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I Am a Suicide Survivor

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,170 People

    Crazydoctordunes Crazydoctordunes 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    Starting at the 7th grade

    and lasting until the late 9th grade yearly 10th grade I suffered with depression and several suicide attempts. I thought I was alone..because you know that there isn't that many children with a mentally disabled mother and no father. However as I grew up I realized it's the...
    MacKenzie31113 MacKenzie31113 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    8 attempts last attempt was 5 months ago 4 were

    suffocating during asthma attacks, 5th-6th was poking lot's of holes, 7th was overdosing on advair, 8th was overdoing on a perscription medication
    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 10

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    A long time ago, I tried to commit suicide

    about five times. I was depressed, I felt like no one cared, and I was all alone. I still have the scars of my past. Both visual and non visual. I learned that death isn't something that you should take on yourself because everyone has purpose. Life sucks sometimes, but we gotta...
    halieghnicole halieghnicole 16-17, F Apr 2

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    There is nothing worse

    than failing at something so easy, something that can take the pain away, and living with it.
    SorrowInABottle SorrowInABottle 13-15, F May 31

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    cuttinggirl96 cuttinggirl96 18-21, F 1 Response May 8

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    5 years ago I attempted to take my life.

    ..I had enough of the bullying and the words and lost people on my life...then an elderly lady came to me and convinced me to not go through with it...I still don't know who she is to this day but she is the reason I am a believer in God now:) she was an incredible lady and I am...
    FriendlyCanadian321 FriendlyCanadian321 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 23

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    5150.

    August 28 2012. Dear me, It's been a while since that horrible day. The day that changed who you were forever. Made you a bitter, hateful, vunerable human being. You've gone through a lot of traumatic experiences, but did it really have to lead up to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    Christmas always brings up

    that time for me of remembrance. My story is a long one but it is my story. For all of you I will make this short and sweet the best I can. I met a man who was the man of my dreams. He was older, to me that was a big, big well turn on to me, I loved older men. Anyways, he was in...
    northernlightsalaska333 northernlightsalaska333 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Reflection Reflecting.

    I don't know where to start expect the fact that I know that I am trapped in my own suicidal mind.Many times I would face the mirror and not know who is the reflection reflecting back at me.I would look at my family and at times to me they seem as strangers so I keep my distants...
    DevilsSinner666 DevilsSinner666 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 7, 2013

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    I've attempted around 7 times

    but I've never fine through it because I couldn't just leave my sister alone. Like me all you have to do is find that person that needs you in life and become. Stronger person just for them.
    IWannaBeWithU IWannaBeWithU 22-25, M May 20

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    Scared

    Recently I have had a failed suicide attempt and I am so grateful that I survived it was very painful I don't remember much. The days following I was severally depressed, I was trying to throw up nothing would come out I knew that if I had gone to sleep that I would not wake up...
    cooperstreet1995 cooperstreet1995 22-25 Oct 7, 2013

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    I might not be ashamed of the four visible

    scars on my wrists, but I'm even more ashamed of my attempt at suicide. I keep looking at these suicide survivor stories and I feel sad. I think of the world we live in now....and it makes me want to change it. But really? I'm just a girl who lives in Alaska. Not much special...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 11

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    My first attempt and probably the scariest

    looking back was when I was 13. I really planned to die. I had read all this stuff about how to have a quick ending,so one night I slit my wrists and took a bottle of anti depressants. I was passed out for about a day and a half then woke up all groggy. I'll never forget that...
    LoneDreamer11 LoneDreamer11 16-17, F 1 Response May 21

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    But Now I Want To Live

    By the time I was 24 years old, I long ago passed that line between social drinking and alcoholism but prided myself that relatives who actually bet money I wouldn't even live to see 24 lost. It was little comfort, though. By the time I was pushed into that desperate decision to...
    cmmacneil cmmacneil 51-55, M 9 Responses May 24, 2012

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    It's so hard trying to keep yourself alive

    and I have so many people who I am trying to keep alive to and I can't live without I dream about killing myself at night and wake up terrified I cant control it I'm so ******* scared Im gonna lose control
    notCharlie notCharlie 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 8

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    I Recovered From Suicde Thoughts Many Times,and a Survivor,my Ex Took His Life In 2006

    As growing up i was suicidal becuz of being abused i over come and lived many times with attempts by the grace of god Then as i was 20 almost 21 my ex lane took his life to a shot to the head was rough but i over came,i help others and saved 2 lives since then my exes...
    MeemsMimi MeemsMimi 22-25, F Aug 21, 2009

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    It Was A Stupid Mistake...

