I Am a New Member At Experience Project Forum & Chat Board | My Long Story Shared (Part 1).. Please Help, I really need it..

Hi, everyone..

I am 23 years old,married for almost five years,with two kids and a husband who says he loves me but manages to hurt me physically and emotionally...

I am a working mom. My husband has no work, he tried looking for some but is having a hard time due to educational background. We always argue with little things, he is a really very jealous guy. He has been hurting me since he was still my boyfriend. Anyway, I want to share you how we met. I met him when I was 16, we were friends, I have met 2 of his ex girl friends and made friends with them.. Then, the time came when we were intimate with each other until we got pregnant. My father who is a government employer told us to marry just after I turn 18 years old, I am 6 months pregnant that time..

Our first years of marriage went so tough. He had his first job while I stayed at the house babysitting. When my baby was 8 months old I had my first job, while he decided to continue his college, with his sister's advice. He gets drunk many times, hit me everytime then say sorry the next day... I was so strong those times, just prayed, cried and accepted his apology.. he always say he will not do it again, but broke his promise...

Now, I am tired of all his jealous guy things, he does not want me to go out of town for work related seminars, he does not want me to mingle and socialize with my colleagues, my friends, and families especially to guys... I am completely not me now... and I am tired...