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I Am a Psychopath

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 524 People

    A Dangerous Realization

    I am new to this website and I am learning, slowly, as to how it functions. I have come to realize how many openly perverted people there are; these guys(for the most part) fan me and message me with no idea of who they are talking to. They simply read "(18-21) F" and assume it...
    Rage21 Rage21 22-25, F 9 Responses Aug 12, 2012

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    I notice a trend on this site of people arguing

    over one another's validity of a psychopath. Unfortunately, the reason for this and the reason that this is really one of the only support group forums online for this disorder are the same. There is not enough information available and not enough accurate diagnoses of...
    bdz222 bdz222 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 16

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    Trust. What a foreign,

    illogical, and outright stupid concept. You cannot trust anyone in this world because they are not you and you are not in their heads. The only persons true thoughts that you can see are your own. If only that were true for psychopaths. We have spent so long lying to ourselves...
    iamnotahuman iamnotahuman 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 12

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    World War Z

    The Zoembies have spread and are among us now. Funny the things that can bring you together. Never before united by any cause but now all fight together against one common enemy, the Zoembies. Who is this sinister and most dangerous monster able to bring together the disparate...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    What a rush! Do you guys know the feeling

    that you get when you manipulate someone to the point of achiving the expected goal but in record time?!!! What a freakin rush!!
    indifferent2016 indifferent2016 31-35 2 Responses May 19

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    This is about an unusual incident

    that I do not wish to repeat. Something happened today that I'm not proud of. I was in the car with my drunk mother driving my step brother to work. Her reckless driving caused a lot of stress on my mentality and nearly got me killed. I didn't have my license with me so I...
    ZeroExile ZeroExile 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 23

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    Dear Psychopath

    The first time I met you, your eyes were the first thing I noticed. They were not of a particularly startling color, shape, or size. But they were cold and still, and I wondered how they could bore into me while taking no rest to blink. Physiologically, something within me was...
    zoeb555 zoeb555 22-25, F 16 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    Gaslighting

    If I had been given a choice, a part of me believes I would have rather fall victim to sadistic torture instead. Burned flesh, sliced skin, unrelenting abuse. Gouged out eyes. This merely leaves superficial scars and wounds. There is agony far worse than what can be experienced...
    zoeb555 zoeb555 22-25, F 6 Responses May 15, 2013

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    A Cure

    It isn't the first time scientific research has had an impact which has reached beyond science to delve into social and moral spheres. Scientists have discovered the right combination of chemical compounds for a pill to affect, of all things, empathy. The function and structure...
    zoeb555 zoeb555 22-25, F 22 Responses May 29, 2013

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    Disappear In The Crowd, A Foray In Avoiding Identification And Surveillance

    In the spirit of so many providing how-tos this week – my favorite so far is to consider my karma and choose to do good – I thought I’d muddy the waters myself. So you’re minding your own business, walking around town and doing nothing particular, just passing the time or...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 3 Responses May 26, 2013

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    REACHING FOR WHAT YOU WANT When I was in

    college, someone I considered a friend suddenly blurted out to me, “Do you know why I hate you?” Typically, not something a friend would say unless he was joking. And he wasn’t joking. So I mentally downgraded our relationship status to acquaintances and calmly asked him...
    Michaelpup Michaelpup 31-35, M 1 Response May 6

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    Do You Follow The Light Or The Dark?

    From my blog : http://darkwolf40.blogspot.co.uk/2012/10/do-you-follow-light-or-dark.html   Some people follow the light. Everything about their life is in the Light. From their childhood experiences to their adult life, they have been in the light. They cannot understand...
    roadofdarkness roadofdarkness 36-40 3 Responses Oct 30, 2012

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    Human Hacking, Body Language 101

    You saw him when came in, strong posture and confident movements into the bar without hesitation. Not alone but the group seemed to move with him. You caught yourself lifting your chin to watch, exposing your neck but aside from the casual scan of the room, he didn’t seem to...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 4 Responses Jul 10, 2013

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    Patience Is The Determinant

    The more patient a psychopath is, the less physically violent they are. Intelligence also helps. You're not monsters, you're just more likely to be dangerous, mentally and physically. I am also incredibly mentally dangerous. Even with my feelings and morals. :) The only...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 4 Responses May 8, 2012

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    Sociopathic/psychopathic Parents Hi there!