    It was 2 weeks before my 17th birthday. It was October, 2011, 5 monthes after I was in a traumatic event in may 2011. I was Kiddnapped and hurt really bad.. In ways I can't explain on the Internet cause I just can't, cause if I did then it would be always on here so more and more...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    I have tried 4 times

    but I failed obviously the last time my friend opened my eyes about what would happen and the people that would be affected. So thanks to him I'm ALIVE!!!! 😊
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 3 Responses May 20

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    In November I tried to kill myself by overdose

    but it didn't work. Last weekend a guy I sorta knew accidently overdosed on medicine and was declared brain-dead. They pulled the plug today. I feel so selfish for purposely trying to end mine when people like him lose their lives by pure accident.
    CrownedWithLaurel CrownedWithLaurel 16-17, F 4 Responses May 12

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    8 attempts last attempt was 5 months ago 4 were

    suffocating during asthma attacks, 5th-6th was poking lot's of holes, 7th was overdosing on advair, 8th was overdoing on a perscription medication
    eatthekids1st eatthekids1st 18-21, M 3 Responses May 15

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    I've attempted 8 times

    and backed out of an attempt recently the other day, thanks to a few people on this website and my best friend. I am working on everything in order to make life better for myself and hopefully I'll be okay.
    katielandancer katielandancer 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    Since EP keeps telling me

    that I'm violating one of the rules ( which I wasn't ) and no matter how much material I had removed to clear this up, I might as well just write something else, rather than my experience. Yes, I did try it once and it wasn't easy. The consequences where devastating. I think...
    Euusio Euusio 26-30, F May 12

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    I myself have never attempted suicide

    as my mind has never had those thoughts. But my boyfriend has recently and it scares the hell out of me that he even attempted. It was a nightmare I never want to repeat. I pray every day through out the day whenever I am apart from him for even a few minutes now that he doesn't...
    2Chill4U 2Chill4U 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 18

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    It's been 24 years since my attempted suicide.

    I will admit that there are times that the depression hits me but I know how to work through it and suicide isn't an option anymore. I can always find a reason to keep living.
    bzylady bzylady 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    I have big thick scars up my arms

    and across my wrists from suicide attempts. I wanted to end the pain id been in for so long. It took me until my 4th attempt, until my friend had to break into my bathroom at 1am and stop me from bleeding, looking into his eyes and seeing the panic and desperation in them made...
    ameliap ameliap 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 19, 2013

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    A month ago I tried to kill myself by

    overdosing. I just got out of treatment. I'm still struggling, but I know it'll be worth it in the end. At least I hope it will be. I'm here for anyone who's struggling with similar things that I have, or anyone who just needs someone.
    AndyWarrior413 AndyWarrior413 13-15, F 1 Response May 12

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    Suicide- Deaths best friend.

    In sixth grade I tried to commit suicide. It was hard for me to handle. My 'friends' made fun of me. I cried every night since then. I was born in the wrong year.. 😔
    BlahhHead BlahhHead 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 10

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    I attempted to kill myself at 15 due to

    enduring years of sexual abuse from my step father and my mother choosing to believe him over me. I still struggle with PTSD from the abuse and I'm sure the suicide attempt doesn't help but I am stronger because I have realized I am not better off dead. It's no use taking the...
    Mmn1229 Mmn1229 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 16

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    "Why'd you try to kill yourself" he asked.

    "You told me to be happy"
    princessxk96 princessxk96 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    June 2002 - my cousin,

    who I grew up with and was close to, was suddenly shot one time in the chest at 4 AM... He was 26 and it was labeled suicide... He had spoke to his aunt that same night at approximately 10 PM and 10:30 PM. Both times, he was not his usual cheerful self. He even mentioned taking...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 1 Response Jul 14

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    When I was 13 I lost my parents to a fire.

    So I stabbed myself in the belly button. Suicide is something that you must be certain to do so I chose the hardest way to kill myself. I had stuck the knife pointing upwards on my bed where my stomach would be. I stood at the other end of the bed and fell on it. It only went in...
    mikeybbb mikeybbb 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    Honestly, i look back to the day i tried.

    I can't believe i wanted to take my life. Also that no one noticed me struggling. It all starts with long sleeves, bruises, scars, then my mind and body gave up. I am a suicide survivor. Yes, i still have some thoughts about it every now and then. But I'm picking myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 9

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    It all started when I was 12; I'd been admitted

    into hospital in the June of 2012 following a self-harm incident, and I just didn't want to live anymore. I was then discharged and sent back out into the world. Things didn't get better; the 12 months following my admission was hell - it was, so I thought, the worst year of my...
    aprilriggsx aprilriggsx 16-17, F 1 Response May 16

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    I don't really tell many people this

    but when I tried committing suicide January 22 of this year, it wasn't my first time. I've attempted suicide a total of 11 times in my life. The first time was when I was 8 or 9. Now most kids that age wouldn't understand anything like that, but I'm not your average 16 1/2 year...
    swtchks97 swtchks97 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 19

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    On the 26th of November I attempted suicide by

    overdose. This was the 3rd time I attempted it. After staying in the Hospital for a few days and having the Crisis Team follow my every move, my body eventually recovered. My roommate contacted a friend to come with her to the hospital because you need two people to identify...
    StartingOverAgain20 StartingOverAgain20 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Strive. Good & Bad In Life.

