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I Am a Narcissist

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    This Is What I'Ve Done My Whole Life

    I LIE to make myself look good (partially because I'm anti social and I feel like I don't have much to offer so I lie if someone ever asks me personal questions) I hate and am ashamed of my dad...so I lie about him to not look like a total loser. I can see when someone is...
    PaperSky PaperSky 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 2, 2013

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    Troubled Narcissist.

    So, I'm 23 going on 5, and altho my steps have been tiny i am slowly coming to the realisation that i am a narcissist and i need serious help.  Up untill about 3 days ago i could not of even told you what a narcissist is. I probably still cant all tho i honestly feel that i am...
    Deanisstilltrying Deanisstilltrying 22-25, M 23 Responses Mar 11, 2011

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    I don't think you're truly a pervert

    or a narcissist until you've *********** to videos of yourself ************.
    reeessa reeessa 16-17, F 9 Responses Oct 8, 2014

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    i actually have no feelings

    when i leave a relationship even 7 years worth i can up and leave with no feeling at all . but if my spouse leaves me i will beg her to stay i cannot fathem being left or rejected. ihave to fix it make it right . i need attention. i look for it everywhere i go. i always feel all...
    nikeboy488 nikeboy488 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    I Just Recently Came Into Terms With Myself.

    When I'm right, I'm right, no doubt. And when I'm wrong, I usually accept that I'm wrong. Am I a narcissist? So it seems. My father is the biggest narcissist I know, and according to my cousin on his side, it runs in his side of the family. It makes sense. My dad could never...
    PresumptuousLittleAngel PresumptuousLittleAngel 18-21 2 Responses Nov 11, 2011

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    I started college about three weeks ago

    and I can't help sometimes walking into class late just to have all eyes on me. I know the guys look at me with envy and the girls look me like I'm some kind of king or warrior. Haha it's entertaining to look at the attractive girls and have them smile like they have a chance...
    Patrikios Patrikios 18-21, M Sep 9, 2014

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    Hello I am a 45 Year old.

    I have been told by my wife from whom im separated that I am a narcissist. This troubled me and i started to research what that means. I am now convinced that she is 100% correct so i then tried to find ways of correcting this. I found this community and decided to join in the...
    amerindian amerindian 46-50, M 5 Responses Mar 9

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    Is there anyone borderline narcissists here

    that get impulsive like myself? I'm collecting my own kind.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M Jun 24

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    I am a person who is constantly needing

    validation from others. I am full of myself. The only reason I'm on any social media is for attention. I don't understand myself. I love myself too much but also not enough.
    CassyNicole CassyNicole 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    I am most likely a covert NPD.

    I am in a relationship and I broke it up 7 times in 6 months. Just as something I don't like happens I pick on it, I make an issues of if and take it to the extreme of break up. I called my girlfriend names in front of her family blaming alcohol for it in a response to an...
    fakeidholder fakeidholder 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    My ex said I was a narcissist like himself.

    I wasn't sure if it was true, but since I was at least 6, I thought I was better, more special and cleverer than most people so it made me feel superior. I lied a lot and made up a lot of stories. I am also self obsessed. I think my mum and stepfather are also narcissists, they...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I am new to this so please bare with me

    as I let all this out..... As a child I was controlled and had a strict upbringing. (both my parents were narcissists) My late father made it pretty clear early on that he would've liked another boy ( I have two older Brothers) while my Mother did her best to control my every...
    Teeneytinytina Teeneytinytina 46-50, F Dec 14, 2014

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    these are my honest behaviours.

