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I Am a Sociopath

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    Using early childhood trauma

    as an explanation for an ego-complex and a deviant sexuality. I have memory of sexual thoughts from a very young age, years before it was mentioned by anyone. This of course made my fantasies strange and impractical, but I didn't give it any second thought. As I grew older...
    Outdoctrination Outdoctrination 18-21 3 Responses Mar 5

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    As he looked me in the eye I turned on the

    tears. I don't know where they come from, I can turn them on just as fast. But I've been practicing this one since birth. Cry when you're a baby and you can something... It still works just differently. Not that I'm a crybaby. I don't cry when I should. Like when I broke my ribs...
    SmartVixen SmartVixen 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    Just realizing I made it through highschool

    without ever being in a fight but being an ignorant condescending ***** to almost everyone indiscriminately. Charisma trumps karma every time, don't be afraid to offend. If you can learn to lie your way around things and talk your way into being the hero then you can never...
    Congruent Congruent 18-21, M 1 Response May 30

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    are you a good person?

    or do you lack the courage to be evil?
    DarcytheProxy DarcytheProxy 16-17, M 7 Responses Jun 8

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    This Is a Message to All of You

    I've read most of your stories and whatever was in your profiles and I can't begin to understand why most of you wish for a miracle cure. Why do you want to change yourselves? Why not accept who you are? When I signed up to be a part of this group, I thought I...
    LilithSamael LilithSamael 31-35 11 Responses Dec 1, 2008

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    It's rather irritating

    when people think "sociopath" is a simile for "murderer". It's perhaps even more irritating that everyone assumes that sociopaths cannot feel. From my experience, the feeling is far more shallow than everyone else describes but it's there nonetheless. I don't "get" empathy...
    AzuraSkies AzuraSkies 16-17 2 Responses Mar 3

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    I am 18 years old and

    since I was 8 or 9 years old I knew I was different. Right now I am really conscious I am a sociopath and always end up ******* people up emotionally. Sometimes I think about stopping myself because I think I don't want to do it but it is more complicated than that because in...
    Layshka Layshka 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 17

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    Amusing...

    I find it amusing to no end that such a group was created.  Why would sociopaths conglomerate in a group where, if indeed the majority of the members are other sociopaths, they are constantly attempting to dominate each other through discussing better and better conquests...
    atem4416 atem4416 18-21, F 18 Responses Apr 23, 2009

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    For as long as I can remember I've been a bit

    antisocial, have never cared for those around me and the only emotions I've experienced were short bursts of anger and joy that left as quickly as they came. According to my psychologist I'm a sociopath- fair enough, I always suspected that I was. But the problem is that my...
    PuckishRogue6 PuckishRogue6 16-17, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    My god. I swear i can't go one day without

    wanting to grab someone by the throat and screaming "i'm not f*cking interested, and i don't care about your pathetic excuse for a life." I'm unable to process how people can be so clingy, annoying, uninteresting, and so god damn unintelligent.
    powershark powershark 13-15, M 6 Responses May 29

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    For every situation I have a different

    personality. I turn into a different person without thinking it's like I really have no personality just react to my surroundings. I've learned to blend in. No one knows the true me because there is no true me
    AGTripleD AGTripleD 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 11

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    Not really, but I need help in blackmailing

    some creepy guy. So I work at a fast food place as a causal and I mainly work at the front counter. What happened this guy who is dad of one of the girls I work with started talking to me, while waiting to pick up his daughter (I didn't really care about it because I talk to...
    escapedexperiment escapedexperiment 13-15, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Like many sociopaths I've always felt superior

    and more intelligent than my surrounding. Just reflecting on how easy it is to manipulate and simply cheat the system, lie your way through it in a way. I'm geniunly fearless? Nothing really scares me, the only thing that I might be scared of in a way is losing control of my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 23

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    Something I find extremely idiotic is

    when people say "my other half". Oh, so you require another person to justify your existence? Are you really so insecure that you value someone else as being half of who you are? How pathetic.
    BrokenThread BrokenThread 18-21, F 15 Responses Jun 21, 2014

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    A Sociopaths Perfect Valentines Day

    We have all broke up with someone just after a holiday just to get the present but my Best Valentines Day was so much better I worked with this girl named Patty and she was in "love with this guy named Russ. I could not stand Russ but tolerated him because the 3 of us sometimes...
    Justme2387 Justme2387 46-50, F 5 Responses Mar 28, 2013

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    power is meaningless

    if people can see you wield it. subtlety is the key to keeping it.
    InsconpicuouslyExposed InsconpicuouslyExposed 31-35, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Personal advice for the young ones.

