I Am a Paradox

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    I am paradoxical and I've come to accept it.

    I am a loosely based Buddhist in nature and follow the non violent path with respect for everyone, etc. But I must confess I love to watch boxing, UFC, and other violent sports. The difference to me is if it's for sport and the parties both agree to it I find it fine.
    MyDarkestDesires MyDarkestDesires
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Apr 20, 2014

    Who Am I?

    At times I appear aloof and mute, yet I can be very warm, caring and articulate. I love people, yet at times I can't stand them and I NEED to be alone. I want to feel happy and mentally healthy, and yet there is a strange comfortable feeling in my own sadness and tears. I know I...
    DancingFox DancingFox
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 8, 2011
    TheNippledMan TheNippledMan
    36-40, M
    Jul 6, 2014

    I Am 15

    I am 15, rather curious Many views of the world Which one to take, oh its hard. Is it ok to talk to your self? But than you ask your self. I am 15, rather delighted by life So it all begins with a question But who is the first person you ask? Don’t you ask the person that...
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    1 Response Oct 8, 2012

    Inhale Then Exhale

    look into the horizon, inhale then exhale, your whispers in the air, tickle my eardrum as I hear, my name... your calling... your desperate... Inhale then exhale the words of charming chaos.. that fills me with hatred... with passion... With reality... inhale but no longer...
    deleted deleted
    Oct 8, 2012

    Paradoxical Me

    I have been here before. I tried to disguise myself in different pseudonymous, but my real self always emerged and it frightened me. I want to remain anonymous, nonetheless I want to be truthful. Truthful to my self. So, I have decided to have another go. I want to make friends...
    BuildingMyself BuildingMyself
    41-45, F
    Jan 3, 2012

    Thoughts All Over The Place

    Right now, I am feeling... - tired after a long week - happy that it's the weekend and I'm going to see my brother - anxious because of work and finances - lonely and wishing I had someone to cuddle (and no, my brother isn't the cuddly type!) - hopeful because I am making...
    DancingFox DancingFox
    31-35, F
    Mar 4, 2011

    I Am A Pair Of Ducks

    Paradoxes are interesting!  Also there is no such thing.   If you think something is a paradox, you are probably just confused.  It is because nothing means anything, we just think it does.  STOP MAKING SENSE!!!I like one sentence paradoxes.  I found a whole book of them on...
    neodeno neodeno
    Apr 17, 2011

    Because I Like Being Alone But I Crave Companionship

    i am a loner. i like being alone. i dont relate to most people. i have a hard time just sitting there talking in groups. i prefer more intimate situations i guess. despite this i crave companionship. i want to find that special someone so we can be alone together. i want someone...
    EdgeCrusher EdgeCrusher
    26-30, M
    Apr 23, 2011

    Way Of The Whip

    Fingers in an instant climbing deep within overload of feeling sensation overwhelms your back arched arms wide fingers stretched hot red welts painted the canvas ever richer my aching needs and love flow out of me passion pent-up floodgate washed away air redolent with your...
    dragonofjapan dragonofjapan
    56-60, M
    Feb 6, 2012

    I'm a paradox. I want to be happy,

    but I think of things that make me sad. I'm lazy, yet I'm ambitious. I don't like myself, but I also love who I am. I say I don't care, but I really do. I crave attention, but reject it when it comes my way. I'm a conflicted contradiction. If I can't figure myself out, there's...
    ImAlivingParadox ImAlivingParadox
    22-25, F
    Apr 17, 2015

    I'm Not Always What I Seem

    If you were to look at me in one moment, you would see who I am. Look at me again, and you might see something a little different. I am not always what I seem to be, or should I say, I am exactly who I seem to be, and yet there is a whole other side of me that either augments the...
    Lucidblue Lucidblue
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2011

    Pot Calling The Kettle Black

    I've posted in a suicide group today, about the suicide fantasies I play in my head when I feel too low. And now I have just commented on an anon suicide confession telling them now to do it, and to talk to us. Talk about the pot calling the kettle black.
    DancingFox DancingFox
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 2, 2011

    Everything About Me Contradicts Itself

    There are so many things about me that don't make any sense, to me or anyone else. I don't understand myself, and I certainly don't expect other people to. Surprisingly this doesn't make me feel bad, but it does intrigue and bother me. Here is a list of examples...
    brightwings brightwings
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Feb 8, 2008

    im a paradox - i want to get a lot of things

    done but i can get too lazy. i want to be sociable, but im too awkward. i want to travel, but im scared. i want to meet new people, but what if they turn out to somekind of a psycho?
    omgkris56 omgkris56
    22-25, F
    Jun 15, 2015

    Inner Struggles

    I am facing a battle again, one that I sometimes try to face head on and sometimes run away from.And here it is.I became a Christian when I was 18. This means I came to believe that Jesus really was God incarnate, and that when he died he did take upon himself the guilt of my sin...
    DancingFox DancingFox
    31-35, F
    Aug 11, 2011

    My interests and personality traits appear to

    be mutually exclusive, meaning that by being open and honest about who I am and what I find interesting, I am unable to pursue either of my main reasons for joining a site such as this. When trying to engage in certain activities my personality seriously disadvantages me making...
    tmalachi tmalachi
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 1, 2015

    Being paradoxical is odd,

    because sometimes you accept it, and sometimes you fight against it (I suppose it's par for the course). For instance: I believe in community, and individuality. I believe in old-fashioned ways, but also embrace the new-fangled. I long for adventure and stability, and desire a...
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    Apr 19, 2014

    Which To Choose?...

    I Have Recently Been Split In Between Going To Medical School Or The Marines Funny Ironic Even Isn't Haha But Yes I Am Pulled In Between Them Both And Don't Know Which To Follow Healer? Or Well Marine? Haha I Don't Know But I'm Leaning Towards The Marines More :p
    ILeo ILeo
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 23, 2013

    When I'm upset, I tell people to go away

    and leave me alone, but I want them to stay so badly.
    kingdombreezy kingdombreezy
    16-17, F
    Oct 2, 2015

    When I get honest, I admit I am a bundle of

    paradoxes. I believe and I doubt, I hope and get discouraged, I love and I hate, I feel bad about feeling good, I feel guilty about not feeling guilty. I am trusting and suspicious. I am honest and I still play games. Aristotle said I am a rational animal; I say I am an angel...
    IPleadthe5th IPleadthe5th
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Jan 14, 2015

    The Glow Worm

    I am ******-up, yet I have dreams of absolute love, absolute light, absolute beauty. I am a glow worm trying to be a star. And I know I am just a little crawling beast. And I still want to be a beautiful shining star.
    DancingFox DancingFox
    31-35, F
    Apr 21, 2011
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