I Am a Recovering Drug Addict

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 385 People

    I was addicted to pain pills

    for 4 long years. It was the worst of my life. I went to the methadone clinic, and it will be 3 years clean from all opiates!! July 4 is my clinic discharge date. You can do it!!!
    bookwormchic bookwormchic
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 11, 2014

    I Got Stressed... And Laughed Anyways.

    I was always depressed and stressed out on the drugs. I have been in recovery since May 11th, 2012 and a couple of days ago I had a day that kinda sucked. First off I was having post acute withdrawls. I was irritated and exhausted. Still, I had to watch my 6 year old baby sister...
    carlee1212 carlee1212
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 3, 2012

    Walking The Really Long Walk

    When I was 18 I lost everyone around me: friends, family, coworkers, significant others. When I was 22 I lost my home and my pet and my closest friend. I am a recovering drug addict and my story is a long one with countless chapters. After losing almost everything I now...
    1enraga 1enraga
    26-30, M
    Nov 26, 2013

    I wonder how my poor liver is doing some days.

    .. I wonder how my brain is working. Some days I'm sober but life isn't a reality and I see things. My poor little fragile body.
    Haleyannbudddd Haleyannbudddd
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 23, 2013

    With This Match

    I will use this match to light my way And let it's dim light guide me. Though i'll remember darker days, The demons that once enslaved me Now linger in broken remains - Those i've conquered, those i've tamed And those i've let surface time and again.... Have given the strength to...
    spygirl1978 spygirl1978
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 13, 2012

    Young And Didn't Understand

    I started drinking at 11 yrs old to get drunk with friends. At 12 came the pot. At thirteen I was drinking every weekend and smoking pot everyday. I also added acid and mushrooms to the cocktail. Then at 14 on Halloween I found my love a.k.a Heroin and Crack. I had no idea of the...
    libra604 libra604
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

    I relapsed last night 😡 I'm

    so mad and frustrated at myself, for letting it happen, but my boyfriend really helped and supported me through the entire night and I feel closer to him now than ever. Recovery isn't easy and you have to take small steps. Today is a new day so I'll start over. Hello, my name...
    KylieLaine KylieLaine
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jul 15, 2014

    I am a drug addict. I'm not a full blown drug

    addict I'm more of a binge addict. I go so long without it, and then something happens I get stressed out, anxious, depressed or something and I end up doing it. I haven't gotten high in 2 days, I know not much of an accomplishment I know but baby steps right? my friend M is...
    AiymaSnikies AiymaSnikies
    26-30, F
    Feb 3

    Haven't been on here in five months alot had

    changed ive been sober for five months ive moved from cali to phoenix az and have a home and i am so blesses to be 14 weeks pregnant my fiance and i are so happy we used to fight when we did drugs like bad everyday but now we laugh and smile and play together i got my life back...
    crazybeautiful26 crazybeautiful26
    22-25, F
    Apr 22, 2015

    I'm a recovering drug addict I relapsed

    and I'm back clean I am 32 days clean . (:
    sillygirl008 sillygirl008
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 12, 2013

    I Dont Know How Much Longer

    i am 19 years old. i started using when i was 18, and i used intraveniously every.single.day. multiple times a day for about a year. i am now 160 days sober to the date, but i dont know how much longer i can make it last. i didnt quit for myself, i quit for my family and the few...
    SarawAnn SarawAnn
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 9, 2013

    Hi everyone, My first experimentation with any

    kind of drugs was when I was 14 on my birthday. My cousin gave me a blunt as a birthday gift... I had no addiction to it, but it gave me a mysteriously calm feeling that I never felt in my life. After some time, it became boring and redundant for me and I went on to try...
    mladenok mladenok
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jul 15, 2014

    Recovering Addict Alcoholic

    Hi all my name is Lori and I am a drunk and a junkie! I have been in recovery for 20 years one day at a time. I cant believe its been that long, most days I feel like I'm still struggling with the same old thinking patterns! But it has gotten easier and it will get easier for any...
    Glassylady Glassylady
    51-55
    1 Response Apr 9, 2013

    Random Thoughts, What I Remember When I Was Little...

