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I Am a Recovering Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 133 People

    Can I Recover?

    I am 21 and have had for about 5 years I am 157 cm tall and 36 kg, my BMI is around 14, everytime I gain weight I lose it and more I cannot do it alone, and do not want to go to the doctors What can I do, I want to gain weight, but evrytime I do I look at mysel and look fat and...
    looneygirl looneygirl
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 19, 2011

    What Am I Without You, Anorexia?

    I'm doing everything I should. I'm doing what all the medical people and my family want. I'm following all my plans. I'm not a danger or a worry any more. I feel worse than ever. I'm pleasing everyone else but I'm so lost without my anorexia. I don't feel 'free' or 'released' I...
    katiejess1 katiejess1
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 17, 2013

    I wouldn't really call myself an "anorexic"

    as much as I have "anorexic tendencies." I've always been naturally slim, due to genetics, but I have poor eating habits due to anxiety and depression (mostly created by my toxic family). I'm doing better now. I've started to eat at least 2-3x a day instead of just once a day...
    lamalbelle lamalbelle
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 3, 2015

    It really upsets me when a heavier person

    comments negatively on my weight I have struggled with anorexia for 9 years I hate that in society it's acceptable for a bigger person to comment on a smaller persons weight but I a skinner person asks about a bigger persons weight it's classed as rude and socially unacceptable...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 30, 2015

    Proud Of Myself

    I have been recovering all by myself with no help from anyone. Today I had a full two meals for the first time. I was depressed after for about two hours but in those two hours I was telling myself that I don't need to throw up and I shouldn't have to starve myself to be...
    Lovaticlove32 Lovaticlove32
    13-15, F
    Mar 16, 2013


    My name is Emily and I'm 15 years old. Since I was about 13, I've been obsessed with my body and others'. Long story short, I have been anorexic for only a few months- but I am down to 87 pounds. I'm 5 foot 4. It scares me, but it's so difficult to imagine eating normally again...
    dreamsandlights dreamsandlights
    18-21, F
    May 4, 2013

    True Beauty

    It all began about 5 years ago, back when this girl, Heather, and I would go to Chicago for about 3 months and we would model to pay for our time there. I was 5"3 and 79 pounds. I would never let myself reach 80, the number would only drop. I wouldn't exercise or binge, I would...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 1, 2012

    Can You Really Get Rid Of Anorexia?

    I'm 15 years old and I've had anorexia since june last year. Not a long time, but my anorexia progressed quickly, I went to hospital in march because I was 20 kilos under weight and at high risk of heart attack. I had been eating 175 cals a day and suddenly i was expected to eat...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    5 Responses May 21, 2011

    Recovered, But Not

    I have had anorexia since I was a teenager. When I was 18, I only weighed 59 lbs. and people thought I was going to die. Today, I am healthy, happy, and doing great. However, I still have food and weight issues, and it is hard for a woman in my situation in a world where most...
    atpeacewithme atpeacewithme
    4 Responses Sep 20, 2009

    Worried About Calories

    Hi. five years ago i developed an eating disorder, and have been in treatment for the last four years. i have lived by my own for a year now and everything seems to be going well, school is going great and i am exercising three times at week at the gym. I am exercising crossfit...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 11, 2013

    Trying To Get Better!

    HI I am new to this group. I am trying to recover from anorexia. It is so hard! I am terrified of eating. I truly want to get better and eat normally, but this is just way too strong for me. This disorder is all I have known for some time now, and to try to deviate from it...
    KellyandSteve KellyandSteve
    41-45, F
    Aug 10, 2012

    It'S Going To Be Getting Harder

    I have been sober for 5 weeks. It has been hard and it's about to get even harder. The next two weeks my mom will be working late so I will be in charge of making dinner for me and my brother. With my mom not there it will be easy for me to not eat. I'm scared I'll slip back to...
    Lovaticlove32 Lovaticlove32
    13-15, F
    1 Response May 11, 2013

    3 Weeks Sober

    I have nit starved myself in 3 weeks. I have not thrown up in 4 weeks. It has been VERY hard. I have been eating two meals a day but its not because im starving myself its just because I really dont get hungry enough to eat three meals a day. I do break down but music calms me...
    Lovaticlove32 Lovaticlove32
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 26, 2013

    I have been recovering from my eating disorder

    for a month now. I still am weak, still cold all the time and tired all the time. I'm hoping as I continue to try, I'll gain my energy back. I have a wonderful supportive boyfriend who would do anything for me. He treats me like a princess and I want to work hard to make him...
    happycupcake happycupcake
    26-30, F
    Jan 21, 2014

    A Little Better.