    PLEASE READ ALL THRU> In May...my fiancee committed suicide.Even typing or saying the word suicide is hard. I think most of us in life do have the thought cross our minds...but dont fully consume what such an act can do. My fiancee was the biggest gentlemen and would help anyone...
    BabydollT BabydollT 26-30, F 10 Responses Sep 23, 2012

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    At the minute, the taste in my mouth is

    horrible. I followed advice and I drank loads of water. Self induced vomiting has got most of the pills out. There are only about 3 left in. As for my arms, they are bandaged up. I have stitched them up (yes I learnt first aid in school) and they are no longer bleeding heavily...
    ZoeAmilia ZoeAmilia 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 2

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    My Story: Four Attempts

    I was raised to be an overachiever which made me stressed out by the time I was 8. By the time I was 11 I developed serious clinical depression. It made all my childish views of things that made the world a decent place all crumble down until all I had was this sadness and hatred...
    ingenuinesmiles ingenuinesmiles 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I wouldn't say I'm proud of this,

    failing something so easy, and living with the guilt of even trying.
    ConfusedxAwkward ConfusedxAwkward 13-15, F 3 Responses May 14

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    Last week. I overdosed,

    and slit my wrists....you know, when I did it, I didn't even feel the pain...maybe that's because I had felt so much pain already, I don't know. Maybe because the pills were paracetamol, again, I don't know. But I felt free. Even though I was dying, and I had no clue what was...
    Betruetoyourselfxx Betruetoyourselfxx 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    When I was 12 years old I tried to kill myself

    three times and almost died 2 out of the three times. When I was 13 I tried to kill myself multiple times and loss count. I am now 14 and only a month ago I was hospitalized for suicide attempt. I still have my everyday struggles but I want you all to know that it does get...
    allytoledo allytoledo 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    Im a 16 year old girl living with Bipolar

    Disorder. I have suffered a ton of depression in my life! So one day, I had enough of my life!! I was so sick and tired of the people in my life, hurting me emotionally... I was a mess, cutting with just about any sharp object that i could find!! I just wanted to die! I was in...
    merryred merryred 16-17, F a week ago

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    I had an office on the 8th floor with a window

    that opened. I would sit there for hours, thinking that the window was calling me. Get up on the counter, it would say. Open me. Slide on out. It'll all be over in seconds. Obviously, I didn't. But I wonder what it is about various methods of suicide that attract us. Why jump...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 8 Responses Feb 19

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    I am a suicide survivor.

    September 9th 2011 I had a serious suicide attempt on a bridge. I landed 53 feet. I am now able to walk, but there's a lot I will never be able to do again :( I SOOO wish I could go back in time and never have had that day happen. But then again, it could have ended worse. I...
    ElizabethC1983 ElizabethC1983 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    I feel like a completely failure

    and a hipocyrte to everyone who I tell "it'll get better" too. I promise you it will get better, but it's so much harder for me to believe that myself
    slizzer slizzer 16-17, F Apr 23

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    I have had 15+ attempts

    since I was maybe 10 or 11. I am 16 now soon to be 17 in June. Some where really me wanting to die like for sure at leadt 10-15 of my attempts. The other plus are all the times that the hospitals voted it as a suicide attempt. Just because I said "I want to disappear. " I don't...
    PainBehindHerEyes PainBehindHerEyes 16-17, F 2 Responses May 16

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    Twice In 5 Months

    The first time I tried to take my life was odd. i just shut down and got on a plane which i find terrifying, because i did not and do not want to die. my whole life had been leading up to my attempt, apparently... but it was the tiniest thing that set me off. it was a normal...
    Serelle Serelle 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2013

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    This isn't me. It's my girlfriend.

    I've never had those kind of thoughts but it blows my mind that she has. She's so kind and sweet and I never would have guessed.
    frames64 frames64 22-25, F May 8

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    1 more day tell I learned

    if I ****** up my body for life from my last attempt, pretty sure I have
    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 23

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    In late feb this year I tried to overdose on

    some pills I had in my room and I was so sick of the way my life was heading and I just gave up. I gave up on trying to find the source of my problems and overcoming them. It was such a challenge to even wrap my head around the thought of making a change in my life. So I...
    sourwatermelon sourwatermelon 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    Or am i. Explored knives twice.

    Watched beetlejuice inbetween. Aborted both times. Why. Why. Hope maybe. Maybe. But society got worse. So why still hope. Pals need me. But tolerating jerks could warp me. Survivor. Maybe. We shall see.
    converted converted 46-50, M Jul 14

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