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I Am a Transgender Ftm

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    Trans Fears

    Back in 2011 I had a private conversation with a cisgendered woman on this site. At the time she had an interest in getting to know what transgendered / transsexual people were really like and because I had extended a welcome for people to contact me if they had any questions on...
    MartyMcFly MartyMcFly 22-25, T Aug 14, 2013

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    Went out like this today.

    Finally got the courage to go out with some family dressed the way I like
    littleyaya littleyaya 16-17, T 4 Responses May 27, 2014

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    I just found out that I'm going to be getting a

    binder through a youth binder program! I am so excited and hopeful that this will help. Any tips for someone new to binding?
    AdventureJunkie89 AdventureJunkie89 22-25, M Jul 7

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    I realized I was different in the fourth

    grade—also known as the worst year of my life. During that time, I had a small group of female friends who were all pretty girly in one way or another, and that latched onto me. We talked about boys, makeup, etc... I tried to act extra-girly just to fit in. We talked about...
    raisetherainbowflag raisetherainbowflag 13-15, T 4 Responses Jun 28

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    I have always for a long,

    long time wanted to be called he and handsome and pass as male. the feelings of my desires became more and more strong as I went through middle school and high school. I joined my schools GSA, which stands for Gay Straight Alliance. we worked on making the school more safe for...
    migraine94 migraine94 18-21, T Aug 15, 2014

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    Y'know...Stuff.

    A'ight bros. My name is Caleb but Cal is fine. I am a shy guy in real life; I don't have any friends so if you want to chat just hit me up. I am fourteen-years-old and I am from the United Kingdom. I like games, comics, tumblr, Photoshop and comedy. I am pre-t and pre-op but I...
    Calizard Calizard 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 3, 2013

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    people are really harsh to say they are

    straight when even tho I'm trans I still am straight
    thelastlostboy thelastlostboy 13-15, T 1 Response Jun 21

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    "Self made man" sounds more beautiful

    and appropriate than "transman" I feel...
    sidd73 sidd73 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 27, 2014

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    Ok i'm so sick of having to be a girl

    for everyone else cause i know i'm a boy inside.!!! Why can't people just exept that i'm not female nor will ever be. my dumb family wants to threat me like a girl but forget it!--i will never be a woman! i'm a boy and i won't change that,i can't change that, CAUSE BABY I WAS...
    Mihael122 Mihael122 18-21, T 3 Responses Aug 5, 2014

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    Hello I'm Judicaël (or Jude),

    I will turn 18 in august and my family does not really know that I'm trans even though I did come out ; they just do not want to hear about it. I have been binding my chest since the age of 16 and it helped a lot to bear up till now. I came out to my friends, they are ok with...
    Judicael Judicael 18-21, T Jul 27

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    I told my mom, but she just laughs

    and calls it ridiculous. My friends care, my Google+ friends care, and I care. I have always wanted to be a male, and I feel like being a guy makes me happy. Although some days, I'm just gonna be, slightly girly...
    NathanJonathan NathanJonathan 13-15, T 1 Response Jul 28

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    I am becoming a boy more

    and more everyday.:D I change my name of Facebook, I told everyone on Facebook I'm transgender. I bind with ace banged it hurts my back alots but I'm okay with that.:D I am buying a binder when I get paid for my job. Life is good. He's a pic of me binding.(: thanks for reading...
    SpideyAlyx SpideyAlyx 16-17, M 4 Responses Jul 31, 2014

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    hello. my birth name is kiersten

    but i go by skylar. i'm 20 yrs old. so i told my mom about me being tran FtM and i think i regret that so much, i did it over email, since we live in different states now and i'm not going to fly there to explain that her oldest daughter wants to change into a boy. i mean i...
    skylar1994 skylar1994 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    Story Of My Life: Living Blue in a Pink World

    As a girl playing house was a requirement. It was a fight to see who would be mommy. Daddy seemed like a better option to me, as they got to do all the neat stuff. Playing house was simple when we were young. No one cared that a girl was playing daddy because someone had to do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 10

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    Im Scared To Come Out.

