I Am A Teen Who Self Harms

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    I Self Harmed For The First Time Yesterday.

    I guess that's a little untrue. I had done it only once before, when I punched myself in the legs. Technically it was self harming, but I don't count it. I was on my bedroom floor, back against the door. I could feel my fat spilling over my shorts and my thighs felt like a wad...
    YouWouldntExpect YouWouldntExpect
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 20, 2013

    I'm having some issues right now.

    I don't think Sam (the guy I've been talking to) really wants to talk to me anymore. I think he's just waiting for prom to be over with and then he's gonna leave... I really want to cut right now but I'm trying to quit. I just don't know what to do.
    Imjustdone Imjustdone
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 23, 2014

    Ever since I have been in school I have been

    bullied because I'm adopted. Even my dad's mum doesn't except me as part I the family. She says "I cannot wait till your 18 because then I don't have to call you my granddaughter
    Talktome9654 Talktome9654
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 24, 2014

    okay, I do self harm.

    it really is an addiction. I can't exactly pinpoint why I do it, because it is always different reasons. but I do want to say to anyone reading this, if you need someone to talk to that UNDERSTANDS what you're going through, I'm here.
    thestxrysofar thestxrysofar
    16-17, F
    Jul 1, 2014

    starve to see blood, to run a razor over my

    skin, and it takes over any strength I have to say no. A smile appears on my face as soon as I cut. I want to go deeper, see more blood, I want the thrill of hitting my vein and dying. I feel so alone, I cant take the pain anymore, I feel so empty and worthless all the time...
    Imjustdone Imjustdone
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 18, 2014

    God I am an idiot. just like

    that the past 12 days have gone down the drain. I thought it would make me feel better, but I feel even worse if that's possible. The cut stings really bad like never before. I feel like **** still and I just feel empty. I can't even go 2 ******* weeks without it. I am so...
    Imjustdone Imjustdone
    18-21, M
    Jun 1, 2014

    Can'T Stop

    I'm going on 17 years here battling this mess of life. I started being depressed at age 7. I started cutting at age 10. I started with scissors, little cuts. Then razors. Then knives. I cut deep once and saw veins. I could of cut it. I could of died right there on my bathroom...
    kropcare kropcare
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 4, 2013

    Well my boyfriend broke up with me.

    I can't say I'm surprised or I blame him. I'm to ugly, stupid, and just an all around waste of space. No one should spend there time dating me. I feel like I'm dying from the inside out though. And to think this is the guy who I was planning on telling him that I cut. I was...
    Imjustdone Imjustdone
    18-21, M
    Jul 1, 2014

    My foster dad walked in on my self-harming

    today. He was so pissed, he just doesn't under stand that him and his family are a big part of the reason I do self harm. I can't take it ๐Ÿ”ช๐Ÿ”ช๐Ÿ”ช
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 28, 2014

    I did for the first time due to too much stress

    a few months ago. Then it became a way for me to cope. Now it's really bad because my best friend hates me, and I just don't know what to do and sadly enough it helps.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 28, 2014

    I Self Harm Not For Fun.. All The Time

    I self harm because. He made me cry. Calle me names. Said I was useless. Made me anti social and awkward with people around me. Made me uptight and all this OCD. I can't handle him. My dad. I cut my arms all over. When he does these things all I do is stare at him teary eyed...
    moonlightglace moonlightglace
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 4, 2013

    i lost my father last summer.

    I started to drink , attempt to overdose , and cut myself all the time. I've stopped recently but I shove the urge away when i get depressed
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 28, 2014

    I have gotten soo bad recently.

    I'm cutting every night now and more extreme stuff. I have begun stabbing myself and sometimes just slicing along my chest.
    tonightsthenight tonightsthenight
    22-25, F
    Aug 15, 2014

    I want to be able to tell people what's going

    on. I wanna be able to open up to my boy. but I just don't know how to put it into words๐Ÿ˜‘
    marafaunt marafaunt
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 14, 2014

    So my mom seen the cuts on my wrist.

