I Am a Recovering Alcoholic

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    3 Months Sober!!!!!!!

    !!! I have somehow managed stay sober for 3 months…  How? I don’t really know. Perhaps. It was luck??  No ******* way….   Actually, to be completely honest, I have fought like hell and accepted an enormous amount of support in order to maintain my sobriety.   Sobriety...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    8 Responses Dec 11, 2013

    4 Months Sober

    I feel a lot better now.  I've quit drinking before (2 1/2 years) so I know I can't get too confident.  It is nice though to not be blowing all my money on alcohol and to never wake up hung-over or black out and not remember what I've done.
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton
    41-45, M
    30 Responses Jun 5, 2007

    5 years ago today I picked up this white poker

    chip at an AA meeting. It signified 1 day sober. Through the grace of God and the help of a lot of family and friends I'm still holding on to it.
    ChilliDog ChilliDog
    46-50, M
    5 Responses Apr 3, 2014

    The New 12 Steps

    RARELY HAVE they seen a person who has thoroughly followed their path. Those who do recover are usually people who have recognized AA as a dangerous religious cult, and will not give themselves completely to AA's fanatical program. The AA Cult is constituted primarily of men and...
    NeoJesusOfTheMatrix NeoJesusOfTheMatrix
    70+
    2 Responses Mar 25, 2013

    AN OPEN LETTER FROM AN ALCOHOLIC I am an

    alcoholic. I need your help. Don't lecture , blame or scold me. You wouldn't be angry at me for having cancer or diabetes. Alcoholism is a disease, too. Don't pour out my liquor, it's just a waste of time because I can always find ways of getting more. Don't me provoke your...
    sexiskey sexiskey
    46-50, F
    10 Responses Feb 5, 2014

    15 months today! I am amazed.

    And it is *still* one day at a time.
    Kettei Kettei
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 29, 2015

    Finally Went To A Damn Meeting.

    After over two weeks of totally avoiding AA meetings, I finally went this morning before work (8/6/13). I still completely hate the meetings for a combination of reasons but I also know that I am approaching the point in my sobriety where I always slip up and drink.  I know that...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    10 Responses Aug 6, 2013

    Happiness is..... ..

    ..whatever the hell I want it to be. It's simple. It's complex. It's lovely. It's calm. It's changing everything in one year. It's living. It's mine. :) I knew going into 2015 that my life was going to change significantly. New job. New apartment. New city. New state. New...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    I got a reminder yesterday

    that we face a deadly disease. A friend in the program had nearly thirty years of sobriety. Three months ago he relapsed. Very quickly he lost his wife, the new house, his small business, and yesterday, his life. Killed himself.
    misterbob misterbob
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    Dancing Evergreen

             I checked the number on the incoming call vibrating in my hand. It was a call I was required, by law, to answer twenty-four hours a day seven days a week. I practice walking meditation and breathing exercises around an old historic State Penitentiary long since...
    gsparky22 gsparky22
    41-45, M
    7 Responses Nov 5, 2012

    Meaningless. I am more

    than alive today. I am more than just "sober" today. I am more than I was so many years ago. This is the result of the steps for me, where people drinking and the sight of alcohol means nothing. Most 12 steppers fear the outside world I don't. I didn't see "drunk people" this...
    StarWanderer StarWanderer
    56-60, M
    1 Response Dec 26, 2013

    Today I am 5 months sober.

    I love myself more than I have ever did in the past. Sending intentions of gratitude, love, kindness and forgiveness for self and others to all of you.
    projektalfred projektalfred
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Jul 1, 2015

    A Trip Back…. Last week was my first trip

    back home since I moved away. The trip was good but it was also very hard. It was fun to go out with friends and to spend some time with family but overall I was reminded how miserable my old life used to be. I visited my old office and saw my old coworkers, they looked...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Oct 11, 2015

    I'm not a recovering alcoholic,

    but my boyfriend is. I think he is finally getting serious about getting sober bc he found out he has scar tissue on his liver. we're waiting for blood work to determine cirrhosis or not. I'm incredibly nervous bc he is determined to get sober without professional help. so I'm...
    nakedofaname nakedofaname
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 6, 2015

    Well I feel good today.

    My side isn't hurting any longer, my anxiety is lessening thanks to the pills. I feel a sense of calm and determination. I think I'll start going out the house more often. This is good.
    IloveLife14 IloveLife14
    31-35, F
    11 Responses Jan 24, 2014

    1 year sober!!!!!!!!!

    ! Well it is official..... I have been sober for 1 year. It feels like my last drink was so long ago and so much has changed since then. Ahhhhhhh 1 year---- never thought it was possible and I have never been so excited and proud! Thank you to those that have helped me...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    21 Responses Sep 11, 2014

    Don't see anything the matter here, Ma. Ain't it grand the wind stopped blowin'?

    KARLA BRADA MURDER VICTIM BY AA MEMBER   Click on to view the Karla Brada Video Story-   http://youtu.be/uABc5vUGuGY   1st video-   http://youtu.be/nua3eekMYl   I am Monica Richardson, the Founder of a grass roots movement to Make AA Safer. We took direct action to do so...
    NeoJesusOfTheMatrix NeoJesusOfTheMatrix
    70+
    Mar 14, 2013

    Two Months!!!!

