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I Am a Sociopath

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    Dear father, Thank you

    for divorcing my mother. I know I wasn’t very supportive when you first told me all those years ago but as a kid I was unable to see it for what it really was - a gift. All I could think of was “Who’s going to back me up when I get into another fight at school?” or...
    ColdCalculator ColdCalculator 26-30, M Sep 13

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    I thought that perhaps I'd found someone like

    me. But he wasn't. He's a different kind of monster but one who's emotions are just too "emotional." Definitely not at all like me.
    SmartVixen SmartVixen 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 20

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    Superficial.

    I stand, looking. Your mirror is spotty. I stare. I see the eyebrows, the lines. Move down. Too big, too small. Doing better, improving. Far better than others do when they started out looking like I did. I hear you knocking. Stop knocking, I'll be out in a minute. I made dinner...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    A Pretty Parasite, Or "Of Course I'm a Nice Person, Now Quit Being Such a Nit and Fetch Me Another Drink."

    To preface, I have antisocial personality disorder and borderline personality disorder, and maybe some other stuff, and it makes for an unsettling combination. I have no conscience, no moral code, and no desire for either. My story, if you want to call it that, has to begin at...
    Phage Phage 26-30, F 121 Responses Feb 17, 2009

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    My mother called me today to see how I was

    doing with living in my new city. She started crying and it was so hard not to tell her to shut the **** up. I probably would've, if only I wasn't on speaker phone and that my mother would've screamed. It kinda shocked me a bit considering that my mother has never cried before...
    whentheyscream whentheyscream 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Who are some celebs you suspect to be

    sociopaths? I know good ones can usually hide it but jw if there's any specific person you guys suspect
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    My ex-girlfriend called me today

    and asked if there was a way to have a relationship, despite living in different cities. I decided to string her along a bit. It was quite amusing. Then when she asked if it meant we were together, I ended the conversation and she kept ringing after that. It's annoying and...
    whentheyscream whentheyscream 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 21

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    Right Or Wrong?

    In my lifetime of being a sociopath I have opened up to 3 people about it. 1. My longtime confidant and "best friend" 2. Another sociopath. 3. My girlfriend. Each time omitting the second one, It was met with disdain or disgust. They accepted me, but accepted me as if I had a...
    JasonGrayson JasonGrayson 18-21, M 16 Responses Feb 10, 2013

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    I can't trust people.

    So I manipulate them before they get to me. I feel that the whole world is against me. Call me paranoid or cynical. I just feel the need to attack or control before it becomes me. I am very aggressive and threatening hence the name heavy handed. It's lazy, but it works with my...
    EpikEcko EpikEcko 18-21 3 Responses Jun 27

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    This Is Another Rant.. About You.

    You people are bothering me. I came to this website to enjoy the experiences of my sociopathic kin and instead I am being pestered by the inane ramblings of the imbecilic. There are 844 people in this group. Out of those people there are 3 categories of people. The sociopathsThe...
    JasonGrayson JasonGrayson 18-21, M 15 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    I Thought I Was A Sociopath

    per topic, I thought I was a sociopath (functional) constantly seeking to improve my personal wellbeing. However, recently I have met a girl, I can forget about her when I take time off, however there are some strong cravings I have not felt before (to get her attention). They...
    functionalminimalist functionalminimalist 22-25 4 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    Something I find extremely idiotic is

    when people say "my other half". Oh, so you require another person to justify your existence? Are you really so insecure that you value someone else as being half of who you are? How pathetic.
    BrokenThread BrokenThread 18-21, F 18 Responses Jun 21

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    No One Cares

    You were hurt by your ex and now you want to share and find out "why". You believe they are a psychopath or sociopath - they must be to have played you like that!!! So you come here looking for answers. Just to clear things up... Yes, you really are stupid, ugly, worthless...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 8 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    This is really more a question

    than an experience, but has anyone suppressed their more violent urges through fantasy? Whether it's torture or just killing, I generally calm myself down if I imagine a scenario where whatever it is that's annoying me is eliminated. (I'm not going into detail here.) Sometimes I...
    Cirieneve Cirieneve 16-17, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    Amusing...

