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I Am a Psychopath

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 573 People

    A Cure

    It isn't the first time scientific research has had an impact which has reached beyond science to delve into social and moral spheres. Scientists have discovered the right combination of chemical compounds for a pill to affect, of all things, empathy. The function and structure...
    dezoed dezoed 22-25 20 Responses May 29, 2013

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    REACHING FOR WHAT YOU WANT When I was in

    college, someone I considered a friend suddenly blurted out to me, “Do you know why I hate you?” Typically, not something a friend would say unless he was joking. And he wasn’t joking. So I mentally downgraded our relationship status to acquaintances and calmly asked him...
    Michaelpup Michaelpup 31-35, M 2 Responses May 6, 2014

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    Do You Follow The Light Or The Dark?

    From my blog : http://darkwolf40.blogspot.co.uk/2012/10/do-you-follow-light-or-dark.html   Some people follow the light. Everything about their life is in the Light. From their childhood experiences to their adult life, they have been in the light. They cannot understand...
    roadofdarkness roadofdarkness 36-40 2 Responses Oct 30, 2012

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    Story 1 http://www.youtube.

    com/watch?v=GLqwE0Vh4sI Hello to all the people of experience project. It's not a thing a normal person would say, isn't it?! Lol, but that doesn't matter, if you continue reading, you'll see the reason why I said that I'm a bi-polar , not a psychopath. http://www.youtube...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 3 Responses Dec 15, 2014

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    recently concluded that i have never

    experienced the feeling of empathy. everything makes so much sense now, and i feel great. i've never had a real connection with another person, but i'm incredible socially. i size people up and give them what they want, i'm so good at feigning emotion and relation and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 22, 2015

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    I have this reoccurring fantasy.

    Well, I say reoccurring but it does vary. Like the way they die. But there's always so much blood. I have 2 dogs. I've had them for 10 and 8 years, and I guess I have some sentimental attachment. I managed not to hurt them, but somedays it's hard. I like it when things bleed...
    Cloud1122 Cloud1122 22-25, F Jul 17, 2015

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    What Are Your Results?

    So I would like people to take the below tests. These are not all psychopathy tests, instead there are some general mental evaluations. Please take them and post your results. http://kevin-goodman.com/?page_id=1229 https://implicit.harvard.edu/implicit/user/pimh/index.jsp http...
    mattkc mattkc 26-30, M 8 Responses Mar 2, 2013

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    I am going to be somewhat brutally honest here

    because i would like some real feedback. I have always known that I thought differently from other people but recently I have been putting more and more things together that seem to fit the picture of a psychopath or sociopath (I am not entirely sure of the distinction since...
    eviscerated eviscerated 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    When I was 19 (I'm 26-27 now) I went into

    long-term therapy - for psychopathy. My case was rather unusual in that I self-referred. The mental health agency had not had a walk-in of this kind before. In the lead up, I had found myself becoming overwhelmed with a predatorial instinct that I could not shake - I'd sit...
    dezoed dezoed 22-25 8 Responses May 25, 2014

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    Every time I see a baby,

    I have the urge to skin their little heads. My friend has a baby. When he cries, I want to suffocate the little thing until it dies.
    Ta3yeon Ta3yeon 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 28, 2015

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    Everyone experiences their own existence

    differently. I hear talk about manipulation and ridiculous thoughts. It isn't like that for me. Internally I cry because I will never truly understand my children's love. When my 3 year old kisses my cheek and says I love you daddy. It hurts. That I am not able to connect with...
    Infectious100 Infectious100 36-40 3 Responses Mar 4, 2015

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    Disappear In The Crowd, A Foray In Avoiding Identification And Surveillance

    In the spirit of so many providing how-tos this week – my favorite so far is to consider my karma and choose to do good – I thought I’d muddy the waters myself. So you’re minding your own business, walking around town and doing nothing particular, just passing the time or...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 3 Responses May 26, 2013

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    An introduction to a series of stream of

    consciousness posts I'll be making. The Westerner I I am the child of western society. I am the child of excess. I am the child of loveless existence. I am the child of a burning world. I am the child of the psychotropic and the psychopathic. I am the child of the child...
    fishlungs fishlungs 18-21, M Dec 18, 2015

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    OOPS, I did it again!

    I was alone this time. I stuffed a dog and broke the owner. I got out of the bar after two (forced) drinks. I was walking towards my car when I saw him walking his dog. My brain tensed up and I felt a rush. I took out my mask from the glove compartment and followed him, that...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 5 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    I Have Rules.

    I have rules. A recent post says "we" don't have rules or masks and are the only ones who live free... I have rules. Rules to choose who's next. Rules for internet communication. Rules to play my way without consequence. Rules to maintain the identities I've built over a...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 6 Responses May 8, 2013

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    A Day In The Mind Of A Psychopath!