    I have been sober for two months now and some days feel pretty good while some days/nights are still proving to be some of the worst nights of my life. I am having a hell of a time establishing a new routine in my sober life and I have ended up putting myself closer to relapse...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Nov 11, 2013

    I've let myself down.

    .. After 3 months I've relapsed for no reason at all other than the fact I saw my ex & he was following me, swearing & insulting me in the street. I said nothing, didn't look back & carried on till I got home. Then I shut the door cried my eyes out for an hour & decided to get a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Aug 16, 2015

    15 years old. A depressed alcoholic with many

    scars on her body. I thought i was worthless. At times i still do. I still havent found my purpose in life but im trying. At the moment a few of my friends are my motivation to get out of bed. My parents want me off the meds but they serve me as a safety blanket.
    monse1523 monse1523
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 19, 2015
    Kettei Kettei
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Oct 29, 2015

    second date with tgis girl I just met,

    drunk af all weekend, sorry EP :/
    coolmetaldude coolmetaldude
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 25

    I will have 9 months this Sunday!

    I am so grateful to be sober today. I like myself more when I'm sober. Lately, I've been feeling overwhelmed though. I'm just not feeling balanced quite yet. Physically and mentally. I'm still healing over a breakup that ended 3 months ago (only on step one) and I really...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    Mistakes, You've Made A Few (A tip of the hat to Lilt and ccneb)

    Ruminating on your errors and where you got it wrong, is not the same thing as learning from them. If fact it's a sure fire way to set up momentum to repeat those same mistakes later on. Guilt is a very attractive and dynamic vibratory energy. The disease gets very excited about...
    StarWanderer StarWanderer
    56-60, M
    1 Response Aug 13, 2013

    I care about my body shape.

    I try to control calories, go to gym. last week I eat the equivalent of 6 big Mac in drinks. that a shame. alcohol is ****. 3000 calories and a headache. what the hell....if you wanna stay slim, do not drink except a lot of water.......
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 13, 2015

    Day 1- Again (But For The LAST Time)

    Last night I ended my streak of sobriety at 50 days. I had one drink and then stopped. Today I find myself starting back at Day 1. I have had to start over before but this time is going to be different. This will be the LAST time I ever start over. I had no idea how I was going...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    10 Responses Sep 11, 2013

    I was at eight days and I don't know why

    but I found myself standing in the wine aisle yesterday. I should have ran like hell, but I bought one of those cartons of chardonnay that contain a bottle and a half. I let it sit in the fridge for awhile but it kept eating at me knowing it was in there and knowing by the end...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jun 24, 2015

    Today Is My Birthday.

    Today, I am 34. Today I am at work instead of having taken the day off to drink. Today I wasn't drinking at 10am the bottle of whiskey I would have bought last night like my other birthdays. Today my wife doesn't hate me. Today I am not embarrassed to show up at my nieces...
    ccneb ccneb
    36-40, M
    6 Responses Aug 2, 2013

    Theres this one liquor I go to

    where im never carded. Im 15. Thank you asian man
    monse1523 monse1523
    26-30, F
    Jun 19, 2015

    I have written about how the birth of my

    granddaughter has proven an incredibly powerful incentive to stay sober. She is now coming up to her 2nd birthday and I stay in touch with weekly FaceTime sessions, to make sure she knows who this strange bearded bloke is when I visit my home country once a year. She is an...
    grasser grasser
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Sep 3, 2015

    My son, who came close to estranging me

    after his mother and I divorced largely due to my alcoholism, had been emotionally scarred so deeply by my actions that he had decided he would never have children. As much as I wanted grandchildren, I had accepted his decision and come to live with it. Things started to...
    grasser grasser
    56-60, M
    1 Response Mar 20, 2015

    Wow the millions of changes I have gone through

    since I got serious about getting sober. Engaged... To not engaged... To dating a married guy you cheated on the person who you were engaged too. I've gone through so many jobs. I never was like that before. I went to work until the realization that I had a problem. The anger...
    mysticdragonlady mysticdragonlady
    36-40, F
    Oct 6, 2015
    Kettei Kettei
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Oct 11, 2015

    Holding Your Hands Up.......

