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I Am a Suicide Survivor

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,300 People

    PLEASE BE MY CO-WRITER FOR A REALISTIC DRAMA

    NOVEL ABOUT A WOMAN IN PRISON!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 9

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    It Was A Stupid Mistake...

    It was 2 weeks before my 17th birthday. It was October, 2011, 5 monthes after I was in a traumatic event in may 2011. I was Kiddnapped and hurt really bad.. In ways I can't explain on the Internet cause I just can't, cause if I did then it would be always on here so more and more...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    My teen daughter committed suicide last year,

    and I wrote a book that's being published next year about it : "Once The Storm Is Over: From Grieving To Healing After The Suicide of My Daughter." I'd like to hear from people dealing with depression and thoughts of suicide, and also people who have lost someone because of...
    ninabingham ninabingham 46-50, F Aug 29

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    Again -_-. I was so angry yesterday

    that I just took.as many pills I could get my hands on and drank all of them, now I'm in a stupid hospital. I should actually get a gun to be honest. I'm tired of this bullsh#t.
    Xcinderella Xcinderella 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    My Story: Four Attempts

    I was raised to be an overachiever which made me stressed out by the time I was 8. By the time I was 11 I developed serious clinical depression. It made all my childish views of things that made the world a decent place all crumble down until all I had was this sadness and hatred...
    ingenuinesmiles ingenuinesmiles 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    Twice In 5 Months

    The first time I tried to take my life was odd. i just shut down and got on a plane which i find terrifying, because i did not and do not want to die. my whole life had been leading up to my attempt, apparently... but it was the tiniest thing that set me off. it was a normal...
    Serelle Serelle 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2013

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    I don't really tell many people this

    but when I tried committing suicide January 22 of this year, it wasn't my first time. I've attempted suicide a total of 11 times in my life. The first time was when I was 8 or 9. Now most kids that age wouldn't understand anything like that, but I'm not your average 16 1/2 year...
    swtchks97 swtchks97 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 19

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    I've attempted 8 times

    and backed out of an attempt recently the other day, thanks to a few people on this website and my best friend. I am working on everything in order to make life better for myself and hopefully I'll be okay.
    katielandancer katielandancer 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 3

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    I went back around the same time it's brought

    the side back the awful angry nasty side why for what? That place holds what scares me the most my nightmare It holds what should of gone but it was we're everything went wrong at this time why I was suppose to be stronger but he didn't know and why should he this is something...
    cailowe cailowe 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    On the 26th of November I attempted suicide by

    overdose. This was the 3rd time I attempted it. After staying in the Hospital for a few days and having the Crisis Team follow my every move, my body eventually recovered. My roommate contacted a friend to come with her to the hospital because you need two people to identify...
    StartingOverAgain20 StartingOverAgain20 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    5 years ago I attempted to take my life.

    ..I had enough of the bullying and the words and lost people on my life...then an elderly lady came to me and convinced me to not go through with it...I still don't know who she is to this day but she is the reason I am a believer in God now:) she was an incredible lady and I am...
    FriendlyCanadian321 FriendlyCanadian321 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 23

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    Strive. Good & Bad In Life.

    PLEASE READ ALL THRU> In May...my fiancee committed suicide.Even typing or saying the word suicide is hard. I think most of us in life do have the thought cross our minds...but dont fully consume what such an act can do. My fiancee was the biggest gentlemen and would help anyone...
    BabydollT BabydollT 26-30, F 10 Responses Sep 23, 2012

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    Since EP keeps telling me

    that I'm violating one of the rules ( which I wasn't ) and no matter how much material I had removed to clear this up, I might as well just write something else, rather than my experience. Yes, I did try it once and it wasn't easy. The consequences where devastating. I think...
    Euusio Euusio 26-30, F May 12

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    It's been 24 years since my attempted suicide.

    I will admit that there are times that the depression hits me but I know how to work through it and suicide isn't an option anymore. I can always find a reason to keep living.
    bzylady bzylady 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 6

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    Suicide Prevention Week is this week.

    It might bring up some painful memories, but remember, you're still here for a reason. And be someone else's reason to why they're still here. Promote this week like you never have before. You could save a life!
    drummerchic4Christ drummerchic4Christ 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    If you are upset or down

    or what ever this will make you laugh How girls fart Conceal don't feel How boys fart Let the storm rage on It's funnier if you look at the added picture
    ameliapond999 ameliapond999 13-15, F Aug 24

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    It was before i get pregnant.

