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I Am a Survivor of Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 534 People

    The Remedy For Weakness Is Not Brooding Over Weakness, But Thinking Of Strength.

    Thinking all the time that we are diseased, will not cure us; medicine is necessary. Being reminded of weakness does not help much. Give strength; and strength does not come by thinking of weakness all the time. The remedy for weakness is not brooding over weakness, but thinking...
    Abhih123 Abhih123
    22-25, M
    Mar 6, 2013

    I am a survivor. 3 months ago,

    my boyfriend of 5 years hung himself from a tree in our backyard while I sat on the couch. he had severe depression, and had been saying he was going to kill himself for all 5 years. I had heard or so much, I was exhausted. so I didn't say anything, thinking he would cool off...
    hollygee hollygee
    41-45, F
    1 Response Dec 11, 2014

    I tried to take my own life a few times

    and each time something or someone stopped me. I don't regret it but sometimes the idea of not being like this is tempting. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I wasn't here. Would things be easier for everyone around me? Would my family be happier? Would I? I'm not...
    Ninja20 Ninja20
    18-21, F
    Jul 2, 2014

    I've attempted numerous times

    and all... Who feels people who really want to commit suicide won't talk about it?
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 19, 2015
    Stormiecantrell Stormiecantrell
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 17, 2013
    lonelinessneverfades lonelinessneverfades
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jul 2, 2014

    I was 12 when I was told I couldn't have

    children, which wasn't sad by itself, but as I was deciding how to learn to be a mother differently by adoption, surrogacy, advocating for at risk children, or teaching; I got seriously life affecting injuries at 14. I was working with the younger children teaching them to read...
    raylynn24 raylynn24
    26-30, F
    Feb 28, 2014

    My cousin tried to force 9 pills into my mouth

    and got them in he was only 12 and im 19 now hes gonna be in jail for 13 more years. I think he hated me... :(
    PhoenixTalon04 PhoenixTalon04
    13-15, M
    Feb 26, 2015

    Read This First .

    I'm not one to tell somebody not to do something they have their heart set on. I mean, if you're seriously considering suicide, its not like saying 'don't do it' is going to stop you. I know this because i've been there. Twice. Even if someone had been there to stop me from...
    Gingerjay1212 Gingerjay1212
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Mar 31, 2013

    I Survied Once I Think I Can Do It Again

    My struggle starts when i was nine years old. When i was nine i got raped by my best friend. Even at that age i knew what had happened and knew it was wrong i was to scared to tell anyone and i started to think who would believe a nine year old kid. At ten years old i was still...
    lylkitkat lylkitkat
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Oct 4, 2012

    Helping Another Made Me Remember

    When I was 11-12 I started to realize I was wrong. I did not know how or why I felt wrong I just knew I was. I knew that I wanted to be able to have children like my sisters but I did not know why. I was recently talking with a friend who also tried to kill themselves do to a...
    Rose35 Rose35
    36-40, T
    Apr 16, 2013

    So after taking sleeping pills

    and falling asleep on the train tracks, which didn't work -_- I went home and ingested different chemicals.. including bleach. I don't remember what happened, it burned, it felt.. awful. Awful awful. I woke up after puking and it felt like my insides were on fire. I guzzled...
    DancingWithFire DancingWithFire
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 3, 2014

    Just Got Out Of Hospital

    Just got out of Psychiatric Hospital 2 days ago after taking 2 boxes of Klonopin mixed with another box of any medication. I wasn't trying to commit suicide, I was just feeling bad due to the a withdrawal of another med I was addicted to. Last time was in June when I threw myself...
    rikkbb rikkbb
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Dec 1, 2012

    People really think that people get called one

    name and they just pick up a blade and decide it's time to harm or pick up a bottle and decide it's time to go. It's more then that. It takes a lot of time for someone to think of suicide. You break them down emotionally. It hurts. You won't get it, till it happens to you.
    stfumick stfumick
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2014

    Sometimes I don't even know

    why I am still alive. I wish I hadn't failed. I don't wanna do this anymore.
    caleighreid caleighreid
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2014

    A Blessing In Disguise

    I had really no reason to be so depressed. I didn't have the best childhood but I hardly had he worst out there and my parents were together I had a hateful and minuplitive one but I had a family I should have been happy. (Only later did I realize I had a mental disorder and my...
    sexysmeagol sexysmeagol
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 10, 2013


    for the longest time i was self destructive, i still am to a degree...hurting myself in multiple ways..death used to be on my mind a lot. but i had heard horror stories, this guy trying to shoot himself putting the gun under his chin only to have his skin pealed from his face...
    bloodredhanded bloodredhanded
    18-21, F
    Feb 1, 2013

    9 months ago I was admitted into a behavioral

    hospital for suicide attempts. I keep having nightmares about that day
    SavvyAnnah SavvyAnnah
    22-25, F
    Mar 11, 2014

    A few months ago, I took 8 Prozacs

    and tried to end my life. I saw my little brother and broke down. I told my sister and we together got all the pills out before they seriously hurt me. I haven't cut, drank, or tried to kill myself in months! There is hope, but only if you want to have hope!
    WickedLittlePegasus WickedLittlePegasus
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 14, 2014

    I just attempted suicide.

