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I Am a Recovering Drug Addict

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 365 People

    I was addicted to pain pills

    for 4 long years. It was the worst of my life. I went to the methadone clinic, and it will be 3 years clean from all opiates!! July 4 is my clinic discharge date. You can do it!!!
    bookwormchic bookwormchic 31-35, F 1 Response May 11, 2014

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    I am your Disease. I hate meetings.

    I hate your higher power. I hate anyone who has a program. To all who come in contact with me, I wish you suffering and death. Allow me to introduce myself...... I am the disease of addiction. Alcoholism, drugs, and eating disorders, just to name a few. I am cunning, baffling...
    ajb234 ajb234 41-45, M 4 Responses Apr 25

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    Random Thoughts, What I Remember When I Was Little...

    Just wanting to write some random ****, I was in group the other day when one of my friends said to me, "Tina, I really don't know your story" and before I could reply one of the other girls said "I've heard a little and it's really sad" It's always so weird when you hear out...
    teeheartmarie teeheartmarie 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 10, 2013

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    My Down Spiral Plunge.

    Hello recovering friends, my name is Jose Lopez I am a 23 year old guy that has pretty much lost it all like every other addict out there. My drug of choice is crystal Meth Amphetamines although I started of with coke. Enough with the formal introductions and let me tell you of...
    Tresletras Tresletras 22-25, M 3 Responses Dec 26, 2012

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    My First Bad Experience

    So Im new to this so i hope this isnt too graphic for the site. I had been using opiates for the past 3 years and about 2 years ago I was shooting some methadone into my jugular vein in my neck. I was so rushed into getting a fix finally I bent the needle with my scar tissued...
    ninmike ninmike 22-25, M 6 Responses May 2, 2012

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    i am a struggling recovering drug addict.

    i was taken off methadone and put on subutex to ony become addicted all over agian to something else. i really want to quit for my children, myself, and my husband who has been their through it all giving me every ounce of support he has to offer. i just dont feel like i have...
    Scorpio420 Scorpio420 22-25, F 2 Responses May 29, 2014

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    400 Days Clean

    I have been clean for 400 days today. antidepressants may not be a popular or as talked about by the media as other drugs but trust me they can really cause problems. I spent most of the last 4 years of my life self medicating with them. Living in their fog seemed better than...
    2farofftrack 2farofftrack 26-30, F Sep 17, 2013

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    175 days clean and sober today!

    im 20 and been using since 15 and though its hard i never thought it was possible. To anyone struggling with addiction in any field stay positive and every day is a stepping stone :D
    dansimpson40 dansimpson40 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 21, 2014

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    Struggling

    This April I will be 2 years sober and lately I've really been struggling to maintain. I don't belong to any groups and the few friends I still have that aren't using don't have any experience in this so I can't really talk to them about it. I would love to find some people on EP...
    PollySyllabacus PollySyllabacus 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 15, 2013

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    I Still Have Hope

    I am a recovering addict I used crystal meth for over ten years and struggle with my addiction. I am past the stage where I look ill, steal or display any drug addict behaviour I am a functional addict which means I can relapse over the wknd and come to work Monday and act like...
    chanadams chanadams 31-35 3 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    My name is Kristian. I am 18 years old & a

    freshman in college. I am a recovering drug addict. My drug of choice is marijuana (or pot, weed, reefer, or whatever you wish to call it). I started smoking marijuana about 6 or 7 months ago. My first time smoking it was with my younger brother. The high I felt from it was...
    thatdopekidkat thatdopekidkat 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    Oh So Crazy

    I'm turning 21, I've been using since i was 9. oxys at first. then age 10 i started drinking. 11 i had a pot brownie and also the year i started cutting(another addiction). then at 13 i started smoking pot, more or less everyday, i still do now. at that age i also tried cocaine...
    Spilled Spilled 22-25, F Mar 11, 2013

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    Walking The Really Long Walk

    When I was 18 I lost everyone around me: friends, family, coworkers, significant others. When I was 22 I lost my home and my pet and my closest friend. I am a recovering drug addict and my story is a long one with countless chapters. After losing almost everything I now...
    1enraga 1enraga 22-25, M Nov 26, 2013

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    I was a stupid kid. I was depressed

    and still not sure of my identity and I started doing all kinds of drugs to make me feel better. It never worked but I kept on trying until i was nearly dead When I made up my mind to transition it got worse. I lost friends and some of my family wouldnt talk to me they said I...
    emyleejane emyleejane 26-30, T 3 Responses Apr 5

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    One Hit, Lead To 3 Years Wasted

    i still am a recovering addict,, i started with oxys and smoked the 80mg and pealed tthe time release off and it was fun to knod out for a few hours, i only did it because that was the only way my bf will hang out and be nice to me. after a year of oxys they stopped making them...
    seattle206 seattle206 22-25, F Nov 19, 2012