    Im 14 years old and im a FTM transgender, yeah i know I'm still young but i think i would know what gender i am. I have felt like this ever since i was little. At a young age i found myself always playing with the guys and not wanting a shirt on. I have always been a cross...
    SpideyAlyx SpideyAlyx 16-17, M 4 Responses Oct 2, 2013

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    I knew i was actually a boy

    since i was 3 years old. All my friends were boys and i thought i was one until i was told i was a girl. I hated the fact that i were a girl and had to wear dresses and stuff. I was afraid to tell anyone about how i felt until 2 years ago when i told my only best friend. He...
    Cocaholic Cocaholic 16-17, T Jun 23

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    I just found out my college's insurance

    now covers "gender identity disorder coverage" I think that's pretty cool
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 26

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    The day my life is compleat,

    is the day my mom looks me in the eyes and says, 'I accept you and love you as my son.' Please can that day come sooner? -Alyxander
    SpideyAlyx SpideyAlyx 16-17, M 4 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    My ftm transgender story keeps getting taken

    down... I've typed it twice now
    elijahstheman elijahstheman 13-15, T 2 Responses Aug 20

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    and I haven't came out yet,

    but something cool happened. I was at the dentist and another dentist/woman idk came and they were talking and she called me by 'he'. That felt so great. I'm pre everything, this is a miracle haha.
    m4ct4vish m4ct4vish 16-17, T 1 Response Jul 13

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    I haven't gone on testosterone,

    but so far, I can go into the male bathrooms in public without a second glance. I just go in and get the hell out of there. It's a shame it has to be like this but, it is my new life after all. To top it all off, I want to find someone who genuinely cares about people like me...
    ascherlukas ascherlukas 16-17, T Jul 31

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    My Name is Zayden & i'm 16 years old

    and i'm a transguy whose pre-everything i just want to talk to people who are nice and supportive straight or transgender & i'm currently in HS so its putting alot of stress on me lately and i'm a junior so i graduate in 2015 but idk if i'll graduate due to me missing alot of...
    smoshx8dd smoshx8dd 18-21, T 7 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    I've been considering

    and considering, deciding, "is this just a phase? I must be crazy, I just learned about this, no way". Until I came here. I read a bunch of stories about transgenders here, which gave me a new perspective. All the transgender documentaries featured kids who knew that they were...
    Delracman Delracman 13-15 1 Response Dec 1, 2014

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    Not being out the closet's getting

    so damn hard. Dysphoria has been there, constantly, and to add more crap to the entire mix, I could be homeless by the morning, because I couldn't bite my tongue in an arguement with my mother's boyfriend. Nothing seems worth it at all right now, and I usually hate to ramble...
    Adeveruax Adeveruax 16-17, T 1 Response Jun 4

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    Idk really what to write.

    Last times I felt lonely.. I can't really speak to somebody here about my feelings. I'm going to a new school, which starts in 9 days and I either want to go, but at the other side not. Idk will people (except the people I already know) talk to me or not. And, not that I care or...
    m4ct4vish m4ct4vish 16-17, T Aug 22

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    My husband didn't want to go meet our friends

    at the local gay bar. There was a show. I hadn't been out since before my transition. I was self conscious. I still am. But I went anyways. I met my buddy and we chatted in short bursts around the loud music. There were drag performers and boys running around in their underwear...
    victorytothebold victorytothebold 26-30 Jun 26

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    KolbiLiam KolbiLiam 22-25, T 3 Responses Jun 5

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    I am going through a tough time right now.

    It so hard being in the closet for over a year,not even telling anyone. What do I do if I want to start to transition into the guy I have always wanted to be?
    dogssing dogssing 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Does anyone else have second guesses about

    being FTM? I really feel like this is who I should be but then I question if I'm over reacting to my feelings, pushing things to far, or just trying to be different. I don't know what I am.
    ocdfun123 ocdfun123 16-17 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    http://m.bookemon.com/book-profile/the-shadows-arising/165803 If you click on this link, it will take you to a book I wrote a few years ago, "The Shadows Arising". It has become pretty popular and has gotten many good reviews. It is $20, yes, but if you buy the book $10 are put...
    novaftmpride novaftmpride 16-17, T Jul 27

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    Hello everyone I'm Alex

    and I'm 14 years old. Life has been getting pretty hard on me. The more I'm getting older, the more my breast grow, and the more I get aroused in a female matter really makes me sad. I know I am a boy. But sadly I have to live as a girl. I've tried to come out as a transgender...
    SpideyAlyx SpideyAlyx 16-17, M 6 Responses Apr 13, 2014

