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I Am a Recovering Cutter

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 41 People

    The Obsession

        I never used to knbow how to deal with the emotions that I had. They would stay bottled up inside of me until they would get out of control. Then one day I grabbed a blade. I looked at the image of myself mirrored in the thick blade, a face twisted by anger...
    AresBushido AresBushido
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 26, 2008


    My father is leaving. He also got abusive and **** and started hitting the dog. He is a bastard who lacks empathy. He will never understand that my dog is only 'vicious' because she feels protective and motherly at certain times, even if it means that she had to lose all of her...
    lntel lntel
    Jan 9, 2012

    Haven't Cut For 6 Months.

    My whole story is kinda long so I'm just gonna summarize here. If you want to read the whole thing I've been blogging it here http://mybattle-beauty4ashes.blogspot.com/ None of my family or friends has that link it's totally my free space to just write exactly what I think...
    Beauty4Ashes Beauty4Ashes
    Sep 17, 2010

    It Is An Addiction

    You ever have one of those days where all your pent up emotions bring you so close to collapsion. Yet you never knew in the slightest of how you could express such emotions. I never did thats for sure. I didnt kno how to deal with them, so i surpressed them and locked them away...
    TattooBlitz TattooBlitz
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 29, 2008


    i am recovering cutter. i havent cut for almost a year and before that it had been a year and a month... i love every aspect of it. its a dance. a beautifully coreagraphed dance that i have lovingly preforming so many times before i cant even count.  i wouldnt want to count...
    lifeispoetry lifeispoetry
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 19, 2008

    I Am A Recovering Cutter.

    Cutting for me was like a release. A sudden rush of happiness that came from that sharp blade gliding down my arm. No one really understands when they see my scars and just assume I am some sadistic freak. I am not, I am someone you would not expect in person to be the way I am...
    NekroPhiliac NekroPhiliac
    18-21, F
    Aug 12, 2011

    My Scars

    I have been cutting since I was in middle school. Even before that I would scratch at myself, burn myself and do other thing self mutilate. Cutting has been a heavy coping mechanism that I used for years I am now 19 and I haven't cut in about 2 months. I have visible scars on my...
    EternalSunshine14 EternalSunshine14
    May 6, 2012

    My Experience...

    I started cutting when I was in the 7th grade. My mom and father had separated and remarried. My mother had married a man who was abusive. We started going to counseling... But the only thing the therapist would keep telling me "you can't choose who your mom decides to be with...
    Samixo Samixo
    26-30, F
    Jul 9, 2013

    Urge Doesnot Go Away But Your Response To It Can Change

    i'm 40. i started cutting at 10. same reasons as everyone else....abuse neglect lack of control. cutting gave me control i thought. 30 years ago it did not even have a name in a weird way glad it does now. shame we needed a name. i've been to counseling alot. i finally...
    imnotafreakjusthurt imnotafreakjusthurt
    36-40, F
    Aug 5, 2012

    I have had a very all around abusive childhood

    and Im still experiencing emotional abuse in my present every day life...It's been hard, but my true friends, my love and my faith have really been helping me...I was doing really great, still dealt with issues such as self esteem and social anxiety, but I was doing really good...
    serenityshadow serenityshadow
    22-25, F
    Mar 26, 2015


    Well, it all started out as being bored in a study hall class about 5 years ago, I heard about a girl who had gotten caught with eraser burns and I wondered if it would really work... So, I tried to put hi on my hand. Well, it worked. It felt good. I wasn't sure what it was about...
    mommygedders mommygedders
    1 Response Nov 27, 2010

    My Life In Recovery

    Growing up, I was always against self-harm. I grew up in a very religious and abusive household. When I was 16, I began cutting myself. I had been ill from a mystery sickness that doctors had deemed "all in my head," and I also had a rough year at home. I don't remember how or...
    Kournholio Kournholio
    22-25, F
    Jun 3, 2012

    Recovery Is Starting

    I've been cutting for about 5 years, since freshmen year of high school. I have been clean of cutting for almost one month. I'm so happy, but it's hard. For the longest it is everything that I turned to. Cutting for me is what I turn to for every problem. It makes me feel safe...
    pushingalong pushingalong
    18-21, F
    May 31, 2012

    I Am

    I have been a cutter since I was about 12 years old. I do not remember what occasion or incident that caused me to pick up the blade for the 1st time, but I believe I was around the age of 12-13. I have been cutting for years. it has always been something that I used as a way of...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 28, 2013


    I am a recovering cutter who is addicted to the sensation of cutting. I loved everything about it and only hated the scars. I feel like if it werent for the judgements of others i might never even try to stop. The problem is its like a drug to me and i know the cycle: i start...
    soLesBeHonest soLesBeHonest
    Nov 7, 2011

    I started cutting when I was 11 years old.

    The summer before 7th grade. I cut for 6 years. I was in the hospital last year, March 21 for two weeks. This year, on March 21st, I will proudly celebrate my one year anniversary of being free from self harm. It has not been easy. It's still extremely hard. But it it is...
    RachelHp RachelHp
    22-25, F
    Feb 15, 2014


    I have been cutting for 5 years (since seventh/eighth grade) and self harming in general since second or third grade.. I'm not trying to quit all self harm...just cutting for now....But I never make it very long. I battle a lot of other disorders and sometimes just the...
    LavenderButterflys LavenderButterflys
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 5, 2011
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