    I was alone, with no friends kids were making fun of me everyday i didn't want to go to school anymore. I was bulliyng. My dad left my family. my mom got a cancer and can't work so we didn't have money we were verry poor we couldn't eat as we wanted. Then i found this boy Mason...
    bay07 bay07 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I wouldn't say I'm proud of this,

    failing something so easy, and living with the guilt of even trying.
    ConfusedxAwkward ConfusedxAwkward 13-15, F 3 Responses May 14

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    I wanted to believe that it would make all the

    texts telling me "to kill myself" go away. I was so close. I had the knife right up against my neck. I felt the sharp tip up against my skin. I was ready. but then my mother walked into the room...
    abbyhh25 abbyhh25 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    I have big thick scars up my arms

    and across my wrists from suicide attempts. I wanted to end the pain id been in for so long. It took me until my 4th attempt, until my friend had to break into my bathroom at 1am and stop me from bleeding, looking into his eyes and seeing the panic and desperation in them made...
    ameliap ameliap 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 19, 2013

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    Scared

    Recently I have had a failed suicide attempt and I am so grateful that I survived it was very painful I don't remember much. The days following I was severally depressed, I was trying to throw up nothing would come out I knew that if I had gone to sleep that I would not wake up...
    cooperstreet1995 cooperstreet1995 26-30 Oct 7, 2013

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    My teen daughter committed suicide last year,

    and I wrote a book that's being published in 2015 about it : "Once The Storm Is Over: From Grieving To Healing After The Suicide of My Daughter." I'd like to hear from people dealing with depression and thoughts of suicide, and also people who have lost someone because of...
    ninabingham ninabingham 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 29

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    Honestly, i look back to the day i tried.

    I can't believe i wanted to take my life. Also that no one noticed me struggling. It all starts with long sleeves, bruises, scars, then my mind and body gave up. I am a suicide survivor. Yes, i still have some thoughts about it every now and then. But I'm picking myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 9

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    Christmas always brings up

    that time for me of remembrance. My story is a long one but it is my story. For all of you I will make this short and sweet the best I can. I met a man who was the man of my dreams. He was older, to me that was a big, big well turn on to me, I loved older men. Anyways, he was in...
    northernlightsalaska333 northernlightsalaska333 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    A long time ago, I tried to commit suicide

    about five times. I was depressed, I felt like no one cared, and I was all alone. I still have the scars of my past. Both visual and non visual. I learned that death isn't something that you should take on yourself because everyone has purpose. Life sucks sometimes, but we gotta...
    halieghnicole halieghnicole 16-17, F Apr 2

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    Not many people know,

    because I try not to put my past out there, but I've tried committing suicide a couple times. I'm major depressive with suicidal tendencies. My family has no idea the struggle I go thru with this. Somedays I'm happy as hell, some days I'm calm and relaxed, and others, I'm...
    brandijade92 brandijade92 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 5 days ago

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    In some states attempted suicide is punishable

    by death! Don't break you law you you rebels...
    TheStillmanator TheStillmanator 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 6

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    I attempted to kill myself at 15 due to

    enduring years of sexual abuse from my step father and my mother choosing to believe him over me. I still struggle with PTSD from the abuse and I'm sure the suicide attempt doesn't help but I am stronger because I have realized I am not better off dead. It's no use taking the...
    Mmn1229 Mmn1229 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 16

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    I was young. I was pretty much through with all

    the things my mom kept pinning on me (I'll discuss that later) so I downed about 15 sleeping pills and went to bed. I remember waking up at about 11 PM and I could not breathe. I gasped and choked for air, I was able to breathe again after about 5 minutes. I rolled onto my back...
    firelovelies firelovelies 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    Two weeks ago I OD on my meds,

    not a very high dose, I hadn't been taking my meds for sometime and should have began at a low dose, but began at 600mg plus my other meds which lead to me having trouble breathing and not really being able to control my arms. I've never admitted to suicide and blamed my doctor...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison SO BADLY. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM BEGGING YOU
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 2 Responses Sep 21

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    By the time I was 24 years old,

    I long ago passed that line between social drinking and alcoholism and, in that nebulous alcoholic fog and exaggerated egoism, smirked at relatives who actually lost money to each other on bets that I wouldn't live that long. That smugness was of no comfort when I was made a...
    cmmacneil cmmacneil 51-55, M Sep 17

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    I still remember the time I tried,

    5 years ago when I was 12. I popped 60 over pills into my mouth and tried to swallow them, of course eventually I did. I remember feeling sick, and passing out after. I woke up feeling terrible and realized I was in a hospital bed. I didn't like the feeling at all, my stomach...
    Verasayshi Verasayshi 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    I had an office on the 8th floor with a window

    that opened. I would sit there for hours, thinking that the window was calling me. Get up on the counter, it would say. Open me. Slide on out. It'll all be over in seconds. Obviously, I didn't. But I wonder what it is about various methods of suicide that attract us. Why jump...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 8 Responses Feb 19

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    Not very happy about surviving,

    but thinking about my parents upset faces in the hospital and after discovering the cuts on various occasions, I think again. But I wonder for how long I can hold on to those thoughts? Especially since I have no friends or any social life. What's the point of living? Parents won...
    Lonelyndepressedgirl Lonelyndepressedgirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 6