    .. I'm never doing that again. I almost killed myself! lol
    Lunaaaa Lunaaaa
    22-25, F
    4 Responses May 20, 2014

    I feel like I'm not even alive like no one

    wants me here like I'm alone like I shouldn't be here....but I still am and that sucks
    Moonlightwolf6 Moonlightwolf6
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

    In a previous story i said i tried to commit

    suicide. I did, a couple of times. But i realized that it is not the answer. I started to think about the tings that drove me to the edge. And then i got it. I am not ruined because of those things and i can turn my negative experience into something that could help. So here...
    EvilMiracle EvilMiracle
    1 Response Mar 15, 2014

    Life Sucks, People Are Not True

    the last time i tried to commit suicide was about 6 months ago. people that wanna know why ive tried so many times should read my other stories. my worst overdose was when i took a whole fresh pack of my antidepressants (sertraline). i called myself an ambulance. when i got to a...
    leannepatpat leannepatpat
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Oct 10, 2012

    Surviving Was A Mistake.

    I really don't think I should've been found. I used to think things were bad then but now, after I attempted, things have only gone from bad to worse. I feel so lost and alone. I have been cutting for going on 9 years, although I rarely do it now. I used to just push aside the...
    lexusbrown66 lexusbrown66
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 24, 2013

    I have attempted suicide

    and actually "died" on 2 separate occasions. Each time I was brought back by the doctors in the hospital, but really it was my roommate and friends who saved my life the 1st time. What with them finding me and instead of waiting for an ambulance, took me straight to the hospital...
    lilbit33 lilbit33
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 19, 2014

    I'm a survivor in more then one way.

    I'm a survivor in the way aim the survivor from my cousins suicide. I'm also a survivor of my ow suicide attempt. It's been 8 months since I tries to end my own life... I'm in a better place, or working towards it constantly. It's not always easy but I'm glad I failed. As silly...
    leaguegirl97 leaguegirl97
    18-21, F
    Nov 26, 2014

    I tried to kill myself about a year

    and a half ago. I have never told anybody - my friends, parents and SO have no idea. I still feel the way I did on that day, and still think about it often. I've found myself planning it to some degree, though I think I'm not strong enough to go through with it. Which is why I...
    shawlhouse shawlhouse
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Oct 5, 2014

    sometimes i have the feeling of doing so

    and i have really been feeling to do so, i need a doctor. i need someone to help get out of suicide thoughts, and thoughts of death to myself and others, help me, my mind is going through hell, i need help!!!!!!!!!
    brownzugar brownzugar
    18-21, M
    Jul 28, 2014

    Well I'm not, because I didn't actually commit

    suicide, but I tried to, twice. The first time I did was when I was 16 (now 18). Wow, two years have flown by so fast. It seems like it was yesterday. I tried to kill myself by overdosing on a number of pills; 32 in total. I never succeeded. I did feel sick for a little while...
    MishelLovesYou MishelLovesYou
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 1, 2014

    Today is 3yrs from the day my life changed.

    I attempted suicide and almost didn't make it. I woke to a new me and a new life. Thank you Lord for my wonderful gift, in return I am honored to give back to everyone I meet a piece of my happiness and love...
    kittyluv78 kittyluv78
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 21, 2014

    I don't know if "survivor" is

    such a fitting word for me. There are some people who wake up in the hospital or on the floor of their apartment, saliva congealed down the sides of their faces, and they realize with horror just how close they came to not existing. I had that moment too. Then, something...
    JaxyBaine JaxyBaine
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 8, 2014

    When I was 19 years old I attempted suicide.

