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I Am a Mother Even Though My Child Is Dead

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 31 People

    This Is To My Child. I Had My Abortion 3 Yrs Ago And Decided I Needed To Write A Letter To Her. It His Helped Me Come To Terms With The Guilt.

    Posted January 5th, 2012 at 2:33PM To my first angel- I will name you Riley. Your father and I always liked that name so it seems like that would have been yours. You would have been a beautiful child with beautiful green eyes and light hair. Short like both your parents. You...
    makkay2011 makkay2011 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2012

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    I Am Nathaniel's Mother.

    I am Nathaniel's mother. I conceived in December 2004. He was born just 6 short months later. He was born, not lost.  I gave birth to him and I gave him life. But he wasn't ready. His lungs weren't ready. He died 9 1/2 hours later, laying in my arms. I buried my son. He now...
    critterbug84 critterbug84 22-25 5 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    i may not be a mother

    but i am a father. my child is dead and my horrible sister who bashed us for having a child, her child lives and my is dead the pain is fresh. it all happened last month
    saint0928 saint0928 18-21, M Jul 2

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    I Miss Him And I Only Saw His Face In A Dream...

    My son, Hunter Raven would have been 15 this year. He was merely a zygote by scientific standards. I was forced to take the "Morning After Pill" at about 70 hours after sex.I miss him so much and I will never forget how much I despise my then boyfriend for belittling me.I get so...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 2 Responses Mar 6, 2013

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    Jamie's Mommy Forever

    When I was 19 I got prego (2005). After dreaming since I was really little of being a mom, I was overjoyed to say the least. It was sunday, I was going to the dr monday to conferm my calculation of 5w6d. At about 3am I woke to horrible pain in my abdomin. Thinking it was just my...
    ttlisaof2 ttlisaof2 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    Am I Really A Mother?

    Hello everyone. I gave birth to a stillborn baby boy at 20 weeks about four years ago. I have no children and have had two miscarriages. One before him and one after him. I am 34 and doubt I will ever have a child. My stillborn baby (I named Xavier) is buried here at a local...
    jlb0505 jlb0505 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    Missing My Baby. I Did The Wrong Thing

    i found i was pregnant when my first bourne was almost 5 years old.  i had been having alot of "woman trouble" and the pain would get unbarable.  the doctors told me that i would die if i gave birth,  if i made it that long and my baby would die to. ...
    sashclamp sashclamp 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2009

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    Yes....

    I am a mother. I went to a party when I was 16 years old, where I was beaten, and raped. The result of the rape restuled in a child. I was 16, and scared to death. I had no idea what I was going to do. After thinking. I decide that I was going to keep my baby. I was going to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    I always smile, even when I'm sad..even more when I'm sad maybe. A smile makes good people happy, a scowl makes good people sad. If life sucks, if I'm hurting, then I've got more...
    thatonewoman thatonewoman 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I go to school and smile even when I'm down so that I won't bother the people around me.
    WearyBeautyLeah WearyBeautyLeah 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    I'm a mum of 3 girls,Natalie 12 today, malakye 8,Hayley 7. And 2 boys Scott 14 and Declan 9. Somedays I could pull my hair out, other days it's so easy. Declan is autistic and...
    bj345 bj345 31-35, F Sep 23

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    It's probably why no one understands me, I act like someone I'm really not. Why? I'm scared to show my emotions and refuse to let others know who I really am, but I've got to stop...
    GuuIsAwesome GuuIsAwesome 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 1

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    last night I lite a fire in the pit and I drank a few beers, I had a smoke and I listened to that song we danced to for the last time. I miss you, I wish you were here again. I...
    OldViking OldViking 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 4

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    I lost both my best friends to other people, but as long as I smile and project a bubbly exterior people will think I'm nice and well-adjusted, right? Right ...
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 4

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    I want to love and I want u to be loved. if not anyone else then by me
    smilebigalways smilebigalways 18-21, F Sep 6

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    I hate my father !!!!!!!!!!!!!
    demars781 demars781 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 8

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    Part of being a man, gotta act like it doesn't bother you.
    Jawzenator Jawzenator 31-35, M Sep 8

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    I need that right person to be with me... Just aint no wear close
    Lilmikeybo Lilmikeybo 16-17, M Sep 9

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    No-one understands my love for music and how much it has saved me :(
    ChloeCorpse666 ChloeCorpse666 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 9

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    I stayed up until six in the morning. I only got five hours of sleep but strangely enough, I feel fine.
    GrandGizzard GrandGizzard 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 9

