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I Am a Rape Survivor

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 154 People

    A Nightmare Boyfriend...

    I'm not sure where to begin or how I can even share my story. It was a traumatizing experience and has been emotionally hard to cope with over the past year in a half.  I met my ex boyfriend about 2 years ago from an internet dating site. We talked online for about 3 months and...
    HopelesslyCrushed HopelesslyCrushed
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 12, 2012

    My Rape Experience

         My story began my senior year of high school (1978). One of my (male) teachers became obssessed with me. I certainly wasn't the prettiest or even remotely the sexiest girl in my class. I was a flat-chested, 90-pound average looking girl. I was and always have been a...
    ksgal ksgal
    46-50, F
    May 23, 2011

    My Story And How I Am Still Dealing With It Almost 2 Years Later...

    My Story of Sexual Assault I am not a professional writer, I am not writing this for an essay, a college course or to be judged, this is for help me heal from a sexual assault that happened a year and a half ago. I apologize if the events seem scattered; I have repressed most...
    anonomous0114 anonomous0114
    31-35
    May 17, 2013

    And I desperately want revenge.

    The police did nothing, and the PPO I had expired. After 8 years, he still harasses me, but only once or twice a year. Never often enough for police to get involved and never when I expect it. Now I'm ready for h to contact me again, give him a reason to attack me so I can beat...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 24, 2014

    Raped By Teacher At 14 Years Of Age!

    The tragic incident happened when I was 14 years old, when I was living in Switzerland. I started having problems in school because of my ADHD and learning disability. My math teacher offered me tutoring after school and I agreed to do it. About in the 3rd lesson, he started...
    corinne0721 corinne0721
    36-40
    1 Response Apr 23, 2011

    You Never Forget

    Anyone who been rape wont forget.I did not relized what happend until after I broke up with him a year later.I always felt there was something not right with him.I never had sex with him until he forced me .I was drugged and all the memories keeps coming back. We went on...
    kellner27 kellner27
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2013

    Trouble Sleeping

    I was raped a few months ago....I have never come out and told anyone before besides my psychiatrist. I can't sleep lately and I am trying something new...he suggested I keep an online diary or blog about it. Does anyone have any experience with this? Is it a good idea to...
    ezzy1222 ezzy1222
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Aug 7, 2011

    My First Boyfriend

    I'm about to turn 25 years old. I was raped by 9 different people until I was 10 years old and my mother ran away with me and my younger siblings. She only knew about two of my rapists at the time. I was almost raped by a guy that I studied Chemistry with when I was 15. And I was...
    sgrace sgrace
    22-25
    Jan 10, 2011

    Attempted Rape Escape

    THIS IS A CONTINUATION OF THE STORY I FIRST POSTED ENTITLED 'MY RAPE EXPEREINCE.' THIS IS THE SAME TEACHER WHO HAD RAPED ME EARLIER THAT YEAR. THIS HAPPENED IN THE SUMMER 1978.WE LIVED AT A LAKE AND I HAD BEEN OUT SWIMMING. I WENT TO THE MAILBOX SWIMMING AND I WAS STILL IN MY...
    ksgal ksgal
    46-50, F
    1 Response Sep 6, 2011

    Letter

    Dear D,It's 9:40 PM. You've just left and I feel completely alone.I just need you to know that I love you. It took me 20 minutes to write that sentence. I think I've finally gotten it right. I owe it to you to try to explain, even thought I will never be able to. ...
    SeaGhost SeaGhost
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 28, 2010

    How do I become a survivor

    because I don't want to be weak anymore 8.( if I don't do something now I can't see me being here for feb that's how bad it is so please any details on coping would be amazing. Thank you in advance. Xx
    stillbroken21 stillbroken21
    18-21, F
    Jan 27, 2014

    How do I become a survivor

    because I don't want to be weak anymore 8.( if I don't do something now I can't see me being here for feb that's how bad it is so please any details on coping would be amazing. Thank you in advance. Xx
    stillbroken21 stillbroken21
    18-21, F
    Jan 27, 2014

    I Look Around...

