I Am a Transgender Ftm

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    The day my life is compleat,

    is the day my mom looks me in the eyes and says, 'I accept you and love you as my son.' Please can that day come sooner? -Alyxander
    SpideyKid1999 SpideyKid1999
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Sep 7, 2014

    I was called sir today!

    ! My breast bump gave me away though...still. It made me smile.
    napanda69 napanda69
    56-60, T
    Dec 12, 2015

    "Self made man" sounds more beautiful

    and appropriate than "transman" I feel...
    sidd73 sidd73
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Apr 27, 2014

    Hey, I have a few questions

    for some FtM's. It's not so much questions as advice, because I'm horribly lost and afraid of taking any step if it could be the wrong one.
    DaughterOfMichael DaughterOfMichael
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 18, 2015

    I have always for a long,

    long time wanted to be called he and handsome and pass as male. the feelings of my desires became more and more strong as I went through middle school and high school. I joined my schools GSA, which stands for Gay Straight Alliance. we worked on making the school more safe for...
    migraine94 migraine94
    22-25, T
    Aug 15, 2014

    I was out to lunch with a friend the other day.

    We were catching up since we go to different colleges. Typical conversation, she talked about herself the whole time. When we were done and sitting in my car, she mentioned something about my hat. I always wear hats or beanies, it hides my hair. I told her I'm trans. She looked...
    JamesCarter20 JamesCarter20
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Jan 6, 2016

    matter of proud who got sucess.

    ..i alwayas support...any one here ..pm me
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 13, 2015

    Ok i'm so sick of having to be a girl

    for everyone else cause i know i'm a boy inside.!!! Why can't people just exept that i'm not female nor will ever be. my dumb family wants to threat me like a girl but forget it!--i will never be a woman! i'm a boy and i won't change that,i can't change that, CAUSE BABY I WAS...
    Mihael122 Mihael122
    22-25, T
    3 Responses Aug 5, 2014

    I have to resist triple binding.

    I know it's bad for me but I look post surgery flat when I do. I double bind on occasion when I'm really dyspeptic and it does take a small take on my breath support, but IDK....
    ZDom ZDom
    3 Responses Nov 30, 2015


    A'ight bros. My name is Caleb but Cal is fine. I am a shy guy in real life; I don't have any friends so if you want to chat just hit me up. I am fourteen-years-old and I am from the United Kingdom. I like games, comics, tumblr, Photoshop and comedy. I am pre-t and pre-op but I...
    Calizard Calizard
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 3, 2013

    Hiding all my problems Binding all my

    fears Blocking what they tell me Ignoring what i hear No matter what i do It's all still in my head Shaming me for who i am And wishing i was dead Whispering the insults Laughter on their face Wishing i could disappear And change the time and place Beat me till i don't...
    JustAMisfit JustAMisfit
    22-25, T
    1 Response Sep 13, 2015

    My very first attempt at a flatter chest!

    !! I'm 38 DDD... Large Nike compression sports bra!! Great!
    napanda69 napanda69
    56-60, T
    Dec 5, 2015

    "This Is My Daughter."

    I can't stand hearing that. It embarrasses me and makes me feel so awkward. I'm told I don't look like a girl at all, so when my mom tells people she just meets "My daughter. . . *looks at me*", or "She's my 3rd child." or "This is my daughter.", its so... weird. I get weird...
    luminescentdanger luminescentdanger
    18-21, M
    4 Responses May 8, 2013

    I'm so discouraged. I've been having the worst

    time trying to fit a binder. I've already returned 3 and two can't be sent back cos they are from overseas. How do I find the right fit and size???
    napanda69 napanda69
    56-60, T
    1 Response Dec 16, 2015

    so I thought my name was meant to be Zach James,

    but I was wrong. I have decided to try out Erin Micheal instead. it is more fluid and my dad said he is more inclined to call me Erin over Zach
    ZDom ZDom
    2 Responses Jan 23, 2016

    Lately I have identified myself

    as gender queer, as I started to wear clothes assigned to boys I realized how I was ridiculously uncomfortable being a girl. I noticed how natural it felt to be a boy, and how good I felt. My significant other, at the time had also identified as gender fluid. I took note in the...
    xMayesx xMayesx
    18-21, M
    3 Responses May 10, 2014

    Got some awesome clothes

    for super cheap!! Michael Kors shorts, 3 nice fitting tops. I tried on some men's shoes but they were too big without socks so I'll buy them new. I'm a size 38/34 pants!! Not an XL top!!
    napanda69 napanda69
    56-60, T
    Nov 30, 2015

    Im 22 and starting hormones on Friday 1.

