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I Am a Mother Even Though My Child Is Dead

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 31 People

    Jamie's Mommy Forever

    When I was 19 I got prego (2005). After dreaming since I was really little of being a mom, I was overjoyed to say the least. It was sunday, I was going to the dr monday to conferm my calculation of 5w6d. At about 3am I woke to horrible pain in my abdomin. Thinking it was just my...
    ttlisaof2 ttlisaof2 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    This Is To My Child. I Had My Abortion 3 Yrs Ago And Decided I Needed To Write A Letter To Her. It His Helped Me Come To Terms With The Guilt.

    Posted January 5th, 2012 at 2:33PM To my first angel- I will name you Riley. Your father and I always liked that name so it seems like that would have been yours. You would have been a beautiful child with beautiful green eyes and light hair. Short like both your parents. You...
    makkay2011 makkay2011 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2012

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    Am I Really A Mother?

    Hello everyone. I gave birth to a stillborn baby boy at 20 weeks about four years ago. I have no children and have had two miscarriages. One before him and one after him. I am 34 and doubt I will ever have a child. My stillborn baby (I named Xavier) is buried here at a local...
    jlb0505 jlb0505 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    i may not be a mother

    but i am a father. my child is dead and my horrible sister who bashed us for having a child, her child lives and my is dead the pain is fresh. it all happened last month
    saint0928 saint0928 18-21, M Jul 2

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    I Am Nathaniel's Mother.

    I am Nathaniel's mother. I conceived in December 2004. He was born just 6 short months later. He was born, not lost.  I gave birth to him and I gave him life. But he wasn't ready. His lungs weren't ready. He died 9 1/2 hours later, laying in my arms. I buried my son. He now...
    critterbug84 critterbug84 22-25 5 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    Missing My Baby. I Did The Wrong Thing

    i found i was pregnant when my first bourne was almost 5 years old.  i had been having alot of "woman trouble" and the pain would get unbarable.  the doctors told me that i would die if i gave birth,  if i made it that long and my baby would die to. ...
    sashclamp sashclamp 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2009

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    Yes....

    I am a mother. I went to a party when I was 16 years old, where I was beaten, and raped. The result of the rape restuled in a child. I was 16, and scared to death. I had no idea what I was going to do. After thinking. I decide that I was going to keep my baby. I was going to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    I Miss Him And I Only Saw His Face In A Dream...

    My son, Hunter Raven would have been 15 this year. He was merely a zygote by scientific standards. I was forced to take the "Morning After Pill" at about 70 hours after sex.I miss him so much and I will never forget how much I despise my then boyfriend for belittling me.I get so...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 2 Responses Mar 6, 2013

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    Someone once told me that I was good for nothing but bringing others down.... The thought never leaves my mind... I used to care so greatly for you but you hurt me and now I'd be...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Oct 5

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    (using google translate) ..um.. i don't know where to start, i haven't been having good past days and yesterday i started to hurt in my chest and it was on my left side.. on the...
    killercukee killercukee 13-15, M 3 Responses Oct 8

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    I always smile, even when I'm sad..even more when I'm sad maybe. A smile makes good people happy, a scowl makes good people sad. If life sucks, if I'm hurting, then I've got more...
    thatonewoman thatonewoman 26-30, F Sep 24

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    I'm a mum of 3 girls,Natalie 12 today, malakye 8,Hayley 7. And 2 boys Scott 14 and Declan 9. Somedays I could pull my hair out, other days it's so easy. Declan is autistic and...
    bj345 bj345 31-35, F Sep 23

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel about a woman in prison SO BADLY. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM BEGGING YOU
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T Sep 21

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    I've got friends and family, but struggle with feeling disconnected from it all. I think I'm just having a pre-midlife crisis :). Sometimes I just want to run. Maybe, its just...
    bellieup bellieup 31-35, F Sep 22

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T Sep 27

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    Someone approached me and told me ," You have a mesmerizing smile but your eyes are so full of sadness." Don't think I'll ever forget that
    CurvyBones17 CurvyBones17 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    Why people make excuses????
    satinderpal satinderpal 22-25, M Oct 2

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    Was rather flustered yesterday night for some reason but being convinced i know i'm waking up to a complete brand new beginning, revived, refreshed, reorganized day from this day...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Oct 4

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    Anyone watching east enders? Poor Linda just got raped, I hope Dean will disappear very soon, he is mentally sick man.
    cleanyoursoul cleanyoursoul 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    I wish the way you break my heart didn't hurt so much. But you will never know that it does.
    Bedtoy88 Bedtoy88 36-40, F Oct 7

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    I'm falling apart... I'm trying so hard to better myself... And to be more rational... But the more I think about it or see it... It hurts that much more... I'm an idiot... I know...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Sooo my dilemma is a very frustrating one ... This story has years of history behind it but I'm not writing a book so long story short I have been livid with my mother for over a...
    denisestephanie denisestephanie 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    the first day they all stand there with those who brought them into the world the one who gave them love the one who gave them protection and among them a child stood wanting...
    vividmemorieslost vividmemorieslost 18-21, F Sep 27

