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I Am a Sociopath

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    I don't lose my patience often. When I do, its abrupt,sudden, a seminal spurt of passion. The affable thing is I can't hold grudges. This flusters me; some people need a pencil sticking out their eye, their tongues stapled. I'm always fragmenting my actions. Perhaps, this arises...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 18, 2013

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    I want to start this all off by saying

    that I never believed in writing anything out to feel better. I've written tons of poems and short stories that reflect my inner machinations and yet I never felt they ever done anything in my life. I have recently come to the light about being a sociopath. Not everyone is...
    MrPervSan MrPervSan 18-21, M 2 Responses May 10

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    Do you believe in morality outside of the idea

    of an abstract social construct? Does it really mean anything?
    MaladaptedReason MaladaptedReason 22-25, M 3 Responses May 11

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    powershark powershark 13-15, M 2 Responses May 19

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    Today my fantasies got me through work.

    I've worked all week and it was the waves of pleasure that kept me engaged. one girl I work with dominated these fantasies. everything about her disgusts me. she tries to put off this I'm a bad *** front but I see right through it. she's a scared lost little girl. I've seen her...
    Mrgone84 Mrgone84 26-30, M May 8

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    I am not a sociopath

    but I was m arrived to one and deal with one on a daily basis and have a child with him. I have a few questions that I need answers to right from the source. What brings on a sociopath and how do you fell you got it? Also can a sociopath ever really love their child and is it...
    mellymel223 mellymel223 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    A Sociopaths Perfect Valentines Day

    We have all broke up with someone just after a holiday just to get the present but my Best Valentines Day was so much better I worked with this girl named Patty and she was in "love with this guy named Russ. I could not stand Russ but tolerated him because the 3 of us sometimes...
    Justme2387 Justme2387 46-50, F 5 Responses Mar 28, 2013

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    Misunderstood Monster

    Does this world disgust you as much as it does me? Not only the world but the humans that have ruined it. This world with sheep that leap to an endless sleep afraid of the dark where evil will creep but all they do is get melted by light burning them a beautiful sight. They dont...
    akkikitsune akkikitsune 22-25, F 10 Responses May 18, 2013

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    Maybe I am and maybe I'm not,

    but either way I am better than you.
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 7 Responses Sep 10, 2014

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    Good evening boy and girls,

    it's 420 and time to take another ride on the crazy train. So earlier today I was talking with this guy and he's one of those conspiracy people, you know government cover-up, aliens, you know blah blah blah. Here's a side thought if there are aliens, why are they always smarter...
    Justme2387 Justme2387 46-50, F 4 days ago

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    Is My Ex A Sociopath?

    I wanted to be a shrink once. I'm going to channel my work 'self' momentarily and give all of you questioners some advice. So, is your ex a sociopath? Here's the answer: it doesn't matter. The fact that you have been led to this line of questioning about someone else's behavior...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    We breathe the same air,

    we think alike, you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping flesh, but never look into my eyes for to long. Or else you might sense that i'm completely empty, and just not there. And that is when it gets dark, and the games begin.
    powershark powershark 13-15, M May 13

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    I feel like this photo describes me

    so well. Not there, and emotionally absent.
    powershark powershark 13-15, M 2 Responses May 7

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    I wish I wasn't. It'd be nice to degrade into

    an emotional sack of hormones wouldn't it? I love to manipulate the weak minded at the tip of my finger. Doing everything I say because they're "in love" with me. I sometimes wish I could feel this emotion that they're constantly telling me they're feeling about me. Some people...
    Mastixz Mastixz 13-15, M 4 Responses Feb 21

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    I do find it interesting how many people feel

    like killing and torturing animals is what defines sociopaths. You can still have a conscience of some sort, still feel guilt, and emotions. Please, read up. http://www.biographile.com/little-did-we-know-5-myths-about-sociopathy-debunked/17391/
    Raz0r67 Raz0r67 22-25, M May 14

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    I did a monologue for a national fine arts

    competition about sociopathy and it's affects on my life, Needless to say I won *girl doing the hand thing emoji* and while writing it I discovered quite a lot about myself, It was fun.
    asterwesley asterwesley 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Right Or Wrong?