    I’ve been doing a research on sociopathic/psychopathic parenting and I’d be extremely grateful if you kindly and honestly answered following questions: 1) What’s your age and gender? 2) What’s your relationship status? 3) How many children do you have and what’s their...
    masset masset 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 2

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    I'm Not A Psychopath, I'm Something Way Better

    I would love to go see a shrink to find out what personality disorders I have and to talk about myself (=my favorite thing to do), but it's hardly affordable fun. Maybe someone here has a clue, and if not, at least we are talking about me=)But yea, I'm not incapable of love. I...
    poofteress poofteress 22-25 11 Responses Jan 4, 2012

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    Defiling Aristotle. Eudaemonia,

    the good life, the life well lived - what we all aim for. To simply survive, as so many of the others seem content with, is not to survive at all; we must live. Excellence of body, excellence of mind and excellence of aesthetic (or character). My life is to improve each of...
    MrOllie MrOllie 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 12

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    You Don't Have To Be A Sadist To Fit The Factors Of A Psychopath!

    I am writing this purely due to the fact that I am bored, and it's raining out so might as well write something that will waste time. My goal is to discuss the factors according to the PCL-R that define a psychopath, how they are manifest in me, and what the implications are of...
    mattkc mattkc 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 2, 2012

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    Mirror, Mirror, On The Wall...

    At the age of 13-14, I recall always staring at a mirror. Inspecting myself. There was always a weird sense that spurred me to do so. I mainly stared at my eyes. They are chestnut brown, a bit light, dark all the same.Striations and orbs of black. I pondered my motives, but it...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 8 Responses Aug 11, 2013

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    My Only Daughter

    Its name was John.He’d been our neighbor since we bought the land. He didn’t own it; he rented from one of the original families out there, one of the three. He’d been a missionary for awhile, was still. He would load up his wife and daughter and they’d head out taking...
    OgoNay OgoNay 46-50 6 Responses Aug 24, 2013

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    I Am Something I Dont Know What

    I've never felt true emotions, for as long as i've lived, but when i'd read a story or see a movie something in me would change. I dont like peole unless they benifit me in someway. I dont like to use people because that makes me dependent on them. For three years i stole from my...
    augustus31544 augustus31544 22-25 20 Responses Aug 21, 2009

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    THE POWER OF EMOTION With

    so much crap around the internet about psychopaths not feeling emotions, let me tell you one thing-We certainly do. Though quite a few of us can't quite attend to them to the same extent as others and this is one main reason behind them rendered non-functioning. If you want...
    Michaelpup Michaelpup 31-35, M 6 Responses Jun 2

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    I Have Rules.

    I have rules. A recent post says "we" don't have rules or masks and are the only ones who live free... I have rules. Rules to choose who's next. Rules for internet communication. Rules to play my way without consequence. Rules to maintain the identities I've built over a...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 7 Responses May 8, 2013

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    You'd Better Watch Your Back, Babe!

    My wants devour me. I don't give up. I am the obsessed and i don't have an issue with it. I was wrong. Hesitation was strong. It just made me more hungry. I'm in prey drive and my eyes are glazed. It was so unlike me. To turn down something i want. Now i'm chasing my own tail. So...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 22, 2012

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    This post is more of an inquiry.

