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I Am a Mother Even Though My Child Is Dead

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    This Is To My Child. I Had My Abortion 3 Yrs Ago And Decided I Needed To Write A Letter To Her. It His Helped Me Come To Terms With The Guilt.

    Posted January 5th, 2012 at 2:33PM To my first angel- I will name you Riley. Your father and I always liked that name so it seems like that would have been yours. You would have been a beautiful child with beautiful green eyes and light hair. Short like both your parents. You...
    makkay2011 makkay2011 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 9, 2012

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    Missing My Baby. I Did The Wrong Thing

    i found i was pregnant when my first bourne was almost 5 years old.  i had been having alot of "woman trouble" and the pain would get unbarable.  the doctors told me that i would die if i gave birth,  if i made it that long and my baby would die to. ...
    sashclamp sashclamp 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2009

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    I Am Nathaniel's Mother.

    I am Nathaniel's mother. I conceived in December 2004. He was born just 6 short months later. He was born, not lost.  I gave birth to him and I gave him life. But he wasn't ready. His lungs weren't ready. He died 9 1/2 hours later, laying in my arms. I buried my son. He now...
    critterbug84 critterbug84 22-25 5 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    Am I Really A Mother?

    Hello everyone. I gave birth to a stillborn baby boy at 20 weeks about four years ago. I have no children and have had two miscarriages. One before him and one after him. I am 34 and doubt I will ever have a child. My stillborn baby (I named Xavier) is buried here at a local...
    jlb0505 jlb0505 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    Yes....

    I am a mother. I went to a party when I was 16 years old, where I was beaten, and raped. The result of the rape restuled in a child. I was 16, and scared to death. I had no idea what I was going to do. After thinking. I decide that I was going to keep my baby. I was going to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    I Miss Him And I Only Saw His Face In A Dream...

    My son, Hunter Raven would have been 15 this year. He was merely a zygote by scientific standards. I was forced to take the "Morning After Pill" at about 70 hours after sex.I miss him so much and I will never forget how much I despise my then boyfriend for belittling me.I get so...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 2 Responses Mar 6, 2013

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    Jamie's Mommy Forever

    When I was 19 I got prego (2005). After dreaming since I was really little of being a mom, I was overjoyed to say the least. It was sunday, I was going to the dr monday to conferm my calculation of 5w6d. At about 3am I woke to horrible pain in my abdomin. Thinking it was just my...
    ttlisaof2 ttlisaof2 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    My mum is always like "Go get a job and stop being lazy and make your own money" even though she knows nowhere will take people my age unless its volunteer work and they don't have...
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    After being told on Wednesday that the doctors will no longer help my son because of possibilities that he might not live very long any way. It take emotional strength, inner...
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    I just told my mom everything… how I despise her how after all these years of her letting me down and leaving me alone I can no longer trust her… I told her even if you gave...
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    I am a 15 year old Jewish, Orthodox girl. I was born 3 months early in Manchester, England. From the time i was a baby i have had a very hard life. I lived in fear every day of my...
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    Being a Hispanic woman of mixed ancestry from the Caribbean myself I love the fact that all my children are of mixed heritage. My oldest two, my sons as well as my youngest...
    canelabunz canelabunz 51-55, F Mar 25

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    Yeah you are Princess. Oh wait you don't want me to call you that.... But, I will till I find a new nick name. You've dealt with the flirty Wade {Wade} (Hi) and the serious Wilson...
    ThinShadow ThinShadow 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I may have posted experiences with my mother. Well its getting worse than ever. I always try to reconcile and always try to be a good daughter. No matter how hard I try I always...
    cheerfulgirl7 cheerfulgirl7 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Hi:))). I get told everyday that I'm too nice and overly happy. I'm not sure why but I LOVE getting told this and make sure I thank the person that tells me with a friendly hug...
    musicgirl102 musicgirl102 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    The story of my everyday life. Even if I'm happy and laughing in the day, at the end of the day someone says something hurtful. And I get so fed up with it, like why try laughing...
    Soulartgirl Soulartgirl 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Smilz you are a beautiful girl. I mean if anybodys not beautiful it's me. I am the sinner. I've done things that I regret and said **** to people I don't even mean. I'm pretty much...
    KingHeat KingHeat 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 29

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    I am a married white woman to a white man. I have five biracial babies by different black fathers. They are all in great health, beautiful, and handsome.
    birthdaypartyforme birthdaypartyforme 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 3

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    It's so hard to say goodbye after 6 years. He ****** up badly and lied for 3 years. The day he admitted the truth was the day my wall went up and hasn't come down since. It's the...
    inloveyetincomplete inloveyetincomplete 18-21, F Mar 19

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    Seeing is deceiving ;) haha
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 19

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      So lately I have been feeling out of place. Like i do not belong?Anyone else?I fake a smile at school..it weird because before I smile I tell myself "smile like you mean it...
    juliebean4 juliebean4 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 19

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    I smile to hide sadness. Because I don't trust half the people in this world to talk to about what's bothering me that'll listen without somehow upsetting me or ******* me off...
    Philli8807 Philli8807 22-25, F Mar 20