    .. I thought she was going to flip out on me but she didn't. She asked me why, I answered, then she just dropped the conversation.
    3JustThatGirl6 3JustThatGirl6
    16-17, F
    May 7, 2015

    I feel good now. Like it helped,

    might scar but at least then I'll always know
    selfhate27 selfhate27
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 25, 2014

    I started cutting a little more

    than a year ago. I battle two mental disorders that can make my life very difficult at times, and am struggling severely in school. I am also overly stressed. It became my only relief after a while so that I would feel something. I would rather battle the physical pain than the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 5, 2014

    My parents just found out last week &

    constantly check my wrists . I really want to cut right now & I don't know how to fight the urge . My parents always wonder why I self harm but really, it's because they cause pressure & stress . It pressures me more when they are checking me if I haven't been cutting. They said...
    xxDropdeaddxx xxDropdeaddxx
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2014

    Sometimes I find myself not

    even thinking, picking up my razor blade and going into that dark place. When I finally realize what I'm doing, when I see the dotted red lines on my thigh I feel better, then I feel bad for doing it because I know someone might find out. I don't know if I'll ever get better.
    tommorowsanewday tommorowsanewday
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 5, 2014

    I couldn't cut.. Like I don't know why

    but I just couldn't. I was sitting there with my blade and it just seemed like I didn't have the strength to do it. I'm really sad because I really wanted to cut. I'm so ****** up I can't even do the think that makes me ****** up...
    Imjustdone Imjustdone
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 5, 2014

    **** **** ****. I'm an idiot.

    I don't know why I ******* did it. 13 days gone. It felt so good when I was doing it. God I'm such a **** up.
    Imjustdone Imjustdone
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 28, 2014

    About an hour ago I self harmed again,

    on my thigh and up my arm completely I just feel so alone right now I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like ending it :'( I just don't want to be here anymore. People keep saying to me 'you have so much to love for' I don't I really don't I just can't seem to see a light at...
    Deactivated1303 Deactivated1303
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2014

    I've been clean for about 2 weeks

    and it's so hard to stay that way. Once my parents go to bed tonight I plan on cutting some more. I don't deserve this life I have. I'm an obsessive compulsive perfectionist and I can't perform to my own ******* standard. I've been painting on my arm so I don't cut but it's been...
    gravedancinq gravedancinq
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jul 12, 2014

    TO EVERYONE WHO SELF HARMS,

    PLEASE READ THIS: I don't know what it is that caused you to self harm, and I am so sorry that it has to happen; I wish it was different. I know many of you do not like to self harm because of the scars and the misery of it, but you cannot stop. I HAVE THE PERFECT ALTERNATIVE...
    Phoenix259 Phoenix259
    18-21, M
    Jun 30, 2014

    *Trigger Warning* It's been a year.

    . Since the last time I self harmed.. Well tonight I broke that one year.. I went to go wash my face and get ready for bed when I saw a razor.. Perfectly new disposal razor.. I grabbed it and shoved it in my shirt so my parents wouldn't ask questions. When I went in my room I...
    BabyDollSammy BabyDollSammy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 10, 2015

    I use sewing pins to damage the skin on my

    palms. I feel like my self harm isn't valid or important because I don't cut myself with razors or draw blood.
    tatteredhoodie tatteredhoodie
    18-21, T
    1 Response Jun 1, 2015

    I've cut for nine years now.

    Why am I not dead yet?
    Sxculent Sxculent
    18-21, F
    Feb 3, 2015

    It's taking over my life again.

    It's all I have been thinking about. To just run the blade across and get the sweet relief. For about a month I was doing it(but rarely like maybe once a week,maybe). But that's all come crumbling down in the last week. It's just been horrible. I feel like I am losing control of...
    Imjustdone Imjustdone
    18-21, M
    Jun 10, 2014

    Hey...don't ignore this,

    just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal with it and how are you going to feel?Then refocus your goals,is giving up that easy?The relief that comes from self-harming...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly
    16-17, F
    Jan 24, 2016
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