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I Am a Recovering Self-harmer

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    5 months clean today!

    !! So happy!
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 11

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    So happy I made it to the 4 month mark a few

    days ago!!! Still staying strong even though the urges won't settle!! For now I'm winning :)
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    7 and 1/2 weeks clean!

    The urges are still there but they are getting better. I am hopeful that the more I stay clean the less the urges will affect me. My therapy also seems to be helping and my meds have finally started working, so things seem to be coming together I can't wait until I get past the...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F May 16

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    This world This world is

    but a city, corrupt, burnt, and fallen. Its soul has gone black. This world is but a scar, torn, shattered, and broken. Its damage can’t be healed. This world is but a curse, dark, hollow, and lost. Its wounds self inflicted. This world is but a memory. Ancient, painful...
    imrolling imrolling 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 1

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    It's been 3 months and 2 days

    since I last harmed. It's getting more and more difficult to stay strong, I posted not too long ago that I was struggling and I still am. Everything in my life is taking it's toll on me and staying harm free is incredibly difficult when that's all you know when things get tough...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 18

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    10 years. From the young age of 9.

    That's when it started. I remember the first time. .. The drama. .. The tears. ..The silence. ..The blood. But I also remember the sheer relief that followed. It took me a few years to tell my mum. Even after she found out, I didn't tell her when I hurt myself. It got so bad...
    TheOriginalDarkHorse TheOriginalDarkHorse 18-21, F 1 Response May 18

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    since the age of 12 i have self harmed,

    i have a lot of scars and i regret them all but i still cant help but cut myself, however i used to do it daily and now its once a week or so, i am going through dbt therapy which is helping and slowly i am self harming less, i am determined to beat self harm one day x
    fantasycaver fantasycaver 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 2

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    Recovery Realizing that you're worth

    it Experiencing true happiness Caring about yourself Overcoming your own demons Validating your worth Eating without regret Relapse-it's bound to happen, and that's ok Yearning to live I found this on the internet a few weeks ago, and I've realized that this really IS what...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 Dec 27, 2013

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    Idk If I'm recovering.

    ..? Since I did it like last week...:/ but I would like to find ppl like me...
    slenderlovefoeeva2367 slenderlovefoeeva2367 13-15, F 6 Responses May 13

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    My Story: Self Harm

    I started self harming in eighth grade. I was still recovering emotionally from my parents divorce when I was in sixth grade. In sixth grade I was thrust into the responsibility of being a parent figure to my younger siblings, and two out of the three have ADHD. Taking care of...
    littleoneforever littleoneforever 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 8, 2012

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    18.5 weeks clean...I've been doing a good job

    but today I lost another friend...a friend of mine says he still has feelings for me and even though I've told him I just want to be friends he wants to be more and he said it's bugging him so much that he needs a break from me..so he doesn't want to see me or anything until he...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F Jul 31

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    I recently returned from an amazing week of

    summer camp. I've been struggling with eating and cutting really bad these past few months. At camp my health was an issue. The EMT at the camp had read me this story and it has changed my life forever. The story is called "to write love on her arms." Right after he shared this...
    ebai3489 ebai3489 16-17, F Jun 9

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    11.5 weeks harm free

    but I'm having a hard time. I have bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder which is making my life hard plus I just lost a good friend. Things have been hard and when things get hard it's easy to turn to self harm, but I'm really trying to stay strong. I'm just...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F Jun 12

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    I was 4 months self harm free

    but then I relapsed. Now I'm 3 weeks clean no where near 4 months but I'll hopefully get there. I'm just fighting the urge, fighting the addiction. It's not easy but that's what recovery is all about, having the strength to get through the pain. I hope I last 4 months again and...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F Apr 17

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    The last time I cut myself was yesterday.

    I regret it, and I'm trying so hard to recover. But I black out and my mind just shuts down and I lose control. Then I can't remember what I did after I did it. I don't know how to gain dominance over these feelings. I want to stop. I've tried several different ways to get my...
    pennyly pennyly 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    It's been about two weeks

    since I last cut. I had the urge Sunday so I went outside and beat a tree with a broom. πŸ˜•
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    5 weeks clean. It not a lot

    but it's something. Still have urges everyday but that'll last a while, maybe years so I'll just have to keep fighting it, everyday I find reasons as to why I should harm myself and it's like an addiction too but so far harming has not lead me to a happy life only this cycle of...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    Step Follows Step

    I have been a self-harmer for almost three years now. I want to stop hurting myself this way, but I have to fight myself over it frequently. Every time I feel the need to burn myself or slice myself open it gets harder to resist again. Last week I gave in after a month of...
    Xenobia Xenobia 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2009

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    I have legs covered in white lines.

    Its disgusting. Self harm is disgusting, I hate it and I regret all of it but I'm moving in with my life and I'm alive - that's what matters
    ararison ararison 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    My self harm has improved greatly over

    that last few years. I'd been self harming since I was 5 or 6 and cutting since I was 10c I haven't cut for 4 years now and it's months since I bruised or gave myself a bloody nose. I seem not have more and more reasons to keep going and finding other ways to cope, not a day...
    LastBusHome LastBusHome 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 10

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    It has been around a month sense I last cut

    or burned myself I've been thinking about doing it again πŸ˜”
    emotionalyana emotionalyana 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 1

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    2 months and 3 days clean!