    Having gone through myself the devastation that the alchohol illness can cause, I find it horrible when i hear people blaming the person themselves for the pain that they cause while they are drinking. Yes it is ultimately down to the person themselves to stop drinking, but its...
    emmaB7 emmaB7
    31-35, F
    Nov 23, 2012

    20 months sober!My life is

    so insanely different that sometimes I have to stop and rest just to take it all in. 2015 so far has been about as spectacular as it could have been.I moved to the East Coast to accept a promotion and start a completely new life. I am still in the process of getting settled into...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 11, 2015

    Alcohol has ruined my life (involving my health,

    work, depression, Family, relationship issues, I could go on). Used to drink everyday in the evening for the past 10 years. This year I got hospitalised & went to rehab. Doctors told me I was close to death. Scared the hell out of me. Now; I've been 6 months sober (not a...
    snk7 snk7
    36-40, M
    5 Responses Jun 24, 2015
    Miss1991xx Miss1991xx
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Oct 5, 2015

    A letter to someone special celebrating two

    years sober…. Dear Recovering Alcoholic, I am so sorry that you were in so much pain for so long. I am so sorry that you were alone and struggling in this great big world without any hope or relief. I am so sorry I wasn’t able to help you sooner. It breaks my heart that...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Sep 10, 2015

    Safe House? Mark Burchell

    Farmington Hills, Mich. - Recovery homes are supposed to be safe havens for addicts to heal after they get out of rehab. But instead of helping addicts rebuild their lives, a local sobriety leader is accused by several women of preying on them. He’s been hailed as a saint in...
    TheePanther TheePanther
    70+
    May 9, 2013

    18 months! Today marks one

    and a half years sober!!!!! My life is so insanely different from when I first stopped drinking that I really don’t even know what to say. It has been a long and difficult journey so far but it has been amazing to shed my past and discover the person that was hidden for so...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Mar 11, 2015

    I made it through an entire week at work (I

    work at a bar) without having to fight the urge to drink!!!!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 11, 2015

    Today I'm 90 days sober.

    This has been extremely hard. I knew I had a problem long time ago! But college brought out my drinking side once again. I can't tell you the pain it bring me to see myself in the mirror at times. I had recovered one and let myself relapse again. I was so ashamed. I wanted to...
    Kellykels Kellykels
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    AA Doesn't Work For Atheists/Agnostics

    I recently decided that, after twenty years of heavy, almost daily drinking, and an incident that nearly cost me everything, I needed to quit my unhealthy ways and get sober for the first time in my entire adult life.  Though I had quit drinking for brief periods before...
    RedRover RedRover
    36-40, F
    56 Responses Jun 15, 2009

    I haven't had a drink today,

    found out my ex got arrested n blew my phone up, still managed to ignore her calls n get yelled at by my dad too. im sweating n ny nose is running I do drink almost every day
    coolmetaldude coolmetaldude
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jan 19

    All ideologies are meaningless,

    whether religious or political, for it is conceptual thinking, the conceptual word, which has so unfortunately divided man. Religion is the frozen thought of man out of which they build temples I maintain that Truth is a pathless land, and you cannot approach it by any path...
    StarWanderer StarWanderer
    56-60, M
    Mar 30, 2014

    I'm so happy I do not drink anymore.

    2016 has started out so good to me. Got a great new job that is putting me where I have always wanted to live... On the coast. Making great money. I love my new co workers and one of my new good friends is someone at work. I just signed a new lease this morning for a little...
    mysticdragonlady mysticdragonlady
    36-40, F
    Feb 28

    To Those It May Concern...

    This is in fact an exact copy of an answer I put in someone else's topic, but I felt it 'good' enough to be posted as a separate entry...  First a joke: You know what they call an alcoholic who ran out of booze? A man with a drinking problem... Okay. I started drinking...
    jimmyrudyjump jimmyrudyjump
    51-55, M
    11 Responses Mar 30, 2011

    Alcoholism Can Be Cured Despite A.A.'s Contention To The Contrary

    By Dr. Arthur H. Cain From the September 19, 1964 Saturday Evening Post. An expert charges that Alcoholics anonymous has become a dogmatic cult that blocks medical progress and hampers many members' lives. It is time we made a thorough investigation of Alcoholics Anonymous in the...
    TheCrabbyAngel TheCrabbyAngel
    46-50
    5 Responses Mar 31, 2013

    My drinking problem began

    when I was 16 years old, shortly after I placed my son up for adoption. .. I don't now if it was the guilt, or just apart of puberty, but I just became extremely depressed and sought out ways to smooth the pain I was feeling. I had friends who were into various drugs, but I...
    KierstenJ671 KierstenJ671
    22-25, F
    5 Responses May 9, 2015

    Day 21

    Every single day has been a struggle. The first 10 days were hard. The headaches, the shaky hands, the sleepless nights and nausea. I sat through the AA meetings and listened to everyone tell me over and over again that it would get better, the days would improve and sobriety...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Jul 20, 2013

    It’s 2016…. My life is still moving

    along; improving and changing every single day! I took a lengthy trip home for the holidays and then followed that up with a business trip that kept me away from my beloved apartment for over 2 weeks. It was an amazing trip in so so so many ways. Those who really know me know...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 15

    My Drinking Career And How Alcoholics Anonymous Ruined It...

    My name is PrincessMaine and as of August 28, 2010, I had 6 years of sobriety with the fellowship and support of Alcoholics Anonymous... When I open up at any given commitment meeting and stand up at the podium, I usually give the same opening line, even though it's been passed...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    119 Responses Dec 23, 2010

    Well, today I have realized

    that I have to completely let go of my old life if I want to remain sober. I will have 9 months at the end of this month and I'm only just starting the steps. I'm grateful I have great new people in my life that really care about my overall well being. Goodbye old life, and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 24, 2015
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