    9.15. My family isn't to supportive and are only thinking about the negative outcomes of my transition. Sometimes i feel alone and it upsets me knowing they won't accept my changes. My dysphoria is really bad and these comments make life even harder. Everyone i know is...
    Jaydenlee Jaydenlee
    22-25, T
    1 Response Jan 6, 2015

    I am becoming a boy more

    and more everyday.:D I change my name of Facebook, I told everyone on Facebook I'm transgender. I bind with ace banged it hurts my back alots but I'm okay with that.:D I am buying a binder when I get paid for my job. Life is good. He's a pic of me binding.(: thanks for reading...
    SpideyKid1999 SpideyKid1999
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jul 31, 2014
    N1kaFa0lchu N1kaFa0lchu
    3 Responses Apr 5, 2016

    Being a Transgender FTM

    Before going through my story, i would like you to understand what is it. So plz do some research on this topic. We are born with different soul in different body. I am Male in Female body. For me i am normal as anyother man. I feel the same as anyother man would feel. I behave...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses May 8, 2009

    Im Scared To Come Out.

    Im 14 years old and im a FTM transgender, yeah i know I'm still young but i think i would know what gender i am. I have felt like this ever since i was little. At a young age i found myself always playing with the guys and not wanting a shirt on. I have always been a cross...
    SpideyKid1999 SpideyKid1999
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Oct 2, 2013

    I was upset about my hips the other day

    and my best friend was telling me I should learn to love them. She doesn't know I'm trans. Last time I updated her, she knew I was questioning my gender. But it's been quite a while since then and I think I need to tell her soon that I'm trans. It's frustrating that she doesn't...
    starling156 starling156
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 30, 2015

    I am currently casting

    for a very exciting and inspirational show which will follow people as they vow to make the biggest transformation of their lives. Specifically, we are looking for transgender people who want to make the transition. We are also interested in hearing other types of compelling...
    Sweiner45 Sweiner45
    26-30, F
    Jan 6, 2016

    I'm at a weird point right now.

    If I had to summarize my feelings, it looks ironic - I need a talk. I'm in my early thirties. Post-transition for 7 years. On HRT, had one surgery and docs changed. Socialized as a man. I've spend 10 years in an active intercourse with transgender community (online and in vivo...
    elmaria4i elmaria4i
    31-35, M
    Jan 9, 2016
    MrJoshMH MrJoshMH
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 26, 2014

    I am trans. I have thought long

    and hard plenty of times before about being a guy and wishing I was one but now I know that I am a boy on the inside. I think I always knew, but I was just trying to fit in with the other girls. I have put a lot of thought into what I want and I really want to be a boy. I want...
    Alexander401 Alexander401
    18-21, T
    10 Responses Apr 28, 2014

    So i dont know if this is allowed

    but I would love to chat with you guys and maybe we could give some advice to one another ftom and mtof
    silveradozboyz silveradozboyz
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2016

    okay, first off all, "tranny" is an insult.

    If you are transgender/transsexual and using it you are insulting yourself. just say "ftm" or "mtf", its simple af. secondly I am ftm or demiboy. -trying to figure out- and I want all people to know its not a "rare" situation. I don't want to hear "trans' started to "popping out...
    darklotus01 darklotus01
    13-15, T
    Feb 18, 2016

    I realized that a friend of mines brother is

    how I want to look!! He's so cool.
    napanda69 napanda69
    56-60, T
    Nov 29, 2015

    Why Do I Continue To Be Me???