    I look around, and only see people. Lots of people. Unrecognizable faces. I know them. I see them everyday. What are their names? I can’t remember… I don’t know anything about them. Every now and then, I see some familiar faces. They smile, I smile. They say hi, I forget...
    dhoward93 dhoward93
    18-21, F
    Jan 1, 2011

    After Silence

     I was banned from After Silence (one of the only rape survivor forums on the web) because one member, I repeat, one member did not believe my story.  A site that is supposed to be about moving beyond and through that "silence" we all experience banned me...
    astralvigilante astralvigilante
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 13, 2009

    My Story And Recovery

    My Story of Sexual Assault I am not a professional writer, I am not writing this for an essay, a college course or to be judged, this is for help me heal from a sexual assault that happened a year and a half ago. I apologize if the events seem scattered; I have repressed most...
    anonomous0114 anonomous0114
    31-35
    May 17, 2013

    George

    It was my ex bf from 2008 and we were having sex i didnt like it but I fellt like I had to do it for him and I said stop three times and please stop its not rape so what is it! He went as fast and as hard as he could so he could finish...even though I said I wanted him to stop...
    sweetmusic2011 sweetmusic2011
    18-21, F
    Mar 18, 2011

    Still Dealing

    i was raped at 14 i was still a virgin and had no nterest in dateing or guys for that matter at the time I was at a party one nite i wasnt drinking like my freinds were i had coke and i started to feel really dizzy and sick i went upstairs to my freinds room and i passed out i...
    ashliekeith ashliekeith
    22-25, F
    Aug 17, 2010

    I Feel Dead Not A Survivor

    rape victims are shut down in silence and pain... i am anyway but its hard when i am loosing sanity i could never love ken carey or whoever his new name is... i hated every minute of being with you i didnt like you and i didnt like your smell of aftershave and body odor  or...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 17, 2011

    Rape At The Rodeo

    It was rodeo week in our town and I had gone to the canival to have some fun. It was around 11:30 that night when I stated to go home I was about 3 blocks from the fairgrounds when a man grabed me from behide and dragged in to a group of burshes there in the dark was a van the...
    Leaf2009 Leaf2009
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 10, 2011

    Rape Victim Support

    Hello to all, I'm the husband of a rape survivor.  I learned about the rape 2 days ago, the rape itsefl took place 2 years ago while we were married.  There are somethings I'm struggling with.  I am working very hard to be supportive of my wife the best way I can...
    martin737 martin737
    41-45
    4 Responses Jun 2, 2010

    It Still Causes Problems In My Life

    At the age of 13 when my friends and I were on a holiday with her grandparents we met some 17 year old boys in the town we were staying. They invited us back to the camp they were staying at. I was quite attracted to one of the boys and when he kissed me I went with it. While we...
    geetah geetah
    26-30, F
    Mar 9, 2011

    Most of the time, when people find out I have

    been raped they curiously ask me "what happened?" But it is a morbid curiosity, because they wonder how you fit their stereotype of a "rape victim", how they can distance themselves from you so they can continue believing that rape doesn't happen to people like them. There is...
    sunkist1589 sunkist1589
    26-30, F
    Mar 3

    How do I become a survivor

    because I don't want to be weak anymore 8.( if I don't do something now I can't see me being here for feb that's how bad it is so please any details on coping would be amazing. Thank you in advance. Xx
    stillbroken21 stillbroken21
    18-21, F
    Jan 27, 2014

    I Will Always Feel Guilty ..

    I know the title is an odd one to have chosen, to feel guilty about rape .. but I shall explain this later.I always loved animals, they were my true passion as a child, I wanted to work either as a veterinary nurse or with horses. Volunteering at many different places. I lived...
    Karen4Justice Karen4Justice
    26-30, F
    Jun 7, 2011

    He Was Just A Child....

    As a very young child, I was sexually abused by my babysitter's son. Interestingly enough, he was only a child himself, and because of this, I find it hard to be angry at him. It was not until I spent a year in therepy (and subsequently underwent hypnosis) that I recalled what...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 25, 2011

    Rape...

    I was only fourteen when i met my ex boyfriend, he was eighteen and he knew my age and everything about me... we ran in the same groups he and i.He asked me out, it was very sweet and he was so shy, i thought he was a really nice guy.First thing he told me was to keep our...
    LydiaBlack LydiaBlack
    18-21
    4 Responses Mar 7, 2011

    Raped Again!

