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I Am a Self Injurer

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    First - Well. For the first time, I cut somewhere other than my left arm. I got a disgusting amount of pleasure from feeling the blood slowly drip down my right leg. I'm so scared...
    calcgirl calcgirl 18-21, F Jul 6, 2013

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    My Sh Diary-day 28 - DAY 28 What short-term goals do you have? I've actually made some long-term goals. Finally I decided what do I want to study and do in my life. I try to make...
    kj666 kj666 18-21, F Mar 3, 2013

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    A Never Ending Battle. - It feels like I'll never be able to quit. It feels like this is going to affect me for my whole life. It's an addiction. I hate it. I hate myself for it...
    Kitcat122 Kitcat122 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    No One Ever Hears My Side. - I'm always the bad guy, I am the one who screws up, No one even considers hearing my side. and this is why i do what i do. This is why i think the way...
    battlefighter battlefighter 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2013

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    16 Years Old, Selfharmer For 3-4 Years, 3 Months Clean; But I Feel The Urge Again. - I've been having terrible nightmares lately. I'm stressed with school and work. I'm tired and...
    wastedpaint wastedpaint 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

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    Getting Help? - I have been cutting for 3 years now and I have finally been caught. My parents finally noticed and freaked. Now, I;m going to a therapist and I'm absolutely...
    gabs4help gabs4help 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 30, 2013

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    I've started cutting again. And it just makes me feel relaxed and stress free. My boyfriend hates me for it but at this point I don't really care what he thinks. He says I need...
    cassiemae115 cassiemae115 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 5

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    Start With Something Easy - I will blow up if I don't tell someone about myself. So, let me start It all started easy. I wanted to forget a guy who I've been crushing for some time...
    ngl123 ngl123 13-15 Mar 14, 2013

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    Waiting Till Midnight - I havent cut myself in a long time.I havent burt myself in even longer.But tonight i think it might happen because the alternative to cutting is much worse...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    I Ask One Thing. - Chances are we've never met. Still, I'm writing because I hope to help you feel better. I know things are hard for you though, and that the stress is sometimes...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    Matches And Razors - Being an on and off cutter for 2 years, I just recently started playing with fire, literally. The first time, I used matches. I let them cool down quite a bit...
    lilypad99 lilypad99 18-21 Aug 28, 2012

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    A Cutters Lullaby - Let’s go to sleep; Close our eyes, And dream of broken butterflies That tore their wings against a thorn. We know the pain that they have borne. Silver metal...
    fall3n fall3n 18-21, F Jul 29, 2013

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    I Will Not Stop. - I've been cutting for 3 years and I don't want to stop until it kills me.
    bleedingstars bleedingstars 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2013

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    I Want To Stop. But I Dont - i was clean for a year. no more cuts...scars started fully healing. and it all went away now im back to who i used to be. i feel sick and twisted from...
    kaidaRen kaidaRen 18-21, F Jul 27, 2013

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    And I don't see what is wrong with it. I've been doing it since I was 10. I stopped for a few years after a couple visits to the looney bin. They made me feel like it was some...
    DigitalBlue DigitalBlue 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    Clean And Sober - clean and sober for 145 days. after my suicide attempt and 3rd stay in the hospital im clean. i realized that what my mom did really had an impact on me but i...
    Hunterjumperctr Hunterjumperctr 13-15, F Aug 27, 2013

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    My Story - I've been self harming since I was 10 years old. I'm now 22. It started out small like giving myself paper cuts on purpose. Then it got worse. I started taking apart...
    animalwatcher22 animalwatcher22 22-25, F Jun 10, 2013

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    I Love To Cut. - Cold shiny blade. Hot rushes under the skin. When the cold touches the hot, opposites attract. The metal kisses my pale wrist, and glides smoothly down. Red rubies...
    PolarBearMel PolarBearMel 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I cut when I was a teenager, stopped for several years, started again when I was older, haven't cut in 6 months now, but the urges are really bad today
    Wi5huponastar Wi5huponastar 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    I love the pain when I cut. The razor cutting into my skin. I am addicted to self harm. I stopped for a few months but recently my Aunty passed away and I got the urge to self harm...
    HC12345 HC12345 16-17, F Feb 11

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    Dear You, Love Me - *This is something i went through with my mom figure, My veiw & thoughts of that horrible day* It was a normal day, I always talk to you before I get off the...
    ProudByChoice ProudByChoice 13-15, F Feb 28, 2013

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    Oh, So You Are One Of Those People. - I recently started a new job. In a profession I am completely unfamiliar. One that involves interacting with the general public, and also...
    jro2729 jro2729 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 24, 2013

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    Red Wrists - I cut. There I said it. If anyone knew I would be hated. Everyone thinks I am happy. Look on my wrists and you will see I am not. I am knew to this, and I dont do it...
    OnyxBlack OnyxBlack 16-17, F 1 Response May 19, 2013

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    Again - A year and half ago I started. Six months ago I stopped. Tonight I started again. Tonight I couldn't feel anything. What if this never ends?
    BaritoneBassClef BaritoneBassClef 16-17, F Aug 18, 2013

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    It'S A Shame... - Yesterday i went out to eat with my boyfriend and his family. It was a warm spring day, i wanted to wear a skirt and a cute shirt to go with it. But the cuts on...
    xSummerofBiohazardx xSummerofBiohazardx 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 17, 2013