    Here I am a black convicted felon middle aged male from the west slums of Chicago. I'm the oldest of nine children, a combination of genes from two drug addicted people who didn't live past the tender ages of 40. God created me for what? I was subjected to a world of numberous...
    swhite97 swhite97
    Apr 11, 2013

    I got my assessment for T done last Friday

    and was diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria. I'm hoping the endochrinologist finds nothing wrong and gives me the hormones in good enough doses. The only thing bugging me is I need to get laid and can't find men who are attracted to FTMs lol. I know....TMI. Maybe when I'm more...
    nukemhi nukemhi
    31-35, F
    Mar 6, 2016

    I Need To Come Out To My Parents as (Transgender FTM)

    Hello, i'm 14 years old and im a Transgender FTM, Nobody knows except for my close friend, i just told her last week, and she's pretty much accepting and really ok with it! nothing changed between us, we're still as close as ever and accepts me for who i am =). The Problem is...
    levinel levinel
    13-15, T
    13 Responses Mar 31, 2012

    I have been battling with myself

    since I was 3..I never felt like the little girl I was. I exclusively hung out with mostly boys and to this day I relate more to men than women. I still have dreams where I wake up and I'm a male. then I wake up for real then I'm mad the whole day. I still need to come out to my...
    nukemhi nukemhi
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 11, 2016

    Last Sunday I think I made the worst decision

    of my life. First off, Im 25, living with my mom, and not out to her, but to some friends yes. I'm 5 feet tall only. Lately I've been really struggling with dysphoria. Last Sunday, my mom and I we were having fun by singing songs after a few drinks..... I don't know why did...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Dec 1, 2015

    hello. my birth name is kiersten

    but i go by skylar. i'm 20 yrs old. so i told my mom about me being tran FtM and i think i regret that so much, i did it over email, since we live in different states now and i'm not going to fly there to explain that her oldest daughter wants to change into a boy. i mean i...
    skylar1994 skylar1994
    22-25, T
    1 Response Dec 12, 2014

    Went out like this today.

    Finally got the courage to go out with some family dressed the way I like
    littleyaya littleyaya
    18-21, T
    4 Responses May 27, 2014

    I'm going shopping for clothes

    and cologne tomorrow!!!
    napanda69 napanda69
    56-60, T
    Nov 29, 2015

    I've had so many days off from school

    for the one reason of not being comfortable at all with anything. I can't eat I can't sleep it just hurts. I just feel bad because it doesn't seem to be a legitimate reason in my head and I just need a reason to say in my head that its okay. I need to have a legitimate reason to...
    AlexBurchatt AlexBurchatt
    16-17, T
    1 Response Aug 19, 2015

    I'm almost in sock I'm looking at this screen

    with all my doubt's existing yet at the same time starting to become nothing as if creating dust. At the moment all i want is HRT and it's really hard because her i am waiting for my brain to let go of the doubts so i can be free. Over and over again i could type this but this...
    CosmicEvan CosmicEvan
    22-25, T
    Jan 6, 2016

    Trans Fears

    Back in 2011 I had a private conversation with a cisgendered woman on this site. At the time she had an interest in getting to know what transgendered / transsexual people were really like and because I had extended a welcome for people to contact me if they had any questions on...
    MartyMcFly MartyMcFly
    26-30, T
    Aug 14, 2013

    I have been close to self harm SO many times.

    These things are here I don't need. There are things that I DO need that are missing. I cut my hair and am trying to pass as much as I can, but everyone knows I was a girl. I'm just thinking on cutting, but I know I can't. I gotta stay strong. I ain't ever giving up on my life...
    SilkDreams SilkDreams
    26-30, T
    2 Responses Feb 8, 2016

    hey..any one real ftm.

    .would love to talk..i m a womanly sisy guy..like to offer my wife..pm me
    didimoni didimoni
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 19, 2016

    Support At Graduation :)

    Early in the school yea we were asked to write down the name that we wanted to appear on our Middle School Diploma, at that time I wasn't out, so I wrote down my birth name. Then, before graduation I asked the principal if they could read off a different name for me. The...
    NeonPanda03 NeonPanda03
    13-15, T
    5 Responses Jul 12, 2013

    Ftm Story, Need Help Coming Out

    Hey everyone, I was online looking up stories on other ftm-transgendered people and came across a story on here so I read it and other stories as well then I decided to join the website so here I am. I am 15 and I am ftm-transgender. I am only out to my best friend who is amazing...
    Simplyhuman97 Simplyhuman97
    13-15, T
    4 Responses Nov 4, 2012

