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I Am a Sociopath

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    It feels as tho there is a whole person living

    inside of me, and it claws from inside, trying to break through to the surface. It's filled with everything i lack, courage, strength, power, control. But with all of this traits that I have wanted, it's also made up of everything I don't want. Chaos, madness, confusion, pain...
    Kingleonidas345 Kingleonidas345 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Right Or Wrong?

    In my lifetime of being a sociopath I have opened up to 3 people about it. 1. My longtime confidant and "best friend" 2. Another sociopath. 3. My girlfriend. Each time omitting the second one, It was met with disdain or disgust. They accepted me, but accepted me as if I had a...
    JasonGrayson JasonGrayson 18-21, M 16 Responses Feb 10, 2013

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    I read all these posts,

    some charming and some pathetic, and I laugh to myself in both regards. I have found only two people who have any sort of hope in my type of world. The rest are misguided in the logic, but I realize that I can say this and it could not be true. Then I think to myself, how...
    InspiredSocrates InspiredSocrates 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 21

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    I Thought I Was A Sociopath

    per topic, I thought I was a sociopath (functional) constantly seeking to improve my personal wellbeing. However, recently I have met a girl, I can forget about her when I take time off, however there are some strong cravings I have not felt before (to get her attention). They...
    functionalminimalist functionalminimalist 22-25 4 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    Have you ever had someone's heart

    and mind in the palms of your hand? I find the thought to be most exhilarating. He has been one of my most loyal puppets throughout my time in high school. Heck, I've put the kid through hell and back, using his past troubles with other students to isolate him, blow up his...
    TCD101 TCD101 16-17, M 5 Responses Nov 12

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    I've always had this thought,

    that the reason the whole world is so chaotic and confusing, is because people love each other. Like if humans would have just stayed with just they're animal instincts they would have found they're equilibrium with the world, and the whole system would work. But because we love...
    Kingleonidas345 Kingleonidas345 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 18

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    Personal advice for the young ones.

    There might be spelling or grammatical errors, deal. 1) Golden Rule. These words are the most dangerous ones you can hear having not committed a crime. A danger to yourself and/or others. Read up on the DSM-5 make sure that if you’re ever under scrutiny that you do not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Between the good and the bad,

    we we will always seek the good. The decision is easy to make. Between justice and mercy, our attitudes morph into something stranger. Further still our minds tangle with the choices of two goods, or the lesser of two evils. This is the hard verdict. This is just a recollection...
    EpikEcko EpikEcko 18-21 1 Response Oct 28

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    KingApathy KingApathy 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 11

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    Defiling Aristotle. Eudaemonia,

    the good life, the life well lived - what we all aim for. To simply survive, as so many of the others seem content with, is not to survive at all; we must live. Excellence of body, excellence of mind and excellence of aesthetic (or character). My life is to improve each of...
    MrOllie MrOllie 26-30, M Nov 12

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    A Pretty Parasite, Or "Of Course I'm a Nice Person, Now Quit Being Such a Nit and Fetch Me Another Drink."

    To preface, I have antisocial personality disorder and borderline personality disorder, and maybe some other stuff, and it makes for an unsettling combination. I have no conscience, no moral code, and no desire for either. My story, if you want to call it that, has to begin at...
    Phage Phage 26-30, F 121 Responses Feb 17, 2009

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    The Lesson of the Moth by Don Marquis i was

    talking to a moth the other evening he was trying to break into an electric light bulb and fry himself on the wires why do you fellows pull this stunt i asked him because it is the conventional thing for moths or why if that had been an uncovered candle instead of an electric...
    ColdCalculator ColdCalculator 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 6

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    I'm an insanely pure hearted,

    chaotic good sociopath. I can't shaee my mind with anyone because I'd be murdered for all the violent and disturbing things I have to share that would make other people call me a monster. I'm okay. but I dont expect anyone to believe me. I'm hopeful though. It's a horrible...
    Blacksheepdown Blacksheepdown 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 19

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    Short Story of My Life.

    In my life the earliest memory I have is when I was around three, all I really remember is my mother’s boyfriend beating her up. It’s a rather vague memory but after hearing things later about that night I figured out what I was remembering.  ...
    Syquinus Syquinus 22-25 9 Responses Jul 17, 2009

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    This Is Another Rant.. About You.

    You people are bothering me. I came to this website to enjoy the experiences of my sociopathic kin and instead I am being pestered by the inane ramblings of the imbecilic. There are 844 people in this group. Out of those people there are 3 categories of people. The sociopathsThe...
    JasonGrayson JasonGrayson 18-21, M 15 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    -Police detective: you killed him didn't you?

    -Suspect: no I didn't. -Police detective: witnesses said they saw you push him off the cliff. -Suspect: that's correct. -Police detective: so, you admit it. You did kill Mr. John Doe. -Suspect: ok, I admit to pushing him. But, I didn't I killed the guy. -Police detective...
    adamfducas adamfducas 22-25, M 4 Responses Jun 29

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    Who Believes the Self-confessed Sociopath?

