I Am a Survivor of Rape

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    I joined this group optimistically hoping

    that one day the title would ring true for me. That one day I could sincerely feel like a survivor and not just a victim. Today I can honestly say that I am a survivor of rape. Holding my head up high with pride and joy,I ******* survived!!!!! He did not take my life,my future...
    TheGirlFromJupiter TheGirlFromJupiter
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 21, 2015

    i try to block out what has happened,

    but i have days where it all floods back into my mind. ive never really opened up about it and always considered it my fault and have always felt dirty and trashy.... the story is; i was sitting in a parking lot with a guy id met only once before - and he started kissing me and...
    Catho Catho
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 14, 2016

    I have survived rape

    so many times. When I was 16 I went to a party with my best friend who didn't tell me this party was going to be a huge one. We got there and there was probably 50 people there but more kept showing up. I danced with some of the people I knew there and then I lost my friend who...
    Broken0923 Broken0923
    22-25, F
    12 Responses Jan 28, 2015

    I'm a survivor of molestation.

    One of my children is a rape survivor. I didn't find out until two days before Thanksgiving and that is when my world came crashing down on me. I don't know how to help him and it's killing me. He has has a great team of therapists in place but he doesn't trust any of them...
    Arubaskies Arubaskies
    46-50, F
    13 Responses Jan 26, 2016

    I hate this. I've never really talked about it.

    I try not to give it much thought, actually. Except for everyday, when I hate myself. If I could go back to the day I was forced to change my whole view on life, and say something to the people who hurt me, I wouldn't say anything. I'd show them my scars, I'd show them my tears...
    Alliepaigeplease Alliepaigeplease
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 25, 2015

    Those three words never get any easier to say "

    I was raped." no matter how many times I say it, no matter how ofter I hear it in my own head, it just does not get any easier....it just doesn't. I have debated on posting my story for awhile now but I have decided that it was time but not to post what happened to me but to...
    Poison89 Poison89
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jan 21, 2016

    I survived rape. I look at these flashbacks of

    horrific memories and I see mostly females. I was born a boy and still am for now. Why don't I see more males. Maybe I should keep my story undetected
    greenneaz89 greenneaz89
    26-30, T
    15 Responses May 12, 2015

    I'm having a rough night.

    I feel really confused about all of this and need a little clarity. Is there anyone that can help?
    TheFluffyGozette TheFluffyGozette
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2016

    A site that I have found

    that I might look into after EP is closed is http://www.supportgroups.com/ . It seems to have categories similar to this one. I may not join, bug if people were looking for support in this area after EP, this might be an option.
    Myzery Myzery
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 11, 2016

    He said he loved me. Sitting on the couch,

    he said he loved me. Watching a movie, he said he loved me. While he kissed me, he said he loved me. When he touched me, he said he loved me. When I said "no", he said he loved me. When he tried again, he said he loved me. As I pushed him away, he said he loved me. As he...
    TheFluffyGozette TheFluffyGozette
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 2, 2016

    I don't talk about it ever,

    but I am a rape survivor too. It happened years ago, and my attacker still walks free. Sometimes I wonder if he ever feels bad, but I doubt it.
    HaleyGray HaleyGray
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 5, 2016

    "He may have touched your body.

    But he did not touch your soul." Trying to remember this today.
    nb0411 nb0411
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 14, 2016

    And he's there. In every guy I see walking on

    the street. In every time I feel the urge to check that no one is following me when I walk those very same streets. He's there, in my sleepless nights and failed relationships. My trust issues and fear of intimacy. He's everywhere I go in every thing I do. His knife long gone...
    FacelessFear FacelessFear
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 15, 2015

    I had a huge set back today.

