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I Am a Self Hating Homosexual

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    25 Years Of Existence... - Hi. I just discovered today this website and I find it interesting and helpful to many people including me, hoping to share my experience and others will...
    Domzhie Domzhie 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 24, 2013

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    I Hate Wat I Feel ... -  i really wish i was different. I dont like wat i feel is against my personal beliefs.. but sometimes i feel like its really hard to control wat i feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 26, 2010

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    Uncertainty About My Sexuality - Hey.. First of all it felt so good that i found out that im not the only one wgo struggles.. Im 16 years of age and i've struggled for the last few...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 18, 2013

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    Uncanny Queer - I don't even know if this is the right way to put the way I feel towards my sexuality. I don't hate myself. I actually respect myself alot, almost too much. I just...
    CatalystReverie CatalystReverie 26-30, M 9 Responses Aug 10, 2007

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    Well - well, im here for all the same reasons you guys are..and the title of this whole page kinda gives it away so i aint gunna explain myself. yeah im a self hating gay, i hate...
    russdy russdy 18-21 2 Responses Sep 19, 2010

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    I Don't Want to Be Gay - i really don't, i want a wife and kids and i want to make love to my wife. i was normal and i didn't want to be attracted to guys. it makes me sad and i...
    lostandconfusedguy lostandconfusedguy 16-17 9 Responses Nov 4, 2008

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    Ever Since I Came Out... - I have not been able to let go of all of this guilt for being gay. Right after I came out, I felt this really numb, neutral pit starting to well up in...
    neutralreaction neutralreaction 18-21 2 Responses Jan 5, 2012

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    I Am A Flaming Homosexual. - I hate homosexuals but I just love men so ******* much.  I keep trying to stop but its just so addicting.  I am such a weak person for not...
    poppintags08 poppintags08 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 19, 2010

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    Well, I am 19. I have been out for almost 2 years and I have had a girlfriend for over a year. But I can't help but hate myself I hate who I am and that I love her. I don't want to...
    shaunaleigh77 shaunaleigh77 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    My Girlfriend Is - My girlfriend really is sort of hating the fact that she's homosexual. Not because she doesn't like homosexuals or something. She just hates all the stereotypes...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 18, 2007

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    That night I was scrolling through tumblr. I recently searched up the words skinny, thigh gap, anorexia, collar bones, death, self harm,....etc. I decided I would film what goes...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm sitting here with a letter opener hating the fact that this seems like a ploy for attention... but I just want to feel pain. After all, shouldn't I? If I can't feel good, pain...
    PhantomOfThePopera PhantomOfThePopera 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I can go from being in a rare good mood to hating myself again just by seeing my scars. It just makes me want to cut myself again. I stopped cutting on my arms and starting...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    when I look in the mirror...... I've never been told I was pretty, over the years I've never been given a reason to think i was beautiful, pretty, or anywhere near it, but people...
    musiclover122 musiclover122 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    The Person who brought me into This world is beautiful-she is also very shallow. She judges everyone and everything on the basis of looks and beauty. Pretty is pathetic, damn you...
    lolaMyheqrt lolaMyheqrt 18-21, F Apr 8

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    For you (many, girls), who cut yourselves. Please remember that some of us love you, care about you. ----- Food for thought (an article from Psychology Today) ----- Sax on Sex...
    Karll Karll 56-60, M 1 Response Mar 29

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    I self harm. I've been self harming since i was 11 years old i am now 14 and i am slowly starting to recover. A year ago i attempted suicide and nearly succeed, but my best mate...
    jayspiller1 jayspiller1 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Have you ever felt like your driving force in your mind made a bad turn? You off the right road and somehow got lost? Negative self talk can do damage to self esteem. It can have...
    aries3296 aries3296 46-50, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    It started when I was 10 or 11. Things were going badly at home and I was struggling with undiagnosed depression and anxiety. I'd cut to relieve my anxiety and keep me calm, to...
    skinnylittlewrists skinnylittlewrists 16-17, F Mar 31

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    I don't know where to begin when It comes to my experience with self harm. I started cutting when I was 13, the first time I had ever self harmed was in my bathroom with a large...
    musicforthemorningafter musicforthemorningafter 13-15, F Apr 7

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    What is the journey of self discovery? How do you know when you've reached it? I don't believe you do know when you've reached it. The journey of self discovery is life. We get so...
    LaughLoveLiveHope LaughLoveLiveHope 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I always had a fairly healthy self worth. So I thought..I realised I was in denial. I always imagined that the reason people dont seem to care about me is because of some failure...
    xSCARx xSCARx 26-30, F Mar 18

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    I an not your typical "self harmer." For most people, when they think of self harm they think of razors and wrists and wearing long sleeves to cover it up. I am not that person. I...
    harperm97 harperm97 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    Soo I don't have a name for it... But yeahh Anger is a sign of depression they say that with alittle treatment you'll be okay. But one day when everything is gone and black and...
    olivias78 olivias78 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 23

