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I Am a Recovering Alcoholic

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    All ideologies are meaningless,

    whether religious or political, for it is conceptual thinking, the conceptual word, which has so unfortunately divided man. Religion is the frozen thought of man out of which they build temples I maintain that Truth is a pathless land, and you cannot approach it by any path...
    StarWanderer StarWanderer 56-60, M Mar 30, 2014

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    Safe House? Mark Burchell

    Farmington Hills, Mich. - Recovery homes are supposed to be safe havens for addicts to heal after they get out of rehab. But instead of helping addicts rebuild their lives, a local sobriety leader is accused by several women of preying on them. He’s been hailed as a saint in...
    TheePanther TheePanther 66-70 May 9, 2013

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    Finally Went To A Damn Meeting.

    After over two weeks of totally avoiding AA meetings, I finally went this morning before work (8/6/13). I still completely hate the meetings for a combination of reasons but I also know that I am approaching the point in my sobriety where I always slip up and drink.  I know that...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 11 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    4 Months Sober

    I feel a lot better now.  I've quit drinking before (2 1/2 years) so I know I can't get too confident.  It is nice though to not be blowing all my money on alcohol and to never wake up hung-over or black out and not remember what I've done.
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 30 Responses Jun 5, 2007

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    I was at eight days and I don't know why

    but I found myself standing in the wine aisle yesterday. I should have ran like hell, but I bought one of those cartons of chardonnay that contain a bottle and a half. I let it sit in the fridge for awhile but it kept eating at me knowing it was in there and knowing by the end...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 24

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    3 Months Sober!!!!!!!

    !!! I have somehow managed stay sober for 3 months…  How? I don’t really know. Perhaps. It was luck??  No ******* way….   Actually, to be completely honest, I have fought like hell and accepted an enormous amount of support in order to maintain my sobriety.   Sobriety...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Hate makes me want to drink.

    Oh how I am hating you today…. Hating you so so so much, so much that I just want to drink to get rid of the hate. I hate the sound of your voice, the sound of your footsteps, the look of your face. I hate how you raised or attempted to raise your children and failed. I...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    Don't see anything the matter here, Ma. Ain't it grand the wind stopped blowin'?

    KARLA BRADA MURDER VICTIM BY AA MEMBER   Click on to view the Karla Brada Video Story-   http://youtu.be/uABc5vUGuGY   1st video-   http://youtu.be/nua3eekMYl   I am Monica Richardson, the Founder of a grass roots movement to Make AA Safer. We took direct action to do so...
    NeoJesusOfTheMatrix NeoJesusOfTheMatrix 66-70 Mar 14, 2013

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    5 years ago today I picked up this white poker

    chip at an AA meeting. It signified 1 day sober. Through the grace of God and the help of a lot of family and friends I'm still holding on to it.
    ChilliDog ChilliDog 41-45, M 5 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    Today I am 5 months sober.

    I love myself more than I have ever did in the past. Sending intentions of gratitude, love, kindness and forgiveness for self and others to all of you.
    projektalfred projektalfred 31-35, M 4 Responses Jul 1

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    Dear alcohol and every pill I took,

    You almost ruined my life. You promised me happiness by agreeing to solve my problems. Instead, you created more and made me to where I couldn't be the best I could be. Thankfully, I am able to leave you all in the past and have found happiness and love in AA meetings, my higher...
    cawnbread cawnbread 18-21, F Feb 9

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    I made it through an entire week at work (I

    work at a bar) without having to fight the urge to drink!!!!
    DanielleDestruction DanielleDestruction 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 11

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    Theres this one liquor I go to

    where im never carded. Im 15. Thank you asian man
    monse1523 monse1523 22-25, F Jun 19

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    To Those It May Concern...

    This is in fact an exact copy of an answer I put in someone else's topic, but I felt it 'good' enough to be posted as a separate entry...  First a joke: You know what they call an alcoholic who ran out of booze? A man with a drinking problem... Okay. I started drinking...
    jimmyrudyjump jimmyrudyjump 51-55, M 12 Responses Mar 30, 2011

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    Well, today I have realized

    that I have to completely let go of my old life if I want to remain sober. I will have 9 months at the end of this month and I'm only just starting the steps. I'm grateful I have great new people in my life that really care about my overall well being. Goodbye old life, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 24

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    Dancing Evergreen

             I checked the number on the incoming call vibrating in my hand. It was a call I was required, by law, to answer twenty-four hours a day seven days a week. I practice walking meditation and breathing exercises around an old historic State Penitentiary long since...
    gsparky22 gsparky22 41-45, M 9 Responses Nov 5, 2012

