-25 5 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    I Miss Him And I Only Saw His Face In A Dream...

    My son, Hunter Raven would have been 15 this year. He was merely a zygote by scientific standards. I was forced to take the "Morning After Pill" at about 70 hours after sex.I miss him so much and I will never forget how much I despise my then boyfriend for belittling me.I get so...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 2 Responses Mar 6, 2013

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    i may not be a mother

    but i am a father. my child is dead and my horrible sister who bashed us for having a child, her child lives and my is dead the pain is fresh. it all happened last month
    saint0928 saint0928 18-21, M Jul 2, 2014

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    Missing My Baby. I Did The Wrong Thing

    i found i was pregnant when my first bourne was almost 5 years old.  i had been having alot of "woman trouble" and the pain would get unbarable.  the doctors told me that i would die if i gave birth,  if i made it that long and my baby would die to. ...
    sashclamp sashclamp 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2009

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