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    Recovering Addict Alcoholic

    Hi all my name is Lori and I am a drunk and a junkie! I have been in recovery for 20 years one day at a time. I cant believe its been that long, most days I feel like I'm still struggling with the same old thinking patterns! But it has gotten easier and it will get easier for any...
    Glassylady Glassylady 46-50 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    soo I used to be addicted to pain pills

    and muscle relaxers. I have been clean for 3 years now but there's not a day that goes by that I don't wish I had some to take. I crave them. I got clean because I got pregnant and right now I'm going through a divorce...I've been thinking about them a lot more lately and I know...
    kuurahh kuurahh 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    so im 20 and have had various drink,

    drug and psychological problems from a young age. This year i was in a psychiatric hospital for a month to get clean and deal with emotional problems which lead to a suicide atempt. im now just over 160 days clean wich is the most since i was about 13 and about 100 days of not...
    dansimpson40 dansimpson40 18-21, M Nov 9, 2014

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    With This Match

    I will use this match to light my way And let it's dim light guide me. Though i'll remember darker days, The demons that once enslaved me Now linger in broken remains - Those i've conquered, those i've tamed And those i've let surface time and again.... Have given the strength to...
    spygirl1978 spygirl1978 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2012

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    16 && Addicted.. :'(

    I am almost 17 years old && sadly i became addicted to drugs n alcohol at a young age. I was 11 when i tried my first drug.. (morphine and oxicotton) It was amazing.. I felt an almost instant high.. from then on i was juss doin those two. then after awhile i got started...
    tragedyhappens tragedyhappens 22-25, F 3 Responses May 13, 2008

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    on Aug. 25th, I celebrated one year clean n

    sober, but I still don't feel trusted by my family...
    irishvengeance irishvengeance 26-30 2 Responses Sep 9, 2014

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    I'm a recovering drug addict I relapsed

    and I'm back clean I am 32 days clean . (:
    sillygirl008 sillygirl008 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 12, 2013

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    So I might as well spill the beans.

    I'm posting right now while withdrawing from yet another stupid binge of Opiates. I cannot beat my demons, but I have no one I really love. So i guess I'll keep the demons, until I don't feel like giving up.
    JoeValentine JoeValentine 26-30 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    Hope In The Darkest Of Places.....

    I am young but i have lived A life of many roads..... And though i don't have common wealth, I have stories left untold. Men may say that true wisdom comes From books and education, But nothing i've read has taught me how To find hope in the darkest of places. Faith will give...
    spygirl1978 spygirl1978 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2012

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    I'm recovering from a year

    and 4 months and a few weeks from marijuana addiction. It's Day 12, and I feel great. I had minor withdrawals for a week, but I'm past that now. The day after I had to force myself to throw away my pipes, papers, screens, everything, I spent that day saying good bye to my drug...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T Feb 18, 2014

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    5 Years Today

    Today is June 1st. Today 5 years ago I the the decision to become clean and sober. When I was 17 I started to snort cocaine and shoot up. I would do it with a friend named Travis. It's just something we did. We were junkies. We would get high and just lay there and talk...
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 1, 2008

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    I wonder how my poor liver is doing some days.

    .. I wonder how my brain is working. Some days I'm sober but life isn't a reality and I see things. My poor little fragile body.
    Haleyannbudddd Haleyannbudddd 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    I Dont Know How Much Longer

    i am 19 years old. i started using when i was 18, and i used intraveniously every.single.day. multiple times a day for about a year. i am now 160 days sober to the date, but i dont know how much longer i can make it last. i didnt quit for myself, i quit for my family and the few...
    SarawAnn SarawAnn 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    Alpha - Omega (the Addict's Creed)

    Angels will hold me tonight Beneath the pale moonlight And sprinkle dust in my eyes. They'll shelter me from evil things Protect me against hate and rage (The fire and flames) They'll whisper softly, melancholy Sweet, sweet dreams will fall upon me Until temptation dawns. Each...
    spygirl1978 spygirl1978 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 11, 2012

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    I was a heroin addict

    for 6 years. Got clean for 3 years and in February 2014 I relapsed for two weeks. I've been clean ever since then. Today. I've thought about getting high since the time in woke up.
    janedoe6477 janedoe6477 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 14, 2014

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    I was addicted to crack

    for about 5 yrs, been clean for 8 yrs now, quit cold turkey not easy withdrawls were massive but I did t!!!!!
    mcveypamela199 mcveypamela199 36-40, F Apr 18, 2014

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    I did everything from pot,