    1. I think I can be anything in life by being better than others. 2. Its my way or else 3.I have selfish ambitions 4. I think I'm better than people 5.I don't treat people right by having lack of empathy and no heart 6.I have selfish prioritization. I lift weights as my ultimate...
    kevindp kevindp 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 25

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    Hi everyone I also feel

    that I an Narcissist .. but I have traits of Anti social PD and Schizoid too so I really dont know .. All my life since my childhood, I have made up stories and i do them so effectively, I feel like its the truth. And I am also very self centred and selfish and extremely...
    Samaira99 Samaira99 36-40, F 4 Responses May 16, 2014

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    ...and it sucks. I am

    so envious of anyone who has any thing I want and sometimes things I don't really want but feel that I deserve more than they do. I can never be happy for someone else's good fortune unless it is for something I already obtained or that I feel is "beneath" me. I want to quit...
    vinificent vinificent 36-40, F 1 Response May 18

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    It seems lately I've been super self consumed

    only dwelling or capable of focusing on my own thoughts and motives...in interactions with others it's like I'm in a haze I rarely make eye contact and struggle to maintain any substantial interest in what there actually speaking about. Unless of course the topic of conversation...
    girlinterrupted96 girlinterrupted96 18-21, F Apr 24, 2014

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    Malignant Narcissism...

    I have traveled from diagnosis to diagnosis... Being power-hungry, murderous, calculated... Lying for the hell of it, controlling others, manipulating because I just happened to be good at it... My parents often told me, when they got mad at me, that I didn't have one empathic...
    Quantumphysica Quantumphysica 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    We Are Good People.

    Narcissists have troubled pasts and in a way, it enriches the future. I've known a couple narcissists in my time on this planet and we all have been helpers. We help the lady across the street, we open doors for people we hangout with, we are very aware to other's emotions and...
    Demerviose Demerviose 22-25, M 10 Responses Jun 25, 2013

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    At least I think I am a narcissist -

    or maybe I am just very selfish? Alright - confession time. Most of the time I don't care about other peoples feelings. I once got irritated at my friend for sharing that her dad had been involved in a car accident, because I knew that it would require of me to spend time...
    ulalalaura ulalalaura 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    The Things I Enjoy About My Narcissism #3

    My view of things. In reality (outside of EP), one of my hobbies is drawing. Ever since I was young, I could pick up on things like colours, textures, and different lighting. As my narcissism grew, my ability to construct my world became easier because I know what I want to see...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 22, 2012

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    My narcissism is a little different

    or maybe mild. I don't seek attention ever. The only attention I will ever need is mine. When I meet new people, I am so concentrated on telling them my name that I don't hear there name. At least my psychiatrist said I'm narcissistic.
    AFARASHLEY AFARASHLEY 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 4, 2014

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    I recently discovered I am a narcissist.

    Finally everything makes sense, and I sort of feel proud... But I also think I'm some sort of monster. I think I should only build relationships with other narcissists (or inverted narcissists) in order to not hurt anyone accidentally. Does anyone else feel this way?
    Eisbrecher Eisbrecher 18-21, F Mar 22

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    It fuels my N Supply

    when I sense people envying me. They can't resist watching my videos on fb, which I can tell by the number of views, but are too jealous to admit they "like" them.
    pauljunior92 pauljunior92 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    Noelle49 Noelle49 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Awareness Helps.

    I have sought therapy for it and it is not nearly as bad as it used to be, but I am aware of it, and contain it every day. Thankfully, it is controllable, it does not control me.  I can feel it pull on strings of jealousy, not getting what I want and secretly feel I deserve...
    Amoruss Amoruss 41-45, M 4 Responses Dec 2, 2011

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    Randomly Thinking.

    As stated somewhere else in this group I have narcissistic tendencies. I've been running over this in my head for some time. I do not fit the stereotypical definition of a narcissist. I certainly do not love myself. In fact I can list the things I wouldn't change on two hands...
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 20, 2011

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    Unforgiven

    Last year 2007 i realized at the end of the year that i am a narcissist. I have hurt a lot of people and lost a lot of valuable friends because of my behavior. Sometimes i wish i could turn back time and undo everything i have done. I have only thought of myself the whole time...
    SomethingNew SomethingNew 18-21, F 16 Responses Jan 3, 2008

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    I Feel Perfect

    Everyday I wake up and see myself and think, I am such an amazing person. The world would be a better place if everyone was like me. I laugh while reading this because this is exactly how I think. I hate to admit it but my ego is huge. And I really, honestly can't help being this...
    oog1129 oog1129 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    Discovering Npd At 61!