    There might be spelling or grammatical errors, deal. 1) Golden Rule. These words are the most dangerous ones you can hear having not committed a crime. A danger to yourself and/or others. Read up on the DSM-5 make sure that if you’re ever under scrutiny that you do not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 24, 2014

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    Right Or Wrong?

    In my lifetime of being a sociopath I have opened up to 3 people about it. 1. My longtime confidant and "best friend" 2. Another sociopath. 3. My girlfriend. Each time omitting the second one, It was met with disdain or disgust. They accepted me, but accepted me as if I had a...
    JasonGrayson JasonGrayson 18-21, M 17 Responses Feb 10, 2013

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    Maybe I am and maybe I'm not,

    but either way I am better than you.
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 7 Responses Sep 10, 2014

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    violent, dark, sex is what I want.

    I nice had this crazy socio who practically begged for my reaper to come our during sex. She wanted more and more...I should have dug deeper. I want..need some sociopathic sex. **** **** ****
    JonathanCTVirgo JonathanCTVirgo 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 15

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    It kind of disgusts me how many emos,

    and depressed attention seekers hashtag their pictures on Instagram under sociopath, psychopath, and aspd. These are the people i'm going to start targeting.
    powershark powershark 13-15, M 2 Responses May 20

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    I Am A Sociopath. If You Have Questions. Now Is The Time.

    I am not your typical sociopath. Serial killer, unable to make friends, etc. I did have trouble making friends when I was young. But i soon learned what everyone was looking for. I am able to fake emotions and actions I pick up from different people I knw. Once I knew what worked...
    ARealSociopath ARealSociopath 22-25 147 Responses Jan 16, 2011

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    Dear Mom

      Thanks for always being there, and for the sporty genes. But most of all, thanks for being such a perfect example of how love completely blinds people for seeing the truth. You always hear mothers say s**t like "a mother knows". I was told by very emotional mother, you...
    Randahl Randahl 31-35 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Somebody asked the question about how I knew I

    was a soc. I never even know the traits of a sociopath never less be a soc, until I was visiting a friend for the last time before he went down for the third time. He said we could never be more then friends because I was a soc. I went home that day and looked up the traits of...
    Justme2387 Justme2387 46-50, F Jun 12

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    A Pretty Parasite, Or "Of Course I'm a Nice Person, Now Quit Being Such a Nit and Fetch Me Another Drink."

    To preface, I have antisocial personality disorder and borderline personality disorder, and maybe some other stuff, and it makes for an unsettling combination. I have no conscience, no moral code, and no desire for either. My story, if you want to call it that, has to begin at...
    Phage Phage 26-30, F 120 Responses Feb 17, 2009

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    Psycho Dreams. I had lunch with my mother the

    other day. She told me she had a dream. A little while ago she asked about one of my new girlfriends and i told her that this one was boring, much like my other girlthings and boythings. Apparently her subconscious didn't like this, and she dreamed that she told my new little...
    MaladaptedReason MaladaptedReason 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 7

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    This honestly disgusts me.

    How can someone be so pathetic to add psychopath under their hashtags as well as suicidal, sad ect ect. It seems some people just scream for attention and others approval. Pathetic sheep.
    powershark powershark 13-15, M 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I wouldn't describe myself

    as a total sociopath, but I do exhibit sociopathic tendencies. For example, I often don't care about the opinions of other people, nor of their well being.
    KurtJaeger KurtJaeger 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 1

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    MaladaptedReason MaladaptedReason 22-25, M Jun 17

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    Misunderstood Monster

    Does this world disgust you as much as it does me? Not only the world but the humans that have ruined it. This world with sheep that leap to an endless sleep afraid of the dark where evil will creep but all they do is get melted by light burning them a beautiful sight. They dont...
    akkikitsune akkikitsune 22-25, F 10 Responses May 18, 2013

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    last night I was awaken by a cats meow.

