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I Am a Self Hating Homosexual

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    I Hate Wat I Feel ...

     i really wish i was different. I dont like wat i feel is against my personal beliefs.. but sometimes i feel like its really hard to control wat i feel. Why cant i just be normal ?
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 26, 2010

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    Well, I am 19. I have been out

    for almost 2 years and I have had a girlfriend for over a year. But I can't help but hate myself I hate who I am and that I love her. I don't want to leave her. But I feel like god hates me and I am going to Hell for the way I feel. But I can't change it I have tried... Any...
    shaunaleigh77 shaunaleigh77 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    Ever Since I Came Out...

    I have not been able to let go of all of this guilt for being gay. Right after I came out, I felt this really numb, neutral pit starting to well up in the middle in my chest. Essentially, my attraction to men has, like, diminished a lot. My attraction to women did not go up...
    neutralreaction neutralreaction 18-21 2 Responses Jan 5, 2012

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    Well

    well, im here for all the same reasons you guys are..and the title of this whole page kinda gives it away so i aint gunna explain myself. yeah im a self hating gay, i hate being gay, i hate gays, i hate the scene, and basically i dont actually know what to do. its not really an...
    russdy russdy 18-21 2 Responses Sep 19, 2010

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    My Parents Hate Me

    Before I came out of the closet I was their pride and joy: they bragged about me to their friends, they told me they loved me ten times a day and they showered me in affection. When I did come out, they couldn't believe it-- I'm "too beautiful to be a lesbian!" Now, they berate...
    PrettyLion PrettyLion 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2013

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    I Don't Want to Be Gay

    i really don't, i want a wife and kids and i want to make love to my wife. i was normal and i didn't want to be attracted to guys. it makes me sad and i feel so alone. when i was in 8th grade i was molested and ever since i have been attracted to guys. i hate it, and i hate...
    lostandconfusedguy lostandconfusedguy 16-17 9 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    Uncanny Queer

    I don't even know if this is the right way to put the way I feel towards my sexuality. I don't hate myself. I actually respect myself alot, almost too much. I just hate the fact that I have nothing in common with most homosexuals. I don't go to clubs every weekend, I don't listen...
    CatalystReverie CatalystReverie 26-30, M 9 Responses Aug 10, 2007

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    25 Years Of Existence...

    Hi. I just discovered today this website and I find it interesting and helpful to many people including me, hoping to share my experience and others will learn from it and I as well from you guys. I am an "open" and simple homosexual to start with. Open because i grew up being...
    Domzhie Domzhie 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 24, 2013

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    I Am A Flaming Homosexual.

    I hate homosexuals but I just love men so ******* much.  I keep trying to stop but its just so addicting.  I am such a weak person for not being able to control myself.  **** it, I LOVE MEN.
    poppintags08 poppintags08 18-21, M 5 Responses Feb 19, 2010

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    My Girlfriend Is

    My girlfriend really is sort of hating the fact that she's homosexual. Not because she doesn't like homosexuals or something. She just hates all the stereotypes that are sticked to her. And she hates women. She thinks women are more attractive, but in the end men are a lot easier...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    Uncertainty About My Sexuality

    Hey.. First of all it felt so good that i found out that im not the only one wgo struggles.. Im 16 years of age and i've struggled for the last few years since i was oriented into these homosexual temptations.. And its so hard.. Im still struggling to fight it.. Sometimes it just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 18, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    i think to be selfish in some extent is not bad ,because u can help any one only when u help ur self ,we are bound to do work for our selves first rather than anyone else whether...
    rev429 rev429 18-21, M 9 hrs ago

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    I'm sick and tired of my parents and my grandparents saying homosexuality is a sin. I was arguing with my grandma about it and she called my mom about it. They said it was "against...
    NyBrid NyBrid 13-15, F 10 Responses Aug 6

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    I don't know why but I love to see people's selfies, everyone is perfect in their own way. And the only way you can prove that is to be yourself. Nobody else can be that person. So...
    HappensForAReason HappensForAReason 13-15, M 11 hrs ago

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    Sometimes i feel very unwanted and unloved. I believe everybody does at some time in their lives. But with me the feeling of being unwanted leads to me thinking i'm not good enough...
    showmetheworldwithoutregrets showmetheworldwithoutregrets 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    When I first entered college I had high expectations for achieving so much more in my life given that both my parents never even graduated high school. My first year was absolutely...
    dreamersreverie dreamersreverie 18-21, F Aug 2

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    I've always been a gentle and quite person. I rarely got angry... I was just sad. I read about people who were always angry because of their depression. I never understood till now...
    FullHotel FullHotel 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I don't know how he can still make me feel like this... I hate him so much. I hate hating people, I hate the baggage and the negative energy, but he's just such a **** sometimes...
    EvaSFenty EvaSFenty 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Smile is the best way to show that you're OK. Fridayyy selfie (:
    ElleFrancene ElleFrancene 18-21, F 4 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    " but first let me take a selfie "
    desitor desitor 16-17, F 59 mins ago