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    So this is probably pretty generic but here goes. There is this girl I am crazy about and I invited her to do some catfishing with me one night and we talked and talked for hours...
    steelers7fan steelers7fan 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 12

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    If I go it won't be long till I'm burning on the inside if I go I could only hope that ill make it to the otherside
    Killerinstict Killerinstict 13-15, F Sep 13

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    Sometimes all you can do is look in the mirror and remind yourself to keep going.. Just another night I get to cry myself to sleep.
    LoveCures09 LoveCures09 22-25, F Sep 14

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    its been 2.5 weeks since he moved out. no contact, and here I am still thinking about him. :(
    lizakb lizakb 22-25, F Sep 16

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    I know I said earlier on that I am an introvert. I guess it's ironic to say that I also love being the center of attention. To put it simply. I'd rather give a speech and to talk...
    dustyoldclock dustyoldclock 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19

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    So people say...or some people say. I don't really think I'm ugly. I'm just invisible because I'm fat.
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 19

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    Size 16 but I feel attractive. I love the way men look at me. I dress appropriately as never expose too much. I notice those looks because it's not an all out ogling creepy stare...
    Triztemuneca87 Triztemuneca87 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel about a woman in prison SO BADLY. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM BEGGING YOU
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T Sep 21

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    I've got friends and family, but struggle with feeling disconnected from it all. I think I'm just having a pre-midlife crisis :). Sometimes I just want to run. Maybe, its just...
    bellieup bellieup 31-35, F Sep 22

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 4 days ago

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    Someone approached me and told me ," You have a mesmerizing smile but your eyes are so full of sadness." Don't think I'll ever forget that
    CurvyBones17 CurvyBones17 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Self-Righteous Homewreckers-From 2001-2010 I lived in constant fear of being ripped away from my mother and homeland. Pursued by her ex lover from whom my mother's husband had...
    AlphahatesOmega AlphahatesOmega 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I have very few happy memories of my childhood. Firstly, because of the toxicity of my home situation, I wasn't a very pleasant child. I bullied someone and was generally rude...
    33dulling 33dulling 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 12

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    the first day they all stand there with those who brought them into the world the one who gave them love the one who gave them protection and among them a child stood wanting...
    vividmemorieslost vividmemorieslost 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    My mother and I use to be best friends. And by that I mean when I was 14-17. That was the time when I dropped out of school and helped her with her weed habit. She allowed me to...
    cirrus19xx cirrus19xx 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 4

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    my name is nathan and i learned about this site from a parent at a children's hospital support group. i have a very sick son. i am going to give a little background info to give...
    singledaddy101 singledaddy101 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My unintended story... I did not intend to write this story when I started writing this morning. I guess this must’ve been wanting to come out. My parents divorced a year...
    Iamhere4me Iamhere4me 36-40, M 4 Responses Sep 9

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    No contact with my mother for a week now. I prefer when there is no contact. She only contacts me when she wants to take one of my children out. I am considering stopping this...
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 2

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    Normally, I'm a very forgiving person. I always have been. Within 12 hours, I usually let bygones be bygones. This especially applies to my family. But it's been 24 hours, and I...
    Nomorewars Nomorewars 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    I'm not sure if I'm really glad about this. I am sometimes, but not always. My huge problem is the way I think. The way I think about people and their opinions (about me...
    Wejlo Wejlo 16-17, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    She whined for years that none of the 4 boys wanted to take over the family farm. She wanted to retire with a nice chunk of change and listed it for over $400,000. 5 years later...
    delisi1007 delisi1007 41-45 3 Responses Sep 16

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    As a person who is absolutely proud of being able to deal with difficult or unpleasant people with grace, I have hit the wall with dealing with my mother in law. Here is a woman...
    Xiramat Xiramat 26-30, F Sep 22

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    So many of friend have children . I cannot conceive and have tried ivf but to no avail. I cannot grasp how much love goes between a mother and a child even though I see it everyday...
    Emmergale Emmergale 56-60, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    Being told by my mother that I was selfish & worse since I was a pre-teen damaged me... Made me believe my own happiness wasn't worth a damn (even though I could never make her...
    Elayla Elayla 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    Being told by my mother that I was selfish & worse since I was a pre-teen damaged me... Made me believe my own happiness wasn't worth a damn (even though I could never make her...
    Elayla Elayla 31-35, F Sep 8

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    Disconnect She is the only women that I love , but my heart hates. she was suppose to protect and love me. but all she did was beat and hate me. even as a child I always felt...
    ladonna1989 ladonna1989 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I'm 21 years old, and this is probably the first time I've really let myself believe that what I have experienced is not something I brought upon myself. For so long I've felt so...
    mjh92 mjh92 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 12