    I have Now been raped twice in my life. One by a person who I knew and another by a two drunk men. I work downtown in a "bad neighborhood" as a Bartender. Yes, I know it is not the best job but I am in college right now and a friend got me the job. I love everyone there at the...
    HorseCrazyLover HorseCrazyLover
    18-21, F
    Aug 7, 2013

    Misery

    In school the counselors played videos about date rape. Sitting there watching, all you can say to yourself is that it can't be real. It could never happen to me. Everyone thinks that. I know I did, until it happened to me. It was a welcome home party in my honor. A big deal at...
    jannah07 jannah07
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 4, 2011

    Im A Survivor Of Rape

    i was raped at the age of 3 till i was 27 when it all ended he is in prision now four 14 years my life was turned upside down i was a shy little girl and i blamed my self i self harmed and waned my life to end my life but i dont do that now i got help from family and friends and...
    raindroop123 raindroop123
    31-35
    Sep 21, 2012

    Don'T Wanna Go There

    So after two years, when I think I have put it behind me, I have to go back again...to that dark place...I don't look foward to seeing him, to seeing his face...I pray that I don't fall apart...I'm going to court, my trial date is on wednesday... I just don't want to survive, I...
    bronwen22 bronwen22
    22-25, F
    Feb 18, 2013

    Lost, Confused, Need Help

    bottom line is, if your looking for a sucess story don't read this, im in more of a crisis..so this is a story/confession/question.. i need help. Im an an 18 year old female college student. Two weeks ago i attended a halloween party , i only had about 2 beers and really dont...
    nulgy77 nulgy77
    18-21
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2009

    Looking To Interview A Rape Survivor For Dissertation Article

    Hi there, I am a final year university student and for my dissertation I am producing a series of articles looking at discrimination and issues which women face in modern society. One of my articles is focusing on the number of women who are subjected to sexual abuse and rape...
    ArticleResearch ArticleResearch
    26-30
    Apr 19, 2013

    A Victim No More

    From the age of 6 through 16 yrs old I was sexually abused by my stepdad. My mom knew about it, did nothing. I went for papsmear at 15, dr told me to use condoms, I wasn't sexually active. I was raped by stepdad. I was to afraid to say that. My stepdad put the fear of god in me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 5, 2011

    It's Different Than I Thought It'd Be

    I'm a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. My way of dealing with it when it was going on was to imagine myself outside the house, just looking in the window. The problems with that meant that later, after the abuse stopped, I started disociating whenever something would remind...
    runningaway runningaway
    18-21, F
    Mar 27, 2011

    Yea It Happened..

    i think about cutting his penis off and shoving it down his throat... it wouldn't solve anything but it would make me feel so much better
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 29, 2011

    Help Me Forget Please

    i was 16 years old, in my junior year of high school, and i was still a virgin. i hadn't even done more than kiss a guy let alone have sex with one. I wasn't like some church-going innocent girl who was saving herself for her wedding day or anything; but i did want to wait to...
    sarahmee sarahmee
    18-21, F
    Nov 26, 2012

    What Comes Around, Goes Around

     My best friend was viciously raped by her fitness trainer. She was a total wreck afterwards but I saw a total change after the trial. She explained to me how great it felt having him sent away for so long and getting the justice she deserved. She also found it empowering to...
    lotusbird8 lotusbird8
    26-30, F
    Nov 9, 2009

    Yes

    I have been raped a few times in my past, and I have been molested by two members in my family. I was raped on two differet occaisions, the 1st time I was raped, I was at a party that I wasn't suppose to be at, that my mom and dad said I couldn't go to, if I had listened to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 12, 2012

    A Girls Story (me)

    My life has been like a roller coaster that will never end, i have been abused, to sexually abused, to mentally abused, to not caring what anyone says or thinks about me. As a young newborn i really never knew my biological dad until i was 3 years old than he stepped into my...
    MissUnperfect MissUnperfect
    22-25, F
    12 Responses Mar 12, 2011

    In The Now

    He died over the weekend. He was a trusted family friend. He was my first abuser and the person who destroyed my childhood. My parents don't know and with email after email about his life and death, they're ripping apart my carefully constructed sense of security. I don't want...
    thisisntyou thisisntyou
    22-25, F
    Oct 14, 2013

    Happens Again

    When I was six my mom died due to pills and alcohol. The hospital deemed it as accidental. Before she died I guess I used to sleep with her and my dad. I continued to sleep with my dad. I was really young so I don't remember what day it was but I woke up in the night and my dad...
    gek239 gek239
    18-21, F
    Jan 14, 2011

    I Don't Know If I Was Raped

    I know this sounds weird but i'm not sure if what happened to me was considered raped. I just need some honest opinions. I'm 23 now but it happened when i was 16. A group of us friends were hanging out on the beach drinking. My friends older brother lets call him donkeyshit...
    powpow8 powpow8
    22-25
    Apr 16, 2011
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