    I Have Finally Been Recovering From Anorexia For A Few Weeks Now... It's Been So Hard. Granted I Still Eat Very Little Without Freaking Out I Know I Have Gotten Far. I Have Messed Myself Up So Bad I Count The Calories I Eat Each Day And I Have To Exercise. If I Don't Do Either...
    Tatteredheart Tatteredheart
    16-17, M
    2 Responses May 26, 2012

    I'm Just Searching For Control.

    I became a borderline anorexic last year around august. It started off as a small diet change, no junk food, then progressed into no chocolate, then no drinking calories, eventually I began seeing results, I just wanted to be tiny like my friends.. I started reading labels and...
    silenceisdeath silenceisdeath
    13-15, F
    Nov 17, 2012
    ghghi ghghi
    16-17, F
    Jan 24

    in high school, freshmen year,

    I developed anorexia. i battled it over the years, and the one thing that helped me thru it was smoking pot. it helped me develop an appetite and not care so much....i also had a good boyfriend, at the time, who loved me, anyways. he didnt want me doing things to hurt myself. n...
    deleted deleted
    Aug 24, 2015

    Getting A Little Better

    I am 13 and I have been trying to recover and I see that the only way to do that is to eat a little bit every 3 hours. It is difficult to do at home because I can throw up at home. It's easy to eat at school because I can't throw up there without anyone knowing but it's harder at...
    Lovaticlove32 Lovaticlove32
    13-15, F
    Mar 13, 2013

    The Long Slow Road...

    When I was 13 I become depressed. I could never sleep. I would lie in bed thinking about me and my life and how awful everything was. Even worse than that I was constantly ill which I later discovered was due to a gluten allergy and as you can guess, this never really made me...
    KTlove KTlove
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 27, 2011

    Prevention of Anorexia I think

    that low self-esteem is a pre-requisite to becoming anorexic. If a girl has healthy self-esteem, that is the best protection against anorexia. If someone has low self-esteem, all it takes is one seemingly innocent comment about her weight, size, or figure to trigger the onset...
    atpeacewithme atpeacewithme
    Feb 11, 2014

    Coping With Stress Sans Ana? Also Looking For Support, Perhaps.

    So I won't get into the details of it, but basically, I'm ill and under a lot of stress lately. When it feels like I'm losing control of everything it's so easy for me to relapse. Does anyone have any ways that they try to avoid the thoughts that go along with a loss of control...
    garbanzogonzo garbanzogonzo
    18-21, F
    Aug 9, 2012

    I lost 30 pounds in 9 months

    while away at college. I had always maintained my weight of 135, and always thought i was overweight. I got to college, the food was bad so i limited myself and suddenly i started noticing weight coming off. I liked the feeling of it, but I took it too far and now I'm considered...
    holly310 holly310
    18-21, F
    Jul 9, 2015


    A twenty-something Toronto girl's musings and discoveries after almost losing it all. Recovery is a long, bloody battle, but it is worth it, it is possible, and it is delicious. Join me here:
    arae8 arae8
    22-25, F
    Mar 29, 2013

    i started eating cuz i was getting really sick

    apparently but i stopped again i havent eatin in a week...
    gramafey gramafey
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Aug 11, 2014

    Just got out of treatment last month,

    still struggling. I'm in need of moral support. Encouragement is welcome. Thanks.
    caughtlitesneez caughtlitesneez
    31-35, F
    Apr 3

    Been struggling with anorexia

    for the last 9 years of my life I have always been slim and tall when I was 11 and forst went to secondary school everyone used to comment on how skinny is was and how they wished they were that skinny at the time I didn't even know I was that skinny to be honest but then after...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou
    22-25, F
    Aug 23, 2015

    A Little Lost...