    It's 9:15, I wake up, I get up everyday about this time. No alarm clocks, just eyes open and i know it's beginning again. No, joy, no pain, nothing I am looking forward to, but I get up anyway. I text my mother, and invite her to go get coffee at a local drive through coffee shop...
    mattkc mattkc 26-30, M 15 Responses May 3, 2012

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    Gaslighting

    If I had been given a choice, a part of me believes I would have rather fall victim to sadistic torture instead. Burned flesh, sliced skin, unrelenting abuse. Gouged out eyes. This merely leaves superficial scars and wounds. There is agony far worse than what can be experienced...
    dezoed dezoed 22-25 6 Responses May 15, 2013

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    I am fairly new to my diagnosis,

    and as a consequence, I am coming to many revelations. I also rationalized, that sharing/documenting may help me understand better. This evening, it is about feeling "Love" for another. I have never experienced this, and had never considered it odd. Of course, I was expectant...
    Souldom Souldom 26-30, F Apr 17, 2015

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    World War Z

    The Zoembies have spread and are among us now. Funny the things that can bring you together. Never before united by any cause but now all fight together against one common enemy, the Zoembies. Who is this sinister and most dangerous monster able to bring together the disparate...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 2, 2013

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    Patience Is The Determinant

    The more patient a psychopath is, the less physically violent they are. Intelligence also helps. You're not monsters, you're just more likely to be dangerous, mentally and physically. I am also incredibly mentally dangerous. Even with my feelings and morals. :) The only...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 5 Responses May 8, 2012

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    My Only Daughter

    Its name was John.He’d been our neighbor since we bought the land. He didn’t own it; he rented from one of the original families out there, one of the three. He’d been a missionary for awhile, was still. He would load up his wife and daughter and they’d head out taking...
    OgoNay OgoNay 46-50 5 Responses Aug 24, 2013

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    People with no respect

    for themselves are truly disgusting. they are filth ridden vermin waiting only to be exterminated. If you cant find the confidence to bring anything to this world, what use are you to me? keep taking, avoid repaying my world and you'll soon find yourself under my knife.
    Aetch Aetch 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 2, 2015

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    Eight years ago, I considered pursuing a

    relationship with him, due to his eccentric interests and seemingly heightened intellect. To this day, he has yet to realize that the only reason I have continued our engagement, is because of its convenience. It's such a chore to keep this up, though.
    Souldom Souldom 26-30, F Apr 14, 2015

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    I am in high school now.

    I get easily irritated. Every time someone or something irritates me I want to dismiss it from existence. I want to snap a neck, crack a skull and watch the brains come out, sever limbs and hit people with the bloody end. In my opinion I have allot of self control since I only...
    Tjen Tjen 26-30 May 12, 2015

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    The Westerner XII Don't act like the lack of

    emotional weakness is a disease. Use your time wisely. Respect the vehicle. Acknowledge the driver. Condition the later; tune the prior embrace pleasure; embrace pain. Embrace the purest of emotions. Deal out both. Love is delusion. Fantasy is as real as reality. Reality is...
    fishlungs fishlungs 18-21, M Dec 18, 2015

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    I've been having issues filtering my behavior

    lately. I just started working a new job at a warehouse and its been putting money in my pocket but also causing me a certain fatigue. I've been more impulsive than usual. I've been avoiding social functions to an extent (only meeting and greeting apposed to drinking and...
    fishlungs fishlungs 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 6, 2015

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    Still Duplicitas By Their Very Nature.

    "Love is a complex fraction, deadly distraction, searching for truth in your reaction. your action is the key to the key keeper living inside of you when you choose to loose yourself to the wheel seeker. You think this love is different but its just one in the never ending role...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2013

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    Between us psychopaths

    and you normal people who are the ones who are truly broken? What does being normal even mean? Being normal merely means that you are like everybody else, that you are part of majority therefore it is fully possible to be completely insane and/or broken and yet still be normal...
    yaminokami yaminokami 18-21, M Jan 24

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    My gauzy reverie.I am a woman,

    a cold blooded one, but still just a woman. La cucina è dirimpetto al mio loculo. The kitchen is opposite my tomb. Still, it's patronizing that you think i would be flattered by your reactions. How clever of you to observe the outward obvious lie, and act with clique...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 6 Responses Sep 27, 2014

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    Terrific Because I Bring Terror!

