I Am a Self-harmer

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    I haven't self harmed in a year

    and a half now.... but where my heads at, I can't stop thinking about. I'm so determined to pick a razor up and cut but I know if I do I won't be able to stop.
    courtneyoxo96 courtneyoxo96
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 11, 2015

    after ten years I started cutting again.

    never did it much before just on rare occasions to let off steam... but now after a break up now with PTSD now finished grad school stressed looking for my destiny missing the life I used to know hating the life i have now... I like cutting more than ever. I was so numb I didn...
    DigitalForensicsFox DigitalForensicsFox
    26-30, F
    Mar 26

    Ive been cutting since I was 14.

    I have cut in 3 or more weeks but all I want to do right now is cut. So ******* bad. Ive been drawing on my arm, doing anything that will help me not cut but tonight it feels impossible.
    monstertrainwreck monstertrainwreck
    18-21, F
    Nov 22, 2015
    lanybugg17 lanybugg17
    16-17, F
    Mar 14

    I cut. I burn myself too.

    I punch trees and then my dad asks me if I got in a fight. I simply shake my head and he forgets he ever saw. Burning myself and cutting is easier to hide.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 13, 2015

    I honestly like it...

    But I hate it...
    AnasFailure AnasFailure
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Oct 19, 2014

    I tell myself everyday

    that I'm pretty but I just don't believe myself so I take all the anger out on my body.
    bribra1091 bribra1091
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2015

    I have been clean from harming

    for 6 months, then stuff popped out of nowhere, college, family, relationships. Sat night it all finally came out and I cried for hours and I punched my face over and over, now Iv a black, swollen eye :/
    AddyRose AddyRose
    22-25, F
    Dec 14, 2015

    Sadly it might not seem like I am

    but I am there's more to me than being me Loving this Little poem I feel dumb for doing things like this
    NOETHEDOLL NOETHEDOLL
    13-15, M
    1 Response Mar 5, 2015

    #day7 So I may have touched on this before

    but today (in dept) I'm going to explain self harm because nobody really gets it unless you do it and its not something I want anybody to start. We describe ourselves as numb and frozen. We have these moments of loneliness and sadness which we can't control and every thought is...
    shadowgem shadowgem
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 20, 2014

    I feel like slicing my arm up,

    it's been too long..
    MellowStoner07 MellowStoner07
    18-21
    Nov 4, 2015

    Started self harming about 8 months ago,

    i go to GP for anxiety but she doesnt know about SH
    dogzrunning dogzrunning
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 2
    frxitbat frxitbat
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 16

    I punch myself. A lot.

    Usually on my arms. Once I get into it I can actually hit quite hard. Often I'll just focus on one spot and hit it repeatedly. After a while the bruises start to show, but I like bruises so I almost never try to hide them. Sometimes instead of the arms I'll punch myself in the...
    ZeroShadow ZeroShadow
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 12

    A Poem To Comfort Self Harmers :)

    I knew a girl who liked to draw, She drew pictures that nobody saw. She was most artistic at night, In her bathroom, Out of sight. She didn't tell a soul and her gallery grew. Her drawings were different, No pencil or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the...
    EmilyPop28 EmilyPop28
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2013

    So it's been a long time

    since I cut for the last time(I think it was last year when I last cut myself) but today everything went from bad to worse I was so under pressure that the only way that I could vent it was cutting my arm! Once i started I couldn't stop! I'm feeling frustrated now I was clean...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Aug 12, 2015

    Relapsing is the best

    and worse thing. It finally gives you that release but then you feel like complete and utter crap after
    darkfairy98 darkfairy98
    18-21, F
    Jul 12, 2015

    I cut myself today ,

    and I had been clean for about a week I think </3
    AmandizzLove06 AmandizzLove06
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 18, 2015

    So....when my parents found out

    that I cut myself....they just kept making me feel even worse with all those questions of why I did that...and since i´m adopted they make me feel so ungrateful and miserable for being depressed and self harming....so I said I was going to stop and that they shouldn´t worry...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 15, 2015

    I am a cutter and I am trying to quit

    but when I finally stop something brings me back to square one. Sometimes I want to give up and die. I need help! Please help me!
    Bleedingwrist Bleedingwrist
    13-15, F
    Feb 25