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    AA Doesn't Work For Atheists/Agnostics

    I recently decided that, after twenty years of heavy, almost daily drinking, and an incident that nearly cost me everything, I needed to quit my unhealthy ways and get sober for the first time in my entire adult life.  Though I had quit drinking for brief periods before...
    RedRover RedRover 36-40, F 56 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Alcohol has ruined my life (involving my health,

    work, depression, Family, relationship issues, I could go on). Used to drink everyday in the evening for the past 10 years. This year I got hospitalised & went to rehab. Doctors told me I was close to death. Scared the hell out of me. Now; I've been 6 months sober (not a...
    snk7 snk7 36-40, M 6 Responses Jun 24

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    I've let myself down.

    .. After 3 months I've relapsed for no reason at all other than the fact I saw my ex & he was following me, swearing & insulting me in the street. I said nothing, didn't look back & carried on till I got home. Then I shut the door cried my eyes out for an hour & decided to get a...
    Fairydust1986 Fairydust1986 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 16

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    1 year sober!!!!!!!!!

    ! Well it is official..... I have been sober for 1 year. It feels like my last drink was so long ago and so much has changed since then. Ahhhhhhh 1 year---- never thought it was possible and I have never been so excited and proud! Thank you to those that have helped me...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 26 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    16 Months Sober My life today is

    so so so different than day one of sobriety. At times it feels like I am living someone else’s life because there is just no way that this could be my life. My life was a disaster and now things make sense. I was barely surviving and now I make plans on how to improve and...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 17

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    Days Sober = 14

    I have hit the two week mark. I think a lot of people underestimate just how freaking hard this is for me. I still get withdrawals, and more anxiety, and cravings, and have dreams about booze, and and and. I could go on all day. All over on the billboards there are alcohol ads...
    PreferUknown PreferUknown 22-25, F 9 Responses May 27, 2013

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    hello everyone. my name is kat

    and I am an alcoholic. it's hard to comprehend how much damage alcohol can cause to someone, to themselves, to people around them.. I woke up 5 days ago and thought I have had enough. since then been to two AA meetings. please feel free to look at my blog: unityservicerecovery...
    missundertood2015 missundertood2015 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 4

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    13 1/2 months I have to be honest

    and say that the 6 weeks after my one year anniversary have been rough. I have not had a regular schedule at all and emotionally I'm just not feeling well. I have started to drift away from the things that I did regularly in order to make it this far into my sobriety. I have...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 25, 2014

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    15 months today! I am amazed.

    And it is *still* one day at a time.
    Kettei Kettei 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Holding Your Hands Up.......

    Having gone through myself the devastation that the alchohol illness can cause, I find it horrible when i hear people blaming the person themselves for the pain that they cause while they are drinking. Yes it is ultimately down to the person themselves to stop drinking, but its...
    emmaB7 emmaB7 31-35, F Nov 23, 2012

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    Today Is My Birthday.

    Today, I am 34. Today I am at work instead of having taken the day off to drink. Today I wasn't drinking at 10am the bottle of whiskey I would have bought last night like my other birthdays. Today my wife doesn't hate me. Today I am not embarrassed to show up at my nieces...
    ccneb ccneb 36-40, M 7 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    20 months sober!My life is

    so insanely different that sometimes I have to stop and rest just to take it all in. 2015 so far has been about as spectacular as it could have been.I moved to the East Coast to accept a promotion and start a completely new life. I am still in the process of getting settled into...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 2 Responses May 11

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    Isn't this a story I'm a 55 year old mani

    started drinking at the age of 11 by 13 I was drinking regularly too often by 15 I could down a bottle of jack in three drinks I have been an alcoholic since I was 13 last year in November I decided it was time to quit it was awful all the DTs for 43 years my body was use to...
    primeoflife primeoflife 51-55, M 3 Responses Mar 4

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    I care about my body shape.

    I try to control calories, go to gym. last week I eat the equivalent of 6 big Mac in drinks. that a shame. alcohol is ****. 3000 calories and a headache. what the hell....if you wanna stay slim, do not drink except a lot of water.......
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 13

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    Well I feel good today.

    My side isn't hurting any longer, my anxiety is lessening thanks to the pills. I feel a sense of calm and determination. I think I'll start going out the house more often. This is good.
    IloveLife14 IloveLife14 31-35, F 11 Responses Jan 24, 2014

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    My Drinking Career And How Alcoholics Anonymous Ruined It...