    The subject of which I am inquiring is of employment. I am interested in what fields other psychopaths have gravitated in to, why they chose it, and how they survive and thrive within that field. I sense this information would be interesting if compiled so I suggest you comment...
    fishlungs fishlungs 18-21, M 8 Responses Jun 14

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    My stories usually take the form of heated

    cryptic debate. It's my idea of entertainment. I had planned to write something similar although, I'm sitting here at 4am again, awake, alone, in content apathy. My mind is not up for debate against a ghost tonight. I see a reoccurring theme when i read other peoples stories on...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 8

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    This is perhaps a random question,

    and a bit of an impulsive post, I have been up for a couple days now. Reading through certain things, I am becoming more curious about aspects of my personality I have taken for granted, as well some statements I have read on this site. For Psychopaths out there, what do you...
    Solluth Solluth 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 21

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    Lullaby

    Hush, little baby, don’t say a word. Pretties should be seen and never heard. If you cry for help or scream, I’ll muzzle your mouth with a ball and rings. To pay for your sins I’ll spank your ***, And punch you in the stomach with my knuckles brass. If your bones before...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 5 Responses Jun 28, 2013

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    I've been through some ****.

    It started with being born. Through files on my life it started with my mother using coke while pregnant or punching her stomach, she did not want me. When i was born she hated me. She wouldn't even name me and let my grandmother do it. Living was hell. She would beat me, whip...
    confusedguy23 confusedguy23 22-25, M 5 Responses May 28

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    Basically.. I just joined this

    because I'm intrested to find out what people can tell me, basically I think I'm just realising I'm psychopathic, until recently I have been blind too it, maybe it's awakening, I don't know, I was hoping this site may give me answers I don't feel emotion.. like for other people...
    Martyg123 Martyg123 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 3

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    Functional Psychopathy

    I'm of the psychopaths that do not overlap into Antisocial Personality Disorder, though I have other PDs.  I'm highly functioning and blend in well with the general populus -after all, lack of empathy and guilt don't show on the outside as long as you're not getting...
    shhh shhh 31-35, T 10 Responses Feb 7, 2010

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    My gauzy reverie.I am a woman,

    a cold blooded one, but still just a woman. La cucina è dirimpetto al mio loculo. The kitchen is opposite my tomb. Still, it's patronizing that you think i would be flattered by your reactions. How clever of you to observe the outward obvious lie, and act with clique...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 27

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    Is Today The Day?

    Everything is coming together and now is the time. The excitement is running, coursing, alive through me and carrying me along. Will it hpen today? I am anxious to see what will happen, will it play out in accordance with my plan? Will it do as I anticipate or surprise me with...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 30, 2013

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    Story 1 http://www.youtube.

    com/watch?v=GLqwE0Vh4sI Hello to all the people of experience project. It's not a thing a normal person would say, isn't it?! Lol, but that doesn't matter, if you continue reading, you'll see the reason why I said that I'm a bi-polar , not a psychopath. http://www.youtube...
    blackpigeon blackpigeon 70+, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    OOPS, I did it again!

    I was alone this time. I stuffed a dog and broke the owner. I got out of the bar after two (forced) drinks. I was walking towards my car when I saw him walking his dog. My brain tensed up and I felt a rush. I took out my mask from the glove compartment and followed him, that...
    blackpigeon blackpigeon 70+, M 5 Responses Oct 16

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    I love and hate those

    who want to die with equal measure
    JonathanCTVirgo JonathanCTVirgo 18-21, M Dec 8

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    Real Psychopath facts number 2 psychopats can

    be unbelievably naive. As for myself I don't want to justify myself or copy and paste diagnosis text, it's really hard to share these experiences, looking for some interesting perspective. I can say some paradoxical things, I have been in jail, I have a family now, and I found...
    ArkadiSev ArkadiSev 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 20

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    Terrific Because I Bring Terror!