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    I love taking random selfies lol
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F 1 Response 58 mins ago

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    It's not hating me but she say I shouldn't like her!!! She also told me that I should stop following her, stop adding her on Facebook, stop ADMIRING her!!!! THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE!!! I...
    aayla22 aayla22 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    I've self harmed since I was 12 (I'm almost 15 now) I started when I was 12 when my online friend told me she self harms so I guess being 12 I did a stupid thing, I self harmed to...
    Yuki101 Yuki101 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 14

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    I have suffered with the big D for 5 years now. It started with a car accident. An accident caused by a change in a disability. Epilepsy. Is it selfish to feel down because a...
    DelanaWenbe DelanaWenbe 46-50, M Aug 14

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    If you cut or use to, please read this. I'm doing a survey for future understanding of self harm as I may become a therapist. I understand that a lot of people don't like talking...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Aug 18

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    19 weeks clean today...that's right!! Every week I just get more excited!! I can't believe I'm almost at 5 months...last time I made it 4 and I lost it all...this time is different...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    I remember the first time i self harm that time i was realy stress out and don"t know what to do that"s why i selfharm at first i would selfharm at a visible place because i...
    nagaseiori nagaseiori 18-21, F Aug 11

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    Ok, some people believe self harm is only cutting yourself. But let me tell you self harm can be done in so many more ways. I've always had an issue with anger, and a big one at...
    Redmaynes Redmaynes 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    I have discovered that this is my biggest flaw and challenge in life. Low self-esteem truly affects me and causes me both physical and mental distress that is unbearable much of...
    misscoffee misscoffee 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Have you cut or deliberately injured yourself in the past year? We invite you to share your experience by participating in a quick online study to learn more about people’s...
    uwyoresearcher uwyoresearcher 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    Selfie here, selfie there, here selfie there selfie everywhere a selfie. Hahahaha (;
    ForeverYoung09 ForeverYoung09 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    since the age of 12 i have self harmed, i have a lot of scars and i regret them all but i still cant help but cut myself, however i used to do it daily and now its once a week or...
    fantasycaver fantasycaver 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 2

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    It's confusing. I don't consider my selfish but I get angry and upset when I drop my own personal issues to help any of my close friends with their problems. I can seriously bring...
    WeldingPenguin WeldingPenguin 18-21, M Aug 3

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    I'm not telling my story in this expirence or why I started to self harm, because to be quite honest I don't think I'm ready for that yet. I will only be sharing my expirence with...
    suicidegetout suicidegetout 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    I didn't want to add this to my experiences because I don't think it's important for everyone who sees my profile to know I self-harm. But I do think it's important to open up to...
    sarahslytherin sarahslytherin 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    I don't feel like having my name on here incase someone I know is reading this, but I'm a 15 year old Australian. and I self mutilate. The Sunday before I went back to school I...
    bonedecay bonedecay 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 7

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    What i do for others is a caring thing. I am a selfless person. It doesn't mean I'm arrogant and boast it off to others. I take pride in my selfless quality, because it is uncommon...
    gugly14 gugly14 13-15, F Aug 11

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    The only reason I don't have confidence in myself anymore is because of a quote I believe is true, "Forget self-esteem, learn self-control." It is one of the many quotes I live by...
    JohnBobMac JohnBobMac 16-17, T 1 Response Aug 12

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    Lack of confidence and low self esteem...I've had low self esteem and confidence as long as i can remember... I think i was born with it...I've never believed in myself and don't...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    "If it is detrimental to you emotionally, physically and spiritually… what choice do you have left but to let go and flourish with self-respect." — Dodinsky
    lovingRIZA lovingRIZA 51-55, F a week ago

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    #selfie lol I love taking selfies but I hate the girls that go overboard and take like 1000 selfies a day :/ like seriously go away haha
    Karianne6614 Karianne6614 16-17, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a...
    CemoneDC CemoneDC 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I live alone. Have a few number of friends. Don't have family close by. No boyfriend/ children. My only responsibility is my flat. I have to be tight/frugal with my money because...
    lilygeorge12 lilygeorge12 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    Well more like I want to be comfortable in my own body. I really want to be able to take my clothes off and not be self conscious in front of people. Like in the locker room for...
    maria20144 maria20144 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    I started self harming when I was 6. The older I got the worst it was. I cut, burn, and sometimes I would even set parts of my arm on fire. I don't do it as much anymore. I only...
    MgkLez96 MgkLez96 18-21, F Aug 2

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    I love taking selfies...haha I'm to gorgeous not to take a selfie ;)
    Rayven1997 Rayven1997 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 3

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    I have been thinking about receiving psychotherapy for months now regarding my emotional instability and attitudes toward myself and my environment. I constantly feel disconnected...
    pflz91 pflz91 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 3

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    I don't like calling single person pictures selfies anymore.. It's just WAY over used.. I'm calling them self portraits. #Waterbugs. 👌
    HayellsDorion HayellsDorion 13-15, F Aug 4

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