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I Am a Suicide Survivor

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,428 People

    rejextharry rejextharry 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 20

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    I still remember the time I tried,

    5 years ago when I was 12. I popped 60 over pills into my mouth and tried to swallow them, of course eventually I did. I remember feeling sick, and passing out after. I woke up feeling terrible and realized I was in a hospital bed. I didn't like the feeling at all, my stomach...
    Verasayshi Verasayshi 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    By the time I was 24 years old,

    I long ago passed that line between social drinking and alcoholism and, in that nebulous alcoholic fog and exaggerated egoism, smirked at relatives who actually lost money to each other on bets that I wouldn't live that long. That smugness was of no comfort when I was made a...
    cmmacneil cmmacneil 51-55, M Sep 17

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    3 months ago was my most recent suicide attempt,

    not my first and probably not my last. I often wonder if I'm made for this world and when will I finally make it through to the other side.
    onlymetoday onlymetoday 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 21

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    I am a suicide survivor.

    September 9th 2011 I had a serious suicide attempt on a bridge. I landed 53 feet. I am now able to walk, but there's a lot I will never be able to do again :( I SOOO wish I could go back in time and never have had that day happen. But then again, it could have ended worse. I...
    ElizabethC1983 ElizabethC1983 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    5 years ago I attempted to take my life.

    ..I had enough of the bullying and the words and lost people on my life...then an elderly lady came to me and convinced me to not go through with it...I still don't know who she is to this day but she is the reason I am a believer in God now:) she was an incredible lady and I am...
    FriendlyCanadian321 FriendlyCanadian321 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 23

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    When I was around 19 I was on the college I get

    on a really bad depression since I didn't have money for assist to a doctor and my mom is kind of a ***** she was always trying to control my life and make my life in her way the pain is awful so I decide to hang my self from a ceiling fan with a leather belt I was able to do it...
    forsa85 forsa85 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 7

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    I have cut my arm in a bath tub jumped off the

    top of my house and tried hanging myself all three attempts failed and i will never try again
    Kitry Kitry 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 21

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    Twice In 5 Months

    The first time I tried to take my life was odd. i just shut down and got on a plane which i find terrifying, because i did not and do not want to die. my whole life had been leading up to my attempt, apparently... but it was the tiniest thing that set me off. it was a normal...
    Serelle Serelle 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2013

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    When I was 13 I lost my parents to a fire.

    So I stabbed myself in the belly button. Suicide is something that you must be certain to do so I chose the hardest way to kill myself. I had stuck the knife pointing upwards on my bed where my stomach would be. I stood at the other end of the bed and fell on it. It only went in...
    mikeybbb mikeybbb 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    When I was 16, a lot of changes happened in my

    life. I spent a lot of time wrestling with my own mind and identity, had an unpleasant and awkward coming out experience, and no friends to turn to. I took a handgun that one of my brothers owned, sat on the foot of my bed, checked the clip (9mm hollow points), chambered a...
    Blithwulf Blithwulf 36-40, M Oct 21

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    I went back around the same time it's brought

    the side back the awful angry nasty side why for what? That place holds what scares me the most my nightmare It holds what should of gone but it was we're everything went wrong at this time why I was suppose to be stronger but he didn't know and why should he this is something...
    cailowe cailowe 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    my first suicide was my worst,

    I was 14. I was staying the night at my friends house with 4 other people. Every single one of them knew I was suicidal and had several bottles of pills with me. They did nothing. it was about 8am when everyone fell asleep. I picked a bottle that had a lot of small pills in it...
    theperksofbeinghayden theperksofbeinghayden 16-17, T Oct 20

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    I've attempted 8 times

    and backed out of an attempt recently the other day, thanks to a few people on this website and my best friend. I am working on everything in order to make life better for myself and hopefully I'll be okay.
    katielandancer katielandancer 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 3

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    I am I was very depressed

    and thought everyone hated me
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F Oct 20

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    June 3rd. The day I found out my girlfriend

    died in the hospital of a heart attack due to ODing 2 days prior. She may have only been a high school girlfriend, but I still loved her.
    rottsimba rottsimba 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 21

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    I attempted to kill myself at 15 due to

    enduring years of sexual abuse from my step father and my mother choosing to believe him over me. I still struggle with PTSD from the abuse and I'm sure the suicide attempt doesn't help but I am stronger because I have realized I am not better off dead. It's no use taking the...
    Mmn1229 Mmn1229 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 16

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    I feel like a completely failure

    and a hipocyrte to everyone who I tell "it'll get better" too. I promise you it will get better, but it's so much harder for me to believe that myself
    slizzer slizzer 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    5150.

