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I Am a Mother Even Though My Child Is Dead

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    This Is To My Child. I Had My Abortion 3 Yrs Ago And Decided I Needed To Write A Letter To Her. It His Helped Me Come To Terms With The Guilt.

    Posted January 5th, 2012 at 2:33PM To my first angel- I will name you Riley. Your father and I always liked that name so it seems like that would have been yours. You would have been a beautiful child with beautiful green eyes and light hair. Short like both your parents. You...
    makkay2011 makkay2011 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2012

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    Am I Really A Mother?

    Hello everyone. I gave birth to a stillborn baby boy at 20 weeks about four years ago. I have no children and have had two miscarriages. One before him and one after him. I am 34 and doubt I will ever have a child. My stillborn baby (I named Xavier) is buried here at a local...
    jlb0505 jlb0505 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    i may not be a mother

    but i am a father. my child is dead and my horrible sister who bashed us for having a child, her child lives and my is dead the pain is fresh. it all happened last month
    saint0928 saint0928 18-21, M Jul 2

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    Missing My Baby. I Did The Wrong Thing

    i found i was pregnant when my first bourne was almost 5 years old.  i had been having alot of "woman trouble" and the pain would get unbarable.  the doctors told me that i would die if i gave birth,  if i made it that long and my baby would die to. ...
    sashclamp sashclamp 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2009

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    Yes....

    I am a mother. I went to a party when I was 16 years old, where I was beaten, and raped. The result of the rape restuled in a child. I was 16, and scared to death. I had no idea what I was going to do. After thinking. I decide that I was going to keep my baby. I was going to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    I Am Nathaniel's Mother.

    I am Nathaniel's mother. I conceived in December 2004. He was born just 6 short months later. He was born, not lost.  I gave birth to him and I gave him life. But he wasn't ready. His lungs weren't ready. He died 9 1/2 hours later, laying in my arms. I buried my son. He now...
    critterbug84 critterbug84 22-25 5 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    I Miss Him And I Only Saw His Face In A Dream...

    My son, Hunter Raven would have been 15 this year. He was merely a zygote by scientific standards. I was forced to take the "Morning After Pill" at about 70 hours after sex.I miss him so much and I will never forget how much I despise my then boyfriend for belittling me.I get so...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 2 Responses Mar 6, 2013

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    Jamie's Mommy Forever

    When I was 19 I got prego (2005). After dreaming since I was really little of being a mom, I was overjoyed to say the least. It was sunday, I was going to the dr monday to conferm my calculation of 5w6d. At about 3am I woke to horrible pain in my abdomin. Thinking it was just my...
    ttlisaof2 ttlisaof2 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    It's so hard :( I know God has a bigger and better plans for me. Hmm
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    I don't belong in this world, no lie. I am 17 & for too long now I have pretended I'm okay, well I'm not. Sick to death of my Mum, me and her have never gotten along we argue and...
    Maddie1O1 Maddie1O1 18-21, F Aug 27

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    This hurts my face. Oh, the pain...
    JohnBobMac JohnBobMac 16-17, T Aug 27

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    It's probably why no one understands me, I act like someone I'm really not. Why? I'm scared to show my emotions and refuse to let others know who I really am, but I've got to stop...
    GuuIsAwesome GuuIsAwesome 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 1

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    last night I lite a fire in the pit and I drank a few beers, I had a smoke and I listened to that song we danced to for the last time. I miss you, I wish you were here again. I...
    OldViking OldViking 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 4

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    There are times when I am sad and down, but I have a lot to be thankful for. People have it a lot worse than me. I try to remember that when I am feeling blue. I also found...
    ConcreteSleeper ConcreteSleeper 31-35, M 2 Responses Sep 4

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    I lost both my best friends to other people, but as long as I smile and project a bubbly exterior people will think I'm nice and well-adjusted, right? Right ...
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 4

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    I want to love and I want u to be loved. if not anyone else then by me
    smilebigalways smilebigalways 18-21, F Sep 6

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    I hate my father !!!!!!!!!!!!!
    demars781 demars781 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 8

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    Part of being a man, gotta act like it doesn't bother you.
    Jawzenator Jawzenator 31-35, M Sep 8

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    I need that right person to be with me... Just aint no wear close
    Lilmikeybo Lilmikeybo 16-17, M Sep 9

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    No-one understands my love for music and how much it has saved me :(
    ChloeCorpse666 ChloeCorpse666 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 9

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    I stayed up until six in the morning. I only got five hours of sleep but strangely enough, I feel fine.
    GrandGizzard GrandGizzard 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 9

