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I Am a Transgender Ftm

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    kind of depressing...

    its kind of depressing when you see other guys are transitioning, making appointment, starting T, making updates on T, bloging about being on T, post-op updates, posting videos, selfies and on and on. and you are still there where you was just waiting to start that new journey...
    sidd73 sidd73 22-25, M 3 Responses May 10, 2013

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    "This Is My Daughter."

    I can't stand hearing that. It embarrasses me and makes me feel so awkward. I'm told I don't look like a girl at all, so when my mom tells people she just meets "My daughter. . . *looks at me*", or "She's my 3rd child." or "This is my daughter.", its so... weird. I get weird...
    luminescentdanger luminescentdanger 22-25, T 5 Responses May 8, 2013

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    I am trans. I have thought long

    and hard plenty of times before about being a guy and wishing I was one but now I know that I am a boy on the inside. I think I always knew, but I was just trying to fit in with the other girls. I have put a lot of thought into what I want and I really want to be a boy. I want...
    jules401 jules401 13-15, T 9 Responses Apr 28, 2014

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    I have always for a long,

    long time wanted to be called he and handsome and pass as male. the feelings of my desires became more and more strong as I went through middle school and high school. I joined my schools GSA, which stands for Gay Straight Alliance. we worked on making the school more safe for...
    migraine94 migraine94 18-21, T Aug 15, 2014

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    Ok i'm so sick of having to be a girl

    for everyone else cause i know i'm a boy inside.!!! Why can't people just exept that i'm not female nor will ever be. my dumb family wants to threat me like a girl but forget it!--i will never be a woman! i'm a boy and i won't change that,i can't change that, CAUSE BABY I WAS...
    Mihael122 Mihael122 18-21, T 3 Responses Aug 5, 2014

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    I got called 'sir' at the McDonald's drive

    through. Surprised the hell out of me because I am not on T and my voice is not that masculine. I was also driving a pt cruiser- the ultimate chick mobile. It made my day, though. I am in my early 30s and worry that I'll never be able to transition. My family would not accept...
    robotrobotrobot robotrobotrobot 31-35, T 1 Response Sep 24, 2014

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    Unintentionally told another friend on NYE,

    and they were a friend I thought would be very unsupportive. Luckily, she was exactly the opposite. Now got 2 friends by my side. BTW I'm telling my parents in March before our summer shopping so when we do go to buy clothes for me they can be boy clothes and we will have to...
    Delracman Delracman 13-15 2 Responses Jan 2

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    I would like too meet any other people with

    similarities as me. I believe I should have been born male but I have a boyfriend and I don't want to change because I love him so much. I guess I'm happy as female but would rather be male.
    Shorthairgirl97 Shorthairgirl97 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    I'm going to be going out in public with my

    chest bound for the first time today... It's a little nerve wracking, because I often feel like I'm being stared at anyway, but at the same time, it's really exciting.
    beingbrye beingbrye 22-25, T 3 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    My friend came out to me today

    as being lgbt, which made me feel a lot better about coming out. My parents still don't know, but I have at least one supporter behind my back. We each have each other while we're going through this.
    Delracman Delracman 13-15 1 Response Dec 22, 2014

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    Y'know...Stuff.

    A'ight bros. My name is Caleb but Cal is fine. I am a shy guy in real life; I don't have any friends so if you want to chat just hit me up. I am fourteen-years-old and I am from the United Kingdom. I like games, comics, tumblr, Photoshop and comedy. I am pre-t and pre-op but I...
    Calizard Calizard 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 3, 2013

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    Told two more friends today,

    both of which are supportive. I said I was telling my parents in March, but now I kind of want to tell them now, so I'm at least telling my mom on Monday, and then I'll figure out when to tell my dad.
    Delracman Delracman 13-15 1 Response Jan 3

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    I Am Trans'... I Am A Person.

    So, hi everyone. My name is Matt, I'm ftm-transgender. So, let's get started. All my life, I've always played with the boys and wished more than anything throughout my entire childhood that I could just wear pants like them and cut my hair. My mom is a very strict Christian...
    luminescentdanger luminescentdanger 22-25, T 2 Responses Oct 30, 2012

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    (No i did not have a sex change) I like girls

    and only girls, girls message me only ages of 14-22 NO MALES
    kbforlife kbforlife 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 26, 2014

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    hi everyone I'm an ftm transgender

    but I haven't came out yet. I have been depressed for such a long time now and getting even more depressed each day. I need to come out but don't know how to. I need someone to speak to. to anyone who has came out or is going to come do u have any advice on coming out
    AaJjbeanie AaJjbeanie 16-17, T 7 Responses Dec 7, 2014

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    ftmFreddy ftmFreddy 18-21, T 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Being a Transgender FTM

    Before going through my story, i would like you to understand what is it. So plz do some research on this topic. We are born with different soul in different body. I am Male in Female body. For me i am normal as anyother man. I feel the same as anyother man would feel. I behave...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 8, 2009

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    Im 22 and starting hormones on Friday 1.