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    I wish I wasn't torn between the two of you..I've spent the last half hour crying because I'm so depressed about this ****. I can't make this decision.
    youlostheridiot youlostheridiot 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 22

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    I have severe depression. They've considered putting me in a mental hospital more than once. Depression is the worst thing a person can feel. Especially when you can't figure out...
    JayyPsythe JayyPsythe 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 25

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    I haven't been intimate with anyone for a year perhaps more. I can't so this single ****. I should've been smarter when I was young. What does an atheist scream when they ******?
    AnonymousPet AnonymousPet 31-35, M Mar 25

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    Excuse me sir, But have you seen my smile? I'm afraid I've lost it I haven't seen it in awhile.
    HeyItsKaylaMay HeyItsKaylaMay 18-21, F Mar 30

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    I have been broken down to the point where I'm not sure of who I am anymore. It seems easier to just give up than keep going right now. I drink a lot and self medicate and I have a...
    freefalling20 freefalling20 18-21 1 Response Apr 3

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    I used to always be so happy and make all my friends and family laugh. I still do every now and then, I usually act like I'm okay and happy, just to make others happy. I love...
    txblank91 txblank91 22-25, F Apr 6

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    I know nobody loves me. But this is not a purpouse in my life. I know who loves me . And god loves me. He was allways there for me. And he is more powerful then all you who has...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I am actually in a happy, fulfilling marriage and I love my husband. But I secretly crave attention from other men. Nothing makes me smile more than having another man flirt with...
    kelgurl kelgurl 31-35, F 6 Responses Apr 9

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    I am a dog furry and I do enjoy yiff :)
    bluekit1 bluekit1 22-25, M Apr 11

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    I'm a college student whose boyfriend allows to go to school full time and not work as much. He pays all the bills and since I made a choice early in life to not drive, he drives...
    PoisonLace PoisonLace 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    I cannot express how much she means to me, I love her inexpressibly. We met once, in New York, and I loved everything about her. Her personality, her smile, everything about her is...
    Acrylics Acrylics 22-25 1 Response 2 days ago

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    i want to go home so badly. i want to run away, to run home.
    usernameuphup1 usernameuphup1 18-21 16 hrs ago

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    I am still a mother.I am still a mother, even though I don't get to hold my child, even though I don't get to kiss her boo-boos. I am still a mother, even though I don't get to see...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    My mother lied to me my whole youth about who my father was. I was told my father was my mother’s first husband. Meanwhile my mother married my step father when I was just 20...
    dwc294 dwc294 46-50, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have never hated anyone in my life. My MIL I DO hate she has destroyed my marriage with get son her golden child . I am 45, he is 63, she is 86. Her son divorced his wife 30...
    sueoneil sueoneil 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    Hate is a very strong word, so I'll try not to use it. I have a stepson (he's 15 now) who I have been around since he was 6. I knew that he was gay the day I met him. That is of no...
    needinghelpbadly needinghelpbadly 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I guess to understand the full depth of my story, it's best to start at the very beginning It all started when I turned 7. Up until that age, I has a great family. My mom and dad...
    heartsofgold22 heartsofgold22 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    Hi, it's Dakota again. I've already told my story of being raped by my uncle and three strange men last summer, just after I turned 14. One of the men was killed in a bad drug deal...
    mouthdakota mouthdakota 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    Hello...... I am hoping somebody could give me some advice, I'll explain my situation and I'll try to keep it short.... I think I have a narcissistic mother. In fact I am pretty...
    blueberry36 blueberry36 36-40, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    What ten minutes of your life would you choose to return to for just ten minutes? The reality is we never get that choice in a conscious manner, happenstance or serendipitous...
    oldbaldguy oldbaldguy 70+, M Mar 30

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    Often feel alone even though I'm not alone
    halobeauty halobeauty 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    I have been married to my husband for 10 years and together for 13. Before we married, I thought my MIL was like the mother I never had. (My mother past away when I was a young...
    adreanasmom adreanasmom 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    So I have been in NC with my "mother", father and brother for almost a year. I've never been happier about a decision that I've made, even tho it's been hard mourning the loss of...
    Misstaco Misstaco 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    From the time I got pregnant weve been argueing he didnt even want me having our child he tried to pay me to have an abortion and then when my child was born thats when he grew...
    laqquita21 laqquita21 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    I have seen both sides of it. Dad died of a heart attack out of the blue, it was his first one, random. And mind blowing. I was grown and out of the house but still when I answered...
    Tracymichelle77 Tracymichelle77 26-30 1 Response Mar 27

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    Children needs to be disciplined, no matter the age or gender. That is how me and my sisters and my brother were raised - I was born in a underclass household in the early 70's...
    MaryKoviski MaryKoviski 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    Children needs to be disciplined, no matter the age or gender. That is how me and my sisters and my brother were raised - I was born in a underclass household in the early 70's...
    MaryKoviski MaryKoviski 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    To anyone who has ever lost a parent to suicide. You need to know something, You are one of the most beautiful people in the word! Even If you have to look in the mirror every...
    thriving thriving 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    I amd 21 years old, I've always said that I never want to have children. Last summer I met a man who as a little girl, she is now 2 1/2 years old,when I met him and started to get...
    heather22a heather22a 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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