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I Am a Suicide Survivor

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,950 People

    I don't really tell many people this

    but when I tried committing suicide January 22 of this year, it wasn't my first time. I've attempted suicide a total of 11 times in my life. The first time was when I was 8 or 9. Now most kids that age wouldn't understand anything like that, but I'm not your average 16 1/2 year...
    swtchks97 swtchks97 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    I am a depression and suicide attempt survivor

    and this is my story. (This is super long, so if you just want to skip my story and get to what I actually have to say about it, you can skip to the line that starts with "First off", and if YOU REALLY don't want to read this long thing, you don't have to or you can just skip...
    evie2001 evie2001 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2015

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    Jlb13592 Jlb13592 26-30, M Jan 27

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    my attempts were never thought out.

    which scares me. it was an extremely quick impulse on how I was going to do it and I did it at that moment. it was like I never had a chance to think about what I was doing. it's obvious because I'm petrified of the dark, drowning, and being in deep water. and that's exactly...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 19, 2015

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    I was 12. Painfully shy,

    bullied at school,and the unfortunate child of indulgent yet narcissistic parents. Something sent me over the edge. Maybe I anticipated less than perfect Marks and feared punishment over it. For whatever reason I came home and took every pill I could find in the house and I do...
    Joha0505 Joha0505 18-21, F Aug 24, 2014

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    Overdose fail -_- ****!

    I tried to kill my self for nine times.
    idontcare0o idontcare0o 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2015

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    Strive. Good & Bad In Life.

    PLEASE READ ALL THRU> In May...my fiancee committed suicide.Even typing or saying the word suicide is hard. I think most of us in life do have the thought cross our minds...but dont fully consume what such an act can do. My fiancee was the biggest gentlemen and would help anyone...
    BabydollT BabydollT 26-30, F 10 Responses Sep 23, 2012

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    On April 26, 2014, I lost my beloved mother to

    suicide. I was the one that found her hanging by the neck from our attic. That picture will never leave my head or heart. I did everything I knew to do to save her but it was too late. Due to the lack of oxygen to her brain, she was determined brain dead with a 0% recovery rate...
    sarahmunoz14 sarahmunoz14 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    It's a struggle tonight.

    Keep having horrible rushing thoughts.
    Jlb13592 Jlb13592 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I killed myself when I was 12.

    I was dead. no pulse. The doctor didn't give up on me though and I thank him every week for not giving up.
    laurenzerbe laurenzerbe 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2015

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    i took about 100pills to end my life

    but it didn't work and my familly got me in the bathroom throwing up so then they found out about my depression and that i've been cutting and trying to suicide even after knowing that i'm strugling to stay alive they didn't bother to do anything to help me they started yelling...
    sandra1231 sandra1231 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 29, 2015

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    Its true that i am too young

    but its not true that i dont know the reallity.well according to my age ,i know it very well .i tried to suicide .even i got drunk to do it .well drinking was the stupid idea .but i was scared of the pain which i was goinning to have if i jump from the building .well forget...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 8, 2015

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    ever since I turned 14 my life feels like I'm

    on a downward spiral because of suicide. I remember my first suicide attempt was really stupid. I overdosed and didn't die I felt really bad.fast forward to today.a couple days ago I was sitting a top a bridge ready to jump but I didn't. ended up at the er which I hate.they did...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F Oct 20, 2014

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    Okay, so there are a lot of things I don’t

    want to talk about. One of the things being my sister, or suicide in general. Rachel was amazing in every way, and I know her death hurt a lot of people. But honestly, I think my grandma, grandpa, and I got the worse of it. No one else had to look into her dead eyes. No one else...
    JustADinosaur JustADinosaur 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2015

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    My story isn't as depressing

    as most people's, but screw it here it is. I tried to kill myself on March 11th when I was twelve years old. This is going to be extremely explicit, just to warn you. I had a terrible day. I skipped school that day because I wanted to cut and I was at my grandmother's. To sum...
    SuicidalAngelic SuicidalAngelic 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2015

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    31 years today my Dale took his life to find

    peace. I was thinking this morning about what I was doing that day - I can remember so much, and then almost nothing. Dale and I were affectionate, and so I have no regret about that. I tried to help him, but resources back then were very limited - knowledge and acceptance of...
    kitty1958 kitty1958 56-60, F Nov 7, 2014

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    Yesterday it made 6 months

    since I tried suicide and survive. I feel glad to say that I also survived all those 6 months.
    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F May 25, 2015

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    5 years ago I attempted to take my life.