    I heard this through 3 doors and a set of stairs. it was at my door. I could feel the urge starting in my heart and spreading like warm waves through my body. I wanted so badly to let it in. I laid in bed pondering what I'd do to it. I settled on strangling it. I didn't do it...
    Mrgone84 Mrgone84 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    How does a sociopath realize

    or know they are a sociopath?
    mellymel223 mellymel223 22-25, F 3 Responses May 28

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    I actually think I'm perfectly fine

    but that's not what my doctors/therapists say but who the hell cares I think I've embraced it to much and now I actually like the ring it has to it , sex addict , manipulator , no remorse , but I'm the best , follow me if you share commons with me I guess , I'm up for making...
    SocioFuck SocioFuck 18-21, T 2 Responses Jun 16

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    This Is Another Rant.. About You.

    You people are bothering me. I came to this website to enjoy the experiences of my sociopathic kin and instead I am being pestered by the inane ramblings of the imbecilic. There are 844 people in this group. Out of those people there are 3 categories of people. The sociopathsThe...
    JasonGrayson JasonGrayson 18-21, M 15 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    other than rules placed into society,

    I have no concept of right or wrong. I understand the rules and play by them. survival is key. As far as I'm concerned we are highly developed animals that walled ourselves in with something so fragile as principle.
    Mrgone84 Mrgone84 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I don't get social cues.

    I can recognize them but I am usually at a loss for words. there was a time where my wits were sharp and I could blend in with ease. each friend of mine was given a custom made personality tailored from theirs. practically mirroring with my own touch. but after two years of...
    Mrgone84 Mrgone84 26-30, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I think every sociopath should have someone in

    their life with whom they can be themselves with. It's relaxing to shed the charade and just be yourself.
    Sancearay Sancearay 22-25, F 4 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Surreal(1)

    I don't lose my patience often. When I do, its abrupt,sudden, a seminal spurt of passion. The affable thing is I can't hold grudges. This flusters me; some people need a pencil sticking out their eye, their tongues stapled. I'm always fragmenting my actions. Perhaps, this arises...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 18, 2013

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    my thoughts. I'm not apart of their world.

    I exist on a different plain that randomly comes in contact. my world is small and enclosed. time barely exists. the sun comes up and the sun goes down. but it's necessary to keep a constant link to the other side. if I don't I will labor fiercely in my delusions and any concept...
    Mrgone84 Mrgone84 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 1

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    I love when she cries.

    I love when she's a mess and weak. exposed. she's hated and I couldn't be more pleased. the only thing that would make it better is if I could wrap my hands around her throat and see the fear in her eyes. to feel her laboring muscles trying to swallow. But it's nice to dream.
    Mrgone84 Mrgone84 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    I may be just another Aspie,

    who, unable to mitigate the excruciating impotence of social power and control, self diagnoses, and glamorizes a version of his imagination, which is hidden as it will be ridiculed and leave him brutalized. *sigh People; men and women. Things so complicated. But I speak for...
    MentAl69noMAD MentAl69noMAD 18-21 6 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    I wish I wasn't. It'd be nice to degrade into

    an emotional sack of hormones wouldn't it? I love to manipulate the weak minded at the tip of my finger. Doing everything I say because they're "in love" with me. I sometimes wish I could feel this emotion that they're constantly telling me they're feeling about me. Some people...
    Mastixz Mastixz 13-15, M 4 Responses Feb 21

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    Who Believes the Self-confessed Sociopath?

    I don't believe half the people who claim to be sociopaths. I will admit that all who claim that (especially using their real identities) are certainly screwed up individuals. Why should you believe me that I am? Who cares? Just read. The labels really don't matter. Narcissist...
    gewissenlos gewissenlos 26-30, M 142 Responses Jun 14, 2008

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    I married a Sociopath.

    I adore my husband. What does a relationship with a sociopath look like? I am writing all about it www.myhusbandisasociopath.wordpress.com
    myhusbandisasociopath myhusbandisasociopath 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 17

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    Out casted. My behaviour was too radical.

    I was in a relationship - I deluded myself that I cared... I never did. I was obsessed. My love is obsession. And when obsessed I ruin. Her family, her friends people that cared for her. I ruined. I never wanted a relationship it was another delusion from thanks to society. I...
    HigherThanGrace HigherThanGrace 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 20

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    There isn't much to say.

    I have all the characteristics of a human being. But, not a single, tangible emotion. I feel no guilt or remorse and my conscience has ceased to aid me in my doings. There's no turning back
    BeingMe98 BeingMe98 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 6

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