    I am 40 years old. I first struggled with anorexia when I was 19. I responded well to treatment and was stable until I relapsed at 25 years. With the help of a therapist, I pulled myself up once again. I never went inpatient. Shortly thereafter was a time of transition for me...
    flyrandom flyrandom
    Dec 15, 2012

    Not Sure If Its Possible But I'M Willing To Try!

    I'm 13 and I'm anorexic. I don't want to die. I want to be able to go through the day without weighing myself or worrying how many calories something has. My mom doesn't know and I don't want her to know. I didn't think I had a problem. But when you can go days without eating...
    Lovaticlove32 Lovaticlove32
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Feb 26, 2013

    My Eating Disorder Does NOT Define Me

    I am currently 21 years old battling anorexia/bulimia. I started dieting when I was 13 but started restricting, counting calories, using laxatives, diuretics, diet pills, and over-exercising in high school. My obsession subsided when I fell in love my junior year of high school...
    AChildofHis AChildofHis
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2013

    "Anorexics Are Treated Like Babies"

    I'm confused about something, and perhaps someone here could shed some light on the issue. I know someone who is recovering from anorexia. Recently she said that she thought that anorexics are treated like babies. I don't understand. It seems that anorexics are treated like...
    atpeacewithme atpeacewithme
    3 Responses Mar 30, 2013

    My Story (could Trigger) And An Offer Of Suppourt

    There was a time when i'd gladly have died to be thin.We all get what I mean right?When you want something more than anything in the world?You look at what it's done to you, and what it continues to do: You collapse, your hair falls out, you get headspins and go blind.You think...
    indigo280 indigo280
    18-21, F
    Nov 24, 2011

    I have been on and off anorexic

    for about 4 years now but within the last two years its become much more "on" than "off", but recently I met a girl who was dealing with the same problem and she convinced me to tell my newly recent boyfriend (at the time) and now he is helping me to slowly but surely find my...
    GanjaGirl95 GanjaGirl95
    18-21, F
    Feb 6, 2014
    tessagj14 tessagj14
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 26, 2015

    Still Recovering

    It gets aggravating and noboby understands because they don't know. I try to stay off the computer alot now because if i go on I know i will look on facebook or twitter and i will see someone post a picture of themselves and i will want to be as skinny as them. It sounds weird...
    Lovaticlove32 Lovaticlove32
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2013


    I'm 13 and I am trying to recover anorexia all by myself. It's hard but I have been making progress. I just have to take it one day at a time. The other day I had a full 3 meals. When I are it made me feel really depressed and I just laid in bed. It made me feel really bad to...
    Lovaticlove32 Lovaticlove32
    13-15, F
    Mar 1, 2013

    I still don't know how I feel about this.

    I realized how unhealthy my old ways were so I realized I had to gain some weight back. It's just to hard. I mean today I hit 105 lbs and I feel so fat and horrible. I really don't know if I can actually recover. Control is telling me to stop gaining weight but I can't listen to...
    snowunderthestars snowunderthestars
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Aug 4, 2014

    I Told Myself I Was Too Strong To Slip-up...

    I have struggled with anorexia for as long as I can remember. I have BDD, and when I'm upset I stress-starve. As a result I am only 4'11, when I would have been 5'3 under healthier circumstances. When I get upset, stressed out or depressed all I can think about is disappearing...
    BetterThanFiction BetterThanFiction
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 6, 2010

    Nearly 30

    Neary 30 years old. I've had an eating disorder since the age of 18. While I'm now in recovery, the addiction is always the same way that ex-smokers are disgusted by/yet still long for cigarettes. Eating disorders only bring destruction and unhappiness. And the...
    frenchimartha frenchimartha
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 15, 2012

    Day Dream

    I've been doing well for about a month now, but all I want to do is go back to my old ways. Take my old pills, not eat, and love my body. Unfortunately, I'm not allowed. It makes it so difficult to keep getting better when I feel so alone. I don't want to be big anymore. I hate...
    squelettique squelettique
    22-25, F
    Oct 6, 2013

    As a dancer, body image has become very

    important to me over the years. Costumes and dance wear for competitions are typically very tight and sometimes revealing, so when you dance in a studio in front of the mirror, it's easy to find every little thing wrong with yourself. When I was around 14 or 15 years old, I...
    kinseyK2 kinseyK2
    18-21, F
    Dec 28, 2015
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