I Am a Self Hating Homosexual

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    kinda but not really.

    not in the ways others think. but I do wish I was straight or bisexual. because if I were, I wouldn't have to deal with homophobic concepts being reinforced by other lesbians and gays that isolate me and make me hate myself. because if I were straight, I'd still get to call...
    Emzies Emzies
    18-21
    1 Response Dec 19, 2015

    Well

    well, im here for all the same reasons you guys are..and the title of this whole page kinda gives it away so i aint gunna explain myself. yeah im a self hating gay, i hate being gay, i hate gays, i hate the scene, and basically i dont actually know what to do. its not really an...
    russdy russdy
    18-21
    6 Responses Sep 19, 2010

    Well, I am 19. I have been out

    for almost 2 years and I have had a girlfriend for over a year. But I can't help but hate myself I hate who I am and that I love her. I don't want to leave her. But I feel like god hates me and I am going to Hell for the way I feel. But I can't change it I have tried... Any...
    shaunaleigh77 shaunaleigh77
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 23, 2014

    25 Years Of Existence...

    Hi. I just discovered today this website and I find it interesting and helpful to many people including me, hoping to share my experience and others will learn from it and I as well from you guys. I am an "open" and simple homosexual to start with. Open because i grew up being...
    Domzhie Domzhie
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Aug 24, 2013

    I Don't Want to Be Gay

    i really don't, i want a wife and kids and i want to make love to my wife. i was normal and i didn't want to be attracted to guys. it makes me sad and i feel so alone. when i was in 8th grade i was molested and ever since i have been attracted to guys. i hate it, and i hate...
    lostandconfusedguy lostandconfusedguy
    16-17
    13 Responses Nov 4, 2008

    I Am A Flaming Homosexual.

    I hate homosexuals but I just love men so ******* much.  I keep trying to stop but its just so addicting.  I am such a weak person for not being able to control myself.  **** it, I LOVE MEN.
    poppintags08 poppintags08
    18-21, M
    6 Responses Feb 19, 2010

    I Hate Wat I Feel ...

     i really wish i was different. I dont like wat i feel is against my personal beliefs.. but sometimes i feel like its really hard to control wat i feel. Why cant i just be normal ?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 26, 2010

    Ever Since I Came Out...

    I have not been able to let go of all of this guilt for being gay. Right after I came out, I felt this really numb, neutral pit starting to well up in the middle in my chest. Essentially, my attraction to men has, like, diminished a lot. My attraction to women did not go up...
    neutralreaction neutralreaction
    18-21
    5 Responses Jan 5, 2012

    My Parents Hate Me

    Before I came out of the closet I was their pride and joy: they bragged about me to their friends, they told me they loved me ten times a day and they showered me in affection. When I did come out, they couldn't believe it-- I'm "too beautiful to be a lesbian!" Now, they berate...
    PrettyLion PrettyLion
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Sep 23, 2013

    My Girlfriend Is

    My girlfriend really is sort of hating the fact that she's homosexual. Not because she doesn't like homosexuals or something. She just hates all the stereotypes that are sticked to her. And she hates women. She thinks women are more attractive, but in the end men are a lot easier...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jul 18, 2007

    Uncanny Queer

    I don't even know if this is the right way to put the way I feel towards my sexuality. I don't hate myself. I actually respect myself alot, almost too much. I just hate the fact that I have nothing in common with most homosexuals. I don't go to clubs every weekend, I don't listen...
    CatalystReverie CatalystReverie
    26-30, M
    9 Responses Aug 10, 2007

    I have been out of the closet

    for many years and i cannot shake this self-hatred of being gay. i hate being gay yet at the same time i know it is who i am and there is nothing wrong with it. Being gay is like being left handed--yet still there is this lingering hatred for being gay. Maybe it was ingrained in...
    jasoncry jasoncry
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Jan 18

    Uncertainty About My Sexuality

    Hey.. First of all it felt so good that i found out that im not the only one wgo struggles.. Im 16 years of age and i've struggled for the last few years since i was oriented into these homosexual temptations.. And its so hard.. Im still struggling to fight it.. Sometimes it just...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jan 18, 2013

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