    I've just done it. All over,

    my legs, arms, chest, stomach, hips and sides. I can't just "talk" either because the person I thought I could didn't bother to answer. In not going to send more than one message because it is rude and I have and anxiety disorder and I might be annoying them then they won't ever...
    Randompi Randompi
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Nov 10, 2015

    I've been wanting to cut

    for sooo long but I've been clean for about 6 months now. As much as I love the feeling I really shouldn't because 6 months is a great accomplishment I think :) it's just that sometimes my wrist would ache as if it was telling me to slide that blade across the skin...
    frxitbat frxitbat
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 5, 2015

    I just took the max dose of max strength Tylenol

    and now I'm probably going to cut... oh well I never wanted to have a life anyways...
    saigebeck101 saigebeck101
    13-15, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2015

    Maybe You Know Her

    Theres this girl...you may know her. Theres something you won't know just by looking at her though. She has a secret... You may ask what it is? She self injures. Just look at her scarred arms, they say everything, she doesn't need to say a word. Shes the kind of girl you wouldn't...
    TragedyxInxWaiting TragedyxInxWaiting
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 22, 2011

    I confessed to my mom

    that I cut. I just really wanted things to get better and nothing was gonna get better without me saying something. I haven't even thought about cutting today. I want to make that every day. So hopefully today will be one day clean.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Apr 19, 2015
    haircutluv haircutluv
    31-35, F
    Apr 4

    I AM Going To STOP

    Tonight I cut again. But afterwards... I felt so horrible. I knew what I was doing and that it wasn't and isn't the answer to anything. The relief I have gotten from cutting made me feel so much better.. But in reality it's just making everything so much worse. Cutting will ruin...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 30, 2013

    I want to start cutting again.

    . I've been clean for about 6 months now.
    Piercedprincess17 Piercedprincess17
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 14, 2015

    Crimson red fills the bowl

    and I think I'm going to be sick. With every thing spinning so fast I cannot breath. Walls closing in and everything fades. Flashes of light come by, one, by one. Feeling sleepy not knowing your name. Not knowing mine. There it is. my favorite thing of all this, ah the...
    Bleedingwrist Bleedingwrist
    13-15, F
    Feb 29

    My friends are all on a night out,

    I backed out last minute cos Im not feeling up to it, and now I'm sitting here fighting the urges to cut. I feel like an absolute hypocrite cos I tell people everyday not to self harm and not to commit suicide, but that's coming from someone who self harms and has attempted...
    DreamsOfDrowning DreamsOfDrowning
    18-21, F
    Jan 11

    after ten years I started cutting again.

    never did it much before just on rare occasions to let off steam... but now after a break up now with PTSD now finished grad school stressed looking for my destiny missing the life I used to know hating the life i have now... I like cutting more than ever. I was so numb I didn...
    DigitalForensicsFox DigitalForensicsFox
    26-30, F
    Mar 26

    I cut again...and it was great.

    but now I just wanna curl up and cry myself to death.
    eAngeliqueXX eAngeliqueXX
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jan 6

    I have self harmed for many many months,

    but recently I have going interest in a guy for other class he will talk to me but I can't talk to him I just stare at him with puppy dog eyes and I need help learning to flirt and talk to him. Can anyone help??
    hatehatehate14 hatehatehate14
    13-15, F
    Nov 17, 2015

    My self harm song/poem: "Two Drawers

    Down" Two drawers down I hear music That plays all night long Really sad songs All about me and you Two drawers down there's a devil He serves 'em real strong You know, here lately That's how I make it through Two drawers down there's a sadness That once was my...
    iSceneGirl iSceneGirl
    13-15, F
    Sep 27, 2015

    I feel like cutting right

    now I've put it off for about five or ten min but I feel like I'm going to do it .:(
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Aug 16, 2015

    I've been cutting since I was 13.