    Just wanting to write some random ****, I was in group the other day when one of my friends said to me, "Tina, I really don't know your story" and before I could reply one of the other girls said "I've heard a little and it's really sad" It's always so weird when you hear out...
    teeheartmarie teeheartmarie
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 10, 2013

    I was addicted to crack

    for about 5 yrs, been clean for 8 yrs now, quit cold turkey not easy withdrawls were massive but I did t!!!!!
    mcveypamela199 mcveypamela199
    36-40, F
    Apr 18, 2014

    The Struggle Is Worth the Clairity.

    I am at the very beginning of my battle with addiction.  There comes a point when one has to decide what road to take. The road to hell is not the one for me. I have dwelled on past bad decisions and used drugs to basically numb the pain. Past decisions where I put the drug...
    Will2Survive Will2Survive
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Oct 26, 2007

    My Personal Story

    When I was 18 I found out about crack and for there my life would take a bad turn. I ended up a prostitute, a mother of three girls that I would not raise, I was beaten so many time and raped till it is hard to remember just how many. I t would be wrong of me to say that all of...
    tootie149 tootie149
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Dec 9, 2011

    I'm recovering from a year

    and 4 months and a few weeks from marijuana addiction. It's Day 12, and I feel great. I had minor withdrawals for a week, but I'm past that now. The day after I had to force myself to throw away my pipes, papers, screens, everything, I spent that day saying good bye to my drug...
    noaht43 noaht43
    41-45, T
    Feb 18, 2014

    One Hit, Lead To 3 Years Wasted

    i still am a recovering addict,, i started with oxys and smoked the 80mg and pealed tthe time release off and it was fun to knod out for a few hours, i only did it because that was the only way my bf will hang out and be nice to me. after a year of oxys they stopped making them...
    seattle206 seattle206
    22-25, F
    Nov 19, 2012

    175 days clean and sober today!

    im 20 and been using since 15 and though its hard i never thought it was possible. To anyone struggling with addiction in any field stay positive and every day is a stepping stone :D
    dansimpson40 dansimpson40
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 21, 2014

    i am a struggling recovering drug addict.

    i was taken off methadone and put on subutex to ony become addicted all over agian to something else. i really want to quit for my children, myself, and my husband who has been their through it all giving me every ounce of support he has to offer. i just dont feel like i have...
    Scorpio420 Scorpio420
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 29, 2014

    Stereo Types.

    Yes, I am a mother...and a wife...and good at both...but lets be honest, those of you that didn't read this one til just now are thinking so differently of me..correct??  I haven't touched pain pills in over 5 years, but yet I like to disclose this about myself in the hopes of...
    abbymay26 abbymay26
    26-30, F
    5 Responses May 31, 2012

    My Dance With Meth

    when people asked me why i smoked ice, i'd just shrug and say "i enjoy being high." while the statement was true enough--i enjoy the euphoria, the energy rush, the on-top-of-the-world feeling--a more accurate statement would be "i wish i could be the person i become when i'm...
    sparrowgirl sparrowgirl
    18-21, F
    Jun 5, 2012

    Hope In The Darkest Of Places.....

    I am young but i have lived A life of many roads..... And though i don't have common wealth, I have stories left untold. Men may say that true wisdom comes From books and education, But nothing i've read has taught me how To find hope in the darkest of places. Faith will give...
    spygirl1978 spygirl1978
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 18, 2012

    so im 20 and have had various drink,

    drug and psychological problems from a young age. This year i was in a psychiatric hospital for a month to get clean and deal with emotional problems which lead to a suicide atempt. im now just over 160 days clean wich is the most since i was about 13 and about 100 days of not...
    dansimpson40 dansimpson40
    22-25, M
    Nov 9, 2014

    Struggling

    This April I will be 2 years sober and lately I've really been struggling to maintain. I don't belong to any groups and the few friends I still have that aren't using don't have any experience in this so I can't really talk to them about it. I would love to find some people on EP...
    PollySyllabacus PollySyllabacus
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Feb 15, 2013

    So I might as well spill the beans.