    LSD, ecstasy, pain killers, and straight liquor since I was 12 years old. I'm about to be 16 and I've been drug free for almost 2 months. I'm still scared out of my mind that I'll go back, but I haven't felt so good in years.
    SamHoeff SamHoeff 16-17, F May 29, 2014

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    Young And Didn't Understand

    I started drinking at 11 yrs old to get drunk with friends. At 12 came the pot. At thirteen I was drinking every weekend and smoking pot everyday. I also added acid and mushrooms to the cocktail. Then at 14 on Halloween I found my love a.k.a Heroin and Crack. I had no idea of the...
    libra604 libra604 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    I went to an NA meeting &

    that changed my life - I found a life of freedom from addiction - happy, joyous & free. That was seven years ago.Now after these seven years when I am away from any drugs & away from the chaotic, destructive, selfish , scared lifestyle - I am recovering.Recovering from the...
    domking domking 46-50, M Jan 14, 2014

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    I'm getting so frustrated with these racing

    thoughts and not being able to focus. I guess I'm grateful I'm not sick or hungover today and that I have a solution. It can sure get frustrating as I'm sure a lot of you can relate
    samuel0591 samuel0591 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 14, 2014

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    Not Sure If I Qualify

    I just finished my second rehab. I am not proud of the fact that I am so weak. I thought the first one would have worked but within the first 30 days afterwards I was right back to putting the straw up my nose. Cocaine is a drug that sneaks up on you, at first your just being...
    thighhighchick thighhighchick 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    My Dance With Meth

    when people asked me why i smoked ice, i'd just shrug and say "i enjoy being high." while the statement was true enough--i enjoy the euphoria, the energy rush, the on-top-of-the-world feeling--a more accurate statement would be "i wish i could be the person i become when i'm...
    sparrowgirl sparrowgirl 18-21, F Jun 5, 2012

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    Haven't been on here in five months alot had

    changed ive been sober for five months ive moved from cali to phoenix az and have a home and i am so blesses to be 14 weeks pregnant my fiance and i are so happy we used to fight when we did drugs like bad everyday but now we laugh and smile and play together i got my life back...
    crazybeautiful26 crazybeautiful26 22-25, F Apr 22

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    Questions About Pain Control....

    Let's say hypothetically that my husband gets clean and is able to stop using prescription pain pills...... then what? What does he do for the pain in his neck from his injury that started this whole mess in the first place? I feel like its no good for him to seek treatment for...
    Lori1118 Lori1118 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2013

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    Attention. Do not try to talk to

    or be friends with the user love2tryalot. She's a terrible person and a *****. She will message you back if you message her and then she will block you afterwards for no reason. And she's a fake person. Her profile is fake. Do not trust this *****.
    BrandonVidya2014 BrandonVidya2014 18-21, M Aug 12, 2014

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    Hi everyone, My first experimentation with any

    kind of drugs was when I was 14 on my birthday. My cousin gave me a blunt as a birthday gift... I had no addiction to it, but it gave me a mysteriously calm feeling that I never felt in my life. After some time, it became boring and redundant for me and I went on to try...
    mladenok mladenok 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 15, 2014

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    A Hopeless Romantic (With Drugs)

    My life as been a living hell since I started using drugs my first drug was weed of course after that everything went downhill....I started expirementing with perks,zannies,oxys,etc. Eventually it lead me to snorting heroin and using cocaine it was the lifestyle that drew me in...
    ManINeedHelp ManINeedHelp 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    The Struggle Is Worth the Clairity.

    I am at the very beginning of my battle with addiction.  There comes a point when one has to decide what road to take. The road to hell is not the one for me. I have dwelled on past bad decisions and used drugs to basically numb the pain. Past decisions where I put the drug...
    Will2Survive Will2Survive 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 26, 2007

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    Weed

    when I was 14 I started smoking weed I only smoked weed to handle my problems it got to the point were it was a joint a day followed by a couple shots of whiskey. Eventualy I realized that it only handled my problems for a little then it hit you harder it got to were I wanted to...
    bob449 bob449 16-17, M Nov 19, 2012

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    My Personal Story

    When I was 18 I found out about crack and for there my life would take a bad turn. I ended up a prostitute, a mother of three girls that I would not raise, I was beaten so many time and raped till it is hard to remember just how many. I t would be wrong of me to say that all of...
    tootie149 tootie149 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 9, 2011

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    People that ask me what does heroin feel like,

    it's like asking someone how you feel after one beer. .. Actually this is an obvious question but it's not what you might think. Let me explain it to you, I've been an opiate addict for a long time and tried many drugs. Drugs that are 'uppers' have the most 'obvious' euphoria...
    Faresshashem Faresshashem 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 2, 2014

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