    I am vary lucky to be alive. I had taken sleeping pills. The person I was living with knew I took them but she did nothing. I wish I would have died that night. I had slept for 3 days.
    themagijudal themagijudal
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 7, 2015

    Almost a year ago to the day(March 2013) my

    kids (15 & 18) told me of my husbands affair. What? Our 20 year anniversary was in 7 months. He if course denied it. We are just friends. We ride bikes we talk. I forced myself to believe that for months. I saw all the phone minutes. I knew there was a lot of texting. He left in...
    wokeupalive wokeupalive
    46-50, F
    Mar 10, 2014

    My brother commuted suicide

    when I was 5... It was heartbreaking. When I was in 8th grade(2years ago) I attempted. My mom caught me... She made me go to a crisis center. I wouldn't talk so they made me go to a behavioral hospital. That made me mad so then I started cutting. I've stopped since then but I've...
    shaebears shaebears
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 13, 2014


    i wanted to die so badly. my alcohol level was .46 and i had alcohol poisoning. i was dying as they brought me into the ER and i kept telling them to kill me to let me die and i wouldn't stop. they put a tube inside me and pumped me full of saline. then around 3 a.m. a doctor...
    beyondmyyearss beyondmyyearss
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 22, 2013

    Most aptly put. I didn't try,

    I didn't turn back and I didn't wish. 1 minute 49 seconds Just time to accept certain things and move on.
    Dantescircle Dantescircle
    36-40, M
    Aug 31, 2014

    Things Get Better.

    It has been about a month since I last cut, and a month and a half since my last suicide attempt. Since then, I have found that when people say 'it gets better' - it really does. Even though it may feel like they just say it to make you feel better, believe me I used to feel the...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 9, 2013

    Really long story, short,

    I took over 120 prescription pills, the kind that would guarantee this sickening, lonely, heartbreaking slide down into the black pit of depression would finally be over for me. Instead I woke up in ICU 14 hours later, stunned i was till here, (so were all the doctors), and...
    ravgirl007 ravgirl007
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2014

    So I attempted suicide yesterday.

    It was scary. It didn't work. I took a bunch of sleeping pills and took a nap on the train tracks. Then I tried poisoning myself after waking up beneath a train. It was terrifying. I sent this kid a message telling him I loved him and that I was sorry. I told him it was...
    DancingWithFire DancingWithFire
    18-21, F
    Mar 31, 2014

    One Day I'll Never Forget

    From 11 am till 11 pm. I cut my left arm twice and cut 3/4 way through right wrist and laid on bed bleeding for 2 hours. I then got up and took 10 vicodin and ran the bath water. Figured I would go to sleep and that would be it. But at 10 pm I had lost enough blood to be...
    Extinguish Extinguish
    36-40, M
    1 Response Nov 26, 2012

    Sometimes, I regret having survived.

    But it helps me fight my own demons at times. I tried to hang myself months ago. I felt dizzy and remained unconscious for about a half hour. But I woke up on my bed and entered the evil world again. I was at peace for minutes, and then I came back. I still feel great pain in my...
    griffinlynn1 griffinlynn1
    16-17, T
    Oct 1, 2014

    Sore this on the news: Six men

    who groomed vulnerable under-age girls for sex "for the price of a McDonald's, a milkshake and cinema ticket" have been jailed. The Old Bailey heard the abuse in Aylesbury, Buckinghamshire, involved multiples rapes, child prostitution and administering substances to "stupefy...
    Lasbutterfly Lasbutterfly
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 7, 2015

    I didn't actually attempt.

    There is no attempting with guns, not really. I sat down and wrote my note. It was sweet, apologetic, to the point. I told everyone I was sorry for everything. Then I listened to some music, my favorite stuff. I knew that I'd be forced to listen to Justin Bieber or Britney...
    TryingFailing TryingFailing
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2014

    I was told, my previous post on this wasn't

    good enough...so here goes... Third time is the charm. First bottle was vodka. Started with Bloody Mary's, turned into straight vodka. Second bottle was rum. I really wanted a Mojito, I had two :) then came the pills. Morphine, oxy, soma, Valium, and various "head meds"...just...
    Dantescircle Dantescircle
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Aug 31, 2014

    Three days ago, I came from

    that ******* hospital. I'd slashed arm, I was so close, I could feel my body starting to shut down, and my life throb away. I was so close to leaving this hell and then my ***** of a parent showed up. And now I'm still alive in this hellhole and I can't take this anymore...
    sadnessisbeauty sadnessisbeauty
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jul 6, 2014

    Someone (Anyone) Please Help Me?

    Hi guys my name is Emily and I really just want to die. I mean, I would never do it because every time I think about suicide I think about my family and how sad they would be, and I can't rip them apart like that. I know this is kind of long but anything at all helps please just...
    svegirl924 svegirl924
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 27, 2013

    For those of you who have a Facebook

    or Twitter; please consider spreading the word to help end the stigma. It won't end unless we raise our voices!
    ThistleAndWeeds ThistleAndWeeds
    31-35, F
    Oct 5, 2014

    Stupid Decision

    Two or three years ago, I cut my wrist. I really feel want to die that time. My boyfriend left me. And I just so stupid to think that it is the end of the world. I didn't think about my family and friends reaction. I just want to die and the pain feeling will b gone forever. That...
    TulipsLover TulipsLover
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Oct 14, 2013
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