    A terrible person brought back a memory I so well repressed. The feelings are overwhelming
    nb0411 nb0411
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 24, 2016

    I was out with girlfriends one night,

    on a street that was full of bars, pubs and other places. We were drinking, dancing, chatting and having a good time. During the night at this one place, we had been chatting with a table of guys near us. Nothing major, just a bit of chit chat here and there, being social. We...
    Daisy06 Daisy06
    36-40, F
    12 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    Dad The Only Person Who Scares Me

    from age 6-12, my dad sexually abused me. I never got up the guts to tell until 7th grade. I told my friend Hakim and he encouraged me to tell. if you are currently being sexually abused, tell someone before its too late. in fact, tell now!
    josephalissa josephalissa
    26-30, F
    10 Responses May 3, 2013

    I have been raped for the past 4 years by my

    mothers boyfriend.. Who is also a police officer... A father of a 3 year old girl.. And married! He has raped me everyday. I've been told no one would believe me because he is a police officer. Until I got pregnant from him. I decided to get the baby.. It's been the hardest...
    litemyfire44 litemyfire44
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Dec 30, 2013

    It was last year, and it was the last day of

    school. I walked into my class, and it was crazy in there, and my former teacher singled me out of the class, and told me that I needed to see him after class. So I walked in, and my former teacher looked at me, and had the most sinister grin I had ever seen on a man, and he...
    HazelZoey HazelZoey
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jul 9, 2014

    i was raped by my boyfriend.

    i am 16 years old and this happen only 6 months ago. i was in an abusive relationship with him and stayed with him for 3 months. i don't know why i stayed with him but yeah. We were sexually active at the time but i promised my self that id always make sure i used protection...
    cas1999 cas1999
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Feb 16, 2016

    I Was 16

    Alright so this has always been a really hard topic for me to talk about or even deal with it was ten years ago but I still battle dealing with this and yet I’m posting it on a website lol it makes so much sense that but if my story is able to help someone then I’m...
    Storm25 Storm25
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 3, 2010

    You never expect it to be your friends.

    Over the years I was raped by 2 of my so called friends. No one believed me. The first guy was varsity basketball and a great guy. The second was my boyfriend. No one understands that just because you date them doesn't mean they have the right to have you whenever they want. It...
    notjustthegirlnextdoor notjustthegirlnextdoor
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jan 23, 2015

    ive decided I'll tell my mom in a few weeks

    when she gets home from Europe. im terrified of what she's gonna say
    Gabrielaa1699 Gabrielaa1699
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Mar 1, 2016

    I was raped very young

    and by to many people who were close to me. I was 4 when the inappropriate acts started to happen between me and my two older brothers who were 13 and 16 at the time. I didn't think that what was happening was wrong and then my female cousin who was 14 when i was 5 raped me...
    droze524 droze524
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 16, 2015

    I finally reported him.

    it's so scary knowing he's going to know that I told I wish I never said anything
    imugly12354 imugly12354
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Mar 21, 2016

    I was raped at 8 by my babysitter.

    He was 15. the rape started innocent enough with a game of hide and seek. He would tel me to hide. I would hide in closets which were the only place to hide in the house. He would find me and keep me in the closet with him. At first he would just make me touch him but then he...
    surv890 surv890
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Jul 26, 2015

    Dear Luke I recived a phone call at 10:03 am on

    monday. It was my solicitor telling me she had some news about you. What came next i thought i have imagined her saying. "Luke was found hanged at 7:34 this morning" You was dead? At that point. for some reason my legs went weak at the thought. I couldn't understand. Why? Why...
    Lottiedee Lottiedee
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 22, 2014

    he wouldn't stop. Bad luck runs in my family

    left right and centre. even at 14 I was strong for my age even though I'm 4ft nothing. The first time my ex boyfriend laid hands on me was an embarrassing experience he was my first at everything , he made me feel grown up maybe to grown up. we was at my own home and it just...
    imfinesaveme imfinesaveme
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 10, 2016

    I won't talk about the experience

    but I do know the shame and pain associated with such a cruel and violent act. I will never understand how anyone can be so hateful to another human being.
    deleted deleted
    41 Responses Aug 14, 2015

    I want to state that I am a survivor.

    I fight very hard to stay in my current life. This life is very faraway from my past. They do not even compare. This of course what keeps me sane! I was born number 4 of 7 children to my parents. The oldest brother fell in a well and died when he was 2. My mother never got over...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Oct 14, 2014

    This is the first time I am admitting this!