    I don't believe half the people who claim to be sociopaths. I will admit that all who claim that (especially using their real identities) are certainly screwed up individuals. Why should you believe me that I am? Who cares? Just read. The labels really don't matter. Narcissist...
    gewissenlos gewissenlos 26-30, M 140 Responses Jun 14, 2008

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    I'm thinking about switching majors.

    I most likely won't, because I've done far too much work on the science track to throw it all away and pursue some crappy career as a lawyer. They don't make much money, I don't know, I'll ask Ted about it sometime when he decides to bother me. He's just an ambulance chaser...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Eugenics, anybody? I was going to

    leave it as that ^ but they wanted me to make the post longer.
    MrOllie MrOllie 26-30, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Patient.

    Come into your room. I need to take your vitals. You look funny. Sweaty. [Haha.] I hover over you, your eyes aren't focusing. I ask if you are alright, over and over. [Nope.] You won't answer, but you grip my hand [gloved, so I allow it]. [This gesture is rather futile.] I tell...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    It never stop amazing me how many times you can

    kick a person and they will continue on crawling back for more. It's fascinating to watch. Sometimes I will go and read those stories that go something like : 'I was married to the sociopath and they have destroyed my life and I love them so much why won't they love me back. I...
    CoiledSnake CoiledSnake 31-35, F 10 Responses Feb 17

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    I thought that I might perhaps put a little

    more thought into my first post here, but let's be honest...this is impulse. I have a question for older socs. What have you done during your life to reach 'happiness?' At the moment, I am 'satisfied.' There are so many things I can do for satisfaction and there are many that...
    alwaysandneverendeavor alwaysandneverendeavor 22-25, M 3 Responses Oct 30

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    So,it's another Friday night

    and I'm waiting for the dude I'm sleeping with to get here, I thought to myself let's take a ride on the crazy train. Funny I think of him as the dude I'm sleeping with and he thinks we're in a relationship. Those of you who have been riding the train knows another game has...
    Justme2387 Justme2387 41-45, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    So, I'm not quite sure what the point of this

    board is. I mean, I know who it's for, but not what. A good portion of efforts here are directed at calling out fakers or finding some other fault in what has been posted. Yeah. Masks, I get it. But I didn't come here to waste my energy on bullshit. I came here to speak and...
    alwaysandneverendeavor alwaysandneverendeavor 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 1

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    Amusing...

    I find it amusing to no end that such a group was created.  Why would sociopaths conglomerate in a group where, if indeed the majority of the members are other sociopaths, they are constantly attempting to dominate each other through discussing better and better conquests...
    atem4416 atem4416 18-21, F 16 Responses Apr 23, 2009

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    I wish other people would realize I don't give

    a **** about all their petty drama, I don't really care who died geez. In fact I kinda liked that they died.
    ShadowOnTheSun ShadowOnTheSun 18-21, T 2 Responses Nov 13

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    Nationalism. So been thinking about the concept,

    after I read a few verbal ma$trubation comments from a bunch of Americans getting high on the idea of imaginary bombs falling on Russia. It has always seemed strange to me to derive your identity by arbitrary lines someone drew on the picture of the earth. It seems like a...
    CoiledSnake CoiledSnake 31-35, F 6 Responses Mar 2

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    Inspiration.

    I stumbled upon this while cruising the Oatmeal website.I am not sure why, but I find this to be a novel piece of entertainment.Inspiring and entertaining are hard to come by.theoatmeal.com/comics/tesla
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 17, 2013

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    Dear Mom

      Thanks for always being there, and for the sporty genes. But most of all, thanks for being such a perfect example of how love completely blinds people for seeing the truth. You always hear mothers say s**t like "a mother knows". I was told by very emotional mother, you...
    Randahl Randahl 31-35 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Being Reborn.

    Hello. I am a sociopath. I have known this for a long time, though I had forgotten. I found/find it difficult to cope with sometimes. I hold all of the pros and cons of this fact in my head. I am different. This is good because it means that I am special. I have the potential to...
    Sociopathforabetterfuture Sociopathforabetterfuture 22-25, F 10 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    I was young and showed signs of a sociopath

    even though no one wanted to call a child a sociopath and so they treated me for years and I guess I made progress so I'm not in a "hospital"anymore but I feel the same so.....still on meds-_-
    VivianDarrkbloom VivianDarrkbloom 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 11

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    I enjoyed the idea of

    that last post so I'm doing something similar. If anyone has any question, wants to compare views or even share violent fantasies, feel free to message me.
    Hoages2 Hoages2 22-25, M Nov 7

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    I Am A Sociopath. If You Have Questions. Now Is The Time.

    I am not your typical sociopath. Serial killer, unable to make friends, etc. I did have trouble making friends when I was young. But i soon learned what everyone was looking for. I am able to fake emotions and actions I pick up from different people I knw. Once I knew what worked...
    ARealSociopath ARealSociopath 22-25 130 Responses Jan 16, 2011

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    Sociopathic/psychopathic Parents Hi there!

