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I Am a Psychopath

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 538 People

    You'd Better Watch Your Back, Babe!

    My wants devour me. I don't give up. I am the obsessed and i don't have an issue with it. I was wrong. Hesitation was strong. It just made me more hungry. I'm in prey drive and my eyes are glazed. It was so unlike me. To turn down something i want. Now i'm chasing my own tail. So...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 22, 2012

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    I am a psychopath but i am developed

    and civilized so i only use small scales of manipulation to get what i want without causing harm to others. For those of us who understand and feel the urge to kill I believe there is a "code" that makes us all the same. I also do not see psychopath as a mental disorder. I have...
    JonathanCTVirgo JonathanCTVirgo 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2014

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    I wonder about psychopathy a lot.

    I have always felt that there is a wide hole between what my experience of life is as opposed to others. As a child I enjoyed playing softball with baby chicks and I loved dragging my sister into these games even when she hated it. I remember my grandfather calling me evil when...
    Savourycandy Savourycandy 31-35, F Oct 27, 2014

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    A Trip Down Memory Lane i'm getting high

    for the first time in a while, so i feel like sharing a funny story of me when i was younger. i've been obsessing about my mother for quite some time now. well, not obsessing, gloating is a better way to describe it. i've been reliving this moment when she finally gave up...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 5 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    I love and hate those

    who want to die with equal measure
    JonathanCTVirgo JonathanCTVirgo 18-21, M Dec 8, 2014

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    Lullaby

    Hush, little baby, don’t say a word. Pretties should be seen and never heard. If you cry for help or scream, I’ll muzzle your mouth with a ball and rings. To pay for your sins I’ll spank your ***, And punch you in the stomach with my knuckles brass. If your bones before...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 4 Responses Jun 28, 2013

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    A Day In The Mind Of A Psychopath!

    It's 9:15, I wake up, I get up everyday about this time. No alarm clocks, just eyes open and i know it's beginning again. No, joy, no pain, nothing I am looking forward to, but I get up anyway. I text my mother, and invite her to go get coffee at a local drive through coffee shop...
    mattkc mattkc 26-30, M 15 Responses May 3, 2012

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    I've been having issues filtering my behavior

    lately. I just started working a new job at a warehouse and its been putting money in my pocket but also causing me a certain fatigue. I've been more impulsive than usual. I've been avoiding social functions to an extent (only meeting and greeting apposed to drinking and...
    fishlungs fishlungs 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 6

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    When I was 19 (I'm 26-27 now) I went into

    long-term therapy - for psychopathy. My case was rather unusual in that I self-referred. The mental health agency had not had a walk-in of this kind before. In the lead up, I had found myself becoming overwhelmed with a predatorial instinct that I could not shake - I'd sit...
    dezoed dezoed 22-25 7 Responses May 25, 2014

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    Everyday Psychopathy: My kids have a bunch of

    hermit crabs. They've stopped playing with them and left it up to me to feed them lately. They are noisy critters I might add. They had served their time here I thought, but I couldn't just give them away. My kids had given all the crabs names and were attached to them and all...
    Randahl Randahl 31-35 4 Responses May 11

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    recently concluded that i have never

    experienced the feeling of empathy. everything makes so much sense now, and i feel great. i've never had a real connection with another person, but i'm incredible socially. i size people up and give them what they want, i'm so good at feigning emotion and relation and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 22

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    What Are Your Results?

    So I would like people to take the below tests. These are not all psychopathy tests, instead there are some general mental evaluations. Please take them and post your results. http://kevin-goodman.com/?page_id=1229 https://implicit.harvard.edu/implicit/user/pimh/index.jsp http...
    mattkc mattkc 26-30, M 8 Responses Mar 2, 2013

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    Ever since I took my new doctor's advise

    and stopped smoking, my life hasn't been amusing as it was. I stopped talking to most of my friends, I stopped having sex, I even sold my late driver's house. Soon after that, I became a total nut case! Thinking about what I did in the past and how I've ruined so many lives...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ Mar 7

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    Time to Learn About Yourselves From A Kindred

    Spirit I often hear the argument: "Empathetic people can't actually understand us because they aren't like us! They project their biases and social conventions on us, thus skewing their research results!!!!" *sneers and turns on Dexter* Fine, refer to James Fallon...
    dezoed dezoed 22-25 3 Responses Mar 1, 2014

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    How To Get Rid Of Self-Doubt:The Psychopathic Way

    To learn this first we must first understand-why do people have self-doubt?If there was not some evolutionary advantage to having it 40,000 years ago, people would not have doubt today. Why can’t people just walk around all of the time with our mojo flowing? Doubt is a...
    Michaelpup Michaelpup 31-35, M 2 Responses May 22, 2013

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    Sociopathic/psychopathic Parents Hi there!