    9.15. My family isn't to supportive and are only thinking about the negative outcomes of my transition. Sometimes i feel alone and it upsets me knowing they won't accept my changes. My dysphoria is really bad and these comments make life even harder. Everyone i know is...
    Jaydenlee Jaydenlee 22-25, T 2 Responses Jan 6

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    I am becoming a boy more

    and more everyday.:D I change my name of Facebook, I told everyone on Facebook I'm transgender. I bind with ace banged it hurts my back alots but I'm okay with that.:D I am buying a binder when I get paid for my job. Life is good. He's a pic of me binding.(: thanks for reading...
    crazyhyperkid crazyhyperkid 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 31, 2014

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    I have a New Years resolution,

    like many people out there, but unlike the others, I think it is actually going to happen. I am ready. By the end of this year, I want to present as a boy, wearing boy clothing and get a short haircut, and get on puberty blockers. I would wish for T also, but that's probably...
    Delracman Delracman 13-15 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I feel like I am very active today with sharing.

    I had already before hand set a date/time to when I am going to request a gender identity investigation, but.. not really to any suprise I am already questioning if I can last living like nobody know ME for another year? I had a plan of when I graduate in 8 monthes I would...
    BlackNekoIIIX BlackNekoIIIX 18-21 Oct 5, 2014

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    For transmen out there

    who have started on T, how long was it from your first appointment to your first shot of T? I'm just wondering because I want to predict how far out I'll finally be able to start. Thanks.
    Delracman Delracman 13-15 Jan 1

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    MrJoshMH MrJoshMH 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 26, 2014

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    Feeling terrified right now.

    I plan on starting gender therapy soon and asking the therapist to explain to my mother what I apparently can't. How will she react when she has to accept it? Will she hate me? She claims to love me no matter what. No matter what. It's not bad to be lgbt. What's bad is that we...
    ftmFreddy ftmFreddy 18-21, T 3 Responses Jan 1

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    I've been considering

    and considering, deciding, "is this just a phase? I must be crazy, I just learned about this, no way". Until I came here. I read a bunch of stories about transgenders here, which gave me a new perspective. All the transgender documentaries featured kids who knew that they were...
    Delracman Delracman 13-15 1 Response Dec 1, 2014

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    Hello everyone I'm Alex

    and I'm 14 years old. Life has been getting pretty hard on me. The more I'm getting older, the more my breast grow, and the more I get aroused in a female matter really makes me sad. I know I am a boy. But sadly I have to live as a girl. I've tried to come out as a transgender...
    crazyhyperkid crazyhyperkid 18-21, M 6 Responses Apr 13, 2014

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    I am getting my binder soon

    and I can't wait ^-^
    littlepetboy littlepetboy 16-17, T 3 Responses Jan 9

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    hello. my birth name is kiersten

    but i go by skylar. i'm 20 yrs old. so i told my mom about me being tran FtM and i think i regret that so much, i did it over email, since we live in different states now and i'm not going to fly there to explain that her oldest daughter wants to change into a boy. i mean i...
    skylar1994 skylar1994 18-21, T 3 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    Gender Rant Of My High School Coming Out To Self As A College Freshman

    Mother's day. Dinner.. got a flower for being.. a female. Wanted to refuse it. Wanted to explain. Silence. I got home from a dinner I was invited to... brushed away my door-curtains, and just stared in the mirror.. I saw me. Male. But it was dark but this self-truth was good...
    AidenJ AidenJ 22-25 Apr 25, 2013

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    I am ready to come out to my parents,

    but I don't know how. Any suggestions? I have just been so depressed lately, and I'm sure my parents want me to be happy, so I don't know why I'm afraid, but I am. And since we're 2 days from Christmas, I'm sure everyone spent hundreds of dollars on girls clothes for me, only to...
    Delracman Delracman 13-15 2 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    I just want to have the right body

    so bad! I seriously hope I don't have to wait long after my first gender therapy session to start transitioning.
    ftmFreddy ftmFreddy 18-21, T 5 Responses Jan 9

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    Support At Graduation :)

    Early in the school yea we were asked to write down the name that we wanted to appear on our Middle School Diploma, at that time I wasn't out, so I wrote down my birth name. Then, before graduation I asked the principal if they could read off a different name for me. The...
    NeonPanda03 NeonPanda03 13-15, T 4 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    holy ******* ****, my sister might be getting

    me a binder!!!! I've been wanting one of always 3 years. I can't breath, I can't think straight, this is amazing. -alyx
    crazyhyperkid crazyhyperkid 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 11

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    okay hi, so I kind of just started my

    transition. I have come out to a handful of people as well as my family (who is very unaccepting. they call my by my birth name which is sunny, the refer to me with female pronouns, they won't let me cut my hair or buy a binder) but my friends call me by sam and use the pronouns...
    empttyspace empttyspace 13-15, T 2 Responses Sep 14, 2014

