I Am a Recovering Addict

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    It Been 20 Mos.

    I quit drinking ,smoking, over sugar, cheating. For my partner. So I could take care of her. It's been good . I was a severe black out alcoholic and was about to get diabeities. I was220 5'5. Still having memory problems. But I weigh 155 I and not so tiered. Was getting a better...
    Faithinyoumy1 Faithinyoumy1
    31-35
    4 Responses Nov 8, 2013

    Dear alcohol and every pill I took,

    You almost ruined my life. You promised me happiness by agreeing to solve my problems. Instead, you created more and made me to where I couldn't be the best I could be. Thankfully, I am able to leave you all in the past and have found happiness and love in AA meetings, my higher...
    cawnbread cawnbread
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 9, 2015

    I was twelve the first time I tried pills.

    Some boy at school offered them to me and I was curious. I took them and it felt great. I had always been the good girl and I got teased for being so innocent. Doing pills made me feel grown up. It was exciting. So I bought some more and tried two that time. I got really sick...
    emj1349 emj1349
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 25, 2014
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 30, 2015

    I have be clean from opiates

    for 11 years. If anyone wants to talk message me . I am willing to listen
    papabear4 papabear4
    51-55, M
    Feb 27

    The Tunnel

    The darkest part of recovery, is feeling desperately alone. You don't know it in the beginning, but it's the loneliest time of your life. I refer to it as the tunnel. It's lonlier than the drugs, it's darker than the lies, and the deciet, and the countless coverups..and you're...
    StainedHands StainedHands
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Apr 14, 2013

    I have been addicted to cocaine,

    opiates, marijuana, and alcohol. it's constantly something I fight with. I like being high, but I can't go forward with my career if I'm loaded. I put up with so much **** while ****** up. including abuse from "friends" and my partners, all while becoming homeless and taking 8...
    arandomuse arandomuse
    26-30, F
    Aug 6, 2015

    20+ Yrs Of Using Drugs

    I started smoking pot in High School then I made the drinking age of 19 and drank with my friends. It became such a problem that I didn't graduate with my friends and had to come back and graduate the following year. I grew up Mormon , so I quit for 6 months and when on a mission...
    ttwilson65 ttwilson65
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Jul 25, 2012

    I've been clean a little over 13 months now.

    I'm not expecting miracles or anything but damn I thought some aspect of life would be easier, I was wrong, life's still messy I'm just sober enough to realize it now lol. I'm thankful, I really am. I'm glad to be sober and not waking up everyday ****** up and sick. I'm grateful...
    shannonshart shannonshart
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2014

    the only people I ever talk about this stuff

    with is people I'm close to, but when ever i say just a little too much they seem to get squeamish, so I only answer questions when asked. its hard to talk to people who haven't been around it, or had to deal with it closely I am a recovering heroin addict. one year, elven...
    DarkSideOfTheWall DarkSideOfTheWall
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 26, 2015
    savageddd savageddd
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 7

    30 Days

    I have 30 days without pills today! I would have never thought id be here. Im so glad I am tho. There are hard days but its all worth it.
    shannonshart shannonshart
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 9, 2013

    Been clean from heroin

    for exactly 1 month and 10 days. Not very long but it's a big step for me. It's nice not having to rely on anything just to feel normal.
    savageddd savageddd
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 3

    It's Hard Everyday

    I have been an addict almost all my life.  I took my first drink at age 11.  From there things just progressed.  I used something everyday.  Alcohol, pills (lots of them), weed, coke, acid, heroin...hell it might be easier just to list what I never did at...
    darlene darlene
    41-45, F
    31 Responses Sep 3, 2007

    Junkie Love

    junkie boy, junkie girl junkie boy is sick junkie girl turns a trick and junkie boy gets his fix junkie boy gets well junkie girl lays down junkie boy is do'in scores all over town Junkie girl wakes up and there's her ol' man with a little bit of food and a rig in his hand with a...
    r3a7n13 r3a7n13
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Jul 14, 2012

    A Free Ride Into To Reality!

    And I've never been happier about it! I got invited to an old friends 16th birthday party and I am so excited! I am only have 52 days but life has never been better! I'm going to meet and hangout with regular kids that don't do drugs. Parents will be there but it doesn't mean we...
    Kidd12 Kidd12
    16-17, F
    9 Responses Oct 5, 2012

    Its been about 6 or 7 weeks clean now.

    Relapsed a little and still am but not as much as i expected. I even stopped my meds which i regret because now i have stopped everything in my life and sleep all day. Not sure what to do but will continue to stay clean as long as i can.
    patches1999 patches1999
    16-17, F
    Jul 29, 2014

    Through the 5 months I have clean.

    I felt better at 60 days then I do today and have been the last month or so. Life is rough. I am failing college. Go to the ***** club way to often. Don't even drink. But I spent 1600 the first time then 2 days ago I spent 1000, in 1 month I spent 2600. That's enough to get a...
    Frank941 Frank941
    18-21, M
    Apr 4

    I am 6 mths clean off pills currently.

    Probably the hardest thing I have ever done. I have tried several times to stay clean but am confident this time it will stick. I'm sick of being sick and wasting my time energy and money on something that literally makes me a monster. Each day is a struggle but I have to keep...
    jennayluv jennayluv
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2014

    For the sake of my two young sons,

    ages 3 and 9, may the Gods help me stay the hell away from opiates.
    immortalspirit immortalspirit
    31-35, M
    5 Responses Jul 27, 2014

    Meth free for over four months!