    I find it amusing to no end that such a group was created.  Why would sociopaths conglomerate in a group where, if indeed the majority of the members are other sociopaths, they are constantly attempting to dominate each other through discussing better and better conquests...
    atem4416 atem4416 18-21, F 16 Responses Apr 23, 2009

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    I was diagnosed as a sociopath

    when I was 15, which was surprising considering that I lived in Nunavut at that time. I grew up with my dad and my grandma who I generally call my mom since she is. My birth mother, Ameilia, was a drug attic and loved her drugs more than me. She was 13 years old when she had me...
    socionarcotics socionarcotics 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 17

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    Short Story of My Life.

    In my life the earliest memory I have is when I was around three, all I really remember is my mother’s boyfriend beating her up. It’s a rather vague memory but after hearing things later about that night I figured out what I was remembering.  ...
    Syquinus Syquinus 22-25 9 Responses Jul 17, 2009

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    Is My Ex A Sociopath?

    I wanted to be a shrink once. I'm going to channel my work 'self' momentarily and give all of you questioners some advice. So, is your ex a sociopath? Here's the answer: it doesn't matter. The fact that you have been led to this line of questioning about someone else's behavior...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I want to talk to sociopaths on here,

    I think I'm halfway there. I want someone to talk to about world views
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 18

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    Well I might have a story a sociopath might

    like to hear. I am a high functioning schizo-affective who loves a sociopath. For those who don't know a schizo-affective has the opposite feelings of a normal person. I love my sociopath girlfriend, we go on dates in the maximum security jail she is at she she says jokes about...
    schizoguy schizoguy 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 14

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    For many years I refused to believe

    or even accept that I was a psychopath, as I'm a twice diagnosed one. I still have a hard time accepting it, mainly because I feel that being a psychopath or a sociopath is having a flaw, and I can't accept that. I don't have any flaws. Not even the person 'closest' to me could...
    Stythe Stythe 18-21, M 7 Responses Jan 26

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    It never stop amazing me how many times you can

    kick a person and they will continue on crawling back for more. It's fascinating to watch. Sometimes I will go and read those stories that go something like : 'I was married to the sociopath and they have destroyed my life and I love them so much why won't they love me back. I...
    CoiledSnake CoiledSnake 31-35, F 10 Responses Feb 17

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    I would need some advice.

    I've known this guy for more than a decade now and we've been married for 6 years. We have two wonderful little kids together. He's 28, really charming and sweet, runs a very successful business. The only problem is that, as I've recently found out, he's been diagnosed with anti...
    maryevert maryevert 26-30, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    I had a conversation with a close friend of

    mine the other day and I found it interesting. Backstory; he is the same age as me and likes this other girl that is also the same age. He met her over the summer and now he is thinking about arranging a marriage with her. Note that she is already in an arranged marriage with...
    JoeVan JoeVan 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 12

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    Inspiration.

    I stumbled upon this while cruising the Oatmeal website.I am not sure why, but I find this to be a novel piece of entertainment.Inspiring and entertaining are hard to come by.theoatmeal.com/comics/tesla
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 17, 2013

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    In all aspects of my life i believe i am a

    sociopath. I have trampled over and sold out co-workers, people who helped me get where i am and even my former bosses to get to where i am right now as a well respected nurse. Also in my personal life. I have a wide group of friends but I've took girlfriends away from some of...
    bbats bbats 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 18

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    Social interactions with the non ASPD can be

    so annoying at times. All that maintenance, all that foreplay chit-chat before getting to the point ... GAWD!!!! Of course to be able to get regularly the info I need on some subject I cannot just directly and bluntly ask .... I have first to inquire of the day, mood and all...
    iceShadow iceShadow 46-50, F 4 Responses Jun 10