    My second life crisis in 7-years has finally revealed a shameful fact.  After hours of internet research I have concluded that I have narcissistic personality disorder.  I hate myself because of this.  There is so much written about the victims of the N, and so...
    TomHil TomHil 61-65 7 Responses Jun 5, 2010

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    We are a minority and should be proud of our

    narcissism! Few get to experience just how good it can feel.
    pauljunior92 pauljunior92 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    I just went through a breakup with a girl

    that I dated for 2 years and lived with for a year and a half. She left me because of my manipulative and controlling behavior. I have never come to terms with this before until now. I have always known that I am good at influencing people and convincing them to do what I want...
    jq1990 jq1990 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    Does anyone here have narcissistic family

    members? I was born into a family that holds 4 narcissists (including myself) on my fathers side. I believe it's a genetic thing, although not every psychologist agrees. Looking at my family it must be genetic. It doesn't have any real upsides to have family members with this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 14

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    Signs of a toxic person: They are the ones

    who complain all the time. They are the ones who always blame you. They may always turn things around so things you felt they had done wrong are suddenly your fault. They overreact to bad events. They drain your energy. It may be that they get you to spend a lot of time and...
    LockieLeonard LockieLeonard 46-50, M Mar 4

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    Some one has pointed out to me

    that i am such.. I'm not sure if i agree or not but >.< i guess it doesn't matter. whats one more problem among the rest o.O Apparently telling them i refuse not to be anyone else but me. and that i refuse to be falsely nice/polite..makes me a narcissist though... as i think...
    Chinsei Chinsei 26-30, M Apr 10

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    My boyfriend's pet name

    for me is Narcissus. :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 12

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    I find that some people are just pretend

    narcissists, it's pretty insulting to us legitimate narcissists and it insults the definition of the word.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 2 Responses May 30

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    My narcissism cuts through my being like a

    double-edged sword. My perpetual idealism fills my empty void with dreams, enthusiasm, delusions of grandoise that mercilessly mocks my ineptitude, mediocrity, and insecurities once I fall short of my power-hungry aspirations. My endless list of goals is backed by an inevitable...
    Snatch17 Snatch17 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I spend most of my free time looking at myself

    in the mirror. Sometimes while doing hw, i get distracted by myself.
    ninjadentistinspace ninjadentistinspace 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    Narcissistic check list 1.

    Two faced, putting friends and family down behind their back 2. Tendency to blame their lack of success and failure on others 3. Acts different in public then private 4. Irresponsible and unreliable 5. Arrogant, acts superior 6. Lives in a fantasy world which may include...
    LockieLeonard LockieLeonard 46-50, M 4 Responses Mar 28

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    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 15

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    =)

    There's nothing wrong with being a narcissist and it shouldn't be called a disorder! wtf! if that's the case every personality should be a disorder lol! Embrace your inner beast people!!!
    ladykagome06 ladykagome06 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 2, 2013

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    I'm an unrepentant narcissist,

    I love my looks and my personality. I love everything about myself and I expect to be adored. I intimidate others and love being spoilt. Life is easy for me.
    Savourycandy Savourycandy 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2014

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    12 steps to dealing with abusive

    Narcissists: 1. Identify and admit 2. Test : do you feel like crap when you speak to them 3. clarify YOUR PRESENT MOMENT EMOTION 4. clarify the boundary between your problems and their problems 5. clarify the boundary that you DON'T let people do this to you 6. be AWARE...
    LockieLeonard LockieLeonard 46-50, M 2 Responses Feb 12

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    I was raised by a narcissistic mother

    and am terrified I will be just like her, and will terrorize my future children as she has terrorized me. :(
    n2385 n2385 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    I didn't notice until I started researching this

    for a uni paper, I mean people have pointed things out to me in the past. I lie, I have no qualms about cheating to get ahead, I don't think I have ever felt guilty about anything - my main fear comes from people realising I am not as good, nice, kind as I make myself out to be...
    greatness01 greatness01 22-25 1 Response Nov 2, 2014

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