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I Am a Sociopath

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    I do try to be nice. follow the code this world

    has given me. but i just cant keep up. faking smiles and emotions to friends and family. i don't know how to deal with it all. i do try though. i was diagnosed at 19 with antisocial personality disorder and now my doctor tells me i am sociopathy or however it is spelled. i go to...
    danielfrost1995 danielfrost1995 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 21

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    A Pretty Parasite, Or "Of Course I'm a Nice Person, Now Quit Being Such a Nit and Fetch Me Another Drink."

    To preface, I have antisocial personality disorder and borderline personality disorder, and maybe some other stuff, and it makes for an unsettling combination. I have no conscience, no moral code, and no desire for either. My story, if you want to call it that, has to begin at...
    Phage Phage 26-30, F 120 Responses Feb 17, 2009

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    Being Reborn.

    Hello. I am a sociopath. I have known this for a long time, though I had forgotten. I found/find it difficult to cope with sometimes. I hold all of the pros and cons of this fact in my head. I am different. This is good because it means that I am special. I have the potential to...
    Sociopathforabetterfuture Sociopathforabetterfuture 22-25, F 10 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    Strangely, many on here,

    mainly the fakes, see Christianity as inimical to themselves because, as anti-Christian as they may be, they have bought into Christian propaganda to such a degree that they can't see Christianity as a sociopathic faith with a sociopathic deity, and a sociopathic history full of...
    JohnMoreDread JohnMoreDread 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 19

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    I Am A Sociopath - A Coming Out Story.

    Coming out as a sociopath can be akin to coming out as gay to a family full of hard core Christians. There is a lot of stigma attached to being a sociopath. So why do it? As a sociopath you would think I would be more about self preservation. Well this in a sense is self...
    CoiledSnake CoiledSnake 31-35, F 11 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    dp44 dp44 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 21

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    It kind of disgusts me how many emos,

    and depressed attention seekers hashtag their pictures on Instagram under sociopath, psychopath, and aspd. These are the people i'm going to start targeting.
    powershark powershark 13-15, M 2 Responses May 20

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    So I've been extremely nice lately to my overly

    sensitive boyfriend because he keeps complaining about every single thing possible. In return he said I was being cold. I proceeded to show/tell him what cold meant and that what I said only dropped the temperature by 1 degree. He hasn't spoken since. how am I supposed to...
    LalapaloozaChick LalapaloozaChick 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    This Is Another Rant.. About You.

    You people are bothering me. I came to this website to enjoy the experiences of my sociopathic kin and instead I am being pestered by the inane ramblings of the imbecilic. There are 844 people in this group. Out of those people there are 3 categories of people. The sociopathsThe...
    JasonGrayson JasonGrayson 18-21, M 15 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    For many years I refused to believe

    or even accept that I was a psychopath, as I'm a twice diagnosed one. I still have a hard time accepting it, mainly because I feel that being a psychopath or a sociopath is having a flaw, and I can't accept that. I don't have any flaws. Not even the person 'closest' to me could...
    Stythe Stythe 18-21, M 6 Responses Jan 26, 2014

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    Quote of the day from Dexter: That's

    why I liked him, I think. Another guy pretending to be human, just like me.
    VindensSkygge VindensSkygge 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    Maybe I am and maybe I'm not,

    but either way I am better than you.
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 7 Responses Sep 10, 2014

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    Sociopath vs. psychopath,

    an unbiased analysis: Much has been written about the difference (or lack thereof) between sociopaths and psychopaths, and there are a lot of strong opinions based on nothing. There are three schools of thought on the question. I will not here attempt to decide which one is...
    JohnMoreDread JohnMoreDread 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 14

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    I realized that I have the traits of a

    sociopath It doesn't seem like I do since most of you chat with me online, but I do lack social skill in reality. I used to manipulate people in my lies in the past and I was a horrible human being, i could of been worst. I lack sympathy, and from my experiences that some of you...
    pomtonic1109 pomtonic1109 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Personal advice for the young ones.