    August 28 2012. Dear me, It's been a while since that horrible day. The day that changed who you were forever. Made you a bitter, hateful, vunerable human being. You've gone through a lot of traumatic experiences, but did it really have to lead up to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    Almost every day I get sadder

    and more frustrated that it didn't work. Trying desperately to survive this life is the hard part.
    misanthropemeow misanthropemeow 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 19

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T Sep 27

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    I've been through a lot

    but I no it's time to restart. It's time to leave the past thou I'll still have the memories. I believe I've tried suicide a couple of times, bad I no. I chose cutting afterwards since I was unable to achieve my goals. So I have scars all over my arm and where ever else. It is...
    JazLife21 JazLife21 13-15, F Oct 20

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    I don't really tell many people this

    but when I tried committing suicide January 22 of this year, it wasn't my first time. I've attempted suicide a total of 11 times in my life. The first time was when I was 8 or 9. Now most kids that age wouldn't understand anything like that, but I'm not your average 16 1/2 year...
    swtchks97 swtchks97 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 19

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    My teen daughter committed suicide last year,

    and I wrote a book that's being published in 2015 about it : "Once The Storm Is Over: From Grieving To Healing After The Suicide of My Daughter." I'd like to hear from people dealing with depression and thoughts of suicide, and also people who have lost someone because of...
    ninabingham ninabingham 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 29

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    At age 13, I attempted suicide

    because I felt like everyone was against me, especially my family. I was always getting into arguments with my mom because we saw things differently. Now we are on the same page but I am glad to say that I am a suicide survivor because it has made me into a stronger person and...
    euphorian euphorian 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 20

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    On April 26, 2014, I lost my beloved mother to

    suicide. I was the one that found her hanging by the neck from our attic. That picture will never leave my head or heart. I did everything I knew to do to save her but it was too late. Due to the lack of oxygen to her brain, she was determined brain dead with a 0% recovery rate...
    sarahmunoz14 sarahmunoz14 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 8

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    I'm not going to lie,

    suicide prevention week is especially hard after the year I've had...
    panikki panikki 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    Strive. Good & Bad In Life.

    PLEASE READ ALL THRU> In May...my fiancee committed suicide.Even typing or saying the word suicide is hard. I think most of us in life do have the thought cross our minds...but dont fully consume what such an act can do. My fiancee was the biggest gentlemen and would help anyone...
    BabydollT BabydollT 26-30, F 10 Responses Sep 23, 2012

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    I Recovered From Suicde Thoughts Many Times,and a Survivor,my Ex Took His Life In 2006

    As growing up i was suicidal becuz of being abused i over come and lived many times with attempts by the grace of god Then as i was 20 almost 21 my ex lane took his life to a shot to the head was rough but i over came,i help others and saved 2 lives since then my exes...
    MeemsMimi MeemsMimi 22-25, F Aug 21, 2009

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    Scared

    Recently I have had a failed suicide attempt and I am so grateful that I survived it was very painful I don't remember much. The days following I was severally depressed, I was trying to throw up nothing would come out I knew that if I had gone to sleep that I would not wake up...
    cooperstreet1995 cooperstreet1995 26-30 Oct 7, 2013

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    I wouldn't say I'm proud of this,

    failing something so easy, and living with the guilt of even trying.
    ConfusedxAwkward ConfusedxAwkward 13-15, F 2 Responses May 14

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    I might not be ashamed of the four visible

    scars on my wrists, but I'm even more ashamed of my attempt at suicide. I keep looking at these suicide survivor stories and I feel sad. I think of the world we live in now....and it makes me want to change it. But really? I'm just a girl who lives in Alaska. Not much special...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 11

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    Honestly, i look back to the day i tried.

    I can't believe i wanted to take my life. Also that no one noticed me struggling. It all starts with long sleeves, bruises, scars, then my mind and body gave up. I am a suicide survivor. Yes, i still have some thoughts about it every now and then. But I'm picking myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 9

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    In late feb this year I tried to overdose on

    some pills I had in my room and I was so sick of the way my life was heading and I just gave up. I gave up on trying to find the source of my problems and overcoming them. It was such a challenge to even wrap my head around the thought of making a change in my life. So I...
    sourwatermelon sourwatermelon 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    So....three attempts,

    all failed (obviously). I tried to make them look like accidents, which REALLY limits the options. For ages, I've been suicidal (first attempt aged 13, now 20). I used to have good days, for a while I even wouldn't think about suicide for weeks at a time, so I thought I was...
    justnobody1272 justnobody1272 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 28