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    Write more about this experience

    (optional)PLEASE BE MY CO-WRITER FOR A REALISTIC DRAMA NOVEL ABOUT A WOMAN IN PRISON!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M Aug 6

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. Please help me.
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 6

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    I'm not going to lie,

    suicide prevention week is especially hard after the year I've had...
    panikki panikki 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    Im a 16 year old girl living with Bipolar

    Disorder. I have suffered a ton of depression in my life! So one day, I had enough of my life!! I was so sick and tired of the people in my life, hurting me emotionally... I was a mess, cutting with just about any sharp object that i could find!! I just wanted to die! I was in...
    merryred merryred 16-17, F Jul 21

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    Reflection Reflecting.

    I don't know where to start expect the fact that I know that I am trapped in my own suicidal mind.Many times I would face the mirror and not know who is the reflection reflecting back at me.I would look at my family and at times to me they seem as strangers so I keep my distants...
    DevilsSinner666 DevilsSinner666 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 7, 2013

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    I am a 45 years ago I attempted suicide.

    To this day I regret doing it. The way I did was painful when It happened and painful every time somebody looks at me that knows my story. It took many months for my body to heal. and I still have physical issues from it. I have found out about people in the world and in the...
    Upforit45 Upforit45 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 28

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    I was 12. Painfully shy,

    bullied at school,and the unfortunate child of indulgent yet narcissistic parents. Something sent me over the edge. Maybe I anticipated less than perfect Marks and feared punishment over it. For whatever reason I came home and took every pill I could find in the house and I do...
    Joha0505 Joha0505 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    When I was 12 years old I tried to kill myself

    three times and almost died 2 out of the three times. When I was 13 I tried to kill myself multiple times and loss count. I am now 14 and only a month ago I was hospitalized for suicide attempt. I still have my everyday struggles but I want you all to know that it does get...
    allytoledo allytoledo 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    When I was 13 I lost my parents to a fire.

    So I stabbed myself in the belly button. Suicide is something that you must be certain to do so I chose the hardest way to kill myself. I had stuck the knife pointing upwards on my bed where my stomach would be. I stood at the other end of the bed and fell on it. It only went in...
    mikeybbb mikeybbb 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    But Now I Want To Live

    By the time I was 24 years old, I long ago passed that line between social drinking and alcoholism but prided myself that relatives who actually bet money I wouldn't even live to see 24 lost. It was little comfort, though. By the time I was pushed into that desperate decision to...
    cmmacneil cmmacneil 51-55, M 9 Responses May 24, 2012

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    In late feb this year I tried to overdose on

    some pills I had in my room and I was so sick of the way my life was heading and I just gave up. I gave up on trying to find the source of my problems and overcoming them. It was such a challenge to even wrap my head around the thought of making a change in my life. So I...
    sourwatermelon sourwatermelon 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    I have tried 5 times

    since the age of 12. When I was disowned from my family I first tried overdosing on paracetamol but I ended up vomiting blood but lived. Next time I slit my wrists but didn't bleed enough. Next I tried walking in front of a car and only broke a leg, arm and a few ribs. Then I...
    tonightsthenight tonightsthenight 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    I have survived over dosing twice with a large

    amount of paracetamol 30-40 each time I tried, I sometimes wish I had died, I am starting to get back on my feet even after 2 years it's a struggle, but I will not let myself be defeated by the bad things in my life, I am stronger than that. Although I still feel sad everyday...
    maddieXxx maddieXxx 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 13

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    Careful guys, suicide is punishable by death in

    some states... You'll get the electric chair...
    DreadlockJesus DreadlockJesus 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 3

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    I Recovered From Suicde Thoughts Many Times,and a Survivor,my Ex Took His Life In 2006

    As growing up i was suicidal becuz of being abused i over come and lived many times with attempts by the grace of god Then as i was 20 almost 21 my ex lane took his life to a shot to the head was rough but i over came,i help others and saved 2 lives since then my exes...
    MeemsMimi MeemsMimi 22-25, F Aug 21, 2009

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    I am a suicide survivor.

    September 9th 2011 I had a serious suicide attempt on a bridge. I landed 53 feet. I am now able to walk, but there's a lot I will never be able to do again :( I SOOO wish I could go back in time and never have had that day happen. But then again, it could have ended worse. I...
    ElizabethC1983 ElizabethC1983 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    The first time I attempted suicide was at 10,

    my ***** doner turns out had like 5 other familys and women on the side, and beating me and my mom. I broke a Christmas ball ornament and took one of the shards to my wrist. I past out of some blood loss-no one knew. My second attempt was when I was 14 and this was right before...
    UnstableSammi UnstableSammi 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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