    There might be spelling or grammatical errors, deal. 1) Golden Rule. These words are the most dangerous ones you can hear having not committed a crime. A danger to yourself and/or others. Read up on the DSM-5 make sure that if you’re ever under scrutiny that you do not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 24, 2014

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    As he looked me in the eye I turned on the

    tears. I don't know where they come from, I can turn them on just as fast. But I've been practicing this one since birth. Cry when you're a baby and you can something... It still works just differently. Not that I'm a crybaby. I don't cry when I should. Like when I broke my ribs...
    SmartVixen SmartVixen 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    I can't feel a damn thing,

    in life I hide it and pretend to care, and end up ******* with people's lives. I'm not depressed or sad, I have fun, but only get off on the pain of others. I could have all the friends in the world and not actually care about a single one of them. I am apparently incapable of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 19

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    A Sociopaths Perfect Valentines Day

    We have all broke up with someone just after a holiday just to get the present but my Best Valentines Day was so much better I worked with this girl named Patty and she was in "love with this guy named Russ. I could not stand Russ but tolerated him because the 3 of us sometimes...
    Justme2387 Justme2387 46-50, F 5 Responses Mar 28, 2013

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    I'm quite fond of her.

    I can be myself and open. raw and bleeding. She wishes I could live in a time where I could do what I covet. She's in love with my mind. even after telling her it wouldn't faze me to lose her for any reason. she looks at me with wonder and curiosity. I like her.
    Mrgone84 Mrgone84 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 9

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    And in my own humble opinion,

    a very good person. If a sociopath is to be moral, more than incidentally, they must base their morality on logic and reason, not on emotion. And morality based on emotion is easily corrupted. There is a book, Ordinary Men, which shows how good people were conditioned to...
    JohnMoreDread JohnMoreDread 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 12

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    Who Believes the Self-confessed Sociopath?

    I don't believe half the people who claim to be sociopaths. I will admit that all who claim that (especially using their real identities) are certainly screwed up individuals. Why should you believe me that I am? Who cares? Just read. The labels really don't matter. Narcissist...
    gewissenlos gewissenlos 26-30, M 142 Responses Jun 14, 2008

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    Ever since I was five,

    I have had a fake personality that charms people into doing what I want. I realized a needed this personality so people didn't get mad at me for saying things that I truly thought. I have told no one(except the internet) that it is not my real personality. I gradually began...
    Lilyfire1 Lilyfire1 13-15, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My girlfriend tells me she doesn't think I love

    her. She says she doesn't "feel" it. I am of the opinion that I do. How can I convince her that this is the case? I want to avoid hurting her, and also avoid putting forth a great deal of effort, or inconveniencing myself if at all possible. What the **** am I supposed to do...
    JohnMoreDread JohnMoreDread 26-30, M 8 Responses Jul 13

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    I think every sociopath should have someone in

    their life with whom they can be themselves with. It's relaxing to shed the charade and just be yourself.
    Sancearay Sancearay 22-25, F 9 Responses Jul 2

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    This Is a Message to All of You

    I've read most of your stories and whatever was in your profiles and I can't begin to understand why most of you wish for a miracle cure. Why do you want to change yourselves? Why not accept who you are? When I signed up to be a part of this group, I thought I...
    LilithSamael LilithSamael 31-35 11 Responses Dec 1, 2008

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    it is fascinating reading how many of you feel

    you have been blessed with Sociopathy, because your cat died and you didnt cry
    canttakephotos canttakephotos 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 21

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    the sex was good. but all I could think about

    was jamming my thumb in her eye socket
    Mrgone84 Mrgone84 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 20

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    Surreal(1)

    I don't lose my patience often. When I do, its abrupt,sudden, a seminal spurt of passion. The affable thing is I can't hold grudges. This flusters me; some people need a pencil sticking out their eye, their tongues stapled. I'm always fragmenting my actions. Perhaps, this arises...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 18, 2013

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    It never stop amazing me how many times you can

    kick a person and they will continue on crawling back for more. It's fascinating to watch. Sometimes I will go and read those stories that go something like : 'I was married to the sociopath and they have destroyed my life and I love them so much why won't they love me back. I...
    CoiledSnake CoiledSnake 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    One thing about sociopaths is,

    we believe our own lies, have a strong sense of self-righteousness, and are the heroes of our own stories. Which is why I laugh at all these people who come on and post about how sh*tty people they are and how they don't care. That isn't what sociopathy looks like. Some of us...
    JohnMoreDread JohnMoreDread 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 14