    I Lust again.. I don't care what you want. I don't bother myself with your side of things. I have carnal desires for growling adventures with eyes that would want to hurt me. Eyes that be like mine. In the dead of night. I enjoy it. I have a very wild imagination. It tends to...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    I been reading some of the postings on here

    and have made some personal observations. There aren't many ACTUAL PSYCHOPATHS on here. A psychopath really doesn't care about what others think about them because people are just tools to be used to achieve a goal. They only have basically 2 true emotions happiness or anger...
    psycho74 psycho74 36-40, M 3 Responses Jul 13

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    Time to Learn About Yourselves From A Kindred

    Spirit I often hear the argument: "Empathetic people can't actually understand us because they aren't like us! They project their biases and social conventions on us, thus skewing their research results!!!!" *sneers and turns on Dexter* Fine, refer to James Fallon...
    zoeb555 zoeb555 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 1

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    To Share or Not?? Hello,

    I guess this is the part that I should attempt to get you to like me. I can almost guarantee that this post will almost definitely fail at that. Throughout my 32 years of life I have done things most people would class as immoral, illegal, deviant, malicious and cruel. I...
    suburbanpsycho suburbanpsycho 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 9

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    Varieties of psycho You can't be one!

    You have emotions. You can't be one! You don't KILL people. You can't be one! [insert ignorant comment of your choice] We are not here to prove ourselves to you - you're not worth it. We are not here (well, most of us at least) to discern whether or not we are, or not. We are...
    MrOllie MrOllie 26-30, M 6 Responses Nov 28

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    We sit, you talk, I watch.

    Why DO you feel that way? I know why, because I wanted you to You, however, will not know that for a while. I'm not malicious at this point, I like you Or at least find you amusing. And you buy me coffee. Although recently your use has been Waining, lacking My interest flitting...
    MrOllie MrOllie 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 22

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    What Are Your Results?

    So I would like people to take the below tests. These are not all psychopathy tests, instead there are some general mental evaluations. Please take them and post your results. http://kevin-goodman.com/?page_id=1229 https://implicit.harvard.edu/implicit/user/pimh/index.jsp http...
    mattkc mattkc 26-30, M 10 Responses Mar 2, 2013

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    This Is How I Play: Pt.

    4 Fear and hesitation may have been vital to the survival of our species in the bloody Stone Age. But in the modern developed society there really aren't many real dangers left that warrant fear. Still people stick to extremely outdated thinking patterns that effectively make...
    Randahl Randahl 31-35 5 Responses May 30

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    It was Christmas Eve

    and I was cutting up potatoes. My little brother was helping me by putting the chopped ones into the strainer. As I was cutting he went to grab the pieces and his pinky got cut. You could see the bone and the blood pouring from the cut. My brother cried and screamed his head...
    MarcusShock MarcusShock 18-21, M Sep 5

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    This Is How I Play: Part 3.

    After a long period of no fkkin progress (drove me mad) I've finally got the wheels turning again. A little delayed, but my "plan" is alive and looking good. I had to make changes to myself, I realized. It's not a change I'm too pleased with to be honest, but it had to be done...
    Randahl Randahl 31-35 3 Responses May 19

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    How To Get Rid Of Self-Doubt:The Psychopathic Way

    To learn this first we must first understand-why do people have self-doubt?If there was not some evolutionary advantage to having it 40,000 years ago, people would not have doubt today. Why can’t people just walk around all of the time with our mojo flowing? Doubt is a...
    Michaelpup Michaelpup 31-35, M 2 Responses May 22, 2013

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    A Day In The Mind Of A Psychopath!

    It's 9:15, I wake up, I get up everyday about this time. No alarm clocks, just eyes open and i know it's beginning again. No, joy, no pain, nothing I am looking forward to, but I get up anyway. I text my mother, and invite her to go get coffee at a local drive through coffee shop...
    mattkc mattkc 26-30, M 16 Responses May 3, 2012

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    A Trip Down Memory Lane i'm getting high

    for the first time in a while, so i feel like sharing a funny story of me when i was younger. i've been obsessing about my mother for quite some time now. well, not obsessing, gloating is a better way to describe it. i've been reliving this moment when she finally gave up...
    blackpigeon blackpigeon 70+, M 5 Responses Dec 3

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    To my Love Eric258. The way your intelligence

    gleams out from your words, like water trickling upon the petals of a leaf, tempting the thirsting roots below. I am blown away at the immaculate way in which your conduct your research, it is awe inspiring really, what a clever idea to use free forums as a mantle! Has anyone...
    mattkc mattkc 26-30, M 2 Responses May 22

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