    So as I make the outer transformation I wonder

    if my hairstyle and choice of hair color is hindering my believability...it's cut short but edgy and bleached beachy blonde...I'm wondering if my cut was a tiny bit more masculine and I let my natural color grow in...
    napanda69 napanda69
    56-60, T
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2015

    I can't find a binder

    that fits!!! Either too small or too big!! I've ordered and returned 2...still no binder. Seriously! Why can't we buy these at a store like everything else!?
    napanda69 napanda69
    56-60, T
    Dec 12, 2015

    Hey! My names ... well its

    either Han, Koda, Rhys and/ or Max. Or any other name I have no clue. Im pre everything and Im just in the mood for meeting new FTM guys.
    Maxaimillion Maxaimillion
    18-21, T
    3 Responses Dec 1, 2015

    I got called 'sir' at the McDonald's drive

    through. Surprised the hell out of me because I am not on T and my voice is not that masculine. I was also driving a pt cruiser- the ultimate chick mobile. It made my day, though. I am in my early 30s and worry that I'll never be able to transition. My family would not accept...
    robotrobotrobot robotrobotrobot
    36-40, T
    1 Response Sep 24, 2014

    kind of depressing...

    its kind of depressing when you see other guys are transitioning, making appointment, starting T, making updates on T, bloging about being on T, post-op updates, posting videos, selfies and on and on. and you are still there where you was just waiting to start that new journey...
    sidd73 sidd73
    22-25, M
    3 Responses May 10, 2013

    I've shared my transition with several very

    close friends and not a single one was judging!! My lesbian bff was the most surprised. She said she always saw me as girly girl, which just shows how well I hid my true self.
    napanda69 napanda69
    56-60, T
    2 Responses Nov 29, 2015

    Story Of My Life: Living Blue in a Pink World

    As a girl playing house was a requirement. It was a fight to see who would be mommy. Daddy seemed like a better option to me, as they got to do all the neat stuff. Playing house was simple when we were young. No one cared that a girl was playing daddy because someone had to do...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 10, 2015

    Gender Rant Of My High School Coming Out To Self As A College Freshman

    Mother's day. Dinner.. got a flower for being.. a female. Wanted to refuse it. Wanted to explain. Silence. I got home from a dinner I was invited to... brushed away my door-curtains, and just stared in the mirror.. I saw me. Male. But it was dark but this self-truth was good...
    AidenJ AidenJ
    Apr 25, 2013
    oftenunconscious oftenunconscious
    22-25, T
    1 Response Mar 3, 2016

    I Am Trans'... I Am A Person.

    So, hi everyone. My name is Matt, I'm ftm-transgender. So, let's get started. All my life, I've always played with the boys and wished more than anything throughout my entire childhood that I could just wear pants like them and cut my hair. My mom is a very strict Christian...
    luminescentdanger luminescentdanger
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2012

    Maybe someday i'll jot down the story i used to

    say to many things. But this time there isn't much of a story other then i'm a guy a guy who had to really look inside to realize simply being called "Evan or he" has become my smile.
    CosmicEvan CosmicEvan
    22-25, T
    Jan 6, 2016

    Omg! I called my sister today

    and came out!! I'm so relieved. Now I'm free to transition with no hesitations or secrets.
    napanda69 napanda69
    56-60, T
    Dec 11, 2015

    My Name is Zayden & i'm 16 years old

    and i'm a transguy whose pre-everything i just want to talk to people who are nice and supportive straight or transgender & i'm currently in HS so its putting alot of stress on me lately and i'm a junior so i graduate in 2015 but idk if i'll graduate due to me missing alot of...
    smoshx8dd smoshx8dd
    18-21, T
    6 Responses Dec 17, 2013

    Hello everyone I'm Alex

    and I'm 14 years old. Life has been getting pretty hard on me. The more I'm getting older, the more my breast grow, and the more I get aroused in a female matter really makes me sad. I know I am a boy. But sadly I have to live as a girl. I've tried to come out as a transgender...
    SpideyKid1999 SpideyKid1999
    18-21, M
    8 Responses Apr 13, 2014
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