    I’ve been doing a research on sociopathic/psychopathic parenting and I’d be extremely grateful if you kindly and honestly answered following questions: 1) What’s your age and gender? 2) What’s your relationship status? 3) How many children do you have and what’s their...
    masset masset 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2014

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    Patience Is The Determinant

    The more patient a psychopath is, the less physically violent they are. Intelligence also helps. You're not monsters, you're just more likely to be dangerous, mentally and physically. I am also incredibly mentally dangerous. Even with my feelings and morals. :) The only...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 5 Responses May 8, 2012

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    Gaslighting

    If I had been given a choice, a part of me believes I would have rather fall victim to sadistic torture instead. Burned flesh, sliced skin, unrelenting abuse. Gouged out eyes. This merely leaves superficial scars and wounds. There is agony far worse than what can be experienced...
    dezoed dezoed 22-25 6 Responses May 15, 2013

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    Do You Follow The Light Or The Dark?

    From my blog : http://darkwolf40.blogspot.co.uk/2012/10/do-you-follow-light-or-dark.html   Some people follow the light. Everything about their life is in the Light. From their childhood experiences to their adult life, they have been in the light. They cannot understand...
    roadofdarkness roadofdarkness 36-40 2 Responses Oct 30, 2012

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    Fearlessness

    One of the main sources of the power of psychopaths is fearlessness or perhaps insensitivity to the consequences of ones' actions. Psychopathic or not, pretty much anyone can be fearless. And with fearlessness comes the real power. Power is a gift from the weak that is given out...
    Michaelpup Michaelpup 31-35, M 1 Response May 15, 2013

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    A Cure

    It isn't the first time scientific research has had an impact which has reached beyond science to delve into social and moral spheres. Scientists have discovered the right combination of chemical compounds for a pill to affect, of all things, empathy. The function and structure...
    dezoed dezoed 22-25 20 Responses May 29, 2013

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    Trust. What a foreign,

    illogical, and outright stupid concept. You cannot trust anyone in this world because they are not you and you are not in their heads. The only persons true thoughts that you can see are your own. If only that were true for psychopaths. We have spent so long lying to ourselves...
    iamnotahuman iamnotahuman 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 12, 2014

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    Disappear In The Crowd, A Foray In Avoiding Identification And Surveillance

    In the spirit of so many providing how-tos this week – my favorite so far is to consider my karma and choose to do good – I thought I’d muddy the waters myself. So you’re minding your own business, walking around town and doing nothing particular, just passing the time or...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 3 Responses May 26, 2013

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    Still Duplicitas By Their Very Nature.

    "Love is a complex fraction, deadly distraction, searching for truth in your reaction. your action is the key to the key keeper living inside of you when you choose to loose yourself to the wheel seeker. You think this love is different but its just one in the never ending role...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2013

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    I don't remember my early childhood.

    I don't remember much from before I was 10 or so. The only reason I know I was ever any younger is because I've seen pictures. Any memories I do have are very foggy, like dreams. Sometimes I ask myself if they are even real, or if perhaps I've conjured them up in an effort to...
    ohhowfun ohhowfun 22-25, M Jan 23

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    REACHING FOR WHAT YOU WANT When I was in

    college, someone I considered a friend suddenly blurted out to me, “Do you know why I hate you?” Typically, not something a friend would say unless he was joking. And he wasn’t joking. So I mentally downgraded our relationship status to acquaintances and calmly asked him...
    Michaelpup Michaelpup 31-35, M 2 Responses May 6, 2014

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    Eight years ago, I considered pursuing a

    relationship with him, due to his eccentric interests and seemingly heightened intellect. To this day, he has yet to realize that the only reason I have continued our engagement, is because of its convenience. It's such a chore to keep this up, though.
    Souldom Souldom 22-25, F Apr 14

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    Story 1 http://www.youtube.

    com/watch?v=GLqwE0Vh4sI Hello to all the people of experience project. It's not a thing a normal person would say, isn't it?! Lol, but that doesn't matter, if you continue reading, you'll see the reason why I said that I'm a bi-polar , not a psychopath. http://www.youtube...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 3 Responses Dec 15, 2014

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    You Don't Have To Be A Sadist To Fit The Factors Of A Psychopath!

    I am writing this purely due to the fact that I am bored, and it's raining out so might as well write something that will waste time. My goal is to discuss the factors according to the PCL-R that define a psychopath, how they are manifest in me, and what the implications are of...
    mattkc mattkc 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 2, 2012

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    My gauzy reverie.I am a woman,

    a cold blooded one, but still just a woman. La cucina è dirimpetto al mio loculo. The kitchen is opposite my tomb. Still, it's patronizing that you think i would be flattered by your reactions. How clever of you to observe the outward obvious lie, and act with clique...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 27, 2014

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    I am fairly new to my diagnosis,

    and as a consequence, I am coming to many revelations. I also rationalized, that sharing/documenting may help me understand better. This evening, it is about feeling "Love" for another. I have never experienced this, and had never considered it odd. Of course, I was expectant...
    Souldom Souldom 22-25, F Apr 17

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    Is Today The Day?