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    Lately I have identified myself

    as gender queer, as I started to wear clothes assigned to boys I realized how I was ridiculously uncomfortable being a girl. I noticed how natural it felt to be a boy, and how good I felt. My significant other, at the time had also identified as gender fluid. I took note in the...
    xMayesx xMayesx 16-17, M 3 Responses May 10, 2014

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    I got called 'sir' at the McDonald's drive

    through. Surprised the hell out of me because I am not on T and my voice is not that masculine. I was also driving a pt cruiser- the ultimate chick mobile. It made my day, though. I am in my early 30s and worry that I'll never be able to transition. My family would not accept...
    robotrobotrobot robotrobotrobot 31-35, T 1 Response Sep 24, 2014

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    Im 22 and starting hormones on Friday 1.

    9.15. My family isn't to supportive and are only thinking about the negative outcomes of my transition. Sometimes i feel alone and it upsets me knowing they won't accept my changes. My dysphoria is really bad and these comments make life even harder. Everyone i know is...
    Jaydenlee Jaydenlee 22-25, T 1 Response Jan 6

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    I've had so many days off from school

    for the one reason of not being comfortable at all with anything. I can't eat I can't sleep it just hurts. I just feel bad because it doesn't seem to be a legitimate reason in my head and I just need a reason to say in my head that its okay. I need to have a legitimate reason to...
    AlexBurchatt AlexBurchatt 13-15, T 1 Response Aug 19

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    Would like to talk to ftm transgender,

    also interested in activity
    sisman19 sisman19 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 5

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    Hey (: I'm Jesse 17

    and FTM I would love some advice on how to pay for all this I want to start surgery as soon as possible. So like once I turn 18 and I have no idea what to do or who the best surgeon is. Where to go to get it done. I don't know much. I would just love some tips, advice, criticism...
    jesse99332211 jesse99332211 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 13, 2013

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    Hi, my name is James (you can also call me

    Bryan, but I prefer James, my middle name). I am recently out as FtM transgender. I need a bit of advice. I'm 16, and I have been delaying getting my learners permit for quite some time now. This is because I haven't yet had my name or gender legally changed, and don't want to...
    BryanJ99 BryanJ99 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 17

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    Hi, my name is cris. I live in milwaukee

    wisconsin and I would like to meet other FTMs in the area. thanks
    Cdhazzey Cdhazzey 41-45, T Jul 20

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    Support At Graduation :)

    Early in the school yea we were asked to write down the name that we wanted to appear on our Middle School Diploma, at that time I wasn't out, so I wrote down my birth name. Then, before graduation I asked the principal if they could read off a different name for me. The...
    NeonPanda03 NeonPanda03 13-15, T 5 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    Ftm Story, Need Help Coming Out

    Hey everyone, I was online looking up stories on other ftm-transgendered people and came across a story on here so I read it and other stories as well then I decided to join the website so here I am. I am 15 and I am ftm-transgender. I am only out to my best friend who is amazing...
    Simplyhuman97 Simplyhuman97 13-15, T 5 Responses Nov 4, 2012

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    "This Is My Daughter."

    I can't stand hearing that. It embarrasses me and makes me feel so awkward. I'm told I don't look like a girl at all, so when my mom tells people she just meets "My daughter. . . *looks at me*", or "She's my 3rd child." or "This is my daughter.", its so... weird. I get weird...
    luminescentdanger luminescentdanger 22-25, T 4 Responses May 8, 2013

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    I actually need some advice about coming out.

    . I'm 16 now and I really want to tell my parents and maybe closest friends about how I feel. I thought about a letter and someone recommended me to come out by texting parents/friends. I hope someone is reading this, what do you think?
    m4ct4vish m4ct4vish 16-17, T 2 Responses Jul 13

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    Just because in a Female on the outside doesn't

    mean i'm just that on the inside.
    xMariKunx xMariKunx 13-15, T 14 hrs ago

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    I've been using different names at Starbucks

    when they write my name on the cup. I've been using my middle name mostly because it's gender neutral. I want to go by my middle name for now but I wonder if I'll use a completely new name after I come out.
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 31

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    I would so LOVE to find a relationship with a

    FtM. I would love to be in a female led relationship, a long term relationship. I wish I knew the words I need to write here, I have so much to say but the words escape me.
    louannatg louannatg 51-55, T 3 Responses Jul 17