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    I, when I am really-really bored with life,

    just go to psychiatric hospitals, well, the ones working with group therapies and all, not real hospitals... you get it. Am I the only one who do this sometimes just for fun? I can fake almost everything, but most of the time I fake BPD, very easy to fake, very easy to "relate...
    EvilMango EvilMango 22-25, F 8 Responses a week ago

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    Recently I have been contacted by someone

    who brings promise of a better future. To some extent I believe there is, and I believe they could help. But some lives arnt worth helping my friend, I'll let you make your own judgement call after reading this. I have a strong feeling they will be reading this. If not, this is...
    Cheshirethecat Cheshirethecat 18-21, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    I want to **** every girl I walk by at my

    campus. The flirting only does so much for me, all I want is to slam them against the wall and dominate their body. In public. Is that too much to ask for?
    Patrikios Patrikios 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 22

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    Well, I might be. Or possibly sociopathic.

    Or maybe not at all. I'm not sure if I have ASPD. I don't necessarily see it as a negative thing or positive thing, at all, really. I'm just curious. I could go on to say I manipulate people well, or have an exhaustible blood-lust, but I feel like that would be over-theatrical...
    quaileggs quaileggs 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 17

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    Childhood Mussings

    We all come to know we are different at some point of time in the childhood. And for me it wasn't too life changing. The actual acceptance of the label was a bit of a longer road. At first I was like, no I can't be, because if I am I must be a killer, a devil incarnate and all...
    CoiledSnake CoiledSnake 31-35, F 6 Responses Feb 27, 2013

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    Dear Mom

      Thanks for always being there, and for the sporty genes. But most of all, thanks for being such a perfect example of how love completely blinds people for seeing the truth. You always hear mothers say s**t like "a mother knows". I was told by very emotional mother, you...
    Randahl Randahl 31-35 7 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Statement.

    "You have wronged innocent people for no good reason." I find this statement rather entertaining. "Innocent" and "wronged" are more subjective words. I thought society didn't consider it 'wrong' to put someone who is bothering you into their place? I don't wake up in the morning...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 3 Responses May 23, 2013

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    In my "friend group" we all laugh,

    smile and all that bullcrap. Do you ever think they know I don't care? Doubtful. For the most, seeing us believing. I'll adapt to any role I'll need and use them as much as I like. Give them free trinkets and gifts, drag them in so they believe I have their best intrest. But...
    Cheshirethecat Cheshirethecat 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 20

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    She comes to me, crying.

    "I still love you, I want to make you happy. I want to be with you." Every day for the last month. My answers get harsher an harsher and yet she continues, believing everything was her fault. "I'm sorry I was such a bad girlfriend. I promise I will change. Please give me...
    Cheshirethecat Cheshirethecat 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 20

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    I Am A Sociopath. If You Have Questions. Now Is The Time.

    I am not your typical sociopath. Serial killer, unable to make friends, etc. I did have trouble making friends when I was young. But i soon learned what everyone was looking for. I am able to fake emotions and actions I pick up from different people I knw. Once I knew what worked...
    ARealSociopath ARealSociopath 22-25 125 Responses Jan 16, 2011

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    The other day, I was talking to the youngest

    daughter of the family I'm staying with. Somehow, the topic of pregnancy was touched and she mentioned that she's been pregnant and that she miscarried and I change the topic after that. It got me wondering though since it popped into my head, how many of you have children or...
    whentheyscream whentheyscream 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 13

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    I think a lot of people are sociopaths simply

    because they see the world for what it is, like too intellegent for their own good. I don't think it's always because of a tramatic experence.
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 17

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    The family I'm staying with has a dog

    that barks a lot and she's been doing it all day. So while I'm the kitchen preparing dinner, all I hear from the youngest daughter is this: "COOKIE IF YOU DON'T SHUT UP IN FIVE SECONDS I'M KILLING YOU AND EATING YOU FOR SUPPER." The only thing I thought was that she sounds more...
    whentheyscream whentheyscream 18-21, M Sep 16

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    Who Believes the Self-confessed Sociopath?