    Everything is coming together and now is the time. The excitement is running, coursing, alive through me and carrying me along. Will it hpen today? I am anxious to see what will happen, will it play out in accordance with my plan? Will it do as I anticipate or surprise me with...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 30, 2013

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    I am in high school now.

    I get easily irritated. Every time someone or something irritates me I want to dismiss it from existence. I want to snap a neck, crack a skull and watch the brains come out, sever limbs and hit people with the bloody end. In my opinion I have allot of self control since I only...
    Tjen Tjen 26-30 May 12

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    I Am Something I Dont Know What

    I've never felt true emotions, for as long as i've lived, but when i'd read a story or see a movie something in me would change. I dont like peole unless they benifit me in someway. I dont like to use people because that makes me dependent on them. For three years i stole from my...
    augustus31544 augustus31544 22-25 20 Responses Aug 21, 2009

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    Dear Psychopath

    The first time I met you, your eyes were the first thing I noticed. They were not of a particularly startling color, shape, or size. But they were cold and still, and I wondered how they could bore into me while taking no rest to blink. Physiologically, something within me was...
    dezoed dezoed 22-25 18 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    Terrific Because I Bring Terror!

    I Lust again.. I don't care what you want. I don't bother myself with your side of things. I have carnal desires for growling adventures with eyes that would want to hurt me. Eyes that be like mine. In the dead of night. I enjoy it. I have a very wild imagination. It tends to...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    Mirror, Mirror, On The Wall...

    At the age of 13-14, I recall always staring at a mirror. Inspecting myself. There was always a weird sense that spurred me to do so. I mainly stared at my eyes. They are chestnut brown, a bit light, dark all the same.Striations and orbs of black. I pondered my motives, but it...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 7 Responses Aug 11, 2013

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    I'm sorry for my last story,

    I was bored and confused. Now I'm in my zone. I've been smoking, weed of coarse.. I think I can say that my stories are pretty violent. It makes me happy to write about what I did because I feel that it lessens my responsibility of my actions. Like writing about how I beat a...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 2 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    This is just the he and the she of it:

    Everytime you call out to me for my attention and time, you are asking for your own demise. I feed off your pathetic emotions. I am disgusted by your puny, romanticized weakness. By your devotion and "love" for me you prove that you can procure no one better than me. How...
    SweetSpiritEnergy SweetSpiritEnergy 26-30 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Human Hacking, Body Language 101

    You saw him when came in, strong posture and confident movements into the bar without hesitation. Not alone but the group seemed to move with him. You caught yourself lifting your chin to watch, exposing your neck but aside from the casual scan of the room, he didn’t seem to...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 4 Responses Jul 10, 2013

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    I Have Rules.

    I have rules. A recent post says "we" don't have rules or masks and are the only ones who live free... I have rules. Rules to choose who's next. Rules for internet communication. Rules to play my way without consequence. Rules to maintain the identities I've built over a...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 6 Responses May 8, 2013

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    We sit, you talk, I watch.

    Why DO you feel that way? I know why, because I wanted you to You, however, will not know that for a while. I'm not malicious at this point, I like you Or at least find you amusing. And you buy me coffee. Although recently your use has been Waining, lacking My interest flitting...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    A Dangerous Realization

    I am new to this website and I am learning, slowly, as to how it functions. I have come to realize how many openly perverted people there are; these guys(for the most part) fan me and message me with no idea of who they are talking to. They simply read "(18-21) F" and assume it...
    Rage21 Rage21 22-25, F 9 Responses Aug 12, 2012

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    Functional Psychopathy

    I'm of the psychopaths that do not overlap into Antisocial Personality Disorder, though I have other PDs.  I'm highly functioning and blend in well with the general populus -after all, lack of empathy and guilt don't show on the outside as long as you're not getting...
    shhh shhh 31-35, T 11 Responses Feb 7, 2010

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    psychopathic and sociopathic woman are true

    beauty. I enjoy a good chat about acts of darkness, psychopathy is so much better with a woman's touch. so let's touch and chat lol
    JonathanCTVirgo JonathanCTVirgo 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 16

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    Everyone experiences their own existence

    differently. I hear talk about manipulation and ridiculous thoughts. It isn't like that for me. Internally I cry because I will never truly understand my children's love. When my 3 year old kisses my cheek and says I love you daddy. It hurts. That I am not able to connect with...
    Infectious100 Infectious100 36-40 2 Responses Mar 4

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