    I’ve been doing a research on sociopathic/psychopathic parenting and I’d be extremely grateful if you kindly and honestly answered following questions: 1) What’s your age and gender? 2) What’s your relationship status? 3) How many children do you have and what’s their...
    masset masset 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 2

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    Share some insight with your fellow soc,

    The traditional triad of psychopathy, or whatever name you choose to acknowledge it as, consists of 'cruelty to animals,' 'fire starting,' and 'bed wetting.' I've never been able to explain the bed wetting element to myself. The other two I can. For instance, If you are the...
    alwaysandneverendeavor alwaysandneverendeavor 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 9

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    Childhood Mussings

    We all come to know we are different at some point of time in the childhood. And for me it wasn't too life changing. The actual acceptance of the label was a bit of a longer road. At first I was like, no I can't be, because if I am I must be a killer, a devil incarnate and all...
    CoiledSnake CoiledSnake 31-35, F 6 Responses Feb 27, 2013

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    I enjoyed the idea of

    that last post so I am going to do something similar. If anyone wants to ask questions, compare views or share violent fantasies, please feel free to message me.
    Hoages2 Hoages2 22-25, M Nov 7

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    Misunderstood Monster

    Does this world disgust you as much as it does me? Not only the world but the humans that have ruined it. This world with sheep that leap to an endless sleep afraid of the dark where evil will creep but all they do is get melted by light burning them a beautiful sight. They dont...
    AkkiNeko AkkiNeko 22-25, F 11 Responses May 18, 2013

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    Maybe I am and maybe I'm not,

    but either way I am better than you.
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 9 Responses Sep 10

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    Something I find extremely idiotic is

    when people say "my other half". Oh, so you require another person to justify your existence? Are you really so insecure that you value someone else as being half of who you are? How pathetic.
    BrokenThread BrokenThread 18-21, F 18 Responses Jun 21

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    This group reminds of jocks telling the nerds

    they can’t sit at their table during lunch because they’re not cool enough. Most of you (not everyone) seem so concerned about whose a real sociopath, psychopath, monster or whatever you call yourself. I don’t understand how people who really don’t have a care in the...
    ColdCalculator ColdCalculator 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I still don't believe I am a sociopath,

    the person that diagnosed me doesn't have the right to give me a label created by someone. Labels are away for people to cauterize into there uses. So how does calling someone a sociopath do that. I mean sure traits of mine and of a sociopath are every much the same. But I...
    Eslade Eslade 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 30

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    Does anyone else ever look back at things

    you've done in the past, just because you could, that really hurt people and wonder why you have such a disconnect from what you're doing to others? I don't feel bad about doing these things I just don't know why I do them.
    wekisslikepaintedtigersxx wekisslikepaintedtigersxx 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 17

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    Social interactions with the non ASPD can be

    so annoying at times. All that maintenance, all that foreplay chit-chat before getting to the point ... GAWD!!!! Of course to be able to get regularly the info I need on some subject I cannot just directly and bluntly ask .... I have first to inquire of the day, mood and all...
    iceShadow iceShadow 46-50, F 4 Responses Jun 10

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    No One Cares

    You were hurt by your ex and now you want to share and find out "why". You believe they are a psychopath or sociopath - they must be to have played you like that!!! So you come here looking for answers. Just to clear things up... Yes, you really are stupid, ugly, worthless...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 8 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    I am bored. I am a narcissistic sociopath

    and I will answer some questions if you want. if they are stupid I will ignore you
    poolcue poolcue 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 6

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    As he looked me in the eye I turned on the

    tears. I don't know where they come from, I can turn them on just as fast. But I've been practicing this one since birth. Cry when you're a baby and you can something... It still works just differently. Not that I'm a crybaby. I don't cry when I should. Like when I broke my ribs...
    SmartVixen SmartVixen 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    Surreal(1)

    I don't lose my patience often. When I do, its abrupt,sudden, a seminal spurt of passion. The affable thing is I can't hold grudges. This flusters me; some people need a pencil sticking out their eye, their tongues stapled. I'm always fragmenting my actions. Perhaps, this arises...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 18, 2013

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    I Am A Sociopath - A Coming Out Story.

    Coming out as a sociopath can be akin to coming out as gay to a family full of hard core Christians. There is a lot of stigma attached to being a sociopath. So why do it? As a sociopath you would think I would be more about self preservation. Well this in a sense is self...
    CoiledSnake CoiledSnake 31-35, F 13 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    It feels as tho nobody else is real

    until the are in front of me or talking to me, that nothing goes on in this world unless it's about me. Every moment I live feels so vague and unreal, like it's all a dream. I can never keep a path because all the other paths look pleasing as well so when not try a little bit of...
    Kingleonidas345 Kingleonidas345 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 18

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    This Is a Message to All of You

    I've read most of your stories and whatever was in your profiles and I can't begin to understand why most of you wish for a miracle cure. Why do you want to change yourselves? Why not accept who you are? When I signed up to be a part of this group, I thought I...
    LilithSamael LilithSamael 31-35 11 Responses Dec 1, 2008

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