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    Truth is I don't think I've ever had any Self Esteem or Confidence. I say that only because looking back throughout my life I cannot recall a time where I was truly okay with being...
    needinganescape needinganescape 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Selfies is addiction. I haven't taken so much picture in my life now I have seen my photos its around 300 of myself lol wtf . Most nights when I'm out with friends I usually take...
    billyaldo billyaldo 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    I don’t care about people properly. I won’t give in to it. There are people who matter to me, but the moments where I feel like I’d do anything for them are rare and...
    Ridiculousity Ridiculousity 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I did it. I finally called a helpline about my self harm and depression problems and I'm so proud of myself. I then told my brother. I had cut that afternoon, but it was a bad one...
    writercookies writercookies 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I believe that without selfishness world can become a better place. That includes the corruption and stuffs like that. Don't act like you own things that you really don't. Don't...
    yuichie yuichie 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Every person has dealt with low self-esteem and so have I. It’s not the best feeling in the world, but it’s not that bad either. The way we value ourselves is a hard thing to...
    BeingAnAnglophile BeingAnAnglophile 16-17, F 4 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Every day, I grip my penknife tightly, sighing in relief as the blade cuts through my flesh, smiling as the blood drips from the cut, staining my skin crimson red, relieving me of...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I have been in a long distance relationship for over 5 years now. It was instant love when we spent our first summer together. We absolutely clicked! Being 1000 miles apart and...
    cynic44 cynic44 22-25, F Mar 18

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    I recently found out one of my friends self-harm, although i do finding out she did was a big shocker. She just dropped it on me as well! She showed me the marks on her and I asked...
    xcircusfreak xcircusfreak 13-15, F Mar 19

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    It's been about 4 months since I've self harmed. I have been self harming since I was 12 and I'm 20 now. Although it's been 4 months I struggle everyday not to harm. Cutting and...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Self pity it's just such a waste of time. I am tired of it, and I really have no room for this in my life. I am pushing myself out of this nasty little self pity ditch I have...
    QueenAwesomePants QueenAwesomePants 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    I like to look good. Take pride in your outer self and your inner self will reciprocate. The reverse is true as well
    lujocin lujocin 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 21

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    ***May be triggering i don't know*** Some of my story (sorry it's kinda long) I've been bullied since I moved in grade one. I'm used to it to tell the truth. I found out last...
    Darkerthanlightash Darkerthanlightash 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    Highly! I don't agree with girls that act loose, in order to comfort themselves and feel love by a male, when really they are making themselves feel worse, sleeping around leads to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 22

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    Throughout my entire life, I've struggled with self esteem. From childhood through my sophomore year in college, I was always teased and was the main topic for everyone's cruel and...
    Paul1538 Paul1538 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    So for the past month I've planned this spring break trip with my parents and two of my best friends. We've been shopping for clothes and sandals and beach necessities. Now 4 days...
    blackxrosexyuuki blackxrosexyuuki 18-21, F Mar 25

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    I used to self harm last year. I'm starting to have those feelings and I really want to go back to the blade. Call me crazy. I don't care. But one thing that stops me doing so. My...
    HydroChronexia HydroChronexia 13-15, F Mar 26

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    I hate my self harm scars. I can't wear any shorts that I used to. They aren't so big or so many of them. But their all white and I don't know what to do. I don't want to tell my...
    anetteton anetteton 13-15, F Mar 26

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    I hate my self harm scars. I can't wear any shorts that I used to. They aren't so big or so many of them. But their all white and I don't know what to do. I don't want to tell my...
    anetteton anetteton 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    This is what someone else posted on FB: "Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up...
    phoebegolde phoebegolde 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I started self-harming at the age of 12 years old, but it didn't turn into a problem, or serious enough to remember till I was about 13 years old or so. I was in a dark place at...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I took this selfie today before I left, I love selfiessss. 😜👌
    ImChelsea ImChelsea 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 28

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    Selfies. My selfie game is strong. 😘
    VictoriaHall VictoriaHall 13-15, F Mar 29

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    I self harm. Ill admit it. No I wasn't raped (that is sad though. If that has happened to you I'm sorry) No I'm not bullied or abused. I'm not writing this to get sympathy. I just...
    blackbird96 blackbird96 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    I am selfish. I know this. And I'm very proud of it too. My bf, he's mine, no one else can have him. No one else will have him but me. same goes for my best friends. They are MINE...
    Blissfulkissofdeath Blissfulkissofdeath 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 2

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    I have never had much self confidence cos I been bullyed my hole life but now it that bad that I want go out the house/my room in less am taking my dog out for a walk or going to...
    scottishbigguy scottishbigguy 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    I really lack self confidence since i moved my school (i was in a girls only school now im in a school For boy and girls) i lost my self confidence bec boys there just make fun of...
    Nari99 Nari99 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7