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    My teen daughter committed suicide last year,

    and I wrote a book that's being published next year about it : "Once The Storm Is Over: From Grieving To Healing After The Suicide of My Daughter." I'd like to hear from people dealing with depression and thoughts of suicide, and also people who have lost someone because of...
    ninabingham ninabingham 46-50, F Aug 29

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    Not very happy about surviving,

    but thinking about my parents upset faces in the hospital and after discovering the cuts on various occasions, I think again. But I wonder for how long I can hold on to those thoughts? Especially since I have no friends or any social life. What's the point of living? Parents won...
    Lonelyndepressedgirl Lonelyndepressedgirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 6

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    My Story: Four Attempts

    I was raised to be an overachiever which made me stressed out by the time I was 8. By the time I was 11 I developed serious clinical depression. It made all my childish views of things that made the world a decent place all crumble down until all I had was this sadness and hatred...
    ingenuinesmiles ingenuinesmiles 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    Reflection Reflecting.

    I don't know where to start expect the fact that I know that I am trapped in my own suicidal mind.Many times I would face the mirror and not know who is the reflection reflecting back at me.I would look at my family and at times to me they seem as strangers so I keep my distants...
    DevilsSinner666 DevilsSinner666 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 7, 2013

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison SO BADLY. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM BEGGING YOU
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 2 Responses Sep 21

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    I'm on my 8th attempt

    and there still coming
    shadowofbrokendreams shadowofbrokendreams 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 21

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    On the 26th of November I attempted suicide by

    overdose. This was the 3rd time I attempted it. After staying in the Hospital for a few days and having the Crisis Team follow my every move, my body eventually recovered. My roommate contacted a friend to come with her to the hospital because you need two people to identify...
    StartingOverAgain20 StartingOverAgain20 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    I had an office on the 8th floor with a window

    that opened. I would sit there for hours, thinking that the window was calling me. Get up on the counter, it would say. Open me. Slide on out. It'll all be over in seconds. Obviously, I didn't. But I wonder what it is about various methods of suicide that attract us. Why jump...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 8 Responses Feb 19

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    A long time ago, I tried to commit suicide

    about five times. I was depressed, I felt like no one cared, and I was all alone. I still have the scars of my past. Both visual and non visual. I learned that death isn't something that you should take on yourself because everyone has purpose. Life sucks sometimes, but we gotta...
    halieghnicole halieghnicole 16-17, F Apr 2

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    I tried to kill myself last December on my

    boyfriend's birthday. I was hospitalized for 3 days and almost died. I haven't talked to anyone about it in detail since then. Anytime its brought up to the people close to me, they look uncomfortable and change the submit. I need to talk to someone. Why is it such taboo? I...
    papergirl15 papergirl15 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 5

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    I'm going to have to be the one to say this,

    aren't I? Suicide, by definition, means taking your own life. Survival generally involves being alive. So... I'm going to go out on this limb here and say that most people in this group are still alive, or at least were alive when they posted here. I'm a grammar Nazi, and...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 21

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    Suicide Prevention Week is this week.

    It might bring up some painful memories, but remember, you're still here for a reason. And be someone else's reason to why they're still here. Promote this week like you never have before. You could save a life!
    drummerchic4Christ drummerchic4Christ 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    ever since I turned 14 my life feels like I'm

    on a downward spiral because of suicide. I remember my first suicide attempt was really stupid. I overdosed and didn't die I felt really bad.fast forward to today.a couple days ago I was sitting a top a bridge ready to jump but I didn't. ended up at the er which I hate.they did...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F Oct 20

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    I have big thick scars up my arms

    and across my wrists from suicide attempts. I wanted to end the pain id been in for so long. It took me until my 4th attempt, until my friend had to break into my bathroom at 1am and stop me from bleeding, looking into his eyes and seeing the panic and desperation in them made...
    ameliap ameliap 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 19, 2013

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    About to twelve years ago I attempted suicide.

    I was lucky to have survived the attempt, though I was left paralyzed from the shoulders down on a ventilator.
    silojin silojin 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 19

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    But Now I Want To Live

    By the time I was 24 years old, I long ago passed that line between social drinking and alcoholism but prided myself that relatives who actually bet money I wouldn't even live to see 24 lost. It was little comfort, though. By the time I was pushed into that desperate decision to...
    cmmacneil cmmacneil 51-55, M 9 Responses May 24, 2012

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