    I joined this site to connect with others who have experienced the same thing and now that EP is closing I figured I would face the music. Being a rape survivor is a part of my identity.
    AprilShowersMayFlowers88 AprilShowersMayFlowers88
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 11, 2016

    When I was a kid, every birthday was the best

    day of my life. The cake would be lowered down in front of me in all its glory. My family would sing to me and I would close my eyes and wish for something that I always already had: happiness, security, and confidence, because I couldn’t think of anything that I really wanted...
    shellbyville33 shellbyville33
    22-25, F
    5 Responses May 9, 2014

    My roommate thought he was doing me a favor

    when I came out as gay. I'm a male. Nobody believed me.
    HowIMetYourFairyGodmother HowIMetYourFairyGodmother
    4 Responses Feb 7, 2016

    Sorry to say this but I've seen a lot of fake

    rape stories on here and it makes me ******* sick. Rape is not a joke. Do some people really crave attention that badly they have to pretend to be a rape victim? Pathetic.
    NoRegretsAndNoRemorse NoRegretsAndNoRemorse
    22-25, F
    9 Responses Jul 18, 2015

    I’ve been bottling this up

    for far too long…it’s been almost 4 years now since that happened. I didn’t know what was happening to me at that time so I just let him do it, but I also knew that whatever he was doing to me, he wasn’t supposed to do it...I slapped him and ran away before he could go...
    weirdnerdgirl weirdnerdgirl
    16-17, F
    9 Responses Mar 4, 2016

    As i posted yesterday i was violated by a man

    some 16 years ago and the last time i saw him was 10 Years ago. Well he was outside my work f***ing last night when i got off. it terrifies me that he was there because I live 6 hours away from where I used to live. And he said he missed me in his message when he sent me his...
    lilladyjay lilladyjay
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 14, 2016

    when i was 6 years old.

    . i was in a foster home and my care giver at the time was a 65 year old elderly man. he abused all of us foster children and was a sick human being with how he found pleasure from touching the young girls. one niggt during a camping trip i had to shower and he accompanied me so...
    ontariolove ontariolove
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Sep 12, 2015

    why do people do it. I got raped about 3 hours

    ago. I was supposed to babysit, but there was no kid. I feel disgusting. I didn't even fight back. sure I pushed him away but I was shaky and scared and I couldn't do anything. I'm pathetic. I have to tell my bf. he's gonna hate me.
    Gabrielaa1699 Gabrielaa1699
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Feb 29, 2016

    I didn't think that this would ever come back

    to me. But after watching a video a few night ago of someone talking about their rape they said it helped when they told people. So I thought I'd give it a go. I don't want to put it on here. I also don't want to be a burden but would someone message me so I can talk about it...
    cplummer301 cplummer301
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Feb 6, 2016

    I tried killing myself

    after it happened. My family had horrible luck.. My mother was raped, I was raped by her ex husbands son, and I had to go to court... Now my step dad is molesting me.. My grandma and I got a lawyer yesterday and we're meeting with my mom tonight to tell her everything, I'm just...
    ghostflannel ghostflannel
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jan 28, 2016

    I have good days and I have bad days.

    Today is a bad day. A sudden disgusting, unclean, violated feeling that is overwhelming right now.
    nb0411 nb0411
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 8, 2016

    It happened almost 2 years ago

    and I haven't even accepted it. The situation was so... confusing. My boyfriend doesn't believe me it was forced. No one else knows. I don't know how to understand what happened or even cope with it. I can't even call it what it was. I just call it unwilling sex. I feel...
    nb0411 nb0411
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Mar 3, 2016

    Because of my lifestyle

    and the risks I take, I have been asked about this many times. Yes, I am a survivor of rape. And especially because the end of EP is near and even more because of the encouragement of my friends, I want to share my stories here if it can help encourage others to recover from and...
    Jolintay Jolintay
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Mar 26, 2016

    Well I guess I am, I was at a hotel over the

    weekend. I was getting changed for the pool a oldish guy comes up behind me and tries to put it in me, he did for a sec I kicked his shins and balls and pushed him away and literally legged it outta there
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Apr 30, 2015

    I was raped when I was 18 years old,

    by the father of one of my closest friends at the time. For legal purposes, we'll just refer to this guy as "Dan". Dan had thrown her a surprise party for graduation and enlisted the help of all of her friends, including myself. He contacted each & every one of us through our...
    beyondrepair321 beyondrepair321
    26-30, F
    10 Responses Sep 16, 2015

    To all the people who say they "understand".