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    So this is probably pretty generic but here goes. There is this girl I am crazy about and I invited her to do some catfishing with me one night and we talked and talked for hours...
    steelers7fan steelers7fan 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 12

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    If I go it won't be long till I'm burning on the inside if I go I could only hope that ill make it to the otherside
    killerinstinke killerinstinke 13-15, F Sep 13

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    Sometimes all you can do is look in the mirror and remind yourself to keep going.. Just another night I get to cry myself to sleep.
    LoveCures09 LoveCures09 22-25, F a week ago

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    its been 2.5 weeks since he moved out. no contact, and here I am still thinking about him. :(
    lizakb lizakb 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I know I said earlier on that I am an introvert. I guess it's ironic to say that I also love being the center of attention. To put it simply. I'd rather give a speech and to talk...
    dustyoldclock dustyoldclock 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    So people say...or some people say. I don't really think I'm ugly. I'm just invisible because I'm fat.
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Size 16 but I feel attractive. I love the way men look at me. I dress appropriately as never expose too much. I notice those looks because it's not an all out ogling creepy stare...
    Triztemuneca87 Triztemuneca87 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Im here because I love her, and im not sure what to say or do because she is so volnerable. My sister in law lost her mother when she was 6 years old my husband was 10 there...
    HopeandHeartache HopeandHeartache 31-35, F Aug 21

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    I have very few happy memories of my childhood. Firstly, because of the toxicity of my home situation, I wasn't a very pleasant child. I bullied someone and was generally rude...
    33dulling 33dulling 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 12

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    My mother and I use to be best friends. And by that I mean when I was 14-17. That was the time when I dropped out of school and helped her with her weed habit. She allowed me to...
    cirrus19xx cirrus19xx 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 4

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    I haven't spoken to my 32 year old son in 4 years. I still cry about it, especially during the month of the "sentinel" event. I still can't believe it actually happened. We'd...
    confusedinmanyways confusedinmanyways 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 30

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    My unintended story... I did not intend to write this story when I started writing this morning. I guess this must’ve been wanting to come out. My parents divorced a year...
    Iamhere4me Iamhere4me 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 9

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    For the past few weeks I've been seeing a new therapist and just talking about my past a bit for context, even though we talked about what happened also. I leave feeling tired and...
    dontknowmylife dontknowmylife 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Married for a few months. Now expecting a baby (5 months preg yay!) everything was perfect until.... My OWN mother became bitter. I found out she's been complaining about me to...
    lightpetals lightpetals 26-30, F Aug 26

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    It's only been a little over year since my mother walked out, and no one should ever have to brave that storm. I wonder still every day when it becomes easier. She was my...
    TheMostBeautifulBitterFruit TheMostBeautifulBitterFruit 16-17, F Aug 28

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    I'm 55 and a 22-year survivor of ovarian cancer. I'm also a 55-year survivor of a passive-aggressive mother. My mom had a pretty tough childhood, and I am sad to know the awful...
    Katsez01 Katsez01 51-55, F 1 Response Aug 28

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    No contact with my mother for a week now. I prefer when there is no contact. She only contacts me when she wants to take one of my children out. I am considering stopping this...
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 2

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    She whined for years that none of the 4 boys wanted to take over the family farm. She wanted to retire with a nice chunk of change and listed it for over $400,000. 5 years later...
    delisi1007 delisi1007 41-45 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Being told by my mother that I was selfish & worse since I was a pre-teen damaged me... Made me believe my own happiness wasn't worth a damn (even though I could never make her...
    Elayla Elayla 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    Being told by my mother that I was selfish & worse since I was a pre-teen damaged me... Made me believe my own happiness wasn't worth a damn (even though I could never make her...
    Elayla Elayla 31-35, F Sep 8

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    My mother has slapped me, called me numerous, belittling names, and abusive curses. When she is angry, she will hit me and she will have that look in her eye that will make you...
    sienabrowns sienabrowns 16-17 5 Responses Aug 22

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    It's taken me until now to realise I was bullied by my mum. I started out on here with "I think my mum hates me"... but wow, I've filled a 100 page notebook with stuff she did in...
    rolledgoldboy rolledgoldboy 22-25 Aug 31

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    I'm 21 years old, and this is probably the first time I've really let myself believe that what I have experienced is not something I brought upon myself. For so long I've felt so...
    mjh92 mjh92 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 12

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    I have 4 children from two relationships. 2 from each man. Had my first child at 16. Ended my relationship with my child's father in 2009. Although I'm seeing someone, he's not...
    Lauren122288 Lauren122288 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I too am a Birth Mother and I have been for quite sometime there is not a day that goes by that I don't miss my children I feel a mixture of emotions that I am trying to process...
    catlady496 catlady496 36 Sep 11