    I've always felt alone and felt the pain. I'm now 18 and I'm still have the urges to cut everyday. I just want to not feel alone all the time.
    ShawnaMae ShawnaMae
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 2, 2015

    It's been almost two weeks

    and I don't think o can fight the urge much longer.
    lanybugg17 lanybugg17
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jan 17

    Isnt it crazy how cutting ends up like an

    addiction? you want to stop but it makes you feel better when you feel like ****?
    KilljoysandMisfits KilljoysandMisfits
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jun 12, 2015

    I've been self harming intentionally

    for nearly ten years. I used to have issues a long time ago before self harming that caused me to hurt myself, but I don't count those days. Why? Well, I was too young to know what I was doing back then. Sometimes I would cut myself with a razor because I felt the need to, or...
    briddybear briddybear
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 17

    I've been harming myself

    for almost as long as I've been alive. The first memory I have is at age 4. I took a pair of scissors and cut straight through my lip. When I was young, it was generally hitting things/myself, scratching and ripping my hair out. By the time I was 10, I was cutting myself...
    Amdust Amdust
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 5, 2015
    LouisW2571 LouisW2571
    13-15, M
    1 Response Sep 22, 2015

    Relapse I close the door And sit on the side of

    the tub I pull up my sleeve And across my scars I rub My heart is beating fast But my mind is reacting slow I could make a few cuts And nobody would ever know My hands are cold But my face is burning hot I’m afraid if I start again I won’t be able to stop My legs bounce up...
    darebearsworld darebearsworld
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2015

    I had this horrible nightmare last night,

    where everyone found out I self harmed. I was basically shunned and then locked away in a padded room. It's actually made me terrified, considering I've had many many people question lately why I 'wear so many bracelets'. Also, I've had a girl in my class ask me more than once...
    WarriorWannabe WarriorWannabe
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

    Want This , But Apparently Nobody Likes A Girl

    With Scars . We're "Attention Seekers" & "Emo" . 😒
    Piercedprincess17 Piercedprincess17
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 18, 2014

    I hate this emptiness,

    i hate this pain i feel, i hate not being strong enough to talk about my problems and i hate that i turned to a blade to take the pain away, it just hurts, why is my life so messed up
    ColdHeartedDungeonBat ColdHeartedDungeonBat
    18-21, F
    Nov 22, 2015

    I am a cutter... I have been

    for a while now I deal with depression and I get bullied a lot at school like it was mostly everyday. I've been trying to fight it and I am doing pretty good I would say... But yea I just hope everyone that's a cutter is ok and can be as strong as me... So if your a self harmer...
    smilethroughit55 smilethroughit55
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2014

    For three years I had continuesly cut my skin

    at Age 13 I made my first cut by 16 I have had eleven hospitalizations four out patient programs several stitches and a body etched with scars currently I have been clean of the cuttin for three months round it's really hard and I often feel like giving up and self harming...
    breeze987 breeze987
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 9, 2015
    frxitbat frxitbat
    16-17, F
    Oct 20, 2015

    Hey...don't ignore this,

    just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal with it and how are you going to feel?Then refocus your goals,is giving up that easy?The relief that comes from self-harming...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 24

    i will always self harm.

    i will never get better
    Ohanablue Ohanablue
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Jan 18

    I don't know how long I've been clean

    and I think that's good. Don't count your days because you might convince yourself that "oh it's just 3 days, you can start over again! 3 days is short" no.
    kath12321 kath12321
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 19, 2014

    I used to self harm for

    so long until a friend of mine noticed and freaked out and started crying. I stopped for a while but I'm afraid I'm starting again.
    sammilion sammilion
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 6, 2015

    Hiya, i'm Gavin, i like to help others with

    depression/self-harm, so if you want a friend message me :)
    GavinP GavinP
    16-17, M
    Jun 29, 2015

    I found another pencil sharpener.

    I unscrewed the razor. I just cut again. The blood is everywhere. Now I gotta clean up. Cutting feels really good mentally. It helps.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Apr 16, 2015

    Almost a year clean and I don't know

    if today is he day that I break my progress. I can't go through this pain again
    LittleGypsyy LittleGypsyy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 23, 2015

    So hard not to do it.

    I never know when I will surrender to the temptation. It makes me feel like I have control over myself but is really just a loss of control.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 9

    I started cutting myself at 14 1/2.

    My boyfriend at the time would touch me, in places where I didn't wanna be touched. Every time I told him to stop, he would get mad and not talk to me for a couple of hours. Cutting was my way of releasing the pain, of my life and him. I got bullied all my life, and it wouldn't...
    Tanequa11 Tanequa11
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 11, 2014
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