    ..I had enough of the bullying and the words and lost people on my life...then an elderly lady came to me and convinced me to not go through with it...I still don't know who she is to this day but she is the reason I am a believer in God now:) she was an incredible lady and I am...
    FriendlyCanadian321 FriendlyCanadian321 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    Please share this message out to anyone you

    know was a suicidal or anyone here that is reading this... First of all: To anyone that have suicide thoughts before, I'm glad you're still here, to read my message, keep holding on! I am here to say that sometimes you don't need to solve things by suicide, sometimes you don...
    Toxic2001 Toxic2001 13-15, F Sep 6, 2015

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    I lived in a prison. This prison I called home

    was unlike any other. You see I was the prisoner but I was also the guard. I "tried" hard to escape but I was fighting myself for freedom. I said when I felt freedom. I decided when I needed to be punished. Now you see I may have been the guard but I never saw the key. I tried...
    Beautifullybeloved Beautifullybeloved 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 27, 2015

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    I remember one time I was sick,

    and I ran away into a forest close to home for some reason. I think it was because my mom was mad at me. Although it was summer, my temperaure was already pretty high, and after that I ended up in the hospital. I have run away from home for a couple of hours quite a few times. I...
    ThatOneDepressedKid ThatOneDepressedKid 13-15, F Jan 28

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    First time I pleaded with God to kill me I was

    8 years old. Attempted suicide at the age of 19 three years ago. I overdosed on over 50 pills of 8 different kinds, mostly heavy prescriptions I saved up over the years. I almost died. my friend had a feeling he had to come to my apartment, and it was just in time. he picked me...
    Brittaney9999 Brittaney9999 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 14, 2015

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    I've attempted 8 times

    and backed out of an attempt recently the other day, thanks to a few people on this website and my best friend. I am working on everything in order to make life better for myself and hopefully I'll be okay.
    katielandancer katielandancer 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    ihatemegirl ihatemegirl 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2015

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    Hello. I'm 14 years old

    and somewhere around the end of may I tried to kill myself. I was taken to a hospital where they monitor you and any thoughts you might have of suicide. I was put on a medication called Prozac and had group therapy everyday with a bunch of other patients who I learned to call...
    snowballcupcake snowballcupcake 13-15, F Jan 8

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    I am a suicide survivor.

    September 9th 2011 I had a serious suicide attempt on a bridge. I landed 53 feet. I am now able to walk, but there's a lot I will never be able to do again :( I SOOO wish I could go back in time and never have had that day happen. But then again, it could have ended worse. I...
    ElizabethC1983 ElizabethC1983 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 15, 2014

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    I've tired to kill myself 3X

    because I hate who I am. I am not a survivor I just fail at death, just as much as I do life.
    DaniBear69 DaniBear69 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 31, 2015

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    http://youtu.be/WcSUs9iZv-g This guy survived

    jumping the Golden Gate Bridge.
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch 18-21, F Dec 9, 2015

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    When I was 19 I was going through the most

    traumatic time of my life, I was dumped for someone else, I was kicked out of home, I was involved in a life of crime, I felt like there was no room for love in my life, hate took over. I was battling speed, cocaine and heroin addiction (non I.v.) one week I felt like I crossed...
    32forever2016 32forever2016 31-35, M 3 Responses Jan 18, 2015

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    Really thinking about it again

    now though…didn't really want to go back into depression :(
    flightofthepheonix2 flightofthepheonix2 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 30, 2015

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    I feel like a completely failure

    and a hipocyrte to everyone who I tell "it'll get better" too. I promise you it will get better, but it's so much harder for me to believe that myself
    slizzer slizzer 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 23, 2014

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    I've always relied on my physical strength to

    get me through- even when my heart is pounding, head is spinning, my mind seems to be bending everything out of proportion and the only solution seems like silencing myself to silence the voices, I remember that I am a strong person because of my physical strength. I haven't...
    Floridagirlfaith Floridagirlfaith 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2015

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    5150.