    .. You tell me it gets better, it gets better in time You say I'll pull myself together, pull it together, you'll be fine Tell me, what the hell do you know? What do you know? Tell me how the hell could you know? How could you know? Till it happens to you, you don't know how...
    TheFluffyGozette TheFluffyGozette
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 22, 2016

    Today marks the beginning of the rest of my

    life. After a decade of fear, pain, and secrets, I told my mother who raped me, and what happened. The feeling of relief that has washed over me today leaves me speechless, but breathing easier. I am a new person, and I AM FREE FROM HIS GRASP. I will not cry over this man, and...
    GoneGirl95 GoneGirl95
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 26, 2014

    With all the stories in the news in the past

    couple of years (NPR ran a story about month ago), and the depressing responses, I'm now more glad than ever that I didn't report. Who needs the judgement, criticism, being told that they're "crying rape," lying just to get attention? Not me. This is aside from the fact that...
    imreel imreel
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Mar 6, 2016

    Almost 3 years ago I was raped.

    I was 15. I was seeing a guy who I lost my virginity to and one day we got in an argument. I went over to my best friends house to spend the night. She invited two guys over (who were friends with the guy I had a thing with.) I thought they would be cool and respectful since...
    awakened44 awakened44
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Jun 11, 2015

    I've been told so many times

    that it is my fault. That I put myself in harms way. I should of carried a condom because protection is always better even if its not consensual.
    silencedhumanity silencedhumanity
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Feb 10, 2016

    This is for all the amazingly brave

    and strong souls among this group that reassured me that I was not alone in this battle. I was not some sort of freak, I was not damaged goods, and more importantly my body did not belong to anybody else. In a few weeks it will be exactly one year since I posted about the sexual...
    deepmaroon deepmaroon
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 21, 2016
    silencedhumanity silencedhumanity
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 15, 2016

    I've been locked in the room

    where it happened for days. Sleeping in the same bed. Tomorrow I have to walk to the job they know I have and back to my house after I'm done. All I want is to be safe. To feel the illusion of safety again.
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Feb 6, 2016

    I am a survivor of rape.

    I will not specify at what age, how many people, or who did it. However, I am here to say I have recovered and am living my life the way I should be. I still have the scars, yes, but I will never let the men take away my happiness. I am still young and I know a future awaits me...
    soyacarton soyacarton
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 25, 2014

    I was raped when I was 16 by a guy

    that was supposed to be my boyfriend at the time.he raped me 3 times,I was a virgin.I didn't know at first that it was rape,I thought that was how it was supposed to be.after we broke up, I started to become depressed and started speaking to my mom about sex,and she told me that...
    FantasyProject FantasyProject
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2015

    it was my best friend

    who did it almost a year ago. i trusted him with all my heart. we were living together as roommates, and i was seeing someone at the time (to whom I'm currently engaged to marry). one night, he brought home a bottle of Jack, which was a gift from a buddy of his, and we downed...
    Katykat05 Katykat05
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 19, 2016

    it happened yesterday

    and I'm just numb. I barely cried over it. im putting on a brave face. I'm terrified to go tell anybody. my moms away in Europe and I don't want to ruin her vacation. I don't know what to do. I told my bf and he said to report it but I can't.. I could have done more. my bf asked...
    Gabrielaa1699 Gabrielaa1699
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Feb 29, 2016

    I was raped just a little over a year ago

    and I cannot stop beating myself up and blaming myself. I feel trapped in my own skin. I never told family or friends. I just got up the nerve to go get tested.
    silencedhumanity silencedhumanity
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 12, 2016

    Corey was someone I met offline talked to

    for four months a United States marine cute and had a great vibe. A couple weeks after my boyfriend passed he came down took me out to lunch and we went back to the house. We made out which I was accepting of then he asked to see my bedroom he was quite pushy going up the stairs...
    ChandlerTitus1 ChandlerTitus1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 2, 2014
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