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    my name is nathan and i learned about this site from a parent at a children's hospital support group. i have a very sick son. i am going to give a little background info to give...
    singledaddy101 singledaddy101 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 29

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    Normally, I'm a very forgiving person. I always have been. Within 12 hours, I usually let bygones be bygones. This especially applies to my family. But it's been 24 hours, and I...
    Nomorewars Nomorewars 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    Every man is a damn fool for at least five minutes every day; wisdom consists in not exceeding the limit. ~Elbert Hubbard We can be Knowledgeable with other men's knowledge, but...
    mother1983 mother1983 26-30, F Oct 5

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    As a person who is absolutely proud of being able to deal with difficult or unpleasant people with grace, I have hit the wall with dealing with my mother in law. Here is a woman...
    Xiramat Xiramat 26-30, F Sep 22

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    So many of friend have children . I cannot conceive and have tried ivf but to no avail. I cannot grasp how much love goes between a mother and a child even though I see it everyday...
    Emmergale Emmergale 56-60, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    I am only 14, but I have had it with my mother. I know that this is the age where mothers and daughters normally dislike each other, but this isn't about her being out of style or...
    deerborne deerborne 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Disconnect She is the only women that I love , but my heart hates. she was suppose to protect and love me. but all she did was beat and hate me. even as a child I always felt...
    ladonna1989 ladonna1989 22-25, F Sep 27

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    I am a 27 and have been with my husband for 5 years but recently got married a few months ago. Our lives would be so much better if the monster in law would go into a nice...
    MonsterInLaw0847 MonsterInLaw0847 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 5

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    My mother has been passive aggressive my whole life yet I just realized it in my early 40's. My father died 3 years ago and that's when her PA really escalated. The first 6...
    alleb1990 alleb1990 41-45 3 Responses Oct 5

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    My monster in law has ruined lots of special moments during my wedding preparations this year that I will now only remember with sadness and lots of anger. But one her shining...
    MonsterInLaw0847 MonsterInLaw0847 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 6

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    I know most of you would probably say "How the hell could you hate your own mother? She's been taking care of you since you were an unborn bla bla bla." I'm very aware of what she...
    EmotionlessDude EmotionlessDude 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 29

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    I'm so scared my husband will leave me to have children. He wants children, loves them, idolises them. I think kids are cute but I'm much rather enjoying seeing, learning and...
    CorruptedAngel CorruptedAngel 22-25, F Oct 4

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    When I was very young, I was a normal, energetic, and happy kid. I consider myself lucky that I can remember that because that happy child was almost completely destroyed by the...
    dynosophical dynosophical 26-30, M 14 hrs ago

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    "You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.” – Jessica, age 8 I've read quite a few people...
    rtvbvfde rtvbvfde 26-30, M Sep 23

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    So, I've told my mother that I am planning on moving out next year and she was upset because she is the religious type of person who believes that the only reason a woman should...
    mayy95 mayy95 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    Most of the music I grew up with was from the 60's and early 70's, even though I was not. I was made to listen to the music my mom listened to in high school... and I LOVED it! I...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 Sep 29

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    13 years ago today I was 5 and I lost something I never had. It's a weird feeling to have a hole from something you never remember to begin with. She jumped out of a hotel window...
    idontknowidontknow idontknowidontknow 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    My mother is a terrible person. She is fake, racist, annoying, homophobic, rude and immature. I know it's bad to call people names but she does it to me all the time. She thinks...
    rriicchheelllle rriicchheelllle 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 29

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    i was molested from age six until age thirteen, when i left for boarding school. It was my father that started it - i think probably because my mother was very cold toward him, so...
    solemnlittlegirl solemnlittlegirl 13-15, F 6 Responses Oct 8

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    i was molested from age six until age thirteen, when i left for boarding school. It was my father that started it - i think probably because my mother was very cold toward him, so...
    solemnlittlegirl solemnlittlegirl 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 8

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    It shouldn't hurt to be a child. No child should feel like they are alone in the world, and nothing that they can do is right, but so many do, and the ones who do, feel like they...
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    My husband and I haven't spoken to my mother in law hardly at all in several years. We got mad at her for multiple reasons a while back, one of them was her taking my son around...
    arkgirl arkgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    So I sort of want to know about a personal topic. Most of my friends' parents (usually mothers) are on drugs. It could be the 70's/80's influence, I'm not sure. Either way, I've...
    AEHeroine AEHeroine 18-21, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    She ****** me off to the extreme. It's always about her, she always brags about 'how perfect her family is' but behind closed doors she is an absolute *****. Ever since I was a...
    nebulla123 nebulla123 13-15, F 2 Responses