    I Lust again.. I don't care what you want. I don't bother myself with your side of things. I have carnal desires for growling adventures with eyes that would want to hurt me. Eyes that be like mine. In the dead of night. I enjoy it. I have a very wild imagination. It tends to...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    i am a 33yrs and i am a psychopath recently

    confirmed it and i can tell you a lot of people misunderstand the concept and make their own assumptions. firstly i don't see it as an issue or illness as some are people quick to point out. i come from a war torn country in africa never knew the term of it just kew i was...
    vegita12 vegita12 31-35 1 Response Jun 28, 2015

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    Hi, I'm constantly bored.

    .. I'm only ever slightly happy when I'm thinking about hurting people, or when I'm actually hurting people. I go to the gym and I'm a full time college student, but this only takes up half of my day, for the other half I am bored shitless... I am wondering if any other...
    JordanBryan17 JordanBryan17 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 15, 2015

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    You'd Better Watch Your Back, Babe!

    My wants devour me. I don't give up. I am the obsessed and i don't have an issue with it. I was wrong. Hesitation was strong. It just made me more hungry. I'm in prey drive and my eyes are glazed. It was so unlike me. To turn down something i want. Now i'm chasing my own tail. So...
    LisaRosenthal LisaRosenthal 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 22, 2012

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    Is Today The Day?

    Everything is coming together and now is the time. The excitement is running, coursing, alive through me and carrying me along. Will it hpen today? I am anxious to see what will happen, will it play out in accordance with my plan? Will it do as I anticipate or surprise me with...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 30, 2013

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    Functional Psychopathy

    I'm of the psychopaths that do not overlap into Antisocial Personality Disorder, though I have other PDs.  I'm highly functioning and blend in well with the general populus -after all, lack of empathy and guilt don't show on the outside as long as you're not getting...
    shhh shhh 31-35, T 10 Responses Feb 7, 2010

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    Lullaby

    Hush, little baby, don’t say a word. Pretties should be seen and never heard. If you cry for help or scream, I’ll muzzle your mouth with a ball and rings. To pay for your sins I’ll spank your ***, And punch you in the stomach with my knuckles brass. If your bones before...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 4 Responses Jun 28, 2013

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    psychopathic and sociopathic woman are true

    beauty. I enjoy a good chat about acts of darkness, psychopathy is so much better with a woman's touch. so let's touch and chat lol
    JonathanCTVirgo JonathanCTVirgo 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 16, 2015

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    I'm sorry for my last story,

    I was bored and confused. Now I'm in my zone. I've been smoking, weed of coarse.. I think I can say that my stories are pretty violent. It makes me happy to write about what I did because I feel that it lessens my responsibility of my actions. Like writing about how I beat a...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 2 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    A Dangerous Realization

    I am new to this website and I am learning, slowly, as to how it functions. I have come to realize how many openly perverted people there are; these guys(for the most part) fan me and message me with no idea of who they are talking to. They simply read "(18-21) F" and assume it...
    Rage21 Rage21 22-25, F 9 Responses Aug 12, 2012

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    Mirror, Mirror, On The Wall...

    At the age of 13-14, I recall always staring at a mirror. Inspecting myself. There was always a weird sense that spurred me to do so. I mainly stared at my eyes. They are chestnut brown, a bit light, dark all the same.Striations and orbs of black. I pondered my motives, but it...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 7 Responses Aug 11, 2013

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    Flesh Fun #3 So this fun happened in my late

    teens. Just had a discussion with a fellow EP person about eating taco and I recalled this fond memory. Alright, I was home with this chick after school in her mom's house. One thing led to another and we found ourselves in her bed for some adult "wrestling". I love going down...
    Randahl Randahl 31-35 5 Responses Feb 10, 2015

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    This doesn't happen anymore,

    but I find these fairly interesting, nonetheless: Third grade. Eight years old. Timmy was a fat, disgusting boy, that had somehow annoyed me especially well one day. I remember wanting to shove him to the floor, envisioning myself stomping upon his head repeatedly. His glasses...
    Souldom Souldom 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2015

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    I don't remember my early childhood.

    I don't remember much from before I was 10 or so. The only reason I know I was ever any younger is because I've seen pictures. Any memories I do have are very foggy, like dreams. Sometimes I ask myself if they are even real, or if perhaps I've conjured them up in an effort to...
    ohhowfun ohhowfun 22-25, M Jan 23, 2015

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    Varieties of psycho You can't be one!

    You have emotions. You can't be one! You don't KILL people. You can't be one! [insert ignorant comment of your choice] We are not here to prove ourselves to you - you're not worth it. We are not here (well, most of us at least) to discern whether or not we are, or not. We are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 28, 2014

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    You Don't Have To Be A Sadist To Fit The Factors Of A Psychopath!

    I am writing this purely due to the fact that I am bored, and it's raining out so might as well write something that will waste time. My goal is to discuss the factors according to the PCL-R that define a psychopath, how they are manifest in me, and what the implications are of...
    mattkc mattkc 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 2, 2012

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