    In my lifetime of being a sociopath I have opened up to 3 people about it. 1. My longtime confidant and "best friend" 2. Another sociopath. 3. My girlfriend. Each time omitting the second one, It was met with disdain or disgust. They accepted me, but accepted me as if I had a...
    JasonGrayson JasonGrayson 18-21, M 17 Responses Feb 10, 2013

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    I Thought I Was A Sociopath

    per topic, I thought I was a sociopath (functional) constantly seeking to improve my personal wellbeing. However, recently I have met a girl, I can forget about her when I take time off, however there are some strong cravings I have not felt before (to get her attention). They...
    functionalminimalist functionalminimalist 22-25 4 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    My heart pumps purple ****

    for you... Lets play a game, it's called "The lets make everyone in your life miserable game". Now, to make everyone in your life miserable, you have to be miserable first. When you’re miserable, empathetic people feel sorry for you. Not only that, they often feel the need...
    Porcelainfacedkiller Porcelainfacedkiller 22-25, F May 7

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    Something I find extremely idiotic is

    when people say "my other half". Oh, so you require another person to justify your existence? Are you really so insecure that you value someone else as being half of who you are? How pathetic.
    BrokenThread BrokenThread 18-21, F 16 Responses Jun 21, 2014

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    -Police detective: you killed him didn't you?

    -Suspect: no I didn't. -Police detective: witnesses said they saw you push him off the cliff. -Suspect: that's correct. -Police detective: so, you admit it. You did kill Mr. John Doe. -Suspect: ok, I admit to pushing him. But, I didn't I killed the guy. -Police detective...
    ilovescience808 ilovescience808 22-25, M 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    For every situation I have a different

    personality. I turn into a different person without thinking it's like I really have no personality just react to my surroundings. I've learned to blend in. No one knows the true me because there is no true me
    AGTripleD AGTripleD 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 11

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    This Is Another Rant.. About You.

    You people are bothering me. I came to this website to enjoy the experiences of my sociopathic kin and instead I am being pestered by the inane ramblings of the imbecilic. There are 844 people in this group. Out of those people there are 3 categories of people. The sociopathsThe...
    JasonGrayson JasonGrayson 18-21, M 15 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    morality, empathy, sympathy none can be

    obtained. although I've been successful with conditioning myself to act on doing the "right" thing because of ho others see that as empathetic, and moral. although it can be hard at times to filter your robotic self, like after a long few weeks.
    Sackett8770 Sackett8770 26-30, M May 11

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    Sociopath and learned behaviors

    and emotions. If a sociopath learns to fake emotions by watching others, then what about reading about it? For instance, learning about various personality types in-depth, then applying them in social situations. What if an unaware sociopath, searching for who he is after...
    jvb93 jvb93 18-21, M 1 Response May 14

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    People often think Sociopaths only fit into two

    categories. The CEO of a big business by day and Serial Killer in the shadows by night. And.... The charisma filled, self centered, over achiever and life of the parts who will cut throat to meet his goals. However... I'm a combination of the two. I wouldn't know what...
    DarknessWalking DarknessWalking 22-25, M 1 Response May 17

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    As a child my ability always exceeded the norm.

    If only that ability would have stayed. Younger I was relentless ruthless but largely reckless. Now I am more cautious, I monitor my actions alot more now it has become second nature, however it seems as though I've become incapacitated even disillusioned with myself. The more...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 11

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    I love to make weapons.

    I see something broken and try to make a deadly weapon out of it. that's just how my mind works. its like Dr frankenstein making his monster.
    DarcytheProxy DarcytheProxy 16-17, M 1 Response May 10

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    Using early childhood trauma

    as an explanation for an ego-complex and a deviant sexuality. I have memory of sexual thoughts from a very young age, years before it was mentioned by anyone. This of course made my fantasies strange and impractical, but I didn't give it any second thought. As I grew older...
    Outdoctrination Outdoctrination 18-21 3 Responses Mar 5

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    When I was young I THOUGHT I used to feel

    somewhat like normal people (sadness, happiness, guilt) but I soon realised that really? It was just what I was told to feel.... Soon after that I noticed, though in the correct situations I would cry/laugh/smile, there was never anything behind it, just an action, with no...
    AudioTravylerRavenwolf AudioTravylerRavenwolf 13-15, F 3 Responses May 20

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    Ugh, am I the only one

    who gets annoyed by how dramatic sociopaths are sometimes? Like damn.
    asterwesley asterwesley 16-17, M 2 Responses May 13