    My name is PrincessMaine and as of August 28, 2010, I had 6 years of sobriety with the fellowship and support of Alcoholics Anonymous... When I open up at any given commitment meeting and stand up at the podium, I usually give the same opening line, even though it's been passed...
    PrincessMaine PrincessMaine 46-50, F 149 Responses Dec 23, 2010

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    Meaningless. I am more

    than alive today. I am more than just "sober" today. I am more than I was so many years ago. This is the result of the steps for me, where people drinking and the sight of alcohol means nothing. Most 12 steppers fear the outside world I don't. I didn't see "drunk people" this...
    StarWanderer StarWanderer 56-60, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2013

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    The Gift He hands me a package wrapped in

    silver paper with a hot pink bow on top. The box is square and thin, with a little weight to it. He says nothing as he hands it to me and I say nothing in response. This is what he does to me. He paralyzes my mind. I can’t speak. I can’t think. I take the box. I obey. I...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    My environment created me.

    I wasn't always an alcoholic but when you grow up with an inconsiderate drunk for a father and a neurotic mother who always makes excuses for him, how was it possible NOT to go down the wrong path? I have an extremely ugly history with the demon that is alcohol that to this day...
    Alan132 Alan132 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 8

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    15 years old. A depressed alcoholic with many

    scars on her body. I thought i was worthless. At times i still do. I still havent found my purpose in life but im trying. At the moment a few of my friends are my motivation to get out of bed. My parents want me off the meds but they serve me as a safety blanket.
    monse1523 monse1523 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 19

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    I will have 9 months this Sunday!

    I am so grateful to be sober today. I like myself more when I'm sober. Lately, I've been feeling overwhelmed though. I'm just not feeling balanced quite yet. Physically and mentally. I'm still healing over a breakup that ended 3 months ago (only on step one) and I really...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 30

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    My drinking problem began

    when I was 16 years old, shortly after I placed my son up for adoption. .. I don't now if it was the guilt, or just apart of puberty, but I just became extremely depressed and sought out ways to smooth the pain I was feeling. I had friends who were into various drugs, but I...
    KierstenJ671 KierstenJ671 22-25, F 7 Responses May 9

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    I am 50 days sober, I have been suffering this

    disease since I was 11. I've been in the program for about a month and do not have a sponsor yet. Can I talk to someone when I need it? Message me?
    cawnbread cawnbread 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    My Bottle Was My Best Friend/Worst Enemy.

    I've been "recovering" since jan 2nd 2012, no more waking up and instantly reaching for the whiskey bottle to calm the shaking and make my mind stop spinning erratically and also to make the day easier to face and escape reality with... my eyes opening to the bottle of jack...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jul 27, 2013

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    The New 12 Steps

    RARELY HAVE they seen a person who has thoroughly followed their path. Those who do recover are usually people who have recognized AA as a dangerous religious cult, and will not give themselves completely to AA's fanatical program. The AA Cult is constituted primarily of men and...
    NeoJesusOfTheMatrix NeoJesusOfTheMatrix 66-70 2 Responses Mar 25, 2013

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    Recently I've suffered depression from drinking

    two much Alcohol I've Been walking in the Streets Drunk almost getting hit by cars during the whole entire summer some from Lincoln Way West High School who doesn't know I was an accident just waiting to happen the persons name is Sarah McDonald she knows I have a disability...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 27, 2014

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    I am an alcoholic and I have been struggling

    with this disease for almost 10 years. I have been sober since June 6th 2014, so I am about 5 and a half months clean. I haven't started working the steps yet and I don't have a sponsor. Any input on that? Any recovered alcoholics that want to chat or vent I'm here. Thanks for...
    lanadarling lanadarling 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Alcoholism Can Be Cured Despite A.A.'s Contention To The Contrary

    By Dr. Arthur H. Cain From the September 19, 1964 Saturday Evening Post. An expert charges that Alcoholics anonymous has become a dogmatic cult that blocks medical progress and hampers many members' lives. It is time we made a thorough investigation of Alcoholics Anonymous in the...
    TheCrabbyAngel TheCrabbyAngel 46-50 6 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    So. After years and years of having great luck.

    Knowing all the right people to get me out of trouble. It all finally came apart. Last night I left work about 1030pm and went to the bar. Alone. But since I drink for free there it's okay right? Well, two hours and many drinks and shots later I get behind the wheel to make...
    QBRAIDER QBRAIDER 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 6, 2014

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    Mistakes, You've Made A Few (A tip of the hat to Lilt and ccneb)

    Ruminating on your errors and where you got it wrong, is not the same thing as learning from them. If fact it's a sure fire way to set up momentum to repeat those same mistakes later on. Guilt is a very attractive and dynamic vibratory energy. The disease gets very excited about...
    StarWanderer StarWanderer 56-60, M 1 Response