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    Quote of the unspecified period of time from

    me: "Sometimes, I DO feel empty inside. So I eat a hamburger."
    JohnMoreDread JohnMoreDread 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Social interactions with the non ASPD can be

    so annoying at times. All that maintenance, all that foreplay chit-chat before getting to the point ... GAWD!!!! Of course to be able to get regularly the info I need on some subject I cannot just directly and bluntly ask .... I have first to inquire of the day, mood and all...
    iceShadow iceShadow 46-50, F 4 Responses Jun 10, 2014

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    I guess he figures because I'm divorced he may

    confide in me. he doesn't understand that mine didn't affect me. it bores me, but still I find the silver lining in knowing he's destroyed. he's one of those types who wears their heart on their sleeve. very annoying but in short helpings it's like candy.
    Mrgone84 Mrgone84 26-30, M Jul 12

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    -Police detective: you killed him didn't you?

    -Suspect: no I didn't. -Police detective: witnesses said they saw you push him off the cliff. -Suspect: that's correct. -Police detective: so, you admit it. You did kill Mr. John Doe. -Suspect: ok, I admit to pushing him. But, I didn't I killed the guy. -Police detective...
    ilovescience808 ilovescience808 22-25, M 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    coming out as a Sociopath.

    before my son was born, the term had loosely been thrown around, but in time the throwing became more focused, my sons mother has BPD and slowly as her suspicions (and her use of Google) became more real, things broke down she called it off and now, my goal is to see my son at...
    canttakephotos canttakephotos 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Bored? Try this: Whenever Hitler is brought up,

    start a discussion siding with him, and watch how quickly you can p*ss everybody else off.
    VindensSkygge VindensSkygge 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    Dear Mom

      Thanks for always being there, and for the sporty genes. But most of all, thanks for being such a perfect example of how love completely blinds people for seeing the truth. You always hear mothers say s**t like "a mother knows". I was told by very emotional mother, you...
    Randahl Randahl 31-35 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    I'm new to EP, but I've found myself addicted

    to this group. judging by the regular names alot of you are too. is there some sort of unspoken unity behind the enjoyment? or is it just refreshing to kick out all the "normal" people and spend time in a room that's just for us ?
    canttakephotos canttakephotos 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel very empty inside like I'm not

    experiencing things to their full capacity. I feel some things but they're very soft emotions. Most of the time I feel alone, even though I have family that loves me and a boyfriend that loves me more than he should. I tend to have an anger problem that ties in with not having...
    simple321 simple321 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 19

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    Has everyone watched Dexter

    or is this just a group of circumstantial douchebags? No offense.
    psychoticpsy psychoticpsy 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    No One Cares

    You were hurt by your ex and now you want to share and find out "why". You believe they are a psychopath or sociopath - they must be to have played you like that!!! So you come here looking for answers. Just to clear things up... Yes, you really are stupid, ugly, worthless...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 7 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    I Thought I Was A Sociopath

    per topic, I thought I was a sociopath (functional) constantly seeking to improve my personal wellbeing. However, recently I have met a girl, I can forget about her when I take time off, however there are some strong cravings I have not felt before (to get her attention). They...
    functionalminimalist functionalminimalist 22-25 4 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    To be honest, being a Sociopath doesn't bother

    me at all. But I end up getting judged for it a lot. That's life. Sometimes I'll overreact and freak out on people who provoke me, but there's nothing else I really CAN do. I hope that THIS TIME people will understand me, instead of judging me for past experiences.
    xXCronaXx xXCronaXx 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    Amusing...

    I find it amusing to no end that such a group was created.  Why would sociopaths conglomerate in a group where, if indeed the majority of the members are other sociopaths, they are constantly attempting to dominate each other through discussing better and better conquests...
    atem4416 atem4416 18-21, F 18 Responses Apr 23, 2009

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    Anyone here watch anime?

    I'm interested in your thoughts on the character of Kobayashi from 'Ranpo Kitan'. (An anime based on the works of Japanese mystery-ero-guro writer Edogawa Ranpo) Two episodes are out as of this moment. And of course Reddit and the rest of the internet are discussing it...
    VindensSkygge VindensSkygge 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    Something I find extremely idiotic is

    when people say "my other half". Oh, so you require another person to justify your existence? Are you really so insecure that you value someone else as being half of who you are? How pathetic.
    BrokenThread BrokenThread 18-21, F 15 Responses Jun 21, 2014

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