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    Nationalism. So been thinking about the concept,

    after I read a few verbal ma$trubation comments from a bunch of Americans getting high on the idea of imaginary bombs falling on Russia. It has always seemed strange to me to derive your identity by arbitrary lines someone drew on the picture of the earth. It seems like a...
    CoiledSnake CoiledSnake 31-35, F 6 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    Am I the only one who views breaking the law

    as a recreational activity regardless of the law being broken or the reason for breaking it. I'm interested.
    Congruent Congruent 18-21, M 1 Response May 13

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    My god. I swear i can't go one day without

    wanting to grab someone by the throat and screaming "i'm not f*cking interested, and i don't care about your pathetic excuse for a life." I'm unable to process how people can be so clingy, annoying, uninteresting, and so god damn unintelligent.
    powershark powershark 13-15, M 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    Social interactions with the non ASPD can be

    so annoying at times. All that maintenance, all that foreplay chit-chat before getting to the point ... GAWD!!!! Of course to be able to get regularly the info I need on some subject I cannot just directly and bluntly ask .... I have first to inquire of the day, mood and all...
    iceShadow iceShadow 46-50, F 4 Responses Jun 10, 2014

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    How does a sociopath realize

    or know they are a sociopath?
    mellymel223 mellymel223 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    once in a great while I feel the weight of my

    sociopathic ways. over the weekend I observed a family playing together. as I observed I asked myself " why can't I have that?" to feel sincere joy and happiness? but like every other time this feeling was short lived and replaced by annoyance and boredom. I've long accepted...
    Mrgone84 Mrgone84 26-30, M May 19

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    It's rather irritating

    when people think "sociopath" is a simile for "murderer". It's perhaps even more irritating that everyone assumes that sociopaths cannot feel. From my experience, the feeling is far more shallow than everyone else describes but it's there nonetheless. I don't "get" empathy...
    AzuraSkies AzuraSkies 16-17 2 Responses Mar 3

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    It kind of disgusts me how many emos,

    and depressed attention seekers hashtag their pictures on Instagram under sociopath, psychopath, and aspd. These are the people i'm going to start targeting.
    powershark powershark 13-15, M 2 Responses May 20

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    This Is a Message to All of You

    I've read most of your stories and whatever was in your profiles and I can't begin to understand why most of you wish for a miracle cure. Why do you want to change yourselves? Why not accept who you are? When I signed up to be a part of this group, I thought I...
    LilithSamael LilithSamael 31-35 11 Responses Dec 1, 2008

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    You might be thinking "why would someone expose

    their deepest secrets to anyone on the internet" The truth is, I plan to use the Experience Project as a type of therapy. Not that I think I need it. I'm totally happy with who I am, but there are a lot of misconceptions out there about what we are and how we act. The truth is I...
    DarknessWalking DarknessWalking 22-25, M 2 Responses May 17

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    From one twisted mind to another.

    What would you do with 2,3trillion dollars? What would you do with such ''unimaginable'' wealth? You can buy any visionaries you choose. Enough money to pay off any corrupt government official. Can get everything under control..
    Outdoctrination Outdoctrination 18-21 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I never really feel bad

    for the things I do. I always act like I do though. I can't have my uncaringness tarnish my outward social appearance. I don't like to be judged, unless the end result is praise. When I get angry I become a different person. I become malicious. I will readily And easily...
    Congruent Congruent 18-21, M 1 Response May 6

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    A Pretty Parasite, Or "Of Course I'm a Nice Person, Now Quit Being Such a Nit and Fetch Me Another Drink."

    To preface, I have antisocial personality disorder and borderline personality disorder, and maybe some other stuff, and it makes for an unsettling combination. I have no conscience, no moral code, and no desire for either. My story, if you want to call it that, has to begin at...
    Phage Phage 26-30, F 120 Responses Feb 17, 2009

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    No One Cares

    You were hurt by your ex and now you want to share and find out "why". You believe they are a psychopath or sociopath - they must be to have played you like that!!! So you come here looking for answers. Just to clear things up... Yes, you really are stupid, ugly, worthless...
    PaleFox PaleFox 46-50, M 7 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    Who Believes the Self-confessed Sociopath?

    I don't believe half the people who claim to be sociopaths. I will admit that all who claim that (especially using their real identities) are certainly screwed up individuals. Why should you believe me that I am? Who cares? Just read. The labels really don't matter. Narcissist...
    gewissenlos gewissenlos 26-30, M 142 Responses Jun 14, 2008

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