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    Some days I feel like I can bearly take it

    anymore. I have been gone in myself for awhile I guess, I remember when I told Ve.. about me, and out of the blue for a couple weeks she always called me Alexsander, even if she was the only one I had told yet, and she still called me Alexsander at school and in the city, I didn...
    BlackNekoIIIX BlackNekoIIIX 18-21 Oct 5, 2014

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    Okay, no offense to any women out there,

    but seriously, one of many reasons why I just want to use the men's bathroom- I just hate it when women spend over two hours in the bathroom fixing their mascara or lipstick, or making sure that their shirt doesn't have a stain on it. Again, not trying to offend anyone, but i...
    Delracman Delracman 13-15 Dec 31, 2014

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    I Need To Come Out To My Parents as (Transgender FTM)

    Hello, i'm 14 years old and im a Transgender FTM, Nobody knows except for my close friend, i just told her last week, and she's pretty much accepting and really ok with it! nothing changed between us, we're still as close as ever and accepts me for who i am =). The Problem is...
    levinel levinel 13-15, T 11 Responses Mar 31, 2012

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    Story Of My Life: Living Blue in a Pink World

    As a girl playing house was a requirement. It was a fight to see who would be mommy. Daddy seemed like a better option to me, as they got to do all the neat stuff. Playing house was simple when we were young. No one cared that a girl was playing daddy because someone had to do...
    Liamftm Liamftm 16-17, M Jan 10

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    Ftm Story, Need Help Coming Out

    Hey everyone, I was online looking up stories on other ftm-transgendered people and came across a story on here so I read it and other stories as well then I decided to join the website so here I am. I am 15 and I am ftm-transgender. I am only out to my best friend who is amazing...
    Simplyhuman97 Simplyhuman97 13-15, T 4 Responses Nov 4, 2012

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    "Self made man" sounds more beautiful

    and appropriate than "transman" I feel...
    sidd73 sidd73 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 27, 2014

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    Hey (: I'm Jesse 17

    and FTM I would love some advice on how to pay for all this I want to start surgery as soon as possible. So like once I turn 18 and I have no idea what to do or who the best surgeon is. Where to go to get it done. I don't know much. I would just love some tips, advice, criticism...
    jesse99332211 jesse99332211 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 13, 2013

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    I've been through a lot researching about T

    boosters and i really need an advice about this. I'm starting to think of going to transition and as of now I don't think i can afford going to a therapist/ doctor and get the hormone. So I'm thinking if i could start with T-boosters.. I got into a lot of forum and searches...
    tearyEyesko tearyEyesko 26-30 Aug 16, 2014

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    Went out like this today.

    Finally got the courage to go out with some family dressed the way I like
    littleyaya littleyaya 13-15, T 4 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Today one of my friends

    and I were talking about lesbians, and we talked a bit about transgenders. I didn't come out to her, I just said I knew a lot about the subject and that I prefered boy clothes and that I wanted to cut my hair. From our conversation though, I don't think she would be very...
    Delracman Delracman 13-15 1 Response Dec 5, 2014

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    Well I attempted to tell my parents.

    . Yeah... No. Didn't work. At all. They weren't unsupportive, they were just too ******* stupid to deal with. Basically, they think its impossible and that I'm gay and just don't want to accept it.
    CanYouHearTheSilence CanYouHearTheSilence 13-15, T 1 Response Jan 2

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    My Name is Zayden & i'm 16 years old

    and i'm a transguy whose pre-everything i just want to talk to people who are nice and supportive straight or transgender & i'm currently in HS so its putting alot of stress on me lately and i'm a junior so i graduate in 2015 but idk if i'll graduate due to me missing alot of...
    smoshx8dd smoshx8dd 16-17, T 7 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    The day my life is compleat,

    is the day my mom looks me in the eyes and says, 'I accept you and love you as my son.' Please can that day come sooner? -Alyxander
    crazyhyperkid crazyhyperkid 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    My voice is deeper than most girls

    and I haven't transitioned yet. Does this happen to anyone else?
    ftmFreddy ftmFreddy 18-21, T 3 Responses Nov 3, 2014

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    Why Do I Continue To Be Me???

    Here I am a black convicted felon middle aged male from the west slums of Chicago. I'm the oldest of nine children, a combination of genes from two drug addicted people who didn't live past the tender ages of 40. God created me for what? I was subjected to a world of numberous...
    swhite97 swhite97 36-40 Apr 11, 2013

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    I am in the process of ftm

    and am half way there with certain parts being already done but I'm realizing I am happy with the way I look now after having phalloplasty. I really enjoy being the way I am and find I'm happier now than I've ever been.
    tsmar tsmar 26-30, T 2 Responses Mar 27, 2014

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    Lately I have identified myself

    as gender queer, as I started to wear clothes assigned to boys I realized how I was ridiculously uncomfortable being a girl. I noticed how natural it felt to be a boy, and how good I felt. My significant other, at the time had also identified as gender fluid. I took note in the...
    xMayesx xMayesx 16-17, M 3 Responses May 10, 2014

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