    I'm posting right now while withdrawing from yet another stupid binge of Opiates. I cannot beat my demons, but I have no one I really love. So i guess I'll keep the demons, until I don't feel like giving up.
    JoeValentine JoeValentine
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 7, 2014

    5 Years Today

    Today is June 1st. Today 5 years ago I the the decision to become clean and sober. When I was 17 I started to snort cocaine and shoot up. I would do it with a friend named Travis. It's just something we did. We were junkies. We would get high and just lay there and talk...
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Jun 1, 2008

    I was a heroin addict

    for 6 years. Got clean for 3 years and in February 2014 I relapsed for two weeks. I've been clean ever since then. Today. I've thought about getting high since the time in woke up.
    janedoe6477 janedoe6477
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 14, 2014

    I was a stupid kid. I was depressed

    and still not sure of my identity and I started doing all kinds of drugs to make me feel better. It never worked but I kept on trying until i was nearly dead When I made up my mind to transition it got worse. I lost friends and some of my family wouldnt talk to me they said I...
    emyleejane emyleejane
    26-30, T
    3 Responses Apr 5, 2015

    I did everything from pot,

    LSD, ecstasy, pain killers, and straight liquor since I was 12 years old. I'm about to be 16 and I've been drug free for almost 2 months. I'm still scared out of my mind that I'll go back, but I haven't felt so good in years.
    SamHoeff SamHoeff
    18-21, F
    May 29, 2014

    Im a 45 gay male that became addicted to meth

    at the age of 40. I lost everything and now i have been clean for a year and a half and am starting over. I had to move back to my rural hometown from the city, I dont know any other gay men to hang out with and im lonely. IT sucks. When life sucks my GO TO is to get high...
    Dikson Dikson
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2015

    I went to an NA meeting &

    that changed my life - I found a life of freedom from addiction - happy, joyous & free. That was seven years ago.Now after these seven years when I am away from any drugs & away from the chaotic, destructive, selfish , scared lifestyle - I am recovering.Recovering from the...
    domking domking
    46-50, M
    Jan 14, 2014

    I've been addicted to pain killers

    for about 12 years now. I was using suboxone and subutex for the past year. That's all my life would revolve around for the longest time, I'd wake up and instantly think about what I could do to get high. Well, I've only been clean for about 3 months now, not because I want to...
    Zer0Point Zer0Point
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Dec 3, 2015

    My First Bad Experience

    So Im new to this so i hope this isnt too graphic for the site. I had been using opiates for the past 3 years and about 2 years ago I was shooting some methadone into my jugular vein in my neck. I was so rushed into getting a fix finally I bent the needle with my scar tissued...
    ninmike ninmike
    22-25, M
    6 Responses May 2, 2012

    I am working on myself by setting up boundaries,

    because I'm trying to help my fiancée. He finally admitted to me that he has been using hardcore drugs, and he's trying to better himself by going to rehab. I don't want advice for myself. I am wanting advice for him on how he can get through this and stay clean. Please, no...
    angico82 angico82
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jan 11

    Alpha - Omega (the Addict's Creed)

    Angels will hold me tonight Beneath the pale moonlight And sprinkle dust in my eyes. They'll shelter me from evil things Protect me against hate and rage (The fire and flames) They'll whisper softly, melancholy Sweet, sweet dreams will fall upon me Until temptation dawns. Each...
    spygirl1978 spygirl1978
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Oct 11, 2012

    soo I used to be addicted to pain pills

    and muscle relaxers. I have been clean for 3 years now but there's not a day that goes by that I don't wish I had some to take. I crave them. I got clean because I got pregnant and right now I'm going through a divorce...I've been thinking about them a lot more lately and I know...
    kuurahh kuurahh
    18-21, F
    Apr 3, 2015