    August 28 2012. Dear me, It's been a while since that horrible day. The day that changed who you were forever. Made you a bitter, hateful, vunerable human being. You've gone through a lot of traumatic experiences, but did it really have to lead up to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    Its not just thinking about it,

    for the past month I had everything planned out including my letters to friends and family, the date I was going to do it and how I was going to do it. Jan 14, 2016 was the day I was supposed to die. I went to the frozen lake, sat down and took 4 sleeping aid pills to help...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 15

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    I attempted suicide twice

    when I was 16. First time was with sleeping pills, I had swallowed around 30 of them but for some reason I didn't die. I think it was because they were made of natural ingredients. The second time I wanted to make sure I would do it correctly and swallowed mercury from 8...
    RandomDude47 RandomDude47 22-25, M Feb 2

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    I am seventeen and just over a month ago I

    attempted suicide. The difference of course is that no one knows about it. I've been depressed for a long time I can tell you, and I've fantasied killing myself as well as dipping in and out of various methods of self harm for years. There have been ups and downs, perks and...
    annie221 annie221 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2015

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    I am not a survivor. I didn't survive,

    I just didn't succed. That's a completely different thing. I am suprised how life can kill you in so many ways. It just keeps on killing you, everytime with another weapon. I say I'm fine, I keep on forcing people to get down off the window or taking their razors away, I am a...
    Iamscaredtodream Iamscaredtodream 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2015

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    on friday at school, one of my classmates told

    me to go kill myself. that was... wow, just really horrible, considering what ive been through. i hope he learns someday that suicide is an actual problem and not something to just yell out at people you know nothing about
    kaliforniadreamin kaliforniadreamin 16-17, T Jan 31

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    Do you want to know what I learned last night?

    While I puke all this sweet pills that I took last night? I'm different... I'm not looking for the love of my life, I'm not looking for God, I'm not looking for eternal happiness or something like that... I love feeling rage, I love feeling hate and sorrow... Is the way I am...
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 18

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    my first suicide was my worst,

    I was 14. I was staying the night at my friends house with 4 other people. Every single one of them knew I was suicidal and had several bottles of pills with me. They did nothing. it was about 8am when everyone fell asleep. I picked a bottle that had a lot of small pills in it...
    theperksofbeinghayden theperksofbeinghayden 18-21, T 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    It Was A Stupid Mistake...

    It was 2 weeks before my 17th birthday. It was October, 2011, 5 monthes after I was in a traumatic event in may 2011. I was Kiddnapped and hurt really bad.. In ways I can't explain on the Internet cause I just can't, cause if I did then it would be always on here so more and more...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    I attempted to kill myself at 15 due to

    enduring years of sexual abuse from my step father and my mother choosing to believe him over me. I still struggle with PTSD from the abuse and I'm sure the suicide attempt doesn't help but I am stronger because I have realized I am not better off dead. It's no use taking the...
    Mmn1229 Mmn1229 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2014

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    I need blood and pain,

    most of all, I need death.
    ihatemegirl ihatemegirl 22-25, F Jun 10, 2015

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    My teen daughter committed suicide last year,

    and I wrote a book that's being published in 2015 about it : "Once The Storm Is Over: From Grieving To Healing After The Suicide of My Daughter." I'd like to hear from people dealing with depression and thoughts of suicide, and also people who have lost someone because of...
    ninabingham ninabingham 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 29, 2014

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    I don't want to write this

    for sympathy or attention hence it being written here. In January 2011 I made my last suicide attempt, my partner found me, close to passing out from a over dose, to this day i still remember the look of hurt and worry in his eyes, he made me throw up by sticking his...
    tash901 tash901 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2015

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