    ! I almost cut today I had my razor in my hand but I put it down. I chose to fight it, I call the urge the "little monster" and I beat the monster today. For once I am proud of myself and I am never proud of myself for anything! I can't wait to make it 9 weeks self harm free!
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 5 Responses May 22

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    Faded Scars

    I am a recovering cutter. But tonight, I look at the faded scar tissue up and down my wrists, throat, thighs, ankles, hands and stomach; and there is a part of me that wants more. It's a sick addiction, I know. But the pain I feel right now, or should be feeling I guess, is not...
    klizanne klizanne 16-17, F Feb 1, 2013

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    I was self harm free

    for about five months, and one day I started having rushing thoughts I started overthinking everything I saw everything that wasn't bad as a horrible thing . I was anxious I started looking for relief when I found a box I had hidden from myself . In that box I had blades and...
    uunbroken uunbroken 13-15, F Apr 17

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    10 weeks clean tomorrow!

    No cutting, burning, or starving myself! I'm not normally proud of myself but I can honestly say I am proud of what I have done so far! I hope to make it to the 3 month mark and farther!
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F Jun 1

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    10 days clean today. Pretty proud of myself.

    Had really bad urges yesterday, but I overcame them.
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 Apr 21

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    So today, I have to give up my very last blade.

    I haven't used it in almost two months, but it's gonna be weird not knowing where it is all the time. I mean, if I haven't used it in two months, I shouldn't need it anymore...right?
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 Feb 19

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    I have been self-harming in some way

    for almost 12 years. I am currently 17, I will be 18 this year (2014) . I have had my relapses and previously had only been capable of being clean for a month. This try however, has been TWO months and a week. Recovery is possible. Im on here to talk about my story, how to...
    BrokenButNotBeaten BrokenButNotBeaten 16-17, F May 9

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    17 weeks clean...FREEDOM!

    !! Loving it the urges are slowly going away as I am realizing nothing is worth cutting over, when I'm hurting u won't contribute to myself hurting more!!
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F Jul 22

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    I surprisingly fought the urge last night.

    I thought about it in the shower, and I picked up the razor, told myself later, but I never did it. :)
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 1 Response Apr 1

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    I am feeling really suicidal considering

    overdosing and I really just need someone to talk to
    homewardbound1990 homewardbound1990 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16

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    Falling again ... I can't help

    but think about vomiting when I eat...
    Imfearlessbae Imfearlessbae 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    I Dont Know If I Should Even Call Myself Recovering

    I am on the path to stopping but like everyone knows its easier said that done. I hate that im a self harmer, and i know a lot of people think im pathetic and such but when you have absolutely no one to turn to, and you dont know how to get rid of these feelings inside of you...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 8, 2012

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    Almost cut last night,

    I was upset and I was sitting in the bathroom holding my razor and I was crying of course because I was torn over what to do. I had the urge to do it but I thought about all the hard work to get to where I was and I managed to put the razor down for the night. I was hoping that...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F Jun 30

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    It's been about 4 months

    since I've self harmed. I have been self harming since I was 12 and I'm 20 now. Although it's been 4 months I struggle everyday not to harm. Cutting and burning became my ways of coping and my addiction. You'd think that after a certain amount of time it would get easier to stay...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F Mar 19

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    Imdestroyed Imdestroyed 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    19 weeks clean today.

    ..that's right!! Every week I just get more excited!! I can't believe I'm almost at 5 months...last time I made it 4 and I lost it all...this time is different I'm getting stronger and stronger...like my tattoo says I've got to have strength in every area of life...being a...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    11 weeks clean today!

    Hooray for squashing the "little monster". I'm so happy I've made it this far. 3 month mark here I come!!
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F Jun 9

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    Tonight I cut myself... I haven't cut in 5 months. I've felt so alone lately and I have nobody to turn to. I hold everything inside and eventually I explode with frustration And...
    FallingAngelxx FallingAngelxx 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    This is so bad. I haven't had the urge this bad in a while. This is the kind of thing that makes me cut too deep. I really cant do this again. I DONT EVEN WANT TO ANYMORE.
    anburton00 anburton00 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 28

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    I WAS clean for 3 months but tonight I am ashamed that I picked up my blade again and took to my hip. I hate myself every minute because of this!
    Itscaitlin Itscaitlin 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    I feel like cutting now. My ex best friend is saying the reason where not friends anymore is because I want to marry his sister. He says I don't deserve her and I need to make a...
    YLIhououin YLIhououin 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 31

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    I feel like cutting so bad right now!!! I just want to make one huge one on my thigh!!! I don't even know why but I think I am going to because I just want to see the blood... Lol...
    FatPig303 FatPig303 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    He is coming home sunday!! Oh god he is gonna see my hips and freak. Ive waited all summer for my boyfriend to come home and he is one of the very few people that i am genuinely...
    anburton00 anburton00 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 7

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    OMG I am sooooo happy. today i cut myself i havent in 3 months and now I am happy again I will NEVER stop again.
    0love 0love 18-21 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Do I settle for reopening my old cuts or do I make new ones? Going to have to do something so I can sleep..
    LesbianBlue LesbianBlue 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I used to do it for crap reasons- I thought I'd be 'interesting', I thought this guy would love me back. But after a while, after I stopped and then relapsed, I started loving it...
    HorizonHeart HorizonHeart 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was at my friends volleyball practice at our school and I was wearing a sweatshirt, jean shorts ( long enough to cover my thigh) , and had my summer reading book and phone in...
    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 5

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    I'm a recovering self-harmer and an anorexic. I'm into some different stuff compared to most people. My music tastes are different compared to a lot of people my age. I don't care...
    Lipsofanangel976 Lipsofanangel976 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    Hi hello wow, this is weird. For starters I doubt anyone will read this. My name is Valerie I am 15. I'm a relapsing self harmer, I don't look or act like what people think is a...
    valerieisabelle valerieisabelle 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    This morning I woke up, and felt different. Way different than I ever have before. For once this morning when I woke up I actually felt important. I made some new friends who are...