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    This sucks, There's not much other way to say it. In the past few months, I've convinced everyone around me that I'm so much better. I don't deserve my friends, they deserve...
    MizuNiatora MizuNiatora 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    I'm Used To Pain. - since I can remember I've been told getting angry at others is not going to accomplish anything and good boys don't hit back. so I didn't no my release was more...
    magpiejack magpiejack 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 23, 2013

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    I Need Tips - hey, my name is jessica and i just started cutting, and i need tips any one have any for me?
    ana37 ana37 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 7, 2013

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    Just One More Cut - Everyday i ask myself where is my razor? Is there somewhere i can go to hide and get away? Where would i cut? I have been cutting for some time...
    xSummerofBiohazardx xSummerofBiohazardx 18-21, F Mar 5, 2013

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    Razor Blade Lullaby - Razor blade, razor blade Sing me a song Soothe my pain Although clearly it’s wrong The thoughts in my head Just won’t go away So please I need you...
    fall3n fall3n 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2013

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    I love the feeling of my blade. I resist the urge to feel my pain. I want so bad to make it real. But, I know Its not good to feel. I dig myself a shallow grave, and pretend it's...
    soitskindoflikeadiary soitskindoflikeadiary 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    My Story - So here's my story.  My name is Rob, I'm 19, and the last time I cut myself was about a month ago.  It was after I had felt like I had failed at trying to save a...
    SpeakOutMediaGroup SpeakOutMediaGroup 18-21, M Jun 5, 2012

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    My Self Injury Story - I started self injuring the summer of 2003. I was 12 years old. I was bullied throughout the 5th and 6th grade which caused me to become very depressed and...
    AlexDreamsItAway AlexDreamsItAway 22-25 1 Response Oct 8, 2013

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    I love the buzz I get when the razor dogs in...
    cassiemae115 cassiemae115 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    Poem - She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. A razor is her paintbrush and her body is her canvas. She paints her pretty picture in a color that's...
    Lostlover848 Lostlover848 18-21, F Mar 22, 2013

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    I see those girls at school all the time. The ones who scratch their arms, wear short-sleeved shirt, then claim to have depression just to get attention. There are millions of...
    PolicyDebateKicksAff PolicyDebateKicksAff 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    To Help You Understand - Why do people self harm? There are a few possibilities, and the answer is probably a mixture of them. Biological predisposition, reduction of tension, and...
    AlyShine AlyShine 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    Me. - at first i cut myself because this girl in my class did it and i wanted to know what about it felt so good. after i tried it i felt a kind of rush seeing all the blood...
    dyinglittlebylittle dyinglittlebylittle 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 9, 2011

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    A Few Thoughts On Self Injury. - As I write this, I am sitting at the desk in my student accommodation bedroom. The bedroom paid for me by the government. I'm drinking the wine...
    Alora44 Alora44 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    Just Another Story... - I'm really sorry, I don't speak english very well because I'm french so it won't be perfect. I'm a transgender of 18 years. I've self-harmed about 4 years...
    Jordanoulamant Jordanoulamant 18-21, T 2 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    My Self-Harming, And The Reasoning Behind It. - I recently went through two bad break-ups that have been a major reason behind my scars. I have family issues that i suffer from 24...
    maddierosee maddierosee 22-25, F Sep 25, 2013

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    New Support Site! - A site made by mental health sufferers that offers support to people struggling with various mental health issues. It has just been made so it hasn’t gotten...
    AlexDreamsItAway AlexDreamsItAway 22-25 1 Response Oct 10, 2013

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    "Made Of Scars" This one came from looking This one opened twice These two seem as smooth as silk, flush against my eyes This one needed stitches and This one came from rings This...
    xxMsLedxx xxMsLedxx 41-45, F Dec 7, 2013

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    My Sh Diary-day 30 - DAY 30 Post your favorite picture of yourself and write a positive message to look back on. So this the last day...at the beginning I wondered how it will...
    kj666 kj666 18-21, F Mar 4, 2013

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    Your Own Happy Ending - Its tough. It seems no one understands and guess what? Most won't understand. For most it is unthinkable to even place a blade to ones skin. Unthinkable to...
    drakneko drakneko 22-25, T 1 Response Oct 19, 2013

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    Terrified - On Friday my best friend told my guidance counsellor that I have been cutting. She didn't tell me that she was going to tell her, so it freaked me out when Mrs. C came...
    Kaptinkat Kaptinkat 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    I have been struggling with self injury for the past 3 years now... I feel like I should be "over it" by now, but the urges are always there. Whether it be stress that causes it...
    Stargirlml Stargirlml 18-21, F Mar 5

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    My Life - Hi everyone i am 14 years old turning 15 soon. I am a Freshman in high school. Im depressed. When i was 8 years old i lost my grandmother. I was very close to her we did...
    PurplePuzzle PurplePuzzle 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2013

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    Fear. Worry. Guilt - So I'm just going to start from the middle, I don't know if I have a beginning and I still haven't found ending. This is going to act as a diary, except other...
    searchingforchrysanthemums searchingforchrysanthemums 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2013

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    Battling An Addiction - I've self harmed for about 3 years. It's been such a hard thing to deal with because I feel like self harm splits you into two different people. There's...
    Ashley12311 Ashley12311 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 16, 2013

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