    I don't believe half the people who claim to be sociopaths. I will admit that all who claim that (especially using their real identities) are certainly screwed up individuals. Why should you believe me that I am? Who cares? Just read. The labels really don't matter. Narcissist...
    gewissenlos gewissenlos 26-30, M 143 Responses Jun 14, 2008

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    I actually read a book

    that I believe was written by a sociopath (or narcissist at least) from the perspective of the female empath in the story - which is unusual. It's a dark love story and she starts to take on some of her sociopath boyfriend's traits, making me wonder if everyone is actually...
    LyndseyStrong LyndseyStrong 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    A Sociopaths Perfect Valentines Day

    We have all broke up with someone just after a holiday just to get the present but my Best Valentines Day was so much better I worked with this girl named Patty and she was in "love with this guy named Russ. I could not stand Russ but tolerated him because the 3 of us sometimes...
    Justme2387 Justme2387 41-45, F 5 Responses Mar 28, 2013

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    My Body, My Vehicle.

    This is my body, it belongs to me and only me. I use it as I see fit. It is a vehicle over which I have control. Humans are beings intertwined with their vehicles to the point they become them. Dumb bodies of meat that think they have souls, free will and purpose, or some other...
    Randahl Randahl 31-35 1 Response Nov 14, 2013

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    Patient.

    Come into your room. I need to take your vitals. You look funny. Sweaty. [Haha.] I hover over you, your eyes aren't focusing. I ask if you are alright, over and over. [Nope.] You won't answer, but you grip my hand [gloved, so I allow it]. [This gesture is rather futile.] I tell...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    Out of curiousity, how many of you dream?

    Never in the last five years have I been able to. I know that everyone claims we always have dreams but this seems not to be case. And I was wondering if this nerological function was accosiated with moral values...
    Superwholocked1616 Superwholocked1616 16-17 3 Responses Sep 12

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    -Police detective: you killed him didn't you?

    -Suspect: no I didn't. -Police detective: witnesses said they saw you push him off the cliff. -Suspect: that's correct. -Police detective: so, you admit it. You did kill Mr. John Doe. -Suspect: ok, I admit to pushing him. But, I didn't I killed the guy. -Police detective...
    adamfducas adamfducas 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 29

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    You ask me how I can be

    so nonchalant .. It makes me smirk when I tell you it's because I can't possibly care.
    SmartVixen SmartVixen 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    World was too bright today.

    Perhaps I didn't get enough sleep. Had to step into a Wal-Mart before midnight, annoying. People awake, talking, stopping in the middle of aisles. I want to get whatever my father requested, purchase it and go home. Shopping is not supposed to be this difficult, but people...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Is there anyone here

    who actually has focus and consistency in their life? I rationalize that although some of us have no empathy, that that fact should actually send progress towards the idea of optimism and long-term planning... And yet everyone I have talked to seems to be so... Impulsive and...
    InspiredSocrates InspiredSocrates 22-25, M 21 hrs ago

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    Misunderstood Monster

    Does this world disgust you as much as it does me? Not only the world but the humans that have ruined it. This world with sheep that leap to an endless sleep afraid of the dark where evil will creep but all they do is get melted by light burning them a beautiful sight. They dont...
    AkkiNeko AkkiNeko 18-21, F 11 Responses May 18, 2013

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    I am bored. I am bored most of the time.

    So I go to places, play with people, I do thing to find the thrill. I do dangerous things, yes. But when I just go to random places to find something and I don't, I take pictures. This is like a ritual. I take pictures of everything, the boring, empty moments of life, to...
    EvilMango EvilMango 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 14

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    Surreal(1)

    I don't lose my patience often. When I do, its abrupt,sudden, a seminal spurt of passion. The affable thing is I can't hold grudges. This flusters me; some people need a pencil sticking out their eye, their tongues stapled. I'm always fragmenting my actions. Perhaps, this arises...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 18, 2013

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