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I Am a Mother Even Though My Child Is Dead

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    I Am Nathaniel's Mother.

    I am Nathaniel's mother. I conceived in December 2004. He was born just 6 short months later. He was born, not lost.  I gave birth to him and I gave him life. But he wasn't ready. His lungs weren't ready. He died 9 1/2 hours later, laying in my arms. I buried my son. He now...
    critterbug84 critterbug84 22-25 5 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    Missing My Baby. I Did The Wrong Thing

    i found i was pregnant when my first bourne was almost 5 years old.  i had been having alot of "woman trouble" and the pain would get unbarable.  the doctors told me that i would die if i gave birth,  if i made it that long and my baby would die to. ...
    sashclamp sashclamp 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2009

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    I Miss Him And I Only Saw His Face In A Dream...

    My son, Hunter Raven would have been 15 this year. He was merely a zygote by scientific standards. I was forced to take the "Morning After Pill" at about 70 hours after sex.I miss him so much and I will never forget how much I despise my then boyfriend for belittling me.I get so...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 2 Responses Mar 6, 2013

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    Jamie's Mommy Forever

    When I was 19 I got prego (2005). After dreaming since I was really little of being a mom, I was overjoyed to say the least. It was sunday, I was going to the dr monday to conferm my calculation of 5w6d. At about 3am I woke to horrible pain in my abdomin. Thinking it was just my...
    ttlisaof2 ttlisaof2 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    This Is To My Child. I Had My Abortion 3 Yrs Ago And Decided I Needed To Write A Letter To Her. It His Helped Me Come To Terms With The Guilt.

    Posted January 5th, 2012 at 2:33PM To my first angel- I will name you Riley. Your father and I always liked that name so it seems like that would have been yours. You would have been a beautiful child with beautiful green eyes and light hair. Short like both your parents. You...
    makkay2011 makkay2011 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2012

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    Yes....

    I am a mother. I went to a party when I was 16 years old, where I was beaten, and raped. The result of the rape restuled in a child. I was 16, and scared to death. I had no idea what I was going to do. After thinking. I decide that I was going to keep my baby. I was going to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

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    Am I Really A Mother?

    Hello everyone. I gave birth to a stillborn baby boy at 20 weeks about four years ago. I have no children and have had two miscarriages. One before him and one after him. I am 34 and doubt I will ever have a child. My stillborn baby (I named Xavier) is buried here at a local...
    jlb0505 jlb0505 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    i may not be a mother

    but i am a father. my child is dead and my horrible sister who bashed us for having a child, her child lives and my is dead the pain is fresh. it all happened last month
    saint0928 saint0928 18-21, M Jul 2, 2014

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    I am sick of relationship stuff. I hate the family holidays and valentines day. I will be watching i hate valentines day movie lol. The worst part is it is on Sunday. I lost my...
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    I liked playing with marbles, Jenga blocks, listening to the radio, and drawing. Even though my mom brought me a Barbie, I kept it unopened and put it in the closet. When I get a...
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    Hello guys, Well, I hope you`re in for a good read but, I really hope some of you feel the same as I do and I don`t know if I`ll ever find someone in the same situation. If you...
    frozonov frozonov 36-40, M 3 days ago

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    To be honest I feel like I've been betrayed by every person I know. The only person who didn't betray me and was consistent through and through was a weed smoking democrat and he...
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    I've been thinking a lot lately about the choices I've been making. Some, I'm proud of, others, I'm not. I feel like I'm not doing what I should be with my life. I know... you're...
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    I force a smile swallow my tears I walk the halls with confidence and pretend I have no fears I hide a clenched fist under my shirt sleave and brush off anything that annoys me I...
    FelineLover311 FelineLover311 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I spent my childhood and teen years living as an extension of my mother. My thoughts, my feelings, my opinions, and even my needs were almost always discarded in place of my mother...
    malanxious malanxious 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    Even though I am fighting suicidal thoughts, I don't want to commit suicide, I'm way too scared of how people around me will feel like. I don't have any specifically close to me...
    xHeartbeatz xHeartbeatz 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    if anyone wants to yiff with me msg me. I need a master
    MaxWerefolf MaxWerefolf 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    Adventure for Two I felt the need to get a tattoo to remind me of how real things were between us even if it was one sided. You had me from the very first meet I can honestly say...
    sweetsandlove sweetsandlove 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    I spent my whole life feeling ugly and hated, even though I wasn't bad looking, my mother made me like that, she would insult me, humiliate me, telling me I'm not good enough, that...
    curiousdweller curiousdweller 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    like my mom says "smile even if your breaking apart inside and hold your head up high never let them see that your sad." im breaking im sad im lonely im tired im done with life but...
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    I was raised primarily by my mother and my grandmother, I never knew who my father was and really didnt care because I had my mom (and grandmom). Life as an only was lonely at...
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    I try to have a relationship with my mother, even though I am nearly as intimidated by her as I was when I was a child. About a year and a half ago I changed my career, and she...
    greensapphire greensapphire 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 4

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    Right this second, does it for me.. even though i enjoy all their songs!
    wuahthe wuahthe 26-30, F Feb 3

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    My Grandmother's Childhood. Corporal punishment has become so controversial. In fact, it is almost to the point of being taboo. I am always hearing about studies that show that...
    julietx julietx 36-40, F 9 Responses Feb 3

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    I could never say that "I don't judge"... Even in the presence of a perfect God or in the face of the poorest of souls. Truth is, without judgement... Why try your best? From...
    Maricopa Maricopa 18-21 1 Response Feb 2

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    I don't live anywhere close to the ocean but I dream of taking a vacation and going to the beach. It would be nice to go on a vacation like that right now even though it is...
    wendiemyers46 wendiemyers46 13-15, F Feb 2

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    Talking to Mandy tonight. TWICE essentially I’ve hit that “Men do it to women so why do you care when women do it back?” from here. I’m like men? LMFY SOME Men. NOT me...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M Feb 2

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    I have 2 twin girls that are 5 years old. I love them even though they drive me crazy. They both need lots of attention and love. So they started all day Kindergarten this year...
    nonolover nonolover 36-40, F Feb 1

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    Why does everything have to progressively get worse? I miss when my life had more meaning. When I could say "I'm OK" without lying. I'm too tired to continue this pointless fight...
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    we used to go to a disabled swimming club when I was about 6 or 7 my oldest brother could already swim a man named John wanted to teach me to swim my mum agreed & told me to...
    jayethan jayethan 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 31

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    I am a proud single mother of four.That in itself is stressful. If I had to describe my parenting skills, I'd have to say "Old School" and because it's just me... They know that...
    MissingTrevion1020 MissingTrevion1020 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I'm always depressed. It's kind of like..a natural thing for me. I've started to become friends with the dark side of me that keeps wanting to control me. When I'm crying and...
    Sicgoat173 Sicgoat173 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    For some reason even if I close the window on my phone it shows I am logged on. But I'm not. A friend of mine does not even have a light when they are on, why is that?
    JustaLoneyGuy JustaLoneyGuy 46-50, M Jan 29

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    I'm sorry, but I need to get these feelings of resentment and hatred out of me before I end up doing something very foolish. I hate my mother. I just hate her. I cant stand to be...
    aaron812 aaron812 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 29