    Wow! What a ride I've been having! Meeting with a credit counselor tomorrow to fix the destruction of my credit due to my meth use. I am also starting a fitness program to help work off the 20 pounds of fat I've put on in the 4 months I've been clean. Life is good! I'm...
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 6

    Victory In Jesus

     I have smoked cocaine/crack for over 20 years.  Many times I tried to stop and I even went to rehabilitation centers.  It didn't help.  I would be smoking, praying, singing gospel and reading the Bible all at the same time because I know that only Jesus can...
    onlybelieve onlybelieve
    46-50
    5 Responses Oct 4, 2008

    I had the desire to drink

    for about 4 hours now. I kept thinking about all the negative consequences. But something kept telling me to give in. Then I thought about the night I tried to pull through with suicide. I looked down at the scar on my chest and realized it's not worth going back to that dark...
    cawnbread cawnbread
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 22, 2015

    Everchanging

    I am a 27 year old female with 4 children. I have been clean almost eleven months now. I started using when I was nine. The first time I went to treatment I was twelve. My mother was always wanting to send me to treatment and she did 7 times. I managed to stay clean for a year...
    britbaize britbaize
    26-30
    4 Responses Jun 18, 2010

    1 Year Down

    I've told exactly on person about this, but felt the need to put it out there tonight. I quit approximately 1 year ago. I was addicted to opiates (pain pills) and had been for awhile. It cost me my job, a wife, and everything in between. My addiction came on gradual (as most do...
    RisenFromAshes RisenFromAshes
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

    well to start i am a recovering addict at one

    point i was into cocaine but stopped using it in 2013, unfortunately the last time i used coke i was poisoned. it burned holes in my nose and when i wiped my nose with my shirt it burned a hole into my shirt. i ended up in the psych ward for 6 weeks and was diagnosed with...
    shawnab88 shawnab88
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2015

    Had a cookout yesterday

    and it was awesome :). Being sober is the ****!!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 16, 2015

    iv reached the tipping point again.

    every time I tip and tap my joint and ash it I realize im there again...of sorts? I went off pot and all that jazz on the first of October. rewarded myself on the 30(my bday) with a joint and a new pattern emerged. its not as frequent as it was. but then truth be told actually...
    Unmasked Unmasked
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 1

    "God sees addiction as a path toward grace.

    " I copied this into my journal in May 2012, but I do not remember where I found it.
    eddiecarbone eddiecarbone
    61-65, M
    2 Responses Apr 28, 2014

    I don't let anyone I meet know I used to do

    heroin... It's a secret. Hate the judgement and presumption off foolishness.
    EverydayChanges EverydayChanges
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Nov 18, 2014

    God grant me the serenity to accept the things

    I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. (Just for today)
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 9, 2015

    I'm clean over a 9 months now

    but lately i been alone and depressed and I don't go to meetings anymore and i start to hear that voice which is telling me you might go back to use again I'm scared and no matter how much I try nothing changes I thought that NA is a good place where you can be accepted for who...
    frost103 frost103
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Dec 13, 2014

    I Really Understand Now..

    Everybody has an addiction, and most people have multiple. Human beings are all substance abusers and addicts to a fault. Pick your poison.. coke? ecstacy? sex? food? we're all hooked. and through the whole getting sober process I've really started to understand that it isn't so...
    katiekayy katiekayy
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 7, 2009

    I have 4 months sober today!

    :) If you're reading this and having a hard time, just keep fighting! You can do it and it's all worth it! One day at a time!
    shannonshart shannonshart
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2014

    Has anyone been addicted to one thing

    but not another. I was addicted to pills but do ok with alcohol.
    kmk87413 kmk87413
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 21, 2015

    44 days clean of klonopin 37 days no

    cigarettes 40 days no alcohol 38 days no mary jane
    patches1999 patches1999
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 31, 2014
    amsx amsx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 27, 2014
    patches1999 patches1999
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2014
    patches1999 patches1999
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2014

    3 years ago I was into cocaine,

    the last time I did it the dealers gave us coke with some sort of chemical or cleaner causing us to go into psychosis, I ended up in the hospital for 6 weeks and I don't really remember much of me staying in the hospital besides being strapped to beds and getting needles...
    shawnab88 shawnab88
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 22, 2015

    I stopped methadone in nov2013,

    but the last couple of days I feel so irritable and just want something to take that edge away. I've been feeling ape theatric and irritable. I feel bad too bc I know that counting your blessings, do something positive and healthy like take a jog, and not to give in. It's a...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer
    26-30, F
    Jul 27, 2014

    Started smoking cigarettes in the 7th grade.

    I guess it was just kinda accepted where i'm from and it wasn't a shock to anyone if you did it. Glad i quick a couple months ago though.
    patches1999 patches1999
    16-17, F
    Jul 29, 2014
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 31, 2014

    I am just a week shy of 5 months clean from

    meth. I am still growing and improving every day. I started a weight loss exercise program 2 weeks ago. I am getting my energy back which is fabulous. But the addict in me wants instantaneous results. So I have to admit I am struggling with the reality that I'm fat and it's...
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Mar 18

    I suffer from chronic pain

    and used that as an excuse to abuse painkillers. Before I knew it my life was filled with voids. Gaps that I don't remember. Gaps that scare me because I don't know where I was or what I did. My realization that I needed help was when I came out of a haze and realized I was...
    CainMarko CainMarko
    26-30, M
    May 8, 2015

    Painful Road, Gratitude Skies

    I just celebrated two years sober and since beginning my third year, it's been a painful, yet gratifying road. While using, it was a downward spiral of sickness, lying, stealing, violence, even jail. I'm a 24 year old woman, who honestly should be six-feet under. The first 30...
    InPlaidWeTrust InPlaidWeTrust
    26-30, F
    16 Responses Oct 11, 2012
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