    I was addicted to crack

    for 5 yrs been clean for 8 yrs. now.
    bates2 bates2
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2014

    on Aug. 25th, I celebrated one year clean n

    sober, but I still don't feel trusted by my family...
    irishvengeance irishvengeance
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 9, 2014

    My character defects are deeply embedded into

    my psyche. I've used for more years than I've been clean. Despite jails, institutions and overdose (death) it has taken me 23 years to come to a place where I am ready and able to salvage the person that I really am. I've been in active recovery on my own for the past 4 yrs. I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 12, 2015

    Not Sure If I Qualify

    I just finished my second rehab. I am not proud of the fact that I am so weak. I thought the first one would have worked but within the first 30 days afterwards I was right back to putting the straw up my nose. Cocaine is a drug that sneaks up on you, at first your just being...
    thighhighchick thighhighchick
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Apr 23, 2013

    I am your Disease. I hate meetings.

    I hate your higher power. I hate anyone who has a program. To all who come in contact with me, I wish you suffering and death. Allow me to introduce myself...... I am the disease of addiction. Alcoholism, drugs, and eating disorders, just to name a few. I am cunning, baffling...
    ajb234 ajb234
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Apr 25, 2015

    It still hurts when I think too much

    and I remember my life before. I've been going to group meetings and they sort of help but its hard to talk about it with people I don't know. Talking on the internet is easier but it doesnt really help either
    VanValentina VanValentina
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Oct 13, 2014

    Weeks ago I really started thinking about my

    life and how meaningless it is. I only get out of bed to get high. Sometimes I don't even eat because I would rather get high. What purpose does my life have without dope? I may as well not even be here without it. That's a sad way to live one's life. I decided I really needed...
    TheBrightestShiningStar TheBrightestShiningStar
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    My name is Kristian. I am 18 years old & a

    freshman in college. I am a recovering drug addict. My drug of choice is marijuana (or pot, weed, reefer, or whatever you wish to call it). I started smoking marijuana about 6 or 7 months ago. My first time smoking it was with my younger brother. The high I felt from it was...
    thatdopekidkat thatdopekidkat
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 15, 2013

    16 && Addicted.. :'(

    I am almost 17 years old && sadly i became addicted to drugs n alcohol at a young age. I was 11 when i tried my first drug.. (morphine and oxicotton) It was amazing.. I felt an almost instant high.. from then on i was juss doin those two. then after awhile i got started...
    tragedyhappens tragedyhappens
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 13, 2008

    People that ask me what does heroin feel like,

    it's like asking someone how you feel after one beer. .. Actually this is an obvious question but it's not what you might think. Let me explain it to you, I've been an opiate addict for a long time and tried many drugs. Drugs that are 'uppers' have the most 'obvious' euphoria...
    Faresshashem Faresshashem
    22-25, M
    1 Response Oct 2, 2014

    My Down Spiral Plunge.

    Hello recovering friends, my name is Jose Lopez I am a 23 year old guy that has pretty much lost it all like every other addict out there. My drug of choice is crystal Meth Amphetamines although I started of with coke. Enough with the formal introductions and let me tell you of...
    Tresletras Tresletras
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Dec 26, 2012

    I'm getting so frustrated with these racing

    thoughts and not being able to focus. I guess I'm grateful I'm not sick or hungover today and that I have a solution. It can sure get frustrating as I'm sure a lot of you can relate
    samuel0591 samuel0591
    22-25, M
    Apr 14, 2014

    Oh So Crazy

    I'm turning 21, I've been using since i was 9. oxys at first. then age 10 i started drinking. 11 i had a pot brownie and also the year i started cutting(another addiction). then at 13 i started smoking pot, more or less everyday, i still do now. at that age i also tried cocaine...
    Spilled Spilled
    22-25, F
    Mar 11, 2013
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